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▶Trans Info Dump: http://pastebin.com/h1vLPxyV (embed)
▶Beginner makeup resources: http://masterposter.tumblr.com/post/116605714860
▶Size charts: http://www.americanapparel.net/sizing/default.asp?chart=womens.pantse_conversion_chart.php
▶Transition timelines: http://imgur.com/a/qWpxv
▶Voice Training: http://pastebin.com/dgipdsge (embed)
▶HRT info: https://web.archive.rg/web/0000000000000http://taimapedia.org/index.php?title=Hormones
▶Voice Help: http://webjedi.net/projects/lgbtq/speech-therapy/
▶IRC: https://www.rizon.net/chat #mtfg
▶Zeemaps: https://www.zeemaps.com/map?group=1843968
old >>5967228
Let's do our best today, girls!
>>5968059
first for furry and proud
I need a better trip generator, I only got 15k/s
>>5968039
Morning.
And I know that stupid body feel.
I am so fucking weak its like I need someone to carry me everywhere physically and emotionally.
>>5968042
Looks should have no meaning to relevance
Though I am a princess so its like w/e.
Thank you anon though <3
>>5968046
Hi Gem <3
and really?
you are honestly the sweetest person every desu.
like
really you are.
Thank you, ahh.
I've kinda wanted to talk to you all day but like i didnt wanna go here because it feels weird being here.
Anyways, how are you ?
>>5968055
>Ive gotten banned for avataring continuously on this board and others
same honestly
so many times
also, hi Moap!
Meant to say 15 m/s
whoopsie
>>5968059
Oh, I like this edition~
>>5968070
i-im gonna go to bed now...
nini princess~
>>5968073
Seems like a pretty comfy edition, doesn't it?
>>5968070
awww, thank you <3
if you didnt wanna talk here we could always text dummy :)
And I'm alright I guess, I wish this sickness would go away faster though, how are you???
>>5968059
> Supportive waifu
> Support
> Waifu
DELETE THIS
if the thread doesnt start getting extremely active i am going to kill myself, my life is now in your hands, and unless you guys do something quick my blood will be on your hands shortly
>>5968077
Nini !!
>>5968082
I'm always too shy to text people T_T
like i get scared
i texted someone yesterday and i never got a reply and its been 39 hours so likeee yeah i always get nervous about that
And I am doing better now that I get to talk to someone I like lots
I got lucky and my mom made me soup today so I think that is also doing good for me, but this sickness is pretty lame ;-;
>>5968071
Ick, that does sound kind of shitty. How many sessions of laser have you had? Hopefully when your facial hair is gone you'll be able to wear a wider variety of stuff.
>>5968065
Ew.
>>5968070
Yeah, a three day ban doesnt do much though. Like like how many times has Kayla been banned?
Hi!
>>5968061
>we don't persecute anyone who avatarfags though is my point.
It happens >>5968055 just not as enforced as other boards
>nor should free speech be the backbone for negativity
If the majority believe it, they have the right to say it. Yeah it really sucks when /mtfg/ is depressing and gets to you.. but then again you really shouldn't be posting in the dark corner of the internet like this if you can't handle what 4chan really is.
>while yume and circe and many other girls are coddled for the same thing
A lot of that is memery, they are attacked just as much. And a lot of it is that they are good better at holding themselves together and not sadposting on 4chan constantly for everyone to see.
>>5968082
I'll actually have some spare time tomorrow and I'll check it out <3 I hope you feel better soon.
>>5968089
peasant.
>>5968092
Probably infinite
and i have been banned at least 40 times
I used to cap them and put them in a folder
but i quit over 2 years ago
and the folder has 40 images in it sooo yuh
idk i wanna sleep but i dont wanna sleep
life is hard.
>>5968089
>>5968059
Good lord girl you've been busy.
edie made every single thread today
just wanted to bring it up since it's something we could potentially fight about
>>5968102
No she didnt, dont forget yume has mental retardation amd needs to fuck with everything multiple times a day
Now thats a firestarter
>>5968102
trip on clownface
>>5968105
>putting all of the links into a pastebin is "mental retardation"
having less clutter is aesthetically pleasing. real generals have literally one link in their OP.
>>5968109
trip on sheen
>>5968102
>>5968105
>>5968111
trip on maddie
>>5968109
Hey yume, how about you stop trying to start petty ass shit. Seriously, the only reason you give a fuck about the op is because you're a man who wants to establish dominance by instituting some change and getting others behind you.
No one cares.
>>5968114
trip on elanna
Thank you for freeing me
>>5968112
holy shit my sides
>>5968116
trip on gem
>>5968112
This is especially great for me because its neither of them
>>5968119
trip on ufufu
>>5968115
don't project at me, dude.
>>5968118
trip on adri
>>5968122
trip on potc
Good thread
>>5968125
trip on cyba
>>5968126
>>5968127
trip on Mellie
>>5968129
trip on kayla
>>5968128
Hey uh
There's been shit between us before but can we be friends
Sorry when I'm mean to you
>>5968092
Still just the one, but it only left 5 dark patches of shadow, and a bunch of lighter areas that are still clearly darker than my skin. Session two on Wednesday, though! If it can remove the remaining dark patches, I think there will be many fewer restrictions. Which is great, since I like the idea of being able to more easily try out new styles.
can i be a trip
>>5968131
Rare sighting
>>5968134
Trip on
>>5968136
trip on Joel Heyman
>>5968079
>>5968086
Fear is the mind killer, you must not fear.
>>5968095
I really try to avoid bans lately because I like posting on /cgl/. I get that feel, I don't wanna sleep. Im probably gonna chill and smoke for a bit, then either start playing Fire Emblem or reading.
>>5968130
trip on red
>>5968139
I have been avoiding bans as well, but i got banned here for 3 days recently because i posted a scar.
>>5968135
catch me if you can
>>5968141
trip on jormy
>>5968139
I'm also excited and happy.
please be nice to yume
>>5968148
Oh I will.
How could I ever not be nice to yume?
>>5968148
Trip on yume
>>5968133
Remember to keep going in after your second session, hair grows in sporadically so you need to keep going to get it all. I still get sessions when I get the chance, but Ive also given the place I go to so many recommendations that they charge me next to nothing.
>>5968142
A scar? That's really dumb. I got banned for posting an anime girl with her titties hanging out once, in the same thread people had posted their buttholes and full frontal nudes. It was um, irritating. Especially when I saw they banned me for the anime girl and not avataring.
>>5968147
Good, it won't be easy. Make sure you have a good support base or therapist you see regularly.
Hi im cis scum and I would like to tell you all something
I've been in a relationship with a transgender mtf for almost a year, she's right now visiting her parents so I'm on my bed lurking her pictures on my mobile and thinking to myself that I can't imagine how horrible disphorya must be to make someone as intelligent as her to doubt how beautiful and astoundingly amazing she is
So I decided to came my way over here to give you a reminder that even if you are in a bad situation or if you're feeling insecure don't you dare forgetting that you're a great person and that you deserve to be happy
Now that I'm here I would like to make you a question, sometimes she tells me that her dysphoria makes her feel like she doesn't deserve me, and its hard for her showing me how much she loves me, is there anything I can do to help?
>>5968156
Tell her
>tfw precum soaked dick
And take it out
>>5968156
the best way to help her is to tell her that you think her penis is very sexy
>>5968152
yeah.
apparently it was gore
>>5968156
you're pretty cool. i wish i could offer some advice but just keep assuring her that you love her.
>>5968132
Who is this?
>>5968143
>>5968166
The point of anonymity is i dont have to tell you and be embarrassed and shit
>>5968151
I'm not Yume.
Y'all are just viscious for some reason
>>5968178
I'm told when i funpost i come off as salty
>>5968178
>viscous
>>5968169
Pls don't make me pull out my awful sonic memes
>>5968162
That's what i usually do
It doesn't help that I'm a really cheesy kind of guy so doing that kind of stuff just comes natural to me, and I'm guessing she's not used to that since her response is usually stay quiet and smile, but since I considered myself straight before realizing that I love her I don't really know how to read her since I never had a relationship or interest on a transgender girl before
gem is the only person on gorgeous tier
there has to be more gorgeous posters to add to my objective list
>>5968177
Oh
Angie?
Yeah sure, why not?
>>5968152
Definitely not stopping sessions yet. I want all of the hair gone. Have to resort to electrolysis eventually to excise the few grays, too. I probably should recommend them...they killed a lot of hair in no time at all.
>>5968186
Not angie. I dont think I'm that bad.
Shit I'm becoming angie, maybe i should start tripping again
>>5968183
>>5968190
Lol
Idk who you are, lol
Butt
YAH LET'S BE FRIENDS OK
>>5968192
looks like oddish
>>5968190
OH the frog wasn't for you btw
will one of you be my gf already? im starting to get real fuckin' impatient
>>5968161
That is.... kinda dumb. Oh well.
>>5968156
Keep reassuring her, hold her, give her lots of attention. Tell her you're lucky to be with her when he says she doesnt deserve you.
>>5968185
I used to be top tier, but now I have no tier.
>>5968188
Good, good. I need to get Electro eventually too but I havent looked into it yet because SRS seems like a distant dream.
>>5968201
What do you look like?
>>5968192
Cool thanks. I'm out.
>>5968208
For some reason I keep thinking you are jupiter/mercury idk why
>>5968184
You're cute. You're not going to beat, overcome, or undo her body image issues. They're her demons, and the only thing you can do is offer your support, as you've been doing.
Keep at it, and try not to get discouraged. She...probably doesn't believe you when you tell her all those positive things when she's feeling awful. But if you'll hold her, and listen to her, and persist in your assertions, you might make it easier for her to see herself the way you do, if only for a moment. You have to make peace with that that may be the best you can ever do, and take comfort in being able to do so much.
You sound like a real winner - bit jealous of your girl.
>>5968216
Well jesus post a pic on unsee or something
how does one pepe face anyhow?
>>5968210
DW
>>5968184
She's a girl,
You're still straight
>>5968212
I can be her
What's she like
Wink wink
>>5968216
Post a photo here
Not on unsee
If you really want someone, post your face
>>5968221
u dont, autismo
my life was going fine until I just found out my boyfriend is cheating on me with a more attractive and younger trans girl... is it okay if I come hang out here and be miserable like old times?
>>5968225
:(
>>5968222
>wink wink
What is that supposed to mean? Are you flirting with me?
im horny
>>5968059
How degenerate are you /mtfg/?
>>5968221
You're doing it I think
Moisturize your lips girl
Try baby lips the maybelline kind
>>5968227
Welcome back
>>5968230
>i can be her
> You think I'm her
>i seem like her
> Vaguely related name
Just saying
>>5968227
oh shit sorry anon... he sounds like a creepy chaser anyway, you're better than him
>>5968214
Wow, this right here
This is exactly what i needed to hear, I even screencapped this to remember that whenever I feel discouraged, she has told me before that I might be the person that could help her break all those relationship issues but sometimes I lose faith because it's really weird to hear a "I love you" from her, and I have emotional needs as well, but fuck it we can do it together I know we can
Thanks a lot for your help!
>>5968222
>you're still straight
I don't really care about my sexuality or hers, is not that I don't try to think about it, I just genuinely don't care about bisexuality and all that jazz, if I love you I love you and that's it
But since I decided to post here is better to go with a straight idea because explaining that would make the post longer
>>5968230
>tfw this looks like me but with brown hair
forever femboy.....
>>5968229
take more pictures where you puff your cheeks out
that one was really cute
>>5968241
iktf.. I am blonde haired and I have a longer face though
>tfw waking up and my chest hurts for the firs time
So not been here in a while has Kayla left again?
>>5968246
Who?
>>5968245
congratulations you are growing tits.
On that note, goodnight threads.
>>5968245
>.< message me on steam pls
>>5968245
>tfw chest has been hurting for a year and not even A-cups
>>5968208
I stopped showing up in tierlists, Id like to think it was because I ascended to cisgirl tiers- but its probably because I stopped coming here often.
>>5968213
I don't wanna die.
>Tfw no waist
Good morning /mtfg/! How is everyone today?
I made pizza but feel too sick to eat it
>tfw want to lose weight so my body passes better
>but my chubby fat cheeks are the only things keeping my face passing
>>5968273
>have masculine boney cheeks
Rather have the chubby ones
Literally whenever I come here, the thread is dead.
>>5968277
it's nice when it's dead
>>5968268
terrible. how are you? UK?
>>5968279
Why are you terrible? :( And I'm SA
>be me, be barren
>skip a spiro pill
>"its just one pill, I take two a day anyways"
>go to fap
>white stuff comes out before I even start
>>5968280
its moap
>>5968281
South Australia?
South Africa?
>>5968284
uhhh what?
are you self medding?
>>5968284
I'm on 200mg spiro, 4mg progynova for 8 months and haven't gone barren yet :/
>>5968285
Oh
Yeah
New people probably don't even know who you are, lol
>>5968280
I am who I am.
>>5968285
This.
>>5968297
hello giraffe-chan. I still have a thread from /b/ saved you made when you first started mones
>>5968299
my endo says so but I haven't seen the results myself
>>5968302
huh
well go into porn then
>>5968298
it would be nice if I did but I'm so ugly it's only natural anyone would want to cheat on me eventually
booger butt fart
>want to transition
>want to have kids that are genetically related to me
Is this even possible? Is it fair on the kids?
>>5968308
>going after guys and not other trans girls
congratulations you played yourself
>>5968311
Is ever having kids fair on them?
I AM SO TIRED AND MY HEAD HURTS
I just booked my first session with a gender therapist. I am so nervous holy shit :0
>>5968323
>Good morning Phienchen! Drink lots of water.
Goodmorning anon!
I have run out of sleeping pills and am trying to get this shit out of my system, havent slept yet. got work done through the night tho!
oh god i can't believe I'm me
i'm such a fucking degenerate loser fuckup
kill me
>>5968298
Oh......
>>5968332
why are some people so superior? what did they know that I didn't? I fucked up my life so much jesus christ ;_;
hold meee
>>5968328
i cant believe im me either
>>5968326
thats great! i was really nervous before my first session too, but i ended up loving therapy. i kinda miss it
>>5968332
>people can actually harm themselves from overworking :(
I am definitely not overworked, just overstressed.
term starts next week
I am a mess.
>>5968323
hair is a mess but you get the idea http://imgur.com/UbqF8CE
Cried my eyes out and finally cracked. I told my mom I'm trans. This is weird...
>>5968341
CUH-YUUUUUUUUUUUUUUTE~
>>5968341
>messy hair
>zero make up
>not wearing girl clothes
>still looks like a girl
You are too hard on yourself, chillax please
>>5968296
I would assume not, but that's alright. Ill just be a secret trip.
>>5968300
Ive come a long way since then, my love for NGE has only grown.
>>5968344
How did she react?
>>5968344
how'd she take it?
>>5968344
Care to greentext story for me?
Pre everything. Been working my waist and butt, making sure I have a somewhat decent shoulder/waist/hip ratio before going on HRT, then will adapt to the changes to my body as they come. Building the "template" if you will. I can deal with Ann Coulter hands, not much choice there.
Will I be ok when I have bewbs?
>>5968341
pretty uggers
>>5968326
I should do that too
>>5968356
we need to have a non angled picture of hips waist and shoulders
nobody can tell you anything from that picture
anyone that says differently is lying.
also
>making sure I have a somewhat decent shoulder/waist/hip ratio before going on HRT
why
>>5968354
why do you think it's your fault?
it was his decision, don't let people use you like that, fucking dump his sorry ass, he doesn't deserve your forgiveness and if you continue to seek approval and validation from it it's just evidence of your low self-esteem, he'll continue to exploit that
can't you see you're better and that you don't deserve this?
anyone here had a estrogen implant? is it painful? any side effects I should know about?
d e a d
same time EVERY night
>>5968373
a hwat
>>5968378
you? or the thread?
>>5968350
>>5968351
>>5968352
> feeling dysphoric
> I comment on weird commercial, dad says yeah that guy in the dress.. strange.
>didn't even notice
>feel like shit
>comes over to show video on phone
>comedy skit where guy in a dress leaves his shopping bag behind to be stolen.
>it sprays paint if opened
>tons of people steal it
>want to kill self
>watch tv show with pregnant women, she probably going to die.
> go on computer
> have money for fertility clinic, rdy to set up an appointment next day.
>sleep...........?
>WAKE UP WITH EYES OPEN
>"your student loan is in the process of being taken out you cannot cancel auto payment"
>only 3 weeks until HRT
>on mental deathrow
>start to freak
>talk to mom even though its 3:30 in the morning
>get in argument, I go psycho and throw nearest object against wall.
>time passes
>come back to talk it out
>subsequent vesuvius level mental breakdown ensues
>can't say it, mom get thinks I have cancer or going to anhero real soon.
>tell her everything from the past 12 years.
> says god has a plan for all of us
> tell her straight up god doesn't exist because this is a huge fuck up.
> she's not aggressively religious thankfully.
> recognize that she was just trying to make me feel better.
> immediately asks if I like guys.
> have to explain the binary, gender identity etc. to her.
> letting her process it all.
>>5968378
I wanna make another battle test story but I'm out of ideas
>>5968380
they stick chalk looking things in ur butt and lasts ages
>>5968383
Interesting, why explain the "binary" or whatever the hell that is. Just say you aren't comfortable in your own body, and feel like a women.
>>5968388
WOW
LEWD
>>5968388
What vidya are you playing?
>>5968385
Would it kill my libido? I don't want to atrophy
>>5968382
no
>>5968391
Ded space
>>5968393
;~~~;
>>5968386
in the end I did, should of clarified.
>>5968384
talk about whatever the specific t chemical you named from his point of you on the last stand (the odst ending one)
>>5968363
yeah I guess I'm starting to see that. I'm just really afraid of what will happen if we break up. I just wish everything could go back to how it was...
>>5968392
If anything it would raise it since apparently its gives higher and steady levels of E compared to other methods including injections
>>5968402
But wouldn't that fuck up my dick and make it so I can't get hard? I feel like an enigma still being able to get rock hard after 3 years of T blockers, if I change my stuff and become unable to get hard I'll be VERY VERY unhappy
which 4chan boards are the most and least tranny-friendly?
>>5968404
>But wouldn't that fuck up my dick and make it so I can't get hard?
no.
Blockers make getting hard hard (ha!) not E.
as long as you use it regularly you shouldnt athropy
>>5968405
>most
/a/, /v/, /vg/, /co/, /b/
>least
/pol/, /k/, /fit/, /lgbt/
>>5968408
/ P O L G B T /
>>5968408
night /k/ was ok with it
>>5968361
Here ya go. Feel free to roast me for my giant hands x.x
>why
Because david Bowie makes a sexier girl than hulk hogan
>>5968389
2lewd
>>5968404
literally most people can get hard still, you're not some special case for not being able to
in fact the people who can't get hard are the weird ones
>>5968415
for being able to*
>>5968408
>/k/
>not tranny friendly
its got a pretty avid population of them, and shall not be infringed is kind of a blanket statement.
>>5968415
Every transgirl that I've ever been with that's been on mones wax unable to get penetration levels of hard. Like, they can cum, and they can get semi-hard, but not hard enough to stick benis in bagina, with one exception, and even then it was pretty difficult.
>>5968413
its okay if its you tho <3
>>5968412
much better. I cant tell if youre pulling your shoulders back. But assuming you dont:
your shoulders wont be a problem. HRT will fix your waist to a certain point. youre fine. when youve been on HRT for 4-6 months you should start gaining some weight to get more butt and thighs tho
the veins on youre hands and arms will mostly go away as well (I mean, theyll become less visible)
>>5968420
99% of the time that's because of neglect or mental unwillingness to do so
nearly all trans girls are subs and if they cant get hard then they can be subs with less resistance from a switch partner
if you stimulate them enough they can and will get penetration levels of hard
>>5968420
i had an orchi and still get penetratingly hard, and every other trans girl i know still gets hard enough to as well.
>>5968428
lupron?
>>5968423
Thanks, good to know. Yes I'm underweight ATM because it'll all go to my gut because I'm in my twenties. I'm vegetarian right now to keep my waist down but will likely increase my carb and protein intake when I start HRT.
I run a Facebook in girl mode and successfully convince strangers I'm female with my face pics. HRT will only make it better - namely my entire chin is a T fat deposit on a flimsy little chin bone.
Pic related is my cousin on the side of my family I inherited most of my genetics from. crossing my fingers I got the boob gene.
>>5968383
>>5968396
It's good she tried to be supportive of you, or even to make you feel better. She was probably just glad you werent going to anhero or dying. Do you still live with both of your parents?
>>5968420
Wait, you aren't on hormones?
>>5968434
What gives you that idea
>>5968433
Ano wrecks ya. Naw whatever, it's an easy way to look more Fem.
I'm ano right now but I think it'll improve after I start the physical transition. I'm gonna freeze some sperms before I take the dive.
Til then pic related is my life
>>5968444
>Ano wrecks ya.
my boyfriend forces me to eat once a day. Id be wayyy worse without him
>I'm gonna freeze some sperms
thats something Ive never understood.
>>5968446
I heard of estrogen causing motherhood instincts to awaken. I have a 148 IQ tested by Mensa and may want to pass it on some day.
>>5968434
yeah I had to move back because the city is too expensive/place I worked at closed down.
>>5968448
lol
hey /mtfg/
>>5968452
>breeder shit
Oh I know
You're lucky you have a bf btw. My last bf was an alcoholic 35 year old abusive fag who threw away my entire female wardrobe to "toughen me up" so I could be a "strong gay man". I dumped his lame ass two years ago and have been prepping for transition since.
what do when you feel like throwing up and your rate won't stay still?
Holy shit help.
Fuck fuck fuck I miss repression
>>5968440
I misread your post, don't mind me.
>>5968451
That's better than having never moved out, everyone falls on hard times. Are you still unemployed?
>>5968453
good evening
>>5968457
just jump out the window, QUICK
>>5968453
goofmorning!
I am scared. I still havent received a timeplanning thing from Bart.
my date is still reserved tho
I am going to check my bankaccount on friday or monday and see if the transmitting worked. shouldve tho, I didnt get the letter I usually get when I fuck up
>>5968456
no I mean, the motherhood stuff is pretty accurate. Ive just never met a tranny that Id have considered stable enough to be a mum.
>You're lucky you have a bf
I am lucky I met mine specifically, cause he is great, but just getting any bf is stupidly easy. men will fuck everything if it has a wet hole to offer and at least kinda looks like a girl
>>5968433
I got my first lupron injection 2 months ago and I still cum. trying to ask my endo about it but getting an appointment is hell
I cried watching an anime again. How do I stop being such a loser and dig myself out of this pit called my life?
>>5968453
Hello Marina! How are you today?
>>5968460
Yeah quit my last job a couple months ago because I was being emotionally abused by a co worker for a year and I snapped. I tried to kill myself but passed out. Decided to see gender therapist, here I am now.
>>5968471
Pretty good
I'm still at work and really bored atm though
>>5968469
it takes 3 months for lupron to supress your T, a little longer to stop you from cumming.
how did they start you up? usually you get an injection once every month for 3 months and then only every 3 months once iirc
>>5968470
become an anime grill
Who /vidya/ here? I play so many video games, probably because it makes me forget about my dysphoria.
>>5968464
Ah I gotcha. Yeah that's something I won't consider for at least another 10 years. Just wanted to make sure my juices are stored somewhere in case.
Yeah guys will fuck anything period haha. I tried to live as a gay man for some time and was miserable. I'm leaning more towards genetic women and other transwomen sexually/romantically now but who fucking knows what hormones will do.
Oh well good night. Thanks for the chat and honesty. I've only been posting here for a few weeks but it reminds me of the glory days of lurkmore
>>5968474
they just gave me a 3 month injection to start with. I was already self-medding spiro for almost 2 years before
>>5968476
I am a trans video game developer
And I'm not Brianna Wu
who /innocentcatholicgirl/ here?
>>5968470
Go to a anime con and cosplay
So you'll combine your love for anime and you'll meet new people
I wanted to go last week but i'm too lazy and scared of social interaction
>>5968483
I'm the one with the body shots you've been chatting with
I went to an all male catholic school most of my life
>dem plaid skirts at the sister school
Forever jelly
>>5968483
I'll move to a monastery in august so yeah
innocent catholic schoolgirl
>>5968477
youre welcome, feel free to drop back in
goodnight.
>>5968479
when did you stop spiro (did you stop spiro?)
it will still work, onset might just be a little slower. I wouldnt worry too much, though I get that thats way easier said then done. you can just take some spiro on the side if you feel insecure about that I think, but I dunno if that might make your endo mad
>>5968485
how many dicks did you suck? I went to an all male catholic boarding school and the homolust was crazy
>>5968490
yeah I stopped just before starting like a few days I think. I'm still taking 4mg estrogen
>>5968476
Darksouls III that is all.
>>5968494
It hurts a lot :(
>tfw you will never enjoy high school
>>5968480
I want to be one. :o
>>5968497
who enjoys highschool other than TV characters?
How do I get over the anxiety and self hatred I feel while trying to present female? I know I'm a woman, but I look like a fucking drag queen when I try. Pretty femboy4lyfe
What was /mtfg/ like in high school? Describe what kind of kid you were.
>>5968483
I went to private religious schools all my life, the one I went to for high school was Catholic. Uniforms suck ass and I still hate any form of authority and can't get over the terror that everything is a mistake and I should repent so I don't go to hell.
>>5968500
Girls :(
And most people in general
>>5968480
I'm starting a video games course :3
>>5968496
Released in Japan (and maybe for streamers too, I've been avoiding videos) 20 fucking days before the rest of the world; most upset I've been in a while.
>>5968472
Its good your parents are willing to take care of you, does your father know you're trans yet? How did he react/how do you think he's going to react?
>>5968470
>>5968475
/cgl/ helps with such pursuits.
>>5968476
I love me some Mount and Blade
>>5968502
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t7wJ8pE2qKU
dead inside. :')
>>5968508
>/cgl/ helps with such pursuits.
What if you're too big to become an anime grill?
>>5968495
it shouldnt be possible for you to masculinize much or anything on 4 mg E, since thats also an antiandrogen. if you feel insecure talk to your endo or take some spiro :3
>>5968505
fun! I really want to do one too but I don't pass yet
>>5968502
>that kid who got drunk a lot
>that kid that cut his wrists
>that kid who was the "leader" of the outcasts
>that kid who drew in all his notebooks
>that kid who rejected lots of girls' confessions for apparently no good reason
>that kid that was aggressive and sensitive at the same time
>that kid who skipped a lot of school and sat home playing video games
This was me.
>>5968501
>How do I get over the anxiety and self hatred I feel
you dont. this never changes.
>>5968500
Most people in general enjoyed and had an amazing time in high school. Then they enjoy and have an amazing time in college. It's after that where most people tend to start having a lot of issues.
>>5968502
I went to a Catholic school and was slowly moving towards rebelling more and more as I started to really come to terms with wanting to transition. I ended up getting into occult stuff and mysticism and my teachers told me I would go to hell a lot. I nearly converted to Catholicism but didn't thankfully.
>>5968508
Bannerlord hype, can't wait to fucking play cards in mountain blade.
>>5968514
you can always get into j fash instead, ouji fashion lends itself really well towards tall women with some masc features.
>>5968521
B-but others did get over it ?
>>5968504
sure they do
>>5968523
theyre just pretending.
>>5968525
Maybe lying to yourself is the right thing this time ?
>>5968527
but I cant like, lie my own feelings away ;~;
sorry for being so depressive I havent slept yet. my brainfilters dont work as well
>>5968522
college was sweet as hell. HS was cliques and insecurity driven drama.
>>5968501
Do it more. Once you get used to how you look and feel and accept it it's a little easier. Also working more on how you look is also good, learning a new trick with your makeup or getting a new well coordinated outfit. You probably need support from elsewhere too, it's rare that these issues are all just you being trans. Friends, family, and if you dont have either of those then you probably want to talk to your therapist more.
>>5968528
Aww
You shouldn't be that hard to yourself
Also what did you mean you didn't sleep yet it's 2 pm
>>5968533
Ive been awake for 25 hours cause I ran out of sleeping pills
>>5968534
You should wait longer and bring your body too sleep without pills again
>>5968535
yeah it was a leftover stack. I am out now and not getting new stuff. Ill take a nap when my SO wakes up for 3-4 hours and go to bed tonight normally
>>5968537
Why is /mtfg/ so dead atm ?
>>5968548
I guess monday morning
I dunno what ameriboats do with their lives
Hi y'all
Good morning
>>5968551
I need the second and third line translated please
>>5968502
I was extremely pretentious and mean, I got into a lot of fights and walked around with a copy of Mein Kampf.
>>5968514
...I dunno, Ive never had to deal with being big. I wanna say its still possible but that might just be blind optimism.
>>5968522
Holy shit I want bannerlord soooo bad. Im gonna dissipear from the world when it comes out.
Shit Im so drunk i thought this was /adv/ hehe go in peace non straight ppl
>>5968550
Probably nothing meaningful
>>5968557
>might just be blind optimism
Ok then ;~;
>>5968560
When the Americans come on, I generally leave.
>>5968564
do you consider yourself european or african?
It's so sunny outside, it burns in my eyes
I needa buy some clothes but I'm still mad bad at passing, so I wanna do it online. Pants sizes are really weird for me? Which is more important, waist size or hip size? I have some pants that are size 10(australian sizes) hand-me-downs from a friend who was very helpful. god bless her, but they're a little bit... way too loose for me. How do I into sizes??
>>5968551
good morning
>>5968557
same desu, mount and blade is one of the few games i can still really enjoy. maybe bannerlord will actually have some good mods that get finished too
>>5968571
thats a nice little square. such things dont exist here generally
>>5968564
tfw
>>5968568
Neither t b h. I've never set foot in Europe so I can't say that I feel "European", but I also can't say that I'm "African".
>>5968578
to me youre way closer to european. culture trumps physical location.
>>5968502
depressed. I just went to class and came home all the while wishing I wasn't alive. no friends, minimal grades, never ate lunch, etc.eventually I just dropped out
>>5968584
>never ate lunch
tfw
>>5968585
>Eternal spring when
soooon
>>5968502
Nerdy little fat kid for most of it.
Then became skinny and slim
Then became meathead
And now. Undoing that meathead phase and gong back to skinny
>>5968508
Bannerlord is when I'll build a pc again.
>>5968169
kek
>>5968502
I was labelled "emotionless" because I refused to smile
>>5968502
nerd/stoner/artfag
>>5968502
I was bullied for being an effeminate faggot until I proved how manly I was by playing lacrosse until I got 3 concussions
Then I hung out with the Christian kids and tried really hard to believe
>>5968598
oh that too. I'm >>5968584 and pic related is pretty much how I looked all through middle school and high school
>>5968562
Mein Kampf summarized by Moap
Part 1: Im just a poor boy from a poor family
Part 2: Because they propagate communism, you should hate the Jews.
I wouldn't recommend it, it was pretty dry; and I assume he was lying about 95% of it.
>>5968563
I mean, do you mean big like fat, or big like tall?
>>5968573
No one passes until they go full time.
>>5968575
Its a pretty amazing game, I wish there were more good single player mods. Ive put over a hundred hours into gekokojo and probably half that into brytenwalda/viking conquest. Im sure good mods will be around for bannerlord.
>>5968593
I need to upgrade my video card for Total War: Warhammer...
>>5968613
mm, but how do I size pants??
>>5968613
>Mein Kampf summarized by Moap
I dont care what you summarize, if its by you Id read it
>I wouldn't recommend it
I wouldnt either its really boring
>I assume he was lying about 95% of it.
I think he actually believed close to 100% of what he wrote. he was wrong about a lot of things tho
>>5968613
I put a few hundred into the lotr mod, its really a fantastic thing. I barely played viking conquest at all though, I've been meaning to go and try some of it. Maybe we'll finally get a warsword update for bannerlord.
>>5968618
generally speaking you focus more on your waist than anything else. if youre looking online most sites and brands will have a sizing chart, and you can just but a flexible measuring tape and never have to guess about what you should get then because you can measure it according to what the individual brand recommends.
>>5968613
From what I read of Mein Kampf (which was not much) it was pretty good. Despite being evil, Hitler was a good writer and a smart guy, but that's not a PC opinion to hold.
>>5968639
>Despite being evil
I love that meme
>>5968613
big as in tall and rather wide
>>5968642
Are you a nazi or are you one who believes evil is subjective?
>shoulders like a hockey player
>rib cage like a cartoon strongman
>i'm only 18 and have never worked a day of physical labour in my life
What did I do to deserve this? If I had been born as a grill none of this would be a problem. If I had been born as a regular guy I'd be chad as fuck. Instead I had to be born as tranny in the era before technology lets me upload my mind into a computer and live as a virtual anime girl for eternity.
>>5968647
'evilness' is black and white thinking. people arent inherently evil, they have interests and motivations and based on those they decide what they do. Hitler is a prime example of a shitty decisionmaker and a coward. but he is only evil in childrens books, not in history.
Everyone is the hero in their own story.
people that apply 21st century morals to stuff that happened dozens or hundreds of years ago are just retarded.
>>5968618
Look up sizing guides, take your own measurements. Hope you have tape measures lying around like I do.
>>5968623
Eh, maybe you're right and he did believe all of it. I guess it'd be better for me to say I think 95% of it is bullshit.
>>5968630
That woul be nice for warsword, Honestly I dont know how Bannerlord could dissapoint me though. Viking conquest was fun for me until all of Britian would attack me on sight because I ransacked monasteries and attacked Christian Priests.
>>5968639
The first part was interesting because it was Hitlers autobiography, but the second part was repetitive where I felt like he just went on these weird trains of associations tying back everything to Communism and then Jews.
>>5968663
>but he is only evil in childrens books, not in history
yeah I agree, it annoys me in history classes when a person is called "evil"
>>5968663
>people that apply 21st century morals to stuff that happened dozens or hundreds of years ago are just retarded.
Anon, the shit Hitler thought was bonkers and amoral in his time too. Sure, some things like eugenics were thought of as feasible but mass genocide wasn't the way to go about it.
70ish years ago isn't that long.
>. Hitler is a prime example of a shitty decisionmaker and a coward. but he is only evil in childrens books, not in history.Everyone is the hero in their own story.
I agree with having a neutral and unbiased view of history, but we're people posting on a board for mentally ill people on a website about chinese cartoons, not academic historians publishing a book. We're allowed to have some fun and place moral judgements on history.
>tfw I can't wait for hormones
Yay
>>5968696
I want boys inside me
>>5968699
Me too anon, me too
>>5968669
yeah, I circumvent ww2 completely in classes if possible. the topic is too charged
>>5968678
>the shit Hitler thought was bonkers and amoral in his time too
really? I am pretty sure it wasnt. collectivism, radicalism, militarism, nationalism and mass murder of civilians. nearly every party in the war did that as well. it was definitely not bonkers.
I wont go into genocide theory here, but the concept of genocide (as a crime) wasnt developed yet (that happened as a response to what happened in the 40s).
it was completely normal to dehuminize enemies (and the unknown) back then, as it is still practiced today, to increase national unity. I am not a fan of it, but it works and makes perfect sense. you cant just apply the civil rights movement and stuff like that to things that happened before. its just impossible.
>70ish years ago isn't that long.
the world was radically different then. it isnt about how long ago it was, its about how fast the liberal development progressed after.
>but we're people posting on a board for mentally ill people on a website about chinese cartoons, not academic historians publishing a book.
I am an academic historian. the only reason I am not published is that I got the offer before I was even close to coming out and didnt want to publish without a female name (and without a degree at the time, lel)
if you dont want the answer of a historian, dont ask a historian.
>>5968696
>But phienchen is a academic historian, kind of at least
>kind of at least
TRIGGERED ;_;
>working out
>eating calorie deficit
>still gaining weight
Whyyy
>>5968708
Weird
I've been eating a lot more and not working out yet I'm not gaining weight
>go to student office place to get ADD screening because apparently I have no formal diagnosis of that one
>"but you already have extra time and a computer in exams, how else will it affect your education?"
>"well I'm applying for benefits and writing down I have ADD could make my case stronger, but if I say that and I have no evidence I'll get my arse torn out by them for 'lying' to them"
>"yeah but how will it affect your education when we already give you concessions?"
>"nothing more than what I've already got"
>"k well benefits stuff is beyond our job description, we don't care about that, there's no reason for us to give you a screening"
fuck's sake, why is the world so broken?
>>5968708
I started no carb and i lose weight like nothing
I'm not even doing sport and i eat bacon for breakfast and fatty sauces to every meal
>>5968712
If you weren't autistic you wouldn't have told them what your really want and just said
>Well, i have it so i want it diagnosed, maybe it could still change something
And they couldn't really have said anything against it
>>5968708
Moar cardio
>>5968706
History classes are kinda shit now anyway, hell all the teachers at my high-school did was play John Green or some other shit historian
>>5968708
Do you drink milk? Do you eat sugary foods? How much food do you eat?
>>5968645
I dunno, I have the image of a linebacker and it makes me sad for you. I hope its not that bad and you're able to be cute one day.
>>5968728
Seconded. The art of war is the art of deception.
>>5968737
>1600 cal
I eat like half of that per day.
>>5968736
Eh
I guess it's not too bad, like 17 inches are my shoulders size
I just hate feeling wide all the time ;-;
I remember why jersey sucks
It's too fucking cold up here
>>5968737
I do 60 mins Minimum and operate below 1000 calories
You can do it
>>5968706
What does one study to become an academic historian?
History was probably the only subject that I enjoyed in high school, particularly the essays. For my final history project, I did a case study on the Russo-Japanese war.
>>5968737
I dunno but it kinda feels good knowing I haven't fucked myself up
Better get motivated again though, so I can actually lose the weight.
there are mothers with buggys everywhere on the place in front of my workplace
>tfw you'll never be mommy ;_;
Hitler was right
>>5968737
I don't really eat high protein
I ear high fat, because the body can't really use fat without carbs but it keeps your hunger low for a long time
>>5968745
history?
I mean I dont get the question. or do you define academic historian differently?
>>5968752
I wish Hitler won so I could've been gassed like the disgusting degenerate I am
>>5968759
>tfw nobody to put me down and relive me from this torment
>>5968734
I don't drink milk, but I do still eat sugary food, so maybe I'm eating more than I realize ;_;
>>5968740
How? Up until recently my weight has held steady at 1800cal/day.
>>5968744
Below 1000? I've restricted below 1400 before without any physical activity and felt like garbage. I lost weight but it felt like I wasn't eating enough.
>>5968747
>wanting a child
>>5968737
dang
guess I need to cut my calories, cuz I'm about 1800 per day, but I have been getting really fitter recently.
50 min running, 100 crunches, 3x10 side lunges, 3 x 10 dumbbell side bends, 3x10 bow extensions, 3x10 reverse dumbbell chops
>>5968760
If I don't ever gain happiness, I'll put myself down.
Wanna make a suicide pact?
Teach me how to feminize my voice and I'll post butt
>>5968737
try and drop more calories. if you arent losing weight, youre eating too much. good workout though, keep it up and dont forget that you should lift until you literally can't manage another one for maximum benefit. Only do cardio what you feel like is okay though, it's bad to do cardio to collapse. you could also look into an EC stack, i take one and it helps me a lot with hunger control and losing weight.
>>5968463
Thanks
I'm a professional musician. Boy or girl I'm pretty thankful for my Ann Coulter grabbers
>>5968763
I use a lot of water and teas as anti hunger aids
I also time it so I feel the most starved while I sleep. Which makes it easier
>>5968613
>No one passes until they go full time.
I wish this bit of wisdom was bandied about more often. So many girls could be so much happier so much sooner if they weren't huddled away in their room waiting on the day they turn into a cis girl.
>>5968775
Fine
I'll find another person to have a suicide pact with
>>5968763
>I do eat sugary foods
BINGO!!!
>>5968765
You don't need to drop calories if you're not gaining though, like I said, until recently I held steady at 1800cal/day with a sedentary lifestyle.
>>5968775
>malnutrition headaches
You probably should eat more maybe.
>>5968772
Tea helps with hunger control? Should I look into it? I find constant hunger very unpleasant.
>>5968770
I'll try to cut back even more then, thanks! I may look into EC stacking again, I remember losing a ton of weight with it years back, although it always made my heart feel a bit sketchy.
>>5968781
I don't eat a lot of them though..
>>5968783
Ever?
>>5968794
>You probably should eat more maybe.
but I enjoy them
>>5968794
Green tea is the best
I drink loads of it with no milk or sugar
>>5968720
nah because of Austerity all the public institutions operate on this idea of doing the bare minimum to help you, it's actual policy lol
pretty shitty but that's the Tories for you
>>5968776
This 100%. I really wish "full-time, asap" were more frequent advice. No matter when you do it, you're not going to be ready for it, and the sooner you do it the sooner you'll learn how to pass.
>>5968797
Why would you enjoy making yourself feel gross though ;_;
>>5968799
Guess I'll be making a pitcher to keep around then :3
>tfw kinda rocking the fem stoner boy look today on kageshi and feel like a whole person instead of a sack of dysphoria
it's a rare feel
>>5968813
>feel gross though ;_;
but I dont feel gross
I am pretty ano, Ive never liked eating.
tho I guess the headaches are form of invisible selfharm. I am not having a good year.
>>5968813
>and the sooner you do it the sooner you'll learn how to pass.
even those of us who are gonna need years of saving up and getting FFS like my weird-faced self?
>been on HRT four two years
>thought it'd change me, make me more outgoing when I could be who I wanted to be
>still a recluse just now I look like an objectively ok liking drag queen, not a woman
>same lifestyle of sitting in my disguising uncleaned room smoking weed all day
>>5968822
HA
I WIN
>>5968813
Maybe you'll learn how to pass if you do it asap
On the other side having had enough laser to not have a beard shadow first is probably no too bad
>>5968794
my chest does feel a little funny on ec sometimes but it helps so much i dont even care. ill stop it when im fully satisfied with my weight, im pretty sure ive already become anorexic on my own.
and you should eat sugar as little as possible. maybe a treat once a week, but as little as possible.
>>5968817
yes. youll never pass without practice, and youll get the most rpactice going full time. youre going to look like an awkward weirdo after ffs too if you havent gone full time yet then.
>>5968741
Ehhh, 17 inches isn't too bad, that's just a couple more inches than me and I pass fine.
>>5968764
>Not wanting to meet a nice man and have a child
>Not wanting to predict alien invasions and end of the world
>Not wanting to take on the body of a cloned god
>Not wanting to use god body to protect child from aliens
>Not wanting to use god body to protect child from end of the world
>Not wanting to use god body to give child their hearts desires
Ishygddt
>>5968776
I tell this to people and they just spit in my face that Im a dirty passer and don't get the struggle.
>>5968813
Hi Elanna.
>>5968830
depends how you definde recent. didnt have that problem 2014 2015, but in 2013 I ate like once or twice a week for a while. was less than 106 lbs. my endo wanted to hospitalize and force feed me. I refused tho and it wasnt as bad as that she could force me. I got benzos prescribed after, that helped with food at least.
I am not going to hurt myself this way nowadays. my SO forces one decent meal per day. so Its fine.
>>5968823
post pic
>>5968839
yeah I know it's not too bad and being tall kinda helps.
I just catch myself wishing I was small a lot and I dunno how to deal with it sometimes
>>5968839
Moap, how many times have you watched evangelion already ?
>>5968837
Definitely, but I'm talking more about cases where people refuse to go full-time until they pass, and I've seen it happen a lot. Chicken and egg problem, wanting to full-time when you're fully ready to full-time, but noone is fully ready until they're already full-time. The solution is to force full-time, you can't avoid the awkward phase.
>>5968839
Hey moap, how's it going?
>>5968840
>106lbs
Jeez, I'm glad that you're better though. One solid meal a day at least will keep you healthy.
>>5968862
Ok, so i'll go fulltime after my next therapy session
>>5968862
>One solid meal a day at least will keep you healthy.
I am trying
>>5968838
>me
>ever not looking like an awkward weirdo
as someone who knows girls with aspergers trust me I'll do just fine wrt mannerisms and stuff, voice is the only really shitty social thing for me
I swear 4chan uses 'autism' as a meme so much they forget what actual autistic people are like and act shocked when they encounter it, kek
people should watch this, it's also interesting generally, and relevant because this is the woman who invented the real-life hugbox that our universal trans meme came from
http://documentaryheaven.com/the-woman-who-thinks-like-a-cow/
Is it possible to get a loan for surgery?
I want to take out a loan for rhinoplasty and do it soon.
>>5968882
Oh, ok i have probably only seen it 10 times
>>5968862
>>5968846
The best solace I can offer you is every woman has features about herself she feels inadequate about. Being tall definitely helps with your shoulder width though, depending on you height those might be downright dainty.
>>5968850
Oh god, I have no idea. A dozen times at the very least, almost certainly many many more times then that.
>>5968862
Going pretty good, about to start doing my dishes, and then maybe Ill get sometime to eat. How are you doing?
What is the average height for a white women?
I only feel alive when I play the blues
>>5968891
Much smaller than me
>>5968883
tfw no credit history and parents in $115K of debt
>>5968891
shorter than you
>>5968910
maybe this will help
>>5968910
Depends on wher you live, in the usa you can get a credit for pretty much everything
Where i live only if you buy something that could be sold if you can't pay or you have enough income to pay for it yourself already
>>5968913
I think i maybe know one girl under 5"6
All the others are taller
So this list is probably right if you're in the deepest deeps of mexico or if you're asian but not for white people
>>5968865
Absolutely! Tbh I've seen the photos you've posted, you're more ready than a lot of people are when they go full-time
>>5968874
Well, I'm glad ^^
>>5968890
I'm doing OK, just getting ready to head to class, I have a databases assignment to hand in then I gotta continue grinding away at my game that's due this Thursday.
>>5968904
Get a credit card and use it for all your purchases and pay it off quickly.
Slow but better than no credit.
>>5968935
Is that a good thing or have i waited too long
Also i still have stubble
A lot
And it's blonde so laser doesn't do much more
And the insurance only pays electrolysis after a year rle :(
>>5968945
It's neither a good nor a bad thing, it just means you're probably as ready as you'll ever be, beyond a certain point you really don't feel any readier with time.
fuck i hate being trans and tall
>>5968957
>iktf :(
I'm not nearly as tall as you though
>>5968957
>believing the height meme
>>5968888
That's a lot more than most people, still. The more I watch it, the more I watch it.
>>5968933
List is complete bullshit, add 3 inches to every category.
>>5968935
That's good you're doing ok, hopefully your game will come along well.
>>5968957
I'm 6'4 in heels :3
my bf loves it
>>5968890
I'm 5'11"
so it's still pretty wide, being big is something I just gotta find a way to deal with I suppose
>>5968966
>tfw 5'5" and dont have to worry about the height meme even if it wasn't bullshit
i'm 6'2 but have a small and fit frame....
I'm mostly legs....
wow shit there are some qts on the kageshi nobody told me about this
lewd conversation currently in progress
>>5968980
>tfw tall and have a big frame
Why does God hate me?
>>5968913
I'm 5'2 and in boy mode. People treat me like a child or some kind of sub human
Everone post your shoulder width
>Tfw birthday with cake, whisky, weed and hamburgers today
>>5968998
Why is everone smaller than me :(
>>5968980
I'm 5'9 inverted triangle... at least I have a 36 inch real inseem
>>5968999
5'8 tall, 17.5"
>>5968999
5"10 , 15' shoulder width
>>5968980
You're a truly disgusting human being and I'm glad your malformed outside matches your revolting inside. I hope you suffer.
>>5969018
t. Kayla
happy rainy monday mtfg
>>5968999
5'5 15"
>>5968999
19.5 inches
I mean, I am 5 foot 11... but still...
>>5968980
post your shoulders steven tyler
>>5968839
I know you do. It's good to see it, even if people are being insecure and scared about it. I'm sorry you keep getting shit on for being aggressive in your opposition to the "don't even try until boy mode fails no matter what you do" meme.
>>5969022
I'm not sure how that's possible
You'd have 4,5 inch broader shoulders than me while only being 1 inch taller
Sound like bs imo, maybe you have measured wrong
>>5968980
>small and fit frame
not with a ribcage like yours
everyone post eye(s)
Post trips that are universally liked.
>in b4 none
>>5969025
Yeah, but the average is still only 5'7 and i feel like i tower over 90% of people
I mean then there are girl who are 6'4 but they look like girls at least even if people stare at them
>>5969037
Kit?
>>5968502
>"we're cool, right pleb? I wanna make it out when you go Columbine."
>post-ironic shitposter
>#feelthebern Carl was right to not explain his statement.
>~daily drinker from late Jr. year on.
>>5968913
This is a lie.
>>5968999
5'4" 16"
>mfw 16"
>>5969037
edgar
>>5969045
Tell me how to be happy with height
>>5968999
5'11", 17".
>>5969035
k then what?
>>5968976
17 inches at 5'11" isn't bad at all imo, I wouldn't worry about it, on paper it sounds fine.
>>5968999
5'5" , 14" shoulders.
>>5969035
>>5969045
So long as you pass right? Hopefully everything turns out well. It sounds stressful, making games like that looks really time consuming. Im glad you're happy with your height though!
>>5969055
idk desu
it seems too big in the mirror but whatever I guess
>>5969035
>camera too shitty to take a decent eye pic
good morning friends
>>5969057
Hey :)
>>5969057
Hello. Who are you, bird poster?
>>5969031
nope, I got to the size I am at like 17 and have stayed the same measurements all over forever since
tbf I'm not as upset about them as I am about my face and ribcage, at least there are indeed cis girls with insanely big shoulders like that
just none with a chin like this ;-;
>>5969046
kek
weirdly everyone seems to like me on kageshi, I'm even getting ERPed with
they don't even mind me miseryposting
>>5969056
My shoulders look too big in the mirror too
But they're cis size
As a trans girl you're just damned to never feel good about everything on your body
>>5969060
hey you ( ´ ▽ ` )ノ
>>5969061
You're friend
>>5969069
;~;
I can feel good at some parts of my body, sometimes
>>5969067
I'm sure they'll realize how autistic you are soon enough
>>5969072
I haven't really found any part yet i'm really happy with 2bh
>>5969079
;_;
I hope you will
>>5969071
How are you ?
Did anything special happen today ?
I'm so bored :(
>>5969092
No I just woke up actually, might run today might not.
I'm pretty bored too desu
>>5969087
Thanks anon, i hope so too :(
Maybe i'll like my face after ffs and my body after diet
How long until the gender therapist says you should transition? I haven't gone once but I just want to get an idea.
>>5969045
Ugh. I stepped in it now. Told a friend I had been thinking it would be fun to learn to code, and now she wants to drive coding knowledge into my brain.
I hope you're happy with yourself. Also, good luck with your shmup!
any tips for using gel eyeliner? im really good with liquid in a pen but using gel on a brush makes me feel and look like a child playing with mommy's makeup
>>5969043
WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS OMG
>>5968999
16" I think
>>5969112
Just put it on in small strokes
you need some exercise though
So don't worry
>>5969103
You're the one that should take that decision. If your therapist doesn't support you then find another one.
I'm starting to think I'm schizo
Everyone I wake up I have either denial or acceptance or my mind
>>5969103
>>5969122
a month or two if you dont give the therapist doubt that youre not trans. they'll most likely refer you to a doctor who will be the person who gives you the rx for hrt. its pretty common for doctors to give it to you the first visit if you have a letter from a therapist
>>5969125
im driving back to my parents tomorrow @_@
>>5969122
Oh, idk that. My shrink doesn't believe I'm trans because I don't dress as a woman in a daily basis, so I guess that depends on your therapist.
How advanced are you in your transition?
>>5969125
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0KVSUhhrkdM
>>5969103
Until you've ticked enough boxes in their "is transition right for my patient" checklist, usually.
Some actually have concern with you as an individual, but most are just following the SOC robotically.
>>5969114
You should desu it feels pretty good after a while
>Germany will never be any closer
>>5969122
I pretty much hot there saying yep, i'm trans
My therapist probably doesn't doubt me, he just wants me to do stuff for what i want
So he told me he'd give me hrt if i came out to my parents
Which i accidentally did between the last and the next session
So probably i'll get them pretty soon
My next session will be the 3rd but it took 6 months for that
>>5969048
That's not so much something that's taught as something that's learned. I used to think I was tall and that everyone would notice. However, it very quickly became apparent that the only person who gave a shit about my height was me.
>>5969055
It's pretty time consuming but that's my fault really. I set the scope for my final project and it's a bit large for the time that I have. Oh well.
And yeah, idk, I've never once in almost 6 years had someone comment on my height or use it to clock me. The height meme is just that, a meme, and I'm happy with a height that lets me reach stuff.
>>5969110
I'm sorry but at the least you're learning something cool right? And thanks!
Trying to sleep because of an early start tomorrow but woke up an hour in with sleep paralysis. Again. My heart is racing and I'm not gonna get to sleep any time soon so what's going on mtfg?
>>5969160
I hate sleep paralysis
What if you suddenly stopped HRT, would you body detransition? If you had orchi, would it stay the same?
>>5969168
Post orchi: My tiny tits might deflate a bit. I'd lose some roundness in my face. My skin would probably suffer. Sex drive would disappear.
... Sounds ok desu.
>>5969149
Yes. It is pretty neat. Maybe one day I'll even be able to code TRPGs in the spirit of Langrisser.
>>5969168
You'll lose everything e did
Without orchi you'll get masculine again
With orchi you'll stay more andro but you'll get fat, tired and you'll probably also get osteoporosis
>>5969160
>sleep paralysis
how horrifying
It used to happen to me every 3 or so days for about a year when I was 17, you should try to go back to sleep though and if it happens again try to focus on opening your eyes.
>>5968502
I think this sums it up pretty concisely desu
vid dot me/UrnD
goddamn I really need to get speech therapy and get back into music again, doing music completely eliminates my depression but it requires friends w/ instrument skills, hard to find...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iyQ8k7D91L8
>>5969186
I don't think the eye trick's too useful
Often i already have my eyes open when i'm in sleep paralysis
I always try to move my fingers first, the try to move my hands and at this point it starts to losen
>>5969192
my tongue seems to work in sleep paralysis and then its easier from there
Alright I'm gonna try again. Goodnight you beautiful people. <3
>>5969197
Sleep tight!
>>5969197
I hope you sleep well this time :)
I wonder if my gf knows how much it hurts when she makes fun of or tells me my voice is so deep and disaffected
>>5969203
If you have told her how much it hurts, probably.
If you have not, probably not.
People can be really thoughtless sometimes.
>>5969203
dump her and marry edie desu
>>5969203
defo dump her and marry edie
>https://scontent.cdninstagram.com/hphotos-xaf1/t51.2885-15/e15/11357920_1613928555551895_1660742840_n.jpg
>tfw you pass as an ugly british girl
why do I keep forgetting our females look like potatoes, I'm absolutely disgusting and I'm still hotter than like 50% of them
not that it makes them lesser people, I just mean in terms of aesthetics and stuff
>>5969203
I think she wants to keep your self esteem lower so you won't change/won't leave her
>>5969203
dump her and marry edie
you two are cute together
it's time for your new life, young lady
>calling a woman literally about double my age "young lady"
that feels weird
oh god that it weird
what the fuck Faye you vampire
>>5969203
DUMP HER AND MARRY EDIE
>>5969216
I've always wanted to make games as a kid
then I thought that was a dumb idea
Now I think doing something with computers is a good idea, with the future of tech and all.
Is it worth it?
Anyone here on progesterone? Good experiences? Bad experiences?
Trying to decide if I should ask for it.
>>5969222
It's a fun hobby and a questionable career path.
>>5969215
There's nothing wrong with calling a beautiful woman, young lady. It's pretty flattering, actually.
>>5969222
it's the only acceptable career choice for a tranny
>>5969216
In a way. I always liked videogames as a storytelling/storymaking medium, and often feel that my most beloved genres are being left fallow when there's so much more life in them.
I sort of stopped being able to devote myself to creative/artistic projects in my teens. Trying to fix that now, since I really miss all that stuff.
Hence theatre, music, writing, and coding are becoming appealing again?
>>5969229
This pic isn't really flattering, your others look better imo
>>5969226
That's really abusive, Faye.
If you can't get her to take your feelings seriously, and as precious, even when you make yourself that clear, how can you hope to grow your relationship?
Its roots are being strangled. That needs to stop, or you need to start over with someone else. You deserve to be loved, cherished, and respected.
>>5969237
>>5969222
triple a game development is pretty intense. if you dont want a stressful job i would avoid it. ive heard of some cool places to work doing game development though so theyre definitely out there.
i guess my advice to you is to find something you like to do and get really good at it. if you dont have too much experience, its going to take a few years but it will be worth it.
>>5969222
There's a lot of tech work that isn't game related, and that's likely a better option for a career than game development. I'm enjoying learning how to make games, but the industry is extremely competitive, the hours are brutal, and it's not really fun when you're doing it as a job.
>>5969237
That makes sense, I guess you're coming at it from the opposite angle that I am. I'm not a creative, I'm a coder, so most of my focus has been on gameplay ;_;
That makes sense though, and there's a lot of tools available that make game dev easy for people that don't like to tinker with code too much.
>>5969252
Ah, no. I could never do that. Like, ever. I might be able to do one of those 1-3 person projects on the quasi-indie scene.
>>5969258
>not really fun when doing it as a job
I guess that's why game developers are whoring out worthless DLC now
>>5969229
Mommmm stop embarrassing me at school
>>5969276
Youre so pretty
>>5969276
wow those glasses must be so thick
oh my god I just found a whole bunch of photos of high school neckbeard me doing that concert, these are hilarious
R E P R E S S I O N
B E A R D
>>5969276
fucking cis girl troll reeeeee get out
>Watching "Naked and marooned: with Ed stafford"
>He gets really happy when he accomplishes something
Holy shit, he's the cutest thing when he's happy.
>>5969267
That's not really the reason, those worthless dlcs just seem to keep making money somehow
>walking to class
>hear someone "whoa" and laugh
>be in class
>group assignment
>no one wants to work with the tranny
>make suggestions, try to help
>literally no acknowledgment that i spoke
>walk out of class
>group of people see me and laugh
>>5969297
but that's the thing
they hate their job so much that they want to milk as much money out of possible for as little effort
Holy fuck, the iCarly elevator into an apt is real.
>>5969299
Aww anon :(
>>5969299
iktf
life isn't very enjoyable when i never pass
it'll get better with time r-right?
>>5969289
My eyes don't focus on the same spot, all my family has it and got surgery as kids, but you can't really do it as an adult, because your brain can't adapt to it.
Tl;dr I have large prisims on my face to bend the light into my eyes.
>>5969299
>Sitting in health program study room
>legs crossed at desk
>ex professor from two years ago comes in
>"hiiiiiiiiiiiii"
>not a hi how are you hi, or a hey what's up hi
>it was a hi how you doin creepy hi
>>5969292
I almost forgot why you arent actually trans
thanks edgar
>tfw u get the common con cold
>tfw its fucking sore throat/tonsillitis
UGhhhhhhhhh someone put me down
>>5969314
What can you see without them?
>>5969325
suicide pact?
Who else has this book? Hons give good advice sometimes desu.
>>5969325
>>5969329
>more people getting sick
>getting sick ever
HHHEHEHEHEHE
>>5969329
i cant even fuckign swallow ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
its like 9/10 pain
>>5969299
Happening to me right now in class
>look at the tranny in the corner on 4chan
>>5969299
Oh... that's really sad. I'm sorry your classmates are so cruel and exclusionary.
You'll make a community that treats you with respect someday. For now, headpats.
>>5969335
>>5969299
>Tfw this used to happen to me
It's ok we're all gonna make it
>>5969327
I can read perfect and see distances pretty well, I get blurry at long distances, seeing street signs from 100+m away is pretty hard, basically the father out I go, the more double vision
>>5969335
i was willing to bring my orca so we could be two weird trannies in the corner
>>5969344
we will never make it
>>5969344
Naww I was kidding nobody talks to me in this class because I refuse to talk to plebs and only a couple cool cats are in this class. That and everyone is afraid of me because I'm like 4 years older than everyone
>>5969299
>>5969334
welcome to my hell
imagine having to work and standing for hours and having to deal with hundreds of people through this
>>5969350
Run to meee, orca in hand
>>5969332
this is what I deserve
>>5969352
Hey caddy <3
>>5969350
see pic
>>5969351
That's basically what I do in all my comp sci courses. I'm surprised I haven't been clocked in quite a long time
>>5969360
hi
>>5969359
hope you get better soon desu
>>5969372
no its cus we went to an animecon. its the common con cold mang
>>5969355
no its 26F and i have to use the stationary soon
did i mention its cold
>>5969360
we saw a dead porcupine on the road on friday ;w;
that hedgehog cant help me do the impossible, let alone stop itself from getting hit by a car
it isn't possible to for me to pass
>class tomorrow but i dun wanna
>>5969372
its all haileys fault though she got everyone sick after she came down bc "different immune system lol"
>>5969360
This is a general topics course on the European Union and 3/4 of the people in here are certifiably ignorant. A mix of Id rather be smoking some dank weed and none of this matters sort of kids and I know absolutely nothing but I'm going to act like I know everything even if I sound like an imbecile kind of kids. Only my major specific courses make me feel confident in the future of our youth
On top of that these people are closer to my little sisters age than my own and it freaks me out
My bobs are dead. They don't hurt anymore. I can lie on them and they don't hurt like they always did.
RIP right & left bob
>>5969384
nobody got sick until after the con
>>5969377
thanks birdanon
this might be a weird question, but are you a good friend of mine irl? I have the sneaking suspicion that you are, but he loves falcons the most instead of owls and vultures...
>>5969299
>be me
>in uni
>walking to my next class, its in another building so walking outside
>hear someone yell out faggot
>pretty sure it was directed to me and just keep walking
>hear laughing from behind
fuckingfuckshit
hi hi hi hi hi
>>5969395
>This is what you deserve for leaving the house
ive learned my lesson. NEET life
>>5969385
Why take an entry level course??
>>5969380
awww porcupines are so cute :(
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YwYMLDWJaME
JUST LOOK AT IT, LOOK AT THE CUTE
>>5969392
oh right
nvm im dumb
Totally unrelated nooby question:
How do I get a char sting behind my name?
>tfw left /mtfg/ earlier to get work done
>came back
>the Americans are here
It's like when you go to a party knowing only one person.
>>5969395
I will do it then faye !! i will do it for the future but not because i want to cause i will prob just get bullied in class ;~;
>>5969401
what happened was hailey got sick first out of all of us on account of her being on another coast cus different immune systems, it then acted as a petri dish and we all got sick. we can fight against these common cascadian colds very easy, but when an outsider gets it, it changes in their system and then becomes too power for our immune systems to fight
>>5969410
im a houswife so, no.
>>5969410
>I'm British
Correction : The anglos are here.
>>5969390
the orca is the only thing keeping me together
>>5969400
idk i can't look at vermin like that without thinking about the bonding experiences i had with my dad catching nyc rats then putting them in a plastic bag to then hit with a plant pot or a bat
>>5969420
we wuz kangs and sheeit?
>>5969393
Haha, as much as I would like that I am not, I don't know anyone here IRL.
>>5969400
Required bullshit
Gotta be well rounded or something
Because I love making games about the European Union
>>5969422
>we wuz yellow rotten teeth and shit
>>5969430
>im going to get a job
>no i like you taking care of the house it makes my life a lot less stressful
>okay
no
>>5969427
>Required bullshit
>Gotta be well rounded or something
Oh I see you're at a liberal arts college too :)
>>5969431
;~~; n-n-n-no bully
>>5969399
WHO NEET HERE MAYAKA
>>5969422
Love you <3
I saw we were getting close to image cap and I was thinking about popping my thread virginity and making my first 4chan thread ever but I'm too afraid I'll mess up and everyone will hate me more than they already do
>>5969434
>not the japanese version
im 150lbs right now lost 15 pounds recently... by july imma be 100lbs and imma cosplay as Anzu desu
>>5969430
>we rule the world
Britain RULED the world, then they got fucked in ww2, left all their african colonists to get slaughtered by nogs, backstabbed their colonists that survived, and then flooded their country with pakis and nogs.
>>5969440
s-stop bullying anglos ;~~;
/mtfg/ how to tell if a guy is gay or if he just wants nothing to do with you sexually or romantically?
>>5969425
damn, he's really cute and I even told him I go here
I'm starting to think he's actually asexual :/
>>5969444
Facts aren't bullying.
>>5969447
noo bulllyy ;__________________________________;
>>5969440
Scot here.
Please fucking kill me
>>5969148
Oh my god.
My waking world feels like a nightmare now with all these thoughts in my head.
I used to wake from nightmares that felt like this. And be relieved the stress and worry was just part of the dream. My repression was good.
And now it's real and I can't wake up.
I want to curl up into a ball and cry.
Im a fully grown man for Christ sake...at least I thought I was :(
>>5969438
im roiding up for june, i want to cosplay as toguro from yuyu hakusho
sophie can tell you all about my progress
>>5969442
that's because you go to fullsail itt tech and i graduated from UCR
Hey mtfg, what's the best way to upload several minutes of high quality video in a private manner where it can be shared?
>>5969299
>>5969394
iktf
>be me
>go out shopping one weekend
>Radio 1 music festival is happening on our uni grounds
>buses back to the uni get cancelled
>wearing sweater dress and black leggings in boiling sun because I didn't think I'd be outside for long
>end up having to trek home
>takes 2 hours, sweating profusely, wheezing from asthma, aching from dyspraxia, carrying shopping the whole way
>see group of 7 kids aged 10-15 coming the other way up the street
>keep my head down to avoid eye contact
>as they get closer one of them screams "that's a man! eww!"
>they all start screaming in jest and pointing at me
>as we pass each other they start shouting stuff like "tranny!" and "freak!" etc.
>quietens down after I've been past them for a few seconds
>suddenly feel two rocks hit my back
>turn around to see them following me
>keep throwing rocks
>3 adults on the same street just ignoring this shit
>end up having to run til they get bored of following me, lose a couple of items from my shopping as a result
little shits, shit lineup at the festival too
>>5969466
you have the coordination required to run?
>>5969404
I'm trying to spread my UK trans room on kageshi
only set it up recently
/reallifeexperience
>>5969446
I don't know haha, I've never really been with anyone so I'm really awkward and retarded when it comes to things like that.
Well I'm not him I just like to hang out here, and I personally lean more towards boys!
>>5969466
just carry bear mace
>>5969413
Jealous. So much younger than me and already a housewife. Curse my wasted youth.
It's important work. I'm glad you've made it a point to make it yours.
>>5969466
thats fucked up
>>5969476
not without hurting myself and/or falling over repeatedly
but they were throwing rocks at me
>>5969480
that first sentence makes me think you're him even more
Im onto you bird anon
>>5969489
ez pz
>>5969466
This is literally the reason why I am too scared to transition. I don't want this.
>>5969497
I'd show you what I look like if I wasn't afraid to get doxxed!
>>5969499
yeah but tbf I'm Edgar the Superhon
Neferpitou on the trains chat is so adorable i wished i was as cute as her.
Is it normal to feel like a real jerk after severe t-rage?
>wearing skinny jeans and a well-fitting shirt
>subtle bb cream to make my skintone consistent
>shaggy collar-length hair and large bangs
>started laser so beard grows in real slow and getting thinner
>Feeling good and kind of androgynous
>Mom compliments my jeans
>Keeps saying I look cute
>Still not out to her
This fuzzy feel
What's up /mtfg/, /mu/ here.
I'm in a band and things are going really well. I have gender dysphoria and it bothers me, but would you think it's worth giving up being in a band just to transition?
>>5969510
A few years ago I threw a chair at someone's head and then nearly strangled them to death. I regretted it immensely afterwards and felt terrible.
>>5969518
Stay in band, transition.
>>5969518
Por que no los dos?
Keep the band and transition, is that an option?
>>5969518
You should definitely do both.
Are you a singer in the band? HRT isn't going to affect your male voice (unfortunately). And if you keep practicing it alongside your female voice you should be fine.
WE
Im starting to think 4chan is trolling with the captchas
WUZ
>>5969539
WUZ
>>5969539
ARE THE CRYSTAL GEMS
>>5969566
Surely if you just not give a shit neither will they?
Just owning it makes you a bad ass.
Transitioning is a gradual process anyway, you could be super androgynous for a long ass time and just not out yourself until you're ready.
>>5969510
I punched one of my friends in the face for simple fact he poked me
>>5969125
thank you~
My life is empty