Do any of you hate yourself?

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>>6674113
Of course i hate myself im a hideous trainwreck and waste of resources

>>6674160
>t. every tranny

>>6674113
I am guilty of doing some really horrible shit, and failing to do some really basic shit, and I do get really pissed off at myself, but despite all my faults I am trying to learn to love myself. It isn't easy (I'm still not there) but I believe no one should ever just give in to self hatred.

>be me
>cis as fuck, even if not that masc
>have never really even liked myself
>oscillate between intense self-loathing and depression and being sort of happy about a few things about myself but still extremely convinced of my overall worthlessness
>once had a classmate in undergrad who barely knew me ask me "you really hate yourself, don't you?"
>wonder if it's that obvious to others, and if so, why don't they care
>decide it must be me who repels them
>know that those few I'm close to either will never see it because they make me happy and that masks it, or they have the same problem and don't know how to go about fixing ot themselves.
>want to an hero
>too pussy to do it
>try to sleep away the part of the day I can't drink away
>somehow haven't been kicked out of grad school yet
>not much hope for the future thereafter
>biscum trapped in sort of happy marriage

I have hated myself for as long as I remember, yes.

yes
>drink like a tank before hormones
>get scripts and feel really happy and stop for a bit
>couple months in still happy with whats happening but know I will always be a monster and never actually good looking so drink almost everyday

Every once and a while when I fuck up real bad. But you have to ask yourself if that's just throwing fuel on the fire.

It doesn't accomplish anything to hate yourself. It's unproductive. Better to hate something else, even if it's abstract, like your weakness, or ignorance or vice or Jews.

Just blame your environment and upbringing and move on.

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>Do any of you hate yourself?

Yes. I hate myself and I hate my life and my only comfort is that I'll die one day and I'll cease to be bothered. Too much of a pussy to an hero, though, and probably under the delusion that things will "get better".

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>>6674245
blaming your environment wont help you look at yourself and see you for who you are
recognize your mistakes and fix them

>>6674113
i'm sub human

>>6674113
yep

>>6674113
Yes
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>>6674225
ever think of getting your other into playing masc roles in the bedroom and see if that meets your sex needs?

I hate myself for enjoying getting fucked in the ass so much. To the point where I don't care if I get infected. I swore off all sex and porn and masturbation in June and barely made it one month before I was back to porn. I'm really scared because my ass is filled with warts recently and I'm afraid it's going to develop into cancer. Fortunately I have some will to live and I'm going to check in at the hospital for screening and treatment.

Take this as a cautionary tale. You don't want HPV in your ass (let alone any STD). Be safe and better yet stop letting strangers use your ass as a flashlight.

Yh i hate that im not funny and have a shit personality also im rlly cringy

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>>6674113
Post your face. It can't be that bad. I used to feel the same, but I am pushing forward to obtain internal peace.

>>6674271
I'm not out to her, for one thing. She brought it up once and I pussied out and told her to "gimme a break." Couldn't outright deny it, but she hasn't asked, and I'll just bury it down real deep
For another thing, I tried to introduce a butt plug in the bedroom once, and she acted like it grossed her out. I'm too scared to suggest anything besides new positions now.

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I hate myself immensely. I can't talk right, have no idea what to say, mumble, and act like a fucking idiot.
I'm fat, ugly, uneducated, stupid and constantly let people down.
On top of that I have pathetic fetishes and other pathetic aspects about myself such as still sometimes wetting the bed even though I'm 26 years old.
Kill me please, I'm too scared to do it myself...

I hate myself pre transtion and after transtion

>>6674113
I love myself, but I'll probably have to kill myself because world doesn't love me as much as I do

>>6674522
I am your exact opposite. Thanks for the confidence boost :)

>>6674616
I feel much worse

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>>6674620
You know what to do anon

>>6674643
You must not be very smart if you can't read my post.

>>6674648
Dummy. That's basically the most direct way to not-kill-yourself kill yourself you will find.
Jfc anon, you're not important enough for someone else to go to jail for your murder.

>>6674113
I don't hate myself. I think that I could do better.

that's all the time for me lol.
at least you aren't as fucking ugly as me lol.
>>6674522
are you me in a few years?

>>6674648
There's plenty of not scary ways to do it. Like take a bunch of sleeping pills and go have a nice warm bath with the water high up. Really comfy way to die.

I've always felt like everyone around me is two years ahead of me. Socially, academically, developmentally. Now it feels like four years. My parents tell me I'm smart for some reason even though everything about me points against that. I don't know why. Do I just fit into some sort of stereotype? It's fucking annoying. I want to die without being remembered or thought of kindly or cried for. If I were a disappointment I'd be happier. A skinny white autist like me who got into college basically on a stroke of luck should be a disappointment. But apparently the kid who was too lazy to do anything in highschool is "smart".

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I often feel like the big dumb guy my friends just carry with them because they pity him. I hate my deep voice as I feel it doesn't reflect my personality, I hate how I'm slightly taller than my friends and most of all: I hate having learning disorders and dyspraxia, makes me a dumb clumsy mess.

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>Since may have been talking with a qt 3.14 from another state
>"Hey anon, I think you are really nice. Soon I'm moving out to your city in august to study and leave alone, I'd love if we could get along until I move."
>Gets hype as never
>Start talk and hear about plans when he's arriving
>Trade nudes and whatever shit
>"Wow anon, you look real good, I can't wait to have such a handsome boyfriend!"
>More hype than never
>It's been 6 days since he arrived
>Day 1 I asked his neighborhood and asked if he would like to meet me at the mall for a dinner or for some movie
>"I'd love that anon, I'm so happy that I'm in the same town as yours!"
>Day 2
>He blocked me from Whatsapp, Kik, Skype, Facebook
>He didn't said nothing, just vanished
>I lost all my hopes in life and love
>I just look at myself in the mirror and I try to understand what happened, if I was too ugly or miserable
>For once I thought I was looking good or liking me for getting some progress in life
>Things are just a silence now, I can't feel anything

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>>6674113
I think we all do to be honest family.

I know for sure that behind every cheerful gay guy is someone who's screaming inside for help. Knowing that there's nobody that truly loves you like only a lifelong partner can. I get that, coupled with being an awkward social autist who hasn't sucked a million dicks by my ripe old age of 26.

I can't even kill myself with the most guaranteed methods of an heroing. I just learn to accept it and put on a happy face for the normalfags.

Same here.
>tfw also AGP
at least I hate most people as much as I hate myself and it somehow loops back around to a cold acceptance of everyone with the realization that all who live are victims of fate.

>>6678989
Let me add that given the above I don't even understand how someone can dislike themselves for being gay or something equally banal. My frame of reference is so out of whack being gay just seems incredibly bland and normal to me. As far as I'm concerned the lot of you are Chads.

>>6678998
agreed. I had a friend "come out" as Bi and everyone was like "wow you're so brave" and supportive and I'm just like "so what?"

Meanwhile when I come out as a tranny basically all those "supportive" people basically disown me. kek

>>6678749
Sry you got catfished bro

>>6678749
Aw shit doc I've never felt that kind of rejection. I'm sorry. Obviously that guy was some kind of sperg jerk. Are you on a dating site? Not grindr, but something like planetromeo?

>>6678786
Deadpool?

>>6679064
literally the worst people on earth, they are

>>6678612
Get away from your parents and accomplish some things on your own without anyone's help. That insecurity will be much more manageable when you have solid proof you're capable enough to handle your own problems.

>>6679842
Kill me, Pete

>>6678648
Anon, you're comment proves to me that you are not stupid. Do you know why? Because you took the time to use punctuation.

Anon there are people who don't have your disadvantages that fail to even do that. Your problems make you stronger, and prove your worth for overcoming them. Intelligence is not a measure of raw pattern recognition or a race. Intelligence is getting shit done and getting it done right. Intelligence is the will to be better than the sum of your parts. You are not dumb as long as you keep trying.

Do I hate myself?

Not necessarily.

Am I totally in love with body?

Not totally.

Do I want to die and turn into dust and blow away in the wind?

Yes.

>>6679842
Kill me, Pete.

Yep, hate myself. Ever less sure why I don't just anhero

>>6674113
This was a problem for me for the longest time. I have admitted to myself in the last few weeks that yeah I am down with men and now I sleep better. I am happier, a lot of stress seems to be gone. I don't hate myself for being a repressed pussy.

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>>6679842
Kill me Pete

seriously just fuck my shit up famalam

>>6679861
Aww, that really made my day! Thank you SO much anon, I'd hug you if I could <3

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>>6679098
>>6679798

We met on Tinder, I thought it was the best app to find someone without having to show my body or sad or the person doing the same to get attention. I used to have Scruff and Hornet but I deleted my accounts in there, I don't know, that's a fast-fuck app, that's all.
Right now I keep hoping I don't know why that something happened to him and he didn't had any way to tell me, but I know that's not going to happen, never happens irl.
[spoiler]I had bought him a shirt of Doctor Who to gift him in the first date, we both enjoyed the show.[/spoiler]

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>>6679842
Kill me, Pete

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when will this roller coaster end?

>>6674113
Iktf.

>>6679842
Kill me, Pete. You handsome bastard you

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No, i don't hate you.
Love yourself.
anyway, I want this wig!

I hate myself for the fact that I fail at romance in any shape or form. I can make friends easy, social situations no problem. The moment I feel romance? I might as well turn around and walk away. I am a failure of a man

>>6684218
If it helps you feel better, every gay man fails at romance. That's why most of the time, they don't even try.

>>6674113
Yes, being gay is fucking terrible. I don't know what to do.

I hate myself for being a disgusting tranny faggot who will most likely kill themselves and disappoint their family

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Yeah
>tranny even though I just live as a femboy
>no ambition to pursue a specific career, so I'm in college on my parents' money because they want me to get a degree anyway
>social anxiety as well as super introverted & shy
I feel like such a waste of life.

>not really that fat, just man boobs and a bit of a belly
>was molested as a child
>generally not good at being social
>tend to binge eat a lot
>been drinking since I was 14
>I am not 18, haven't been sober longer than a month since I was 16 or so
>hate myself so much for these reasons

>>6689817
>>6689817
now**
I accidentally put not god dammit

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Might as well give you guys this shitheap
>be 18
>been having conflicting issues with sexuality for close to a year
>trying to look straight on the outside meanwhile repressing my sexuality
>got through school, graduated and kept my great GPA and got into college
>while I am not in school I dont have the distractions and I end up fighting myself over my sexuality
>dont want to come out because of conservative family
>dont really want anyone to know for fear it will fuck shit up

Why is everything so fucking fucked guys? It seems like I could be gay and lead a normal life but part of me is convinced it isnt possible logically and wants to stay the course.

Any idea about what I should do?

Of course I do. Otherwise I wouldn't be here. I'm lazy, I fuck myself over constantly because I fear conflict, I can barely talk to people without sounding autistic, I can't even live my life out of the closet, and I don't ever feel cute

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I hate myself but I've always been physically attractive as a guy getting women or men and okay looking as a girl with no make up. But that's not enough for me and I still feel empty.

Killing myself isn't enough, I need to erase my existence from the world, every life I've touched or affected, every breathe I've taken, ever molecule of water I've drank, I wish I could erase it all. I want to one day wake up and have the ability to remove myself from the universe.

Pic related, I wish I could go back in time and strangle myself in the womb.

My dad thinks being gay is sick and it means you're messed up in the head and my mom doesn't judge but I feel like if I told her she secretly would hate me. So I know coming out isn't an option. Have you tried blocking all your problems out via alcohol & drugs? I know it sounds messed up but it's efficient just saying.

>>6674113
you feel guilty about something over which you had absolutely no control? I'm a white man, and I don't feel guilty about slavery. I wouldn't say I'm ugly, but I'm not model. If someone isn't attracted to me, too fucking bad for them, IDGAF.

Dude... you have nothing to apologize for. Live your life.

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>>6674149
No idea why you would want to traumatize yourself but here you go, even my mom says I look awful, I tried my best to look normal in the picture so you won't puke that much.

>>6690869
You don't look that bad at all femanon. Just take care of yourself a bit more and smile. Obviously make-up helps

>>6690869
Your mom says that? What a bitch. Parents should never say stuff like that to their kids. You aren't even bad looking. You're just average and that's okay. Don't let bad thoughts get to you.

>>6690869
You don't happen to live in SEA do you

>>6691459
My mom loves me alot, I mean she buys me stuff and such but she's just critical of my appearances

>>6691492
I do live in SEA

>>6691507
Let me roll

....


Singapore

>>6691512
and u r?

>>6691517
also in singapore

:DDDDD (poly or uni?) :DDDDD

>>6691512
FML

>>6691520
Can I ask, since I'm doxed anyway, do we know each other irl?

>>6691522
>>6691517
we can talk if you want
(I dunno why, but I always find myself in these places despite my commitment)

>>6691527
calm the fuck down lmao

I just have an eye for SG chicks
Even If i knew you I really would'nt "out" someone for fucking browsing 4chan chill out nigga

you in TP famalam?

>>6691537
>famalam
N-n no anon, I'm not schooling

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Man I really suck at convincing people

>>6691550
what? why?
so you got a job already?
Please don't tell me you are a NEET, you know how that ends here in our "free market :DDDD" country

>>6674113
I hate myself, but at the same time... I stare at other men, and just wanna bury my face into their chest, relish in their warmth, and just devote myself to making him happy.
Then I resent myself, feeling like I don't deserve any happiness at all, and just despair in my eternal loneliness.
I wait every day to die, but it never happens.
Cisgendered male here.
I don't even want sex, I just... want to be held and hold someone, smile despite feeling like smiles don't suit my face, and just... feel like I matter.
Even if it is a lie, I can die happy in a lie.

>>6691559
I got a job yes, wat you doing on the lgbt channel anyway?

>>6691572
i mean if you live in the western world that shouldnt be hard

>>6691573
thats nice
I dunno, just felt like mucking around here
I mostly browse /int/, /jp/ and maybe /k/, sometimes /pol/ to see what weird shit their cooking up

we can talk in DMs if you want

>>6691584
DMs? what's that?

>>6691591
Direct message, gmail, etc etc

I can post my backup mail here if you want

>>6691597
ok sure

>>6691598
[email protected]

we can share discords or whatever there if you really need someone to talk to

>>6690869
This must be a troll. Are you a dyke?

>>6691613
>[email protected]
How am I trolling?

>>6691610
Sent u a hello msg

>>6690238
What kind of degree/career? Get a job in NYC or similar big city, or better yet, in Europe. Then get off Facebook. Live gay life hassle-free.

>>6690869
As far as asians go, you're not fantastic movie star looking, but there are much uglier asians. You should probably stop listening to your mom and get good at makeup.
At least you have clear skin!

>>6674113
naw, i dont hate me, i hate everybody by default, unless they give me a reason to like them

>>6696273
Thanks, I hope you're right

I am 27, ugly and balding. Gay death hit me before I was even out.

>>6690869
judging by your face it looks like you may have developed some bad habits as a child. do you mouth breathe? does your tongue rest at the bottom of your mouth or somewhere in the middle rather than the roof? if you do either of these things it is absolutely vital that you fix these problems for not only aesthetic reasons, but for health reasons as well. this video significantly improved my face and breathing within 2-3 months. most people would tell us to just be happy and that its beyond our control, but im glad i took initiative to improve myself, and those people who say you shud just sit and be happy dont really care about you, they just want to drag you down with them
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TY3bIMRKil8