Re: I'm Lost

Post "trap-mode aesthetics v2.1" pls

Ask yourself this:

Do you think it's worth it? Worth it as in continuing to keep doing it if it makes you feel comfortable.

I don't see much of a problem with it if you like it, don't think the parents would care too much if you explained it.

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>>7110142
I do have a job. But that's not relevant to this post.

I've made the post be all "me and myself" because it's just easier to write that way. I'm sure there are other people who are in the same situation as me.

>>7110148
The image is attached.

>>7110161
Oh shit ty. I was still using the old one

>>7110155
> Do you think it's worth it?
Yeah I do, if you've read my previous post you'd know... how I've been feeling.

I think it's something worth trying and seeing how I feel with it currently I'm wearing the socks and for some reason they make me feel more confident. Is that a strange thing?

>>7110185

Get a soft cozy pink blanket, doesn't require any explanation.

No, feel confident :3

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>>7110115
>>7110161
This has been on my mind for quite a long time and I'm desperately trying to suppress it.
Does your face look cute?
I feel that, if I were to do this it'd be dangerous for my mental health because it's obviously just indulging in an impossible fantasy. Like I want to go outside with cute hair and makeup and cute clothes but I can't because my face is very boyish.
For me to do this it'd be almost like seeing the glory and beauty of heaven whilst I'm in hell.

>>7110213
I can agree with you on the face thing. Most guys especially guys 20 and up. Would already have a manly face.

But desu if I wanted to fully cross dress and go out or something I would probably look into hiding my face or wearing a mask.

I know it's kinda weird to just ware a mask but there are lots of occasions where you can wear a mask without drawing strange looks to yourself. (Costume parties, cons, Halloween, etc.)

>>7110246
>where you can wear a mask without drawing strange looks to yourself. (Costume parties, cons, Halloween, etc.)
That's also gone through my mind.
I'm constantly trying to justify my feelings in a socially acceptable way. Like shaving parts of my body hair, because it'd make my soon to be muscular arms more attractive or plucking my eye brows to look more masculine, but whoops they look more feminine.
How long have you been doing it anon? Do you ever wear cute clothes outside or just in your room? Do you feel straight?

>>7110286
> How long have you been doing it anon?
Actually only started recently which is why I'm asking all these questions. (please check out the original thread for more info.)

> Do you wear cute clothes outside or just in your room?
Currently just in my room and around the house when my parents aren't home.

> Do you feel straight?
That's a tough one, but I feel Bi. I've been attracted to both guys and girls.

But I defiantly don't feel gay if that's what you're asking.

>>7110303
I also identify as bi and I'm just as fucking confused as you are or at least unsure atm.
This might be a strange question to you, but what kind of porn were/are you into? Have you ever had a sexual partner/SO?

>>7110365
Various stuff hentai, trans guys, guys (although I hate the grunts), and lesbian stuff. That's the kind of porn I'm into. x3

I've not had a sexual partner irl yet but I've done my share of private sessions with people I was interested in.

Sadly long distance relationships don't seem to stick or just don't work out.

>>7110115
JESUS CHRIST WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?! Don't you understand: it's degeneracy!?
You are throwing your life away to be a retarded bimbo dick receptacle like the kind every woman looks down upon.
It's a fetish, it's okay. It doesn't mean you're fucking gay. It's a natural fetish for a hetero to have. BUT DON'T FUCKING GIVE IN TO IT! Don't you see, it's gonna ruin your life worse than heroin would've without being nearly as enjoyable??? STOP IT, for your own sake, it's never to late. Jesus guy. The whole life is in front of you, just b... stop, ok?

You can make it work for you, whatever it is that's wrong with your life. Are you shy? Been there, everybody is. like every third guy. It's fine, just practice the skills and girls would love to jump on your dick. You don't have to go down this retarded escapist road,
LOOK. Your life is in your hands. WAKE UP and realize what you're doing to yourself. You are a MAN, a HETEROSEXUAL (or even bisexual, hell) MAN. You don't need this! It's all just retarded way our culture is shaping, but ITS NOT OKAY.

PLEASE GUY. Find your true self. You know it's not a fucking fuckhole for perverts and scum.

>>7110493
> Are you shy?
Yeah I am actually quite shy.

I guess you have a point, but the main thing I'm saying here is that I'm doing this to try it because I'm curious and would like to see if it changes me or my attitude. I would also like to see how I feel if I did start doing this and so far I feel pretty good.

The main thing for me is that I'm not planing to go on HRT or have any surgery. Going all natural exercise, diet, and vitamins. So if I decide to go back, I can.

>>7110286
>>7110246
I gotta say I've been cosplaying as female characters every con and costume party I went to for a few years.
I'm too much of a coward to go outside without the costume excuse but I think some friends are starting to see the pattern.

>>7112440
The first time some of my friends saw me in women's clothes was Halloween.
Then a few days after, still wearing women's clothes.
"Hey dude, you k ow Halloween's over right?

>>7110213
>>7110246

HRT changes your face quite a bit, then when you go outside you can put on make up. Very often people think they have unpassably mannish faces pre HRT but the fact that fat redistributes and certain muscles in your face atrophy means that its very possible for you to have a feminine face without any surgery.

I'm still looking to get information about how people feel after going trans or even cross dressing. Currently I for some reason feel a bit more confident about myself.

Any one care to share how t hey felt when they first started?

Is there a way to self diagnose things like dysphoria? Because psychiatrists and stuff are expensive.

I'm actually curious about comments like...

>>7110493

People say that it isn't an okay thing to do, that it's wrong. But they never really provide anything to back up their statement.

Have they tried it and something went wrong?

Were they feeling depressed and mistook it for being dysphoric and did something they regret?

>>7115293
Mtf here. Usually just wanting to be a girl over wanting to be a boy is a big sign. If you want this, even when youre not necesairily horny, then its not just a fetish. And even so, theres nothing wrong with having that fetish, dysphoria is a powerful thing and it makes sense that it would affect your sexuality.

What you have to keep in mind is that the vast majority of cis people dont want to be the opposite gender for an extended period of time. They might think about it once or twice and go like "huh that would be cool/lame" and move on.

You bought these (very cute, p jelly tbdesu) socks. Do you feel happy/excited wearing them even when youre not horny?

Do you sometimes dream of being a girl? Personally I play videogames quite a bit, RPGs specifically. If i had to play as a dude, i felt kinda weird about it. It felt wrong and i didnt really want to play that game anymore. Ofcourse everyones experiences are different, but you can look back in your life for subtle, or not so subtle signs.

And i would advise going to a therapist, talking about these things helps a lot and this could be a potentially life changing moment worth no amount of money.

>>7116908
Fuck this is making me too stressful.
I used to fantasise about being a girl from about 11 to 18 which kept me up till late and felt a compulsion to wear my sisters clothes whenever I had to hang them out to dry for a long time. I think the only time I ever had the courage to do it was with my mothers bra at around 6-7 but my father smacked me when he saw it.
>>7115293
>Were they feeling depressed and mistook it for being dysphoric and did something they regret?
This is exactly what I've been thinking for a long time. I've never experienced the same sort of symptoms that most mtf have, specifically dsyphoria. I wonder if I just have agp/crossdressing obsession , though it's not entirely sexual for me.

>>7116920
> I've never experienced the same sort of symptoms that most mtf have, specifically dsyphoria

perhaps this is true, and if it is then you are lucky, you're not trans!

however the flipside is that dysphoria manifests itself in different way. For example I could never really pin point any particular feeling that defined me throughout my life, other than a really abstract feeling of "being weird".

Search your past and contemplate it. I've wanted to have a vagina since i was very young (before it was a sexual fantasy) and always had a particular odd feeling towards women. I always thought this was just me being attracted to women, but after thinking about it more i realized it wasn't attraction per se, but envy/jealousy of what they had and i didn't.

>>7116908
> Do you feel happy/excited wearing the socks you got even when youre not horny?
I believe I've mentioned it here earlier but they make me feel more confident about myself.

> Do you sometimes dream of being a girl?
Quite often actually, I have dreams of being female almost every other night. Also same with the RPG stuff I usually go with female characters.

> i would advise going to a therapist
I guess this is the thing I'm really struggling with I have no idea on how I would actually get in touch with people about it.

>>7119543
ask around in mtf/trans help thread, im sure someone knows specifics from your area

>>7119751
What would I ask?
Is there anything specific I should aim to ask?

Any chance to get some more full body pics of you op?

>>7126789
Nope sorry. I'm quite shy and hate taking pictures of myself.

I may coax myself into posting more legs though... idk.

Would you happen to know any good places that I can take my questions to?

>>7126922
No I'm sorry, I can't be much of help there. I'm simply an admire. Would definitely would love to see more of ya legs indeed. Don't suppose you have a short skirt or willing to show some leg skin ;)

>>7128405
Sadly I don't. Also I don't shop online often.
But here... unsee(bop)cc/sazobemu/ (1 view)

>>7131191
How tall are you?
Did you find it difficult to find some that fit you?

>>7131202
Current sock stats...

Stretch, around leg: 27 inches at cuff, 24 inches mid-sock
Length, heel to top: 30 inches, unstretched

they fit perfect. :)