Hello fellow legbutts, this is my first time posting after lurking for a while and I would like an honest opinion if that's possible.
I "discovered that I am trans" at 20 and now beginning to medically transition at 21 (had blood tests frozen sperm and have the all clear to start blockers).
However - I did not know being trans was even a thing before I was 19. I didn't go to college and only discover it after being around similar people - I've never been to college and never even met someone else who was trans before. As young as 11-12 years old I felt feminine but I didn't understand why, in online games I always chose the female options where possible and from 13-16 interacted with people on various forum sites under the alias Sarah. I never understood why I just preferred it.
Back to present day; whenever I walk around town I am very very aware of the other women around me and I get very jealous of how they look, which often makes me quite depressed. I see myself as the female role in porn and the older I get the more I have experimented with sexual interaction with men. In my teen years I was exclusively straight but I would be happy to be in a relationship with a guy now.
I know there's a lot more I haven't mentioned so I will stick around to answer any questions.
OP here;
At the moment I just look like a gay femme boy who likes to do eye makeup, but I'm trying my best to grow out my hair and look the part. I can't wait until I'm able to start the hormones
>>6850721
what's your experience with women? have you had sex before or had a relationship?
have you ever felt like women chew you up inside and stress you out, but the feeling goes away when you imagine yourself as a woman?
>>6850721
you sound trans and maybe a bit agp. you'd have to talk more about your sexual fantasies to figure out the latter though
>>6850721
AGPs are trans. They just have a tendency of transitioning later and therefore becoming completely insane. The average age of transition for HSTS is ~20, though, so you'll be fine.
>>6851067
I have had long term relationships for most of my teenage years - one of them more than three years all with women. I have had 18 sexual partners in total 5 being girlfriends. 5 of these partners were men. I see myself as wanting to be female but I'm not trying to pretend that I am. I am able to have platonic male and female friends - but right now I am more sexually interested in men
I didn't read anything you typed in your post, but if you're asking yourself this question, you probably aren't trans.
>>6850721
You're not an AUTOGYNEPHILE if you are not aroused by the thought of being a woman outside of a sex-related situation.
>>6851788
You what m8? This is a question most-often asked by transsexuals exactly because cis people rarely stop and go "wait am I trans??"
>>6851801
did you even read the title? retard
>>6851795
I'm not aroused by the thought of myself as a woman no matter if it's a sexual situation or not. I'm aroused by the fact I'm about to take 8 inches.
I don't get turned on putting on lingerie or anything
-OP
>>6851809
Did *you* read the title?
>>6851813
Then you're not AGP.
>>6851813
why would you think this is agp then? that's just fucking liking men
>>6852972
not op, but let's say it was agp. what would there be to regret?
>>6850721
>As young as 11-12 years old I felt feminine but I didn't understand why, in online games I always chose the female options where possible and from 13-16 interacted with people on various forum sites under the alias Sarah. I never understood why I just preferred it.
this was me growing up, but i'm a cis dude.
imo trans people can usually tell that they're trans because they have physical dysphoria. if you have a deep-seated, life-endingly desperate need to look and feel like a woman, then yeah you're prob trans
not conforming to traditional gender roles does not mean you're trans, it just means that you don't confirm to traditional gender roles
>>6851434
What the fuck is HSTs
Also I bought into the AGP meme but I'm gonna transition now at 20, hope I come out passable
>>6850721
>frozen sperm
>wanting to pass on your defective tranny genes
>>6853339
I have terrible body dysphoria - I get visibly upset when I have to pay attention to what I look like especially when I see the shapes of other women around me. I'm slim, I'm not like obese or anything. I'm 5'8 and 65kg I just have rather muscular arms and legs (as well as lats which make me look like I have hon tier shoulders)