I am a closeted tranny. This year i broke down and started jumping

>>6885229
>I am ashamed to be a degenerate tranny scum
There is nothing wrong with being transsexual.

You could try coming out to your older sister unless you have a reason to believe that she somehow radically changed her mind over time.

If possible you should become financially independent so that you can come out without repercussions. Then you can consider who to come out to and who to hide from, if anyone.

Be well. You can do this.

>>6885229
>being a degenerate
I feel bad about this sometimes but it helps to remember that it's just another way of saying "stop wanting/liking what I don't want/like".

I think your friend, older sister and the lesbian family member all sound like good people to talk about this. If you're afraid of your brother throwing you out, maybe choose the person most least likely to talk with your brother about this to minimize your risk? From my experience, people who watch anime tend to be pretty accepting of things related to /lgbt/.

I was really afraid that my friends would see me as a freak if I talked to them about this but none of them seem to care or then they are just generally interested in the process and why I'm doing this.

>>6885229
Any local trans support group? Apart from meetings, many offer talking with someone further down the road.

>>6890447
>Any local trans support group?
please don't perpetuate this meme
trans groups are literally full of 50 year old men in drag or sjw's

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>>6890447
>support group
I shudder at the thought...

>>6890538
Why are you so cruel to people like you who lived in a worse time and so had a worse outcome?

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>>6890549

Not OP, but a couple years back I went in to dr. saying I was feeling down and blue etc while at a routine check up. I had just shaved my legs by coincidence and was really nervous. He brought in a younger med student and they were cool. They asked me about if I vent to friends or anything: I just said I go on "forums" and we mutually complain. He ends the appointment as scheduled and writes me a perscripton for Prozac and says go to a therapist. I did neither.

Still here bb, only my gf broke up with me because Im pic related

>>6885229
I'm about 2 months ahead of you, OP.

Just get it over with. Don't just blurt it out but tell the people you're specifically worried about finding out.

>>6890641
>Just get it over with
b...but this is something that is going to change my life forever, and depending on how i go about it could have dramatically different results.

>>6890590
Well, people like me are here on /lgbt/. why would i take a risk by going to some shitty support group when there is so little to gain and so much that could go wrong?

>>6890722
People in the support group are less likely to be complete psychopaths who enjoy hurting others.

>>6890722
What exactly could go wrong in a support group? Worst case scenario is that the people will be disgusting and you can decide not to go there again. A better scenario is that you get to speak about this in real life to people who don't judge you and won't tell your family.

>>6885229
You are making the worst mistake of your life. Mark my words.

>>6890877
>what could possibly go wrong
i could be traumatized by interacting with 50 year old hons who talk with deep voices and have hairy legs. The image would be forever burned into my mind, and constantly feed my fears, insecurities, and dysphoria.

I don't want that, i never want that to happen....

>>6890988
what if they're wearing mens' clothing?

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>>6890972
>mark my words
ok

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>>6890972
say no more, fa᠎m

>>6891001
highly unlikely. Where i live you have to go through 3 months of rle or psychotherapy to even get prescribed hormones. I cheated by self medding, i doubt there is anyone else like me in this town.

>>6891029
>rle before hormones
I'm sorry about your country.

I was afraid of the 50 year old hons also when I went to my local trans support group meet-up after thinking about it for a long time. It turns out the group mostly had ftms and only two mtfs who were pretty young and passed. It was quite hugboxy but not in anyway disgusting. Or maybe I was the most disgusting one there and thus didn't notice it.

>>6890692
You know what else is like that? Lots of things.

You can sit and stress about it or you can get it over with. No matter how you frame it, you're going to say the same thing to the same people.

I know it sounds impossible to just do it, but really once you're in the situation and the words have left your mouth you'll instantly feel a sense of relief, because it's out of your hands at that point.


I called up my 70 year old mother and said "Mum, I have something I should have told you a while ago. I've never felt like a guy". Before I even heard her response I felt better, because I knew that now there was no reason to be afraid of her finding out and judging.
Ultimately, why are you afraid of coming out? Are you afraid of what people will think? If so, isn't it better to just find out what they think? I liken it to being afraid of the dark and turning on the lights.

>>6891208
tl;dr fear of coming out is a fear of the unknown.

If you know what people think because you put that information out there, there is nothing left to fear.

>>6891208
>why are you afraid of coming out? Are you afraid of what people will think? If so, isn't it better to just find out what they think? I liken it to being afraid of the dark and turning on the lights.
That analogy is fundamentally broken/wrong because if you stay in the closet, people won't judge you. It is fully possible to regret coming out, whereas if you're afraid of the dark, turning on the lights is just confronting that fear.

The monsters (in your mind) that hide in the dark disappear when you turn on the lights. But the hate that your family and friends may or may not feel for trans people (or trans you) will only become material if you come out.

I am in same boat op.>>6885229

>>6892868
You can't change what you are. Sooner or later you will confront it.

The analogy is perfect for the very reason you didn't understand it; those fears are usually just imagined, and even if they aren't somehow, those people who judge do so anyway.

>>6892868
Also, the "monsters" are the fears of judgement - meaning that once you come out, you realise that you were dramatising everything in your head because people automatically jump to the worst possibility when in fear.

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>>6885229
I'm glad you made it so far. You can be proud of yourself because you've done this all alone and without any support from your friends or your family.

I outed myself last year to my parents and this year to my boss and my friends and a cousin. It all went really, really well and I would not have thought that this might even be possible. It's like I am living in a dream now and I am not even in full girlmode yet.

From my own experience I can tell you that people around me knew that there is "something" going on with me anyway but they could not quite figure out what it was.
>what you wrote about your sister
Did you have severe confrontations with your sister since then? Did you become ultra religious or hyperconservative? If not, you're chances are very high that she is the perfect person for your first outing.

Here is a valuable advice I can give you: During your first outing you will be extremely nervous and you probably won't be all like
>"Hey, I am trans. Would be nice if you didn't hate me for that. Please deal with it since I like you and don't want to lose you".
You will be more like
>"Well...aaahm.. there is something I have to say to you... it's bothering me for a really long time now... aaaannd... it's really not easy..."
Understand that this is normal and happened to quite some people. You are not alone though it may look like it because trannies are so rare.

There are two obstacles you should be aware of:
>1. You were in the closet for a long time.
Just like me you have the feeling that nobody really knows who you truly are. Because of that you feel a barrier or a distance between you and other people, even between yourself and your beloved ones. You are not sure whether they really love you or just buy in the fassade or the mask you put on.
Remember that it wasn't your fault. You simply were not able to live genuinely. You did by no means lie to anybody.
But people who genuinely care about you will care about you after your outing, too.

>>6896298 (cont.)
>2. Since there is a strong distance between you and the people around you/your beloved ones (see 1) you have a sense of feeling safe while staying at this distance.
This is a defense mechanism. In order to not get hurt by your everyday life and your dysphoria etc. you needed that alienation in your past. It was a functioning mechanism and helped you to go through rough times. But it is not helpful anymore. Without reaching out to other people that alienation/distancing will hurt you even more and in some cases it may even kill the person.
For me it was very hard to shorten that distance because I had to tell/show people about my true self and doing that made me feel more vulnerable. I forgot how that felt and it might very well be that you have a similar experience. Accepting this vulnerablility is a long process. I can tell you that the first steps, e.g. the outing, is one of the most relieving experiences on this journey.

I wish you best luck and enjoy feeling alive again.

>>6896298 (me)
>"Did you become ultra religious or hyperconservative?"
read: "did she"

>>6896262
>>6896263
People can judge you harshly if you come out

People have almost 0 odds of judging you if you stay in the closet

>>6890595
Why does every medical "professional" prescribe Prozac with minimal information on the person they're prescribing it to

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>>6897367

I dont know, the doctor had served in the military recently and Im sure dealing with that and in contrast to the problems discussed here, he just kinda nope'd and brought in the med student.
They weren't mean, but I dont feel comfortable using prescription "mood stabilizers" would rather just smoke weed desu, least its legal where I live

>>6885229
same...

>>6885229
I feel for you OP..... I know its scary for the family to disown you. My question is, how bad is your dysphoria? is it causing you enough pain, that you cannot bear it? You have to do what makes you happy. Luckily, when i was a child i mastered emotional suppression/Doublethink. I am a Straight Cis Male who is happy with my life... Read as (Lesbian Transgendered MTF who hates her life)
I have had this problem since before turning 11. as long as i can remember. Due to highly religious family (southern baptist) i had to suppress it. It sucks.... I hope it gets better for you OP... :(