How you holding up, /k/?

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>>30109116
Still reeling

I made a mt dew voltage float a few minutes ago, so living the fucking dream

>>30109116
broke, applied for a job a few days ago and not expecting to get a call. feels bad bros

>>30109116
pretty fucking good. im buying a vepr 12 on friday im exited

Not well, thinking of killing myself after my vacation.

>>30109182
Don't do it m8, think of all the times you can masturbate if you continue living!

>>30109182
No way dude me too!

>>30109116
I haven't fired a gun in a month.
I haven't been to a range since December.
I have four new guns that I haven't shot yet.
I'm tired of doing nothing but work and fapping to Undertale and Zootopia.
I need to shoot.

>>30109182

I foresee you having a very shitty vacation

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Made 1500 extra this week. Buying a 1911 next week.

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Never bought a handgun before and I'll be buying my first sometime in the next month. It's been weighing heavily on me for a while now and I'm 100% sure I want to buy it, so it's not some spur of the moment purchase. But I'm still a bit nervous.

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>>30109116
Decent enough I suppose. Just bought an over under to do skeet shooting with. Tried it out today and it was pretty fun. Im a shit shot.

Pretty good, enjoying the end to a good weekend after a long week of work, contemplating saving up for an AR build this fall. Also high as fuck.

>>30109209

I am going to be able to spend time with my vidya, but the second it ends I am going to be miserable again.

>>30109194

masturbating is not worth it.

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>tfw could lose the woman who I was going to marry and have kids with in the future, due to the circumstances we started dating in, after being best friends for a long time
>It's pretty much out of my hands

I'm old enough that this isn't childish melodramatic bullshit. It's a long story. She told me to keep my head up, because "things have a way of working out", but I'm scared, /k/. Hold me.

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>>30109172
This.
>never got a job till after tech school
>it lasted three days before they fired me, because the other three had cashier experience and I didn't
>haven't been able to get anything else within walking distance since
>no one calls back even though I do, because apparently the mental deficients they hire are more capable because they have "job experience"
>everyone only wants managers and salespeople with degrees
>mfw jobless, carless, nogunz, and still living with my parents at 22
Just fucking end me. I'm not gonna make it man.

Could be better. Finally got to shoot a legit full auto m16 yesterday. Only had 10 rounds though.

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>>30109208
>Undertale and Zootopia

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>>30109265
I don't think I'll ever find somebody that I click with on literally every level, down to what we planned for our futures, our political leanings, our senses of humor, our personalities, everything. I've never even had this with guy friends, much less a woman who I had romantic interests with. At least this was the first time I've gone through this sort of existential despair, while armed to the teeth, and didn't do anything stupid. I'll never find anything like this again, though.

>>30109116

Just finished cleaning gramps old .22mag, gun collection now at 3. Want to go shooting but all my friends are busy. Work tomorrow. Irritated at being lazy, need to clean. Hating how much money bills will take away, imagining the guns I could buy with it. About to fap to scaly porn.

All in all, somewhat content.

About /k/ average I imagine.

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>>30109265
We're here for you anon

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>>30109116
I'm thinking hard about eating a 9mm meal.
I lost my job, most of my friends, and don't have any motivation for life.
If it wouldn't destroy my parents I would be long gone by now.
I don't know how long that will keep me hanging on though.

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>>30109266
>tfw had to send out probably a hundred internship applications over a year trying to get any sort of experience I could after aerospace engineering school
>finally landed a job
>it's with the Army doing a civil engineering type thing, but I won't even be doing engineering, just curating through reports and compiling data

I should have just buckled down and got those high grades I know I probably could have, instead of wallowing in drinking and despair throughout college.

Pretty good now. Been stressful at my job for the last few weeks, that and my dog died (he was old, but it still sucked). But I have tomorrow off and got to take a fairly inexperienced shooter to the range this morning to shoot milsurp, including my Garand. Things are looking up.

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Spent the first half of the year stressed by work deadlines, stressed by professional development courses, and not having time to shoot any of my funs. Only thing that comforts me that I have time for is nicotine, alcohol, and browsing chinese cartoon imageboards.

I bought a Yugo Mauser last year as a college grad present to myself, yet all I did with it was to remove the cosmoline, find out it needs to be sighted in, and removing the sight hood.

>>30109293
Thanks, anon. It's been a wild ride, but I still love her to death, and would trade anything for us to finally just be able to be happy together. Part of me believes things will work out. The other part of me is terrified of the future. I can't lose her. I've actually felt happy, and excited for the future, for the first time in my adult life.

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>>30109266
>Haven't even tried getting a job yet
>See this post
I'm going to fucking die. I might as well deface myself with my 16 gauge single shot right now.

>>30109276
I'm going to keep posting just to piss you off ;)

Well, got stabbed over the weekend but the trade off is I got to hit somebody with a Kevlar helmet repeatedly.

Get paid next week which is good because started a new job and have enough money to pay bills and stuff until then.

Girl I've been talking to a bit lately and I are going on a date soon.

All in all, life is good, sending happy vibes your way /k/

>>30109301
You're on a Cantonese Cartoon strip board. We all know how you feel, anon. I hope things start looking up for you, soon. I recently lost a large group of friends, as well, and may lose the reason I lost them, as well. I believe in you anon, you'll find a purpose in your life. Hang in there.

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I need another job, I haven't properly taken care of my guns lately, and I don't know if I'm still in love with my girlfriend or not, all in all, I'm ok anon, thanks bro.

>>30109303
I wish I could share that experience with someone. I would love to teach some one who cares about shooting. Nobody I know really cares about the information though. Most people are pretty casual about shooting, they don't really care about the history or how the gun operates.

Boy bunch of sorry fucks in this thread

You have freedom, a strong back, and a place to sleep dryly. Yalls need to accept you're not going to change the course of a river. Be like the water and flow effortlessly with it

>>30109321
Just get a job, any job. Employers are more likely to hire someone with a job then without one. Seriously go get s job as a stocker at a grocery store or something entry level and then kick ass at it. Use that to boost your resume and move on up that ladder.

>>30109371
shut your soul sister ass up bruh

>>30109382
Unless you're trying to get into a field with a barrier to entry. Engineer guy here, I've not had any employment gaps since finishing high school, during which I worked every summer, and have stellar references. You get filtered out in the automated process, though, and you're fucked.
>finish with 2.45 GPA
>WHY DON'T WE JUST BLOW MY BRAINS OUT NOW? SAVE OURSELVES SOME TIME!

>>30109385
Hey soul sister
Hey that mister mister on the radio

>>30109397
So then start an engineering channel on YouTube or start working on something to make you stand out from your GPA. Make them want you and not your grades.

>>30109403
radio, stereo
let me jerk off and paint you ho

>>30109172

Nigga I applyed for 131 jobs in two months, how many apps you workin on in a day? If I did it with an art degree, you can too.

>>30109222

and you got trips!

>>30109302

Bitch you aren't going to be designing f-22 tier shit unless you are top dog and you ain't top gun because you got a job.

>>30109266
Brother, I'm 22 & in the same boat only I'm going to college, buying a shotty within 2-3 weeks (and a rifle soon after), getting a car and house via student loan and I JUST (as in, I start Tuesday) got a new job after being out of work for like 2 months.

I know this ain't /adv/ and I'll probably get called a fag but just take it one step at a time. If your parents aren't pushing you out the door then cherish that and focus on finding employment no matter how shitty it may be. Then the other 3 will fall into place.

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>>30109292
I used to get mad at my friends for never wanting to go shooting, even though they have plenty of time and they fucking got me into this hobby, but eventually I just said FUCK IT and started going on my own. I mostly own guns you don't see often where I live, so I average about three random conversations with friendly old dudes per range visit. Plus, shooting solo is awesome, it's a zen experience on par with driving alone on back roads while in no particular hurry.

>>30109116

bad enough to seriously consider posting here for relief.

>>30109525
>tfw

go for it anon

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>tfw your friday and saturday nights consist of drinking and crying

it's now spilled over to sunday nights too. i wonder how long before i drink every night.

>>30109116
depression is finding it's way back to me, on the bright side, i managed to pick a beretta 92fs up for 200 bucks

>>30109539
It's not long until it's every night. I'm currently still breaking that cycle, but between the awful news I was getting today, and it being a holiday tomorrow, I'm letting myself drink on sunday again this week.

>>30109266
You got 200 bucks?

Here's what the fuck you do-

https :/ /www. cybrary.it /course /comptia-aplus/

Copypasta that.

Learn that shit

Purchase exam voucher

Ace that shit.

Rinse repeat with other courses until you have enough certs for a job.

>>30109539
>>30109566

It will get there VERY quickly, and can be hard to dig out of.

My only advice is to buy a bunch of melatonin. The first few nights when you stop drinking are gonna be sleepless, lost of shakes, and nightmares for the few seconds you close your eyes. dose up on melatonin and tough it out, detox always sucks. It makes a world of difference though.

>>30109462
where are you working at bro?

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Guinea pig of 6 years died last week
haven't cleaned any guns or turned it applications I got at the beginning of the month to fill out and send in because I was just too sad
even though im fine now, I just use it as an excuse to myself to do fuck all and procrastinate

Almost died for the second time in 3 years. Blood infection in my heart this time. I'm 25 this is starting to get hard to deal with. Stuck in CA for the next 3 months for treatment with nothing more than 3 pairs of pants 4 shirts and a backpack. Broke up with my girlfreind of 10 years 2 weeks ago before I found out how sick i was. Good news is got a 19 year old thing waiting for me when im back.

I feel too old, i just want to settle down and live before I die.

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>date canceled
>two pistols I enjoy broke after firing a couple rounds today
>slammed head into a metal slab
Not to well anon

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>>30109266
I'm literally in the same boat.
>22
>Worked my ass off since 16 till I was 18 at McBurger
>Worked my ass off from 18-20 at a security company
>Worked my ass off from 20-21 at a call center to get a supervisor position only to get replaced by some blonde bimbo because she slept with the site manager
>haven't had a steady job in over a year since then
>Worked at Sam's passing out free samples. >Was put on permanent suspension due to an intestinal disorder
>Said fuck you I quit because if I can't work what's the point of being an employee?
>Worked at Krogers bagging groceries and pushing carts
>Broke two fingers because another jackass I worked with decided to slam 20+ buggies into a row that I was re-shaping because he's a fucking autist. Was put on workers comp for like 3 months, then once I was in a position to actually work again, could never get the god damn manager to sign the medical release form. They stopped putting me on the schedule for nearly a month straight, then called me to tell me I was fired.
>Like 2k in credit card debt
>Live with my grandparents who are slowly resenting me more every day
>I feel like suicide would be too hard on them, but not sure what to do.
>I'm a fucking landwhale now (gained like 70lbs from depression) so .mil is out unless I can get in shape enough to do that whole shpeil in 3 weeks or less
>Have like $45 to my name
>literally fuck my life

>>30109629
Two years ago I was 20, and had what I thought was a pimple on the inside of my elbow. It got bigger, and I started getting concerned. I got to where I couldn't even move my arm, and went to the urgicare, who, after hours, sent me to the ER.

I got doped up on morphine by them, and they did preliminary work, and a couple days later after antibiotics didn't take, they knew it was MRSA and I had full blown surgery.

Turned out they told my parents outside the room while I was doped up that it was VERY close to amputation if things didn't go perfect.

I had a couple resurgent infections over the year after. I eventually tested negative completely in cultures, thank God. Some of us are just born to struggle ;-;

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>>30109116
Feelin' pretty good.

I'm a bit over weight, ok I won't lie to myself, I am pretty overweight, with a BMI of probably 35% (on the obese limit). But I got a whole summer ahead of me, and got break days stored up.

I'm hoping to go for an ROTC program for free college and medical experience. I plan on being a Nurse so yay for me. Need to lose the weight obviously thou.

I think I have my life set for me. Only complaint here is I ain't going to live broad and lively, but hey, I chose that life.

...

I wish I wasn't so lazy and timid when I was younger. I could've stayed fit, I could've told that girl my feelings for her but I didn't. All those missed opportunities. Yet all the fun we had I wouldn't give up.

That's the thing, don't know appreciate the present till it's in the past. You keep telling yourself you're learning, but you never know when it'll be reapplied.

I wish I've done more, but I didn't.

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/k/ommandos, I'm still young, I never knew what I wanted to do, and Nursing, while it's the simplest and easiest for me to do, I'm not sure I want do it. I'm not sure what I want.

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I'll guess I'll be fine.

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It's going to be a beautiful day tomorrow. Everything will be alright.

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>>30109116
Just made it through my last semester by the edge of my seat.

Now for Summer; Objectives:

1. Pass summer school online and boost GPA
2. Stop being such a fat fuck and get fit again
3. Avoid ex-girlfriend and prepare my festung for her summer of breakins (no, I won't shoot her)
4. Get my conceal carry

Come fall, that is my last semster and I am finally done. However I face an uphill challenge in the employment category. I am not sure whether I should continue on into grad school for economics or try for a job. I'll likely gamble both and hope for the best.

Oh god why didn't I stay in the Army or follow my former teamleader to go to private sector shit. This real life stuff is way harder than they told me it'd be.

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>>30109697
I have a bunch purple scars around my waist and pelvis from similar infections. it almost look like some weird STD or some shit, even though im currently on the path to wizard status

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>Been picking up a few weekend shifts for the extra cash.
>Add that to tomorrow's holiday pay and I can take the leap and buy the FEG Hi-Power I've been eyeballing for months. It'll be my first gun ever.
>What's left of the extra money will go into my slowly growing savings

I'm moving on up /k/!

>>30109739
I have a scar from the inch or two deep cavern the orthopedic doctor cut in my arm during surgery for mine, and one on my shin as well.

They put me on one of those "Wound-Vacs" because it allegedly helps the wound heal without scarring. I had to carry around what looked like a fanny-pack, for a month when I went into my sophomore year of college, that made constant churning gurgling sounds in class, attached through a tube to my arm.

Maybe this is why I'm a loser with hardly any friends.

Pulled a dead kid out of the river a few days ago with the volunteer squad. cant stop seeing his face when i shut my eyes so i haven't been sleeping much. so yea kinda dealing with that at the moment i guess.

>>30109116
Drank a lot, as usual.
On the bright-side though, I hit a quarter with a .22lr at 150 yards, so it felt pretty good to know I can at least still shoot.

Also, watched that new GuP movie.
It was alright, minus the ridiculous lack of realism.
Reminds me how empty and miserable my life is.

>>30109774
I'm sorry anon, that's awful for somebody that just wants to volunteer and help out to have to go through.

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>>30109722
>I wish I wasn't so lazy and timid when I was younger.
This sounds familiar

>>30109812
same. Young anons here, don't be lazy, and don't procrastinate.

>>30109823
>this

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>>30109345
Thanks bro.
I really appreciate that.

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>>30109833
Cheers, anon. My last tallboy before I switch to whiskey

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>She has a new bf
>Everyone on Tinder stopped responding
If I work more I'll forget

>>30109266
Look at it this way, anon...
I aint gonna green text this shit because I hate spending that much time formatting.

So, there I was, working for 8$ an hour at a whole sale nursery, throwing trees and landscaping for 8 hours a day. did that for 3-4 years while in college. All at once, I become jobless and homeless. Then the girl of my dreams leaves me without a pot to piss in. Fast forward a year, and now I'm making 11$ hour, working 12 hour shifts, 4 days at a time (or more if I want to), driving a vehicle that I bought, spending money on guns and living in a nice house. Its still not perfect... my roommates are Bernie-supporting faggots (literally gay. Boyfriends that moved in together. One of them is a 120lbs aspie that thinks hes gonna be a welder on a professional level without any certifications... mfw)
But, Im looking forward to graduating after 3 more classes, putting in an application with the border patrol and ending this bullshit for good next year.

>>30109301


see>>30109867

Stressed as normal.
Korean test wednesday. DLI student btw
Its so stressful here i literally have gray hairs and im only 23. Didnt have em before I came here.
Also I am hanging out with this girl every day, shes in korean too and also the airforce like I am, and I want to ask her out but im to much of a pussy, but we hang out and shit all the time just us two. Like today, yesterday and basically every weekend.

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>>30109222
checked you lucky basterd

>>30109352
Literally my life

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>>30109883
>tfw grey hairs since I was 15
what is wrong with me

>>30109722
And as a nurse, youll be swimming in pussy, bruh.

>>30109883
quit being a vagina and ask her out
the worst thing she can do is say no
>or that she's gay
For the first one she'll probably not want to be your friend, but w/e you'll find more puss to sling your meat sword in.
For the second you can be bros for lyfe.

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>>30109116
Preddy gewd actually...

>Ended the semester with a 3.78 GPA (Exercise Science)
>Got my NASM personal training certification
>About to start my Certified Strength and Conditioning Coach certification
>got a $1.50 raise at work to $10.50/hour+commission and can start working full time again for the summer
>Friend sold me his PS4 with Bloodborne and Resident Evil: Origins Collection for $200 bucks so I have joined the idort master race
>Finally fixed the cruise control on my trail blazer
>FWB's older brother let me put 1000+ rounds through my ruger 10/.22 last weekend because he's a hoarder, rich as fuck, and I'm the only one he knows that is interested in funs
>Finally got to shoot my S&W MP9 I got last month and I'm in love with it.
>Family / Bro beach trip in July
>This may be the time for me to finally into AR or AK

>>30109266
Join the Coast guard. Yea every branch makes fun of it but that's cause our job is fucking awesome. They need 1500 new recruits for 2016. I've been in for less than 2 years just made e4. I have been on missions that have resulted in 6 lives being saved, Cuban migrants interdicted and 1600 kilos of cocain interdicted.

>>30109917
thats the problem. she isnt a lesbian. I dont want to lose one of the 3 friends ive made while in the air force. I havent had friends for 5 years previous since graduating high school. Im in a bad place

>>30109947
How long have you guys been hanging out?

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>>30109116
Well, I'm 19, just graduated High School and I have no freaking clue what I'm going to do with my life. I don't even really feel like going to college.

On the bright side I've been taking this cute Spanish girl from my photography class to the gun range. Not only is she hooked but she wants her own gun now, might help her pick one out.

I also enjoy watching her shoot more than I enjoy shooting with her, am I in love /k/?

>>30109509
>a zen experience

Word. You can lose track of several hours that way. And you can really refine your technique/tighten up your groups.

Ever get to that state where you know if it's a good shot as soon as the trigger breaks? It's like you're sensing and processing with every cell in your body.

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i just got done with a ciggy, a glass of whiskey, and now im posting on a Taiwanese cave painting board while fingerfucking my only gun. i was going to go out with the misses to a lake to swim and mabye fish, but her family is dragging her to a memorial day thing, so i guess i'll be visiting mine. not looking forward it desu senpai, but such is life

fucking college application is taking forever too, and i have to wait until the 31st to learn anything about it because they're closed for memorial day. maybe i'll try and go shooting tomorrow to relieve some stress...

>>30109116
>4 years ago in the beginning of May we met eachother, hit it off, started talking

>3 years ago in May we started officially dating

>best feeling I'd ever felt. I felt whole. We were kind of long distance (like four hours there four hours back) so we'd talk and text constantly. She was an odd bird, but oh, did I love her so. She was cute, funny, but just a little crazy.

>things kept going further and further south

>A year ago in May things finally reached their breaking point and we stopped talking for good, no more on and off

>the first fling left me feeling unsatisfied, the second left me feeling ashamed of myself.

>I tried at real love again, which went nowhere

The worst part is I'd be feeling so much better if I had kept my friends. But I'm so shit at keeping in touch and everyone's moved away and it's really difficult meeting new people and the old people who stayed behind I don't really care too much for anyways.

She was the one who kept me together when I had nobody else. But we were living a lie and it ended up biting us, hard. Despite knowing it was a falsehood, I wanted to believe we were perfect for eachother, so I put more work into that relationship than any other thing I've ever done in my life. But we were just incompatible. And I was fatigued and sick of it all.

The anniversary was 3 days ago.

I don't really hurt much specifically over the breakup anymore. I just feel longing for what we once had again, with someone who is not her. I miss her, too, but after allowing the obligatory mourning I don't allow myself to miss her since it's really counter productive. I've already cried and listened to the old Hank Williams videos, I have to move on. At least that's what I tell myself. But life won't let me move on. I can't find another person to attach myself to, I'm a romantic at heart.

Why can't I find another.

Other than >tfwnogf and >tfwalmostafailureandjustbarelyclingingon my life's pretty ok i guess.

>>30109629
Whereabouts in Cali?

>>30109966
bout 2 months.
Tons of similar interests. Hell I even had the gall to give her a hug one night and she held longer than I did. Its funny to me because I literally have no adult life dating experience so I dont know what the fuck to do.
Its a serious side distraction from my actual tech training though. I have noone to give me advice either. Fuck chaplains and all those other services that """"give a damn""""" about us

>>30109998
I'd say go for it anon. She could be waiting for you to make a move. Best do it quickly at this point. Women tend to take "we're friends" very seriously after the 3ish month mark in my experience.

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>>30109182
Watch the webm

Don't do it friend, Jesus loves you

>>30109998
think of it this way, if she says yes the congratulations, you now have a gf

if not then life goes on and nothing changes, ask yourself which outcome you'd regret more

>>30109774
Talk to your pastor or somebody. You gonna get PTSD if you keep it up.

>>30109976
I do know that feel, anon. I've been working on my breathing in particular, and I've noticed a drastic improvement. Every once in a while I'll send my groups to my friends, and it felt really good when one of them told me that he thought I was the best shot of all of us. When I go with my friends, we shoot the shit and have a good time, but we don't focus as much on getting better.

As for the last bit, I want to say that I have, but lately I've been tackling the challenge of using only iron sights at 100 yds, and I have to say I have no idea where anything has landed until I pick up the spotting scope.

>>30110021

I am never going to accomplish anything in my life and will only go trough a pointless struggle to make money and eventually retire.

>>30110047
If you're at that point, then in my opinion you have the perfect inscentive to go out and kick ass.
You always have the ability to fuck off to some random country and roam, or join a militia in a small African nation. Why the fuck not right?
You don't need to accomplish anything in life that is of great value, just impress yourself.

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>>30109182
the world is your oyster lad. you can just fuck off to anywhere, and if you're still feeling like killing yourself, well then go ahead
but remember this: everyone who ever survived jumping off the golden gate said that they realized that none of their problems were unfixable as soon as they took air

>>30110021
>tfw this post just makes you feel even shittier that you might never give your dad grandchildren

>>30110047
That's just Nihilism, anon. Hit up your local Orthodox Church (Greek, Russian, it don't matter. Unless you live in Poland, the Catholic Church is cucked beyond all belief cause of fucking Francis, and I don't trust the Protestants after growing up in a non-denominational one) and tell them what's up. They're always eager to save a soul, and your soul looks like it could use some saving. The focus on discipline and tradition will do you good.

Jesus loves you, senpai. Let him into your heart, join the Church, let the Holy Spo

>>30110021
Man pepe reminds me so much of my dad in this webm. He'd be so sad if I off'd myself, I'm really happy I don't have those thoughts. I'd hate to traumatize my family like that, especially my dad

>>30110072
It's supposed to remind you why committing suicide is not a good thing. Besides the Lord, there are plenty of people who don't want to see you go.

>>30109947
Start slow. It's a perfect opportunity for you guys to practice Korean on each other. No English allowed. See where that takes you.

>>30110067

Except that I am fat, but I also have significant strength.

>>30109998
If she hugged longer than you, you're probably good. Just ask her out. You're in the military, you'll probably get stationed at different places eventually(I was AF and this happened to me because I wouldn't nut up). Even if not and you don't ask her you have to hang around and watch while she eventually dates some other dude while slowly drifting away from you. There's not a happy middle ground in that situation. You either end up really happy or miserable. Think about how great its going to be when she says yes then fucking ask her. Even if she says no you won't regret not doing it later and that's important.

>>30110075
You people are like fucking parasites. You don't care about these people or their problems, you just want more bodies in your 'group'.

>>30110047
no shit, everybody feels like that mate. nothing means anything, everyone's going to die and the world will fade away eventually, all that means is that you have to make your own happiness out of it

go for a long road trip, get shitfaced, or do whatever helps distract you from your life, and think hard about everything. live your life, don't let other people tell you what to do, just get out there and try to enjoy it. if everything's meaningless, that means you just have to make your own meaning. fuck i sound pretentious right now, but i'm drunk and think im right

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>>30110077
>tfw trip dubs
>tfw I love my dad

>>30110097
everybody has ways to cope, religion gives some people hope, organized religion is cunts i agree but if it works then it works m8

>>30109116
Bad. I really hate how Memorial Day has degraded into retail stores pushing product, car sales, furniture sales, and worst yet, "Happy Memorial Day".

Memorial Day is not supposed to be happy. It isn't about pushing products or getting the best deal on a new TV.
"Memorial Day is a federal holiday in the United States for remembering the people who died while serving in the country's armed forces."

It's about honoring and remembering service members who literally gave their life in the line of duty, who made the ultimate sacrifice and don't get to come home and enjoy the sales on TV's and sit around a BBQ, but instead come home in a flag draped box.

>>30110118
Yeah anon that's cool and all but why the fuck aren't there any VP9 sales today

>>30110110
I'm not disagreeing with religious belief and I would fight to the death to defend their right to it. However, it often seems like they are trying to scoop up people when they are at their lowest, and that is wrong on so many levels.

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Not well.

>got new job last month which turned out to be terrible and I have to commute 2 and a half hours a day
>pay sucks but it's full time
>decide to treat myself to a new gun to ease the pain
>gun turns out to be shit
>car has been riding funny all week
>during inspection of car today I find out that the tires have been severely damaged and need replacement ASAP
>$600 down the drain
>all the good tire shops are closed till Tuesday and need to special order the tires which won't get here for days
>wondering if I should get a rental car or gamble with a blowout

Could be worse.

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>>30110138
Because fuck you the vp9 is shit

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>>30109340
Storytime on the stabbing and kevlar bashing?

>>30109223
Lucky you. always remember your first. have fun and shoot straight, anon.

>>30110077

kek. if I was 25 and still living at home like in the webm, my dad would be doing a jig around my corpse.

>>30110140
hence organized religion is cunts, but the best way to introduce someone to a foreign concept is to take them to a place that studies that concept. it's a really shitty method, and morally bankrupt and probably just an attempt to make money off of depressed people, but it cant be helped

you'd be hardpressed to catch me in a church, but i'd consider myself a christian.

>>30110044
>have no idea where anything has landed until I pick up the spotting scope.

It doesn't happen with every shot, you'll get that 1%er that you know is perfect as soon as it goes. I think it happens when you get the figure 8 as tight as it's going to be and the shot goes exactly at the point that you want it to go, and you know it's perfect.

I'm more comfortable with irons than with optics, because I'd been shooting for 5 years before I ever even looked through a scope. I'm more accurate with optics, but happier with irons.

>>30110097
>>30110140
The guy you replied to here. I think you're looking at this from the wrong way. It is my (correct) belief that Christ is the way to salvation. I say this not for my benefit, not for the Church's benefit, but for this anon's benefit. If a man is without God, he is truly lost. I am trying to guide him to accepting God into his life.

If you look at it from my perspective, God is the all powerful and all loving creator of mankind and the universe. I do not wish to argue theology on /k/, but if God's children turn away from Him, they are hurting themselves. It is like walking away from a warm room with a fire out into the snow. The fire still burns, but you're slowly freezing to death. Such as it is with life. A life without God is a painful dreary pointless numbness.

Just trying to help anon. And you, if you aren't a Christian.

>John 3-16: For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.

>>30109226
nice shooter, anon. i got a stevens 311d, a side-by-side. my dad gave it to me and i love it. it is badly in need of some deep cleaning/repair. too many light primer strikes. have fun shooting

>>30110176
Well yeah, I'm 24 and don't live at home

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Holding up alright.

Inna Desert. 1 Year PCS. 3/12 Months down. Got alot of projects in the works back home. BM59 Kit Build, a SIG 510-4 and an STG-57 to go with, both off at a builder... An AK-55 getting the receiver (front sub w/ selector marks intact) rewelded. First Milled AK in the Collection.

Got three of those CETME L Kits, one with the scope mount. Don't know what to do for Receivers. Got three flats from Prexis but the builder I was talking to won't touch them. Says they're way too hard to work with.

Mountain of Retro AR/M16 Parts on order from Nodak for future builds. Lot of money going out. Dad's in a Commie State but doing what he can to help out. Got some friends from my old Base helping out, too. Gotta get as much as I can for the Collection this year. Don't want to think about it, but I feel like I need to get "Ready for Hillary." Really depressing.

Doing some cool stuff out here. But it sucks sometimes. Have a smelly roommate who snores. His alarm is a chorus of children shrieking "Good Morning". Scares the fuck out of me every morning.

Still saving alot of money. Should have $21K saved up by the time I'm done out here. And that's after all of the money going to parts/kits/builds. TSP's cranked up to 40% of Base Pay, too.

Tomorrow's my birthday. Going to be 26. My subordinates are as old as my little sister. I feel old. Can't talk to women in anything other than a professional or friendly manner. Ugly as sin, too. I know I'm going to die alone. At least I'll have more weapons than most.

PCSing to Germany after this 1-Year. That's the reward. Should be cool. Won't be shooting anything over there. Beyond pictures. Got myself a Canon EOS Rebel T5 before I came out here. Going to travel Europe and photograph as many battlefields and museums as I can cover in three years.

Kind of nervous about language issues. I used up all of my skill points on English. My Folks think Muslims will kill me over there. Should be interesting.

>>30109751
i'm happy for you and i mean it. happy shooting anon.

Im not

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>>30110235
tfw

>>30110185
I was born into a family of atheists and became a Christian while I was in a Christian private school, but stopped once I was old enough to recognize the indoctrination tactics they had employed on us. Absolutely deplorable.
>A life without God is a painful dreary pointless numbness
You believe you have something better after you die, and I believe I have nothing after it. I have more reason than you to defend my rights and live my life to its fullest than you do. You can cower in the dirt and allow your rights trampled, and all you need to is believe in your God.
I fear and detest the man who believes he knows what is best for me, that's fascist shit right there and I won't have any of it.
I have always sought a sign of God, I have read the word of the Bible, and I have prayed on many occasions, but I have yet to see anything, meanwhile those who are already firm believers seem to receive signs regularly.

>>30109883
Good luck DLI-bro. I flunked out at 15 weeks in Urdu and was swapped to Contracting.

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>>30109662
Cmon man killing yourself over this would be fucking stupid. You have the ability to solve all of your problems. I'm 26 and gainfully employed now but I was a NEET from 21-24; I know how shitty and demoralizing it is to feel like you're going nowhere and disappointing everybody, and I'm also familiar with how retarded employers can be when it comes to hiring people who actually need a goddamn job. BUT this problem isn't an insurmountable one by any means. If I can do it, you definitely can, because I guarantee you I was way more autistic and far less functional than you are even right now.

Remember that the first thing you need to do is get a job. Yeah, duh, super helpful obvious advice I know, but if you're ever overwhelmed and unsure of what to focus on, getting some structure and financial independence is your #1 priority. You *are* capable of this, you've done it before multiple times, and you have a solid work history with (as far as I can tell) no terminations or burnt bridges or anything. It's gonna make you feel a lot better and a lot more confident to have some money coming in, even if you're sucking the McDick for it. You're not committing to a career and you can always quit later so don't forget to be open to shitty options.

$2k sounds like a lot of money but it's not a death sentence of debt; a lot of people in our generation have $30k+ in debt with no hope of paying it off, so you're light years ahead of them. Focus on getting employed first but if you have the option of consolidating your debt onto a lower-interest credit card definitely go for it.

And as far as the weight goes, it's gonna be so much easier to make time to work out when you have more of a set schedule. If you can, get in the habit of it now, but again just focus on one step at a time.

It's like running uphill; you're gonna feel way shittier if you're looking at the top the whole time. We turn our lives around one piece at a time. See pic related.

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>no friends, no social life and legitimately don't care
>no future, 21 years old and started working at a dead end job I quit a year ago
>life revolves around shooting and buying things for my guns
>suck terribly at shooting, can't group for shit with rifles and don't know how to properly get a zero on them
>been shooting for five years and still suck with pistols
>hitting the center of the target at 7 yards recently with a new handgun I bought was the happiest I've been in years
>slowly started to realize I'm incompetent in everything I do and always see beginners pick things up faster than me and do better than me

I just want to be able to say I'm good at something without having to lie to myself. I literally am not good at a single thing in my life and never had been.

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>>30109116
>Just graduated with a MS in Biotechnology
>Applying for jobs now
>unemployed for 3 weeks now and feeling pretty shitty
>Some callbacks but only phone interviews
>Shit, I thought it wouldn't take this long...I've been looking since January
>Running out of money if I don't find a job soon I'll have to move back home at 25 until I find a job in my field.
>Don't wanna move far away but many of the good jobs are in liberal shithole gun grabber states

>Think I wanna dump my girlfriend of 2 years but she's in love with me and I don't want to hurt her.

Also generally depressed because I'm a faggot I guess and I waste so much time on the 4chain and vidaya. I crave discipline in my life.

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>>30109116
Lost my big toe about a week ago.
I got it stiched back on but I may lose the top half.
I'm hoping to keep most of it but we'll see.

>>30109317
The whole reason you are scared shows how much you care anon remember that.

>>30110247
I used to be like you anon. You reject the Holy Spirit as I once did. You think yourself smart for running yourself around in circles crying out that there is no God, for allowing Satan to deceive you into shutting Him out of your heart. You have your reasons, I'm sure, I could tell you they are wrong but it won't have any difference.

But don't get in the way of another person's soul being saved.

I'll pray for the both of you by the time tonight is through. Hopefully one day you'll see. The truth is the only thing there is. Many paths lead to the truth, but there is only one truth.

But like I said, I don't want to debate theology on /k/ and it's like 2 am already, so I won't be replying back.

>>30110138
>but why the fuck aren't there any VP9 sales today

I saw 9mm VP9's going for ~$520 shipped at PSA a week or two ago.

>>30110284
>tfw always mediocre at everything I do, after a short span of thinking I'm a fucking master at it
My life is a continuous disappointment.

>with women, the two I've been with, I get extremely close, but it always goes sour, and is never even something I did, and I'm liable to never find something like the last one I've had again
God hates me. I've begun to just resign to that fact.

>>30110288
>tfw have an internship that will line up as a job if I play my cards right
>could very easily lose my girlfriend to things outside of my control

S...Swap positions with me... If I can just be employed enough to support us with kids, I don't care what it is... I just don't want to lose her ;-;

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Meh. Nothing particularly great but nothing awful either. Life goes on.

>>30110305
Thanks, anon. I've dumped how I feel in some capacity a couple of times, and I know it hit her. This afternoon as this was going on, I got a text notification after a long one I sent that said "Jesus Christ you're too fucking.....", and I opened it fearing my heart being crushed, and it ended with "good for me".

I just want to see her in person for the first time in several weeks. I think that's part of what's going on. I just need to see her, and can't, her being a couple hours away. She's all I've ever wanted. I'm not even a sperglord, I've been told plenty that I'm handsome, I have a lot going for me in life, and I treat her amazingly. I think she knows, but I don't know. It's probably genetic. My mother takes anxiety drugs through prescription, and even my grandmother was on Valium when it first came out for anxiety. I'm a very anxious and worrisome guy. She's a smart girl, who knows what's best for her, and honestly, I am what's best for her. She just has things she needs to get past...

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Finally landed a great job. Making good money. Getting ready for the coming war in the U.S. when the leftist cultural Marxists try and riot nationwide when God Emperor Trump wins and starts mass deportations of 10-20 million illegal alien criminals and we start rounding them up and sending them packing back across the Rio Grand.

>>30109662
If it makes you feel any better, I'm living with a friend, his girlfriend, and his mom. I'm working a job making $10/hour, and I could be making $12/hour in about 15 years(not exaggerating). Oh, I also have nearly $6000 in cc debt because I have no self control and love guns.

I'm pretty happy, Im finishing up a 300blk pistol build(that I have been using only cash for, no credit cards) and after that I'm spending whatever money I don't need on ammo, groceries, or bills, on my debt. By my calculations, I should be able to have it paid off in less than 18 months. While I hate being in debt, it has definitely been a good lesson in finances and credit card usage.

>>30109116
3 days ago i was at the lowest I have ever been in my life, and now I feel clearer and happier than I have before for atleast a year. All the same problems are still there but I've come to terms with some real internal shit and now they just arent getting to me like they were last week and its all thanks to one really good friend and some really quality mdma

>>30110199
I just had a thought. Is there anything against making a parts kit from a captured gun for take home and destroying the receiver?

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>>30110360

> paying interest on credit card debt

What a great goy you are!

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>>30110383
Getting the parts back, out of Country, would be the hard part, I think. They're pretty careful about what you send home.

Frankly, I'm thinking more about acquiring some "Deacts" over in Germany. The only part that gets rekt is the Bolt. The face is milled off at a 45 degree angle. Rest of the parts are intact. Almost a complete parts kit.

Some rare stuff over there. Hungarian AMP-69's... Russian RPKS's... stuff like that. Figuring, I hack the barrel and receiver up, demil and ship the parts back a few at a time, I'll good golden. Would just have to replace the Bolt.

>>30109116
>friends were all busy/out of state
>fuck it
>be all alone up at family lake house because monday is a paid day off for me and I have no vacation days
>wasn't even really looking forward to this but I just wanted to get out of the city and get some seclusion before going back to work/college
>wake up at 1pm
>fry a steak because no grill
>drink 8 cans of beer for some reason
>shot of captain morgan mixed into a glass of soda
>get rediciously drunk
>try to lay out in the sun and get some color
>rains
>turn on tv, find movie
>pass out at 8
>wake up still partly intoxicated but not nearly as fucked up
>4 messages on voice mail
>mom started calling at 9pm
>thought I went into the lake alone and drowned
>call her immediately and calm her
>apologize for letting her get worried, phone's ring is very quiet/cant hear outside of the living room
>she calms down
>glad she didnt call the cops. I'm in the middle of buttfuck nowhere so I doubt they'd even get here anytime soon
>2 am rolls around
>still intoxicated but manageable, swear I'll never drink again
I've never drank this much. I brought a fuck 30 pack of pabst blue ribbon thinking I'd want to have extra left over. I still taste it on my throat and it's making me cringe. considering cooking hamburgers but I probably shouldn't do that with this shit still in my stomach. I basically drank my weekend away but I don't mind, it's better than wasting it on vidya or something.
>tomorrow going to cookout near my mom's house, promised to go because of the whole "I thought you drowned thing"
>cook hamburgers on the grill with dad after

>>30110448
>turned 21 a month ago
>brother and family keep urging me to get a drink whenever we go out to eat
>always politely refuse and they still order something for me
>tell them and everyone that offers me a drink that I don't drink
>secretly want to try it but feel like I'll get addicted and just drink in my room alone since I know myself and how little self control I have

Once or twice I look at the alcohol section whenever I go to publix but that's it.

>>30110434
I'm imagining being that guy with a hacksaw and a list of things to acquire now. I'll have to make friendly with some shop guys and the people that containerize things. Shouldn't be too hard as Contracting.

>>30110385
I've actually transfered $2500 of that debt to a card that has no interest for 12 months, I plan to have that paid off before it starts collecting interest.

Believe me, I've learned the error of my ways now. The funny thing is that at first, I was sure to have everything payed off during the grace period, so I wouldn't pay interest. But of course eventually I was like "well what's $200, I really want this thing", then it was $300 and then $500 and $700. Now, here I am.

>>30110360
>(that I have been using only cash for, no credit cards)
Shit like this is why poor people stay poor. Spending cash (on luxuries) that could have gone towards paying off that debt is exactly the same as borrowing the equivalent amount.

>>30109662
>>30109266
>>30109182
I used to have my ons and offs with depression starting at 15. Considered killing myself when I was 16. I'm pretty reclusive and I hate relying on people. I'm 18 now and I kinda just got over the whole "suicide is the way to go" thing. Getting a job sucks (been working since 16) and going to college sucks (1st year done) but it's all about getting it over with. The only way to keep yourself going is to set steep goals to look forward to. I suppose just ending it would be easier but eventually things turn around. Depression is just a chemical imbalance that you can fix with a diet and some social interaction.

>>30109172
>working a deadend job
>apply to different jobs for a year straight
>get nothing
>tell my boss to go fuck herself
>low on cash, low on morale
>see job app online for package loader
>app literally accepted immediately because the job has a 50% washout rate
>accepted directly after interview
>inna union now
>stand around throwing boxes into trucks while chuckling with buddies

you just get lucky, man.

How do you even get into credit card debt in the first place? Maybe it's because I'm Jewish but the concept is legitimately completely foreign to me. Just don't spend money you don't have.

>>30110481

And here I am wondering if I will be able to pay off the $1.8k in debt by the end of September before the interest rate kicks in.

remember to always keep your balance paid off in the future and to never exceed 30% of your available credit if need be.

>>30109116
>Got out of the Muhreens a few months ago
>Moved home to South Florida
> No friends
>No place to shoot, except shitty indoor ranges
>any /k/omrades in South Florida
>I just want to Swamper8

>>30110486
I know I'm not good at making good financial decisions, but if I don't have something to look forward too, like finishing this pistol, then I end up impulse buying other useless shit I don't need. Believe me, I know paying off this debt should come first, and I'm still making decent payments in it. But I'm trying to put limits on my impulse buying, and if I make credit cards off limits, then I can't add to the debt.

Once I have these cards payed off, I plan on just keeping one that I'll pay off before interest kicks in, for groceries, bills, and gas, to collect the reward points. And other than that, I'm going to start saving all the money I can. I'm going to try to make saving money my goal, to see how much I can save in as little time as possible.

>>30110532

emergencies for reasonable people. retarded people just lose track of their spending.

however, you should never not use credit cards because credit score is a huge part of life. you just have to be extremely careful.

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>>30109149
normally I'd talk shit about a response like that but god damn if I aint jealous of that voltage float

>>30110476
honestly alcohol addiction must be genetic. I have a long line of irishmen in my family history. I was the first one of my friends to start drinking but I never did it regularly. If you're afraid of getting hooked just start with a liter bottle of bourbon. Alcohol is an aquired taste over time. The first liquor I drank was bacardi selects and I gagged like a taiwanese ladyboy.

Oh and being buzzed is fun, being drunk is not. Just trust me now. The hickup shit is the worst. I was so afraid that I was gonna pass out drunk and vomit to death that I took an ice shower and it fucking sucked. I fucking rampaged my liver today though

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>>30109149
>>30110553
At first I was thinking you meant you literally made a mtn dew float in the air. Then I realized you meant an ice cream float.

>>30110562
>Oh and being buzzed is fun, being drunk is not. Just trust me now.

I've never been to a party or anything but I look down on people who can't control themselves and go past their limit. I want to try something like a small shot of vodka or get buzzed just once though.

>>30110576
get yourself a bottle of captain morgan original or some generic coconut rum and mix it with doctor pepper or diet coke.

Oh and dont mix the rum half and half with the soda. Not even 1/4th if you don't want to stumble

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I went to a memorial day party last night, got super drunk with my childhood best friend and talked about politics all night. I'd feel pretty good if I wasn't hungover and shitting myself from hops consumption (this is why I normally drink liquor, not beer).

>>30110576
Are you a mormon bro? Get a drink.

>>30110185
I've been "without God" and have done pretty fucking well with a family full of degenerates and people trying to drag me down. I don't hate Christianity or anything, but I've gone 22 fucking years without some divine intervention or some shit that people keep talking about.

I also believe religions are largely a means for people to cope with the fact that life is short and potentially there is nothing waiting at the end. Everyone I ever loved, met, knew, and everyone they ever loved met and knew will mean nothing. It would throw soft people into depression and likely suicide, where as if they think there is an end goal then cool.

I try to live a moral lifestyle, but I'm yet to feel any sort of God. Ever.

>>30109116
I'm still going to university and I still have no idea what i want to do with my life
trying to study for the Foregin Service Officer exam this month
>expecting to fail due to my lack of "leadership experience"
I go shooting every other day

>>30110576
It can honestly be pretty fun. I've had my fair share of getting black out drunk. But if it's your first time, and don't wanna get wasted, try drinking about 1.5oz of ethanol relatively quickly. Take 150 and divide it by the alcohol percentage rating. Vodka is typically 80 proof which is 40% ethanol, so take 150/40=3.75oz. So you would need to drink 3.75oz of 80 proof/40% alcohol.

I know that may seem kinda autismy, but if your anything like me, you like to know numbers behind the doses of drugs you take. Although I didn't give two shits when I was first trying alcohol with friends. If your just drinking beer, just drink one every 30-45 min and try to keep track of how messed up you are.

>>30110671
>your first drink should be ethanol
So where in Russia are you from, friend?
also
>doing math when you're going to start drinking
no. Buy a 6 pack of sam adams or a bottle of southern comfort if you want to start drinking. Start cheap and see what you can tolerate

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>>30109266
>be 18
>go to university to pursue a degree in vidya design
>holyfuckwhatamidoing.gif
>drop out 6 months in
>find a job in 2 weeks.
>pretty alright, working retail, life is looking up, get a gf
>want to pursue my lifelong dream of joining the Aussie Army
>get rejected by psyche eval because im "not socially adaptable enough and i should work on expanding my social circle"
>bitch, i just want to shoot shitskins and give my best years to my country
>12 month block put on application, have to wait till december
>lose job in feb, business goes bust
>gf leaves me
>dropped from 115kg to 79kg since August
>slowly getting into shape, but cant afford gym
>jobhunting leading nowhere, December is coming soon.

>still want to join the army to give the best years i have to my country instead of pissing them away working at fucking Woolworths

>>30110731
>Aussie
>and give my best years to my country

Now, why would you want to do that?

>>30110271
The labels on that graph are shit. what is the data even supposed to represent? c'mon people.

not well


mental health is deteriorating

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>>30110688
Like I said, it's pretty autismy. I didn't give a fuck when I first started drinking. But just in case he would like to know the numbers, I figured I'd give him a stating point. Although he can't really go wrong with just a six pack.

Also I live in Missouri comrade. Muh budlight.

>>30110298
oh fuck

>>30110744
probably a misplaced sense of patriotism and a never ending wank over the Marine Corps.

I just really like my country and i want to give back to it.

that's not a bad thing, a dumb thing, but not a bad thing?

>>30110542
what part of soflo lad?

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>>30110632
Agnostic here too

Actually religion is based in evolution and facts. Consider the Jews being able to survive the black plague in Europe because their laws were very pro hygenic. Because we repeat history religion was put into place to keep us from making the same mistakes. Even religion itself has evolved from paganism to a more simple and stable monotheistic lifestyle.

Honestly the atheist based argument of "religion because you can't handle the truth" is failing because the atheist movement as a whole is a huge irony because all though they preach that atheism breaks you free from the shackles of religion, yet a majority of them want more government control (including gun) and deny basic statistics that don't agree with their left agenda.

Religion has never been a fall back or something to depend on for your existential crisis. Even in the past, where we think everyone was a religious nut job there were entire countries that had not adopted a faith and it was not because their people complained about life after death but the people's actions that forced a country to adopt a religion. We have been fine in dealing with the stresses of life without religion, we adopted religion because it was needed and we make the mistake of throwing it away until we realize why we need it. Not for spiritual growth or possible answers to life's greatest questions, no it's because the worst faggots are born from the lack of it and they always run the country into the fucking ground. I don't know why this is maybe sociology can find a way to prevent from needing religion and stopping the great faggot plague.

>>30109116
Recently got medically discharged from the air force for depression and suicidal tendencies. It was my own damn fault though. No luck with the job hunt so far. Honestly I just feel intense self hatred and misanthropy with a little depression mixed in. I don't really feel happy anymore. I mean, there are times when I'm not upset, but I don't think I've actually felt happy in months. I think about suicide a lot, but I don't even have the guts to kill myself, which just makes me hate myself even more. The one thing I have to look forward to is the fact that I'm still getting payed by the air force. It'll probably take two months but it will be about 1.3 grand. I'm planning on using some of that to buy an SKS, but I can't really buy guns with my current living situation. So, even that doesn't really make me remotely happy. I literally spend all day reading or on my computer, when I'm not exercising. Which fucking sucks too because it used to make me feel good and now its just another chore. I don't even know what to feel anymore. Oh well, at least I have a bed to sleep in and food to eat. A job would be nice to. I applied to a survival gear store, and got an interview, hopefully that goes well, but it's been almost a week since the interview and they haven't called me, so probably not. Oh well, it doesn't really matter I guess. I just typed a huge paragraph that none of you are going to take the time to read... Sorry about that.

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>Tooth hurts
>Homeless in Commifornia
>A lady freaked out on me today when I was cleaning my g29 in my car and I had to dissuade her from calling the cops
>no food until the 3rd
>sleeping in my car tonight
Life is shit

>>30110876
stop

It doesn't matter if you're right, this isn't hte place for it

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>>30109116
>hard to sleep
>even harder to wake up
>might lose my job over it

>>30110914
This is how I cope, and this is our safe space queer.

>>30110911
you werent parked outside of a home or a bank, were you?

>>30110911
I'd buy you some cheeseburgers if I could anon.

>>30110481

Honestly, I was hoping you'd say some or all of it was interest-free, like my debt. Still ran my credit score into the ground

>>30110945
Nope. I was parked in a parkinglot that isn't used regularly next to some hiking trails at the back of a canyon. She had just got done with a hike apparently and luckly she didn't have cell reception. I just told I had all my permits and I wqs just doing some basic maintenance cleaning like you'd do on a car. She asked why I was out so far and I told her I was a regular on the trail there. The whole thing felt weird

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>22
>still working at dead end job
>at least I got a car and enough money for guns and stuff
>no gf
>still living at home with parents
they struggle to pay the bills so it's not likely I can leave anytime soon
>living a decent life, can't really complain
>feel like I'm missing something though, have no real direction, don't know what to do with my life
At least this thread made me feel better about my situation. Keep pushing on bros.

>currently have felony charges
>friends are holding my guns and stuff
>they're getting damaged from moisture because I was sent a picture of the wood on one bleaching white
>mom is selling the house so I have to move
>can't go with her, so have to find my own place
>on essentially house arrest for my bail so can only go out 4 hours a week
>work a shitty job, but it pays decent
>not sure how I'm supposed to take care of myself with only 4 hours outside my front door a week
>family is starting to hate me because I've decided not to sell off everything I own to fund the court and lawyer fees
>work 10-7 and have an hour drive each way so never have any time to do anything
>slowly slipping into depression

I know it's nowhere near as bad as some of the other people here, but it's starting to eat away at me

I'm not sure where I'm supposed to go or what I'm supposed to do anymore

>>30110946
Thanks m8
It's the thought that counts

>>30110986
forgot
>mom stays at guy she's dating's place all the time
>takes my sisters with her
>brother moved out a month ago
>feeling increasingly lonely

>>30110986
>felony charges
What happened?

>>30110434
Bad news anon, there's a new deactivation standard. It's Britbong tier now (everything welded in place)

>>30109116
>have ok job working on a farm fixing machinery and handling sales
>used to handling new client business in oil/gas
>get to agriculture job and treat it the same way I did fracking
>accounts are handled via credit
>tell boss ways to shut down the credit bureau types and advance regardless
>making money telling rubes how to make money off their land outside of crop yields and energy.
>suddenly come upon my ex at little brother's graduation (ex's brother graduated with him)
>see ex, with her husband and her child
>she looks happy for a bit saying hi to family friends
>see that look of misery and "what could have been" when she isn't surrounded by her mom's friends
>think to myself "things could've been better if shit didn't go sideways"
>stomach it, realize she's a mother now with a husband, and avoid her.
>she still looks good and I am more concerned with trying to get home to wish little brother good luck and skip the girl I almost married.


It's strange.

>>30111003
got in with the bad crowd, made some bad decisions
Don't really want to go into it

It's up in the air right now whether I'll get convicted or not
Have to see what my lawyer can do in court

>>30110907
The worst part is it only gets worse from here. I have a 2500 dollar student debt I have to start paying in 20 days. Only one of my friends actually talks to me. The rest are too busy with their lives to hear about mine. I'm lonely and desperate as fuck but have no romantic skills or redeeming qualities. And I can't legally buy alcohal for another year and a half. Oh well. It feels good to talk about it i guess.

>>30110907
Did you call them back?
Calling them will remind them that you're interested

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>>30110907
I read it. Got anyone/thing to fall back on, anon? It sounds like AF just kicked you and threw some money at you. Is it really like that? What did you do, maybe you can find a job involving that.

>>30110957
My credit isn't all too good. A while back I was living in another state with a few friends and one of their family, I got a media/internet package with them in my name, and when I left, I forgot to cancel it. The equipment never got returned and a $1200 bill never got paid. It really wasn't their fault, as I never told them, and never contacted the company.

Along with that, and my credit utilization being around 55-60% put my credit around 650. Other than those two issues, my record is perfect, not a single late payment with 5 credit cards.

I'm hoping to get the credit utilization down to 0% withing a year and half, and the delinquent mark on my credit should be gone in 4.5 years. I've actually paid $250 towards one of the several collection agencies that have contacted me about media bill. I might pay it off eventually, but I'm pretty pissed about the media company not contacting me about the equipment not being returned before they turned it over to a collection agency. Fuck those cocks, it was Mediacom before anyone asks.

>>30111040
I went into the store and had a quick chat with them but there were a fuckton of customers and I didn't want to waste time. My dad says I should've talked for longer and asked more questions but I kind of felt like an asshole for holding up business.

>>30111061
Go back
Get that job
If they have the time and customers aren't waiting on them to check them out, talk to them

>>30111061
I had to check back in person almost every day for a job bagging at a Kroger affiliate. Keep bothering them and let them know you want it.

>>30111052
I did some stupid shit during my 4th week of BMT so I didn't even have an actual fucking job. I'm pretty pissed at myself about it. But it doesn't matter now. And yeah, I kind of have a fallback. My dad can help with my loan and is going to take me to a temp agency if the survival store doesn't work out. But I have pretty bad anxiety so I still obsessively worry about stupid shit. Which just makes me even more mad at myself. it's a vicious cycle. Thanks for reading though.

>go to Hawaii for vacation
>all I want to do is Pearl Harbor
>"anon it's just some ships why would you want to see that"
>they drag me to a fucking luau
>get back to hotel
>laptop is FUBAR
>totally unsalvageable
>"sorry anon I guess they used it as a wheel chock haha"
>laptop had all my time killing shit on it
>now all I have is phone
>past 5 days have been stupid tourist bullshit and I won't be able to do Pearl Harbor
>on our once in a lifetime vacation
>probably will never see it now
Just fuck my shit up

>>30111072
>>30111079
I'll probably head back in there tuesday and talk to them again. Thanks for the motivation guys.

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>>30111017

Vagina will not be firing out of the barrel of your Norinco MAK-90 when the cultural marxists rise up and attempt to overthrow our god emperor Trump when he mass deports tens of millions of illegal alien criminals.

You will be needed for the happening brother. Prepare and put away thoughts of comfort and happiness, horror blood and death roll through our lands soon.

harden your heart and prepare to do what is gruesome...but necessary.

Your nation calls upon you in the name of the hundreds of thousands of American soldiers who fought and died before you, now it is your time to ante up and pay the bill.

Prepare for all out warfare soon S.T.A.L.K.E.R.

>>30111086
Who are you with that you can go see the harbor? Tell them to go fuck themselves and go see it yourself.

>>30111095
In the words of the great LaBeouf, "Just do it. Don't let your dreams be dreams."

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>>30110907
>>30111027
I read your story anon. I would recommend doing what >>30111040 said and contacting them. Other than that, just apply for whatever job you would like to have, and if that doesn't work, apply for whatever job you could tolerate.

I cant really say more than that, just force yourself to keep on keeping on.

>>30109116
Grandpa died yesterday. He was pararescue in nam. Feels bad.

>>30111105
Can't do that, no money for the tour bus thing. I am fucking stuck here. I don't even have a military ID (well I do, but it's the MWR one) so I can't get onto Ford Island. 5 more days of this hell. God fucking dammit.

>>30111115
Can't you walk or take a taxi?

>>30111095
Make sure to talk to a manager type as well, something like "Just checking on my application."

>>30111120
this

Find a manager and ask if they've made any decisions on whether to hire you or not

>>30111113
Did you get to hear any stories?

>>30111108
>>30111111
Yeah, I don't think I'm gonna give up just yet. I've still got some fight left in me. I just need to figure some shit out in my head and in my life. Thanks for reading and the motivation. I'm gonna go try to fall asleep

>>30111118
Could do a taxi but it's money I don't have and its a 2 hour walk. I looked.
I guess I'll never see Pearl Harbor.
And I don't have the ~700 bucks for a decent laptop since they won't get me a replacement one and the airline doesn't give a fuck.
Hold me /k/

>>30111142
>Could do a taxi but it's money I don't have and its a 2 hour walk. I looked.
>I guess I'll never see Pearl Harbor.

see>>30111108

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It sounds like a lot of people are in pretty sorry shape around here right now. Things may be looking bad, but realistically many of these problems are fixable in the long run, and even those scars can heal with time and a little love. If you feel like life is in the dumpster, then start making a list.

It sounds cliche, but it really helps. You want to make your life worth living again, right? Write a numbered list of the things that are bothering you, starting with the small stuff, like leaky faucets and that dirty look someone gave you on the street. Then move onto the bigger stuff, like debt, or someone you lost, or even uncertainty about the future. It may hurt to write this down, but it's completely natural and is part of the process of getting better.

Then I want you to get another sheet of paper, and make another list. Start with the first numbered item, and write down a series of steps to fix the problem. Stuff like 'tighten the bolts under the sink', and work your way through everything on that list. Once you've outlined the process, start following each step from the top. Start small, and gain momentum. This won't be easy, but remember that it's worth doing in the end. Every time you complete a step, draw a big ole' line through that one, and move onto the next. You can't control everything in life, but this list can certainly help. By the time you get to that big bad last problem on the list, you might just realize that you had the strength to get there the whole time

>>30111142
>>30111148
>2 hour walk

Do it. Walk and attend as a /k/ pilgrimage. It's gonna be Memorial Day. If there were ever a day to do it, it's then.

I think the thread is about to hit post limit but whatever.
I've basically come to realize I'm mentally ill. I've been frustratingly dealing with gender dysphoria for quite a while now. I was always /different/ but never gave it much thought until semi recently in my life. Between classes at college and work, it becomes increasingly hard to keep my mind from thinking about it. I go through almost a thousand rounds every week because the only reprieve I get from thinking about my issues is working at improving myself at handgun shooting. It's a challenging skill that produces gratification and tangible results from constant practice. But the costs add up.
That feel when can't distract myself at the range at 4am.
I don't know who I am anymore. I don't know where my life is heading. I've never faced a problem that I couldn't work through given enough time and effort except this. I could probably afford a therapist if I didn't shoot so god damn much but it's therapeutic in itself. Instead of thinking about my identity and my body while going about my day, I can think about my recent range trip and things I can try improve and how.
And I know /k/ hates people like me, and if any of the local people who share my hobby knew the kind of person I was, they'd probably hate me too.

In higher education, No job. No funs britbong, most likely failing my IT course, and I've spent the last week and a half in a permanent state of mostly baked. My life's falling apart, I go home to a cold lonely bed and I don't even have guns to have fun with (I could easily apply for a SGC, but I just don't have the money)

>>30111166
You know what, you're right. Fuck it.
Gonna be one motherfucker of a day of walking but I am going to see me a goddamn battleship if it fucking kills me.

>>30111127
Yeah, he got a silver star and purple heart
>plane gets downed
>pararescue gets called
>helos spot two pilots running from gooks
>come down
>he jumps out to grab em before the slant eyes do
>sprints up to both pilots
>bullets cracking through the clearing
>grabs both pilots
>helo takes off, it was under fire
>run to another clearing
>helo drops a harness
>only 1 harness for 3 dudes
>grandpa staps in, bear hugs two pilots
>gets shot through shoulder, doesnt drop either of em
>helo reels em in
>saves bot pilots, at the expense of ever having fine motor contol on his left side ever again.


He showed up to the VA talking about chest pain, persistent cough with blood, difficulty breathing, and loss of speech.

The quacks at the VA spent 6 months telling him he had pnemonia and it turns out it was lung cancer. By the time he got diagnosed it had already spread to his brain and became terminal.

Fuck the VA.

>>30111176
Good on you anon. Have fun and enjoy the history

>>30111176
You'd better take pictures of your Pearl Pilgrimage.

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Have leave planned to germany, with about 4000 already spent, if they fuck me and send me to tech school I'm going to separate from the service, military is terrible tier.

>inb4 you signed up for it

Still killing me inside though.

>>30111176
That's the spirit!

>>30111168
Explain your problems to me anon

I should go to bed, but I want to hear this

>>30111188
Oh I'll take a shit ton. Probably gonna make a thread tomorrow.

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Well if you think you have it bad just remember there's a natural born mute guy with one testicle who will die alone because his parents have passed away and absolutely no women will find him attractive due to his conditions, he hasn't been hugged or contacted by anyone he loves in years because there's nobody left.

I wake up wanting to die every day, not an hour goes by I don't want to die, but I'm still here.

And if I can make it in life quite literally without a voice and only one ball you sure as shit can make it.

>>30111176
see if you can bum a ride hitch hiking and just tell them all you want is to see Pearl Harbor

It'll also show the cunt of whoever you're with that you actually wanted to fucking see it

Fucking DO IT

>>30109250
Ever thought of buying an onahole?

>>30111191
>tfw my friend was a 68W in the army and got removed early for 'psych' reasons but the fucker was a medic and signed himself like 8 prescriptions so when he got back i met up, pulls out like 8 full prescription bottls of adderal, fucking clonzepams
>mfw thye'd give him 3 clonzies a day gtg

rip army

>>30111197
Ill be watching for it

>>30111198
>natural born mute guy

If you can hear, why cant you talk?
Vocal cords fucked up or what?

>>30111168
Seconded >>30111196

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Finally got over the fact that me and my GF of 4 years broke up and that I lost my best friend along with my relationship.

Then of course at the end of March, I run into an old friend from HS, start hanging out, catch feels after doing some intimate shit, only to have her seemingly completely drop any interest in hanging out with just the two of us. Talked about how I was so attractive etc. only to blow me off and then when I finally tell her I like her how I feel and ask if she still wants to mess around, she says she's no longer interested.

Now I'm sitting here feeling depressed about her and this dry spell is even worse after having her blueball the ever loving shit out of me

So tired of this shit.

>>30111203

I think I'd be happier if I made half as much but had a normal job, the work schedule of being called it whenever they want and never being able to plan anything makes it so I'm stuck as a shutin all the time.

>>30111211
I don't have any chords.

>>30111196
>>30111214
You want me to explain my gender dysphoria? Only asking because Id hate to type it all out on my phone only for you to be asking about something else.

>>30111233
so you pretty much can only make deep grunting sounds then?

That sucks bro

>>30109116
Hate my job but at least I have one.

I have no motivation to do anything beyond what I am asked to do.

All of my friends are on different shifts than I am so we rarely get to hang out. I end up spending most of my weekends in my room drinking, masturbating, and playing video games.

Stuck in Maryland. I hate being here. There's lots of places to eat though which is nice.

Went home recently and reality of the phrase "You can never really go home" finally sank in.

Found out two of my family members are dying of cancer and a third was OD'ed on painkillers while he was in the hospital and had a stroke during the coma it put him in. This was a week before I came home and no one thought telling me ahead of time was a good idea.

I'm not sure what to do with my life. But I'm only 21 so there is still some time to figure it out I suppose.

Really looking forwards to my wizard powers.

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>>30111182
That's some fucking shit man. If it helps, I'll think of him today, as well as in the future. Men like your grandpa are too good to be left to the mercy of the "Just give 'em a Tylenol" quacks.

Next round is for him.

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>>30111246
>gender dysphoria

>>30111248
I can't make any sound.

The only sound I can make is whistling, and that doesn't require chords.

>>30111217
you fucked up by saying shit

here is some medicine, watch them all before talking to another woman you want to fuck
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LPq7CyHqQ2I

>>30111246
what about it is eating at you
Don't just explain the dysphoria, explain why you think it's a problem, why you think you're mentally ill, etc

You're on the long leather couch right now, bud.
Tell me what's up

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>>30109352
Diddo my friend.

Last time I went shooting was months ago, and I never cleaned em even though it was raining. Noticed my Marlin covered in rust a week after and just wrapped it in an oily rag.

Been slipping up at work cause it's been painfully tedious with more meetings then real work because of a merger. Stressed as fuck trying to prove my worth to the new manager as I'm the youngest guy there by almost a decade.

Trying to start a start up with some guys in an effort to make real money and do interesting projects but its just turned into an excuse to take RC stims all day, speak to my live in gf for as little as possible, stay tweaked till 3-4 working on menial tasks, then take some heavy benzos to go to sleep then wake up barely in time for work.

No much time to go /out/ lately which is my stress reliever. Have a bit of a PTSD/schizo shit that I tend to drown in drugs and during a benzo/alcohol binge I proposed to my gf. Not sure what I feel for her now a days, she's put up with my jealousy and episodes more than any girl could , but that wont last long. Found out today I probably knocked her up to cause she missed her shots.

And now I'm bitching on /k/ about shit that isn't related to k at all, to people who don't give a shit, and will rip me apart if they don't just skip this wall of text.

Here's my favorite gun to try and make this bitchy rant k related prolly gonna dip into my savings and go innawoods with some friends, and some old HDDs that need to be "cleaned" to relieve some stress tomorrow.

>>30111300
>she missed her shots
Is your GF a dog or something?

>>30111300
I wasn't going to post, but then you'd think I skipped it
I don't have anything to say other than "you fucked up and need to take responsibility"

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>been unemployed for about a year
>routinely spend $500 on gun parts without even flinching
>able to do this because subconcious thought in your head tells you that it doesn't matter since you'll just kill yourself in a couple of years anyways
>sometimes question why you even conceal carry

Pearl Harbor anon here. It's only midnight but I'll get caught if I leave any sooner.
Probably gonna drink til like 3-4am, sober up, have some Korean bbq, and get walking at like 8am to make Pearl around 10am.
Wish me luck, expect a thread later.

>>30111331
why not just sleep till 8
It's going to suck fucking ass to walk 2 miles on blacktop in the Hawaii heat after drinking and having the whole "same-night hangover"

I am about a 7/10.

>graduated high school 2013
>turned 20 this past February
>spent a good two years and a bit with one girl before it went bad
>split up after our two year anniversary
>dipped into alcohol and drugs, got wild and crazy
>gained a super sweet depression bod though let me tell you
>met an Iraqi girl and I've been with her nearly 2 years
>just quit my job I worked for over a year
>was a senior supervisor making $12.50
>starting with WestJet as a TAC member making $14.70
>have WestJet ID, airport clearances, AVOP and a bunch more certificates now
>travelled a while
>got my drivers license, firearms license and few other certifications
>currently working on my 1977 Mustang II
>still living with parents as I'm waiting to hear it I got accepted into a local technical institute
>have a dedicated circle of close friends
>currently in Newfoundland visiting family
>have a decent line of credit
>unfortunately gained like 40lbs since last summer thanks to beer and no exercise
>girlfriend has serious self esteem and eating issues
>have a nagging desire to move out but know I couldn't afford it and if I did I couldn't go back to school


It's weird. By all accounts I'm doing good, but I miss the post-breakup days where I smoked and drank and just had that really melancholy lifestyle. I don't know why. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy right now but sometimes I long to be in that kind of position again. I'm starting to think it's because you grow so much as a person when you get your heartbroken.

>>30111263
(1/2)
Because its unachievable I guess. More than anything I wish I was just born a girl. I was always the effeminate kid growing up, everyone probably could guess I was gay (i consider myself bisexual, although my sexuality doesn't particular bother me, ot particular matter to me) just from mannerisms and behavior. But as I grew up I basically forced myself to behave more in line with what people expected of boys. I even trained my voice to be deeper. A little while ago, Im not sure when it necessarily started, I just started being more and more distressed every time I would look at myself in a reflection, it's not even like I was out of shape, the opposite in fact. I had lost 40lbs and started working out, began to look more and more toned, my face began to look more masculine, but I hated myself mire and more. Many times I'd see women doing something I'm fond of, like rock climbing/shooting/riding motorcycles, I feel really jealous. At some point it just clicked and I realized what I was feeling. I hated being a man. Absolutely disgusted with the idea, even. Everything seemed like it would be so much more correct if I was just a girl, literally everything from lounging around alone, commuting, to social interaction.
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>>30111344
>>30111263
(2/2)
Sure I could go down that path of taking hormones, I've seen some mind blowingly impressive results from hormone therapy. But it wouldn't be the same.
I wouldn't be a woman. I couldn't live the same life I live now. My friends wouldn't see me the same way, and noone genuinely 'just accepts you as a woman'. You'll always be the person that changed, you'll be the person they know who's trans. How about my family? I'd be lucky if any of them would still speak to me. In the end, even if I somehow completely changed, it would be impossible to live a normal life. Especially one which involved all the friends and family I hold so dearly.
I feel like I'm broken. I shouldn't be this way. It wouldn't be so frustratingly terrifying if I just wasn't like this. Thats why I feel like its an illness.

>>30111338
I really don't feel like bullshitting to my family as to why I'm leaving at 8am and not telling them where I'm going.
Plus with the way my soul is sitting I think alcohol is in order.

It hurts less, less often.

>>30109116
peacefully waiting for the fourth reich... soon

>>30111339
>break up with girl at 18
>get so depressed you get into drugs

Child

>>was a senior supervisor making $12.50

Jesus that's awful

>1977 Mustang II

Ugly

Can't complain but I'm on the crossroads.

I'm 20, near the end of the first year on uni and I came to realize I fucking hate it and don't want to spend my whole life on drawings and theory no matter the pay.Probably going to fail because I have literally no motivation to keep going

I just want to work around actual guns. I'm considering working on a local gun range when I turn 21 (soonest I can get instructor courses and permits in my country) but I know for a fact my parents are going to be dissapointed and call me stupid. I don't care about the pay, I'm humble and don't even want to have a huge gun collection.

>>30111354
Not him, but belittling people is a shitty thing to do in this thread, even if you do have it worse off

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>>30109116
pretty OK
University is pretty much consuming my whole energy right now

trying to get a gf the next year or to
> tfw 21 kissless virgin
I´m trying to change that

eitherway, having enough guns around me
I also got my shotgun back from the GS
so happy time for me

pic related
my gun has those fancy finish tiger stipped wood

>>30111354

Please reread and let me know if you find the word:
>depressed

>ugly
Yes it's fucking ugly and it's a piece of shit, but it's a great time killer and most people my age don't fucking care about cars or knowing how to work on them.

>>30111344
>>30111346
I think you need to talk to a psychologist/therapist

You wish you were a woman, but don't want to become one

There's no option here, so I think you need to try to work through these feelings, or figure out how to cope, or simply how to accept your masculinity and no one here is going to be able to help you with that

A good psychologist isn't that expensive
See if you can find one that does it on a sliding scale based on how much money you make

I know you said you spend a lot on ammo, so you can't be too terribly poor, but see what you can do

Get help, anon
Don't just wallow in sadness

>>30111347
why not just tell them?
Are they against you going or what?

>>30111380
Yeah. They want me to "experience" Hawaii which means dealing with Asians and spending all their time getting wasted off of Mai Tais.
They don't care about Pearl Harbor. They don't trust me on my own or want me to go.
But fuck them. I know how the reservations are, they can't drop my ticket. I'll be okay I guess.

>>30111369
so you did it just because it was fun?

>>30111359
you break up with a lot of people when you're young
It happens
You should never expect to be with women you are with when you're young

Lost my job. Money is starting to run out. I have a supportive GF but I don't want to become a leech. Been applying every fucking where a job opens up. No bites. Not depressed though. I've had enough of that fucking moping. I can't just curl up and bitch out.

On the bright side, watching some fucking kick ass boxers for an elderly couple next week. They get to hang out at my house, and I get paid in advance to watch them. So I'll be playing doom with some puppers. Could be worse, I guess.

>>30111384
So how are you going to get back without them noticing?

>>30111375
I know man

I guess thanks for asking, typing out my thoughts helps flush it out for myself instead of just rolling over hypothetical 'if-only' s in my head. I do wamt to become one, I just don't see the path actually being what I want in the end.
Who knows though. Family distances and dies. Friends often come and go. Maybe I would be happier even after socially starting completely over.

I should see a therapist. Just don't know where to start with that. Thanks again.
I hope you're doing ok anon.

>>30111404
>typing out my thoughts helps flush it out for myself instead of just rolling over hypothetical 'if-only' s in my head

My friend has these problems a lot because he is essentially a social autist, but he's not actually autistic
Its just he way he was raised

Unfortunately he went and got a 2 year degree and moved to bumfuck nowhere making great money

So he's at the point of trying to fix himself, but can't because he's nowhere, and regretting having done all this shit that everyone is telling him he should stick with because the pay is good

>I do wamt to become one, I just don't see the path actually being what I want in the end.

You'll always have the XY chromosome man
You're always going to have that hanging between your legs (huehuehue)

If you finally do go through with it, it's still going to be awkward because imagine having sex
Your dick will still be there
I mean, unless you cut it off, but that's not exactly the solution either

Trying to stick with your family and having that problem is going to be one hell that I wouldn't want to live through

If you can start over socially, you can probably find someone who's cool with a qt trap/trans girl who really cares about the way he/she looks

I'm heavily against trannies, at least for my personal sexuality, but some days I question it because so many trannies want to be women so much, they try so much harder to be one that women do

See what the future brings and move along with it
I don't want you to think about the what ifs all the time, but make sure before you do anything, that you'll be able to handle that fallout

In the end, make sure it's what you want

>I hope you're doing ok anon.

I don't have it so bad in life, but that doesn't mean you don't feel like shit
I put on a strong face so no one sees it

My father killed himself 3 years ago and I tell myself I won't be like him or go out like him, but I'm more like him than I can ever hope to change

He put on a strong face right to the end

>>30111397
I didn't think that far ahead. Probably gonna just chill out until they get drunk as fuck and then slip by.
Didn't really think my pilgrimage out much, did I?

>>30111439
It's always easier to ask forgiveness than ask permission

Just go and come back when you feel like it
Leave a note and say you went to see Pearl Harbor and you'll be back later

>>30111442
That is a much better idea than the whole Korean bbq thing.
Gonna get some sleep. Tomorrow shall be the Pearl Harbor Pilgramage, brought to you by whiskey and bad decisions.

>>30111448
>Gonna get some sleep

Good on you anon
If your parents can't handle it, fuck em

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>>30109208
>fapping to Undertale and Zootopia

>>30111315
No birth control..

>>30111317
Of course I'd take responsibility for my actions, especially the pregnancy part. As I said before I was just bitching about things that were my own damn fault. Just for some reason wanted to tell someone even if it was just some anons on my favorite board

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The good:
>employed with potential for advancement, supporting myself, guns and car
>no debt
>loving parents and 1-2 really good friends from HS

The bad:
>chronic stress fractures for pretty much a year now making it impossible to run, lift, dance, hike seriously, etc.
>now in a boot but not sure if it'll help
>depressed, tfwnogf and no prospects
>constantly feel like a loser
>worried about my field becoming obsolete

It's a mixed bag.

my abusive, alcoholic father finally got sober and for the last month has been trying to make things right. its been nice being around him and seeing him sober. they called in hospice 2 weeks ago. they dont even have an estimated time frame for him.

>>30109266
>TFW also neveremployed (M.E.) degree-holder living with parents at 26
College was a mistake.
>>30109927
I've actually been thinking about trying for USCG. I don't suppose a fuckup like me has a shot at being an officer, do I?

>>30112282
Your father deserves to die and I want you to know that

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I feel alright, but dissatisfied. I am at a great position, got a job through famillial connections (Uncle wanted me to work for him, now I'm working full time in a screw shop until school starts), I get paid $120 a week, but I'm also still living with my brother and mother. At the same time, I'm upset of being stuck in highschool due to difficulty of speaking languages in generals, especially speaking English as a second language (Fuck Asperger's). Due to those reasons I got held back, I'm suppose to be in a university and here I am dealing with the liberal bullshit of younger teens and their foolishness. I'm now worried that getting into the army will be a much harder challenge in PT (Thanks, Obama). I'm a manlet of 5' 8", weighing 174-175 pounds (Slightly overweight in the scale) and having difficulty shedding the pounds despite my maintenance and physical activity. To this date I wanted to work and be like my grandfather in the military, I gotta pay his grave a visit and give him respect.

>>30109491
>I start on Tuesday
good luck anon

>>30112647
>having difficulty shedding the pounds despite my maintenance and physical activity
Weight is mostly your diet, exercises have a supplementary role.

>>30109116
shits pretty fucked man.

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>>30111012
How so?

From what I understand the hammer and sear are welded in place, but that's not a big deal as the Receiver would have to get chopped anyhow. The Brits mill out the locking surfaces on the Front Trunnions, from what I've seen and that's the really nasty part about their deacts. You have to replace the Trunnions... which has the serial and nice factory markings on them.

>>30110838
Ft. Lauderdale area /k/omrade

Not doing so well.

Don't know what to do in life.

Former Air Force. Working in menial local government job.

I've been clean and sober for 7years. As well as no friends in 7 years. Been in a shaky relationship for over 4 years but love her to death and hard to leave and give up on what we've built, the only "friends" I ever speak to are her friends. I dunno why I won't let me make any friends? I think I just want a friend or two. On the positive note, I've got my guns, car, computer and career, plus a few other hobbies I cherish too. I'm pretty much ok and content I just need a friend I think.

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>>30111096
Are you retarded, or just pretending? I'm used to hearing this tripe out of used-up old stormfriends, but at least they keep trash memes out of their message.

>>30111111
i'm mirin those digits

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>>30109265
Story?

>>30109697
Staph is terrifying. When I was in high school, I got MSSA on my waist/ass because I only owned one football gurdle and I was a disgusting 16 y/o fuck that didn't wash his clothes. Passed out at 5:00 one day and slept till 8:00 the next morning. Went to Doctor, tested me for strep, and on a whim mentioned the welt on my ass since I was already there, and she shipped my ass right to the ER. The first medicine didn't work and I couldn't move anything the next day without extreme pain. Watched five hours of Dr Who because my mother left and I physically couldn't reach the remote that was in my lap without extreme pain. Never again.

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>Depersonalisation has gotten very severe
>Everything is still fine and in theory normal in life
>But feel like everything is a movie that I'm watching from third person
>No real emotional attachment to anything
>The few times things feel real it's overwhelming to the point of causing minor panic attacks

Pretty shit and I don't see how it will improve, but at least I'm still able to function like I normally would.

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>>30111157

>>30109116
Poor unemployed student, feel like a burden to my poor-ish family and accumulating literal fuckloads of debt trying to get into a good enough law school to pay it all off before I'm 90.
Was recently gifted a pretty fast new car, will have been with qt redhead gf for two years as of this week, mom cleaned out her car and found 60 rounds of .223 I left there a few years ago.
Things could be worse.

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BCM tried to make me cry today. Got dusty for a minute there.

>>30109284
that's not how it's supposed to be, young anon.

we love each other for our differences. only faggots marry themselves.

>>30113543
I too, am in broward.

Was going to go to my Great Uncle's grave at Arlington today but I woke up with terrible muscle spasms in my back so now I'm on flexural and immobile in bed.

So fun.

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I just haven't been feeling very well these days
>date the girl of my dreams for two months before we break up
>she seemed really interested for a while but then slowly just sort of cut me out
>realize she never gave a shit at all
>the depression's setting in again
>I think I pissed off my best friend, we haven't talked in four days
>I was planning on doing shit with my dad today but my mother dumped a bunch of shit on him so now I'm just kind of alone in my room with you guys

I hope summer's kinder than it has been
hopefully with a new job I'll be able to finally buy some new rifles

getting ready to PCS to okinawa and i hear they are already on lockdown... yay

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I need to get a fucking job again and I need to get my gun license. Been thinking a lot about going innawoods with some supplies and liquor and drinking a bottle of whiskey and hurling my body off a mountain.
Basically life has been alright

>>30110785
The bottom half was completely ripped off but hey, I'm getting paid to post on /k/ now.
If I can at least start running again after a few months I'll be happy.

>>30115369
Shoot me an email: [email protected]

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>How you holding up, /k/?