Ask a detransitioned former transbian anything.

>>6520417
Why aren't you still popping hormones and just living as a guy instead?

Why did you transition?

Why did you detransition?

>>6520417
rough estimate, how long until you kill yourself?

>>6520417
what did you detransition to? How do you see yourself, identity-wise now?

>>6520432
don't be rude, anon

>>6520417
What did you take from the experiences of transition and detransition?

Did you have a mental health professional working with you? If so, what have they thought about your transitions?

>>6520417
>starts AMA thread
>doesn't answer anything

>>6520428
That's what I'm doing, more or less. Most of my friends are hipsters so they don't bat an eye at words like "genderqueer"
>>6520431
I felt like I was born in the wrong body as long as I can remember.
I got really into drugs and ended up in rehab. Once I got sober I couldn't shake the feeling that I was just trying to infiltrate the lesbian community and I didn't really have a right to be there.
>>6520432
Well, I'm 4 months sober, so somewhere between 30 seconds and never.
>>6520438
I tell people I'm queer and my pronouns are they. I had an informed consent provider so they're still fine with prescribing me hormones if I'm no longer trying to present as female.
>>6520452
That people have latched onto transgender issues as a way to gentrify the LGBT community and feminism. It's kind of like the people who respond "all lives matter" to anything having to do with "black lives matter." Gender issues are just something they can point to justify pushing their world view or culture on a community but still pretend they're liberal because we're all the same on the inside, right? It lets them pretend that all feminism means is that women are just men without penises and that gay men or lesbians should conform to heterosexual relationship dynamics.

I stopped seeing my gender specialist a long time ago. I'm seeing a behavior therapist the rehab facility connected me with, they're pretty non-judgmental about the whole thing.

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Ah yes, another transtrender regret story.

>>6520582
>That people have latched onto transgender issues as a way to gentrify the LGBT community and feminism. It's kind of like the people who respond "all lives matter" to anything having to do with "black lives matter." Gender issues are just something they can point to justify pushing their world view or culture on a community but still pretend they're liberal because we're all the same on the inside, right? It lets them pretend that all feminism means is that women are just men without penises and that gay men or lesbians should conform to heterosexual relationship dynamics.

I... really agree with this.

>>6520417
OP is the kind of asshole who doesn't even show up to his own funeral.

>>6520613
Being a corpse is no excuse not to party

>>6520417
do you have boobs?
do you still have your penis?
are you still going to go after women in terms of romantic/sexual relationships as a lesbian or a guy?
will you disclose to your potential partners about your trans stuff?
do you consider having biological kids if you still have your testes intact?

>>6520582
That's like what happened to me except without thinking I'm trans or thinking I wanted to be a girl in the first place. Also without the drugs, rehab, without being into girls, so on and so forth.

>>6520582
>>6520417
http://www.thestranger.com/slog/2016/06/23/24252075/attorney-general-warns-i-1515-signature-gatherers-that-following-people-into-bathrooms-is-obviously-not-okay

You're one of those weird hons harrasing women and pushing homophobia, aren't you.

Disgusting preachy hypocrite

>>6520653
Yep
yeah
I'm not going after anybody right now.
Probably
I don't want to bring someone into the word knowing they're probably going to have to live with the same personality disorder and addiction as everyone in my family
>>6520663
So wanting more than just the token "close the wage gap" kind of cultural change supported by most people who claim to be feminist is harassing women and thinking that different communities have the right to their own culture and values (which was the whole point of the gay rights movement when it started) is pushing homophobia?
>>6520660
Do you regret it?

>>6520749
Don't regret it one bit, I really enjoy being this weird boygirl creature. I'm even working towards getting an orchi.

The main thing I don't like is that it's made social interaction a lot more awkward and difficult. People treat me very differently compared to before, it's odd. In public I get loads of stares so I have this constant feeling of being stared at and I want to escape from public as fast as possible each time. I just want to be invisible in there like everyone else, but I can't.

Still would rather eat a bullet than turn back to how I was, or age into a yeti.

>>6520582
>>6520749
>gay men conform to heterosexual relationship dynamics.

Oh yeah, it's nice to see you vilify fems who pick masculine men.

As if a straight man like you is fit to judge over what we do. It's also dog using how you support homophobes harrasing women.

Honestly, you're disgusting through and through with all your unwarranted moralism and I'm saying this as a femfag who shouldn't have a problem with what you are.

Get out straight man gorilla beast. Who made you the arbiter of morality.

>>6520811
Ughhhh, saaaaaame, except I'm just failed trans who realized qt boymode is still attainable and I didn't even like guys all THAT much before like a year on hrt. Now I don't even care for girls. Such a great feel.

The social weirdness is pretty shit though, I wanna get a respectable job someday. : /

>>6520851
they aren't vilifying them. they're vilifying the people who say the only way to be gay is that one way.

>>6520884
Its a disgusting straight man wading in and preaching about how everyone else but him is sinful.

His kind makes me sick. Bet he's really some disgusting ape irl.

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>>6520811
Isn't being a non-trans trans person the best thing ever. Who gives a shit about labels as long as you can look yourself in the mirror and still be happy that's all that matters.

>>6520913
He's literally not though?? He said the opposite:

>>6520582
>That people have latched onto transgender issues as a way to gentrify the LGBT community and feminism. It's kind of like the people who respond "all lives matter" to anything having to do with "black lives matter." Gender issues are just something they can point to justify pushing their world view or culture on a community but still pretend they're liberal because we're all the same on the inside, right? It lets them pretend that all feminism means is that women are just men without penises and that gay men or lesbians should conform to heterosexual relationship dynamics.
He's saying here that the "all lives matter" people are BAD and that people who use liberalism as an excuse to push their agenda on gays and women is BAD

Reread it

>>6520884
Or the people who think the ultimate goal of adult relationships always has to be marriage.
>>6520930
this

>>6520851
>>6520913
This is why people hate faggots.

>>6520930
>as you can look yourself in the mirror and still be happy that's all that matters.
I guess I'm fucked then

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>>6520582
Hello, they.

>>6520962
Whatever, leftists are hypocrites and feminists are toxic and working with homophobes to incite hysteria. They're all bad guys who either see us as pets or work with evangelicals to kill us.

>>6520873
>The social weirdness is pretty shit though, I wanna get a respectable job someday. : /
I've been jobless for a while myself. Last time I got one was like right after I had just started taking hormones, so by the time I started looking weird I had already built up a reputation with the owners and most of the coworkers. My manager figured out that I was a faggot (haha no shit) and after that point I got a whole lot of shit from him. He kept trying to get me fired, which always backfired on him because I was a perfect employee and could back it up. Still, the owners tolerated him calling me a faggot and talking shit about me in front of other employees and customers. I eventually quit, and have been jobless since - for about the past year, almost to the day. I've been supported by my tranny gf this whole time. She's not full time yet herself, although is on the verge of it, the only thing holding her back is her voice, which she has never really worked on - she never sticks to it long enough to perfect it. So her and I are both essentially guys who look physically girly as fuck, but present as guys. The shit she's gotten every single time she has started a new job has kinda made me terrified to start anywhere, although I will be soon. Things like male coworkers coming up all super-friendly, then instantly turning disgusted and cold the moment they hear her voice. Coworkers going "wait that's a guy? I thought that was a girl" or "is that a boy or a girl?" and such things right in earshot, but said as if she couldn't hear it.

Then there's the various customer reactions, which I won't even get into because I'm sure you can imagine what that would entail.

So I am a bit afraid of getting a job anywhere. At this point, I don't even care to get a respectable job, I just want one where I won't get shat all over for being like this. What kind of place would even be easier on someone like me?

>>6520930
>as long as you can look yourself in the mirror and still be happy that's all that matters.
This is one of the things I've clung to pretty hard. My life is pretty shitty in general and I have fucked it up a good deal. But at least I've made it so I can look in the mirror and get a surge of happiness at what I see.

>>6521280
Back of house in restaurants is usually pretty cool. But I live in a really liberal city so it might not be the same wherever you are.

>>6521280
Getting a job even a low paying retail one has been the greatest feeling ever. A lot of Trans women work at makeup and beauty stores like Mac and Saphora or Ulta. Have you tried those?

hey op ur cute :^)

>>6521480
I don't think so but you're entitled to your opinion

>>6521421
I feel like I wouldn't like a job at a place like that. I don't even wear makeup myself and I feel like I'd just get faghagged a shitload.
>>6521405
I'm actually considering that. I live in a pretty conservative area but many of the restaurants here are pretty liberal and all that. There's this one place I used to frequent a lot, so much that most of the staff knew me by first name. I was thinking of applying there, since they really liked me and I feel like that might up my chances of getting hired, plus I already know they're cool with androgynous freaks.

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>>6521480
Unless you are who I think you are, then I guess I'm supposed to blush and stutter. That's cute, right?

>>6521624
oh you arent who i thought you were kek

u r cute though

>>6521624
Looks like a butch lesbian, and I mean no offense when I say that.

>>6521624
ftm that shaved in a male hairline?

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>>6521290
How so anon :/ you can't be that much of a fuck up if you realize your mistake?

>>6522326
About $20,000 in defaulted student debt. No job for a long time, a large part specifically because of my androgynous freak status. Useless degree I never should have gotten. No medical coverage. I'm 27, and since 24 or 25 everything has been going horribly downhill. The thing is, I've realized my mistakes very well, but realizing them does nothing for me, because they are mostly big unfixable fuckups that will haunt me for the rest of my life, and I made these fuckups years ago, years before they began to impact my life. By the time it started, it was years too late. Now I am essentially fucked out of taking any path in life other than working really shitty jobs and being a debt slave, and I can't even go move to Paraguay or some shit and tell Uncle Sam to go fuck himself.

>>6522435
>>6522326
Also I just have a bunch of shitty shit happen to me. My relationship has a lot of issues but I'm too attached to them to end it. Funny thing: we both have the same fucking issues. No attraction to each other physically, and neither of us is pleasing the other in many ways. But we're too attached to each other to let it go. So I have that shit to deal with. Either I end it and feel shitty as fuck and maybe never love again, or I don't end it and I feel shitty as fuck and maybe never get a proper dicking and all that fun stuff.

I could keep going, too. I'm pretty fucked though.

>>6521280
Phone jobs are fine. You can talk as you want and the customer wouldn't care.

Also: you need to talk with your psychiatrist OP. Get depression meds. Doubly so if you have a family history of depression. You're in-between feelings of wanting to do something and not wanting to. If you're not taking your hormones as regularly as you should, that could also be it. Speaking from experience, feeling secure in myself and my feelings has given me no regrets, even if I failed in some areas.

>>6522631
True, I do talk like a bit of a fag now apparently, even though I haven't been consciously trying to do that, and I also worry how supervisors and coworkers react.

>>6521624
Ya I mean you look like a normal guy but on the effeminate side of the fence.

>>6522631
>you need to take exceptionally harmful medication while already on 'mones
It's like you normies hate your livers or something.

>>6521280
Call center.
If it's a not very specialized one, you won't even have time to "socialize" with anyone past the 2 week training. You're just a number and a voice, you go in and out and you get a paycheck at the end of the month. Then you get fired because rotation is high and then you get hired again at another call center.
They're stressful on their own, though.

Source: experience.