How's /k/ holding up?

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every night i pray for death to take me and every night i curse the light when it comes. i want off this stinkin rock so fucking bad. tried suicide twice, but the universe wants me in it still so i gave up going down that path a few years back.

it gets harder and harder to convince myself of the lie that its going to get better

you guys are all i have left

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When it rains, it fucking pours. Lot of work and shit going down over the next couple weeks in school, but easter is soon so homemade kielbasa. Also making minor progress on gf front, but too early to tell. Slipped back into dipping to deal with stress. 4/10 slightly shittier than normal, but fine for now

Broke and I have an itch for a new gun.

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I turn 30 this year. Broke up with gf because I found herpes medication in her drawer. Had falling out with best friend since high school. Live at parents now. My old Ford Ranger hasn't got much time left. Not to brag but not even my $28,000 gun and ammo collection seems to make me happy atm.

>pic somewhat relative, my private shooting range

>>33546524
What could possibly be so bad in your life? You sound like a melodramatic pussy.

I've come to the conclusion that I'm a profoundly unhappy person, and that I prefer it over actual happiness, as it excuses my other personality issues.

I just bought a bunch of ammo and motorcycle gear though, so overall I'd call it 7/10.

Well, pretty good thanks. Work is ok, family is well, dealing with my health problems effectively. Recently found a British nightstick at an antique store so that's cool. Could be a hell of a lot worse.

>>33545620
I drink a lot, but I maintain myslef.

Except for Hurricanes, last one I ran up and down the street with ak yelling.

Either my neighbors were asleep or to this day they choose to ignore the fact that happened

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>>33546606
in the course of 12 months, i lost my job my home my gf of 10 years, my dog died, my car was stolen, and my half-sisters flushed my father's life's work down the drain. i can keep going, if you like.

kids like you think life only goes in one direction- up. you're wrong.

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>>33546644
>half-sisters flushed my father's life's work down the drain.
explain

>>33545620
I have a colonosopy tomorrow. I'm 24. I'm currently stuck on the toilet pissing out of my ass because of laxatives. It's pretty fucking gay

>>33546644
And all those things aren't able to be replaced? Do you thing all the bad things in the world happen to you and only you?
Quit your bitching and get to work. Now that you don't have to worry about a useless female or caring for a dog you'll have plenty of time finding a new job. Hell, move in with your dad and help recoup what he lost. At the same time you can DP your half sisters.

I should be happy, I worked hard to get where I am now, and everything is the way I wanted it to be, but I still just want to die.

>>33546644
>kids like you
There is more to life beyond high school, jr.

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eh not bad. time seems to pass by so quickly and I feel like im doing nothing

>>33545620
Fucking hailstorm/tornadoes rolling in on me today but I got muh BCM upper, so all is good.

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>>33545620
I have no motivation for college, I'm taking pointless classes that I hate and I'm trying so hard to pass them, but I just cant and I know I'm letting my parents down. I'm selling my gaming PC so I have one less distraction and hopfully my mom will be happy with that and hopefully since I wont be able to play games any more my grades will rise.

I basically failed my first year of college and everyone else seems to be breezing by like it's nothing. I always look at the silver lining in life, but man do I dislike being here.

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>>33545620
Medically unfit for the Military, feels really fucking bad man.

Pretty Stoned right now, had to move back to commiefornia from a free state because of issues

I feel like Im back in square one, don't really know how to approach from here

>>33547123
Please tell me you're at least banging college girl pussy

>>33546661
trucking company was family business and they [rightfully] felt that the union pension obligation was conflicting with their estate planning so they shut it down and put 33 people including myself out of work. it was 3 against 1 i was outvoted

Dragging along. Recently got out of a long, long depression, thanks to pills. They make me forget to eat, too, so I'm happily losing weight. Need a job soon, though.

>>33546689
i did mention that my attempts were literally years ago. reading is a skill.

my dad died in '87, but thanks for playing.

>>33547137

I'm so sorry Anon. I know that feel.

What'd they get you with?

I was medically unfit because I was an idiot and admitted I had asthma as a child and got a (bullshit) depression and ADHD diagnoses.

Years later I just went to a new recruiter and got in just fine, I learned from /k/ to keep my mouth shut. I joined up as an 11b.

So there might be hope!

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Pretty shit, to be honest.

I've slowly lost any capacity to feel joy and now empathy over the last few years. It's been nothing but thankless work and debt. Nothing's interesting anymore except Ian occasionally. I have an itch to upgrade my computer hardware but I can't justify why, videogames suck today.

I haven't worked since NYE and I couldn't care less about finding another job, I don't see a reason why I should. After my unemployment runs out I'll probably just sell my stuff and live out of my car.

The only thing keeping me around now is my friend's cat that I'm taking care of and the fact that I don't have any energy to get my will notarized.

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>>33547247
I go to a community college where theres about 5 girls that I find attractive and they all have boyfriends so no.

College pretty much blows for me. I'm not even overweight or anything. I go to the gym alot, eat healthy, look decent (I hope) dress well,etc. There just arent many girls on this small campus.

>>33546524
Hang in bro

>>33547327

Use Tinder. Are you near a major city?

I skipped jiu-jitsu tonight because I'm a lazy piece of shit and now I regret it

I am basically just trying to drag myself out of a bout of depression. I am forcing myself through college because it is what my parents expect but it is hard when you can barely see yourself making it to 30 before killing yourself.

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Rejoined the military mid last month
>on a Monday before mid month paycheck
Gotta wait 4-6 weeks until I get paid
But it's gonna be a good one
>sign on bonus
>full month and a half of rank pay
>full month and a half of BAH and Comrats
I did the math and after taxes I'll be able to get something nice for myself
Any suggestions?

Also
>currently out of work because full active
>running out of my tax returns so I only have enough for gas and haircuts
Already stressful but I can hang in there

Meh finnaly moving out so going to sell some guns I don't need or shoot anymore.

Got told im not gonna have a job in a month or so. Things could be better i guess. Also car is broken and homeless. But im stayin with my gfs family right now and they are treating me well

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I'm a submariner and as of recently have been working hard and working out, no problems sleeping.

I'm just waiting for Friday while I drink.

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>>33547416
force yourself through college because you'll be better off than pukes like me that got a broad pregnant and had to drop out. so now i work in the hot&noisy for it.

hang in there. you're on a better path than i was. 48 months in the grand scheme of things is nothing. i realize that's small comfort today.

in the immortal words of winston churchill:

if you're going through hell, KEEP GOING

i'll blow sunshine up your ass any time you need it.

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My military ball date has no feelings at all for me. Literally pure indifference. But it's okay because I'm just happy I'm able to get back out there and meeting her was the first kind of date I've ever had with a relative stranger (a mutual friend set us up).

College has been meh for me. Plenty of hot girls, but they're all empty headed and not worth the trouble to fuck. I just want a solid grill to call my own, ya know?

>>33547267
>Dad died in '87

And you're still hanging on to all that baggage? Go seek help.

>>33545620
Cat anon here.
Doing well, still miss the fuzzy fuck... Got a sig p6 for 300$ west germ '79...

>>33546524
>posting on /k/
>"tried suicide twice"
You're either doing it wrong because you don't really want to die, or you're literally the Antichrist because a bullet to the head can't put you down.

>>33547123
Hey thats alright, i had a chance to go to a school with avg. ACT 33, but went to a school avg 22 instead. My parents (very caring about reputation) are bitter to this day. But anon, the point is you might be in a school surrounded by smart people, making you feel dumb, when in reality, you are smart when compared nationally. That shit can discourage you! Dont listen to the "best years of your life" BS, usually i find it comes from people not satisfied with their current life (afterall, why reminisce if you have aomething better infront/ahead of you?) Also, college years has the statistical brunt of emerging health issues such as depression, ect. Just dont let it carry forward into your life.

>>33547500

Who cares if she has feelings for you? Its just a ball. Have some fun and get drunk.

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>>33545620
not too well, Im in school but I recently went back to work. everything seems to be closing in on me. Also things just havent been going well, stock or the family business. I havent been considering suicide, just sort of thinking about it (sorry for sounding like a teenage faggot bc I am one). the fear of shooting myself directly into hell keeps me from thinking too seriously about it. I've had to resort to taking either sleeping medication (like melatonin or prescription stuff) or vicodin to go to sleep. But I realize that a lot of people have it way worse than me so I am just left in this weird middle ground of not being happy but not wanting to complain since I could have it worse, that in itself has sort of been driving me crazy.
>Overall score: 5/10 I have a weird sexual attraction to Casey Anthony

>>33547346
About the biggest for 2 hours in any direction. I'm still pretty skeptical about Tinder and online dating in general, even for hookups. Just seems like a good way to get an STD or something.

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>>33546873
glad someone is doing well

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Honestly? I visit /k/ hoping I might run into my ex.
Kind of like it here tho

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>>33547560
That's very insipring desu anon. Thanks! Hopefully my parents wont totally hate me after this semester is over.

>>33547327
I know that exact feel man, I'm in the same boat. I had a friend thing going with this one chick but I spaghetti'ed pretty hard and now she looks the other way when we pass in the hall. keep trying, hope for a girl that transfers. hope you read this before the /k/gb delet this thread

Allergies, most of the sources ive read and spoken to say its a pretty much full DQ for food allergies. But hey i wont know until i try right? Not sure lying is the best idea in my case tho. (Canada btw)

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>>33547283
srry forgot link

>>33547562
I'm only 20 so it's gonna have to be afterwards

>>33547559
didnt try to use a firearm.

>walk through doorway with chin-up bar
>do chin-ups every time you walk through doorway
>attempt to hang self from said bar
>bar pulls out of door frame
>use longer and larger screws
>do a jillion pull-ups and chin-ups
>attempt again
>screws pull out of wood again

ive seen what happens to people that keep trying and i wanted no part of it. the example i cite is the kid that drank drano and got himself the first gastric bypass. they connected his esophagus to his asshole because the drano burned everything else away.

after that i took it as the cosmos wants me in it still so i stopped trying. someday i hope my purpose is met. until then, i'll keep on keepin on. just dont expect me to like it.

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>>33545620
Meh, not bad.

Just got this new digital art meural today, my graduation gift since my family wouldn't indulge my fun hobby

It is pretty awesome.

That all said, I'm a serious alcoholic, and will have to detox for a few weeks. My liver is screaming. But I'm fine!

>>33547752
you're not an alcoholic, you're a drunk. alcoholics go to meetings.

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>>33545620
Doing alright I suppose. I'm shipping out to basic in 3 months after I finish my summer classes. Don't know what to expect in the Army or military in general. Two of my best friends in the Army say it'll be a love-hate relationship.

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Some financial troubles came up so i have to put all my gun buys on hold. I just want to finish building my ar and buy a dbal i2 and NV set for my ak.
oh well. Atleast the waifu is feeling much better after the operation and i got a promotion. Boss has been really helpful and allowed me to skip out on work often thanks to a recent investment deal i got for the company.
5/10 it's okay.

>>33545620
Meh

>>33546605
Don't worry anon, it will get better.

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>>33547807
congratulations, anon. good on you. keep it up!

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>>33547835
it doesn't get better. you just get used to it.

>>33547835
I agree with>>33547851

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>>33545620
I've been depressed af lately, but I have put a boolet in my noggin yet, so that's a plus

>>33547868
*Have NOT jeebus crust on a biscuit

>>33547851
Fuck.. thanks for reminding me, I just got out of a huge depressive swing and hellish life.
But you are damned right.
What ever, things are good now. I'll enjoy when I can.
pro /k/ gf
awesome job
new car

down sides... I'm starting to think about having a family, but hard to mention that to a girl you've been dating 2 weeks now.
Cat's showing some serious age

It's all worth it for those brief moments.

>>33547346
don't use tinder.

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I've just come out of a depression spike. I don't think what I have is bi-polar since I dont go into mania and the lows dont last long enough for it to be textbook. I am sort of in an inbetween stage not really depressed but not really myself, Ive been thinking about the movie taxi driver a lot, the main theme keeps playing in my head.

>>33547257

Union laborer here. This doesn't smell right to me, DESU. I would check the legality of this shit.

>>33547708

Take solace in a clear destiny fellow /k/ommando. All that remains to you is to die in service to God, country and family.

This is the sole purpose of non breeding males. The final guiding light in the life of a man who has nothing else. To spend your life gloriously but effectively in defiance of your enemies. This is your destiny anon.

>T. Guy who is joining the military in his 30s so he can one day die in battle. Ideally fighting in the race war / crusade.

>>33546605

Hope you got your peepee checked anon

>>33548000
look up MPAA and ERISA law then get back to me. any time an employer leaves the pension fund the other employers are on the hook for the balance. thats why UPS paid BILLIONS with a B to get out of the teamsters multi-employer pension fund

if the corporate veil can somehow be pierced they go after the principals personally and we were jointly and severally liable which means which ever one they could get the money out of was on the hook for all of it

as an employee unions are great. as an employer unions can lick my wrinkled bag.

>>33545620

Doing well. Debt free. 20k in the bank. Decent funs collection. Quit the weed that had been propping up my psyche for five years. Best physical shape of my life hitting the gym every day.

Joining the military as an officer soon (fingers crossed). Lost my wife but it's for the best. Made peace with the fact that I will never get laid or be with someone again.

Only wish now is to fight the enemies of my people. To die in battle. Ideally taking a bullet to spare some better person. That is my destiny.

Kind of lonely though. But I've been a loner my whole life. So I'm used to it.

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>>33545620
two cop cars were hanging out opposite each-other down the side street(1 house lot away) within view of the rear of my house and my desk/window for over an hour, before they upped and left. 7 years here and I've never seen them do that there. they were scoping me out weren't they?

>>33546640
I'm going to need more information about your last experience with hurricanes.

>>33548057
cops cruiser-spooning is nothing to be alarmed about.

>>33547708
>two for two on surviving hanging
You got suicide attempt dubs. Kek still has purpose for you in this world.

Commit your life to the Great Frog and all will be revealed.

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>>33548003
I have to say I am pretty much just hoping for some chance to die heroically, I am aware that killing myself is going to harm people who I care about so something like this really appeals to me since I at least do something with this pointless life of mine and it doesn't have the stigma of suicide attached.

>>33548083
figured so, but I just thought it was strange they'd be doing this in the middle of a upper-middle class neighborhood, nearly blocking the road to a entire street of homes, they normally spoon in parking lots.

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>>33548091
as i have said, i have abandoned my path of self-destruction. i fully intend to see shit through.

at least until my choice is between taking my own life and rotting away in a nursing home. then i will do what i must do. until then, i'll keep on keepin on. and doing whatever it is it seems like im supposed to be doing.

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The truth? I wish I were dead, but I don't want to kill myself. It's more of a "I really fucked up this play through and wish I could make a new character." sort of feeling.


I know for a fact i'm not living up to my potential, i'm 5 out of 6 years into what was supposed to be a 4 year engineering program at college, and since my constant internal and interpersonal problems have made me a cynical, bitter and unpleasant person, literally the only person that talks to me anymore is my roommate because he feels socially obligated to. Because of the aforementioned reasons (among a hundred others) I have a pervasive and deep seated understanding that I will never be able to maintain a relationship with a woman beyond 8 months, (my personal record!) and I have consigned myself to the fact that I will die alone and without any family.


The upside is that i've known all of this for about the past five years, so its become the norm for me. Since the bar is set so low a paraplegic could jump it, today was an 8/10 because I found 9mm on sale at the local fleet farm store.

I'm not looking for pity, it just feels good to vent every now and then.

Gotta stay positive!

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>>33548187
>I wish I were dead, but I don't want to kill myself

f-fuck...I know all too well

>>33546640
>I drink a lot

Stop
Seriously
Your head will clear, your physical and mental health will improve and life will be a better place to live

Did my first story time on /co/ so that's pretty kewl. But that seems to be the only good thing so far.

>>33548187
I think many of us are like this. it's probably the raised-catholic in me, I recognize my failures and what could've been but have no interest in calling it quits and want to see things to the end, however that may be.

>>33547621

Don't worry anon, you can get that shit dating normally. All excitement involves some risk - in this case, just wrap it.

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>>33545620
I've come to terms with my anxiety and stress by realizing all the shit that recently happened is just the start of the next faze in my life. All defeats are recoverable as long as I'm still breathing, and comparing different segments of my life to one another I see now that change can always be countered and made for the better, and it's an inevitable that will happen good or bad, and needs to be adapted to.

aka I'm over some depressing shit that happened. Doing fairly alright, OP.

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>>33548248
victories are where you find them

build on small victories. turn several small victories into a medium-sized victory. find another bunch of small victories. NO MATTER HOW SMALL THEY ALL ADD UP. put a couple of medium-sized victories into a big win

at least thats how i pulled myself out of depression [dont laugh im way better than i used to be]

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>>33547346
I've got tinder and have no issue getting matches, but I have no fucking clue how to converse on there. Before the last reset I did I had over 50 matches over 2 months and didn't message a single one. Oddly enough my social awkwardness is only really present in digital form, besides the lack of social initiative to start conversations as an introvert, I don't really have an issue IRL.

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>>33548290
and by that i mean getting out of bed, showering, and getting to work on time some days is a small victory

some people cant even do that

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Let's see:
>Recently got hit with the crushing feels of the fact that my brief existence in this universe will be forgotten to the the world soon after my death, Whenever that may be
>Will not be remembered
>Will not have an important positive effect on the world

Anon's, all I want is to be remembered.
I guess I'm fine though.

>>33547790
Your friends are in the right. You'll more often than not love you squad and love most of the shit you do. However, over time the small things get quite tedious and other shit seems pointless but your stuck doing it anyways.

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>>33548187
>I really fucked up this play through and wish I could make a new character

mfw all i wanted was a normal life wtf god give me a redo

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the places i used to hang out at on the internet have all turned into liberal hug box echo chambers. political correctness is utter bullshit. to be technically correct, which is the best kind of correct, the only politically correct opinion is the dissenting one.

as a heave a heavy sigh and go take my nap before my 12 hour workday tomorrow, i'm comforted by the knowledge that while you may recognized my posts from my tag line, we are all anonymous here and you cannot use what ive revealed to you against me. i am otherwise vulnerable but you wont hurt me. on /k/ we are all /k/ommandos

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>>33546605
Herpes is only minimally contagious when there aren't outbreaks. No reason to leave your girlfriend, you could have just been more cautious...

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>>33545620
I'm about one sad hand job from going active shooter at the moment

>>33548394
dude its fucking herpes its one step below syphilis and aids

and if she's got ink she probably carries hep-c too

>>33548394
but anon if you don't have herpes and she didn't have herpes when you started dating what does the herpes medication imply?

These threads encourage sadness and should start off more happy. Possibly start them with a happy photo, or an anime girl next time.

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>>33548436

Plus, statistically speaking its most likely she got it from having sex with a negro.

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>mfw reading the stories of all you suicidal fucks
Is this what you become if you stay for too long?

I hate jews more each day.
I have no life no real family and no friends.
If S.A. I guess I'll go report from there.

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Well besides being incredibly lonely I guess life is going alright. Currently going to college but just taking bullshit classes till I can transfer to study what i want. Haven't really hung out with anyone ever since graduating from high school or even gone on a date. My dad even told me he's wanting me to get out more, go see my friends, get a date, do something. Most of the time though I just feel like I'm not good enough for my friends anymore.or anyone else for that matter, like I should just disappear so I don't bother anyone anymore.

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>>33548524
If S.A. pops off I'll go be a "reporter" there.

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>>33548503
oh i was that way long before i found /k/. i could never be around firearms. it was literally a physiological compulsion. if there was a gun on the table, i would be literally compelled to put it in my mouth and pull the trigger. thank god for neuroplasticity.

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Finally got a job after being out of work for 11 months. Fuckin Fortune 500 company making 55k when I was making 48k before I lost my job.

Despite the good fortune I'm so close to offing myself. I've gotten fat as hell and have abandoned or alienated all of my friends. The stress of being unemployed has been replaced with the stress of a new job and I'm not feeling any better.

Lonely, living with my parents, and fat. Making decent money though... Anybody want a nice payday to put a bullet in the back of my head?

>>33545620
Same as always, total indifference and lack of motivation. Been fantasizing about going to school, but havent had enough exploratory life experience to discover a subject that im sufficiently interested in.. Getting old, and thats freaking me out. Wondering how or why all these NPCs i see about are so seemingly content and motivated. Games arent even fun anymore. About to go back to N.D. after a visit home and try to get a job in the oil fields doing goon labor, which is good money but i am utterly disinterested in and i hate the state. I feel like even if i take a good ((opportunity)) and work my way up at an oil company, im gonna get comfy and then *boom* im 40 and all hope of having an exciting meaningful life will have passed. Thinking about getting hooked on hardcore drugs so i have something to do. Fucking nihilistic epoch, this age is.

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I'm probably at the best point I've been in my life in the past five years. No terrible things are happening, I'm doing great things. Yet, I'm still depressed. My mental state hasn't improved in three years after getting out of therapy. I had a panic attack a few days ago and I'm becoming increasingly concerned that my mental state is deteriorating.

This has brought me onto a quest of self discovery and enlightenment. I feel that if i can fully understand myself I can solve my own problems. This has lead to my disconnect between body and mind.

I do not feel like I am one singular entity. That my physical body and the mannerisms it displays are separate entirely from my mind, the state of which I observe the world from. I feel as if I lack a personality at all, that who and what I am is entirely dictated by the social situation around me and as such I do not feel like I belong. I just want to be normal but if asked what I define as normal I will fail to describe the concept of normality and what it means to me. I am lost.

I believe this to be my route of all evil and I have no idea what to do about it. It terrifies me.

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>>33548503
I've been on 4chan since '05.
You can never leave...

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>>33548503
Not in my case, I was like this since middle school when I told my mom I thought of ending my life and told me that SHE would go to hell and I would be responsible for that. Thanks Mom, really appreciate the support.

>>33548631
At least you're making good money now anon, I had to scrape the barrel to get the job I'm at now so I envy anyone that makes over minimum. Also, it never hurts to start a diet or do a little workout routine in the morning and afternoon.

>>33548531
Just go out for a walk or something, It's really good for head clearing. It's what I do. Find a girl, learn her name, see if shes intrested in getting a pizza or something. Worst they can say is no.

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>>33545620
I am on year 2 of my warehouse job with a company I have been working for for the last decade. I worked the shipping dock for a solid year, and it ripped off 40 pounds of flab from me. I switched positions inside and now I jockey a forklift finding specific shit all day, but I still get a workout every morning building and shoving around stacks of totes. I have a new used truck with payments that aren't crushing and my paychecks are the biggest they have ever been.

The major fucking downside here is that my best friend who also worked there has moved away up north to Brainerd, MN. Then his fucking wife killed herself right after Christmas. I have been doing what I can to be a bro through this rough time, but he is three hours away from me. Texting and phone calls only go so far. I was able to get up and visit him for some gun fun last month but if I don't work up another solution I feel like our friendship is fucked.

Then with that sai, I am normally an anti-social introvert, so now I'm trying to deal with the fact that i now have a bigass hole in my social network. I've started fixing that but more time is needed.

Getting a new gun on saturday. Life is OK.

>>33548187
>the local fleet farm store.
Minnesota or Wisconsin? I am not totally different from you breh.

>>33548718
If you're in the DFW I have a job for you making ~$10-14 today. Seriously, just reply and I'll hook you up. It's a shit job busting your ass for korean assholes, but it's yours if you want it (and are in the area).

>>33545620
Going to the field soon. Gonna miss my girl again. We're waiting a bit to have her take a prego test. Syria's gas attacks have her worried on if I'll deploy soon.

>>33548631
i'm up for it. could we at least socialize for a little while before hand? i have nobody.

>>33545620
My friends dont want to hang with me so I'm drinking in celebration of my loneliness.

>>33548756
kek, I'll buy you dinner first and everything. I have a fat life insurance policy that will pay off all my debts, but I can't be the one to pull the trigger...

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>>33548761
we're sharing a drink we call loneliness but its better than drinking alone

or so the song goes

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>>33547790
I've heard the same. Met a lot of guys from the military that said the same.

>>33548749
Would if I could anon but I'm stuck I'm the Midwest for the next couple years of my life. I appreciate the offer though

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>>33548761
>>33548792
A toast to absent friends and ships passing in the night...

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>>33548749
fuck i have one of those in chicagoland

fucking millenials dont understand every hour's worth of work doesnt include 15 minutes of thumbs-on-a-screen

give me five good mexicans

or one good pollack

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making like 11.50 an hour working retail. what started out as just being a part time job while i finished college turned into my only source of employment after i dropped out because i was a retarded immature pot head who couldn't prioritize tasks like shit homework for classes that weren't related to my degree. stopped smoking and transitioned to borderline alcoholism for about 6-8mos drinking every day and dont really hang out with my group of friends that i was pretty tight with anymore because they just sit around doing the same things they have for the last 4 years i've known them and getting high. Everyday i wake up and feel like ive wasted so much potential and i dont know if i should try to repair my life and strive for those fake things i was trying to achieve but never really wanted in the first place(degree/friends) or just burn it all to the ground and drive to a new town somewhere out west with my mediocre savings where nobody knows my face and i can just live day by day trying to find some sort of meaning or direction

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>>33548859
all the best lessons in life either hurt us or cost us money

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>school is going good
>keep thinking about those loans stacking up tho
>girlfriend of a year loves the hell out of me
>but not completely sure about future with her
>father lives 800 miles away and I talk to him once every 6 months
>mother lives with her husband in india on other side of the world
>girlfriend goes to a different university about 60 miles away
>spend most days alone in my apartment
>girlfriend comes and stays with me on the weekends but it kind of annoys me at times
>spend every holiday alone
>feel like I'm taking on life alone
>see all my friends come home from school(I got an apart in hometown and just commute to the city for school)
>they all have loving families and its all that I desire
>I lost 20 pounds around this time last year but then quit going to gym
>gained back the 20 plus 30 extra
>I'm not huge, just a dad bod, but I can still slay puss
>really need to go back to the gym but I'm never motivated enough
>my guns keep me happy
>pretty happy that I have already built up a collection of 24 guns and I'm still a few months shy of 21
>altho haven't bought a gun in 4 months because you always have to buy the gf presents and gifts

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>>33548843
Holy fuck you aren't kidding, kid in my nasty girl squad can't keep his fucking nose out of his phone. I swear to christ as soon as I get promoted I'm going to make him move the earth if I see him with his fucking phone in the field watching basketball again.
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>>33548859
Keep going bro. Also the second option may be viable, if risky. Sometimes we need to hit that reset button.
>>33545620
School's going shitty, friends are all running into hard problems, I'm starting to think about jumping off a building or something if shit doesn't change soon. I'm also spending too much of what little money I have on booze.

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>>33548933
the issue with the friend envy aside, you seem to be at least on the good foot. your life is in a state of flux right now. you can nudge it in the direction you want to go. hang in there. you're doin ok, from an observer reading your post and reading between the lines of your post.

all of you, you're here reading these posts and/or posting for a reason.

hang in there. today wasn't the same as yesterday. there was at least one small difference. tomorrow wont be the same as today. i guarantee you it will, if only in a tiny way, it will somehow be different from today.

EVERY DAY AN ADVENTURE

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>>33547123
Smart and breezing by doesnt make it much better. College sucks fat brown cock. I hate everything about it. Not learning shit, not entertained, everyone is an insufferable egomaniac.

>>33545620
I'm just waiting and wasting away while not living life to the fullest. They always say to sacrifice the present for the future and I've been doing just that for six motherfucking years and don't have a goddammed thing to show for it! Yet it still takes me this long for the gravity of wasting so much time to hit me. I'm doing nothing with my life and it panics me so much that I get bogged right back down and end right back up at square one. I want to succeed, but fuck. The waiting and missed opportunities are just killing me.

Mixed but leaning to the good side

>got the next week off together with my wife
>want to buy a truck but need some bank money because savings are still dry (bought house)
>Got nice job that allows me working from home
>billion things still left to fix round the house, holding my own but even after big things are finished, there are so many other ones left

But hey, overall I'm much better than lots of you guys so I quit bitching

>>33545620
>I hate my job
>My girlfriend left me when she found out I'm moving back to Georgia
>Haven't been shooting lately because I'm trying to save every penny for this move
>My brother, the only relative I talk to and see regularly, got a job in Europe and is leaving this summer
>Oh, I am currently living in California to top it all off
>7 more weeks and I am home free

>>33549090
I'm suffering this. I'm cheap and don't much care about things. I have a lot of funs, I'm happy I can't buy nice 1k+ funds because cheap.

I have no reason to spend money and less to save. I'm going to die alone and no idea who's getting all my stuff.

I don't mean in an emo way I mean in 50+ years I'll have a few million with no idea who gets it because I'm an unlovable person and no family at that point.

To your second point, let me tell you I had a dream life and job planned didn't happen. I worked real hard made good money and now I have a dream job nothing like what I thought. There always are more chances when you look. Just think out of the box.

I'll die happy eating ramen noodles in my 90s and have no one to will my cool funs and piles of cash with... feels bad man.

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>>33549056
it doesn't matter. getting that piece of paper is puts you head and shoulders above those of us who dont have it

it could be in women's gender studies and you'd still make more than me

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Horrible, im 20 and i somehow have upper back pain and schools a fucking hassle.

>>33545620
Just won 1,000 bucks from a scratch off i randomly bought
>yay bills

>>33547776
If you had ever gone to meetings, you would know that is not true (or perceived as not true).

Life is okay, I'm in my first year of community college and I'm in a program which guarantees me a spot in a good engineering school if I make all of the requirements( getting B's and above in everything) which I'm struggling with right now( fuck chemistry). I want to hopefully become a weapons engineer or part of a design team for guns. I have some great friends and an awesome girlfriend who is pro gun so that's something. I'm noguns right now as I have to wait for my FOID card to come in in order to acquire funs but will need a summer job to afford funs. Overall, leaning on positive, just wish my grades were higher.

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>>33549118
HOO FUCKING RAY THAT IS SO AWESOME

hopefully i dont jinx it but congratulations on your impending emigration. i wish you an easy move and success in your newest endeavor.

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>>33549252
it's a meme you dip.

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weapons post to keep thread topical

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second post of weapons to keep things topical

also second post of old and new

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you will never be this guy. live anyway.

>>33549204
Get a higher desk for your PC
Make sure you sit straight
Chair must be high enough so your eyes and the upper line of the screen are in a horizontal line
DONT LOOK DOWN TO THEMA SCREEN
99% of all upper back issues are due to a wrong chair/screen setup.

>>33548187
Are you me with a room mate? Here's to resignation to our fates

>>33549376

Jesus, dragon dildos were no joke back in the day.

>>33548503
We came here like this. Not that it helps. But you're fine... probably.

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>>33548631
>>33548756
>yfw he comes to kill you but you become good friends instead

>>33548003
>This is the sole purpose of non breeding males. The final guiding light in the life of a man who has nothing else. To spend your life gloriously but effectively in defiance of your enemies. This is your destiny anon.

>non breeding males

Tell us more.

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>>33549412
that's literally every fight i was ever in, in school

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ok both fights

>>33549167
For now. Companies are getting wise to tose kinds of garbage degrees though and its devaluing ALL of them as a result. Not to mention the general decline in the quality of education (and relavence of degree prpgrams to their actual fields). We'll see if I finish before college degrees are a sad worthless joke.

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>>33549457
ok then, look at it this way

someone dumber and lazier than you is doing better than you. dont stand for that.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.

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>>33549436
Funny you say that. Kid punched me in the face during lunch one year, we were great friends shortly afterward. Weird. Maybe fights are the key to making friends - time to punch a stranger

>>33549485
I think there's been a misunderstanding, I'm not down, just giving the current state of the collegiate scene and making clear my hope that I haven't wasted my time. Mark me, college degrees as a measure of merit are on the way out, hopefully to be replaced with a more accurate, less expensive metric - like say, oh i dont know, ability. And that's coming from someone with 3 of the stupid things

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Old man's getting into shooting after 30 years off the brass. Keen as hell and is, from what i hear, excited to spend time with me.

Issue is i'm a bag of cockroaches in a man suit. I find no passion in things, and it hampers my ability to really enjoy anything.

I'm genuinely concerned with my folks realising the extent of my apathy and lonerism.

My mum believes i'm hiding a special someone, but the reality is i havent socialised with a women in years and it was a below average experiance.

>>33549563
Hide it well. Best case is they don't understand it completely and are disappointed as a result

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>>33545620
Well Im doing alright. But my self loathing is growing and self esteem is dropping inexplicably day by day. I know I'm being melodramatic but I cant seem to suppress those thoughts. It doesn't help that I'm either having random nightmares or waking up every thirty minutes whenever I try to sleep.
Something about this fucking desert just sucks all the life and motivation out of you. I miss the mountains.

>>33549563
>Issue is i'm a bag of cockroaches in a man suit
are you me anon

This is going to be long as fuck and I doubt anyone will give a shit, but here goes.

The love of my life dumped me because I admitted to smoking pot twice while we were together. She called me a drug addict and told me to my face that she didn't respect me and had no desire to date me anymore. Then she started sleeping with my friend.

I was devastated, but I pulled myself out of that emotional ditch and started dating this other girl who treated me really well. I wasn't in love with her like I had been with the first one, but she was pretty damn cool. Anyway my ex got jealous and tried to get back together with me. I told her to fuck off and confronted her about her hooking up with my friend, and she told me she had no idea what I was talking about and treated me like I was crazy. She spoke with such conviction that I had it all wrong that I absolutely believed her. I ended up getting back together with her because I was stupid and still in love with her. Obviously new girl was upset and rightfully so.

After about a year back with girl #1, things aren't perfect but I am happy and she's finally reciprocating and treating me like she loves me back. I do miss girl #2, and I have some resentment for not being able to explore that relationship further.

At that point, girl #1 tells me she actually did sleep with my friend while we were broken up. I'm fucking livid and lose my shit, tell her I don't love her anymore and all kinds of other stuff. She guilt trips me back into staying with her because she's goddamn manipulative and i'm weak as fuck. Did I mention she's also the most beautiful girl i've ever seen? I wasn't thinking straight.

So i'm stuck in a shitty relatonship that i'm trying to fix, all the while resenting her for dumping me over some pot and sleeping with my friend. She forbids me from contacting girl #2. This only drives me to contact girl #2 just to spite her, and I end up sleeping with girl #2.

>>33549728
>and I end up sleeping with girl #2.
Hell yeah anon.
Fuck girl 1 the manipulative cunt. Dump her. You should be a douche about it too.
"Fuck you bitch I dont want your damn lemons, what the hell am I supposed to do with these? DO YOU KNOW WHO I AM?"

>>33549728
(CONT)

Girl #1 is suspicious but I deny it, and so she starts texting one of her co workers a lot and changes the password on her phone. This makes me suspicious as fuck obviously. I confront her about texting him so much and she treats me like i'm paranoid and says he's just a co worker.

Things come to a head when we go to a holiday party and I leave the room, come back and find her talking to my friend that she slept with while we were on break. We go home and have a huge fight and I dump her. I'm angry but still in love with her so it hurts pretty bad to do even though in my head i know it's the right thing to do.

A few months pass and I start to miss her a lot. I meet up with her and ask her point blank if she would ever date me again, and she says no. She throws it all in my face, says she would never date me because i'm untrustworthy and a liar and that she met the man of her dreams and they're getting married. I find out from a friend that she's getting engaged to the co worker she was texting, the one she told me not to worry about. I'm some weird combination of angry, sad, and lost. I reach out to girl #2, who tells me she's with someone else now and refuses to keep in contact with me.

You might be wondering how the hell I could have fallen in love with this girl, and why I put up with all this shit. But let me just say that when I first met her, she was perfect. We had all the same interests. I love video games, she works for a huge video game company on AAA titles. She's funny, beautiful, and nerdy. She even loved to go shoot guns with me, and goddamn our kids would have been gorgeous.

This all happened 2 years ago, and since then i've dated about 5 girls, and all of those relationships fell apart as well. None of them measured up to her. I have yet to meet a girl as perfectly fit with my personality as she was, or that has the same interests or is as beautiful. I'm constantly doubting myself wondering if I could have saved it.

>>33549796
(CONT)

It's been 2 years and she's engaged to that fucking co worker, posting instagram pictures of their perfect house, their perfect jobs, their perfect dog, and probably soon their kids. And I can't stop feeling sorry for myself and get over her. And i'm keenly aware of how much i need to get the fuck over it but I just can't.

So until then i'm just plugging away at my job, making decent money but with no desire to date anyone else while all my friends are getting married and having kids. And here I am spending my free time drinking, playing video games, or going to the range. I feel like if I don't find a way to snap out of it, life's just going to pass me by.

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>>33549819
Anyway that's the end of my shitty life story, thank you if you took the time to read it.

Pic is what my new CZ527 looks like.

>>33549819
Delete her from instagram.
Im not good with this kind of shit
but this video comes to mind. probably wont helpy but Ill leave it here.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ym_c0gVMMHc

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Most likely failed my math major since I have absolutely zero motivation for college. I'm just going to drop out and go to the Navy or something. Dad used to have talks with me about all the pensions and benefits from staying in service for 20 years which sounds promising but also a little too good to be true.

>>33545620
Same-old, same-old. Stuck in the [no job, no experience; no experience, no job] catch-22 with no end in sight. I'd give my left nut for a fucking interview.

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>>33547123
Are you me?

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>>33549852
Thanks dude, just knowing you took the time to read that bullshit is much appreciated. May you be blessed with cheap ammo for the rest of your days.

>>33549895
It's not to good to be true, it's just a hell of a commitnment.

>>33549895
Better do it quick if that's what you really want, 2018 they're moving to a new retirement system called the BRS - Blended Retirement System.

At least, the AF is. But I'm sure it's not a single service thing.

I can no longer do the thing I love most. Suicide is the only option. I'd rather die than spend the rest of my life in a psych ward.

>>33548554
So you don't own guns or what? Why do you come here? Do you feel compelled to drive on the wrong side of the road, take off your seatbelt and collide another vehicle at 80mph?

Why do you keep making these shitty /r9k/ threads? They don't belong on here. Fuck off already.

Hey /k/
I'm still breathing. Have job. Lights are on in my rented home. Not great, but alive.
Currently waiting on appraisers to get done with my grandfather's estate so we can pay the taxes and I can get his guns that he left me.

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>>33545620
I have no clue what i want to do after i finish school while my friends seem to have everything sorted out

>>33550330
I think this is normal for a lot of people. Remember that you have the rest of your life to figure it out. Just take it easy, work some jobs and maybe travel a little.

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My cat doesn't have much time left and for the first time of my life I suck at my job.

Feeling pretty shit tbqh laddies

i live in cali and i'm not allowed to own a gun anymore because of my mental health

i tried killing myself and ended up in a psychiatric ward for a week and nothing feels right anymore

i wanna die

>>33546873
who closing their right eye while holding the gun with their right hand? that seems very strange to me

>>33548335
Go kill a politician.
(Don't actually do this).

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>>33545620
take a wild guess

>>33547647
:3

I've been bitching a lot recently just because things have gotten so monotonous and I just feel like a robot most of the time. Reading some of these posts has changed my attitude and will be that way for the next couple of weeks, probably.

Just repeat to yourself when you're feeling down "We're all gonna make it."

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>>33548187
hi me

Poor ass college student dealing w depression and anxiety, but my shotgun team is getting to test out/abuse some shotguns for free before they are available to the public, so I got that going for me, which is nice

>>33549819
Well shit.

Girl #1 is a cunt, you missed a bullet there. Fuck her cheating ass.

Girl#2 seems really cool though, shame about her, but you gotta move on.

I hope you find another GF and I wish you good luck anon. If that fails, well...

Disregard women, acquire currency. And buy more fucking gats.

>>33545620
I am homeless, and living in a shelter...

I have my own room, the bed is small but VERY comfortable in fact if anything it's too soft for my liking. There's a night stand, a small desk, a chair, dressers, a very tiny open wardrobe, some shelves, and and nails in the wall for hanging up coats/sweaters. The door locks, and I have the key for it so it can be locked from the outside securely. Breakfasts are small, but free. I serve myself, and though cereal is available for me I just have 2-4 slices of toast and 2-3 cups of coffee. For Dinner today was chicken burgers and fries, which was certainly far from fancy but was still filling and tasty. Don't know what will be for Supper, but I'm sure it'll be good, or at least decent enough to enjoy with some added salt, pepper, or some sort of sauce.

I get money regularly, about $120 a month, just for my own personal spending. I am a good man; friendly, clean, helpful, and very motivated and determined. The workers here see this, and do all they can to help. I will be moved into a house soon that is supposedly very quiet, no drugs or drug users (thankfully), and social services will take care of my monthly rent starting out. I have some great resumes, there are stores nearby, and shouldn't take me long at all to get a job. As soon as I get my first pay cheque I'll contact social services, thank them for their help, and inform them that I can take care of my own bills from here on out.

So on the surface, my life is kind of shit, but in truth I am feeling great. Things have been a struggle for about 5 years now but I feel things are going to finally start improving, and quickly. How am I holding up, /k/? I'm doing what I have to do, and though I feel terrible for having to rely on the Government for help I'll soon be ripping my lips from its teat. I'll stand on my own two feet, I will get a firearm collection again, and I will pursue my dreams. I have a great life ahead of me.

>>33546606
Stop. Go back to iFunny or /b/

wow i didnt even realize this place was full of whiny bitches

>m-muh depression ;__;

>>33546578

keep off the booze for a few weeks, youll get back in with a clear mind, hang in there bud

>>33545620
Dropped a best size and have a job interview tomorrow

>>33552904
*belt

>>33545620
Oh, you know, same old same old. Fantasizing about shtf without actually preparing for shtf.
>>33548503
>if you stay
>if
Remember: You're here forever.
>>33552006
Great man, keep it up! I'll pray for you tonight. Don't give up, and you'll surprise yourself with your strength.
>>33550933
Go read some books about useful skills, it'll make your life less monotonous.

waiting for FedEx to show up with my Enfield

it's suffering

>>33545620
at OCS had a hard tiime in army so far not used to the culture thought i be mister high speed am not wondering if it worth all the sacrifice i made sometimes, skipped parties family events to work out, happy to at lest know the epericne but do not think i will be in more then 3 years

Mum's been diagnosed with cancer, girlfriend giving me shit at times.
Mum's on my mind all the time though, and with one year of my apprenticeship left i don't know if i will move to freedomland after it.
On the upside I'm doing a long range target shooting day in June, first time using an actual rifle. Any tips on long range shooting?

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Alright I guess. I haven't been as depressed as I used to be. Still really fucking lonely though. Got stood up for a date and still can't meet another woman no matter how hard I try.

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Still fucking poor. But at least I can eat well.

>>33552994
Nice, but watch THE FUCK OUT: this is when a re-gaining of weight is most prevalent. (If you dont believe me, look up what happens to most biggest loser contestants who lost 100+ lbs)

>>33545620
Bored out of my skull waiting for my next work contract.

>>33549728
>>33549796
>>33549819
>>33549846

Girl 1 is a manipulative cunt and will probably wreck her own family by pulling some kind of stupid shit. First step, ghost out of her life completely. Remove her from all your contacts and move on. it'll suck for a while, but it'll be worth it rather than having that constant reminder... that or you could be a sadist and never let go.. I mean your choice m8.

Second step: Try doing something different... granted spending your free time drinking, video gaming and going to the range is.. kinda the life everyone (well everyone on /k/) kinda aspires to get to. How's your financial situation? Got a house of your own or renting? You aren't in debt up to your eyeballs right?

Fuck if you answered no to the last one you're doing better than 70% of america.

Anyway, I've got no good advice on the dating front. I kinda skated out of that back in high school after some nasty bullshit that went down and looking at the state of society now I don't see the point. That and my oldest brother has a firstborn son so the family line's not in danger of vanishing and he's shaping up to be pretty good towards holding up family traditions so far.

>>33546606
Kill yourself.

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>>33548492
So what this graph implies is you should wear a hazmat suit when you have sex with black people ?

This thread is now about protective suits designs compliant with sexual activities featuring an unprotected black person.

Pic very related.

>>33545620
I drink a lot, but still manage to function

>>33548052
>Militaty officer
>no debt
>20k in savings
How can't you get laid? Did you lose your dick?

>>33556135
*Military

>>33547123
I was in your same boat about a month ago bro. Eliminate all your distractions.
I know it sounds shitty but its worth it trust me. I was failing two of my classes and wasn't far behind in the other three but i've now managed to get all of them up to at least C's. It feels like you just don't have enough time to do the work, and when you do you have no motivation.
But just buckle down man. You'll be thankful that you did, and the more you do it the easier it gets. You just have to back into the groove man.

>>33556477
Same boat as you 6 years ago.

Sell your gaming rig, sell/give away any recreational drugs you have, and commit yourself totally to studying, preferably with a buddy in your classes that wants to get shit done.

This bears mentioning: don't get backout drunk / stoned every week like an idiot.

>>33548330
I swear you're me. I just feel so weird about sending the first message. I'm actually more of an extrovert irl but online it's so different.

>>33549457
>before college degrees are a sad worthless joke.

If the college degree meme hadn't been pushed so fucking hard they would hold more value today. Now the value appears to be shifting back to the trade and labor jobs. All manner of high-strung pussies went to college and feel that a warehouse job like mine is so fucking far beneath them that it sickens me.

>>33547958
You never know for sure. Bi-polar swings tends to be worse every cycle. If you can seek help, better safe than sorry.

>>33550545
get out of cali

>>33557131
I fell for the college meme before becoming a welder. Thinking about trying trucking eventually too.
Honestly the snubbing is actually a good thing for us. The less people do the jobs society actually needs the higher our salaries and benefits.

Not too well...
When I was younger I was a confident social butterfly then high school happened, all my friends started chasing girls but I guess I emotionally stunted. I'm 21 now and still don't know how to talk to women and I can barely hold a conversation anymore. I have no friends and I've only had two GFs but neither lasted more than two weeks. I'm still a virgin. I really want to go socialize and make new friends and maybe meet a gf but I literally have no clue how and I feel it harder everyday to relate to other humans. I hate my job and myself. I live at with my dad and never go out or buy myself nice things but am somehow still broke. Nothing I do ever seems to work out. I try to have hobbies but I go through periods of interest and disinterest, guns included. Medically unfit for military service because my vision is fucked. The only thing stopping me from eating a bullet is how much it would hurt my parents.

Where did it go so wrong /k/?

>>33549819
Are you me?

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the cracks from stress are starting to show. im having trouble thinking and speaking. I can't remember anything or stay focused on anything and I stumble over my words even if im just asking someone how their day is. I've also been having chest pain for the last 2 weeks so if im lucky that'll do me in

i need advice, how easy is to get some woman in US to a fake marriage to get the citizenship and join military?

>>33558233
What country are you from? I'm a guy but I'll fake marry you, no homo, I just want someone to spend time with.

>>33558271
Brazil, could go to europe but they cant own gunz thus i will go canada or eua, eua seens more nicey since the president is not so cucky

I'm doing pretty fucking great. Discovered a company committing fraud and was able to help bring them to justice.

Honestly
I go to school on the GI Bill. I unknowingly picked one of the most liberal schools ever to exist (art school kill me now) and to study business at. I don't know anyone that even has anything in common with me at all. Half these kids are almost 10 years younger than I am and think they know about life but desu they know fuck all. I'm one of maybe like 3 veterans at my school and I don't even know who the hell they are. We keep these things secret.

I kind of wish I used my GI Bill at a trade school or something but I have 1 more year left. I have no motivation but I just have to hang in there. I keep telling myself that moving back to Texas is right around the corner once I get my degree. I even got bored recently with banging college pussy there. I have to lie all the time about who I am. It's just rough but I stopped drinking beer and I'm hanging in there.

underageb& who got the balls to move to my dad's house in NY to avoid abusive asshole mom who was pumping me up with fucking adderall so she could take it herself...
pros: away from her
cons: ny laws, dad's a fudd

>>33545620
I don't understand why people who are into guns like Glocks so much. If the gun was made post WWII there's no reason to not have a safety.

>>33547321
Enlist. Kill some fuckers. There's a war coming

>>33547419
If you're into boltguns, Steyr SL .223

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I still live with my parents at 20 and just starting college and went absolutely ballistic over one of them constantly trying to grab at my money so to speak.

I have never, in the 3 years I've had guns put more than 100 rounds through any of my guns at one time nor are there more than 400 total for all of them.

For whatever reason as soon as i started college it has been increasingly more difficult to lose weight/go to the gym at all. Its also very easy to go over my caloric intake marker.

Boss always acting like antsy he's ready to fire me and i can't pay of the one thing I need to actually pay off. The thing being one of the few things i listened to my parents for and it is turning into a 4 year shit show of me literally paying to go to work. I literally could pay for one $500 20" AR build I barely scrounged together.

Pretty sure I was invited to my first D&D game just to give the DM a ride as all three are still the assholes from high school I remember. Therefore furthering my victim complex which is a fuckload of fun.

I have a ton riding on the fact that I'm willing to do shit. I can deal with it all but at the same time in an instant I'm ready to give up

So its okay. I'm okay

>>33547790
love who you work with, hate who you work for

>>33546663

Been there, its not that bad.

Life is okay overall, even though I realized that I am a piece of shit that need to change a shit load of stuff about me due to recent events... but I already started working at it today and will get even better tomorrow.

Just sad that trump was confirmed to be a neo-con globalist tho'

fucking senate with the nuclear option.

it's all fucking over if any pro gun justices die or retire while democrats have the senate and white house.

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>>33545620

>I just found out today that my sister is going to die from liver disease within the next two months. She's only 37.

Pretty low point right now, friends. I took today off to spend with her. It was rough.

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>>33545620
Trump is exposed as a shill, the MSM is starting a war, assad and putin are being vilified more than ever, i live in canada, mad max is losing, antifa is gaining more support. Lifes a 6/10 right now.

>>33545620
Just wondering if ChairForceROTC will still accept me if WWIII starts between Russia and U.S.

>>33547137
Fuck off welfare queen

>>33547419
Max out your 401k or you're a stupid stupid goy

>>33559934
Fuck off to /r/politics

Probably gunna enlist because of the whole Syria thing, GF is worrying i'm gunna go infantry and get killed. but otherwise, kinda decent

>>33559934
if they haven't accepted you yet then you're too young to be on 4chan

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Suicidal but I don't want to bring suffering upon my family, guess I'll just work off my debt, save up, file a life insurance plan, and have myself killed to soften the blow in about ten years. In the meantime I guess I'll just hang out and see what comes along.

I fucking hate going to class, but if I don't go, my grades slip, and if I fail or drop I have to pay back a crap ton of money. As it is, we're barely scraping by. I'm in the process of getting a job that will pay decent money, but the background check is taking forever, and my credit is shit now after getting let go from my last job, so that doesn't help matters any.

>>33556135

Divorced at thirty. Got a real close look at how the female mind works. Redpilled as fuck by the experience. Spent the next three years paying for it. Literally.

Pulled myself out of that hole and am trying to get my life on track. Too late to have a normal life but not too late to join the military.

I have honestly given up on all the things I once hoped for in life. Family. Children. A home. I can't even have my dog with me because of circumstances. I've got a good job but it's on the fringes of civilization.

Made my peace with and accepted all of this. All that's left for me is a good death.

To be a useful servant of God.

>>33545620
My parents just completley cut me off and I dont know what to do but I have a job and im going to school so I guess im ok, Juast not filling fulfilled with my life, Feel like I should be doing more at 21

>>33560713
I never understood this meme. You willing give the military your mind, body, and soul for them to carve you into someone that will do a job for shitty housing, shitty food and a shitty paycheck. Its not like they just sit like a nigga on the block gettin dat gubment cheese. Stay ass blasted faggot.

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Politics is makes me angry bu I got an A on a session 2 class so I'll be able to stay in my full-ride scholarship unless I somehow bomb math or English hard enough

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>>33559292
That's rough mate. Best of luck.

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well I have someone that loves me back and getting a new k11 carbine soon in the mail. im satisfied.

>cant do normie school because cant people
>take meds
>meds make me feel nothing, fuck that
>try online school, failing at it
>neet as fuck
>need to learn some kind of useful skill
>no vehicle
>only trade school is a state away
>come from a family of collegefags and am last in the bloodline
>going to trade school is basically disowning myself
>don't take easy way out because fuck failure and fuck being a brady campaign pawn
i dont know what to do

>>33545620

I could be better. Currently sitting on my bathroom floor, vomiting my guts out.

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Friend hung herself last week. So, not doing well.

>>33562251
hope you find your way buddy, thanks for not being a brady statistic. I heard the meds work better overtime so maybe try it for more than just a couple weeks and see how it helps. Try your hardest to tolerate and get used to being near people at school, you only have to do the bare minimum contact if it pains you that bad.

Great because of the alcohol. I cut back on my drinking due to health problems so this is the first time I've had more than a few beers and I'm feeling fan-fucking-tastic.

>>33562251
Who cares what your family thinks? You have to look out for number one, man. Be what you want to be, and do what makes you happy. If other people don't like it, so what? I've found out that when I'm trying to please other people, I'm much more unhappy than when I'm just trying to live my life the way that I want.

>>33562375
Sorry to hear that, Anon.

>>33546605
came back home to my gf w/giant herpe on lip

nope

kept on stepping and she has a little mocha kid now

>>33546524

I'm sitting here on my bathroom floor, vomiting as I slowly rot away from cancer, which will kill me soon. I barely have any strength, can barely walk around much now a days, I'm always drugged up on some thing too.

My god, I want to slap the shit out of you. Life is what you make it, so make a life that you want to live you little emo faggot, instead of hitching about it. If you want to die so badly, stop being a lol bitch and do it already.

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>>33545620
Life's looking up
I'm finally, thank god finally, have been able to get my first solids night sleep in a long time
Finally invested in a at-15 lower, love in Cali so it's gonna look goofy, but it should shoot well
Schools going great and I'm finally back in the job force
At least for now, things are looking up

>>33545620
I feel shit. I feel like I can't pursue the one thing in good at. I'm in a libshit country surrounded by libshit retards. Without guns, I just work out a lot.

>>33562251

See if there is anything you could study that would interest you. While degrees are shit now no degree is even more shit unless you do a trade. Done right and you can mitigate the costs and still get the benefit of the diploma unless they are even more shit than the memes suggest. I have one, good university great grades fucking amazing GRE (outside of math but my major isn't math related) and still didn't get accepted to the two gradschools I applied to. Granted I was icarus-ing, aiming too high and because I am not a woman, a minority or a rich white guy with connections they don't want me man.

>>33548394

I get the feeling if one is talking about herpies it's never really talking about cold sores.

>>33549819

Don't go on social medias. They are designed to show off the best side of things and not the worst because who the fuck is going to parade their shit on social media outside of white trash/hood trash? If her marriage isn't shit already, it's going to have it's own tragedies in due time. I don't mean that in some misogonistic way, it could be as simple as their son or daughter gets killed by accident, the hubby develops a terminal illness, adultery, who knows. Life is suffering and those who had it good can end up in shit street those who had it bad can end up idyllic or just end up worse.

>>33550356

Show cat comfort and love in the last months. Lots of treats, rubs, pictures if you don't have a lot already and they aren't sad looking. Hell let them eat real chicken or beef or whatever. Spoil it.

>>33548187

Don't fret about the time to get the degree or program. 4 years is the boomer plastic fantastic perfect idyllic expectation and their lives turned to shit in the later years.

You've had someone love you and been able to have a relationship, that means there is something good and appealing in you. I know the feeling of wishing for death. If not for my mother and brother and I guess a bit less so the step-family (They are wonderful but I only got to know them for the past 5 years or so and really just tat those family get togethers, so they aren't trial by fire like my mother and brother) I would do it.

>>33559073

It's a symptom of the sectarian times. Had this been a democratic senate and president there is 0 question, ZERO question they would have done it. At least now there's 1 and if we are lucky a 2nd spot to take.
>>33559292
Make sure you say what you want to say before she's gone, try and treat her to something nice and wonderful to enjoy that last memory together.

My shrink doubled my meds and told me to get laid. When I asked how, she just laughed and said I don't know man, go to a club or something.

This whole thing is because I wanted to rejoin the Army while I'm doing my doctorate degree in CS. Told my professor about it which got him very worried for my mental health. Apparently it's insane to do the one thing you actually like doing regardless of your level of education.

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>>33545620
Looks like the end time
I'm feelin pretty down lately

>>33562222
Quads of infinite truth.
>>33559292
Best of luck, anon. I'm glad to hear you have a good relationship with your sister though. I had a falling out with mine years ago, and if I found out that she was going to die within 2 months from a liver disease then I would wait patiently and sleep well. Not much you can do when someone was raised from the ground up to be a hardcore feminist.