>tfw you see another artist who obviously used your artwork

>>2910722
>be 16, be bretty gud for a 16 year old
>love art, only care about art, stay up all night drawing and rocking out to White Stripes
>be 23
>depressed as fuck for years
>burnt out after consistently studying for 5-6 hours at a time from hogarth
>become slowly exhausted at the thought of even drawing for fun
>cant draw anything for fun without eventually ending up studying
>own boxes of art supplies, paper, pencils, oils paints, charcoal, etc but never touch them
>start taking antidepressants and sleeping medication
>remember that i love art
>start drawing for fun again

holy shit the passion is back. Sure I regressed a lot and am shittier now but its better than not drawing at all

>>2910729
Do antidepressants really not brainwash you?

>>2910731
There's a pretty big misconception with antidepressants. Im not a zombie or anything, its more like someone upped the saturation slider in my life. I never really realized how hard it was for me to enjoy things. I hate "normie" entertainment and am only entertained by darker humor. This makes it harder to be social, but i honestly think that that isnt such a bad mindset to be in. Thats really just life, most of anything is shit and some of it is pretty good.

Depression making me lose my love of drawing and creating was the final straw for me though.

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>>2910729
>hogarth

>>2910741
I lost my love for creating around 18, I'm 23 now. I'm only just starting to feel like drawing again but it's so fucking hard without a desk or any sort of linearity in my life. I've been on and off a few anti depressants, but they seemed to just make me hate myself even more, idk man. I just want to draw again!!!

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>>2911013
If you want to want to draw, why don't you want to draw?

>>2910729
thats great! im glad you found the source of your exhaustion before you gave up

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>>2910722
>see another artist with basically the same style as you, but better

>>2912196
>he thinks he has a relevant style
all my fucking sides.
stop posting dunning kruger.

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>>2910722
I feel always more and more guilty for not drawing.
I got bored after few minutes of study, I can't draw for fun because I can't produce anything decent. There isn't anything else going in my life.
The good thing is that I don't even fear death anymore, going to end it soon

>>2910722
Can we see the other artist's draw?
Or if you feel confident enough, yours?

>>2912599
>stop drawing
>start contemplating suicide
I never want to know this feel
[spoiler]but at least you got a double 99[/spoiler]

>sister's friend asks me if I'm a good artist
>jokingly say I'm the best, all bravado, while pushing my sketchpad out of view
>asks if I'd want to draw her sometime
>reply only if it's in the nude
>Yeah you'd like that, perv
>scream internally when she heads back to my sister's room
>was working for maybe ten minutes before coming to the realization that she was flirting with me
>and I think I flirted back
Felt like I could crush boulders after that moment, it's a really good feeling learning a skill that I can feel confident about even when I classify myself under shit-tier, unlike vidya where I get casually embarrassed when someone sees me playing.

>>2912196
Had this sort of feel a while ago.
Use it as fuel to improve and work harder, don't get down or angry about it.

Work harder and longer than them and kick their ass (metaphorically).
A little competition or having an 'art rival' is a good thing. Set a fire under your ass and draw more.