I'm two years on hrt and thought I killed my dysphoria good enough so that I could interact with my environment as a kind of happy person. But since bathing season started I just feel like shit being together with cisgirls.
I mean my body isn't that bad for a transgirl but average cisgirls are just on another level. Today the gf of a friend of mine was so feminine and beautiful. It just killed my day.
>>6805793
Just remember that there are cis girls so fat they look even worse than you in a bikini and probably can't even fit into one in the first place.
You know how you see every flaw in yourself, and it's difficult to see flaws in others?
That's how almost every person feels, cis or trans. No one tells anyone though because we're all insecure fuckbags.
Most likely, there are some who felt intimidated by you.
>>6805811
Wow... My new words of wisdom. I'll remember this one in a few months when I go to the beach.
>>6805793
I used to get this feeling a lot, but then I ended up with a boyfriend that worships me like a temple. Now I feel beautiful all the time.
I can't go to the beach without showing everyone my self-harm scars, which are even more embarrassing because I'm a guy. I don't give a shit, though, and nor should you.
>>6805828
But that's ridiculous. No cisperson feels intimidated by a transperson
>>6807906
maybe not if they know it's a transperson... but in OP's case I don't think they would. she passes, and has a body some cis girls would envy. Sure it's not perfect but at least she's not a landwhale.