How are you holding there, /ic/?

Stressed. Could be better.

My art is shit and as long as it is my life is worthless, zero sum shit and I deserve to die. I am thinking of jumping off a bridge.

The usual.

>>2868238
Want to die.

Met a girl, had an amazing time, as she left I realized I never got her number and don't know if I'll see her again. I live in Japan and don't speak much Japanese so that doesn't help either.

Made me realize I should push harder in everything so I don't slip due to stupid mistakes again, especially in art if I want to make it. Now I can understand that "RUAN JIA I'M COMING FOR YOU" dude.

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Trying to make more time for art as that's what gives me the most energy to keep going. How is OP?

>>2868254
Hah, me too.

>>2868238
Stop whining, just fucking draw. Everybody has problems, EVERYONE. Fucking first world citizens crying that they can't draw a straight line, and that some girl broke their heart. Just find happiness in yourself and what you do. You feel like shit now, but that doesn't dictate your future.

Keep your goddamn heads up and keep going, sitting in a pit separates you further and further from where you should be.

And shit, if you can't figure this stuff out yourself, go talk to someone, a counselor at school, a psychologist, or a family member. Stop wallowing, the more you keep your mind on it, the more it sticks and doesn't let go of its tight grasp.

Believe me, I've been there, I'm still there, but I don't sit and let my mind take a hold of me. I go out and do the shit I have to do for me to reach every small goal I've created.

You're made for more then some anonymous board on 4chan, close the computer and go draw.

I wanna die :)
I hate everything about myself. I hate my face, the fact that I'm black, the fact that I'm a man, The Fact the I'm an ugly black man.

I hate my voice, I hate being human. WIsh I was a computer program dicking around in a database somewhere doing what I do best and nothing more.

I hat the fact that I keep coming back here in spite of the toxic atmosphere. School's going well though but I'll probably mess everything up after I graduate from uni :)))

How's ur day? :)

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Violently suicidal, but what's new?

>>2868636
>similar thing happened to me
>didn't get a huge revelation like that
Hey, fuck you, anon

>>2868845
kek that pic soo funny and edgy

Not doing too good. Want to hang myself. Not much helps. No one wants anything to do with me. The only reason I haven't killed myself is that I want to make a name for myself through my work. I want to be among the best.

Mass Effect: Andromeda comes out next month, so if I can wait 5 years for that I can wait 30 or so days before offing myself.

>>2868845
>>2868856

Hedonism and materialism friends. Lose the two. Sharpening skill in anything is one of the gateways.

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- My drawing is progressing but I hope I can get landscapes and environments down before the end of Summer this year. Need to do more studies and shit, get better at painting.

- I honestly blew away my early 20's not having enough fun but at least I'm not 30 yet so there's that. I save my money and invest but I need to treat myself more, maybe go to Las Vegas and find some whore to dumb my semen into and spend some cash at the casino.

- Still trying to find ways to chase away my depression but fuck I really shouldn't complain, I honestly don't have it that bad as some other people, I don't need much else besides drawing these days.

>>2868841
>WIsh I was a computer program dicking around in a database somewhere doing what I do best and nothing more.

If you want to do that you can still do that anon, what are you waiting for?

Well, this thread got dark quick. Good luck with all the stuff, anons.

>>2868238
you know there's already like three art feels threads right? go bump one of them.

saged

>>2868835
/thread

just be yourselves guys

>>2868841

is this you >>2866083

Are these threads reportable yet?

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I am doing alright. I have a roof over my head, I am not starving, I can afford to spend a couple bucks buying stuff for fellow artfags on /ic/.

I am going to school, getting my two associate degrees in a year and then joining the military. I want to work on vehicles and get deployed somewhere risky. I don't have any family who will miss me if I die, so it's not a big deal.

I don't worry about money anymore. I worked a lot during my teens so I have 45k saved in stocks, bonds, and retirement account.

Art skill wise, I think I am pretty shitty. I don't have a lot of time to practice now that I take 5 classes this semester. I draw only ~2 hours a day.

GONNAMAKEIT

>>2868901
you can report them but i'm pretty sure /ic/ has no mods

>>2868896
No, wish it was though.

>>2868238
>tfw I thought getting rid of materialism would set me free
>it did
>now there is nothing left in this world I would desire, drugs, traveling, love, anything
>art is the only thing I care for
>I suck at it
I'm doing pretty good my friends.

I just want draw cute cartoons. But then I feel I'm leaving behind my masculinity to draw cute things. And then I think to myself....

>well who am I trying to appeal to?
>who is my audience exactly
>who DOES like cute things?

Everyone loves cute things, that's in human nature. But I mean, cute and girly things? Then who is my audience? Young white teenage girls. Do I really want to appeal to this demographic when I'm a nonwhite male? It's bad enough that I cannot get on mic and use my voice to talk about my cute art because I'm not a girl. It is expectation to be a girl.

But then I ask myself...
>am I retreating to draw cute things because I don't want to sit through the fundamentals?
Cartoons are easy. Sure there is fundamental knowledge but to be honest not much to draw tumblrcore style. Am I abandoning my true cause to be a great artist in favor of a short, easier road?

It's not that then my audience. Do I really want to appeal to an audience that I cannot relate to but the fact that I want to draw a certain subject matter appeals to that audience anyway? I don't know. This is where I stand. I cannot think my way out of this.

>>2869078
Just draw what you want to draw. Does anything else really matter?

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>>2869078
>It's bad enough that I cannot get on mic and use my voice to talk about my cute art because I'm not a girl. It is expectation to be a girl.

do it anon, you'll stand out. especially if you're a big burly black guy who looks like he belongs in a rapper's music video, but instead you see him in his room surrounded by kawaii plushies and figurines, and he's on his mic with his big burly voice telling you about how to draw qt anime waifus.

you can get away with anything as long as you're good at what you do and you're still manly as fuck in other ways

>>2868835

Wow. You just helped everyone here.

That was very big of you. I'm glad you stepped up for the challenge.

Everyone, please thank this poster for their insightful answers and insurmountable strength.

>>2868238
I have no friends, no social life, am flunking out of college and I have to live with my parents at 22. Art is the only thing I have going on in my life but my art is shit.
3/10 could be worse

>>2869157
I can be your friend anon

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>>2868238

Well, you know....still holding like a Mac 10 grip.

>>2869132
Thanks anon. I do see that it is a way to stand out. Sometimes I just feel that it'll be awkward but I'll do it.
>>2869081
kinda sorta

I'm really good. I got my second commission ever today because I finally found an audience that is willing to pay for my art. I appreciate /ic/ and how it destroyed my ego over and over again, but I think I'm finally ready to move on.

>>2869215
Are commissions actually worth doing for a living?

>>2869215
I'm happy for you.

>>2869217
no, probably not unless you're straight up professional-tier (which I am not yet). I'm just fortunate enough to have a significant other willing to support me while I make art all day, the money will help but I couldn't support myself alone on it.