I'm just starting out this "gay lifestyle". Long story short: I got drunk last friday and went on grindr and slept with this older guy.
Now he called my phone and I don't want to pick up because I'm ashamed(because of the way he looks, and his age). I thought NSA was implied. Fuck now I'm having anxiety, what if he's a psycho?
How do I deal with this, I just don't have the mental strength and energy to deal with any bullshit.
please respond
Anyone been in a similar situation? What did you do?
I'm too good damn paranoid for NSA hookups.
>>7143518
omg. Could you be any more dramatic.
>>7143556
I do NSA hookups all the time, honestly its usually males 18-22ish and not older guys but like half of them u see once and never see/hear from them again
>its actually been really chill for me. I haven't really run into any creepers or anything... maybe im the creeper
>>7143614
I drunk too much so I might be having some anxiety problems at the moment. I'm also aloof person and I really don't find him facially attractive, so I'm kinda ashamed.
I should be fucking guys my own age(or girls)... but I'm too anxious to go on grindr.
I need to be a undercover brotha because I'm not sure if I'm gay or just a pervert, I don't want ruin my chances with girls by having them know I'm a gay, I also don't want people to think I'm gay when I was just in a phase of experimenting.
>>7143634
I didn't say NSA, but I thought that was implied. I want to try out different guys, I slept with him because I wanted to gain some experience and I felt that it might be safer and he would be more understanding/patient. Also, I've always had a fantasy of old/young, I'm fucked in the head like that...
>>7143636
>>7143636
>I need to be a undercover brotha because I'm not sure if I'm gay or just a pervert, I don't want ruin my chances with girls by having them know I'm a gay, I also don't want people to think I'm gay when I was just in a phase of experimenting.
So dont tell anyone u dont date. easy, btw get on grindr. say u want to be discrete or that ur bi-curious
>>7143636
> "just in a phase of experimenting" meme
Honestly, the amount of mentally unstable people that land on this board in a daily basis is staggering.
>>7143659
Why do you say I'm mentally unstable? I have mild autism, which means I'm likely to have an abnormal sexual taste/experiences.
>>7143649
I mean how many times does he call u? I mean generally if sex is good ppl want to do it again
like i said get on grindr, and maybe only message ppl ur age for a while :P i mean nothing wrong with older guys but u seem to be freaking out about it
>>7143666
Because of all the stupid shit you wrote?
> I'm not sure if I'm gay or just a pervert
What does that even mean.
> I also don't want people to think I'm gay when I was just in a phase of experimenting.
"Just a phase" is a meme. Like I said.
>>7143676
>What does that even mean.
What if I'm not sexually attracted to guys, just been conditioned into finding cocks arousing because of frequent porn use.
>"Just a phase" is a meme. Like I said
Why can't a guy just do things with other men without having it labelled? Girls get to experiment without being labelled lesbians, so why can't guys have the same privilege?
>>7143668
> I mean how many times does he call u? I mean generally if sex is good ppl want to do it again
He did it only once(but that was 2 hours ago). He seemed to really like me because he kept saying shit like "you're one of a kind... u are an incredible specimen etc etc". This is maybe how geezers talk during sex.
OP here
Now that I'm getting horny again I really want to get another go at his asshole. I feel absolutely disgusted at myself. I just jacked off thinking about how good it felt to fuck him in the ass. I never knew anal sex was so good.
If I keep up this shit there will be no going back to wanting to fuck females.
>>7143518
>"Why don't people respect gays :("
Cuz ya'll just hit it and quit it