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Ok so I have 2 good friends, their names are B and E, we are now all closing in on our mid-twenties. I would usually see E a few days a week as he lives in town and is a filthy anime otaku like myself, but recently he got a girlfriend, and now he never comes around anymore . B on the other hand has never had a girlfriend but he lives out of town so only see him every few months, we usually spend the time in between chatting over Skype and email.

Here is the problem….i am closeted mtf, I have my first dosage of hormones in the mail on its way, know one outside of doctors know anything about my problem.

I am scared my friends will leave me if I come out, not because they want to… but I am afraid E’s family and girlfriend will say I am a freak that he shouldn’t hang around with. He already told me how his family hates me but he said he didn’t give a fuck what they think….but they don’t even know I am degenerate tranny scum yet…
Now B on the other hand is very “old fashioned” he always says how he hates women in movies, women are stupids and emotional etc, he calls anime “Asian trash”… What do I do when he sees me in 3 months and I am turning into a half woman freak ???

How do I deal with this fear of loosing my friends? Please I would never make new ones, I don’t feel like I can my replace my current friends, how can I convince them to accept me if they find out? Is keeping it a secret for as long as possible a good idea???