Moral Check Thread

>>33234548
>How are you holding up, /k/?

Not well in the slightest. I've been stuck on an meb/peb for the last 2 months. They normally take longer, but it hasn't even started yet because my command keeps stalling. Every single day gets progressively worse.

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im doing good,
lost 10 pounds and im down to 230
but that was a week ago and tomorrow is the weight check day. wish me luck anons.

/fit/ says im gonna make it

>>33234548
Life is ok, nothing to complain about.

I've been getting myself high on caffeine for a while now and the wild swings of high octane, bouncing off the walls high and the lightheaded about to fall over lows are really neat. The are't uncomfortable, but it blends the uppers and the downers in these massive swings. It is kind of cool, but it is starting to fuck me up.

I took a nice ride down a favorite stretch of road on Sunday. That really calmed the nerves the way it was meant to be.

Plan on going for a 20 mile hike on the weekend. Does anyone know about open carry laws in Maryland? I might cross the border as I go.

kinda laugh at the fact that people here have PTSD because most of /k/ are godawful people

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I just lost a close friend of mine to the wildfires happening all over the nation.

We worked together many years ago. I took her under my wing when she had just started at our work. Had a strong mutual crush but she was in school and focused on that. I was just out and starting my career. We still were very smitten and both eventually admitted feelings and all. But we didn't pursue anything, it just wasn't meant to be.


We always just hung out for the first 2-3 years. You know. Those friends you have a crush on -- and that's the end of it. Nothing wrong with that if you're single, IMO. Eventually, we went on our ways, I began working in a different department. I'd only see her so often. We'd ask how each other were and be on our way.

She eventually moved. I had met my gorgeous fiancee (4-5 years ago, now). She met a good looking guy and started her life elsewhere and I was happy for her. Genuinely happy! And then she moved back 6-7 months the ago. I saw her, we caught up each other on what was going on in our lives. And that was it.

I saw her once more in the cafeteria. We saw each other but didn't say anything. She ordered a breakfast burrito.
Anyways, I found out that yesterday, she died. Her and her guy were out fighting the fires to protect his family's cattle. I'm guessing the fire crept up on them or they thought they could outrun it. She died first, I assume due to smoke inhalation. Her boyfriend and another family friend made attempt to get her out but we're caught in the fire as well and passed out. Firefighters couldn't get to any of them due to wind, fire, dirt, etc.

Eventually they did. She died. The boyfriend and family friend made it. The men were taken to a local hospital where the boyfriend soon died due to smoke inhalation and burns. The friend soon did too, leaving behind two kids and a wife. Her body was sent off for autopsy.


Cont'd.

They will use these stories against you. This place saves your IP address......

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>>33234723

I just can't believe it. I showed my fiancee, she was shocked. They met once.

I showed I was sad but...I really really just want to cry. I feel fucking awful.

This idea keeps creeping up that maybe if I did pursue a relationship with her, she wouldn't have met that guy and she wouldn't have gotten involved with that fire and would be alive. She was a genuinely wonderful person and I'm just sad she's gone. Very very caring.

But I know that's thought that's clouded by emotion. It's absolutely irrational. And if that would have happened I would have never met my fiancee, whom I wouldn't trade for the world. Not even her.


It's just sad. I want to cry but I'll do it when I'm alone. And just pray for her and her family. I'm at a loss of words and just shocked right now.

Fuck.

I'm sad for him too. He seemed really cool. I hope he didn't have to see or know that she had died, just passed out.

And I feel awful for the guy who left his wife and kids behind.


It's just all very depressing.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ClQcUyhoxTg

>>33234723
>>33234799


t. future firefighter

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>>33234580

I'm sorry to hear that. Any idea why the wait? Or just military bullshit?

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>>33234588

Nice!! Keep it up!

>>33234846
thanks anon i definitely will

>>33234816
No, this command is better than my last one, but it's still quite incompetent. At least I got unlimited opium though.

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>tfw no friends anymore
>tfw trying to get in contact with one of those guys
>tfw 0 response

also, for the past week i can't eat anything without getting really sick

>>33235007

Hey, all the monkeys in the top of the tree see a bunch of hardworking monkeys below. The ones below just see a bunch of assholes, up above.

Hang in there, dude.

>>33234548
I have no idea why this is so prevalent, but it's morale, not moral.

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>>33235046

What happened to your friends?

>>33235068

You're right, whoops.

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>>33234548
was on a thread like this a few days ago. I was out of a depression spell and some anon helped me through it. I'm doing a lot better. If you're out there anon, thank you

>>33235075
I'm an autistic mess so I scare every friend I make away, or I just come off as weird.
I always have to avoid people so I don't end up making everything worse for them.

>Dontwanttobeafirearmstatistic.jpg

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>>33235094

>>33235093

I'm sorry. Has it always been that way?

>>33235129
Pretty much.
There are a few people who keep me around, but usually don't talk to me unless they need something.

>>33235141

Yeah. I knew that feel.

Do you keep yourself occupied at least? Job, school? You have aspirations to focus on, right?

Happy; yet very sad all at once.

> Put in for a lateral transfer last year
> Literally had just enough time in to apply
> It was for a location far far closer to home
> Approved, but blah blah you can't leave yet
> It's been six months
> Six months of bitching and making jokes about how I haven't been moved
> Over a year of building relationships and meeting new people
> Phone call today
> "Do you want to transfer tomorrow, or next week?"

I'm happy I'll be much closer to home and working a better shift, but I'm very sad I'm leaving a location (It's historic) and a staff (They're great) that I've come to love.

Truth be told, I would have moved closer if it weren't for the colleges and new companies pushing the rent and properties higher than I'm comfortable with.

Careful what you wish for, eh?

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>>33235297

Damn, that sucks.

Are he going to go ahead and go for it? It sounds like you are.

>>33234799
That sucks dude. I lost a friend in college to an accident, and have another hanging on in the hospital right now. It's rough when it just comes out of nowhere.

>>33235316

are you***, sorry. Autocorrect.

>>33235316

Yeah, I'll be getting about ten hours of my life back that I spend in traffic every week and not be working nights anymore.

>>33235318

Same. I've lost two best friends in my lifetime and many others. Accidents, suicide, life stuff.

I think hers just hits me different because I've never lost anyone whom I had a little more history with. It's a strange feel.

I'm trying to think of something I can do in honor for her, alone. Just something private. Maybe break a new lifting PR for her. Or go visit her grave once she's laid to rest. Or learning a song on guitar. Something to myself.

It's weird but. It's how I have always tried to honor anyone close to me who dies.


>>33235336

Shit, yeah. I would definitely take it up, then.

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>>33235254
Kinda. I might be moving to Utah within the next month, but it might get pushed back because of school related reasons. It really sucks, because life here in California is absolutely miserable.
All I want are my friends back, I whole heartily mean it when I say I miss them.

One of them lurks here on /k/, and if he does see this, I just want you to know I'm really sorry for coming off the way I did. I really did not mean for anything I said to come out the way it did. I miss talking to you and I just want to be friends, no drama, no bullshit.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2jHde3CITs0

essentially this

>>33235493

I don't know you, but I wish you well anon. I often realise all too late what I actually said.

>leadership just put us on 12s again because reasons

RIP in peace my morale 2013-2017 press F to pay respects

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>send out literally hundreds of resumes a day
>literally nobody is hiring for clerk work
>it's the only thing I can do

asking my parents for advice is a non-starter, their only advice is "Go into a place and ask for a job". which, every place only does online applications and nothing else.

>>33235573
Thanks, and thanks for the thread, it's really nice to be able to vent somewhere.

I sent him a friend request on steam, hopefully he accepts it, for now I'm headed towards the hospital. Cya anon.

>>33234548
Pissed because dumb manchildren on the internet can't even spell MORALE correctly.

So fucking kill yourself.

>>33234580
>they normally take longer
Mine took 5.5 years during which time I was non-promotable and subject to a stop-movement with involuntary extensions.

>>33235368
I wear a KIA bracelet with my friend's name and unit information on it, and I have her funeral program sitting around. For my injured friend we all signed a flag at work. I'm a firefighter though, so we have certain traditions that are just automatic when someone dies.

>>33234548
Well I tried to make it work, I took a leap of faith and fell.

I tried to make my way in a free state but the money ran out and the means to live wasn't there so now I have to go back to Commiefornia, defeated.

At least I have my guns

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Former Army here, life was shit but is getting better. It's been a roller coaster ever since I got out in 2010, but things have definitely improved and life is comfier. Went from:

>homeless
>had to sell all guns
>worked shitty job and showered at gym to scrape together cash
>sitting in community college classes with my stomach growling
>drinking constantly
>friends with people who drank constantly and were going nowhere in life

to currently:

>building guns back up, happy with collection so far and going to get more
>/fit/
>great gf
>live in a two storey home with a backyard
>have dog, new PC
>graduated CC and now almost done with bachelors at a good university
>still drink, but much better taste and have far more control now
>no longer friends with fucking losers, they're actually still where I left them five years later
>money slowly increasing
>travel for fun all the time, doing a brewery tour next week with best bro and gf, meeting my cousins a few states away to party and do St. Patty's day (KC, Missouri if anyone knows anywhere cool to do that there)

Overall much improvement. My answer would have been far different four years ago.

Pic unrelated, me cc'ing my USP45c

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>>33234548
>>33234548
>How are you holding up, /k/?

not bad in general. sold some excess PC parts to a friend and now my AR15 actually looks like a rifle, as opposed to an odd-shaped club. just need BCG+charging handle and some flip sights. maybe a cheap optic later on.

also getting more hours at work, so will hopefully be affording a scattergat soon.

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>>33234548

Life's good man. Only issue now is with my fucking knee. Feels like shits buzzing and it's clicking like a motherfuck

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Probably not as bad as some of you have it.

>17, turning 18 in a few months
>Graduating high school next year
>Always wanted to be a Marine
>Was always too stupid to go to college
>Mentally sound other than that, don't need a waiver for the one problem I do have since I've grown out of it
>Been keeping myself in a pretty good shape, they don't let fat boys in the Corps
>Spend a lot of time on the range shooting and playing soldier
>I don't just want to be A Marine, I want to be THE BEST Marine
>Diagnosed with ulcerative colitis last year
>They don't let people with chronic Hershey squirts into the Corps
>Start taking three different types of medicine to help
>Not supposed to be fully healed for at least ten years, doc says
>Supposed to stay off the pill for another year after that before I can enlist
>Too old to be a Marine at that point
>Don't know what to do with myself anymore
>mfw I'll always just be some kid playing soldier on the range

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>>33236397

Too old to be a marine at 29? Dude you're still a kid at that point. Go to college, at least community college, learn a language, lift weights, work a job. When you hit 29 or 30 you'll be prime material to go in, and could more or less write your own ticket. If not, go Army, because they'll have a much larger place for you (and quite frankly, a higher ceiling)

>>33236009

Are you actually a county attorney? What's the most fucked up cases you've seen?

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>>33236443

Cutoff age for enlisting in the Marine Corps is 28. The Army is 35, but the Army just ain't the same. I want my time in the military to suck so I can spend the whole time regretting every decision I've ever made.

Pic related, it's what I probably think Marines look like.

>>33236603

Ah, I didn't know that. I'm ex Army, looking at going back into the guard or something. I'm 29. Regardless, what I told you still stands on my word.

>>33235605
what country do you live in

>>33236635
I'll go into the Army if my asshole doesn't heal up. But as it stands, I'm not giving up hope for the Marines. Who knows, maybe you or one of your buddies will have to patch me up after I eat one too many crayons.

Alright, I guess. Slowly recovering from almost a decade of depression and various other bullshit. Other than that
>Junior in college double-majoring two meme degrees and am now realizing that I may have fucked up big time
>On scholarship so no student loans, but the idea of graduating with meme degrees doesn't reassure me a whole lot
>Despite that monetary situation isn't improving very much because my spending habits aren't the best and one of my roomates left causing rent/utilities to go up for the rest of us
>Have very little direction in life, have very little idea of what I want to do career-wise
>Just know that I want to eventually move out west and job-hunt around there
I mean I could be much worse off but I just feel like I'm now getting to the part of my life where I'm supposed to have my shit together, and I don't.

>>33234548
Wednesday and drunk as fuck. Just 2 days to work to get drunk again. Doing great.

stuck in the missile field in north dakota

>>33237250
Little bit bothered about this 9,3x62 rifle that has failures to fire. The chamber and headspace is up to spec and firing pin protrusion is good... only thing i have is to tell the customer that his ammo is shit... (euro btw)

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>m1903A3 gonna come in a day early tomorrow for pick up
>facebook reminds me of a nice moment I had with my ex gf

I'd say solid other than facebook fucking with my pussy brain.

>>33234548
Well I'm doing surprisingly well. All I need to do is get my shit together and make something of myself.

Halfway through FM residency in USAF. Morale holding, but can't wait to move on. Saw a T-38 doing touch-and-goes today and remembered why I originally loved being AF (started off ANG at a Viper base, currently at a heavy base). Maybe volunteer for Korea with a follow-on at a fighter base in Europe?
>tfw just wanted to be a fighter pilot, accidentally went to med school instead

>>33237276
Condolences, dude. AFSC?

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>>33237453
As someone currently stationed in Korea, and wanting to become a fighter pilot: go to Korea.

All sorts of aircraft flying in and out of here, and the occasional euro-fuckers bringing in their neat toys.

So long as you're not a maintainer (I guess that goes without saying) or have an AFSC with shit morale like mine you'll like the base. Everyone is incredibly chill here. It's easy to get busted down a rank or two if you're a dumbass, but if you're gonna be a doc I sure as shit suspect you aren't one.

I've been here for around 7 months and I'll be back after my follow-on in Europe.

>>33235605
Do you happen to have the rest of these images?

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>>33234784
IP address can be changed and do change automatically every few weeks etc.

>t. Networking student

Feeling seriously underappreciated.