how are you holding up /k/? are you happy?

>>31856550
Not particularly

I'm going to take a zero on an essay, and I'm not getting paid as much as I'd like, but that's retail. Things are decent. Really need to get done with school and find a girl to wife.

I've loaded myself onto my goals, and am living happy by assuming I'll reach them, which is bad because if/when i fail reaching one it will be all the more crushing.
How about them guns, huh?

>>31856550

I'm ok. I just got my first gun, so it feels good. Bought an all matching 1924 nugget with matching bayonet for 250$ I know it's more than it's worth desu, but I love the damn thing. Haven't gone shooting yet though.


Other than that, I'm alright. I'm doing decent in school and my GPA is somehow still holding up.

Girls are another situation altogether, and truthfully, too much to write out unless you guys are interested.

>are you happy?
Pretty much, yeah
Glad you asked

>>31856550
Not at all,my entire being seems to have slipped out of my head. I can not focus, I can not read, I can not think. I feel like a ghost moving a body around. I spend all day inside at the computer injecting different versions of entertainment. I create nothing, I value nothing, I want nothing, I'm failing school. The weirdest thing is I don't even feel all that bad, just nothing. A really really heavy emptiness.

I've spent all day researching fighting for the kurds in Syria, and I might just do it.

No anon I'm not happy, idk what I wanna do for a career.
I'm currently 20, living at home doing construction with the parents. $20 an hour but man it's just not me. It's not the physical labor that kills it, that's fine. It's the fact that it feels like there's a glass ceiling. Idk what to do bros, help

I like the idea of medical, but I feel like I'd make a better lawyer

Chronic laziness, don't want to work.
Doing nothing but sitting on my ass all day makes me incredibly depressed and apathetic at the same time.
I just want to go to the mountains and hike but I can't afford the most basic gear to live a night in the woods.
Just want an AR to train with, give me something to do.
Moved across the country with literally no one with me, I know 0 people on this entire fucking coast.
Legitimately considered suicide for a while but it's not worth stressing out other people over.
Not doing so hot, in other words.

>>31856657
You gotta do what you enjoy, man.

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>>31856550
>are you happy?

Not particularly. I get myself stressed with pointless bullshit and neglect what really matters in life. My room is a fucking mess, I'm lacking critical life skills, don't really have any friends and my life pretty much revolves around shooting.

Where I live currently, I cannot better myself as a shooter and as an adult. You know you're doing it fucking wrong when you carry a handgun on a daily basis yet cannot tie a tie or even own a tie/shirt and cannot reverse park at the age of 21. Yeah, I'm a complete fuckup.

And there's a girl at work that I want to talk to but I don't want her to find out about who I really 'am'

>>31856550
I made a promise to myself a few years ago that if things didn't change, I'd eat a bullet at 40.

Things changed, for the worse.

I've got less than a year to go.

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>>31856550
Holding up. Existentialism has intensified many times over. Realizing that I am surrounded by autism. Want off this crazy thing, want on another.

But that shit has always been around and always will be, the ride never ends. Possible GF with common interest and good on the funs. I really fear the upcoming election. Either way we make history and closer than any other time might just see the happening happen. My personal fitness is better than ever and I will soon be punching new notches on my belt to shorten it, feels good. I have converted someone to the slav side. Cheeki Breeki is really intensifying.

I am happy. Happy for all the wrong reasons, but happy.

>>31856619
Write it out m8. Even if no one cares it makes you feel better to get these things out.

Too broke for funs, too apathetic for school, too indecisive to figure out what I want to do in life, too fat for people to like me, too lazy to do anything about it. I honestly want to die.

>>31856718
While I know it is not enough to assure you of anything, I can't help but try.

Don't do it, Anon. Life at its worst is better than nothing. Even with nothing to live for it is more meaningful to live. Suffering is meaningful. You will always find something. Something will change. You would not be a single death, you would not be missed, you would be a statistic. Go on long enough that you would be missed. Leave something for someone if you cannot be talked down from this.

>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P3bzNu6ky2s

>>31856672
That's part of my problem, Idk what I enjoy
I've done 9 hours of fixed wing flying, it's fun buy so much competition and Shit pay..
I've taken classes on solar panels and on PC repair and maintenance, then I realized I'm not a nerd haha.. Shoulda seen the class man it was scary.
I've built a house, run plenty of equipment, done a roof, raised foundation, made cabinets.
I just can't find the Damn thing

>tfw /k/ gets me to rant for the first time ever

>>31856550
I need a fucking job

>>31856550
No.

It's been a week since I left the house. That was for cigarettes and soda for mixers.

My best friend comes by every couple days to check up on me. The last few, I've woken up to him carrying me to the shower, or actually in the shower.

I've been laid off for 2 months, with no job in sight. I saved enough money that I'm not struggling but I'm bored.

It's gonna be time for another trip to the store tomorrow, if I think I can drive.

>>31856790
Well, if you can drive, drive as far as you feasibly can until you see some wilderness or something that is more enriching then then confines of your home. You really just need some basic enrichment. If you can't drive then get your friend to drive you. You really just need some sunlight.

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>>31856550
Going good. Just got pic related today. Sharpest knife I have ever owned.

>>31856651
Do it, anon.

I've always told myself that if I become truly resentful of myself and my life, I'd leave and join the Kurds and the fight against ISIS. I think you should do the same if you're being truthful in your post.

If you truly want to experience life, then fighting the closest thing the world has to an agreed evil in one hell of an adventure, and you can volunteer to go and fight, compared to milfags who have to wait for politicians if the time ever comes. Don't worry about experience, it won't be an issue. Plenty of westerners joined without it.

And when you come back, you'll have an experience few around you will ever have. You can go into security, LEO, or hell even join a contractor to fight abroad again.

If it comes down to having a life behind a computer versus truly living life, live life, anon. Live it hard.

t. Someone who wants the best for you

>>31856688
Talk to her, anon. Take the leap of faith. Worst case scenario, you grow as a person. Best case scenario, you get a lifelong companion.

t. Someone who wants the best for you.

>dead end job
>no guns (sold for rent)
>no friends
>no gf
>wizard
pretty bad desu

>>31856720

eh, alright.

There's two girls in my life right now. I know both of them have feelings for me to a certain extent

Girl one (let's call her K)
K is alright, 6/10. K really likes me. She's liberal, stupid, and anti-fun. She's been trying to get with me for like 4 weeks now and I've kinda been pushing her away because I'm not super interested, and I'm more interested in girl B

Girl B (let's call her A)
A is hot as fuck. Easy 8/10. She also laughs at all my shitty jokes, is fun to talk to, and is overall cute. She's mostly conservative, and is pro-fun. (Her dad is a fudd but fuck it if I care.)

anyways, A has this weird thing with another guy where she tells me that they're hooking up ( not fucking). but whever she says that she also says "I'm not looking for commitment, It's just a bit of fun". I've basically taken this to be that she just wants to do the same thing with me.

My problem is, I actually like her. I done caught some feelings. So now, I'm faced with a shitty decision.

>hook up with girl K who I don't like as much, but have no emotional attachment to
>hook up with girl A who I do like, enjoy the experience immensely because fuck yeah, hot girl, but then deal with the shitty fact thatshe doesn't want commitment when I do.

Or i could just fuck my nugget and call it a day. That's probably where I'll end up.

>>31856777
Trips of heaven.

You seem to enjoy working with your hands and have a knack for construction. I don't know you well, let alone at all, but I feel that when you find the perfect mix, you'll know what you want to do.

Maybe it's carpentry. Maybe it's running a construction firm. A foreman maybe? You'll find your place. I know you will. Have faith in yourself.

t. Someone who wants the best for you.

>>31856790
>My best friend comes by every couple days to check up on me. The last few, I've woken up to him carrying me to the shower, or actually in the shower.
awww you have a quality friend

>>31856927


>>/adv/ >>r9k

>>31856790
You need to find yourself. Think about what you like. Think about what you're good at. Set a long term goal and take steps to get there. Even if it's holding a job at Burger King while getting, say, a computer science degree. One step at a time.

>>31856950
t. Someone who wants the best for you.

>>31856790
Jesus anon. This gave me feels.

You should get outside. Go on a road trip man. Honestly, I know it sounds cliche, but go score some weed, drive until you're in the middle of fucking nowhere, park, and walk 30 minutes in one direction and start smoking. spend a night out in the wilderness, enjoy it.
>>31856777
first of all, nice trips.

second,
I don't know man, that sounds fucking rough. To be honest, you sound like a jack of all trades. Maybe you enjoy the act of changing your hobby? I realized long ago that I hated doing one thing for a long time. Maybe you're the same way.

>>31856550
GPA is okay but I've lost almost all my motivation to study.
I don't enjoy anything anymore besides riding my motorcycle and I can't do that when I'm at University.

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>>31856946
except I can talk to girls without fucking spaghetti pouring out of my pockets

>>31856921
>26 yo
>no gf
>no fuck buddy
>last time I had sex was in July
>no guns
>NEET
>have a nice group of friends but at this point we don't really share the same life interests so I spend most of my time alone
I still feel pretty good and life is comfy desu. I think that having a strong personality helps, even though it also contributes to loneliness because you feel that you don't need anyone in your life.

>>31856927
Try to get more a more serious relationship with A, while letting K in a little more. While the friend zone does indeed exist, it is very escapeable. The fact that A seems to enjoy your company and confide in you is a great sign. Move slowly but surely forward, and don't force anything.

t. Someone who wants the best for you.

Got girl troubles. Reminds me a lot of highschool. Pain in the ass but have to shake it off for appearance. Iver Johnson 12 gauge I've been saving up for just got sold to someone else. literally got the 125 yesterday, guy sold it 3days ago. life's just not going peachy

>>31856982
Find that drive to study, anon. Think of the big picture, that great end game goal. And go get it.

t. Someone who wants the best for you.

>All these anons with girl troubles
well i'm glad i don't have those but i got std troubles cause i'm a slut.

>>31856921


I know it's hard man, and you probably don't want to hear this.

But this can all change, if you will it so.

First- clean up your living space. Even if it isn't particularly dirty, organize your stuff, bring some order to your life.

Go take a hot shower, shave, scrub yourself head to toe, and clean yourself off.

Go get a haircut, buy a pair of dark jeans and a casual button up.
( Jackthreads.com has some good stuff)

Now that you look like you've got your shit together, just get out there and act like it. Go to a bar, and walk up to the first attractive girl you see.

Be confident- what's the worst that can happen? You walk away still a wizard. What's the best that can happen? You fuck.


you can do it anon.

>>31857015


Thanks man, I'll give that a go.

Thanks mods, some of you are ok. I just want to be heard in my own little world.

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Owe $500 left over from wisdom tooth removal
Owe Power company $300
Owe Internet company $151
Have $53 to last me two weeks
Work 94 hours every two weeks
Work at an arts university full of LGBTQRSTUV's
No time or money to shoot
No time for friends or family
Literally eating one meal a day so i can still feed my cats
Can't afford cigarettes (day 3 the fucking worst)
Broke a tooth clenching in rage
Can only chew with one side of my mouth
No hopes
No prospects
Crippling existential terror and anxiety setting in.

Luckily I don't have money for ammo or I would be front page news.

>>31857053
>Be confident- what's the worst that can happen?
Get arrested and charged with rape?

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>>31856550

pretty fucking rad. Got the guns oiled up real nice and i've been drinking black and tans all day. gonna get snugglehumps from my hubby later once the liquors gone.

>>31857106
Where you at anon?

I live in an area with tons of SJW art schools. if you're near me, I'll throw a pack of cigs and a dinner or two your way.

26 and can't drive a car because my OCD makes me want to accelerate rapidly or swerve off the road.

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>>31856550

What is happy?

I dragged myself out of 3 years of NEETdom and mental illness, went to college, became an engineer and got a decent job, but I still have no reason to live. I live with my mom because I save tons of money and it's not like will ever have a social life. All I really do is commute to work for 4 hours a day (work NYC live Long Island), work for 8 hours, come home and go on the computer. I've completely given up on women and anything else normal people do.

I guess my only real goal is to just save up enough that I don't need to work anymore. But I realize that this life is not really worth all that much to me, I have nobody who depends on me. When I have saved up all this money, what is there to do? I'd be in my 40s probably, I'm already balding at 28, my health is already deteriorating. I don't have the energy or motivation to lose weight and it's slowly killing me. I feel like my life is already over before it ever truly began.

I just started buying guns a few months ago, live in NY so I can't really get any cool stuff, but I guess it's nice to have a hobby besides 4chan and porn for once. Blowing way too much money on this stuff.

Honestly the only thing I really care about is my cat, Tiger. He's the most precious creature on this planet to me, because he unconditionally loves me.

>>31857132
Too proud, appreciated though.

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>>31857147

here he is being super spoopy

>>31857113

how the fuck are you introducing yourself to girls if that's the worst thing that can happen?

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>>31856927
While my advice is genuine, you should probably be asking other people.

>>31857037
I want a farm eventually, I'm trying to stay focused.

>>31857053
I've tried. It happens in cycles of two months or so.

>think I don't look that bad
>buy new set of clothes
>shave, clean up self and apartment, get haircut
>go to bar/club/etc
>approach girls and get rejected over and over
>drink until I pass out
>forget about it for a month
>try again
insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting different results.

>>31856978
Obviously I'm not very wise at just 20, but it sounds like with that I won't be able to get far, when the going starts getting good.
I'm in the mindset where I'd like a really nice job that maybe isn't perfect for me, but Fuck if it pays good then the rest of me can have fun every weekend and whenever I'm home, driving nice cars, picking up that pilots license, not worrying about bills.. I wanna be set up in case something happens and I can't work too. Idk man, it's tough

My dad's just hitting 50, he's making $60 an hour not counting rented equipment.
Doesn't feel like enough man

>>31857147
cute cat man.

>>31857191
>>31856933
Meant to grab this post number

>>31857151
your call, man. Option is open if you're interested

>>31857147
>>31857106

Cats make it all worth it, the only things that keep me sane.

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>>31857171
I'm not, it was a joke but I will tell you this story form my teens

>go to the club
>drink
>drink again
>continue drinking
>totally wasted
>see these two older women
>fuck it lets try my luck
>hey how are you, having fun?
>they start giggling
>hey don't wanna talk?
>fuck they are just taking a piss so time to have a piss too
>hey I get it you are both lesbians, you could have said so, go ahead and kiss your fat gf
>mfw one of them got super mad and kicked me in the leg

>>31856824
>>31856940
>>31856950
>>31856978

Thank you anons. I don't usually smoke weed, but I think this might be a time for it.

Usually when I get laid off, they call me after 2 weeks and tell me where to go.

Just this time, a lot of other, older guys got laid off too.

God bless union labor.

Cheers, anons.

Might get fired tomorrow because of an accident last week.

Sent a co-worker to go do something and punched out for him because by the time he was done it'd be time for him to leave. Apparently it's a big no no so gonna go fess up to the boss what I did and hope he understands.

Didn't know it was against company policy at all. So kinda stressed out.

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>>31857214

Here's more. He's a big guy

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>>31857188

damn, I'm sorry to hear that anon. I don't know what to say man.


just don't pic related, whatever you do

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>>31856550
I got an appointment to get an autism evaluation after several people asked me if I was genuinely autistic. It was supposed to be this Tuesday, then the doc said he couldn't do that, didn't respond for a week, and then pushed it back three weeks.

At least it's less than a year now till I'm done with college and can maybe go live on my own and have a gun. I'm excited about maybe going deer hunting, but that's months away, and I don't know where to start.

I'm not happy about long term prospects, but things seem okay in the short term.

>tfw not sure if even want gf and pissed off the last two girls I went on dates with

>>31857284
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>>31857282
If it was a genuine mistake, then just tell the boss it was a genuine mistake. He'll understand.

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>>31857171
>how the fuck are you introducing yourself to girls if that's the worst thing that can happen?

"Hey, wana turn this rape into a murder?"

>>31857147
If you have the money why don't you fuck upper end escorts? It's just to get your pumps working, you'll feel better and then life will look brighter.

>I dragged myself out of 3 years of NEETdom
How did you do it? Asking because I'm >>31857002

>>31856550
no

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>>31857349

yeah that'll do it.

>>31857349
Kek, my sides.

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>>31857357
>If you have the money why don't you fuck upper end escorts?

I've thought about it, and I think I'd just feel like an idiot paying $400+ just to fuck some cunt. I'd feel ripped off.

As to how I stopped being a NEET, I'm not really sure. I think something just snapped in me one day and I made the determination that I'm going to move forward in my life rather than wither away and die in my bedroom. At first I was thinking of joining the navy or air force or something, but then I settled on college.

Nobody forced me or anything, my mom had given up by that point, I just kind of decided to go for it. Honestly I think it's remarkable that I managed to do this, I could go into my past but that would be enough to fill a whole thread. But basically I spent my teen years in group homes and mental hospitals because I just stopped going to school for so long the court decided to remand me to state care. I was so done with life I just slept all day and didn't go to school ever, and there was nothing my parents could really do. My actual biological father killed himself when I was 7, he was schizophrenic and I think I inherited some of that. Don't hear voices or anything, luckily.

Guess I'm rambling. There's just too much to tell and I don't remember all the important bits.

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>school sucks, I hate the college I transfered to and I thnk about dropping out to a new one every day
>problem is there are no other colleges close enough to commute to and I dont want to leave with strangers/live by myself
>I do desperately want to move away, im just so neurotic I want to make sure all my stuff is squared away first
>really thinking about the army/airforce reserves just to give me some more purpose and help with school, im tired of just existing and getting by. I want to strive for more
>guns are starting to bore me a bit. Especially all the "new" things coming out. everything seems to be a copy of a copy of a copy and nothing really peaks my intrest
>I still like to window shop and id keep buying more just to treat myself but I need to settle down and keep saving

really im more scared right now then anything. Ii dont know if acting is being impulsive or not doing anything is being lazy. I got to go to bed I have class tomorrow

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>I still like to window shop and id keep buying more just to treat myself but I need to settle down and keep saving

I'm still in the "new gun owner" phase where I just want to buy every single thing there is. I've overspent on so much shit though. I need to set a strict gun budget or something.

>>31857536
>>31857489

meant to quote

>>31856668

Jesus Christ dude pull it together.

How old are you?

Get a job, make some money, go to a bar and get a qt3.14, and then buy guns and hike

>>31857461
Sorry to ear about your dad, as for the rest I kinda identify with you. I mean I never had any mental problems whatsoever but during my youth I fucked up really bad at school because I was, and still am a lazy fuck that doesn't want anyone telling me what to do. The only things I wanted to do was spend my teens playing football, drinking beer with lads and sleeping, despite all my mom's effort (dad just said it's your life you'll regret it later) I missed a lot of classes to the point I did not finished the high school.

Somehow I got a job and worked there for 5 years until the shop closed its doors, and I have been a NEET since then, almost two years now.

I still have a few monies left because I live with parents and they don't charge me a dime, only money I spend is traveling and filling the car tank. The worse thing is that I'm happy living this way, but I know that is kinda shitty for my parents and I want to be able to afford my home.

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I desperately want a pistol caliber carbine. Sub-2000, MPX, POF MP5 clone... I don't care. I just want some little lightweight plinker that shoots cheap ammo so I can fuck around with in the woods with it. Unfortunately, I'm a student and don't currently have the cash to buy something like this thanks to a recent hospital visit. To make matters worse, I live in California and will be living here for the foreseeable future. It looks like Ammogeddon is going to pass, too. All of this makes me very sad, but I went on a wonderful date with my girlfriend tonight for her birthday and had some great cuddles once we got home, so I'm pretty happy overall. It's just sad knowing that my hobbies are basically being legislated away by my state no matter how much I donate to the NRA, vote pro-gun, or try to change people's minds. I'm an honest, hardworking citizen. I pay my taxes, I don't rely on government programs, and I'm using my inheritance to pay for college so I can one day be middle class and have a job where I contribute to my community. I guess I'm just not the kind of person the state of California wants in its future. I'm used to this kind of reaction, because my family and friends from my local LGBT community think I'm a disgrace for holding center-right political positions, being pro-gun, and all that. I just want to be a normal American with a small house, a used car, a loving wife and kid, a dog and/or cat, and a simple but honest job that provides enough to live comfortably and have some fun every now and again. It sucks being shit on by your own family and former friends, and by your own state government for just wanting to be a normal American woman who happens to be in love with another normal American woman.

>>31856550
Good days and bad.

>>31856982
Something about this just hit me. I've lost motivation too, everything seems monotonous and crushing. Good vibes boys, we're gonna make it.

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>>31857894
>family
>guns
>patriotism
>simple, true, american life.

You're alright, anon. You're alright

Just keep going. You'll get there.

>>31858245
Thanks, man. Best of luck to you, too.

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>>31856550
Just made a fucking 94% on my Circuits exam, coming from currently failing three classes including that course.

There is hope yet.

>>31857623
I'm 18. Probably just being a whiny bitch but this move has been a face-first dive into being alone and I'm really hating it out here.

We're close to losing things we take for granted. Things we never thought could leave us.

If things shake out the wrong way..

Have good amount of funs
Less ammo than I'd like
Plenty of mags
AK and new FAL soon

School is going fine, I'm doing good bit don't really study and I feel dirty because of it

Being a CNA isn't fun but i make more than minimum wage. Thinking of changing major from nursing to chem and maybe doing toxicology or something.

It's OK I guess, I give it 7/10

>>31856550
After 3 years the girl is gone, we're finally finished . All she needed was to take her meds. But she wouldn't listen to me at all. Her life became chaos and so did mine. Now I'm alone and I feel free. I can work on myself and pursue my goals, while I'm still young. A part of me will always love her and I will miss her Etc... Etc.. But I feel good. I'm also about to do a ton of opiates and read a book, so that's good too.

>>31856550
Very happy actually. I've finally made the decision that after college I'm joining the military, a decision I had been stressed about for a while.

>>31858339
good fucking job anon. keep up the good work!!

It's paying off!

>>31858354
I know the feel. I'm about 6 months away from moving out of my parents house and starting off on my own and I'm fucking terrified. But I have to do it. I won't let myself become a stay at home neet

>>31858461
it sucks man, but you've gotten free of someone who was holding you back. the best advice I can give you is this- move on, but don't forget.

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Could be better

Debating whether I should make the attempt to go out with friends for halloween or just stay inside and play video games again

I also need to get laid

>>31857106
>Crippling existential terror and anxiety setting in.

Fuck man I know those feels, it should go away after you get some things off your plate, good luck.

I just did my financing with MS Calc and subtracting my expenses of $140 monthly (Internet, storage unit (Single Soldier Fag), and Gas).

Found out I wont be able to afford the DD M4A1 I had my eyes on for another month. Why do I even live anymore.

>>31858650
>fucking terrified
When did people stop looking forward to freedom and start dreading it? The fuck is the matter with you little bastards...?

>>31858677
Do what makes you happy anon, ultimately isn't that what matters?

>>31858696
When a high-school degree was no longer suitable to earn a lifelong career

>>31858696
When I realized that my parents never created a savings account for me, never put any money into a college fund, never created any type of safety net financially speaking for me to fall on.


I have about 4000$ in savings, a low paying full time job and a damn education that I'm going to have to get. and pay for it all myself. I'm thinking at this point that I'll just go to trade school, become a plumber or something, and make some $ and spend it all on guns. I don't think college is for me, and I sure as hell don't have the money to get brainwashed by liberals for 4 years on my own dime.
Fuck. This world is a hellish place, isn't it?


>>31858677
You should go out anon. Halloween is once a year. You can stay home and fap and play vidya every other night.

>23y/o
>got really fucked over in my last semester of college due to an ex gf making a false accusation
>trying to finish my degree
>school drops the ball on my fall enrollment
>have to wait until spring for my final class
>intimacy is frightening, don't even want to date
>friends don't contact me anymore
>spent too much money on shit over the summer
>roommate somehow fucked up the electric bill and our account is delinquent
>all my guns work but I can't hit a bird to save my life
It's been better

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>>31858661
Hindsight, there were red flags from day one. But that's how it always is. Most of the time your guts are right

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Crippling depression and PTSD from childhood trauma. No GF, shaky relationship with friends and family, no job, no drive to work until the election is sorted, literally tear apart relationships unconsciously because my very presence affects the psychological health of everyone around me. There are nights were I sit on my bed contemplating my 9mm. I always end up just falling asleep. There are times where I'm convinced that I died in a car accident about 2 years ago and this is actually hell.

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>>31856550
I'm actually on an upward climb right now, thanks. Just moved in with my girl, left behind a cancerous cuck of a roommate, and applied for a better (generally just different) position at work.

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>>31858742
I probably will go out. I just hope it ends up being fun. I love my friends but they're boring as fuck nowadays.

Hopefully there'll be some poon too.

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>>31858787
Do you need someone to talk to man?
I'm there for you if so.

>>31858770
Damn right. I always try to trust my gut. It's surprising how often base intuition hits the mark.

>>31858818
What do you plan on doing? Try to get yourself in a good mood beforehand. I know it's autistic and weird, but I always pump up the speakers hella loud and do a solid 5 minutes of air guitar solos to super fun songs to get the adrenaline and fun juices pumping.

you should try it.

best I've ever been, but I'm young so that doesn't matter. I have the opposite problem of the wage-slave: love my job, it pays well, but I don't get enough hours. 28 per week, no more. if I was working 40 or even 35 hours I'd be completely set.

my savings are shot for a bunch of reasons though. I need to sit on my hands and save money, then I can finally start stockpiling ammo like I want to. I only have about 500 rounds per caliber, which is a total of less than 2000. here's hoping Killary doesn't ruin my stockpiling dreams

>>31858746
it goes up and down, my friend. Up and down.

I'm almost half my Dad's age when he had me and I've never had a meaningful relationship with another human being

This lack of intimacy is slowly killing me

>>31858880
Will you get a promotion if you work there long enough? maybe take up a second job in your off time until you get a promo in the job you like

>>31856550
Horrible, my waifu still isn't real.

>>31858878
>I know it's autistic and weird, but I always pump up the speakers hella loud and do a solid 5 minutes of air guitar solos to super fun songs to get the adrenaline and fun juices pumping.

Not autistic at all. I do that all the time and was probably gonna do it anyway now that you mention it.

Hopefully we'll end up getting drunk and singing sea shanties. That's something I've been meaning to do for a while.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=49FWp7WLYKw

>>31858888
I appreciate your quads

>>31856550

got diagnosed with type 1 diabetes even though i ived a healthy live.

atleast i already did my time as a paratrooper but since i got diagnosed im drinking heavily.

>>31856550
I'm not depressed anymore so that's good, I've accepted things how they are. Now I'm just coasting along to see what will happen next, hopefully something exciting.

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>>31858902
Your dad had you? Yhat must have been a shitty birth.

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>>31858878
>>>31858787 (You)
>Do you need someone to talk to man?
>I'm there for you if so.

Sure my dude. What's your preferred method?

>>31858947
It'll be ok anon. Also being healthy doesnt mean shit to autoimmune diseases. Either way you can do it, don't let it get you down, you're better than this and you know it

>>31858960
kik me

k_ommando

>>31858958
>Adults suck then you are one.

Literally this whole thread.
;~;

>>31858958
>PHRASING
Still I can't imagine how disappointed he is I turned out the way I did.

>>31858993
Sorry about making fun of that, self defense mechanism to deal with uncomfortable things. I'm such a disappointment my dad fucked off before i even came out.

life is fine, I just can't orgasm during sex.

fap less, anons. fapping fucks you up.

>>31859012
yeah I'm going no senpai tonight because hopefully tommorow I lose my magical powers..
>mfw a girl invited me over to her house, we've already made out and shit like that
>I say "should I bring any drinks or anything like that" and she responds "just for the two of us"


Wat do /k/ I'm actually kinda nervous.

>>31859026

When in doubt grab her by the pussy.

>>31859026
Make sure you pack your pockets full of spaghetti.

Also don't just expect it, if it doesn't happen then it doesnt. Just wait for it to happen naturally. And most importantly?
What would Zyzz do?

>>31859041
can't tell if trump meme or alpha strategy.
I'll put it into practice

I've been on 4chan for about six or seven years. I'm 32.

I put a gun to my head today and almost had the courage to do it

I really want to just fucking die

No I am terrible. I got Hill shills to the left of me and Trump tards to the right and no one seems to be actually standing up for gun rights in America. And if that isn't bad enough they want to pick a fight with just about everyone. And even if they aren't getting boots on the ground killed they are going to destroy my wallet and take my civil liberties away.

And whats the point of waiting for stalker time when its just going to come down to that my friends and family are the idiots that need stopping ? It's just lose, lose, lose everywhere.

Death is my only friend now.

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>>31859052
Warm her up with some at right jokes first.

>>31859067
Kill yourself, faggot.

And I really mean it, you could vote for Trump, but goddamn you fucking nigger.

>>31859026
Drink, carry on, have fun, don't move too quick or you'll get an adrenaline rush and go limp and spill your spaghetti everywhere

>>31859079
Fuck Trump. I will never be a slave to that faggot fuck.

>>31859079
Come on dude. Both candidates are viewed as unfavorable by most Americans. Not everybody has to love the guy.

>>31856550
Having some tough spots with my girl. Schooling is barely tolerable, but okay I suppose. Beciming my own person. Saving up for a vehicle of any sort, and emotionally on the fringe of going apocalypse now innawoods.
Tl:dr; life is pretty shit but right now it's okay

>>31859088
>>31859091
More people vote for Trump in the primaries than they ever did for Romney, he was definitely more favorable than Romney or McCain.

And no, you don't have to love the guy, but everyone else is worse, including Rand Paul.

>>31859011
No offence taken at all. He probably wasn't worth having around then anyway anon

>>31859079
Take your negativity somewhere can't we get along for one thread ONE THREAD

>>31859098
Disregard the majority of your emotions
Learn Stoic virtue from Epictetus and Aurelius
Your life will improve vastly

>>31859088
No ones asking you to be a slave you selfish retard.

>>31859112
Your probably right, some times I wish I had at least a shitty abusive father over none.

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>>31859110
Capitalism is THE ONLY WAY to ensure the 2nd amendment.

Trump is a disgusting commie compared to Based Ron and Rand.

>>31859136
Free markets only work with free movement of labor (open borders) and sound money. Nothing against libertarianism, just saying.

>>31859113
I was responding to one fucking NEGATIVITY poster.

>>31859136
Ron Paul sucks. Randlet is pathetic. Detroit republican.

Capitalism brought in the people who are now voting to take your guns and for socialism. You are completely wrong.

Alright now that we are done being jackasses about politics, is anybody else here at the point in life where you wonder if it's even worth it to bother with women?
I make just enough money to live comfortably with guns and ammo galore, but I fuckin made the mistake of getting in touch with an old fling of sorts.
We went to a movie Monday night and it was a disaster. I totally misinterpreted the texts. Even worse, I was the one that invited her. I thought I was in the friend zone. Maybe I'm not.
>hey, I have tonight off and I'm craving popcorn. Wanna see a movie?
>yes! Sounds good, what should we see?
>list movies etc
>show up late because I was bore sighting my scope
>she was also late because she ran out of gas so it worked out
>she is dressed up and looking great.
>I'm in tan tactical boots, sweatpants, and a Patagonia pullover (at least I wasn't wearing a ball cap...)
>movie we wanted to see already started so we get coffee next door until the accountant starts
>the fucking coffee shop clerk is a girl and compliments her outfit
>we see movie
>she gets hard cider and I order popcorn with extra butter and water
>can't hold my autism about weapons accuracy about the movie after it's over
Jesus Christ /k/ it's over for me.
I wasn't always this way.

>>31859067
You could go to Somalia, and have all your freedumbs there edgelord. That would really make Mom freak.

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>>31856550
i just got laid off from work out of nowhere, it was an awesome job and was really good friends with the people there

been drinking all night and listening to this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yi2B0PFj-OQ

>>31856550
Doing ok. College is tough and I don't have any friends so I hang out with my ex a lot even though she has feelings for me still and I don't. I feel like I need to stop stringing her along but I don't know how to do it without losing her as a friend.

My sks is still at home; need to buy a safe and hit the range or desert when I go back for Thanksgiving.

>>31856927
Fuck A, you won't regret it and it helps immensely with your confidence. Maybe she will find out she feels the same way you do.

>>31859256
Damn, that sucks. What'd you do at work?

>>31859278
i drove around and cleaned exotic fish tanks, built custom fish tank sumps, and ran a store front

>>31858742
Look into welding m8, same trade school commitment and the pay is really good, lots better than being a plumber and more rewarding.

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>>31857147
I sympathize.
>Be early 20's
>Complete hopeless virgin, and gay at that
>No social skills what-so-ever
>Barely any sex drive
>Little to no desire to interact with anyone
>Have decent blue collar job, idk why though
>Feel like heath is already going down the shitter, have developed little stupid problems that don't impact quality of life much but make me fear for the future
>Can't see any real point to life

I'd really like to shoot myself in the face but I'm a pussy and I think it would upset my family.

>>31856550
I have been able to avoid thinking about how I am doing for the last 2hrs because I was happy about triumphing over installing my moe trigger guard. You had to remind me that I have no reason to live and I should just be an hero.
>kys

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>>31857147
>tfw my cat Alex just died 2 months ago

I loved more then anything else

>>31856550
I finally achieved my goal of being a self-sufficient NEET, able to retire at the age of 26 because I played the stock market enough and put enough in the bank to make about 32k a year off the dividends.

Then my girlfriend of 8 years cheated on me, is getting married to the guy she's been with for a few months at the beginning of next year, and spread the rumor that I was abusive and perverted to my friends and family.

No one talks to me anymore. All I have is /k/ and my guns. Once, I got the courage to go to a bar, and one of her friends was there. She pointed at me and laughed, and all of her friends laughed, too.

It's not that I'm sad, it's just more worrisome that I can't really feel anything. I am pretty happy that I've got unfettered rangetime and cleaning time with my funs, though. And now I've got three bug out bags. They were supposed to be for my GF and the kid, but... I've got three bug-out bags now, so that's neat. I can keep one in my truck and stuff.

How are you, man? Hope you're happy.

>>31858947
I'm 26 and I've had it since I was 13. AMA

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>>31859342
I'm sorry bro.

>>31859364
Could you maybe tell funny stories about your pump device? I went to high school with a type 1 diabetic and she got nailed hard for using her iPod in class quite often until she appealed because diabeetuhs. It brought some laughs and a small part of me made me want to stand up for diabeetuhs.

major lice/flea problem

>in every piece of clothing.
>on my bedding and furniture.
>too poor for an exterminator.

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Not happy, but I might be getting better, I need to find myself a new job, decided I'm gonna buy one of those cold steel brooklyn crusher bats for my apartment. Been getting comfy when going to bed because we've hit that point where it's cold and my bed gets warm and toasty as fuck.

Kinda sad I can't practice SCA shit with my brethren for like two months because of rescheduled practice times, but when January rolls around my warband leader is gonna start heading into the captial for some practicin with other dudes, and he's willing to take me along.


also been talking to a girl, she's kinda homely but she's a shortstack, seems nice and she's got a big ass, and I like that

I wish the best for you other dudes, really I do. We'll make it.

>>31859405
Keep the house cold, stay naked as long as you possibly can while at home, and mix white vinegar into your drinking water when you're able.

Keeping the house cold keeps them on the host, which makes them easier to track. Sleeping with little/no clothing on makes it so that they've got a real difficult time exchanging hosts or hiding from visual inspection. Small amounts of white vinegar in your water kills them off when they go to suck blood for whatever reason.

Harder with pets around, though. You just gotta make it thru till deep winter in that case.

>>31859427
SCA is baller as fugg, f a m.

I smith for a couple of dudes in MD who do it on the regular. I'm just not /fit/ enough to get into it myself. Also, my reflexes are absolute garbage.

I think I might kill myself before Christmas. I have been lacking all motivation in life for 3 years. I just exist and wonder about my daily routine trying to entertain myself with video games. I still have nofuns.

>>31859360
Im not a usual k poster (even though I have a rare mauser) but your story hit home anon.

Seems like you need to get away from wherever you are. Either permanant or just an extended vacation. Break the cycle.

>>31859432

I wish we had more smiths, our leader has been teaching us how to make armor from those plastic barrels, and he gave me an worn out old rattan stick that was used for pell work, cut off 4 inches and he's willing to help me make a basket hilt for it, and the weird thing is the shorter "sword" feels right in my hand.

But what I want more than anything is a goddamn strap shield, he only has those circular viking style shields you hold in the middle, and with my big long hands my damn knuckle keeps banging against the rim when I block. shit hurts.

Have you at least tried sparring a little though? It's a goddamn rush

>>31859438
Yeah man. I took a trip to the UK last year, thought I'd met a woman that I was into. Long story short, after I got back to the states, she never talked to me again, so I just dropped into a funk. I think my next trip is gonna be to France - I've always wanted to go.

>>31859441
Strap shields are where it's at. I'm a tower shield sorta guy, but I got hella respect for folks who shield and spear it up. And yeah, I spar with my buddies when I make them armor but I always wind up losing, kek. It's fun as fuck tho, I'll give you that.

>27yo kissless virgin
>zero social skills
>wake up, go to work, come home, play vidya/shitpost, sleep has been my life schedule for the past 3 years
It could be worse, at least I have a place to live and funs. Too bad I have no time to go shooting.

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>>31859451

I want a heater shield, the stereotypical kind, I always felt like it'd work best for me, though I'd should probably look into making something a little bigger, I'm tall so I wind up getting my thighs hit a lot when I'm defending.

and as long as you have fun, and your brothers are having a good time, that's all that matters, I don't win many scraps but I make sure they know I was there every time. I want to fight against a spear user, that sounds fun as hell, one of our boys fights with a great sword every so often and it's a riot.

You hang in there, you're not alone man.

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>>31856550

>32 years old
>Used to be a lawyer. Currently teaching civil law and shit related to it
>Managed to overcome an actual depression when I was 20-21 but lost most friends and a gf in the process
>Came from a broken home. Divorced parents living together = reality-show tier of shitstorm
>widower
>forgot the last time i smiled
>I want to drunk myself to nothingness, but my mother had problems with alcohol. I want to do it, but I detest the idea at the same time
>I want to hug my father and cry my soul out
> He is dead
>I've got a cold because of weather. Weather in Moscow is a vile bitch

>how are you holding up /k/?

Bretty gud.

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In a mental asylum and my guns taken.

Help. The doc is a POS.

>>31859453
Well, I've found myself posting from another dimension.

Sitting on 3k rounds of 7n6 because I haven't been able to go to the range for +10 months. I should probably buy more before the election, but I just can't be assed.

Holding up great, currently waiting to get into training for deployment in Mali because fuck being stationed in my home country
WWIII soon please

>>31859500

>living in Moscow
>detest the idea of drinking

You will die. Soon.

>tfw work midnight shift so sleep during day
>come home exhausted and with nobody waiting for me
>want to get a dog but landlord doesn't allow pets
>on my days off I just sit in my room and play video games because it's hard to play drums, go shooting, go to a movie at 3am.

I'm starting to wonder if life is actually worth the hassle.

>>31859500
>I want to hug my father and cry my soul out
Thanks a lot slav. Now all I want to do is hug my dad and I'm thousands of miles away.

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>>31859588

At least you can grab your phone and call him.

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The good:
>Have my own place
>Have a job that pays okay
>Have three funs now
>Have a qt latina gf
>Am back in the gym after months off due to being busy with EMT training and injuries
>Have almost completely quit alcohol
>Going to see a national guard recruiter soon

The bad
>Feel lonely and kinda empty a lot
>Work nights so it's hard for me to find time to shoot or do things with other people
>Still hung up on my ex
>Bored as shit working night security
>Perpetually exhausted by the hours I'm working
>Still have no driver's license and I'm not sure how I'm going to be able to practice for the test at any point in the near future

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Bad and stressful
>Every woman I've had an interest in has rejected me
>All my friends if I can even call them that have all gone to college out of town.
>Running out of money fast. Have applied to about ten different places no replies or calls back.
>can't go anywhere because no money.
>Been getting some bad grades and it's stressing me the fuck out.
I'm just fucking tired of all this bad luck.

>>31856550
Not great, I'm not happy, but I'm not really unhappy, I just exist. Sometimes when I'm driving down the highway I consider driving into a tree because it wouldn't matter if I died, yeah my family and friends would be sad but nothing else would change

>>31860169
channel your absolute lack of self preservation into something that will make your life enjoyable

it's what i've done daily for years, now i at least have objects and money to remind me constantly what i wouldnt have if i didnt wake up one day and pretend to care what my life was

go give life a try, it should be really easy if you place no value on your own life

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>>31856550
still no fucking raise

c96 mag springs are backordered at wolff

>>31857536
once you settle into what you like (or more importantly what you dont) you'll find it gets easier. Ii was the same way, I wanted to buy everything and had a list of about 25 things I wanted. Once you try them out in person and get a feel for some you'll relize you actually dont like them

>how are you holding up?
Not great. I'm struggling with my classes and I already had to drop one of them, and I'm not gonna be able to keep my scholarship if I maintain my current grades. I do alright when I study, it's just that a lot of the time I get distracted from studying or whatever else. I just haven't had any successes this semester, and I've lost my motivation to go to the gym and I've felt like I haven't had any time to go to one of the clubs on campus, which is something I've really wanted to do.

My girlfriend's also here at school with me, and I really like to be around her but she talks a lot about getting married and part of me doesn't like to think about it, we've been together for 3 years now and this is the first real relationship either of us have been in, but I don't like thinking about marriage cause my family doesn't really like her and she doesn't like them either. Plus I feel like I haven't had time to see my friends, cause a lot of my time has gone toward hanging out with her. Also I have no sex drive and I can't please her sexually anyway, but she says that's not what she wants, so I don't feel any pressure there but it makes me feel a little inadequate.

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>>31856550
Everything has gone down the rabbithole and there's no recovery.
Other than that, pretty okay at the moment.

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Could be happier I suppose.

1. Dont shoot nearly as often as I'd like.
2. Professional life could use an upgrade...
3. Current job doesn't really offer a lot of advancement and growth at this point.
4. No qt3.14 gf.

Other than that.. shits okay. I am living comfy at the moment.

>>31860300
probably wrote too much, sorry all

>>31860477

You hit the jackpot in terms of the girl bro. Otherwise it seems that your just hitting a minor slump. Just simply go to the club the next time you think "I'll go later". Same for the gym

>>31860300
>all those red flags
Don't let her pressure you into marrying because by the gods you're regretting it before you even start.

>>31856550

Upset trying to budget getting an AR lower from PSA before the election. Not making great money atm (190 biweekly since it's a part time job at my university) and I can't grab it until I can go home, so I'll have to have my brother hold onto it while I finish up my last semester in the spring.

Once I graduate, I'm looking forward to things smoothing out and I can actually purchase quality funs and enjoy some quiet relative to on-campus life.

>>31860511
>>31860508
I'm not gonna let anyone pressure me into doing anything, I really like being around her but I like seeing my friends too. She doesn't talk about it all the time, but I think we're at different places at the moment. She sees the potential for it but I'm just not ready to think about it yet. As for seeing my friends or going to the gym, I think I just have to go and do it, and she should be okay with it. If she's not then there's no point.
Not too long ago I was so unhappy thought it was absurd anyone would want a gf, but I hope you all find someone that cares about you. Regardless of how things turn out, she cares about me and I her, so I hope you guys all make it.

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>>31860551
>Not too long ago I was so unhappy thought it was absurd anyone would want a gf
>tfw totally there right now
spooked out on halloween, how appropriate

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>>31856550
breddy good
I'm graduating a semester early from my mechanical engineering program and I just signed a pretty bitching offer for a position as a weapon systems engineer.
Also finally leaving the god forsaken hell hole that is New York once I graduate, so soon my nugget and mossberg 500 will have some company.
on the downside my dead lift is stalled at 315
>inb4 dyel
but I'm working on it

>>31859376
Yeah I pulled that same shit all the time at school. No real funny stories about the pump itself but it is darn convenient.

Another good trick is if you get mad at someone you can blame it on low blood sugar. I got away with beating the shit out of some kid in high school half my size because of that. He'd stick his hands down his pants and rub them in people's hair. I just told the teacher "Muh low blood sugar srry :^)" and they let me off with a warning. Might not work so good if you're an adult though.

>>31860636

What university? Im over at Fredonia

>>31856550
I'm a sophomore in college, joined the nasty girls, doing ROTC, joined a fraternity, grades are decent but I'm losing focus, great health, good friends, I've been dating the same girl for 3 years, and recently a girl from my highschool days just messaged me and I'm not sure if I should move on from the safe bet of my current gf. Other than that, I picked up a new AK74 so I'm doing alright guys.

>>31856550
Have not heard anything new on the ma-vintorez, so no.

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>>31856550
No. No gf and the girl I love told me she was six months pregnant just before I went out and visited her.

>>31860745
Clarkson University, the education is good but I'm pretty sure the university secretly hates all of its students. 8th most depressed student body in the US.

>>31860793

Nice, I'm in the computer science department here and I'm really excited to be almost done.

Only 8th place we have in the state is rate of STD contraction. No joke.

>>31856550
Pretty Fucking kickass man. Its Halloween, going out and chilling with my close friends tonight. Been working out for a month, lost 15lbs. Getting more attention from the ladys, and getting more confident with myself. Fixing to ask this QT in my English class to lunch. Picked up a prestine Swedish mauser a few weeks ago for $265. Birthday is in 6 days, (20) getting a kickass record player for it.

And a note to all the anons who are feeling down, git out. I mean literally, git outside, do some exercise, run till you puke, do pushups till you're arms give, go hike innawoods till you can barely walk. It helps. Any and all exercise you do will be another step towards getting out of the no mans land of depression. I mean it.
Also keep on keeping on guys.
It will definitely get better

I'm content, wouldn't say I'm happy by any means but I'm content I guess

>>31858888
Quads checked
Confirmed, life will get better

>>31860789
>6 months along
How did you not know this?

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>>31856550

>best job in the world
>pay is very good
>own all the guns I want
>go shooting every week

>when I'm not at work, I wish I was
>tfw three day weekends every week
>tfw have free airfare to anywhere in the world, but nogf to go with.


Doing pretty good tbqh.

>>31860999
And you got trips

What's your job?

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>>31858339
Holy fuck anon nice work.
I just got a 56 on my introduction to charges, field, and potential midterm.

>>31856550
No, not really. I got promoted yesterday, and frankly, it's just more work for a bit more pay. My only saving grace is guns, cigarettes, and alcohol.

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got in a fight with gf
work is pretty fucking shit and my small business is tanking slowly but surely
I keep obsessing over foreign SOF units knowing that I will never experience the thrill of operating

even my misery is mediocre.

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Im happy i party alot have a good social life get invited to partys etc. Still no funz because I'm waiting till I move out but might get a lower and build it later. My job bores me but i get to slam junkies on the pavment. Girl-wise its been iffy this week but I have a hot mature whos interested.

>>31856550
Nope.
>Graduated bachelor's, can't seem to land a real job
>Gf got a real person job far away so we're done.
>Loan payments about to start and I'm stuck at home with no social life and a job where management is actually out to get me
>Want to move to Wyoming and just bail on the faggot East Coast
>Maybe I will learn a union trade and get some certs next year.
>Gonna buy a .45-70 soon and that is the only thing I have to look forward to.

Shiit nigga, where to begin.

>have gf of 5 years
>dumps me for another dude, tells me it's because she's going abroad
>2 months later she wants me back
>have her assure me everything, blah blah she loves me
>she fears she is knocked up by chad thundercock
>talk to her, try to calm her down
>pregnancy negative
>take her back
>1 month forward
>she dumps me for chad again
>2 months forward
>she wants me back
>i kinda take her back, more or less, we spend time and she takes me shopping n shit, i didn't buy her anything though.
>1 month forward she's back at it again with chad and I have to find out by calling her and him picking up the phone

1 year later I had the living shit beaten out of him for talking like he did to me on the phone.
Still didn't mend the pain.

It's fucking 2 years later and I still think of her every day. I love her, even though she showed such disgusting behavior. Just right now I buttered a fucking bread of butter and the butter had the shape of a heart and the first fucking thing to come to my mind was her name.

How fucking beta is that?

>>31856550
Pretty good, the elections have energized me and motivated me. I've quit procrastinating and begun preparing to attend college next year, I'm saving up money to buy guns, and I'm working on putting on some muscle so I'm no longer a spooky skeletal.

Working and drinking. I'm loosing track of time and feeling like a soulless robot. Halloween, my favorite holiday, snuck on me with no money for costumes or fun.

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Ehh not so much. Spent the last 3 months hooking up with this 10/10 girl that I really liked. About a month ago she told me she only liked me as a friend and didn't want to date me. We have the same circle of friends and now we are all going out for Halloween. She was nice enough to call me earlier today and tell me that she will be bringing her new guy with her. It sucks because I want to be with her, but she doesn't care about me like that at all. So now I get to go out tonight and see her with this new guy she actually cares about. Hold me /k/.

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Things are shitty. Lonely halloween, all my friends have moved away. Started to have a thing with a 10/10 girl but she would never spend time with me after we started our thing, so I dropped it. Also don't know where or how to meet girls when going to a junior college. School is raping me like crazy, transferring in January, assuming I pass my classes. If I don't pass and don't transfer I'm going to enlist. I can't go shooting because California and 308 ammo is expensive and I don't wanna use the shit I have just in case. Sister has been a complete bitch for the past month, complete druggie and parents haven't kicked her out yet for whatever reason. Only thing I've been doing lately to escape is gym and drink alone. Just happy that Skyrim Special Edition came out when it did, otherwise I would have lost my shit.

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Been thinking about joining the marines but i don't want the attention but i want to get out of my hometown for awhile and i want a war to happen so i can die fighting, hopefully not crippled but idk i might forget about that and get a shit job. So im doing ok

>>31863765
Fucking shit man, hang in there. It's so hard to forget about someone that means that much to you. I'm >>31864027 I want to move on but I don't fucking know how. If you've got some tips I would appreciate it.

>>31856550
Unemployed, waiting for people to contact me over my applications, hemorrhaging money, sitting in the parking lot of a Mexican restaurant waiting for a friend to bring me my spare tire.

Not really. At least the restaurant is good.

>>31864065
Don't join now man. I've talked to a lot of veterans that have served recently and they all agree that the military is PC hell right now. Wait until wartime, knowing the way our country is you won't have to wait more than a couple of years.

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>>31856550
Just got put on anti depressants. I have scheduled an appointment with a therapist as well. The prospect of being happy excites me.

>>31864109
Honestly dude I don't want to rain on your parade but don't fucking take the anti depressants. I was on them for a bit and they make everything way worse. Best thing you can do is just exercise a lot. The therapist is a good idea though; talking to someone can really help.

>>31864109
Depression is tough. Hang in there.

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Feeling good. After a year of legal fighting, I finally won a lawsuit after a rich asshole t-boned me and nearly killed me. Had to quit my job because I was fucked up so hard. This'll let me take my time getting back into the workforce and fund more than one range trip.

Bad times give way to good ones.

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>>31864183
Such is the way of karma.

Im fixing my second motorcycle, and looking into changing jobs because this one lied to me about where I would be working. Hoping to start driving local and having more gun/riding time. Trying to sell some stuff to love my dream of having a truck/bike/camper combo and never having a brick and mortar home. I could (with enough dosh) go to any /k/ meet I choose.

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>>31864215
That wasn't the picture I posted, but whatever.

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>>31856550
Not great. I'm still with my gf from last thread but I still have crippling depression from my ex (the one that died) and it kicks in at the worst times. I need people to talk to

Kik is Solarian_IX

>>31859114
"Use da mouth, Conrad!"

>>31856550
Got my first career job last april. Had to move to a really small town. Honestly i'm just lonely now and wish i had a reason to leave my house more. I get by most days, but ive been drinking a lot lately

>>31856550
My friend got busted for driving without a license (while driving his friend's car), he's in jail now. We smoked up at mine a few hours before, and he called me when he was in jail (because his friend was with me and wasn't answering his phone). I'm afraid that if they test his urine it'll turn out positive and I'll be next. Basically I'm waiting till I get called to the police station, I dunno what to do. Added to that stress I have exams coming up in a few days. I dunno man, its a pretty shitty period right now.

>>31864363
First few months after my fiancé died were that way. I had to innawoods

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No because I still have no guns

>>31864390
I'm sorry for your loss man, I can't even imagine. It's just hard I don't know anyone here and it's not my personality to go out and "make" friends. I wish i had a place to shoot around here. I've transfered 3 guns to the local FFL and they have shown me videos of them shooting but havent asked to join them.

>>31864383
Why would you be tested?

>>31864383
You worry too much, unless you were driving they aren't gonna give a fuck about you smoking some weed. Very few states can charge you for the drugs in your system and even then they only care about real drugs.

>>31864454
Live in a corrupt third world shithole where we don't have rights. Basically...
>friend gets tested
>gets questioned
>have his phone get looked over
>see me
>police call me to the station
>get tested
>shit hits the fan
I have 'contacts' that can help out, but I don't want this on my record, or to disrupt my life (gotta graduate this year), or have anyone find out

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I'm addicted to Xanax
My heart still aches for a girl that left me nearly a year ago
I think about suicide a lot
I collect guns to fill the hole

I keep moving forward
Just in the wrong direction

>>31864482
xanax, ketamine and molly addictions will ruin a person like heroin never could. Cut that shit out anon

>>31864482
I'm in the same hole as you except for the xanax. Get off that shit man, it will ruin your life.

>>31864470
Ahahahahahahahaha, you threw your life away over weed. Perfect, maybe you should just kill yourself

>>31864554
I was thinking of just shooting myself honestly, thanks for the sympathy.

The only reason I started was because it helped me put my life back together. A couple of months back I never did the stuff. But I went through a severe bout of depression and anxiety and it got really bad over the summer, I tried the prescribed meds they never made things better. The hash made me feel relaxed, able to contemplate and reflect, and at ease with myself. I was building my life up, working hard and doing well in my social life...
For fucks sake, why should I go to jail because I smoked a joint?

>>31864527
>>31864501
Can't stop lads

Not really man.
I'll be 20 at the first of next year, and I haven't really made any progress in life. I have a decent job for someone my age I guess, making $11/hr, with plenty of room to move up, but I just can't seem to find the motivation or opportunity to do so. It would rip me away from my guys, and I really do enjoy working with them, but I'm struggling pretty bad just to pay for the things I need (car, food, etc.), plus I have to support my gf who doesn't work. But we've been on the fritz lately, so I've had a little extra to mess around with, though that really only introduced more problems. Moved back in with my parents, which isn't really so bad, it just stings my pride a little, you know? Plus I've been doing a little more riding than I'm used to at work, usually having done some fierce physically exerting tasks, so I've been putting on weight recently, moving up to like 245 lbs. Being 6'1" kinda helps matters but I dont like being this heavy since ive struggled most of my life with weight and I was on the decline a few months ago.

I dont know, komrades. I don't really have it so bad, definitely not as bad as some of you guys. I've been lurking here for around 4 years now, and the lot of you are really almost like family to me, so it hurts to see some of you are in such bad placesand I truly wish all of you the best.
I just can't shake the feeling that I was meant for more than sitting in my bedroom that I havent occupied since I was 17, drinking a beer and smoking cigarettes. Yet I can't find any motivation to improve. happiness seems so elusive. I don't know. Sorry for rambling, it just feels good to let it out since I havent really been able to talk to anyone about it.

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Never went to a party or a date in high school. Now I'm in a 80-20 guy/girl college, and I've been talking to the same girl for a good month between classes; but I'm such a pathetic robot I have no idea how to ask her for her number or anything like that


I'm also totally oblivious to social cues or the like; I'm probably doing it all wrong or creeping her out

It's very confusing

At least my guns understand me

>>31864648
Was in the same case. Truth is, just do it. Experience is the best teacher, and soon enough you'll climb out of your shell. The sooner the start the better.

>>31864601
You can, my best friend was addicted bad and he weened himself off of it. It isn't easy but you can do it.

>>31864601
>>31864667
I've watched those three drugs hollow peoples personalities out. You come back from smack, not those. Anon you have to stop.

>>31860968
She was out of town in another country teaching.

>>31864596
Don't listen to that faggot,there is nothing wrong with smoking weed. You won't get arrested if you are careful.

>>31864916
I always am, but this time I slipped up because my friend fucked up.

Thanks man

>>31864926
I've got in trouble for it before. Bottom line is it's a plant that has literally never killed anyone. Stoner culture is dumb as fuck but smoking weed is not. I moved to a legal state so I didn't have to worry about it. You should do the same.

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>>31856550
I'm sad over the fact that I won't be able to get all the guns I want. I prefer older guns and especially surplus. I was either to young or to late to get them. they are either sold out or to expensive to afford. I will never get a luger or a Kar 98 or a m1 or a garand a python etc. what makes it worse is the fact that modern guns seem to have less quality control which makes me reluctant on trying and buying new guns.

>>31856582

I second this, I'm about to start my 5th year of college and I have yet to find a decent girl that's worth my time

>>31864961
I'm not a pothead, I just like chilling dude. It helps me feel good about myself in hard times. I don't know why the treat this plant the same way as heroin. I never hurt, stole, or killed anyone. I just kept to myself. Fuck me.

>move to a legal state
I wish. Really do. But I live in the asshole of the world man. Even in the US you have your rights that are respected. Here you aint got jack shit.

>parents forced me to move stateside for university
>leaving all my friends back home
>lived outside of the us my entire life
>moved to a state alone where i know noone
>barely 18
>ditched the university route and enlisted with the army
>looking forward to going to basic but thats in january
>not allowed to go back home because security clearance
i dont know what to feel.

>>31856550

no, my favorite keyboard broke recently and having to use the digital keyboard whenever I want to press N is getting old.

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>>31856612
Y-yeah. The guns haha no problems here.

>>31856668
It'll get better man.

got a year and a half left in the Navy, most likely getting the fuck out. i'll probably extend a few more months to save some more money


I'd love to stay in longer only if i convert and PCS to the west coast, i dunno. pop is a raging alcoholic and just won't quit. he got into some trouble and well hes gonna need some looking after. I cant be away much longer if this keeps up.

>>31856927
Definitely A

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In college and I've completely lost track of time. I'm living day by day and honestly couldn't tell you what day it is if I weren't on my computer. My grades are fine but I don't feel like I'm moving forward in life.

That being said a couple of friends and I are planning something, hopefully that works out cause I hate to admit I don't have much to live for.

In other news, I got into a fistfight for the first time recently, and I haven't felt this alive since I graduated high school. I didn't enjoy it but I kinda want to get into another one.

>>31864119
I dunno. I think I'll do it for the month of have prescribed and see what happens.

>>31856651
If you are at that point, just do it anon. Ever since seeing that Kurdish chick with an SVD and doing a bit of research, it has been my plan for if I ever get to the point where living day by day is a drag.

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>>31856651
Do it man.

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>>31856550
Today I mailed in my order for a CMP Garand, essentially got promoted to being my own manager, and have consumed most of a bottle of wine.

Last year at this time I was absolutely depressed and only got out of bed and showered for the sake of staying employed. Sometimes things actually do work out.

I actually really want to kill myself as of late.

I work at the State Penitentiary, I've been doing it for about a year now. I'm 20 years old, I haven't had any social interaction outside of work for almost nine months. I haven't had sex in a year and there's no hope in sight, there's quite a few girls that I get along with at the Pen but I refuse to be involved with anybody that works there, it's like high school there, and I'd rather inmates not find out that I'm dating another CO.

I work between 72-80 hours a week, from 1400 to 0600 the next morning, I have Mondays and Tuesdays off and I have no motivation to do anything on the weekends besides catch up on sleep and do laundry and grocery shop and shit. Most of my free time during the weekend is spent in my studio apartment with the lights low browsing 4chan or playing video games, occasionally I'll find the motivation to go for a jog or lift weights when I can. I see my parents every now and then on my days off, but they live an hour north and the drive sucks.

I used to be really into shooting, I'd go out at least twice a month and practice. I used to camp in the woods with my dog a lot too, practice bush craft and all sorts of stuff like that. This job has robbed me of my youth and destroyed my happiness.

The only thing I have is money. This fiscal year I'll probably clear 75k, which makes me feel good, knowing that I'm only 20 and I'm making that kind of money, but I don't know if it'll all be worth it in the end.

Last night I performed CPR on a dead inmate (died in his sleep of prostate cancer) for almost 30 minutes, then I had to sit next to his dead body in the cell for two hours until the State Patrol investigators arrived. How do I come home to an empty apartment and just act like everything is normal, how am I supposed to enjoy the free time that I have?

This isn't the life that I asked for, I guess it's what I signed up for, but I never thought it'd be like this.

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>>31865622
Fuck

Don't really know. I mean I feel fine most of the time. My childhood bestie might be a psychopath, though.

I'm hasguns though. And have a DnD group. And read a lot of Worm fanfic. It isn't good per se but it floats my boat.

>>31859436
get off the games and git gud @ life
eat right, get >>>/fit/, take care of yourself and develop useful skills

hang in there my fellow sad sacks, we can do it if we try

>>31860328
build your foundation at rock bottom, friend
I did it and now the hard times aren't so bad

>>31860886
Hell yeah brother, glad you're on the climb

>>31863765
Get rid of her, don't let anyone treat you that way my man
lay down some boundaries and enforce them with your will

>>31865622
>This job has robbed me of my youth and destroyed my happiness.
You chose this job and are forcing yourself to just keep doing it, just keep doing it, just keep doing it. Quit beating the shit out of yourself, there's no point in it. Go get a 13/hr job in a warehouse and start living life, man.

You absolutely do not have to stay at your job, even if you want to. You're young. You've tried that life, now move on to something completely new dude, you still have another 10yrs before you have to find a career. Go life your life, even if you don't want to.

>>31864639
Hang in there kommando.
You _are_ meant for more than sitting in your parents' house.
Work on yourself, work on your relationship, focus on building a brighter future.

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Honestly I wonder if guns are just another thing to fill the giant hole in me.

It used to be weed then acid, then alcohol, now I don't do that shit anymore, but I've spent probably a grand on weapon related shit this month alone, which makes it more expensive than any drug habit I've ever had. And I am far from a high earner. When I'm at the range I feel all of my troubles just go away and I have something to focus on, and the adrenaline of firing round after round is fucking awesome.

I've always like guns but I'm really new to firing and owning them. I went from being no-gunz to having a handgun and a small stockpile of 9mm in the span of a few weeks, and now I'm thinking about getting another 9mm for carry purposes.

Shit. I'm a gun nut now aren't I.

Does the "craze" ever go away? In the days leading up to my first gun purchase I was extremely anxious, mainly because it was a surplus model and I was afraid It was going to be gone before I could get my new states residency paperwork in order, and after buying it I definitely feel much better, but I want more guns. I'm obsessed

What's worse is that I now spend time I would spend practicing guitar on browsing for good ammo prices and dry fire drills. The fact that all my friends despise my hobby just makes me like people less in general. It's funny how quickly "liberals" who claim to champion individual rights will drop that shit at the sight of a 2lb piece of metal.

Not sure if I'm comfortable with how excited I am over this new hobby.

>>31865399
Good work anon.

>>31866096
It'll wear off after awhile. How long depends on you.
But you really should get back to that guitar.

>31 years old
>have never held hands
>wizard
I want to die

>>31859296
how can one be gay and a virgin at the same time, that makes no sense.


I have some shit going on in my life and I dunno where to start so I'll just say this, this new purple background is not that great.

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>>31866133
To all the anons in the thread, especially the ones with woman problems or problems with attracting women - read Models by Mark Manson.
Think of it as a field manual for understanding yourself and women.
It'll knock your socks off, I wish I read it in highschool.

>>31866157
That does indeed sound like some shit anon.
The skellies are neat though.

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>>31866232
is there a book like that for anons who can't develop a loving relationship with another human being?

>>31866257
Yep, that's the one.
Seriously, it's not even 200 pages, give it a spin.

>>31864989
If you don't mind my asking, what country are you in?

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YES I AM VERY HAPPY MANY DEAD SYRIAN BABIES JAJAJAJ

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>>31866301
i have a hard time believing that 200 pages of text will give any meaningful answer as to why i can't become emotionally invested in another person. i've just settled with the fact that i'm an assborg who is incapable of loving another person.

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>>31866329
DO NOT GIVE UP HOPE MY SON I WILL HELP YOU IN THESE TRYING TIMES, TELL GAS MASK MAN HOW HE CAN HELP

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>>31866359
i'm drunk too but that's no reason to shout brudder

>>31866329
Don't take my word for it, see for yourself. You have nothing to lose and much to gain.
But you'll never fix your problems with a stubborn attitude like that.

Thinking about killing myself, just got done writing my suicide note. Life has been one big disappointment for me and I'm tired of pretending to be happy. One round to the head from my .40 meme and wessson should do it. I hope it works.

>>31866393

or you could not give the liberals ammo by becoming a statistic as doing so would be extremely inconsiderate to the rest of us.

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>>31866378
>you should buy this book, it will solve all your problems
>i don't believe that a pile of paper can solve all of my problems
>you'll never go anywhere with that attitude! just take my word for it!

you're a horrible salesman to be honest family

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>>31866374
I AM SORRY FRIEND, ENJOY YOUR ALCOHAL BUT REMEMBER TO DRINK PLENTY OF WATER I DONT WANT YOU TO GET HURT FRIEND

>buy an m65 jacket
>doesn't get here til next week
life is suffering

I don't even know anymore. Day in and day out I go to work and put on a smile. I save money, and I always do what I am supposed to do in life. But for some reason at the end of the night I feel like I am missing something. I dont know if I am just lonely, or if I am actually unhappy with my life. But all I know is that I miss people. I miss my grandmother, I miss Dave, I miss Shannon, I miss Crystal, I miss the old way of life. But for some reason you're always on my mind Dave. I dont think you being in my life would make it any better, it probably won't but I do wonder how you're doing day in and day out. I am just a curious creature.

Hey everyone, anon from earlier this morning with the gf trouble, I got dressed up in a costume and saw some friends earlier for dinner so things are looking up a little bit. Kind of wasted most of my evening reading but I suppose squeezing in a little statics studying would do some good.
Just wanted to remind you all that no matter who you are, whatever you do to live thrive and survive there are some things that make us all the same. You, me, everybody.

Looks like we're headed for the bump limit. Thanks for a great thread everyone. You guys are alright.

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None of the things I've enjoyed interest me anymore. I have no urge to vidya, I have an audiobook I've only been halfway through for months, a DVR full of recorded shows I don't want to watch. All the tabletop games I've been interested in playing don't appeal to me anymore. I have no reason to get out of bed anymore.

Most of my friends have stopped talking to me, which I get, I'm not much of a friend, let alone a good person. I don't do anything interesting worth talking about so I'm not very fun to talk to. I'm positive I have an undiagnosed personality disorder that makes me avoid any and all social interaction. I don't go outside, I can't make friends.

I'm basically a college dropout at this point, I've taken 2 semesters off of community college, which I started going to cuz regular college crushed my hopes and dreams and my faith in the American education system.

All I have to look forward to is a Trump presidency. If he doesn't win I'l probably end up killing myself.

>>31866913
Are you me

>>31856550
>Almost no money.
>Crippling social anxiety.

But...
>Finally got my brother to go to rehab.
>Going back to school.

So not happy but differently better then I have been before.

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Why are we here? Just to suffer?

>>31866978
I hope not. I wouldn't wish my situation on anyone.

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>>31865622
go use that money on travel, see some stuff meet some people

also go talk to someone, talking and maybe a little bit of meds will be very good for you and get you over the hump

>>31867032
WE'RE HERE TO GIT GUD
TO OVERCOME ADVERSITY AND BECOME THE BEST VERSION OF OURSELVES
WE'RE HERE TO CONQUER OUR FEARS AND OBSTACLES AND MAKE OUR LIVES HAPPY AND FULFILLING

>>31867190
I encourage everyone to make a list of things they want to accomplish this week professionally and personally and start planning on how to achieve their goals. Personally I'm going to study hard for the first time this semester and then go to my first party this weekend. Talk to that qt 3.14, just say hi, anything. Make your guns happy by taking them to the range like you've been wanting to. Fulfill your dreams /k/omrades, live the lives you always knew you could.

>get called to meet with boss today
>i'm being transferred from contractor to employee
>with benefits (most importantly health insurance)
>mother says i should just ask for a raise instead of insurance
>ok with covering me under her plan (for now...)

On one hand it would drastically increase my monthly spending power. On the other hand, I don't like the way she's been treating my brother recently and generally acting due to this election. I don't think it will end on November 8. Long story short:
>brother supports trump
>mom is hardcore hillary supporter and democrat
>has threatened to disown brother (in school) over his support for Trump
>has recently demanded that he buy her some hillary merch (knowing he doesn't support her, and is a student and that she could have just asked me, who has a "real" job and isn't a Trump fan either)
>shouting "SHUT UP" at the TV in the middle of the night when any republican speaks, and hoping that Hillary locks the FBI director up after she wins (she hated how Trump and supporters wanted the same for Hillary)
She's basically become a leftist mirror of the typical Trump supporter.
I just don't feel safe being one "wrong" opinion away from being cut off, but on the other hand she's family and I don't want to hurt her. She's tolerated my "deviant" position regarding guns so far. And yes considering the way things are going she will consider me getting my own heath insurance as a slight to her. I should be happy that I'm "moving ahead" but this "opportunity" is just opening up a new can of worms.

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>>31867503
>disown brother because of political beliefs
I'm not so sure about that being true

>>31867718
Don't underestimate how petty family members can be.

Democrats seem to be more willing to cut off people for not towing the party line (well enough) whereas most conservative people, while they can be argumentative, abrasive, or belittling of more liberal beliefs, will not go as far as to cast out family.

>>31867743
I think any political affiliation will do the same exact thing. Not one specific one

>>31867750
Most stories I've heard about people getting legit cut off from family due to political beliefs tend to be people who liberal family don't consider liberal enough.

For liberal people and conservative family, it's usually the liberal person choosing to distance themselves.

>>31856550
I'm always alone.

I'm only happy when I'm drunk. I'm relatively new to alcoholism, but I enjoy the small talk with strangers when I'm too fucked up to care. Drivings' a bitch though.

Late to the thread, but kind of.

Told the girl I like how I feel, she said she'd date me if she wasn't away at college. We're still talking like nothing happened, but she's been a bit more flirty with me. I don't know if she actually likes me or just doesn't want me to an hero, because she knew how bad I was after my last relationship.

In the meantime, a 32 year old girl who doesn't look it invited me out for drinks some time, and I'm not sure if I want to take her up on it or not. She's cute and nice and everything, but I want the other girl.

I don't want to want anyone, though.

>>31867503
Liberalism is a disease.

In all seriousness, have a talk with her about it and explain the situation.

You're only option is to talk it through.

>buy guns and reloading stuff only
>no friends anymore
>the only woman I love is in another courtyard
>dead end job
>diabetes
>6'1 156lb. Jogger
>everyday is pain

>>31867984
Country*

>>31864973
Great excuse , as if you get any choice in the matter

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>>31856550
I EXIST IN CALIFORNIA.