Why do I feel this way?

>>2913084
So what if it comes out bad? Not every piece can be very good, but if you don't give up, it can be.

>>2913084
you just start doing it

If you're not drawing, you're deciding what to draw.

And deciding is one of the most painful parts of the process.

Once you're drawing, you're not deciding. You're executing.

https://www.ted.com/talks/barry_schwartz_on_the_paradox_of_choice

>>2913084
Psychologically, we can split our self into the remembering, and the experiencing self.

The remembering self is the one that, generally, rules your life and decisions. However, the problem with the remembering self is that it doesn't often agree with what the experiencing self would prefer.

The remembering self is the one that makes people play loot-based or RNG mmos. It remembers the high peaks of success and makes it seem like a good idea to play them. However, by large an MMO does little for your well-being, and many features are literally just time-sinks.

On the other hand, drawing can be a fairly negative experience some of the time. You're dealing with failure and disappointment. Your remembering self is remembering your negative emotions that occur when you are the most disappointed, and it doesn't want to experience that.

However, just know that if you are down, you are remembering the most negative emotions and they don't represent the reality of the experience of drawing as a whole.

You can also work on becoming a more tenacious person.

"Researcher Dean Keith Simonton has compiled strong evidence that consistent creative output results as much from a vigorous spirit as it does from creative 'genius'. If you want to foster creativity, you need to foster a curious, bold, and tenacious personality and mindset. In every occupation Simonton studied-from composers, artists, and poets to inventors and scientists, the story is the same: a high number of creative breakthroughs is directly linked to the quantity of work produced and a refusal to let failure dampen enthusiasm or persistence. Regular physical activity reinforces the personality traits needed to be a creative dynamo across the board. "