>hetero dude
>experiment with casual sex a fair few times
>hated it
>try out masturbation
>love it
>try out sex again afterwards but it's never as enjoyable
>sex has been nothing but shallow, stressful and unenjoyable
>become completely turned off the idea of actually having a sexual experience with someone, which leads me to doubt whether I'd actually want a relationship
Is this just my autism or is there a thing for this?
>>7142722
You can label it if you want, but your "thing" is your thing. Obsession with labels in unhealthy and anti-intellectual. See a therapist.
>>7142722
asexual
> hetero
>>>/out/
>>7142722
Sex should not be stressful. I'm guessing you have interpersonal difficulties related to intimacy anxiety, emotional dysfunction, something like that. Someone like you should avoid casual sex, try to get absolutely 100% comfortable with one person through emotional intimacy before moving to physical intimacy with that person, so you can have sex with them comfortably.
>>7142930
>masturbation
>"asexual"
no, "asexual" doesn't exist unless you're a castrato or something
>>7142722
How did you... experiment?
>>7142722
it's not just you, casual sex just sucks
there are people who genuinely prefer it to having sex with someone they know but they're the minority
>>7142722
i feel you, i want a BF but i'm not too much into sex. I'm afraid that i'll never find a guy who could be in a relationship without (or with minimal) sex