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>>6200997
onward!
Based chuck
>>6200993
brb puking my guts out
also
>believing kayla
>ever
>>6201007
heil!
>>6200997
hey u did it
>>6201003
>grace
We have been through this so many times before, he does not pass
>red
He's not a tranny, he's a femmeboy
>edie
She passes with makeup only
>tfw want to go all out determined with transition to achieve passing like so many girls have done here
>tfw also dont want to humiliate myself by being a delusional neverpass hon living in a lie
What do? How does one become Grace, Red or Edie or something? I want to commit to this but I just don't know if it's doable from my position :s
>>6201017
>he does not pass
With the makeup she passed tbqhon
>He's not a tranny, he's a femmeboy
Still passes as a girl to strangers
>She passes with makeup only
Never seen without so mhm
>>6201015
we all did it, anon!
>>6201019
You couldn't find any better role models? Seriously?
>>6201018
don't call me an anon you bitch
>wedding plans l
>implying I won't have groomsmen
Femboys of Mtfg will of course be able to register for positions
>>6201017
>he
>mfw you have to bully trannies to feel good about yourself
>>6200999 #
I cant tell if youre a master troll or if this is your first board, so honestly congrats
>>6201019
Well you're not going to increase you're chances of passing by doing nothing
>>6201027
Femboys are supposed to look girly you dumb tranny reeee
Femboys =/= trannies reeeee
>>6201033
don't call me a bitch that's rude
I'm glad your dick is gonna puff up now
>>6201007
I'll follow you to the death!
>>6201037
oh hush now
>>6201033
to be fair, you were an anon
>>6201035
>posts low quality animoo
kill yourself my man
>>6200948 #
I'd be a bridesmaid. So far my planned bridal party is all mtfg trannies. Also what you said about makeup. Yeah I guess. At the end of the day with makeup, bangs and glasses I could pass as a Jewish girl.
>>6200863 #
I guess but I feel like people are reading that from clothes/hair/mannerisms. Once they get close its all male.
>>6201029
a bit of this tbqhon
>>6201017
>>6201019
>tfw anon is a time traveller
>>6201031
do you prefer this?
>>6201036
shes a child
I am glad you got nice food though!
>>6201034
I am a pretty decent femboy
>>6201043
oh my gosh, anon, let us make the WHOLE WORLD great again!
>>6201038
Sorry all women have to be bridesmaids for Edie, all the men get to come to my stag party and be groomsmen
>>6201034
girls don't have groomsmen, you're so silly faye
>>6201034
I'm totally a femboy, sign me up!
>tfw have to go back to work tomorrow
Please end me fampai
>>6201034
>tfw I'll never have a nice wedding because I'll be a disgusting manbeast creature forever
>>6201054
>italy, sweden, spain, albania, turkey and greece suddenly sink into the sea
hitler had some weird plans for the world desu
>>6201055
so the the bachelors party we will have male strippers right?
>>6201029
I haven't been here for so long that I can pull off better ones off the top of my head but I think those girls(and girlyboy) look good and aside from red maybe seem really confident about it too.
>>6201037
True but taking things slow and stuff reduces the public humiliation when/if I never end up making it.
>>6201040
It's irrelevant to what I was talking about whether he feels like a girl or not. Strangers still think Red's a grill based on looks
>>6201054
>anon is a time traveller
I just reposted to new thread lol
>>6201054
>I am a pretty decent femboy
the pic I saw of you makes me think you really don't pass boymode. count your blessings.
>let us make the WHOLE WORLD great again!
I'd be happy if we just blitz a small town and make it our tranny outter heaven. I really don't think we have the resources, numbers or support for more than that.
Economical colonization is not only cleaner but more realistic.
>>6201068
Uhmm...
>>6201019
pic related.
i can definitely pass without makeup, but... not nearly as well. i also have anxiety attacks going outside without it.
>>6201034
i mean...tru
how many femboys do you know though?
>>6201050
seeee. be a qt jewish girl.
>>6201073
like a dancing bear party so I can get my suck on
>>6201073
Jfc...
Lol
That'd be a bachelorette party sweetheart
>>6201068
"by mistake"
just like how all the drinks will be girly
"by mistake"
and we will force faye to put on a dress and makeup
oh bachelors parties are so fun
>>6201082
you can be the exotic dancer at the party
>>6201080
but we're trannies
im so confused who we are supposed to have sex with
>>6201083
sounds like my kinda stag party desu
>>6201076
the only thing going up is my heart rate talkin to a qt like u ;3
>>6201074
i feel left out. i'm not a femboy, i'm just a boy stuck in the body of a transgirl
>>6201067
or maybe the map just lists occupied territory. we will never know fempai.
>>6201069
>I just reposted to new thread lol
I know, but thats not fun
>>6201070
>the pic I saw of you makes me think you really don't pass boymode. count your blessings.
thats probably right. Id have to cut my hair. pretty sure I could easily pull off the obvious tranny look though.
>>6201082
pic related
Can you reduce facial hair growth without HRT and adverse side effects?
>>6201068
Oh you think to little my poor dear, we're talking sand buggies, Vegas, debautchery and male bonding
What's the veredict on middle way hons? is the world knowledgeable enough to clock them or can they pass as ugly women?
I-I'm a-asking for a f-friend, obviously!
>>6201087
Faye likes girls tho.... So do het boyss.
But we can literally sex everyone
>>6201075
>>6201068
faye would have a stag party, but i would have a bachelorette party. i don't think she'd want me to get male strippers etc desu
>>6201098
Lemme know.. I've a toybox trailer & toys there
>>6201098
hmm... whats the brides side doing and when is this planned?
>>6201097
laser?
>tfw you play vidya like a man
>>6201116
>mfw my wedding dress
>>6201119
>tfw you play vidja like a girl
there's no way of being happy with this
>>6201105
Another for team groom
>>6201103
Oh I'm sure your little knitting circle will be fun dear <3
>>6201124
>you do realise Bornstein is non-binary right?
does that mean she doesnt exist? :^)
>>6201074
>i can definitely pass without makeup, but... not nearly as well
I guess that goes for even the prettiest girls. At what age did you start mones if you dont mind me asking?
>>6201127
I'm too good and I can't deal with losing.
>>6201117
Was hoping for a pill option
>>6201119
>tfw you inherit your mum's clown feet and man hands but worse because testosterone
at least I got her child bearing hips though
I mean I'm not sure what I'm gonna do with them but they make jeans look nice I guess
>>6201074
Ok Since Faye is Anglo, she can have like one or 2 tops,
And you're part Latina right, so you don't get the 13, so I guess 7 tops :p
Pic related, how Faye's freaking out when we bring a male stripper to the bachelorette party.
>>6201116
so long as there's baileys and a load of crude heckling at whatever the entertainment is, stag night, hen night, who cares
>>6201116
>Girls.. This is getting out of hand... There will be absolutely... None of.. This
nuh uh, the groom has to wear a dress, its part of a stag party
>>6201123
My wedding dress
>>6201133
Ok you're team bride now
>>6201124
Dress or pants, you have to chose
>>6201024
I don't rlly know the uav market too well but I'm pretty sure there are fixed-wing ones, uavs/drones just better covers the full range of current and potential machines and is more fluid in discussion than "rc helicopters and rc planes"
>Idiot women "journalists" proliferated the use of the term drone as a way to make rc copters seem spooky or dangerous like military drone airplanes
lol yeah getting sexist about it and blaming "idiot women" will totally get everyone to stop saying uav and drone
anyway I'm pretty sure military drone helicopters would seem just as spoopydangerous, I mean alarmists love to rant about black government helicopters
>Just because its popular doesn't make the term correct at all
except that language does change and evolve based on popular usage, everyone understands drone to refer to remote control flying machine whether it's a little toy rc plane or helicopter or big military ones
put a little more thought into your argument, like seriously
>just like racial slurs
ALL new terms spread like that, that's the "you know who else liked dogs? HITLER!" of arguments
#benus
Dear /mtfg/
Would you suck a dick if you got to look like this?
>>6201136
>tfw you look like a man version of your mom
At least I don't look like my dad like my brothers do.
>>6201135
No such thing.
>>6201144
>Ok you're team bride now
but I don't think she likes me because of like the you know 4 YEARS of me being a fuckass and starting the whole dollface mafia shit
>>6201148
id suck a dick even if i stayed the same dear
>>6201146
R I P
>>6201148
I am not a fan of the looks, but Id kill for her ovaries.
>>6201134
I'm too bad and people no longer care about playing against since they'll obviously win
>>6201148
I don't want to avoid sucking dick to avoid looking like that. It would be so much work to get that into a body I like.
>>6201092
wow whoa stop right there succubus, we aren't even married so you can't talk to me like that!
Reminder that being trans is a choice.
>>6201164
>is going to bite me in the ass,
how?
you could use the weight
>>6201167
this is true, we could choose to be dead instead
>>6201156
rest in peppermint
>>6201164
Right?
I don't think I've ever seen somebody with as perfect of a body.
These threads have gotten so weird I'm glad I stopped tripping
>>6201133
I don't. Think of the calories.
>>6201074
Of course I need a lot more time too.
>>6201148
Yes but it seems like a pretty good deal desu
>>6201130
Oh shit sorry. No I don't mean I like that. I'm just really dark skinned, have black hair and really deep brown eyes that arw kind of pretty and girly and also quite a prominent nose. I think traditionally Jewish looking girls are really attractive. It was more being hopeful on my part than anything else.
>>6201148
I would cut off my own dick and eat it to look like her
>>6201137
>guys, really...
>it does nothing to me
>can't I go to the bathroom at least?
>I'll trade places so, come on...
>>6201168
never!
(I'm covered in hideous stretch marks down there)
>>6201170
i made the wrong choice
>>6201173
its less weird than it was in 2013 tbqphwy
>>6201136
>tfw you inherit your mum's clown feet and man hands but worse because testosterone
>at least I got her child bearing hips though
Kek exact same except without the hips. I remember her and I comparing our hand shape and size and it was the same until I turned like 18 and then it all went to shit. Also I got her saggy underchin which is killing me already and I'm not even that old or fat yet aaaa
>>6201148
Sure, everything is an upgrade.
>>6201100
>>6201124
yeah if there was a label for bornstein it would be something other than a "hon"
she (i don't know her pronouns) has both very masculine and feminine angles tbqh
>>6201128
yeah, yeah...knitting circle......
>>6201132
i've been on HRT for as long as kayla, desu. like 14 months now.
though i was on HRT sparingly off and on prior.
>>6201133
i would literally never. my wedding dress is going to be fucking gorgeous ;__; and i won't eat for months
>>6201137
so i can have 7 bridesmaids, huh? WHO TF AM I GOING TO PICK THO
>>6201144
pft you're not wearing a tuxedo!!
>>6201173
the only winning move is not to play
>>6201170
Wrong again.
>>6201157
>tfw don't enjoy video games like I used to because I know I will win in any game
I wish I didn't give up so easily in real life because then I would probably pass.
:c
>>6201168
>tfw mom isn't even slightly masculine
>tfw hyper masculine
fug
>>6201186
i want to suck on your toes
>>6201173
trip on shakira
why is it so hard to get you girls to post pics of yourself
i just want to see your feet
>hrt made me a masculine version of my mother
>>6201177
it could be clothed, so we can recognize your ass if we visit you some day
>>6201181
unironically: If I were to timetravel Id tell myself to kms as soon as my sister turned 18.
>>6201188
I am always right. its the world thats wrong.
>>6201197
I posted pics on my feet once but the person was nice and polite
>>6201148
Is there some kinda downside I'm missing?
>>6201197
they look like man feet, it's like posting hands, you could just go to femboi general for that and they'll love it.
>>6201186
>i've been on HRT for as long as kayla, desu. like 14 months now. though i was on HRT sparingly off and on prior.
Idk what age that ends up being but seems pretty hopeless for me since you're just a few months ahead and look infinitely more passing, discounting the nice hair and everything else.
Guess I'll just take it slow until an hero or the ever so improbable pass. Thank you!
>>6201202
I have a hideous boy butt
>>6201207
of my*
>>6201204
good plan. i feel like it gets hard over time as you find love and are loved. i don't want to kill myself less, but i worry about the people i've loved blaming themselves for not seeing it soon enough to help
>>6201208
Obviously it's not gonna be a handsome dick, on a handsome guy, that ought to be a given.
>>6201186
Don't tell a bride what she can and not wear on her wedding day
>>6201212
>childbearing hips
>boybutt
you can only pick one senpai
>>6201212
Doesn't everyone here?
>>6201181
Painful isn't it. You've made a choice you can't go back on.
You listened to a fairy tale inside your head. You let yourself become deluded.
Repression General is always right.
>>6201198
>as abusive as your mother
>as crazy as you portray her
>but with the T rage to back up your madness
seems about right
>>6201211
makeup and presentation mostly. you look girly too ya know idk why you're being such a downer on yourself. makeup goes a looking way contouring is ur best friend
>ywn go to edies super girly knitting circle
>ywn go to fayes super duper manly man fest without any male strippers, girly drinks or faye wearing a dress which is traditional for the groom to do on their bucks night... because absolutely none of that will be happening, nope
>>6201217
The dick could be half rotten, I'd still suck it
>>6201144
>tfw dresses actually suit your body type but the face ruins it
;-;
>>6201221
no, repression is not the right choice. suicide > transitioning > repression
i transitioned well so i'm stuck living to not discourage those who look up to me.
>>6201198
>tfw my mom is prettier than me
she's in the middle desu
>>6201211
i'm going to be 25 next month.
the thing is, being on HRT before helped with my face even tho i was off and on with it, and i still abuse angles and stuff.
with makeup on i pass like... 95% of the time. prob less without it, but whenever i haven't worn it i've never been misgendered.
but idk, even if you're not blessed with decent features, you can make it up with cosmetics. that's why i wear it.
>>6201218
w-well if you really want to wear a tux...why do we ascribe to gender roles so much
>>6201222
Bringin the bantz
anyone have the picture of the train who does some cutom orchi tech and then cooks/ serves them on tooth picks? N-no homo
>>6201222
uh oh time for me to leave
bye everyone else
>>6201221
Oh there we go again.
>>6201221
i''d say suicide is the one you can't go back on, you can always go back to suicide unless the other option is inmortality.
the non stop /pol/ invasions are getting a little old. anyone ever wonder why they're so obsessed with trannies? seems suspect to me
>>6201151
Same. My brother looks exactly like my dad did at his age. I've always looked like a guy version of my mom (and always will ;_;)
I also inherited her low self-esteem it seems
>>6201146
Ebin
>>6201148
I'd suck the nastiest dick in the world for that body
>>6201167
I chose my intense hatred of myself desu. I just crave attention
>>6201239
bye kayla
>>6201214
>i don't want to kill myself less, but i worry about the people i've loved blaming themselves for not seeing it soon enough to help
THIS SHIT IS MY EXACT PROBLEM. I dont want him to feel like he wasnt good enough to save me. the simple truth is I dont have the strength anymore to be saved, no matter what he does. I just wanna go but that would destroy him and I love him too much to do that. this situation just really sucks and Ive no idea what to do ._.
>>6201235
>>6201246
i mean u are being a massive bitch to her u provoked tho
>>6201235
Hey just checking in, is your mom single yet?
>>6201184
she's just old is all
her shoulders are wide but shoulders don't make you not pass, of all the masculine traits broad shoulders is probably the one that cis women have the most
I've got 19.5 inch shoulders and even I don't get particularly wound up over it, not compared to my upper chest circumference or my face
Kate Bornstein's life story though holy shit biopic when
She's soooo peeerf
Her face is a bit uncanny though, but who cares about that.
>>6201167
WHY DON'T I WEAR A MASK?!
>>6200709
Isn't me.
I like Korra :)
Spartan if you're here we love you. Come back.
>>6201252
>disagreeing with her = BAD
>agreeing with her = BAD
>>6201256
>everyone but straight men has bad taste in women
Women are at their best when they're T H I C C
>>6201234
That's because you are weak. I didn't hide away from the pain of dysphoria. I bathed in it. Embraced it. Let it agonise my soul for until I acclimatised.
I let it consume my entire being in pain. And as a result. It can never have the same affect on me again. I have become immune.
>>6201243
tbhon they look better than my dad since he has disgusting black hair.
Feels good to be shorter than my younger brother though, trutrans ; )
>>6201219
It's true
my hips are like 17" across but my butt literally looks like this
ps are 17" wide hips actually that wide? Google told me the average was like 13.5" but they don't look THAT wide really
>>6201249
take better antidepressants and get a decent therapist 6 months from now.
I love you and all, Phien, but some of your issues are a bit too text book depression...
>>6201235
You're the one saying a girl has to wear a dress! I'm just more comfortable wearing clothes that match my body. Just be a good little girl and let daddy handle it.
>>6201235
>even if you're not blessed with decent features, you can make it up with cosmetics
what about me
>>6201255
>biopic when
I'm sure there's at least one.
>>6201263
Nope.
Look at this, straight men would become so protective for this fragile body.
>>6201123
>My wedding dress
Love it!
>>6201103
There will not be "a stripper" at the bachelorette party. Pic related
>7 bride4smaids
Sass obvs #1Bridesmaid
ummm...What other 6 friends do u want?
>>6201249
same desu, too many of the people I care about suffer from depression themselves and I don't want them to follow suit
>>6201262
exactly
>>6201250
LMAAO
my family is crazy anyways. latina af, pic related. literally my mom, grandma, and great grandma. like how many ppl still have their great grandma?
>>6201253
n-no
>>6201269
w-well...a-alright daddy........ o////////o
>>6201270
you could too but you spent hours bitching to me about how you couldn't so here we are lmao
>>6201274
u-um...IDK.... I WANT EVERYONE AT/IN MY WEDDING AND IDK WHAT TO DO
>>6201269
>I'm just more comfortable wearing clothes that match my body
I don't think a suit is what matches your body
>>6201266
17" across?
how do that?
>>6201249
at least i'm single now. if i can convince every one in my life that i'm happy and adjusted for a while maybe then i can go
>>6201283
my plan is presenting it as if I were moving away and then jumping to a river deep enough no one will find me.
>>6201267
>take better antidepressants
I am off now, and off E
it cant get worse.
maybe it could get better, but I cant be bothered atm. I need to go to my GP anyway though, maybe I will ask for a referral to a psych
>but some of your issues are a bit too text book depression...
what did you mean by this
>>6201283
do you still have friends?
>>6201240
Kroc is a laughable faggot. It takes more than brawn to repress.
It takes a mental discipline he lacked.
>>6201249
>I just wanna go but that would destroy him and I love him too much to do that
I think that's a really common situation to be in, for anyone not just trans girls. the brain eventually doesn't remember how to not be sad and depressed anymore
hopefully you can get a psych and antidepressants soon :\
>>6201276
I honestly think youre a better person than I am in a lot of ways.
>>6201287
yes, but not many local due to work relocation. if i start posting fun things on facebook and decrease skype presence people might believe i'm better
>>6201225
>you look girly too ya know
I don't see it and judging by from what I learned in the previous thread whatever feedback I get are just null compliments when you have nothing better to say. And that's just regarding face which is not what I'm the most worried about since there's always the possibility of FFS even if I cant afford it anytime soon. I'm 6' tall and my shoulders are wide, hips narrow, arms, fingers and feet are all clunky and horrible bone structure. I don't know how to make this setup work at all so I don't have much confidence in it.
>>6201235
>even if you're not blessed with decent features, you can make it up with cosmetics
I don't have that much faith in it but guess there's no harm in trying if I ever manage to find an affordable site that ships here. Going to be a massive drag (pun not intended) to learn by myself
>>6201266
How did you measure hip width? Can't find any standard for just width it's always circumference.
http://kaitlyngender.com/
I bring you the porn spoof of Caitlyn Jenner
>>6201170
>greasy microwaved chicken
>cant eat it all right away bc lol *ding dong* eyy yo can i get a pack of newport shorts and a pack a swishers
idk senpai you tell me
>>6201279
Good, now that we got that settled
>>6201300
Isn't he detransitioning?
>>6201303
is that the dress you're going to wear and be beautiful in?
>>6201287
>I am off now, and off E
>it cant get worse.
Remember to tell him you'd like to try another drug because this one isn't producing the effects it's supposed to. Psychs, even if the name sugests it, can't read minds and need to know if a medication isn't working as it's supposed to. There's a reasson why there are like six big name ADs and a dozen others, all of them in current use.
They way you present your worries sound like something you'd see in a pamphlet about spotting depression. Maybe some sort of language barrier makes it sound like that, but reading your posts reminds me of multiple youtube videos and testimonies of people whose life changed with antidepressants.
>>6201279
Well, Just invite everyone then and choose from those who really want to be a part of it....you know people start flaking out making excuses, etc. whatevs, you're laid back, you know things will be awesome in the end.
but #1bridesmaidSASS
>The body shape with the most attractive measures is for a clothing size about size 14, with 101cm hip circumference (in imperial measure, about 40 inches) 77cm waist circumference (about 30 inches) and shoulder width of 43cm (about 17 inches)
HOLY SHIT THAT'S LITERALLY ALMOST EXACTLY M--
>These dimensions are for a woman about 163cm tall (5 feet 4 inches)
>>6201305
No...
Some guy said that he speculated that jenner was gonna detransition, because transition is hard.
>>6201261
Did that faggot run off back to /fit/?
>>6201300
>http://kaitlyngender.com/
>Hahahaha! let's laugh at the trannies, because they're a fucking joke!
>Let's fap and laugh and laugh and fap!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHA
MFW
>>6201204
>that image
jesus christ
TFW phie will never stand over you and dominate you in an ss uniform
>>6201299
i went to school for makeup, and trust me, it can really change the way you look. compare that makeup-less pic to this one wit me and maddie.
you don't have to learn by yourself, desu. i'm here and i love makeup ;3;
>>6201303
that would look beautiful on you bby o//3//o
>>6201313
#firstclassbridesmaidsass
>>6201320
taller women are also more attractive to men. that's why Naomi Campbell is a goddess to so many men. she's all legs. i'm like 5'7" and lucky that i'm all legs too but sometimes wish i was taller ;__;
>>6201320
>obesity
>most attractive
I want off of uncle sam's wild ride
>>6201239
>time for me to go anon
ftfy
>>6201261
>>6201324
Repression General claims another! I knew my presence would get through to someone eventually.
>>6201330
Teach me bb
>>6201306
Weddings make me anxious, none of my friends or family want to see me walking down the aisle as a man Ina dress
>>6201320
>>6201331
>Thick women.
This is good for me, tho
>>6201246
Kayla is probably the nicest gal here.
Do you bully her because of jealousy?
So I'm defiantly go for jaw revision.
Hopefully in October or November
>>6201335
it should really be called future hons general
>>6201293
lol like how?
maybe I'm not very malicious compared to most people but it's because of a deficit of personality and emotional abilities, not because I'm exceptionally kind.
is evil the absence of good, or good the absence of evil?
thanks though
>>6201348
>nicest
Ha.
>gal
HA!
>>6201335
Have you picked out your girl name?
>>6201341
>Weddings make me anxious, none of my friends or family want to see me walking down the aisle as a man Ina dress
who cares, its your wedding
you wear a pretty dress if you want
hey guys.
i've been wondering,
should i donate my sperm before transitioning?
>>6201330
Can you do artsy makeup? Like avant-garde stuff? Stuff not for everyday use but more like pic related?
And also, what do you think of men in casual makeup?
Like, not femboys or any of that. Basically just imagine a modern clean shaven man with makeup. I'll probs post a pic related if you decide to reply.
>>6201364
donate, or freeze for personal use?
>>6201354
She has a really hard time because you guys bully her all the time and you're all spoiled while she's really struggling.
>>6201368
donate
>>6201364
not unless youre ok with being a dad biologically
>>6201344
For the tiny snippets of pics you've shown I'd say you could have a chance at valkrye/amazon route
>>6201372
>wanting to be a father
>>6201369
Kayler is not struggling. He's just a retard. He's been a retard for the past six or seven years and will continue to be a retard for the next six or seven years. And Lalalarry is not any better.
>>6201302
OH right
I have all the faith in you tho
<3
>>6201291
yeah... Id prefer to get cancer though.
>>6201296
I started distancing myself from my former friends when I started transitioning (and being a depressed mess) the only ones that would care would be my bf and my immediate family. my sister is strong and my parents kinda had enough chances to help me. its not their fault that I am broken, but they arent exactly good at understanding me either, theyd get over it. the better daughter would still be there
>>6201312
my current or rather previous medication worked. I was still really sad but I could go about without thinking of killing myself all day.
but I was selfmedding, a new psych would only know what I tell them, but Idk If I have the energy to talk to one. having problems with being able to be in a room with a man I dont know might also not make this easier, Idk.
my BF says I need a strong ad and an antipsychotic, and maybe something for anxiety thats non addictive. Idk.
>>6201328
maybe I will some day
>pic
>>6201353
I dont have an answer to that sadly. but when I find out I will tell you.
>>6201357
>36-28-40
flannel is broken and shouldn't be allowed to keep showing off her cis features
>>6201351
Perhaps for some of the lesser skilled recruits. But not me.
Just remember. You will all be dead and the repressors will have access to 2040s mental healthcare, high tech VR and will have built successful make lives to fund it.
And access to new neurosciences.
I wouldn't be too worried.
>>6201359
Never. because there is no such thing as a female self. Only a mental illness that wills such a delusion
>>6201380
Didn't she literally talk about getting woken up by her neighbors helicopter this week, let that sink in, how many of your neighbors have helicopters.
>>6201330
>compare that makeup-less pic to this one
One looks like a pretty girl without makeup and the other looks like a pretty girl with makeup?
>you don't have to learn by yourself, desu. i'm here and i love makeup ;3;
Thanks I'll keep that in mind! Remote help is still remote tho, you can't go "oh shit nigga what are you doing" until I've already gone ahead and done it :D
Too bad all the products on that list you linked me the last time we talked about this are from amazon which doesn't ship here T~T
>>6201304
Maybe my brain is just slow today but I don't understand how you got that measurement still. 40'' around is nice, bigger than mine and same circumference as my shoulders. Also
>trying to put a hip against wall requires some awkward maneuvering of shoulders
Cissies get out reee
>>6201320
>HOLY SHIT THAT'S LITERALLY ALMOST EXACTLY M--
>tfw will never feel this feel, even if it was a brief feel
Consider yourself lucky
>>6201341
i will teach u bb. can't wait to be around you 24/7 and force makeup on you tbdesu lmao
also if your family wants to be shitty they don't have to come. ~___~
>>6201357
idk. i just wear heels a lot. i like being like 5'11". it's nice when i get to wear 6" heels and be taller than faye and pet her head.
>>6201367
yes, i can do that kind of makeup!
in that pic they're just using sponges and synthetic flat head concealer brushes for a lot of the creams.
i don't care if a man wears makeup or not. i have dated men who wear makeup and i think it's cute.
the guy i hung out in philly for a week with in february did cosplay a lot and regularly wore foundation and stuff.
I'm buying a tank top/camisole
Is it OK to buy a pink one or is that something a ho would do?
>>6201382
hmmm....
does that mean that transgenderism can be construed as a virus that ails cultures?
>>6201397
you could take down an entire nation like that
>>6201367
something like this?
>>6201351
Unlike here which is current hons General
>>6201388
At this point it's very hard to separate the truth from badly told lies.
Kayler is inept at lying, as with most things.
>>6201393
hey edie, whats up? :)
how's life?
do you have a tentative move date? or general time frame, like summer, fall, winter? when you'll move? :P
>>6201396
>ho
*hon
>>6201377
>angry dyke
>give us your creme now!
l m a o
>>6201384
I don't have cis features I have bizarre proportions is what I have
that 36 is only because of my weird man ribcage and my hips are gonna end up looking like this if they get any wider
>>6201392
I do consider myself lucky
were you here for my whingy meltdown about that a while ago?
>>6201393
>6" heels
jesus lol if I wore those I'd be bumping into the tops of doorways
>>6201382
Nothing
I just feel that my jaw is still a bit too square and I'm going to see if can get the ends a bit shaved off to be rounded further
>>6201403
I'm the only hon here
>>6201383
>I was still really sad but I could go about without thinking of killing myself all day.
that's not the intended effect, that's like saying you took an anti fever mediation and it took it down a couple degrees, it's like saying it didn't work.
>>6201383
p-please
also my boops are actually growing now so im going to gain weight if it kills me
>>6201401
i'm the only hon in this general.
>>6201401
one thing dosen't change the other
>>6201407
>were you here for my whingy meltdown about that a while ago?
Probs. My memory isn't that great due to being tired 24/7 and due to overdose of 'ironic' animu shitposting memes.
>>6201417
terminal illnesses are the holy grail. it's no one's fault and everyone has time to organize supporting each other when you go.
plus, of course, you die
>>6201407
the size of your ribcage is only easy to notice in relation to your other sizes.
>>6201414
but you're the queen, baby!
>>6201404
stop slacking off, go write your paper!
>>6201412
I BELIEVE IN YOU SO MUCH <3
>>6201410
Isnt it? I am sad cause of a chemical imbalance in my brain, I am sad cause my life sucks, because I am an ugly freak, because I am lonely and because Ill never be a girl, because I am just not good enough. no pill is going to stop those realities.
>>6201417
>I really don't think you actually want that...
itsa like suicide, without the guilt. and I get to prepare my family and make sure theyre gonna be as okay as possible. its perfect.
>>6201434
ugly bald men can't be queens.
>>6201392
i suppose so :x do you have any friends who could help you irl with stuff?
>>6201404
hi pan!!! life is good. i'm just sort of chillin'. i was gonna work but it looks like shit. lmao
whenever i get this feeling that it's gonna be bad, i go on, and it ends up being bad and i end up pissed off. so ya.
life is p good! idk. i'm moving SOON. i hate living here. i'm trying for like next month. how are you btw?!
>>6201407
long legs are gorg tho desu!!!!! one of my trans friends is your height and is 6'6" in heels all the time lol. she loves it.
this was my fall/winter 2015 aesthetic with giant black heels at all times and i luved it. very everyday lingerie hooker chic.
>>6201411
w-what
>>6201437
>I am sad cause of a chemical imbalance in my brain,
I am NOT sad cause of a chemical imbalance in my brain
>>6201438
then be a princess babe
>>6201421
Better to be a hon in the year 2040 than throw your life away in 2016
>>6201447
ugly bald men can't be princesses you fucking hugboxing dipshit.
>>6201437
<3 <3
If you're mostly depressed bc of a chemical imbalance then mdma around people you love and trust will pretty much fix it though
>tfw u put ur penis inside ur gfs penis
am i gay now
>>6201376
>MFW Not sure if compliment or microagression
>>6201397
I don't know, does it? Virus in pop culture conjures the idea of some sort of parasite who takes and gives nothing in return. I was referring to the sentiment that it's more important transmitting your values than transmitting your genes.
>>6201393
5'11" in 6 inch heels. I'd be 6'5" ugh,,,,no more than 4 inchers for me. and even then I'd need a man to be 6'5" min....that shit's like a small dating pool.
>>6201437
we seem to e on the same page with every comment here >>6201425
i appreciate your thoughts but let's never be friends so i can stay anonymous and we don't feed each other's suicidal ideation
>>6201449
being drugged up and kept comfortable in a final few months is way better than dehydration and slow organ failure
>>6201383
I think something you fail to realize is that you're an idea for many people here, or at least for me. An image of someone struggling so beautifully. I'll speak straight from the heart so get ready for cringe. While some others may share similar perils, yours have always stuck out to me, and despite the odds gnawing at your ankles, you still stand.
You're already in the second half of your twenties, many people think you are beautiful, and you have spoken about your troubles with honesty and the ability to reflect.
What you fail to realize is that at least for me, but I'm almost certain for many others as well, you symbolize that we can stand against the odds. That we can make it. That despite our burden we can still look forward to something.
I don't want to guilt you into not doing what you feel is right, and it is probably a lot that I'm burdening you with here, but what I am trying to say is that to me, you're the underdog that has clawed her way through life and is still breathing. I'm rooting for you, and I think a lot of people here are as well. You can fight your depression, as I think I can too.
Either way, even if you stop posting here, even if you cut off all ties in the world and manage to lay yourself to rest in solitude, you've been able to put an idea in my head. The idea that I can make it as far as you and continue on. That I can beat suicidal thoughts, and love someone despite being broken, and feeling like a run down house that nobody wants to live in. Even though you've only posted in the general everybody on this board hates, you've inspired me.
And I believe in you.
/cringe
/blog
/whatever
I hope you do well, wherever you go.
>Oh, I always stand like this, I promise
>>6201261
I hope he commits suicide tbhq
>>6201411
if it's any consolation, if I get boobs anything like my sister has I'm gonna have a WAY harder time than you finding clothes lol
>>6201423
eh well I'm not gonna repeat it because it made me sound like a whiny piece of shit
>>6201428
this is why I'm kind of worried about getting a narrower waist honestly
it'll make my ribcage look enormous lol
I think once the fat starts going to the right places I'll just gain a bunch of weight and be thicc to hide it
>>6201443
really? jesus
that's good for her I guess lol
>>6201437
>no pill is going to stop those realities.
You know how poor people are happy that they reach end of month with a few spare euros while rich people get sad that their backs hurt? Sadness and happyness are meant to stabilize in a way that you always feel both at different times. If your situation doesn't change and you keep feeling sad for the same things, that's a chemical imbalance. Accepted realities aren't meant to make you feel particularly bad, or good. Even more when they only come from you and the people around you don't impose their feelings on you.
If you feel bad or meh all the time then the ADs aren't working and you need to try another like absolutely every person that takes them. It's how they work, again, you have like half a dozen different drugs because they work differently even if they share the name.
>2 bros just hanging out and having a couple of beers
>>6201348
Mei occuli ex orbis contendunt
Quam pulchri plebei tibi sun kayla
>>6201438
if you marry a king you can be.
now, a princess is harder because your parents should be kings and that anon was joking not hugboxing.
>>6201452
>>6201460
youre so nice, I am just too dumb to type tho. it most certainly isnt chemical.
>>6201456
>i appreciate your thoughts but let's never be friends so i can stay anonymous and we don't feed each other's suicidal ideation
thats alright with me. if you ever change your mind and want to talk to me tho, drop me a message.
>>6201461
Kys hon
>>6201454
>>MFW Not sure if compliment or microagression
sort of compliment, not really because I have very little to work on, but no attempt at agression here.
>>6201299
idk what to tell you of my post gets entirely disregarded to complain some more. I regret saying anything now desu
>>6201472
shut the fuck up.
>>6201468
More like two hons :^)
>>6201393
Im a dude, and am not very faggy to boot. But wearing make up is one of those things I'd like to try sometime. But not casual makeup, something artistic and expressive. Something I wouldn't wear everyday. A little something something, yaknow?
Maybe Imma find a female friend who's into makeup one day. Is that kinda makeup hard to do?
>>6201461
seconding the motion
>>6201451
well then shut the fuck up and get the fuck over, bud. wah im not pretty so I'll be a fag in an already shitty thread just to make shit shittier. youre worse than the repressor spergs I s2g why do you even use a trip
>>6201478
you're not bald manbodied hon.
>>6201468
Well this is cute af imo
>>6201468
>2 brows
>>6201454
you don't have to date someone who is taller than you for that stuff tho. like faye is shorter than me in heels and it's okie.
>>6201462
>tfw i literally stand like this all of the time because i was in gymnastics for most of my childhood
yay scoliosis
>>6201464
lmao!! "GOOD FOR THAT GIANT BITCH I GUESS"
>>6201468
d'AWWWWWW U CUTIESSS
HOW ARE THINGS GOING
>>6201480
oh, not really! i mean the makeup in the pic you just posted is incredibly easy to do. like 30 mins tops.
the more glittery one is like... foundation, contour, and then the colors. so it would take like 30-40 mins.
mixing it up tho is good bb.
>>6201400
Well that is fairly artistic. But wholly theatrical, trying to portray an image, or a scene. While that stuff is cool, it's been used in theatre since forever. I'm looking for something more like pic related.
It's not direct or incredibly telling, but it's still loud and sort of in the face.
Ya know what I mean?
>tfw no high test gf
>>6201499
lol well I'm a giant bitch too
>>6201489
neither are you
your bdd is my reality
>>6201474
Not today old friend, not today
>>6201502
I just wanted to stealthily post a prehrt pic to get responses, how about something like this?
>>6201443
>do you have any friends who could help you irl with stuff?
Nope, none at all.
It's one of the reasons why I want to move out of here so badly. I'd much rather be alone somewhere where I can order amazon products (and pizza) to :D
>>6201476
I'm sorry I just have a hard time taking compliments in this state of mind, especially as vague ones as 'you look girly'. It still made me feel better if that's worth anything
Just bought a "girls rule" t-shirt
tacky?
>>6201515
yes i am. you're more feminine than me.
>>6201489
is this rawr or that weird stalker obsessed with them that always posts their old pics?
rawr's hair seems fine now and her body always seemed fine and her face is way better than mine
the general's husbando psoted a new video!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zx1Vk_vOXFs
>>6201524
I really prefer the
>no ovaries
>no opinions
that you can point at whener you don't have anything to say about any subject
>>6201516
Wanna be my high test """""bf""""""?
>>6201524
hon
>>6201503
>LITERALLY SCREAMING WATCHING THIS GIF
WHY WOULD YOU POST THIS?!?!? WHY
WHWYWHWYHWYWHWYWHWYWHWYHWYWYHWYHWYWYYWYW
>>6201532
>hon
at least it's not pink...
>>6201499
How long did it take you to learn that kinda stuff? The more extravagant stuff I mean.
>>6201518
Yeah, that kinda stuff is exactly what I mean! I think it looks really amazing. And your pic is... well, I think the whole image looks really amazing as an artwork. Can't really comment on your appearance. What was the idea behind the art?
>>6201516
Ah. That's good. Even through being flooded with estrogen. You see the truth.
It's a shame you realised it too late.
>>6200997
Transgenderism is White Genocide. You're encouraging mental illness. Trannies as as likely to suicide pre op as post op.
>>6201538
>getting my dick mutilated tomorrow
>tfw no idea when I'll be able to get srs
>>6201536
S-sorry
>>6201538
I'm a girl at heart but I look very masc.
>>6201462
i think that might be overdoing it
>>6201536
It's just a crab you dumb estrogen filled moron
>>6201186
I've been on for 14 as well..
But you were like 8 months prior?
>>6201544
but plenty of non-white people are trans
>Trannies as as likely to suicide pre op as post op
not true
enjoy a few (you)s but u should put a little more effort into ur bait if u actually wanna "trigger the degenerates" or whateves
>>6201544
Ahh! /pol/ always a pleasure to see you my brother
Repression General here. Fighting the good fight as always. To CURING mental illness. Not encouraging it
>>6140021
>>6201544
These pol memes are getting lazy. Lazier than me on rest days
>>6201561
still look way better than me
>>6201561
I...I think youre a pretty girl..
>>6201570
We know. You filthy fucking spic
>>6201461
w-wow anon, thats probably the nicest response Ive ever received on 4chan.
thank you! this is kinda of how I see dollface, ufufu or frenchfry, I am pretty blown away.
though, I see it more like, me just being a really weak person. I started out with so many positives, and still end up like this. its a little embarassing. your interpretation is really nice though. I hope you find your way, hopefully its a better way than my own. if you ever need my help or advice, poke me!
>>6201466
wait, I dont know a lot about this, does this mean living with constant dysphoria (cause I am very unhappy with how I look and act and everything, in essense) is something that can be normalized by medication? I am genuinely wondering, I have no idea.
>>6201481
prozac in 2013 (up to 80mg, did nothing)
and valdoxan (was taking it now, 50mg)
I guess I should take something stronger, but I dont really know what.
>>6201525
I wish you wouldn't troll
my shoulders are twice the width of yours
my forearms are bigger than your calves
I'm a man bodied man
now stop
good luck tomorrow
>>6201544
I wish I had ovaries and could let a white /pol/ guy impregnate me and make pure white children and raise them well
>>6201540
nothing.. wrong.. with... pink?
>>6201541
i was in school for makeup for liiiikeeee.... i forget actually. i wanna say like 7-8 months?
the more theatric portion was about a month and a half. learned theatre, drag (ha ha), special fx, and i want to say period makeup during that time which is like 20s, 30s, 40s etc
like 80-90 hour minimum dedicated to each.
>>6201547
;_____________________; i-i-i-i-it's fine
>>6201549
the first time i made salmon, i literally turned the meat side over to the side with skin, and happily yelled 'FISHHYYY' only to realize that it was dead and then i disassociated really badly and started crying. i just don't like watching qt marine animals dead/dying, it fucks with me ok??
>>6201552
yaaa, i was on shots for 8 months then had to stop for 3 months which really, reallllllllly sucked
>>6201570
...i do know lol
>>6201580
ur hair seems fine in the recent pics and I'm way uglier
>>6201580
I'm not fucking hugboxing. I'm literally one of the most brutally honest people here...
Ask around.
I'm fucking serious. Stop being a bitch
>>6201499
It's fun ^-^ we have 5 days in Portland beginning tomorrow and no plans... Also Cyba is a total lush
>>6201493
Are you talking about my hair lmao
>she doesn't know what a stretched root is
>>6201582
Jesus fucking Christ on a stick
>>6201536
the crab doesnt always lose
>>6201589
Said every hugboxer ever
>>6201585
I shoot rabbits. Gut them and eat them. Pretty sure I shot one and its offspring starved to death.
>>6201503
I think I got banned once for posting this on a blue board, good times.
>>6201597
this.
any tc rooms? :x
>>6201541
>What was the idea behind the art?
looking like a painting with movement, there was this gal that did those pieces with a model and a set but from the right angle looks 2D, they wanted to get something like that for what they told me.
>>6201596
still way better looking than me
>>6201608
Being spergy doesn't mean you give good feedback.
>>6201605
You should kill yourself.
Why waste time right? You're only prolonging your misery
>>6201536
crabs are adorable
[spoilertbhfam]but theyre even more delicious[/spoilertbhfam]
>>6201612
this is really good advice but you accidentally linked it to one person rather than addressing us all
>>6201581
You really don't need to thank me. I need to thank you. You've inspired me just by existing. Your existence has given me hope for the future.
And as said, if you ever feel like you don't want to live anymore, know that you've left a mark on this world and someome will always keep you in their thoughts.
>>6201611
I'll tell someone if they'r not passing. Last time I did, everyone got buttmad.
Rawr is a qt
Furthermore, there was 2 sides of sperg
>>6201593
OMG I NEVER GET TO POST THIS
>>6201592
repression doesn't work
transition doesn't work after you try to repress
death works, death stops it
>>6201602
rabbits are tasty!
I'd like to raise some, I wonder if angora ones are good for eating too or if there's a crossbreed with more meat-breeds
>>6201621
Many hugboxers said this before hugboxing me.
>>6201581
>living with constant dysphoria (cause I am very unhappy with how I look and act and everything, in essense) is something that can be normalized by medication?
to a certain degree it should compensate most of the side aspects like anxiety at being seen by others, how hard it hits when you notice something manly, how much you enjoy being with your loved ones.
It can't cure disphoria or this general wouldn't exist, but having it on top of your head most of the time just isn't natural for correct chemistry. People who can barely afford food tend to think about other things until they have to buy food, being unable to move from a certain negative aspect of your life is a common sign of depression.
But don't take the word of an anon, discuss with your doctor that you've heard of other people with depression, that they seem to have better results than what you're getting and that you'd like to try other antidepressants to see if they work better. Even more if you are already detoxing from prozac by accident, nothing to lose.
And I think I told you before that prozac is probably the less effective thing out there.
>>6201623
Repression works when you aren't a undisciplined fatty.
If you can't even control the food you eat what fucking chance in hell did you gave of controlling your own mind.
Please rid us of your stupidity.
>with friend
>girl starts shouting
>" I like her shirt"
>friend turns and says oh mine
>I don't pay ante room
>" I like your shirt"
>don't pay attention
>"no hers"
>she's talking about me
>I guess I'm a girl rn
>tfw tell your friend's you're "too tired" to go see Civil War
>tfw you really just don't want to change out of the skirt you're wearing just to see a loud normie movie
>>6201536
tho the idea is to kill it quickly, u can put them to sleep by chilling them first too
when my partner and I cook lobsters we stab them in the brain right beforehand
>>6201591
LMAO ARE YOU BOTH JUST GETTING DRUNK THE WHOLE TIME?! what are you gonna dooo the next 5 dayssss?
>>6201593
t-thank you phien ;____; YOU'RE THE BEST *HAPPY TEARS*
>>6201602
>mfw
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YU4hhNKsPog
>>6201617
s-stop!!!!!!!!!
>>6201638
>that pic
same
ur always a girl bb sorry to break it to u
>>6201639
Why are transbians so autistic?
>>6201633
I could snap you in two you stupid little prick
>>6201607
Sounds neat. So you had no part in the creative process? Do you make art yourself, otherwise? In what context was this work supposed to be created? Uni or professional work already?
>>6201585
Yeah, I'll probably never find the time to learn all of that makeup stuff myself. Imma find someone to do it and get attractive enough to be a model until then.
Make up can be pretty cool desu.
>>6201608
>Stfu rawr. I've had a small crush on you since 2014
you first, dumbass. i'm not cute at all.
>>6201617
reminds me of the other day
>went fishing with family friend
>he brings a crab pot because we managed to hook a bunch of crabs last time
>walks over to the edge and throws the crab pot out
>looks down
>rope wasn't attached
>"oh"
I feel kind of bad for laughing like an absolute idiot
him and my dad went back at low tide with a pool net thing and I think they managed to get it back tho lol
>>6201577
>portuguese, Italian, american.
Spic, where?
racism is really funny, tho. Is it because I can speak spanish? Does that make W Bush a Spic? or is it because I was born in central America...like John McCain?
>>6201581
I've used Sertraline 50 mg (Zoloft in the US, Altruline Worldwide) with great results.
You don't have to feel this way Sophie. Ok, buy the 50 mg box, and start for one week taking 1/2 pill, 2 week 1 pill. keep that up for one month and then If you're still feeling like it's not working, add another 50 mg.
If you start, please don't stop. ADs are horrible for their rebound effects. your loss of appetite, feelings of hopelessness and despair sound like what I was going through when I quit cold turkey.
I love you Sophie. And I want to meet up with you one day. Give this treatment a shot before you decide anything. Please.
hmmmm
how do i:
1) identify what i want
2) get what i want
?
>>6201649
Don't let the anons get to you please...
is the thread still bitter and catty rn or is it better now?
>>6201667
I don't wanna be bitter, teach me your ways
>>6201661
I never had a fem faggot role play. I'm a man.
one who takes hormones, one who wants to be a woman. but I never will be.
death is my only option.
>>6201651
Fine bitchface. I'll continue not talking to you.
<3
You're cute.. But go ahead and keep up the self hate.
Ttyl
>>6201663
Keep trying new things;and take it
>>6201663
I wish I knew how to do even one or the other
>>6201663
last time i did 1 the answer to 2 was that i couldn't ever
i don't look for 1 any more
>>6201650
just watch tutorials! they'll teach ya lots.
>>6201644
;_________;
>>6201663
1. what do you want?
2. how do you intend on getting it?
>>6201667
i mean this is mtfg so idk if it's ever completely happy and supportive lol
>>6201684
who were the first two?
>>6201619
thats a very warming thought. I like it <3
>>6201632
alright, thank you!
I was taking valdoxan the last few days though, I havent taken prozac since 2013.
I have to go to my GP anyway cause I need a bloodtest for FFS, I want to ask for a referral maybe. issue is nobody here in this town wants to work with trannies, and Id prefer to not go like, further away, because sitting in public transport for that long is something I need weeks to recover from, which probably ist productive either, Idk. I am really scared theyll tell me to fuck off again though.
do you think smoking weed occasionally might help?
>>6201660
I kinda want to give zoloft and maybe lithium and seroquel a shot. but I cant just buy meds here. need a prescription, and doctors are dumb idiots here that would rather not give anyone meds.
>>6201667
I got the nicest (you) EVER just a bit earlier
>>6201646
>tfw you used to stare at thr tanks in seafood restaurant with amazement as kid
>"i want that one mommy"
>wanted to keep that crab and cherish it forever
>sister spends the next half hour explaining how the crab is being boiled alive right now and explaining in increasing detail how much its suffering
>laughs at the growing look of horror on my face
>dont eat crab
>tell my mom im nor hungry
>cry inside
>stop caring about animals and stuff that year bc dead inside to it all
I don't know why this thread made me sad. It seems I was joking about planning Edie-Faye wedding and all of a sudden hate, aggression, bleh
:(.
whatevs MTFG.
>>6201649
only thing u snapped was breadsticks m8
>>6201690
I am sorry, I am not having a good time at the moment. maybe I shouldnt post at all when I am sad
>>6201650
A friend asked me to act, we both study film but he's really a talented person currently in competition to enter cannes while I'm a huge failure of a human being and sort of prefer writing anyway.
Thanks for the combo, I guess.
>tfw alpha male even on hrt
>tfw manlier than most cis men
>>6201695
you're always allowed to post when you're sad. nobody gets help by keeping things in. and although nobody here is qualified, lots of us like to help
>>6201691
I was working at a timberyard, for 7 years.
lifting telegraph poles. onto my shoulder.
I was eating stupid amounts out of depression and effectively dirty bulking.
once, I was helping my brother take some stuff to the tip and I casually lifted a washing machine onto my shoulder and everyone there stopped what they were doing and watched me throw it into the compactor and then a guy told me that he wouldn't want to come across me in a dark alley.
I got big, I got bald... and then I got sick, and it all came crashing down and now I spend my time trying to aim for something I'll never be and I only ever made it worse for myself.
death is my only option.
>>6201689
;-; I'M SO SORRY
i never had that stuff as a kid, like i never really connected that i eat fishys that i once would have loved as a pet and swam with 24/7 till last year.
i feel ur pain...
>>6201690
;-; i'm sorry #sassfirstclass, don't be sad
>>6201693
you told me a few things you wanted tho!!! you definitely have sooooOOOOooome idea!!!!!
>>6201690
ugh yeah, I was all comfy wrapped in blankets in bed, feeling pretty nice, then I decided to open up /mtfg/ and it made me regret not seeing loud manly action movies with friends almost immediately
>>6201693
>oh :(
it's not a good day/month/year for me
in general i find the things i want by leaving my comfort zone a lot. eventually something grabs me and i chase it in whatever way is appropriate
>>6201703
depression is contagious though
>>6201683
Is that you without makeup? In the gif?
And also, the problem is it seems rather time consuming. My schedule doesn't really allow it right now. And I already have a bunch of time consuming hobbies that Im not ready to give up. And then there's my budget.
Why does life need to be so awesome and then tell you that you only get a century to try it out.
are you girls done being faggots yet or should I go back to my bideo gaim
its finally time to do it
>>6201714
everyone here is already depressed. and depression needs companionship
>>6201686
No to lithium, It just makes you numb. I've never tried seroquel. But Zoloft is awesome. you just start feeling better.
Also get your ass in bed and sleep. even if it means taking tylenol PM, or whatever thing Bayer makes and sells to get you to go to bed when you have a cold.
Not sleeping shits on your happiness. Sleep :(
>>6201695
Never in a million years was this referencing you <3
>>6201698
you get a boner from this, pal? you want to go on skype and watch me weep? I bet you do.
Never going to happen tho :)
>>6201686
It's funny in a sad way when you have to tolerate tons of stress just to visit someone that should relieve your stress. I don't know about valdoxan, did you get a different reaction than with prozac? It's useful if you can explain to the doctor what results you got from each one.
>weed
I wouldn't say it's the healthiest thing for someone with depression, it has no effects in the long run and it creates a bigger valley once the effect fades. But if you only do it occasionally I really don't know. Do you feel actually happy when stoned? If so it could at least serve as a diferentiation between your regular state and what your brain is capable of feeling like.
>>6201714
infect me t b h
>>6201716
yeee that's meee! i took that gif like....a bit ago now? i think? lemme check. .. . . . .. august, desu
makeup is magic. this gif is from that time as well.
what hobbies and stuff do you do now? i imagine you work a lot, too.
>>6201719
SHEEN STOP
>>6201683
>i mean this is mtfg so idk if it's ever completely happy and supportive lol
only one way I know how to fix that
>>6201726
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>>6201719
JackBlacktriesnewwhip.jpeg
>>6201719
BAD GIRL
>>6201719
fuck!!!! what!!!! stop!!!!
>>6201663
spending more time alone with yourself even when you feel a powerful urge to get entertained.
accepting that you have to roll with what you have and can get.
I mean, those are like two steps out of 7 ways to influence improtant people or whatever, self help books are a scam.
>>6201667
I don't know, honey, maybe if you TONE DOWN that ATTITUDE a litt bit, UHHHHH?
I really don't know, Korra, if we're happy we should act happy and maybe others will feel better.
>>6201683
>idk if it's ever completely happy and supportive lol
people would call it a hugbox and get REEEE and mad.
>>6201693
If you want something else, that probably means what you have isn't as good for you as your thinking
>>6201676
>Faye gets to act and post like a hon because she's hot
not fair!
>>6201721
>>6201728
okay!
>>6201727
I wish you could infect me with your seemingly unlimited makeup knowledge.
>>6201722
I kinda want lithium just for the meme effect though.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XESreJjGx-I
seroquel is an antipsychotic, it would probably help with my other problems
>sleep
but its early and I dont wanna sleep alone. we re going to bed in an hour or so
>>6201725
yes its definitely ironic...
valdoxan made me less suicidal, I think about it less, I am not less sad though. and my drive to do productive things doesnt go up.
>weed
Ive never smoked weed. I only did opiates and benzos before.
>>6201714
we cna take it, we're big girls... at least some of us... at least in certain terms...
>>6201727
I dare say you're more beautiful without makeup. It's rare to see a raw face contain so much expression. Dunno, I think you look good even without makeup.
Right now I record music, am in the process of writing a short story, reading a book series, have started working out and dieting to get /fit/, am corresponding with a qt brit man with long-ass emails, have an internship in the press sector of a large company to get into uni near end of the year, and need to find an apartment.
On top of that I'm secretly a lazy NEET in spirit and spend every ounce of free time my friends have doing with them.
>>6201657
>jaw
They basically take a small knife to cut the jaw in an angle inside your mouth
>>6201719
act your age and you'll pass, sheen
no one looks good being a teenager after age 16.
If you can't help it talk with a therapist like a responsible member of society so you can find constructive ways to improve your life.
>>6201770
That last bit of the post got fucked by autocorrect.
I just also still have a social life and a handful of friends I want to keep up with. Luckily Vidya males it easy for some of them. Others however... well, they're not easy to come by. A really good friend is studying medicine and fuck I haven't seem him in rl for a couple months now ;-;
Our schedules don't line up.
>>6201762
Antipsychotic....Fuck no! Try the Zoloft/Altruline, if shit doctors can't prescribe it then get it off the internet or I don't know if I cand send it via DHL or something to you and you can pay me later.
What time do you go to bed?
>>6201762
aren't benzos basically antidepressants? you should self med with that stuff...
you could try weed, it's less chemically adicting than tomatos. but it's more of a recreational drug and being happy only for recreation tends to destroy work ethics.
>>6201706
If I kept my animal innocence i would have been into them so much growing up and mightve become a vegetarian something idk
but bc of stuff like that and watching nature documentaries and stuff I just stopped giving a shit
I started losing most of my innocence from like 6-8 tbqh
>>6201799
>Antipsychotic
I need them for things related to the whole BPD thing, not for plain depression
>if shit doctors can't prescribe it then get it off the internet or I don't know if I cand send it via DHL or something to you and you can pay me later.
so nice! my bf would kill me though.
>What time do you go to bed?
30-60 minutes from now on
>>6201801
>aren't benzos basically antidepressants?
nope. benzos are really strong, fastacting antiaxiety meds. they make you addicted REALLY fast, and they have a short halflife. physical withdrawal can be harder than heroin.
I used to take high amounts for a while. my bf got me off them after I overdosed on them.
>you should self med with that stuff...
nobody should. this stuff is one of the dangerous class of drugs out there.
I still feel the craving and would give an arm for a pack
Idk if I even have access to weed or if bf would allow it, I guess I could ask though
>>6201719
Im going to post a screencap of this every thread for the next week when you fail to do it
>>6201847
thats okay anon, I believe you, I still chuckled a little
>>6201865
It feels really bad to make a fool out of myself in front of Phienchen
>>6201884
I am sowwy it wasnt that bad ! ;~;