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>>75399247
I thought /realautismhours/ was the midnight to 4am period?

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rate the cake i made with love earlier today
tfw no average irish gf to share it with

Why do people insist on putting full sentences between the //. It doesn't work like that.

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>>75399297
On /airlan/ every hour is real autism hours Anon.

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>>75399297
I guess it's really when most posters go to sleep or we start talking about mental illness and shit.

>>75399358
Meme misuse is a serious problem. And he forgot the /'s in the subject line.

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The shtate of you lads in an argument.

>DURR GO BACK TO INGLUN

What is this? Three days now threads have been fucked by petty arguing and political bullshit?

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>tfw it suddenly hits you again that the world would keep turning without you
>you have no skills or worth that make you irreplaceable to anybody
>you are insignificant in the grand scheme of things
>the chances of you achieving anything of noteworthy merit are low
>you will be forgotten forever not long after you die
>there will come a time when your name is said for the last time ever
In retrospect, I think this would have been better for /bant/.

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>>75399586
Still feel like I missed my chance on suicide. Should've done it in secondary when people would've got distraught over it. Now if I do it I'm just another failure like that lad who graduated from my secondary then killed himself in college. We had a mass for him. Honestly don't think I'd kill myself in Summer just because I want the mass. If nothing else it'll let some students have a class or two off like I had.

>Brussels is a foreign power invading British sovereignty!
>what do you mean Northern Ireland isn't British?!

Norn is as British as England is European.

>what do you mean Northern Ireland isn't British
Didn't say it was?

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>>75399336
What even is that?

>>75399586
Total shut-in friend like this killed himself after finishing the LC and this pretty much happened.
After all the funeral shit and one year anniversary by the time the 2nd year anniversary everyone just stopped caring. 7 years later and his existence is forgotten. Nobody even talks about him or goes to the anniversary shit.
Nobody even visits the grave
Why bother?

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>>75399846
I tried to make a crême caramel but it ended up looking like an abortion so I threw it in the trash
My chocolate one was much better

>>75399717
Yeah a few people near me killed themselves in their mid 20s ,one in their 40 and another in 60s.
Nobody knew who they were because they were single loners. But of gossip because the scene the gardai and ambulance made but beyond that they might as well not existed.
Personally I have to wait until my grandparents die. Couldn't disappoint them. Not sure if I could do it to my parents either. The guilt and pressure of upsetting them is too much.
I'd definitely do it far away from home and like have someone else find me or ring the guards before offing myself leaving them to clean up.

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>>75399717
Despite developing depression during Leaving Cert cycle, I don't think I was ever properly suicidal during that time. It was the last 2 years of college and after graduation that was the worst for me. Constant thoughts of killing myself on a daily basis, even if I don't think I ever seriously thought I could do it. Things are a bit better now in that I don't consider suicide to be a realistic option for the moment.

If I was to go through with it though, I don't want people to be distraught. In fact, that has always been the biggest barrier for me.

>>75399853
>Why bother?
Why bother what exactly?

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>300 images saved in the last few hours
Bit burnt out.

>>75400085
>pressure of upsetting them is too much
What about all the anons that care for you anon. Can't be upsetting them.
Will have to wait until all of them are dead as well.

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>>75399586
>>75399586
It can be difficult for the ego to accept it's utter insignificance. But once you can take solace in the fact that you're not particularly important in any way and people don't consider you with the same critical criteria you hold yourself to, you stop agonizing over what I think are very egocentric hangups or anxieties and feel more comfortable in your skin you can get on with your life.

>>75400262
Wouldn't notice desu.

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>>75399973
That looks much better but your lack of culinary pastry skills are worrisome for a French citizen.

>>75400326
>>75400398
Douglas?

>work in 5 hours
kill me please

>>75400326
That is very insightful and intelligent of you.

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>>75400085
I get you in not wanting your family to find the body. I'd hate for them to have to break down the door to find my lifeless corpse. Luckily I live near some woods so finding a nice spot shouldn't be hard. Only one grandparent left too.
The village would probably have a lot of gossip over it, considering my father's had some health issues and he might be on the way out too. Honestly our family's fragmenting to hell since granny died.

>>75400197
>not having suicidal thoughts since you were a child
Casual.

>I don't consider suicide to be a realistic option for the moment
I don't think it's ever been a realistic option. Just a happy fantasy to alleviate my thoughts.

>I don't want people to be distraught
I'm the opposite, I get a sick comfort from people being worried over me. I love telling people something depressing or make a dark joke and they give you this concerned expression like they're worried for you.

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>>75400085
>Nobody knew who they were because they were single loners
>tfw if I died the first person to notice would be your manager at work
The more I think about it, the more I understand why people fear dying alone. It's an irrational thing, but understandable nonetheless.

>Personally I have to wait until my grandparents die. Couldn't disappoint them. Not sure if I could do it to my parents either. The guilt and pressure of upsetting them is too much.
I know this feel desu.

>>75400326
>It can be difficult for the ego to accept it's utter insignificance
Especially when you were widely considered (even by my egotistical self) to have a bright future ahead of you.

>But once you can take solace in the fact that you're not particularly important in any way and people don't consider you with the same critical criteria you hold yourself to
But I can't take any solace in this. What's the point in living if your life serves no purpose? I've tried to find a reason for living, goals to pursue, things to believe in. But I always come up empty. And what's worse is that I used to have these things, and now I can't even remember what they were for my younger self.

>you stop agonizing over what I think are very egocentric hangups or anxieties and feel more comfortable in your skin you can get on with your life.
If by "get on with your life" you mean just going through the motions for the next few decades in an existence that barely resembles life, sure.

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>>75400197
>It was the last 2 years of college and after graduation that was the worst for me.
Why? I found school so hard I never even got to college but it seems like a time where you lack the pressure and social obligations of Secondary, and have the opportunity to pursue a passion and flourish and mature in a less pressurized or formal environment and atmosphere.

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>>75400585
>What's the point in living if your life serves no purpose?
Doesn't have to have a reason, just enjoy it. The problem is most people have difficulty finding joy in it. Or get hung up on getting a high score of money or success or something else. I never got the "meaning of life" meme, if there is one you'll find out after death, if there isn't so what.

>>75400585
>Especially when you were widely considered (even by my egotistical self) to have a bright future ahead of you.
Haha same. Ever since a child I was told shit like this, despite performing extremely poorly at school I had excelled in specific area's far beyond other kids and teenagers my age.

All things considered I am a successful person. It makes me cringe to think of all the people that would feel obliged to attend my funeral and how much of a fake bullshit tragedy people would make out of it. People I don't give two fucks about and deep down they don't give a fuck about me but just pretend to because thats what society does for some reason.

I'd utterly hate to have a funeral, mass, and burial in a catholic grave yard too. Fuck that just burn me and get it over with. No ceremonies or anything.

Anybody ever trial killing yourself? I tested hanging myself with a laptop cord tied to the door handle.
Just sat there, tightened it and let my legs/body slide down.
Felt alright but didn't go through fully. Was just testing it.
Went to a&e after.

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http://www.4seasonshotel.ie/
>There is a 4 Seasons Hotel in Monoghan
For what purpose

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>>75400679
>lack the pressure and social obligations of Secondary
I felt college had more social pressure. In secondary there was always time. Time to get a gf, time to have sex, time to spend with friends, time to go to parties. Then it ends and you did none of those things while your new college classmates were experts in them and you can't catch up.

Though the difference between primary and secondary was bigger for me. In my primary everyone was still in the "girls are gay" phase up until as far as sixth class. Then I started secondary with a bunch of different people and suddenly everyone's talking about shifting and discos and other shite you have no experience with. Shit sucked.

>>75400814
>Monaghan
FTFY.

>>75400679
I don't know if universities are the same thing as colleges in Ireland, but community college was an extremely depressing experience for me. Seemed like the place were all the fuck ups drift into when they get sick of minimum wage jobs.

There were a few intelligent 16-17 year olds whose parents were savvy enough to send them there instead of the pecking order that is high school, but overall there was this sense of pointlessness about the place that all the lecturers and a few of the students seemed to be aware of. Most of the students that I suspected who realised this left quite early on in the course. In fact one of them was an old steam friend who I met there by sheer coincidence. He just quit half way through to play overwatch all day instead, and I honestly find it hard to argue against his decision.

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>>75400540
>Casual.
I had a very innocent childhood to be fair. I wasn't born depressed.

>Just a happy fantasy to alleviate my thoughts.
Aye. Ironically the prospect of suicide is what helped me climb out of NEETdom. I applied for jobs with the mindset of "Well, if I fuck up I can always kill myself".

>I get a sick comfort from people being worried over me
Whereas it sickens me to think that I might be causing a family member to worry about me. So I lie to my family - a lot. Even still though, they are definitely aware to a certain extent. As for my friends, I don't see them enough any more for them to suspect anything right now. I am a lot less guarded around them but I think they just write it off as my long-standing love of black humour.

>>75400679
>I found school so hard I never even got to college but it seems like a time where you lack the pressure and social obligations of Secondary, and have the opportunity to pursue a passion and flourish and mature in a less pressurized or formal environment and atmosphere.
I found secondary school to be piss easy. Sure, my social life was far from perfect there, but it seems to have been better than that of many of the anons in /éire/.

Part of the reason my depression got worse at college was because I realised that I didn't have a passion for anything. I wasn't as interested in my course to the same extent as most other people seemed to be. I even considered switching courses multiple times, but I didn't know what to switch to. So I just finished my degree in a subject I have no particular love for but at least it's something that I can do well.

Listening to this https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a6FyvK4DO6U
Released in the year 2000
Fucking hell I want to go back.

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>>75400686
>The problem is most people have difficulty finding joy in it
That's me. And I've certainly tried to find a meaning, a goal, or even something to believe in - anything that would allow me to enjoy the little things that I do achieve that others would be happy about.

>>75400784
>Anybody ever trial killing yourself?
No, that would be way too real and dark for me. I don't think my psyche could handle going that far.

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>>75400784
I tried tying a cord around my neck really tight. It cut off the bloodflow and made me pass out for a few minutes. When I woke up I felt numb and scared. I untied the cord and noticed my forehead was bleeding. Woke up the mam and had her check the wound and plaster it up. I told her I tripped on the carpet, which only made her try to get me to get rid of it. I was worried it would scar but thankfully it's almost completely faded away. The weird thing is I've reexamined my fall that night and I have no idea how my body managed to twist itself for my head to hit the desk at that angle and for me to wake up at the other side of the room.
Either way that night scared me out of trying again. I was lucky I didn't get brain damaged or something horrible.

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>>75400841
>Then it ends and you did none of those things while your new college classmates were experts in them and you can't catch up.
In fact, you seem to fall further behind. I think that's one of the reasons I lost interest in relationships (there are many reasons). Everybody else is just so far ahead that your inexperience becomes more of a burden with each passing day.

>Then I started secondary with a bunch of different people and suddenly everyone's talking about shifting and discos and other shite you have no experience with. Shit sucked.
I know how you feel. That shit came out of nowhere. One day you're trading cards and running around n the schoolyard, the next everybody is talking about sex, girls, and other bullshit that you are completely ignorant of.

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>>75401193
>I tried tying a cord around my neck really tight. It cut off the bloodflow and made me pass out for a few minutes. When I woke up I felt numb and scared. I untied the cord and noticed my forehead was bleeding
Jesus. What age were you?

>>75400903
>I don't know if universities are the same thing as colleges in Ireland
Yeah, we use the terms interchangeably.

Got 1 hour sleep. Woke up and now i'm wide awake. Have to be up for work in <5 hours. I want to die.

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>>75401324
I'm back at work later this week. Absolutely dreading it. Horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach.

How do normies do it?

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>>75401324
Lie down in bed for 4 hours and try your best to sleep m8. it's better than brute forcing your way through the night

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>>75401281
19. This was less than a year ago.
Though in fairness I did try choking myself with a cord when I was around 11~ish but that was essentially the same as trying to choke yourself. A bit like that scene in the first episode of Welcome to the NHK.

>>75400968
Pedo

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>>75401324
playing some gaymes meself and listening to a podcast

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>>75400540
>I get a sick comfort from people being worried over me.
The idea people would worry over me makes me feel very bad. I don't want to be a cause for anxiety for my family, especially if they felt they were powerless to help someone they loved. It makes me feel guilty thinking about it.

>>75400585
>What's the point in living if your life serves no purpose? I've tried to find a reason for living, goals to pursue, things to believe in.
The only purpose to live is for yourself and to pursue what makes you happy. I think you have to be brutally honest with yourself rather than try to live up to some unrealistic expectation you hold for yourself or feel obligated to achieve. That will only end in misery.

>If by "get on with your life" you mean just going through the motions for the next few decades in an existence that barely resembles life, sure.
I mean stop being so harshly self-critical. I don't think most other people hold themselves to such a high standard or are so disappointed with their inadequacies. They just acknowledge them and try their best and usually succeed despite them.

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>>75401376
I seriously have trouble waking up before ten, even if I get to sleep at 11. I don't know how 'll keep a job

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>>75400968
Speaking of 2000
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dY17nDW-CX0

>>75401391
No that really pisses me off and frustrates me, I was lying there for an hour until getting up here.
>The only purpose to live is for yourself and to pursue what makes you happy. I think you have to be brutally honest with yourself rather than try to live up to some unrealistic expectation you hold for yourself or feel obligated to achieve.
I already do this and still suffer from constant existential dysphoria and discomfort. It's never going away no matter what. Been that was since a kid.
>>75401514
My god that song is so bad. The quality is shit and it's worse than something a child would make. It's just a drum beat with some knacker ranting. He's not even MC'ing properly.

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Not a fan of all this trying to commit suicide stuff.

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>>75401391
>Lie down in bed for 4 hours and try your best to sleep
I have spent more than 10 hours lying down and trying to sleep before. Sometimes I can spend up to an hour lying perfectly still and still not fall asleep. Sleeping should not be this hard.

>>75401632
Sorry master Yoda, I wanted to succeed.

>>75401463
That's a bit rich coming from you, Juniper. Mr going to kill himself any day now.

>>75401568
>he doesn't remember maniac McCabe

>>75401683
>>75401568

I know sometimes it just doesn't work, but it's for the best. You exert less energy.

>>75401711
I do remember. That's why I'm saying it's so shit.

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>>75401428
I guess in the end if all comes down to the simple question of which frightens you more; continued existence indefinitely or the unknown void of death?

>>>75401463
>The only purpose to live is for yourself and to pursue what makes you happy
But nothing I do makes me properly happy anymore. Even vidya and anime are just escapism at this stage.

>I think you have to be brutally honest with yourself rather than try to live up to some unrealistic expectation you hold for yourself or feel obligated to achieve. That will only end in misery.
I feel like we've had this exact conversation before. I don't think I have any expectations of myself anymore. No dreams, no goals, no ambitions. But I am aware of the expectations others might have of me. Similar to how I wouldn't want people to be distraught over my death, I don't want to disappoint the people I respect in life either (although I am already failing in that regard).

> I don't think most other people hold themselves to such a high standard or are so disappointed with their inadequacies
But I've been consistently lowering my standards over the years. I don't want a gf, riches, children, to own a house, a car, or basically anything that most people seem to strive for in life.

>>75401696
Is that not Jaggy?

>>75401801
No idea.

>>75401764
>nothing I do makes me properly happy anymore
Maybe you should try new things and meet new people?

>don't want a gf, riches
Why not?

I've had a total of 4 hours sleep in the past 48 and I'm so tired, yet I'm unable to sleep.
And of course the moment I have to get up and go to work it will hit my like a train and I'll be so exhausted and it will be a very long day.

If you guys ever pass by Krautchan make sure to stop by for a talk.
Its where i hang out now. My new home

T. Galician celt

>>75402049
Drink yourself to sleep like me. Works wonders

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>>75401933
>Maybe you should try new things and meet new people?
Part of me wants to, but when I seriously consider it, the more dominant part of me floods my mind with memories of when doing such things ended badly. I've grown very fond of my comfort zone. I may not be happy in it, but it's something I have control over.

>Why not?
I've never once in my life wanted children, so that nerfed my interest in women from the very start. By the time of my second year in college I had lost interest in women and relationships for a variety of reasons not worth getting into. As for money, I just want enough to be comfortable and secure. Anything more would be welcome, but not something I will ever actively pursue because what's the point in having more than you will ever need?

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>>75400262
>300 images saved in the last few hours
>Kamoi
Interesting taste you have there.

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>>75399247
SO
FUCKIN'
BEAUTIFUL

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>>75401764
>I am aware of the expectations others might have of me.
Lad we've been over this. Your parents only want you to be happy, they don't give a shit about your career or other trivial shit. The only reason they might be disappointed is that you're not happy, which is partially caused by what you believe are their expectations. Take time this next week to spend with them and let them feel close to you. As soon as you're back in your lone apartment they'll be back to worrying over you like all parents.

>I don't want a gf
Or rather you don't want the trouble of an unfamiliar experience, which is understandable.

>riches
Ara now everyone wants money. It's good not to dedicate your life to the pursuit of it but you wouldn't refuse it.

>to own a house
Really? Suppose it would get lonely by yourself and a larger target for break ins but I can't understand not wanting more space.

>a car
Didn't you say you wanted to though?

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>>75402169
>Take time this next week to spend with them and let them feel close to you
My family doesn't really do closeness or emotions well. I'm not just looking for excuses - I do have a decent relationship with my parents. But it's not one based on transparency or emotional expression.

>Or rather you don't want the trouble of an unfamiliar experience, which is understandable.
No, I genuinely don't want one. See: >>75402119. I've been that way for years now.

>but I can't understand not wanting more space.
What would I use it for? My possessions haven't increased significantly since I was a college student.

>Didn't you say you wanted to though?
I do, but I won't be getting one until I need one. And that doesn't appear to be happening any time soon.

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>>75402169
Not who you're talking to but.

>Or rather you don't want the trouble of an unfamiliar experience, which is understandable.
This so much. I have no interest in being so emotionally committed to somebody. I'd rather keep to myself and have peace and quiet most of the time. Maybe I'd be okay with one if we only talked 1-2 times a week.
>Ara now everyone wants money. It's good not to dedicate your life to the pursuit of it but you wouldn't refuse it.
I have all the money I want. It makes no difference. I buy tons of shit. I keeps me temporarily happy and distracted but quickly fades.
>owning a house.
I have no interest in owning a house. At most a nice apartment with a balcony view or something.
But the thought of being fully isolated and alone 24/7 terrifies me. It's the final nail in the coffin.

I even hate when I come home from work and my parents aren't there. I have nobody to briefly talk to and tell them about my day.
It's disappointing and lonely.
>>a car
Have a very nice car, again with the money. It only briefly creates happiness. People compliment me on it the whole time too but idk.

>>75402156
>Kamoi
*Kamui

>>75402391
>My family doesn't really do closeness or emotions well. I'm not just looking for excuses - I do have a decent relationship with my parents. But it's not one based on transparency or emotional expression.
Hey mine too. We're very distant, I like briefly talking with them but we never open up emotionally or do activities.
We've never been close even when I was a child.

>>75402438
http://kancolle.wikia.com/wiki/Kamoi

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>>75402119
>Part of me wants to
Sounds like you should do it so.
You could do something like join a gaming group online, which is what I am trying to do at the moment. Requires less commitment that something in real life and you can always just leave whenever you want.
Any social or sports groups at work?

>lost interest in women and relationships
Would you be opposed to having a relationship with someone? Similar to the money thing, is it you wouldn't mind a relationship but you won't go out of your way to pursue it?

>what's the point in having more than you will ever need
True, but you'll always find a way to spend it.
Could carry us to Japan you know? A fair reward I think for having to endure your blog posts.

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>>75401764
>But nothing I do makes me properly happy anymore. Even vidya and anime are just escapism at this stage.
Sounds like you're stuck in a rut and need a fresh lease on life. I find those things meant to be enjoyable to be mundane too and only pursue them from an habitual and time-killing perspective. I'm almost resolved to just stop doing them and prioritize pursuing something that actually enthuses me, however self-indulgent.

>I feel like we've had this exact conversation before. I don't think I have any expectations of myself anymore. No dreams, no goals, no ambitions. But I am aware of the expectations others might have of me. Similar to how I wouldn't want people to be distraught over my death, I don't want to disappoint the people I respect in life either (although I am already failing in that regard).
Maybe we have. You seem like you feel much more obligated or fixated to placate the expectations of other people, either real or imagined, rather than focus selfishly, and rightfully so on forming a cohesive ad realistic set of expectations for yourself.

>But I've been consistently lowering my standards over the years. I don't want a gf, riches, children, to own a house, a car, or basically anything that most people seem to strive for in life.
What do you want? I think constantly settling and re-estimating your expectations could just be an excuse for not trying or never attempting to succeed.

Did you watch the hurling today Froggy? Sorry btw, my internet is really bad. Should probably not respond at all.

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>>75402391
>My family doesn't really do closeness or emotions well
No Irish family does. I'm not saying bond with them or something crazy but have tea and watch the news together or something.

>No, I genuinely don't want one. See: >>75402119. I've been that way for years now.
I'll take your word on it then. Suppose I was just projecting my own opinions onto you when I don't even know if I want a gf anymore either.

>What would I use it for?
Again this is a me thing. I like having a lot of space. Maybe sharing a room as a child then being moved to a cramped one gave me a desire for it.

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>>75402459
>We've never been close even when I was a child.
But because of the mutual understanding that I care about my parents and they care about me, nobody ever feels the need to communicate or express it. We don't spend a lot of personal time together and private lives are almost never discussed at home (this moreso applies to myself and my siblings).

I got one hell of a culture shock when I was 12 and spent the weekend at a friends house. Everybody was so open about everything and everybody was so expressive and cordial.

>>75402689
>I got one hell of a culture shock when I was 12 and spent the weekend at a friends house. Everybody was so open about everything and everybody was so expressive and cordial.
Yes this so much. My friends in school were so open with their parent's. They'd take the piss and have tons of banter.
I didn't even want to invite friends over to my house because it just seemed like an intrusion.
Whenever we were in the car it was just complete silence too.

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>>75402156
>Kamoi
Ya, not sure I'm a big fan. Some of the art is decent but there is a lot of variation.
Because she is so new people are still deciding how to draw her maybe?

Song for the moment https://viafondo.bandcamp.com/track/jag-vill-nd-vakna

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>>75402689
>nobody ever feels the need to communicate or express it. We don't spend a lot of personal time together and private lives are almost never discussed at home
This backs up my theory that old people are just as autistic as us.

>I got one hell of a culture shock when I was 12 and spent the weekend at a friends house. Everybody was so open about everything and everybody was so expressive and cordial.
Same, it was fucking weird everyone was spending time in the same room and communicating in ways other than angry shouting. What really annoyed me was my friend that went on about how much his family didn't get on and yet they got on way better than mine.

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>>75402470
>Any social or sports groups at work?
Probably, but I'm definitely not interested in making work an aspect of my social life. I hate that place.

>Would you be opposed to having a relationship with someone?
Yes. I know for a fact that I would actively avoid any woman interested in me.

>Could carry us to Japan you know? A fair reward I think for having to endure your blog posts
Endure indeed. I dunno why I do this you ye.

>>75402589
>I'm almost resolved to just stop doing them and prioritize pursuing something that actually enthuses me, however self-indulgent.
I've considered giving up gaming multiple times (if only temporarily), but I can't bring myself to do it.

>You seem like you feel much more obligated or fixated to placate the expectations of other people, either real or imagined, rather than focus selfishly, and rightfully so on forming a cohesive ad realistic set of expectations for yourself.
I've always been like that. Even at school I never even thought about why I should perform well academically, just that it was expected of me.

>What do you want?
I don't really know. I've basically achieved my only remaining goal of having enough money to be comfortable. Now I really am stuck in a rut.

>Did you watch the hurling today Froggy?
No, I missed it unfortunately because we had relatives over in the afternoon and I had to make an appearance.

>>75402467
never mined, I've just called it as alternative name.

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>>75402398
>I even hate when I come home from work and my parents aren't there. I have nobody to briefly talk to and tell them about my day.
>It's disappointing and lonely.
That tiny exposure to other people interested in affirming your life really is a vital component of the human condition.
It's no wonder so many people here, lacking regular real-life social opportunities to discuss their recent experiences no matter how mundane are so depressed.

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Froggy is a tough child to manage, isn't he lads?
Where did we go wrong?

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>>75402612
>No Irish family does
I've seen evidence to the contrary.

>I like having a lot of space. Maybe sharing a room as a child then being moved to a cramped one gave me a desire for it.
Having a lot of space and nothing to do with it would just be sad to me.

>>75402732
>I didn't even want to invite friends over to my house because it just seemed like an intrusion.
Christ, I know that feel.

>Whenever we were in the car it was just complete silence too.
My mother used to always try and get a conversation going, but she usually just ended up talking to my father.

>>75402769
>Because she is so new people are still deciding how to draw her maybe?
That does tend to happen alright. The image you posted earlier was the first piece of fan art that I'd seen of her since she was added to the game.

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I am incredibly frustrated and agitated right now. If I didn't have work in the morning I'd just go out and drive aimlessly for a couple of hours. Go to the beach or something.
Next time I go to the psychiatrist I think I'm going to ask for ECT....it's the only thing left that might work.
>>75402866
I understand this emotionally 100%, but mentally I'm unable to express it or process it. That doesn't make sense at all but I feel very in touch with these things I just can't translate it into words.
You're really good at doing it.

Would it be bad to call in sick to work the first day back after 2 weeks holidays? Simply because of insomnia.

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>>75402866
I can go weeks without having a proper conversation with another person. It actually worries me that I'm capable of doing that with such ease. I wouldn't mind, but I have retained passable social skills despite everything, so I feel like they are going to waste.

>>75402935
>Where did we go wrong?
You're all shit parents.

Have you been in this thread all along? I didn't recognise any of your posts.

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>>75402689
>But because of the mutual understanding that I care about my parents and they care about me, nobody ever feels the need to communicate or express it.
I find that because of that mutual understanding, and even genuine concern they seem to display for me, being comfortable to express it is beyond me. The strained gestures they make only engender discomfort and a disappointed resigned longing at my inability to express it to them or even engage with those strained or even genuine attempts, even half-heartedly, so I just blank them.

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>>75402946
>I've seen evidence to the contrary.
Yep I actually contradicted myself by posting >>75402844

>>75402852
>Yes. I know for a fact that I would actively avoid any woman interested in me.
Is there a reason other than fear of fucking up/not knowing how these things work/doing something stupid?

>>75402974
I get that feeling too. The urge to go outside in the middle of the night and wander around. Can't do it much anymore without someone noticing me leave the house.

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>>75403074
>can go weeks without having a proper conversation with another person
Posting on here is kind of a conversation though.

>you been in this thread all along
Me?

>>75403144 was meant for >>75403077

>>75403074
Should be fine, typically.

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>>75403077
>You're all shit parents.
I imagine myself as hating my children. Don't know why. Maybe it's because I relate to Gendo.

>Have you been in this thread all along? I didn't recognise any of your posts.
Fairly sure Poi and I are the only other Kancolle posters.

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>>75403116
>I find that because of that mutual understanding, and even genuine concern they seem to display for me, being comfortable to express it is beyond me. The strained gestures they make only engender discomfort and a disappointed resigned longing at my inability to express it to them or even engage with those strained or even genuine attempts, even half-heartedly, so I just blank them.
My relationship with my parents in a nutshell.

>>75403132
>Is there a reason other than fear of fucking up/not knowing how these things work/doing something stupid?
More reasons than I could concisely summarise here. Everything from my fear of commitment to the inferiority of 3D women compared to the glory of 2D.

>>75403144
>Posting on here is kind of a conversation though.
Let's be honest; it's not really. There's so much more to a real conversation than the verbal message that is being conveyed.

>Me?
Aye.

>>75403186
>Fairly sure Poi and I are the only other Kancolle posters.
Yeah, I think I might have been mistaking some of his posts for yours.

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>>75403194
Haven't been posting much, too much blogging, but the Kamoi and Hatsuziki posts are mine.

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>>75403242
>too much blogging
It's a while since we had a proper /realautismhours/ to be fair (unless you count the /bant/ threads).

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>>75403186
You seem to post a lot of happy looking Prinz images. Are you a naturally happy person?

>>75403291
Are /realautismhours/ supposed to be about suicide and depression or just in-depth discussion in general?

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>>75403217
The farthest I'll stray from Prinz is group pictures of maybe a Graf. I liked the IDs on /bant/éire/ so I can post whatever and not get confused for someone else.

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Opnion:

sadposting and excessive anime avatar posting is detrimental to the quality of these threads

Feel like crying. Going to try sleep again. Bye.

also reminder to ignore every random brit/american/other country person that comes in and makes a single bait post.
bye

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>>75403330
>Are /realautismhours/ supposed to be about suicide and depression or just in-depth discussion in general?
I think they can be whatever we want them to be, but the depression-fests would definitely fall under the /realautismhours/ banner. I think the term is open to interpretation.

>>75403414
>sadposting and excessive anime avatar posting is detrimental to the quality of these threads
Probably. But at least the anime keeps out the normalfags.

>>75403435
Cry me a river

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>>75403330
>You seem to post a lot of happy looking Prinz images. Are you a naturally happy person?
You know I was about to mention that. The reason for that is that most Prinz images I found are of her happy, I suppose it's her character. I have a few different anime girls I use but they're spread out across many different folders unlike Prinz which is in one. Should probably just use whichever suits the post more but in the context of this thread I don't want confusion over who I am.
To answer your question, no I'm not a happy person. I was an angry miserable child that grew into a bitter spiteful adult. Though I'm pretty joyful when I'm in the mood, but the happier I am the easier it is for one minor thing to set it all tumbling down. I'm a happy drunk though. Though maybe I'm exaggerating myself.

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>>75403194
I really want to hug my parents, and siblings, and tell them that I love. I'm really quite affectionate by nature but the implications of being so secure to be emotionally spontaneous and abrupt with someone terrifies me now.

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>>75403435
I shall fulfill your wish and ignore the poster above you. Oíche mhaith.

>>75403513
It is a bit unnerving when you use happy images when discussing how you tried to hang yourself or whatever.

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>>75403435
Sleep well.

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>>75403545
>It is a bit unnerving when you use happy images when discussing how you tried to hang yourself or whatever.
In some instances I like the contrast of happy anime girl with suicidal thoughts. Now that I think of it that's the premise of Sayonara Zetsubou Sensei.

>>75403471
>I think they can be whatever we want them to be, but the depression-fests would definitely fall under the /realautismhours/ banner. I think the term is open to interpretation
I can talk about whatever you're interested in and it'll qualify as autism.

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>>75403513
>The reason for that is that most Prinz images I found are of her happy, I suppose it's her character
Yeah, even if you listen to her lines on her Kancolle wiki character page, she comes across as quite genki.

Prinz never did much for me though. I prefer the more serious Graf.

>>75403535
>I really want to hug my parents, and siblings, and tell them that I love
Hopefully I'll get to do that with my parents someday when the time is right. But I could never do it with my siblings. Bridges have been burnt.

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>>75403636
>Bridges have been burnt.
They can be rebuilt.

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>>75403630
>I can talk about whatever you're interested in and it'll qualify as autism.
I guess that's one way to look at it.

>>75403703
The building of a bridge requires mutual cooperation on both sides of the river.

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>>75403636
>prefer the more serious Graf
Maybe you should chose a new boat waifu? One that matches your new found goal of achieving happiness.

>>75403703
"Traitors and bridge-builders are very much alike, they both go over to the other side"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WOnVirSpRi4

Stupid Clondalkin rats

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>>75403756
But someone has to be willing to make the initial tentative foundations.

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>>75403772
>Maybe you should chose a new boat waifu?
Blasphemy!

Besides, Graf is a quietly happy girl.

>pic
Weird nose design on Akizuki.

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>>75403756
>The building of a bridge requires mutual cooperation on both sides of the river.

>plan to get him to divorce graf failed
Well, there's always next time.

>whinge thread again

>>75403972
>plan to get him to divorce graf failed
For what purpose?

>>75404013
EU thought police trying to downplay adoration of Nazism.

>>75404013
Perhaps she would be happier with... someone else, you know?

>>75403582
I like your azusa. It's soft like your personality, jaggy.

>>75399336
Thought that was a bloodied tampon you honking, snorting, sniffing, snooty bastard

Oíche mhaith.

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>>75404150
I don't think Jaggy would appreciate being mistaken for me.

You should really be asleep if you're working tomorrow. Being sleep deprived and obliged to perform is a regretful situation indeed.

>>75404283
Night lad.

>>75404374
I can't tell the difference between anybody in these threads unless they specifically stated who they are. Plus I didn't even think you were here today. My statement still stands.
I should be asleep but mentally in a bad place right now.

>>75404547
What's wrong with you? Sleep is therapeutic. I don't think people would appreciate a heart-to-heart like we had last night but if it helps you organize your thoughts please tell me.

Personally I think your drug use causes a much degenerated mental state than if you were sobre and you cease consuming them.

Juni, post your girly feet.

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>>75405021
Only if you post your willy.

>>75405207
Why? You already know what it looks like, you saved the image.

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Degenerates.

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>>75405269
>being this mad that I can still talk with my ex bf

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>>75405245
Don't have it anymore and it was amazing. Regardless, you won't be getting wank material off me you deviant.

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>>75405333
>ex
Bit disappointing.

>>75405363
>Don't have it anymore and it was amazing. Regardless, you won't be getting wank material off me you deviant.
I still find it adorable that you still play hard to get. Honestly, if you were a woman(you're the closes thing to one here but sadly not on a biological level) I would have already married you.
>>75405384
You stopped coming on skype so I assumed you left for good.

Forgots. You're a couple of forgots.

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>>75405402
I am hard to get. Certainly beyond a doofus like you.

We never did anything intimate on Skype but I really enjoyed talking to you.

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ELLEN POST NECk

>>75405493
>I am hard to get. Certainly beyond a doofus like you.
Juni, never tell me something like hard to get. I almost got to meet Ciara in only two weeks of chatting, I could have done the same with you, but you were rarely on skype.
>We never did anything intimate on Skype but I really enjoyed talking to you.
True. You were always too shy to cam or post your pasty butt. Still I enjoyed our conversations too.

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>Tfw I was a proto-Ciara
>>75405560
>Juni, never tell me something like hard to get. I almost got to meet Ciara in only two weeks of chatting, I could have done the same with you, but you were rarely on skype.
You think you're oh so suave.

I guess it's true though I hate to admit it. Meh I thought I was a retard but you were very affable. Wish people here would give you more of a chance though I doubt you care.

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>>75405659
I just love Irish people and care for them desu.

>>75405706
You're very sweet natured. She looks really dilapidated.

>>75405864
I think she was suffering from pink eye or something.

>>75404763
>What's wrong with you?
I couldn't sleep. I got a total of 2 hours broken sleep last night. I tried to get a lot more. Lots of other things too.
>Personally I think your drug use causes a much degenerated mental state than if you were sobre and you cease consuming them.
Yeah I agree. But don't call me a degenerate again or I'll slap you.
> I don't think people would appreciate a heart-to-heart like we had last night
Of course they wouldn't. Thats evene out of the ordinary for me. I was just so fucked in the head that I'm interested in having those kind of talks lately.
I'd like to talk to you a lot more in private desu.

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> tfw you see people on other boards use your OC

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>go to bed thinking about a girl I really like and don't have a way of contacting anymore
>cry
>have a dream about happening to get on the same train as her by chance and getting to talk to her again
>cry even harder
>wake up and remember the dream
>cry again

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Morning lads. Woke up to a cheque for 2.2k from Revenue for tax overpayment, today is a good day.

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>>75408751
Was it a wet dream ?

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>>75409660
/éire/ is an anime general

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>>75409748
This, all worship Queen King

>>75400841
Good post. In hindsight life and social progression has always been about getting ahead of the curve and staying there. It's especially difficult as an introvert without social support networks to catch up on their own.
I think if I had a time machine and knew what I know now I'd have done so much better in that regard.

>>75409748
She did nothing wrong

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>>75400966
>Part of the reason my depression got worse at college was because I realised that I didn't have a passion for anything. I wasn't as interested in my course to the same extent as most other people seemed to be. I even considered switching courses multiple times, but I didn't know what to switch to. So I just finished my degree in a subject I have no particular love for but at least it's something that I can do well.
I felt something similar, it was very difficult in college to be surrounded by people who truly enjoyed their studies and wanted nothing more than to learn more and work in the field. I graduated doing the bare minimum alongside people who were living their dream while I knew I'd be stuck with a career I wasn't motivated for. I'd have switched if I knew there was a career I was motivated for, but I'm not sure that exists. I wish I had done transition year or taken a year off after school to consider my options, going from LC to college happens so fast and before you know it you're strapped into a path that's difficult to get off.

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>>75410193
Disagree. Fuck the latest anime and what Junko did to her, that was difficult to watch.

>>75410594
The latest anime was hard to watch because it was a prequel and all it had in mind it was "All right lads, lets make things convoluted for the sake of it"

>>75410844
I enjoyed both future and despair except for the final episode of both. Junkos brainwashing of the class felt kind of cheap and the buildup to the conclusion of Future seemed like it'd be something grander than it actually was.

>>75399247
how's the unemployment eirebros? From stats and stuff it seems better than southern europe but also worse than western europe

is the health sector good?

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>>75411828
Yellow is unemployment and green is employment.
I'm not sure why we have so many who don't fit into either category.

>>75411936
> 1/4 Greeks is unemployed
That's pretty bad

>>75403986
thinking there's a correlation between being an insufferable whine bag baby man and posting anime

thoughts?

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>Watches anime. Moé and everything
>Has a wrestling move called the neko neko knee
>BTFO'd /vp/ with a RU mon
Reminder weebs are alpha

>>75411936
is stuff getting better?
>>75412099
a lot of people are unregistered tho

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>>75408367
Which OC was used?

>>75410574
>I'd have switched if I knew there was a career I was motivated for, but I'm not sure that exists
Yep, I can't think of a single attainable career whereby I would actually look forward to going to work in the morning. It's quite depressing because we have to work for 45 years of our lives, and so many other people seem to get at least some enjoyment out of their work.

> I wish I had done transition year or taken a year off after school to consider my options, going from LC to college happens so fast and before you know it you're strapped into a path that's difficult to get off.
I did Transition year and I really enjoyed it, but at the time I thought that I was genuinely interested in what I went on to do at college, so I put no further thought into broadening my professional horizons. In retrospect a year off after the LC might have been beneficial for me, but it's hard to say for sure.

>>75411936
>nearly 50% in serbia(?)

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>Nuns 'will not be involved' in new maternity hospital
Didn't see that coming.

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>>75414276
>Yep, I can't think of a single attainable career whereby I would actually look forward to going to work in the morning.
I had a taste of a job where I felt I could be happy in during my work experience. I was trusted by management, given responsibility over my area and they even hired a Spanish exchange student who I had direct control over and could delegate my work to as I saw fit. Nobody looking over my shoulder or demanding I hit certain metrics, no overtime, management who were there to help me if I needed but never wanted to push me to breaking point. I felt trusted and at ease, no pressure or stress. I'd never say I looked forward to going to work in the morning but I could certainly tolerate it.
My jobs since have been a nightmare and are probably a better reflection of a workplace environment. Distrusting management, high stress, no personal freedom.

> It's quite depressing because we have to work for 45 years of our lives
I don't think I can do it, I can't process living a life like that. Every day I go to work I think that it's only temporary until I find a better way. My current plan is to quit jobs every few years and take a year or two off in between. It's not ideal but it's something to keep me going. I actually quite enjoy life when NEET, but feel miserable when employed.

>>75414957
Best outcome, I don't think Simon Harris would have got away with continuing with this under their ownership and it avoids the state forking out for a CPO.

How do I write a best seller lads?

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https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Misogynoir

Learnt a new "word" today, lads.

>>75415094
>I don't think I can do it, I can't process living a life like that. Every day I go to work I think that it's only temporary until I find a better way. My current plan is to quit jobs every few years and take a year or two off in between. It's not ideal but it's something to keep me going. I actually quite enjoy life when NEET, but feel miserable when employed.
I've considered something similar. I wouldn't go as far as to say that I was happy when I was NEET, but I was certainly more relaxed and less stressed. I was able to get a decent night's sleep every night and I didn't constantly have work at the back of my mind even on the weekends. When I returned to work, I got an average of 3 hours sleep every week-night simply because I could not get to sleep with the prospect of work the next day on my mind. Although things have improved in that regard since I went to France, I still go to bed really late on week-nights most of the time because I know that I will have trouble sleeping if I go to bed at a reasonable hour.

But I am concerned about how taking years out might affect my employment prospects going forward. Also, I don't think I'm quite earning enough yet to support myself on savings for an entire year or so.

>>75415094
She really looks like Pink Aoi in that pic.

>>75415307
Copy the ideas and themes present in popular fan fiction

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>>75415419
>I was able to get a decent night's sleep every night and I didn't constantly have work at the back of my mind even on the weekends. When I returned to work, I got an average of 3 hours sleep every week-night simply because I could not get to sleep with the prospect of work the next day on my mind.
That must be very debilitating. Did you ever have that issue in school or college?

>But I am concerned about how taking years out might affect my employment prospects going forward. Also, I don't think I'm quite earning enough yet to support myself on savings for an entire year or so.
It would affect your ability to get hired for high level positions greatly but personally that's not a ladder I'd like to climb. I'm happy with entry or mid level positions as I wouldn't like to deal with the stress and red tape of higher management and have virtually no use for the extra money anyway. I have no expensive hobbies, don't travel abroad, no addictions, no responsibilities of children or a partner so have nothing to spend my money on other than household bills, video games and my car, I wind up saving quite a bit with nothing to do with it other than use it as a NEET fund someday.
I've taken an 18 month gap before and was never asked about it in interviews but it might depend on the field. I don't think a year off is too unusual but several probably would raise eyebrows.

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>>75416658
>Did you ever have that issue in school or college?
Nope. Slept like a baby almost every night in secondary school and college regardless of what was going on in my life.

>It would affect your ability to get hired for high level positions greatly but personally that's not a ladder I'd like to climb
True, but the problem is that the older you get, the less likely you are to be hired for entry/mid-level positions.

>and have virtually no use for the extra money anyway. I have no expensive hobbies, don't travel abroad, no addictions, no responsibilities of children or a partner so have nothing to spend my money on other than household bills, video games and my car, I wind up saving quite a bit with nothing to do with it other than use it as a NEET fund someday.
I'm doing something similar. My savings are growing steadily, but I'm paying more than I'd like on rent though, although it's a sacrifice I'm willing to make so that I don't have to share living space with others. I don't even spend that much on vidya anymore - maybe 4 games a year.

there's someone really good at whistling outside my window

>>75409660
>15 (You)'s
That's better.

>>75408367
It's a good feeling.

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>>75416959
>Nope. Slept like a baby almost every night in secondary school and college regardless of what was going on in my life.
Have you considered switching jobs? It sounds like it's taking a major toll on your health, especially if you found it more manageable in France.

>True, but the problem is that the older you get, the less likely you are to be hired for entry/mid-level positions.
You're right but I try not to think about the distant future. I'm more concerned with remaining happy and motivated to keep going for the short term because it hangs by a thread at times. Maybe I'll have a new perspective and outlook on life when I'm older that will help me tolerate things I find stressful now.

>I'm paying more than I'd like on rent though, although it's a sacrifice I'm willing to make so that I don't have to share living space with others.
Sounds like a sacrifice worth making. Anytime I've lived with other people I've wound up staying in my room mostly or shaping my eating schedule around times I knew the kitchen would be empty.

>I don't even spend that much on vidya anymore - maybe 4 games a year.
I buy about one a month which is more than I have time to play though it still doesn't cost very much.

>>75415419
>article's locked
Hue.

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>>75418158
>Have you considered switching jobs? It sounds like it's taking a major toll on your health, especially if you found it more manageable in France.
I frequently consider it, but I would have no idea what employment to pursue and job-hunting is an absolute pain in the ass.

>You're right but I try not to think about the distant future
I'm similar now, but in the past I used to be obsessed with the future. Every so often I have moments were I channel that past version of myself and get extremely paranoid about the future.

>Anytime I've lived with other people I've wound up staying in my room mostly or shaping my eating schedule around times I knew the kitchen would be empty.
Yeah, I lived with people before I moved to France. Complete strangers, which was new to me as I had always lived with friends at college. Avoided them for the most part like yourself. Fortunately they weren't around often.

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Do irish go to London when they want to fly international?

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>>75413993
Actually it's the Nico Nico Knee. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VG2wKKfGwyo
I remember him tweeting about his body pillow.

hate you all desu

Love you all desu

Have mixed feelings for you all desu

is the site slow with loading shit for anyone else?

>>75419213
will stab you in cold blood desu

>>75419297
Yeah it was that yesterday for images. Sometimes my posts get stuck at the 100% bit for far too long as well.

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>started playing kancolle again
>no idea what i'm doing

Trying desperately to not fall asleep at work

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>>75418397
>I frequently consider it, but I would have no idea what employment to pursue and job-hunting is an absolute pain in the ass.
It is but is a regular state of unease to the point where it's affecting your sleep not worse?

>Every so often I have moments were I channel that past version of myself and get extremely paranoid about the future.
That's why I try not to think about it. I have two older siblings who managed fairly conventional transitions into adult life by stabilising and feeling happy in their job, settling down with a partner or buying /preparing to buy a house. They'll have kids soon as well, I'll bet. In a sense I always felt those things would happen for me at some point like it did for them but it never has and probably never will. Its hard to think positively about the future when I'm already feeling anxious that I've fallen behind or missed out on things. If a conventional life isn't for me then I'm not sure what is or how to picture myself in a good light in the distant future.

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>>75419365
What type of game is it? I'm trying to figure it out from screenshots but I'm not really sure. It looks a bit like tactical strategy?

>>75420209
>tactical strategy
I guess. Mostly just about building up your fleets, completing missions and such. Lot of stats and stuff. The battles aren't very interactive.

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>be me
>come home after jogg
>realize noone is home,super hot
>throw off all clothes,jump into pool (it's a small intex one)
>try to leave pool
>on top of ladder
>neighbours wife comes out
>realize
>fall back into pool
>shes stays in the garden fo a solid hour talking to me

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>>75420597
>>be me
>mfw

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>>75420597
>hey ma'am, could you turn around, I'm not decent, heh
>oh sure anon *blush*
>she peeks at you as you get out and her loins moisten
now imagine this was the scenario

>>75421169
The scenario would be more like
>Old women in town would shun me for the rest of my life and I'd never find employment in one of their husbands firms
I guess rural anons can relate,stuff like that would spread like a wildfire

>>75419301
Will shift you in the rain desu

It's been cloudy and rainy for days, so why is it so fucking stuffy and warm right now?

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>want to call myself a khhhv for the full /r9k/ package
>remember some teenage girl kissed me on the lips when I was eight or so

>>75422418
I've hugged a girl but never held hands, unless handshakes count. Her tits felt pretty nice pressed up against me.

>>75422418
A teenage girl? Was it rape?

>>75422794
I wish I was raped by a teenage girl.

>>75422794
they were chasing us around
I bought a 99 and didn't want it to fall so I didn't run
think she was about 14

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>>75422846
Same DESU. Or one of my hot teacher's /ss/ me during my junior cert
>>75422921
Sounds adorable

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>Don't play lotto
>Fantasize about winning the Euromillions all day

>>75423017
pleb tier day dream

>>75422921
Was that catch and kiss?

>>75423017
You shouldn't play it, the odds are stacked against you. If most people who played it weekly just put that money in a jar instead they'd have a nice jackpot in 10 years time.

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>>75422921
>third class
>girl in class was chasing us around trying to kiss us
>she somehow never caught us
>tell the mother about it one day (she's a teacher)
>gets it banned
>everyone knows it was my fault
>I didn't even want it to stop

>>75423210
faggot

>>75423210
Hope you burn in hell for that

>>75418455
Please respond

>>75423327
Life since then has been hell enough already.

>>75423340
haven't been on holiday since I was 3
nor outside Europe

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Things not going so well for Tiger

>>75424056
>even at his worst he's doing better than all of 4chan combined

If the state he was arrested in has mandatory minimum jail sentences for DUI's he'll get conjugal visits from models like Mike Tyson did.

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>>75419365
>started playing kancolle again
Absolute mad man.

>>75420209
>>75420504
And don't forget the huge amount of RNG.

>>75421545
o-oh....

Just want to reitirate how disgraceful this thread has been. Previously thought anti-anime posting was a meme, but they knew consequences that none of us could have forseen.

>>75425653
Where are my (You)s man?

>>75425709
That was another poster, not me.

>>75425653
You should have listened.

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>>75425653
you rest in the grave you dug yourself

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>>75421163
Luxembro is the richest guy I know, way richer than Juniper.

>>75421515
I wish I were a Luxembourger.

These two secondary school girls with nice purple weird hair were pointing at me, staring and smiling lads. Presumably 6th year.
Don't think they were saying anything bad.
Am I going to jail now?

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>>75425653
That's not kawaii

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>>75426078
>dear diary, a member of the opposite sex waved at me today!

>>75426078
>ha look at that old loser
>I bet he's never seen a naked girl

>>75426078
>nice purple hair
?

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>>75426221

>>75426078
>I sure want to put his big gaelic dicc in my mouth
>Yeah me too
>>75425989
Life's quite boring here desu

>>75426254
looks like shite and her hair will be ruined in a matter of years probably
cake face also

>>75426185
Yep. Too bad I'm afraid of intimacy. Besides they were teen-agers anyway. At least somebody noticed me!
>>75426200
Nah they were admiring me, totally, right? >>75426254
Kinda like this but more emo. But not full emo.

>>75426374
>they were admiring me
>pointing at me
Lad, I...

>>75426391
Nah I'm pretty sure it was a good thing. Could tell by their facial expression.
Just wanted to share my success story with all u betas

>>75426501
pointing and smiling is NOT a good indicator mr autismo

>purple hair
>not taking it as a warning signal and staying away
Sad!

Feel 15 again lads

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_oATNSOqOj4

Life was so much easier (but still as lonely and awkward) back then!

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>>75426501
>my success story
>two teenagers looked in my general direction and made expressions which I interpret as positive

>>75426551
>/éire/ users knowing anything about women.
>>75426633
That's the meme. I want to believe!

>>75422418
>remember some teenage girl kissed me on the lips when I was eight or so
Normalfags out!

>>75424056
What did he do now?

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>!

>>75426692
drunk driving

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>>75426256
>Life's quite boring here desu
>implying any of us live exciting lives anyway
I wouldn't be going there for excitement.

>>75426721
>tfw you still get anxious when you hear teenage girls giggling on the street

>>75426814
Thats why you cross the road instead of walking past them

>>75426887
But I can still hear them. They could be laughing at me even though I'm sure that they are not.

Don't worry about what someone else thinks! Trust in yourself and you can be surprised at what you can do!

>>75427099
Thanks mom

>mom

>>75427192
>mam

>>75427254
Yes.

>>75427283
Makes you sound working class.

>>75427340
It's what Irish say.

>>75427340
Mum is more working class since its the influence of tabloids and trashy soap tv rubbing off.
Mam is rural.
Mom is middle class.
Mother is upper class.

and Ma is homeless tier

>>75427397
While I fully agree with the main part of your post, I can't say I've ever heard many working class people say "Mum". The only people I've ever heard say that were some D4 twats. I thought Mam/Ma were the main two working class variants, with the latter being more of a city thing.

https://www.10news.one/father-honor-rapes-daugthers-boyfriend/

/thinking/

>>75428062
I guess it's alright if the boyfriend raped the daughter first

>>75428062
Islam needs to steamroll Europe I'm tired of this gay society
inshallah

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went to wisconsin yesterday.
its amazing how many more whites you see if you drive just a couple hour away.
its basically a totally different country from chicago

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>>75428414
I can't think of a more fitting punishment for this society than getting all the foreigners they want.

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>>75420108
>It is but is a regular state of unease to the point where it's affecting your sleep not worse?
It's not so bad that I have sufficient motivation to hoist myself out of my rut.

>If a conventional life isn't for me then I'm not sure what is or how to picture myself in a good light in the distant future.
I used to think that things will eventually get better and I will catch up to everybody else in life in due course. But I don't believe that anymore. I can't see things significantly improving at all regardless of what I do. I'll just continue to get left in the dust by everybody else by all metrics by which success is measured in life. I shouldn't care about this and I try not to compare myself to others, but that's impossible for humans to do as far as I am concerned.

>>75420108
>>75429073
If you genuinely, truly want the life of a family man the first step is to stop posting here and start doing things a family man would do.

These things don't come about spontaneously , you have to make a conscious decision and work towards it.

Right now you are making a conscious decision to sit on 4chan and post anime images whilst blogging about your disatisfcation with your life choices.

The fucking nerve of it I swear to fuck

>>75420108
I still sometimes presume they will just happen for me.

Though I don't think I could ever see myself leading a conventional life like you mentioned, I don't really know what I'm meant to be missing out on if you give it some thought. It seems unappealing to have a partner you're expected to spend all your time with whereby eventually your relationship becomes a monotonous routine and distant, even loathing, from over-familiarity. Pool your finances around a large mortgage for an underwhelming house and struggle to simultaneously raise a child while also frightening the level of responsibility being a care-giver would be. All this requires a time consuming and unfulfilling job to maintain too. And this is all especially unappealing at the ages when it's expected of you to have achieved these things, which appears to be just as you're starting to deteriorate in or just before your 30's. It would be nice for these things to be possible in an ideal world where everything is... ideal, but it's not.

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>>75429417
>If you genuinely, truly want the life of a family man the first step is to stop posting here and start doing things a family man would do.
I don't though. I've never wanted children and I'm not interested in relationships. Why would I compare myself to others in a aspect of life that I have zero interest in. I was mainly referring to other metrics of success of life, even if children and relationships are the main two for most people.

>>75429417
>replying to anime pedos
>expecting them to be normal human beings
I expected more from a Northerner.

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>>75429574

>In a sense I always felt those things would happen for me at some point like it did for them but it never has and probably never will. Its hard to think positively about the future

Sounds like it's what you secretly long for, but you think you're not capable of attaining it