Why did the Rabbi keep trying to talk me out of conversion?
he knew you weren't serious and you suffer from autism so you didn't realize how obvious your body language and mannerisms are
To make sure you're actually serious
Judaism generally doesn't proselytize.
Partially because Orthodox (which is where the culture usually takes its cues) lifestyle is onerous, and partially due to historic persecution as minorities.
>>3054497
this
its like when you tell a random blonde gal you wanna fuck her in the ass and she keeps trying to talk you out of it
the way they look at it from the jewish people i've talked to
be a gentile/noahide: you only have to follow 7 laws that ensure you don't act like a barbarian
be a religious orthodox jew: have to follow over 600 laws, have to learn an entire culture, their language, and holidays, and have to deal with anti-semitism.
as far as the afterlife goes, jews don't think outsiders are tormented in the afterlife more than anyone else if they try to be a good person. christianity and islam are religions that are expansionistic at the risk of spiritual development for a lot of its members