Take a step back. >What are you doing wrong in your life and

>>7781215
Everything goes wrong. Idea of killing myself makes me relax.

You can start by posting in the right board

>>7781299
same

>>7781299
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>>7781302
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>>7781299
yep me too

>>7781299
Second that

>>7781299
I agree

/wsg/
Use it.

do my job well

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This pile of cancer and shitposts has more friends than my uni

>>7781215

2 days ago they found a high school friend of mine dead in his apartment. He hanged himself.

I went to his funeral yesterday.

We always watched malcom together.

Shit sucks.

>>7781946
thats a hella fast funeral. isnt it taking quite some time to get a coffin and gravestone and shit ?

>>7781970
perhaps he is(was?) a Jew. Funerals come quick because they don't do the whole embalming thing /shrugs

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>>7781215
My life is JUST'ed

>>7781299
Shit man. I feel you. The option always being there is comforting.

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>>7781215
I TRY to follow my dreams

>>7781215
Almost done with college and I have no plans for the future. Not much of a "problem", but I'm losing interest in life and "winging it" at this point is terrifying.

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>>7781215
>no social skills
>all I do is sit in my room every day because I literally can't socialise
>bored as fuck with life
>idea of killing myself at any time is, ironically enough, what keeps me going
>I guess that's pretty common around here
>have a gif of a qt redhead sucking a dick, because why not

>>7783053
What is the film I wonder? *Also is it worth watching to begin with?*

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>>7783178
It's an x-files spinoff called millennium, episode is Jose Chung's doomsday defense. I think it's worth a watch, especially the second season. Don't bother with the third season though, it throws out all logic and doesn't go the post apocalyptic route like it should. BTW that episode is written by the same guy who gave us this episode which is the sauce of the ayy lmao meme.

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>>7783060
C'mon anons cheer up, get motivated, join the men's underground secret pugilist club today!

>>7783225
Thanks, I'll check it out.

Now that I think about "You'll never make it across scene" - the dude is not even trying and obviously has little traction for a take off. Shame.

>>7781215
>living american dream
>giant house on huge lot
>brand new vehicles
>6-figure salary
>super smart kids
>zero financial worries
>smoking hot wife even after 17 years and 2 kids
>wife has crazy sex drive
>i hardly want to have sex with her because i'm addicted to porn

I've tried stopping but here I sit with my dick in my hand looking at webm's.

I thought this was /gif/ and not /r9k/. The fuck yall doin, i dont see any tits in here.

>>7781215
Most of the things wrong in my life are my fault but I'm too apathetic/lazy to do anything about it.
>NEET
>K>>7781215
issless virgin
>Socially awkward
>Few friends, fewer close friends
>Been severely depressed for the past three years
>Never told anybody and probably never will
>constant suicidal thoughts, no attempts

Life is becoming comical to live

Nothing makes sense and the opportunities are dog shit

Demons in control of wealth and fear striking the marrow

Pain and discomfort is becoming the norm

People on edge

>>7781215
>22 years old
>Just single after a 5 years relationship
>Fuck a randon girl every weekend
>Graduating in economics
>Don't want to work in a shitty job
>Rich parents
>Don't need to work
>Just sitting at home thinking about travelling the world

A thread in /gif/ which gives me the opportunity to reflect on my life instead of just stocking up my porn collection? Well, alright!

Where should I start? I'm a NEET, I think that goes without saying. I remember when the word for what I am was just pathetic, or loser, now I'm a NEET. Okay. Well, I've been a NEET since I was 17, I'm 25 now. Since I was 17, I've had 3 different jobs and moved out of my parents' house once. 2 jobs I was fired from and the other I quit because my Tourette's Syndrome was so bad that it was affecting my ability to work. When I moved out, I only lasted 2 months, then I came back home.

I've tried many things to better my life, but it seems like everything I try fails completely and only makes me feel worse for having gotten my hopes up in the first place. I've attended Job Corps, an institution made for young adults to help them learn a trade. I left after 3 days. It was awful. I got expelled from high school at age 13 or 14, so I never graduated, so I tried getting my GED at 20 or 21 and failed by 3 points, then they changed the test and wiped my scores clean so I can't just retake what I failed, I'd have to take the whole thing again and it's harder now.

I've applied to many different jobs and have not gotten any calls back. I went to live with my sister for a week, hoping for work, but she lives too far from the city for me to find any jobs close enough that I can get to by walking, since I don't have a license and I can't get a ride.

I have no knowledge of the outside world and am the most naive person you'll ever meet. I learn something every day because I have no experience or education. I just recently hit the 200+ pound mark on my weight because I don't go outside much or exercise. I don't socialize and I have only one friend who I rarely speak to because she's too busy being a productive member of society.

I've tried to kill myself twice but have failed both times. The second time, I was hospitalized for a weekend.

>>7781215
>be 21
>introvert
>barely any motivation for anything
>haven't done any physical activity outside of walking around the house or to/from classes
inb4 fat, I'm anorexic skinny (not actually anorexic though)
>only have one person I consider a good friend
>most people I know I would consider as an acquaintance rather than a friend
>physically feel like shit, I'm probably not eating enough and/or staying hydrated
>kissless virgin
inb4 ugly, up till this point in my life I've viewed women as a distraction from my studies and sinkholes for my money so I've never actually tried forming a relationship. Same reasoning can be applied to the no friends thing.
>distrustful of everyone to some degree
>not really any actual hobbies, play vidya to pass the time though
>would go camping/hiking but not physically fit anymore
>just trying to get through the rest of my CIS degree
>went full statistical racist and holocaust skeptic after spending time on /pol/

Well I view these as mainly temporary problems, hopefully these will get fixed along my ideal future plan:

>exercise in between schoolwork
Getting exercise will hopefully fix my food/social issues too (more energy out need more energy in, more confidence)
>finish my degree
>get a guy I know to hook me up with an okay job in my field (known him forever and he's already said he would help out after I finished my studies)
>get an minimalist-okay place to live
>try not to turn that place into post-apocalypse conservation level /diy/ shithole (like hording but actually finding obscure uses for everything to save costs)
>get some guns and take them down to the ranges every now and then
>get outside hiking/camping more
>find a decent (read: white, outdoors oriented, and preferably /pol/ minded/approved) girlfriend on a dating site or some rally
and then basically just see what happens from that point on...

Still trying to get the motivation to exercise...

>tldr some sad shit, go ahead and shit on me now

>>7783324

>Continued...

The cafeteria food was actually really good. All kinds of tasty entrees and desserts. I'd highly recommend it.

Anyway, this isn't much of a continuance but I couldn't fit this last bit in the other post.

If it wasn't for the fact that I have such a good sense of humor and laugh constantly and have had sex before, I would probably try and kill myself again but most likely fail a third time anyway.

>>7783326
After seeing this posted I deeply regret my choice in formatting with the greentext. My bad.

>>7783342

It's okay, Anon, we're all fuckups here.

Well I don't have a job, my business tanked, I'm crashing couch to couch my car is a piece of shit and my girlfriend broke up with me today. She saw me with my friend and assumed I was cheating with her, so she went out and fucked some dude, then apparently fell in love with him. Dodged a bullet there I suppose.

Plus I just fucked her friend who I was actually hitting on in the first place (when we first met) tonight so it all kinda worked out.

>>7781299
Seconded.

I blow every opportunity I'm ever given and I not only relive the failure in my mind but I also think about how I could have executed it right the first time. Then another opportunity shows up and I fuck that one up too.

Only death can break the cycle.

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>>7781759
samefagging wont take away your lonliness, only death, do it faggot

>quit smoking pot in your moms basement
>get a job
>make money from job
>burn money
>kill yourself
you sad pieces of shit

>>7783429
just like my animes

>>7783429
>smoking pot
I may be a sad piece of shit but at least I can say I'm not a degenerate

>>7783441
then you have no excuse, kill yourself tonight on snapchat

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possible VR in the near future is the only reason I'm still alive

>>7783449
>kill yourself
>implying I would end my non-degenerate life by doing something degenerate

Ill post I guess since I dont really have anyone to tell or that will seriously listen.
>Get a job
Because im broke as fuck
>Start working out 3x a week
>Fix my hair
Because my hair is thinning at 22 but not bad if that makes any sense
>Finish school
Switched majors alot and this is my 5th year but still have a good GPA
>Get a girlfriend
>Commission as an officer in the air force
>Get a spot in flight school
>If no spot then do my time for this country and then try to get into law school or go back for something different
I have no clue why it has taken me so long to grow up, but you have to start somewhere. I have put out a lot of job applications, I hope I get something back soon, im sick of being broke, skinny as fuck, and alone. The only way im going to get a cool, decently attractive girl is to fix myself. Just want to be happy and do my best. Been wasting my life.

>>7783472
>The only way im going to get a cool, decently attractive girl is to fix myself

>I base my happiness on other people.

yadungoof'd

I'm in love with a girl from the other side of the world. We know each other for over 5 years and although we do like each other, we don't really know how to get to the other, so it may never happen. She proposed that if we get to the age of 50 and are still unmarried, we should marry each other.

>>7783496
get money, go visit. see where that ends up? You will probably be the one most liking going to see her.

fuck im actually posting on gif.

>>7783480
well the problem is I am a jobless, skinny fucking loser, who just goes from school to home everyday because im pretty fucking embaressed of myself. Atleast I can admit it. I hate the way I am. Im going to change and this next year is the year it is going to happen. Im sick of the rut I am in. Im sick of how I look. How is that basing my happiness on other people? Im basing my happiness on how I want to be.

>>7783496
Dude go for it! It will make you happy! Stop wasting you life like everyone in here. Youre here for motivation for this right?

>>7783468
>implying I would end my non-degenerate life by doing something degenerate
>non-degenerate life
>degenerate life
>life
Your on 4chan arguing about your life decisions on a gif porn board, implying you have a life to begin with.

>>7781215
If sitting here doing nothing but playing videos games.
There is no way to fix it and hasnt been for a few years. Even if I did go out and started talking to people, I would just end up being made fun of, and not really being anyones friend.

>>7783527
Okay fair point, I'll revise my statement
>implying I would end my non-degenerate existence by doing something degenerate

Determining what category they are in, could decide the reason they would commit suicide. “Durkheim’s categories [are] —egoistic, altruistic, anomic, fatalistic”.[3]

Durkheim explains that egoistic people over think and reflect on everything. They tend to have high knowledge, and don’t integrate into society well. Protestants, for example, may default to an egoistic personality. The altruistic person devalues themselves and treats the opinion of the group very highly. Those who lead a very strict life-style or are a religion that is very strict on obedience (such as Catholicism and Judaism). Self-sacrifice is considered part of altruistic suicide. Anomic suicide can result from someone who does not control or limit their desires. They satisfy every desire, and have no regulation. On the other hand, Fatalistic suicide will usually occur in someone who has high regulation and does not satisfy many of their desires.[3] While these categories apply to suicide today, it is these types of personalities that made people more susceptible to suicide anciently.

In ancient India, two forms of altruistic suicide were practiced. One was Jauhar, a kind of mass suicide by women of a community when their menfolk suffered defeat in battle; the other was Sati, a suicide of a widow on the funeral pyre of her husband or after the cremation.[4]

>>7783540
Thats all nice but nowadays people mostly kill themselves because of trauma/mental disorder/deformed at birth.
So most people (i'd say virtually all) do not kill themselves because of the reasons you listed.

>>7781215
I want to get laid
bit i'm not.


What do?

>>7783584
Find gym filled with female bodybuilders...
Taunt them while wearing easily torn clothes...
Get raped I mean "laid" by them in the process...
Profit?
Sue them for assault...

>>7783282
>>living american dream
>>giant house on huge lot
>>brand new vehicles
>>6-figure salary
>>super smart kids
>>zero financial worries
>>smoking hot wife even after 17 years and 2 kids
>>wife has crazy sex drive

Left out living in all white nation and lots of guns other then that sounds like heaven.

>>7783318
Liucky bastard,

Did you meet her when you were 17.

>>7783355
was that guy not a white guy? If so she is a race traitor.

>>7783676
How the fuck would that happen?

>>7783326
Only get the best when it comes to firearms and no such thing as a "racist" only an educated person on facts and history.

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Because people come to /gif/ for fucking life advice you retarded nigger.

>>7783784
I wish I could live in Switzerland.

>>7783798
It could happen.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=awgwUfmLAxg
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ERfgylj37tI
But you're probably right on not being able to sue them since people tend to side with the women in a rape scenario even if you're the one being raped.

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>>7781215
porn

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>>7781215
Intimacy anxiety. Whenever things turn sexual I cramp up and steer away from it. Don't know why, don't know how to fix it.

Otherwise it's all good.

>>7783803
>Only get the best when it comes to firearms
Well of course. I've got a cousin and uncle who are really big on guns, so I'll definitely be asking them for recommendations.

>no such thing as a "racist" only an educated person on facts and history.
To be fair I'm sure there are at least a few "racists" that are completely ignorant of the statistics/history, but you said the gist of what I was trying to get across. Also I guess I should have commented in my post saying the racist bit wasn't really a problem.
>I've been hiding my powerlevel in public for most of my life
>this is just a little bit more to hide
>well in the current social climate at least

>>7781946
I call bullshit on this.

>>7781215
Resting Bitch Face Syndrome. makes me look unapproachable.

>>7781215
Depression and anxiety. I mostly watch webms and gifs on war or rekt threads. I like watching people getting killed. Makes me laugh and feel a little better

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>>7781215
>Not making enough money to build a home
I may get a different job, either machining or HazMat cleanup.

>>7783496
I was you 4 years ago. I didn't do it, but the important part was that I DECIDED not to do it, then I found something I was great at and now I'm doing pretty well.

The shitty part is taking forever to decide if it can be done. Easy to keep putting off your future because "it all might change". Just make it change.

Me being fat, since I was a kid and my parents not doing anything to help me
when I got older and finally started working out and stopped eating tons of shit I lost a lot of weight, it felt so good
Then I suddenly encountered problems
I (am) was, for whatever reason, sweating way too much
Like going outside in winter without wearing anything and not doing anything I will still sweat, my whole back and my face
That makes talking to other people or even just working at the restaurant really hard, makes me want to kill myself
went to a doctor but she didn't help me
Next is my literally autistic brother
my mother is working all day, my father doesn't care about us at all, he's just insulting us all day, drinking and throwing our money away with gambling
so I don't really have the time to go outside and meet people, because I have to take care of my brother all day, make him food and help him with his homework while dealing with my uni stuff and work to make money at the same time

and finally, I thought my dick looks so small because I'm fat- but after loosing weight I realized that my dick actually is super small
I have to jerk off with my fingers only, that's hoe small it is
Means I will never have a girl asking if I have something in my pocket or I'm just happy to see her
Means I will never really have sex, I don't even know if I want to, I don't want to put a cute girl in such a uncomfortable situation

So I eventually started getting fat again, now I'm like really, really fat and not feeling anything, I don't even want to kill myself desu, it's more like I don't care, I feel dead inside

I guess the easiest way to fix my problem(s) is to not give a fuck about my family and moving away as far as possible
Not sure if I can do that tho, I'm too much of a good guy aka beta

I have wasted a majority of my time jacking off and playing video games over the last 10 years

>what are you doing wrong?

Nothing, anonymous. My health is a disaster of chronic pain and inflammation. My home life was destroyed by an actual factual undiagnosed bi-polar/schizophrenic/maternal narcissist that has stolen every dollar of Christmas and Birthday cash from the grandparents I've ever received, every dollar from every job i've ever had. She will always use proxies to engineer it so she gets the money, or I get homelessness. Last year she lost her job and kept herself out of work, only finally getting a job after she'd cleared out the last of what little savings I had. It was a choice between "be homeless sooner" or "be homeless later." The only reason she allows me to live with her is because she is a manipulative sadist, and that's how she gets her jollies.

I have a chronic pain disorder that makes it impossible to live alone. I tried making friends, but my mother pretty much turned my younger brother into a brat and terrorized them for not smiling whenever the little bastard would leap on them knees-first. As a teenager I distanced myself from them because she was SOCIAL TOXIC WASTE and embarrassment and I was hoping she'd stop being so clingy and controlling as I grew up into a teenager. I hung in because I thought by 16 I'd be able to have a job and work through my teens.

No such luck. She put herself in a massive financial hole and banged the "we're family. we stick together, you need to step up, be a man and help me financially" drum. I had no choice but to agree if I made any money, she'd get to keep it all, or move out as a minor. I couldn't do the latter. I still wanted to work and save money to afford school. I thought she was just having a rough time. But she wasn't. She engineered her own rough times to prevent me from having any independence, social or financial.

By the time I was 18 I was informed she would no longer tolerate my living there rent free. She extorted me for two more years before I curled up in a ball.

>>7783244
Wouldn't it be better to have TTGL's inspirational music?

>>7784113
I dealt with her harassment, her threats, her abuse, her literally stealing money from my sock drawers whenever I had it and buying garbage for the y2k thing.

See, she's one of those psychotic "the apocalypse is coming" babybooomers. Want to know a secret? Those types are depressed nutcases. Psychopaths that play out this histrionic game of trying to pretend reality is going a certain way to browbeat god into hopefully resetting the universe and sending them all to heaven in a Rapture. They want this so badly they're willing to show their devotion, sort of as a way to chide god into hurrying up.

But she also became a hoarder, and delighted in every dollar she stole from me and every spare dollar she had becoming another pile of canned garbage food on the floor. Eventually the house ran out of room for places to put anything, we had no money because she'd just spend all of hers on garbage, and any money I made would just be appropriated and earmarked for whatever she wanted. My only way out was to take my mentally ill, physiologically sick ass and go live in a gutter, no help, no money, no hope, and try my luck.

Years passed. I begged and begged for help online, no one gave a shit. No one gives a shit if you need help but you have a dick. I've seen over twelve cunts get help, places to live, money, etc. I've never seen a male in my situation get the kind of help cunts do.

>>7783156
You aren't going to gain social skills by staying in your room and obsessing over the fact you have no social skills

>>7784132
>and how are you going to fix it if you even care?

I don't really care anymore. It's abundantly clear to me looking back on my childhood that my parents deliberately sabotaged my social life, my health, my finances and my future because they want me dead, but want so many circumstantial proxies between them and responsibility that my death will look like my fault, alone.

Imagine if you will, a person that steals your money. The refuse to buy anything else with it but junk food. You stop giving them what little pocket money you get and keep it hidden, lest their attention be called to it and they seize it. They eventually discover you've got a wallet full of 10 years of savings- coming to less than $800 dollars.

They start buying only garbage food. They may even start sabotaging your toothbrush. Anything to make your teeth start rotting en masse, no matter how good you try to eat, or how many times a day you brush/floss/rinse. Miraculously, for whatever reason, your teeth start disintegrating.

She refuses to help you with the dental bills. She dusts her hands free of helping you financially, but will ALWAYS be willing to buy junk food and candy and plunk it down in front of you, even act like YOU OWE THEM because they bought it for you. You say, 'I can't afford it,' she says, 'then get a job.' Knowing full well she only wants you to work so she can extort your entire paycheck just to keep perpetuating the abuse you live under.

One winter she loses her job. She begs you for some money to keep the house from foreclosing on the mortgage. You cave because her abuse has hurt you so long, or perhaps because she's drugging your food with her own thyroid/heart medicine that you suffer chronic and prolonged, excruciating panic attacks from the harassment. You hand over your last $300.

Your tooth rots enough a filling falls out. You ask her for reimbursement months later to help you pay for it.

She refuses and says 'deal with it yourself.'

>>7781215
>be 27
>got a medium-paying easy job
>got a milf GF
>appartment in remote area of town, neighbours never make trouble

there's nothing to improve
better paid job = more stress
younger GF = potential kids / divorce in future
bigger/better house = why?

Only thing I am sort of missing is friends (got some in neighbouring cities, moved to this city 2 years ago), but I don't have the time to spend with friends anyway...

>>7784154
I have no real solution for dealing with it. I can't afford to move out, I have nowhere else to go. I can't join the military with my chronic bowel problems, I can't go to school with my learning comprehension problems + pain disorder + weird intestinal paralysis from stress thing. It's just a gateway to debt and failure. Even buckling down and doing absolutely nothing but work, minimum wage/part time, the only thing available here, won't cut it. Not even just to live hand to mouth.

My days are numbered and there's nothing I can do about it but ride it out until I can't live here anymore, then go into a homeless shelter until I'm not welcome anymore. Probably to die of tooth infections or gastro-intestinal disease. She's done too much bizarre shit for me to not believes she keylogs the family desktop. She can and has moved every goal post to grind my face into shit that she couldn't possibly have known about or that I was thinking about unless she was reading my text in the secret places I typed it. I've tested it.

Far as I'm concerned, I'm already dead.

>>7784176
Steal shit right back from her. She's already proven it's fair game.

>>7784053
Fat/ sweating: go raw vegan. Dick size: go to Asia?

>Be from former communist country
>Early 90s after communism collapsed, parents who were living in a tiny dorm decided to move to another country illegally (no other choice)
>Father abandons us cause he wanted his buddies and his career back, moves back
>Mom working 2 jobs to support us
>Spend entire childhood at school and alone at home while mom was working
>We get Canadian permanent residency
>Dad throws fit but begrudgingly comes with us
>Proceeds to not work for 7 years or do any house work at home while mom working 7 days a week
>Constantly spends our money to go back and forth to his old country
>Yells at mom when she gets on his case, lightly hit her a few times
>Mom diagnosed with cancer, dad forced to get part time work
>Still goes back and forth to old country
I've had a pretty fucked up upbringing, and I managed to suppress all this stuff, but after the cancer, it just all came out at once. I don't even know how to deal with this, or how to confront him. I got a degree in comp sci, and the startup I worked at recently went under. I could easily get another job, but I just can't get myself to do anything. I just lay in bed, smoke weed, and try to distract myself through video games and tv shows to get all these thoughts out of my head. Oh and I was cursed with man boobs despite not being fat, so I don't really have any confidence, even though i try to fake it.

>>7781299
literally me

>>7784194
when I was a child I entertained those sorts of thoughts. Those years I didn't suffer from panic attacks.

I still don't know if what I suffer from are panic attacks or her drugging me with something, but I can't prove she's slipping drugs in my food. But the point is, she leaves low hanging fruit everywhere and keeps note of it, because that's just the kind of person she is. Set you up to fail, try to twist the narrative until it's all about your failings. It's why she won't stop buying beer I refuse to drink. It's so when she threatens to call the police over a domestic disturbance, she can point to the beer and imply I get violent and aggressive when drunk despite not drinking alcohol.

The only money she really keeps around the house and not in her bank or credit card is the sort of petty spending cash she's *hoping* I start trying to steal. Because carefully monitoring it, 'noticing' it and incriminating me for it would give her credibility that isn't a total lie to telling everyone I'm stealing from her.

She's been *incredibly* thorough.

>>7784204
>compsci
You literally could not be more worthless

>>7784216
don't be jelly, thats the one thing I have going for me.

>>7784143
wow, I'm sure he would've never thought of that by himself. Are you a genius?

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>>7781215
>What are you doing wrong in your life
probably literally everything

>>7784176
keked hard

>>7784143
Then how should you gain social skills?

>>7784211
Just steal her shit and your shit back. You dont deserve anything she puts you through.
Whats she gonna do, call the police and say that you've stolen from her? Explain to them your situation and maybe they'll be able to help with moving you out or kicking her out of the house

Grow some balls man. This is your life, not hers. You are the only thing that matters

Whenever she buys junk food, pick it up, go to the store return that shit, buy better food and just fucking ignore her. If she starts complaining, fucking tell her to let you help her.

Take control of your life. Maybe even her life if you want to help her, since it seems like she obviously needs it

>>7783326
You sound so much like me I would be really interested in talking to you. Only difference is I'm not a virgin and not as heavy on /pol/. Everything else applies.

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why is /gif/ filled with so many betas that feel they need to 'dear diary' here. This aint your blog faggots.

>>7784542
Then why are you bitching like it's yours?

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>>7784550
how fucking dare you speak to me pleb

>>7783496

>>7783511
>>7783523
>>7784016

Yes, it is possible, but not so easy. My teenager heart tells me to just go and see what happens, but I'm an adult and if you know adulthood, you know the world just gets in the way.
I could just walk the yellow bricks, but there's still something else.
She only wants me if she doesn't find a good husband by her 50's. If she doesn't find a good one, she'll get the bad one (me). So I think it's beyond my reach.

>>7783977
Woah! Lookout erreybudy! This guy here really stands out in crowd. He's a straight-shootin son of a gun that'll tell you with a quickness just how enlightened he is!

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>>7784542
I blame the new /pol/ newkids spamming yly, war and other non porn shit.

>>7781215
Ran away from drugs to a new side of the country. My ex stopped being in love with me, destined to be forever alone. Working at Walmart. I'm 26. Currently have $100. Paid every 2 weeks. In debt -500 ( not including student loans )

How to fix? Simple really. Hold out till 27 and become an hero at 27

>>7784400
talk to the mirror all day

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>>7781215
Everything is going according to plan.

Have always been alone and will be forever alone. Marrying, girlfriends, or sex (excl. masturbation) are not part of the plan.

Plan: become part of the top 0.001%, live enough to get to see the far future, games, porn and everything else should be better then, even if just for technology. If Ray Kurzweil can live forever, so do I, way younger than him. Let's be optimistic, the roughly at most 100 years you can live in early 21st century suck when compared with what you could live in the 31st century. Because of technology, technology can do anything given enough time, and shape the world into some form of utopia.

The plan is roughly:
1. Work and get money
2. Work more and get more money
3. ???
4. Be part of the top 0.001%
5. Use the money and technology to become immortal
6. Use the money and time to live in a sort of paradise

Except step 3 is happening after my death. Spoiler: everybody dies, the plan is only a passtime, something to do with the time that I have until I die. I know I could do several billion different things, most people do, I totally do not care about those things.

For all the people speaking of suicide, it is pointless, you are dying sooner or later, no matter what. While you wait for your appointment with the reaper you can try (or get) to do something that you consider pleasurable, interesting, transcendental or relevant for any other reason, in the end it does not make a difference. If the whole planet was swallowed by the Sun today, nobody would care about it tomorrow. In the broad view of things, nobody cares, nothing matters, nothing is relevant, and the narrow view is just narrow.

>>7781215
I just dropped College, my gf broke up with me, currently unemployed and I don't know what to do with my life...

>>7783417
>>> teenage kid still loving at home
Dont know life problems.

>>7783326
I'm really happy that I'm not the only one suffering from this but I'm sad we suffer this.

>>7783460
what is he doing?

>be 24 years
>join partnership in printing firm
>26th come
>partner cheat
>got kick out from firm
>girlfriend leave me
>qualification too high
>no job
>no money
>dota 2 all day
>cry in bed

>Quit smoking
>Go to school
>Fix relationships
>Don't rely on drinking for stress
>Kill myself

All of these work.

To all the neets thinking about killing yourself - you don't realise how much you have to lose. The world is amazing, but you need to move, to do stuff to actually realise it. And you need to realise that life is a perfect RPG game with infinite choices, storylines, and believe me, endings too.

You know what keeps me going on depressive periods? The fact that in just 1 hour of train ride I can be somewhere where I have never been before. Where nobody knows me, where life is, maybe just a tiny wee wee bit, but different. The fact that I can pay few hundreds $ and fly to be on completely different side of the world. The fact that you can do anything.

Remember that bullshit that parents on TV say to their kids, "you can be anyone you want, president, doctor etc etc"? That's not a bullshit. If you want to, you can be president. Really. All you have to do is to make right choices in your life walkthrough. However, there are enough purposeful jobs for everyone. Loners can go to fucking south pole and be there with team of 6 for half a year, or live in a fucking lighthouse. Extroverts can go to fucking India and make friends with millions of people.

The world is huge, the world is beautiful and has so much to offer to anyone.

>>7783318
Do it. Tell everyone you are going on vacation and fly to fucking Iceland.

>>7783156
sauce

>>7788208
fuck off

>>7788325
Oh yeah, and remember that nobody owes you anything. That's one of the rules that people forget.
Literally nobody owes you literally anything. And that works vice versa - you don't owe anything to anyone.

>>7781215
My girlfriend doesn't want to see me anymore since she got diagnosed with cervical cancer because she's not sure I can be there for her.

>>7788360
Looks like you're not the only one killing that pussy now.

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>>7788394
FUCKING KEK

>>7785650

Something about this point of view has always bothered me: if nothing matters, why does it matter that nothing matters? Why is it *so important* that everything is meaningless? Everything is irrelevant, so why belabor the point? If effort is meaningless, so is being lazy, and neither is better than the other. So many people who hold these nihilistic points of view ascribe this intense drive towards apathy, as though apathy were somehow superior despite that being a direct contradiction of the truth they hold so dear. If everything is meaningless, then every given individual is absolutely free to ascribe meaning to whatever they want, because the meaninglessness itself is, by definition, meaningless. Any time you try to say 'nothing matters so why bother' is just a cop out, an excuse for you to pretend like your own fear and laziness are somehow rational or excusable or justified or something asinine like that. You need no reason to bother other than 'because', because any and all other reasons are equally pointless.

>>7781215
>Behave stupidly to socialize and to get more attention
I try to fix that, but once social stress kicks in it's hard to avoid it

>Other's start talking with other person while I'm in the middle of a conversation with them and I'm talking. I fucking hate that
I don't know how to fix that. Doing the same seems to have little to no-effect, plus it's passive-aggresive, which is humilliating.

>In relation with the first one, when I'm uncomfortable I tend to smile stupidly.
I try to fight that impulse but it's like an internal fight. Plus I don't know what can I do in those situations.

And in relation with everything, I know I have to be more assertive, but every time I reclaim my rights everybody gets mad at me. Once you fit in the bottom of the social hierarchy, it's hard to leave that place. Everybody tries to keep you there. On the other hand, you are more corageous than them since you have to fight for yourself with everybody against you.

>Something curious. At the beginning, when I meet other people, everybody behaves better towards me, respects me more, and sometimes I can even flirt a lot with girls. But once they start to test me, with puns I don't know how to return, and the stress starts making a mess of my mind (no memory, blocked mind...etc), they start treating me like usual.
My therapist doesn't believe that, she thinks that before that happens, I start thinking it will happen, like in a self-accomplish prophecy. I think sometimes it's true and sometimes it's not, but she doesn't teach me how to deal with social hierarchy and all that.

She only teaches me (or tries) to make me think I'm succesful in some areas, not to block at failure, and raise my self-steam. But for me, it's like motivating you to go to Syria to fight, but without carrying a weapon.

>>7788428
Not that poster you replied to but

Nothing matters simply because it is true. Just because we feel that something does, doesn't change that.

Humans are flawed in that we can understand the universe, how it works and about ourselves and how we work, but we can't change anything about it.

SO, if nothing matters, don't try to change how you feel about things, just do things because you want to. Achieve the most pleasurable outcomes for your mind.

>>7783496
did you ever by any chance gave her a blue french horn?

>>7788464

Sure, whatever, but it's the opening bit that's the problem. Most nihilists are just these intensely irritating proselytizers who feel the need to rationalize the fact that they're lazy assholes at every opportunity. They're worse than atheists or any kind of religious folks.

>living with my mom
the good thing is im 18 and just about to finish high school and try with my whole being to move to another country

>>7788360

She...doesn't know if you can be there for her so she doesn't want you to be there for her? Wat

>severed all ties with morbidly obese father and divorced alcoholic mother who goes to AA and pretends not to drink
>bought an old RV
>fixing it up while living in it
>working minimum wage, living in a wal-mart parking lot
feels gr8 to be free

>>7788428
This

>>7781215
>everything

>nothing likely

>not really

>>7788587

Where do you get your power and internets?

>>7781215
>don't get a job
>stole money from a friend
>plan to give him a bj in return
>failed all classes but i lied i passed them
>watch porn the whole day and i even fap when bf is busy working in the same room
>plan to avoid my family at holidays
>don't give a fuck about anything

>>7781299
same

>>7788930
You can steal money from me whenever you want.

didn't prioritize my health
so much so i got depressed nothing was being done about it for about 5 years, realized my colon needed to be replaced by a colostomy bag, got some shit shit in my kidneys, high-blood pressure, dehydration, eczema had gotten worse, hemorrhoids
i'm not half-way done with my operations but if i survive i'ma make a youtube channel
also, proper oral hygeine was never instilled in me as a kid, my mom brushed my teeth when i was 4, for a whole year, and i was turned off to the habit ever since

>>7781215
I'm obsessing over death. I am going to fix it by trying to help usher in the transhumanist future by studying computer engineering and prosthetics.

>last year i made 26k
>this year i made 40k
Seems to be going okay.

>>7781215
i was born to fail and there is nothing i can do about it.

What helped me when I bottomed out was Discordianism.

You just accept and embrace the absurdity of life.

The way ppl talk around here you'd think it would be more popular.

Now I'm a pope, and things are looking up. Hail Eris!

>>7789476
who the fuck wants to live forever

accept your demise

it's freeing

>>7790265

Yes! No one gets out alive!

Do what you consider important, and fuck the rest!

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>>7781215
If not a stroke of luck happens to get me somewhere I wouldn't mind being, it's somewhere between getting my shit together and joining the military or suicide.

Admittedly, going to bed and never waking up is probably the solution I want most.

>>7781215
Yes... No... Maybe.... I don't know. Can you repeat the question?

>>7788203
>>7784440
On the offchance anyone gives a shit, I (>>7783326) went to the doctor yesterday and my feeling like shit physically and low appetite might actually be from some form of appendicitis. Still waiting on test results though.

>>7788963
aw thank you anon
but it was $100
i don't think a bj worth it
anyway, friend is fucking rich so he will never notice it

Joined navy out of high school. Been with the same girl for three years now. 8/10, great ass. Boot camp is a breeze, corps school is a little more difficult, first command sucks a bag of hairy cocks. Stationed on a marine base but not attached to a Marine Division. No, I work in the naval hospital wiping senile retirees asses all day until they die. The day to day bullshit really gets to me some times but there's some good friends to be made. Since being here my alcohol and nicotine intake had skyrocketed. I'm five hours away from the love of my life and it drives me crazy. It's all petty shit, I know I have friends I can rely on and I have a steady paycheck but at the same time I have social anxiety and poor spending habits. On top of everything I don't know how much more shit I can wipe off of an elderly man's nutsack before I become completely desensitized. I've never thought I'd suicide but I just want to be somewhere else. This isn't what I trained for, this isn't what I wanted. Sorry for being newfag but felt like I should say something.

I'm trying to startup a production studio, I have the investment, network and the business plan but absolutely no confidence in my own ability.

Not sure what to do from here, last decade I haven't done shit but neet up, skate, drive places. I want to go back to school, but I've failed many times at that and my resume is laughable. Between trying something I might fail at, or staying alone in my room for another 10 years, breaking bones, drinking, smoking, etc.

>>7790827
Take the risk. Fuck worrying about failure. Everybody fails at some point. Those who bounce back win. Those who are too afraid to take the risk complain about the risk taker. You don't have shit to lose

>>7783795
shiiiiiiit I'm black dude.

>>7790448
>5 hours away

That shit aint gonna work out. You're gonna get keked. They don't make women like they used to.

>>7781215
Almost 40 i have never been in love uglies/dumb sluts chasing me hard. I fucking give up bro love isn't for everyone. since i was a kid all i wanted was a family for my own.

it's not gonna happen.. i'm hurt as fuck, everyday is a struggle.

I'm just focusing on owning some rental property so i can retire young and live with my dog getting high all day and watching sports.

You never get what you want in life so you take what you can and try to make it to the end.

I take anti-anxiety medicine just to get to sleep and once i month a just cry myself to sleep.

>>7790827
you miss 100% of the shots you don't take.

>>7783903
you're not alone. :( i can't trust anyone enough to get to that point i feel like a fucking loser.

>>7791387
My greatest fear because it could be a reality. I hate when people tell me that everything works out in the end. It doesn't always work out in the end. My plan, however, is to just pay for a child. Not adoption, fuck that, it has to be half me. You might not have the wife, but if you're a decent human being then being a parent will be awesome for you.

I am well liked by everyone, but loved by none. It is my curse, and I have no idea how I am really going to connect with someone. I feel so lonely all the time, and I have been stepping back and trying to figure out how to really, truly bond with people and I just can't seem to do it.

>>7784204
sometimes you gotta distance yourself emotionally from your parents. They are adults and these are their decisions. You are not responsible for them. pack your shit take your experience and try to get a job far away. It helps.

>>7788325
what world are you in sounds awesome I'm on earth and it's pretty much shit here.

>>7791438
i have a shit ton of friend but no best friend and no one i can talk to. The one person that does want to be close friends is a suicidal nut job. Seriously self centered jerk. Everyone says they love me but i guess not enough to get to know me. :(

>fat
>semi-attractive
>have relationship
>live at home with mom and piece of shit brother
>piece of shit brother makes good money
>I don't make shit
>on assistance because of mom
>can't work unless I go to school full time according to gobment
>work under the table doing shit jobs so I can do fun shit
>have no ambitions
>have anxiety with physical convulsions
>PTSD from physical and psychological abuse
>don't care, think about dying all the time
>have so much talent, skills, time, and yet I don't do shit because I hate myself

Eventually, I'll just be homeless because I can't keep making my mom take care of me. I don't care. I'm loved and yet I don't care because I hate myself and I want to die. I just don't care.

This all started when I was 15 and I had met my best friend (I'm 20 now). She was actually a pretty good best friend to me, probably one of the best friends I've ever had. She was abused at a young age and had gotten into self-harm and she attempted suicide multiple times, but she was a good person at first. She had been bullied when she was in elementary school and I believed it.

I later met the most perfect girl anyone could ever find and I am currently planning in marrying her, except he rand my best friend didn't really like Each other and I didn't know why.

I was really blind to how much of a bitch my best friend was. She had actually bullied people in school and still continued to bully people in high school, I just hadn't heard all of the stories. I mean yeah I get it that she just had a mind that struggled for dominance because of how she had been abused, but its almost like she would have been a bitch even if she hadn't been abused.

Anyway, a started to see how much of a piece of shit she actually was, and there was a huge falling out that basically split my whole social circle in half. Apparently everybody hated her anyway and was on my side. Although my girlfriend at the time seemed to think that I had feelings for my former best friend, which I didn't. I hate that piece of shit. Everything seemed really good for a while, then shut got really bad within my group of friends, because none of them understand the fact that everybody that you'll ever meet has problems and you can't just get pissed at them because they're projecting in some way. They would blame me for a lot of crap and always grouped up against me.

Shit at home was really bad too. It lead to me using my zippo lighter to burn myself. I'd just heat up the metal lid and press it against myself, that way it wouldn't leave marks on me.

>>7791522
>Con't

Money got pretty tight because my dad was on 80% pay because he tore part of his knee on the job. My parents didn't even know anything about each other. They couldn't even sleep in the same bed. It even felt like they didn't even care to know each other.

Life was hard for me because there was of course school on top of that. But there's always someone else who has it worse than you, right?

My girlfriend had an abusive father. He stopped beating her when she was 13 thankfully. She was always incredibly scared to go back to her house after leaving mine. The insides of her upper arms, her upper thighs, and her upper sides were all covered in scares and occasionally a lot of new cuts. We made a promise that we would make it to what we called One Day, which was the day that we would finally managed to escape everything in life, but there were so many times that I thought I was going to find out that she had killed herself after hanging up the phone. It's hard living a life when you have no strength but yet you still have to give the person you love most the strength so that they can make it to the next morning.

She got a job at HMV to impress her dad and to help pay the bills. He didn't even believe her for the first year of her job. Fucking prick.

I was once told that when going through hell, keep going because there's definitely something amazing at the end.

But I don't know what to do a lot of the time. I remember that I could never do my homework because I would be talking to her or because I was worrying about her, but then the next morning she would get upset with me because I hadn't finished it.

I do a lot to make her happy and she doesn't even know it.

What's a guy like me going to do? I don't know if I can keep her from killing herself sometimes and everything is hard

>>7781215

>wrong in your life

>wrong

subjective

>>7788514
A what? Blue french horn? Is that some insider's joke? I don't get it.
I only buy her books from time to time, but only the ones I've read. And not frequently at all

>>7791478
obviously you do care or you wouldn't be bothered to write about it. you can't be loved, period, unless you let self-love open that gate for others. please take the time to recognize yourself and what is important to you, it's going to be a long and hard road but I believe that you can do it

>>7784053
Leaving your family is not alpha it's cowardly

>>7791522
>>7791552
>listening to symphonic/power metal on youtube
>ended up going into Sonata Arctica
>only 2 songs in and already getting a little emotional
>pause that shit
>"Oh, I'll see what the new posts are on 4chan, laughing at idiots will surely shove my emotions back down"
>come here without looking at what thread tab I was opening
>read this
>realize I've never had anywhere as close of a relationship to anybody like anon has with his gf
>tears well up in eyes

fuck you guys I didn't want this feel

Just so I'm not being a dick, all I can say is try your best and make sure she knows she's not alone in this or something. Or don't, idk.

I'm the kind of person who usually tries to bury emotions with every fiber of their being so I'm probably not the best at this sort of advice.

>>7784053
Get fucking rich, you'd get more attractive and could take better care of your family.

BE THE HERO OF YOUR OWN MOVIE

>>7781299
this to be honest senpai

>>7783156
you are same fucked up as too many faggots to claim to be unique. This, anon, is the worst of all: when you realize that a large percenatge of male population suffers from the same mental ilness as you do.
Gif is superb, btw. Too bad it is not a real dick.
>dat hint of an ass in jeans
>dat stare

>>7790207
What's that gif from? I'm pretty sure that's David Mitchell.

>19
>salary job
>full benefits
>plenty of room to grow
>my own apartment
>leasing new car

It's nice, I'm happy. Just feels weird acquiring that ominous thing all the adults and parents told me I had to strive so hard for and put side frivolities in life. Logically everything is great, but I miss my gal I haven't seen in a year. Supposed to reunite around Christmas but I'm anxious/nervous.

I see people come in to work every day, sit down, do some bullshit, and go home. I could do this every day and be considered 'successful', but it makes me realize life is about the people you want to spend time with and love.

tfw everyone goes home at the end of the day to their wife/kids and I come home to 4chan and scotch.

I hope I win my grill back. I've made lots of improvements over this past year and I'm optimistic. All I want is to be a sysadmin living in the country with a 10/10 family.

>>7784053
fix the penis please
there are pills are pumps and some other tricks that can make your life better

>>7783156
The BEST thing to do is to not care what others think of you. Walk up to anyone and say anything. Think like this: "Oh, you don't like me or what I have to say? Good, I'll go try one of the other billion people on the earth and see if they like me"

I have no care what others think about me and I talk to everyone I can because fuck it I could care less. I have a very few amount of people who dislike me so I just don't associate with them.

>>7790448
you became a nurse
that's what nurses do

>>7784204
>>7791455
This.

My parents are pretty shit influences. Well educated, but sit around on Saturday's and smoke pot, yell at eachother, blame their problems on the kids, etc.

I value family a lot and would like to raise an excellent one, but the girl I've fallen for has had the hand of God placed on her family and I can't imagine she'd want mine as the grandparents of her children.

I moved out as soon as I could, stopped smoking weed recently, and feel amazing. I could stew about the parental situation (and sometimes still do), but you feel much better if you move on from it.

>>7791712
Peep Show, likely

My life is good and I enjoy it. I just live in the moment. Most days I get to do scientific programming that fascinates and challenges me, learn new things on the various instruments I play, cook good food I share with friends, and then fuck my girlfriend. I was a sad sack piece of shit once, but then it occurred to me that there are two kinds of people: those who make excuses and those who make shit happen. I resolved to be the latter. Life is so good if you both work for it, and change your attitude to accept the beauty of the moment instead of torturing yourself with the past and future.

>>7791709
it's even better because of the fact no real dick is shown, at least for me (not the guy who posted the gif)

>>7781215
Honestly I have no idea. I used to be able to work and be a productive member of society. Now all I can do is watch TV. I want to go out and live, but I can't do it. I don't knw why.

>>7791947
>joined band in elementary school
>only had the usual school band instruments (brass, woodwinds, drums, etc)
>end up being decent at woodwind instrument
>fast forward to highschool
>by this time decided violins were the shit, bored with the clarinet
>school has band and orchestra
>tfw already so ingrained in the school band/marching band that I didn't try to learn violin for the orchestra
One of these days I'll get some cheapo violin and try and learn it...

>inb4 gay jokes about woodwind instruments

>>7784550

because his life is less interesting than those already published here

>>7781299
same here bruh.

I'm awake right now because there was a meeting at my job I had to be at and I can't go back to sleep. Thought this would be an interesting read. The more I read on, the more I just think you lot are absolutely pathetic. There's no shortage of opportunity. I have a criminal record and a year ago I was homeless, and I've still been able to find a great career at only 23 with little to no real work experience other than fast food and retail. I wasn't a popular guy in high school. I don't look like a fucking model. Still go on dates with very beautiful women, I've had only a modest number of sexual partners and relationships. I've been bullied and beat up and mugged and even stabbed before. My family never had a lot of money, just enough to get by and they were always playing catch-up.
Want to know what I did?
I got my fucking ass off the couch/bed/computer chair and started getting shit done. No excuses, no procrastination, no fear. You just get the fuck out there and get shit done until you're in the place you want to be. You're lonely? Download Tinder motherfucker. Swipe right on every thing on your screen and learn how to talk to women. Pro-tip: They're just people.
Apply for jobs. Clean the fuck up. Be impressive. Pretend landing opportunities are matters of life and death and DON'T FUCKING DIE YOU PLEB.
But do more than that. Get out of your head. Seriously. Stop closing up and thinking and over analyzing it all. Life is chaos. You're trying to make sense of something that by nature doesn't make sense. The universe is vast and impossible and on the smallest level observable it is unstable.
Imagine you're playing a video game. Do you sit there for hours and hours and do nothing but analyze what you could do? No. You just do it. You don't even think about the controls, you know how to get what you want done and you do it. Life is the same way. Don't sit there and make excuses. You've spent your whole life learning the parameters of this game now fucking play it.

Anyone have an infanticide gif?

>>7781215
When problems arise i will deal with them.

>>7788325
Fuck you,
Fuck your stupid life philosophy

>>7784740
because they belong on the /gif/ board you dolt

>>7788325
Jammed for half a year in a small building with 6 other men is certainly not for loners.

>>7792326
Ty.

It seems to me, by quickly reading some of the comments in this thread, that most people are just waiting for something to change. If there is something life showed me, is that you get nothing easily, and you have to fight. You have to give a meaning to your life. And if you are in a shitty situation, just leave and start a life somewhere else. If you're open to opportunities, good will come to you. And I'm not religious or anything kek. But I understand that some of you people are depressed. If you look at the world we live in, it looks like shit. So turn of your TV, shut off internet, your phone and start doing things.

>fucked up everything so far with my life
>never tried to do well in school even though I could have aced everything easily
>fucked up with a job my dad got me, even though it was the easiest shit
>wasted $10,000 trying to go though with university
>nearly $5000 in debt to school with nothing to show for it
>living with parents
>haven't told them about fucking up so badly
I've considered packing up all my shit and leaving for somewhere, but I literally don't have the money

>>7781215
have loving girlfriend, but also skype friend from russia who is hot as fuck and wants me to fill her ass with my dick all day err day
addicted to porn
gf and i work so much we don't sex very often
fantasise about a trip to russia for unbridled buttstuff
gf is amazing but won't even swallow my cum, let alone butt stuff

>>7788325
I can tell from your writing you are trying to help, but that kind of message ISN'T helpful--ake it from somebody who has been suicidal for years.

If you have thoughts of suicide, getting professional help is the surest and fastest way to feeling better.
No ammount of 'amazing' bullshit in the world will make you realize what life is--because your life will be the same, amazing bullshit or not.

Most people who want to kill themselves view suicide as a solution to a problem that has no other solution. To put it another way, they're in pain and they killing themselves is the fastest solution they can see.

The reason why you need professional help is because laypeople will give you advice like 7781215--they don't get it. They think being depressed is 'having a bad day.'

They don't understand that some people are born depressed and no ammount of sunshine, 'amazingness,' beauty, or train rides can take away the sadness that lives inside you. They mean well--They ARE just trying to help, but they can't. They're trying to give advice about something they've never felt.

The good news is that sadness is not you--it's a disease. And like most diseases it can be managed--you can live your life and be happy while fighting the disease.

I know because I fight depression every day without medication and I spent seven years as a mental health worker.

>tl;dr -- get help from a professional or someone who has been suicidal before. other people don't get it.

Life has its up and downs. I was a depressed nerd living in the USA with no real family or future after high school. Using the tiny amount of money I did have, I decided to leave, and go far away. I spent most of my life on the computer, and my only 2 positive attributes at the time were being kinda decent looking and my gaming skills. So i decided to move to a big city in Asia to pursue a career in pro gaming. I even attended a school there, all while living in a room literally the size of a flat screen tv box for more than a 1.5 years, spending less than 25$ for food a week, and any left over money on cigarettes. I thought about killing myself weekly at that point but i kept fighting and dealing with the bullshit

Im 20 years old now, last month i earned 12,000$ from my career and the month before that 10k. I have a contract that guarantees a minimum of 6000 per month. Basically, i'm richer than 99.9% of 20 year olds in the world, with no outside help, only because of the extreme bullshit i went through that not many others have gone through.

Keep fighting , make a plan

>>7783472
>>7783513
You're a cool human. Keep going on man, things will get better.

>>7792202
If you find this depressing and retard shit "interesting" you have a problem son.

Not of mention the lots of "my parents are sabotaging my life". Blaming it on others has always been an easy way to run of your responsabilities, but that won't get anywhere.

Stop obsessing over how your life is "ruined" and look the fuck ahead retards.

If you hate your life, join the military. That will either push you to kill yourself because you are too weak willed to leave your mothers arms or make you realize your potential to kick ass and fuck randos. The future is entirely in your hands. Fear of that is crippling, realization is empowerment. Just please for the love of Anon don't go on another fucking shooting spree. Go kill religious extremist rag heads instead.

>>7792762
Out of all the posts, I feel your's is the most heart breaking. She won't swallow your cum?

Girls don't like me. I'm a pretty funny guy, skinny as fuck though. I go to parties, but I'm too awkward to talk to girls unless I'm in a bigger group. The one time I did talk to a girl one-on-one at a party for any length of time, she approached me and then left suddenly.

Trying to get some muscle on me, but it's hard to commit to.

Vastly undervaluing my skills for the sake of being comfortable where I am. Oh and I'm a fat virgin at 24

what keeps me going it's watching everyone live and be happy. i just find it beautiful

There is a girl I've been talking to online since late April/early May. We've been planning to meet this Christmas for awhile. I talk to her on Skype everyday. I was really excited for this because I've never been with someone besides family I care about this much. Last night, she said she wanted to wait longer before meeting. That was devastating to me. I've been in my bed all day, it's 2pm now. I feel like it's such a struggle to appeal to others. If I reach the point with this girl where we stop talking, I'm pretty confident I'd stop trying to find new people.

hmm, let's split it into categories:

>body
five years ago i couldn't sit upright, because my muscles were so weak. i still have calluses down my spine from where the bone pushed outwards, but i've gotten my shit together. i'm fitter than i've ever been in my life and feel really good.

>mind
i am way way happier than i can remember ever being since hitting my teens. getting regular exercise has improved my mood significantly. i'm still somewhat infauated with death, but i'm not all that suicidal anymore (especially compared to 8 years ago). 6 years ago i was dead inside. stood over the grave of my father and felt... nothing really. well, i was annoyed actually at all the work having to clean up in his wake. but i've since learned to feel something else than self-pitty and i like it.

>social life
non-existant. my only friend has moved abroad to be a hotshot neuro-surgeon. i had one other friendship that helped me a lot in the last few years, but it sorta fell apart (maybe i fucked it up - who knows). it made me really happy and showed me that human being are probably social animals, unlike i previously believed.
kissless, hugless virgin of course. but i'm actually fine. i've never gotten the appeal of relationships or intimacy, so i thankfully don't miss it. next year, i'll become a wizard, i'm really looking forward to it. :-)

>success
i have a law degree and i'm actually quite smart, but people frighten my so much and i'm so lazy and undisciplined, i pretty much squander all my talent, barely getting by with support from my mother. i don't care about money, but i would love to be successful at *something*. definitely the area i'm most unsatisfied with and i don't really know how to get over myself. been thinking a lot about entering therapy the last two years.

it's been going up the last few years. i shouldn't complain too much. but there's still quite a way to go :-/

>>7783318
What do you earn from travelling the world when you have nothing to offer it anon?

Wait, wat?
did a feels thread just happen on /gif/?

>>7793255
It's a catfish.

What kind of dipshit would make this thread on a porn board? I hope you die OP.

I'm actually an attractive, funny, smart young man, but I just can't tell myself to act like the people that I most resemble in front of women. I'm not so terribly awkward or anything, I just lose some of my personality in front of women I like. I need to treat them like guys or something. I need to demonstrate value towards them. It's not even so I can get in their pants, I just worry about not finding a girlfriend. Fuck having sex, it's just killing me not being in a relationship.

What's shitty is that I know there are so many benefits to being single, I can do whatever the fuck I want, hang with the boys at any time, etc. I place so much emphasis on how being single isn't what I want to be in my own mind that I can't enjoy how awesome it is to actually be single.

Fuck, I'm in a position to have a fantastic career, my family and friends are great, I'm in good shape (a little skinny, but I just moved into a new complex with a free gym, so that'll change).

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>>7781215
im 25

nothing will ever be ok

>>7781215
giving myself to selfish pricks and bitches just bc i feel like i dont fit in elsewhere

id like to try to find better friends in a music scene but finding people with maturity, integrity and similar beliefs. otherwise, i have no clue at this point

twf listen to really weird extreme music but slowly became somewhat conservative after many years of intense liberalism

twf you prefer traditional country folk but all your interests are too weird a niche and country folk are losing their integrity

>>7783362
This. Why can't I learn from my mistakes like a regular human being?

>>7794838
cuz youre not getting down to the psychological or philosophical or physical source of your problems. youre thinking about changing one particular decision. not the roots of your mistakes

>>7794836
What the fuck?

Your a fucking idiot kid...choose your friends better, learn to appreciate all music...and open your eyes to conservatives true faces.

Racists.

Traditionalists.

Hicks.

Fascists.

>>7792722
real shit right here

im just financially screwed at the moment so i gotta stay patient til i can make shit happen

>>7791983
try changing your diet. eat shit youll feel like shit. processed garbage will only weigh you down

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>>7794922
There is no rationality based in science that race doesn't exist. There is a belief and it involves dumbing yourself down in order to become someone elses slave. Liberalism is a religion and a greater "opiate of the people" than anything Marx ever dreamed.

You are living in a dream but your body knows its a lie; that is why you are depressed.

>>7781215
> Draw for 7 hours straight
> Finish, go to watch porn
> First thing I see is OP Post
> First time today figure out a plan
Thank you based OP I needed this

>>7794922
i come from liberal north jersey. being somewhat conservative doesnt imply all of that. ive met quite a few that arent fascist or racist. theres notthing wrong with a bit of tradition and i prefer the small town country atmosphere compared to how callous, self absorbed and materialistic "liberal" north jersey is. i dont fit into all the genderqueer/female dominated/novelty culture thats so big in the "underground" over there. i never did.
dont get me wrong, i like quite a variety of music but most the average indie/alt/metal just doesnt stimulate or relate to me.

most of the friends im talking about are materialistic money driven dumbfucks from that liberal area. its not as easy as "choosing better" when you dont fit in amidst a slew of extremisms. yes im more open minded and cultured than some of these "hicks" but we have similar outlooks on a bunch of things...
im slowly trying to get into hunting and saving up for an ATV so i can get around these mountains better
there is a music scene out here but its not as prevalent and im broke at the moment

>>7781215
>be pretty cool guy from ages 8-15 despite some family issues
>lose grillfriend of 2 years and get into a slump, stop caring about anything and just play games to fill the void
>do that for a couple years

>meet girl of my dreams
>extremely intelligent, valedictorian-tier short, short-haired angel
>date her for like 3 months
>doesn't work out
>know that I'm just not enough for her
>make a lot of really stupid, cringe-worthy mistakes around her
>make a plan to get my shit together and start being awesome again

>hitting the gym
>join a shitload of clubs
>start being a perfectionist in all my classes and not settling for anything less than mid-level As
>stick with plan for about a year before I head to uni
>feel okay for awhile

>go to the same uni as her
>majoring in engineering alongside her
>making good progress, but not perfect
>see her every now and again but she doesn't want to text or hang out often
>barely even wants to talk to me
>realize that no matter how well I do, I can never be on her level
>can't give up for personal pride
>no drive to keep going

It's like I'm stuck in motivational limbo. Like I know that if I grit my teeth and keep working hard, I can do it, but at the same time it's like"Why even live? Why keep working so hard if I don't grow in the process? Am I just doomed to be this forever?"

So I wake up in the morning, do the daily grind, and wonder where it all went wrong.

>>7794958
"liberalism is a religion" .... oh wow... you are beyond help.

>>7795076
cuz you did it all for her instead of just being a better you...
youre not growing bc you were only interested in impressing her. not fixing your bad habits or working for your own self respect.. she probably thinks youre trying to kiss her ass and maybe she wants a man. not an ass-kiss

>>7795079
he probably meant ideology

and yea, liberalism can become quite the pathology. an open minded dream-fueled pathology but one nonetheless

>>7795091
It's not all for her, it wasn't ever really meant to be. Breaking up with her just kind of woke me the up after wallowing in depression for so long. Seeing her at Uni just kept reminding me of why I started trying to be better in the first place: so I wouldn't have to look back at times with people like her with regret.

I don't care that she doesn't want me (kinda do but not the point), I really care about becoming a PERSON WORTH WANTING, one of those intelligent, flawless people that seem to manage to have everything go their way. But no matter how many different ways I come at it, I just don't feel any different at the end of the day.
That's what I mean by "never be on her level"

Year 2 in college and still haven't learned a thing.
Forced to go by parents into accounting and fail all tests, barely passing school as it is. Will be impossible for me to get a job in this field because I will be fired on the spot if asked to do something.

What do?

>>7794958
Too long didn't read

>>7795137
listen dude, i know those people. its all a front. their perfectionism subtracts from their humanity. your path as an engineer is a slow one. dont try to be a perfectionist at it. develope your other interests and youll become more interesting yourself. appreciate the humbling nature of your imperfections and it will make you a more likeable, attractive person. thats the nature of true confidense. being great at your specialties, okay with imperfection, and having a variety of things that keep you energized and balanced. people who always get their way in their career rarely have much else going on for themselves bc thats where they overload all their efforts. they make themselves irritable with their perfectionisms and feign comfort only to bury the discomfort of their obsessed life choices and rarely have fulfilling or honest social lives. your humble honesty will gain you the respect of authentic people. ...maybe not career fame but its a more fulfilling, well rounded existence overall and itll give you more comfort and joy than those obsessive career superstars ever get a chance to experience

>>7795076
>>7795091
>>7795137

>>7795076
>>7795091
>>7795137

Bruh...you need to A) calm down, because no woman is worth the amount of grief you're putting yourself through for her. You have what the red-pillers will call "Oneitis." You even called her your "angel" just now.

The other response to your plight by anon was spot on, even with your follow-up denial of it. At some subconscious level, you were doing it all for her. Believe me, because I've gone through this myself. You're doing it all to prove something to her. It is CRITICAL to stop thinking this way.

Next, you need to chill out with this "becoming a flawless person." No one is perfect. Having standards for yourself and a drive to succeed is one thing, but to punish yourself for not being totally perfect is a waste of energy. NO ONE is perfect. Even those we consider to be masters in their field (from chess players to football players) make mistakes and fail. Anyone who pretends to have a perfect life is either faking it or trying to sell you something.

I've had plenty of stretches of time where I wake up feeling very existential. I identify a lot with Don Draper from Mad Men. Why bother if nothing lasts in the end, right? Welp, you can't think like that, unless you actively want to be unhappy.

My advice is to first cut off contact with this girl entirely. If you're in the same classes, sit far away from her. Switch classes if you must. You're not over her, even if you think you are. She's a cancer on your soul.

Secondly, read the archives of Solve My Girl Problems. There is a zip file of the entire blog here: https://www.reddit.com/r/marriedredpill/comments/2y60wk/lost_another_great_blog_solve_my_girl_problems_is/
This blog fucking SAVED MY LIFE when I was 22, having just graduated with no job prospects, dumped by a girl I was obsessed with and with $200 to my name. This blog will force you to give yourself a hard look in the mirror and the strength to confront your worst demons.

>>7795231

continued...

Thirdly, continue working out and developing your mind. Read the classics. Read biographies of great men like George Washington and Teddy Roosevelt. Eat Paleo. Lift heavy weights. Your testosterone will increase, and believe it or not, help combat this depression you're fighting.

Fourth, after reading Solve My Girl Problems, look up Chateau Heartiste. Ignore the political posts. https://heartiste.wordpress.com/the-sixteen-commandments-of-poon/
Learn how women think and how to create a loving, mutually beneficial relationship by being the man women want and being able to attract and keep the type of women worth having around.

Next, sell or throw out your video games or any other childish distractions. Pick up an instrument and learn to play when you need to do something. Or learn wood working.

bunch of emo losers in this thread. grow up. find some new hobbies. take some drugs or medications. stop being complete faggots.

>>7795146

fuck that, who cares. I was 2 years into college and dropped out. guess what happened? I sacked the fuck up, went to work full time in shitty labor/retail jobs, went back to 2 year tech school, paid as i went, and not even a decade later i make over six figures, own my own house, married to a hotty, beautiful family, wife doesn't even have to work because i take care of biz, and life is awesome.

college isn't for everyone. im not braggin, im just saying. i followed the same "you have to go to college" bullshit and it crushed me and i dropped out and i was depressed as fuck. but you can find your own way. you dont need a 4 year degree to be successful

good luck nigger.

>>>/r9k/

>>7792326
For some people hitting rock-bottom is what it takes to get back up again, you can't just tell them that they have to stop being what they are, they have to experience an event or change in life that makes them want to change themselves for the better, and that all there really is to it.

>>7795246
>Ignore the political posts.
>getting dating advice from /pol/
>getting dating advice from seductionology cultists

I get that you're desperate but please try to have some common sense.

I have an experience to share.

I have depersonalization disorder stemming from all the stress i am under, which i hope will go away when whats weighing me down goes away, but anyway, off to the experience.

If a year ago you said that i would try to comit suicide, i would have laughed. I would have thought that i would have never had the experience of "watching" yourself like a movie while you are awake and moving around. Its terrifying. I have never walked through a hallway and felt so mentally gone until i realized that i was in trouble.

Having a conversation with someone and forgetting what they just said is an awful experience, and im trying to remove some of the stress on my life, but its still scary because i still coherently fear for my life but i at times just feel like maybe i should try and ram my car into a wall, being that spinning out going 95 didnt flip it and end me, but then again, maybe i should just shoot myself, i dont know, either is disappointing.

Even as i am typing this i am having an out of body experience, and it scares me. Hopefully i'll be alright but with how its gone so far, i cant say for sure.

>>7795368
Actually it's brain cancer. Stress alone doesn't cause that.

>>7795374
Elaborate?

>>7784176
>>7784154
You sound schizophrenic.

>>7795368
>>7795374
just get a healthy diet, get active, socialize. venting also helps. if youre sitting around taking it all like a quiet little bitch youre fucking your self

dont listen to the trolls, it aint fuckin cancer

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>grew up in a shitty trailerpark in a shtity neighborhood in a shitty part of the south
>picked up photography in highschool
>landed a job traveling around the world photographing, dream job at the age of 20
>got laid off earlier this year and have just been sulking since, haven't even got a normal job

solution: get my license, find a job, re-establish my photography, take over the world.

random gif because /gif/

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>>7795938
Hahahah why do I even have that saved?

>>7794958
That info-graphic stated that 100% of all homicides in Atlanta were committed by blacks. I don't think these are credible figures, at all.

>>7795137
>those intelligent, flawless people that seem to manage to have everything go their way
i actually laughed out loud. there is no such thing. it's one of the cruelest jokes of human society. we try to conform, try to be perfect, but the whole pressure to do so comes only from other imperfect people trying to conform. it's all just a ruse, a made-up vicious cycle designed to hurt ourselves and make us feel inadequate.

if you think, "oh wow, all those other people are so intelligent and strong - i better put up a front so they don't realize how weak and shitty i am". then rest assured that all the other people do exactly the same. and in putting up a front just to survive they harm everybody else and perpetuate these ludicrious standards.

*everybody* is an insecure emotional bundle of irrationalities. everyone is afraid. it's the human condition.

somewhere in my mid-twenties i decided to not play that game anymore. now i tell people how i actually feel. i express my fears, my inadequacies, my worries. i actually consider the question "how are you today?" and answer truthfully, instead of blurting out "fine!!!".
it gets me a lot of weird looks and few friends. but those who are weirded-out by the truth weren't worth the effort in the first place. i'm glad they were weeded out early. because a lot of other people who seemed distant and perfect suddenly start opening up in return and it's fucking amazing.

there is something wrong with our brain. we tend to think of ourselves as these complex facetted multi-layered creatures, while everyone else is just a cardboard-cutout. am i an "asshole"? well, certainly in some ways, but it would be foolish to sum up my whole existence in one derogatory word. but that cashier who once short-changed you? yeah, he's an asshole. and how could i ever say i'm "perfect" when there are so many flaws, so many fears? but that other person i barely know? yeah, she's perfect. but other humans are just as complex as you :-)

>>7781215
The age old problem of time management while being a poor/ starving college kid.

Knock out as much homework as possible as early as possible.

Attempt to find a higher paying job so I can maybe work a little less hours to devote to research and social time.

Cut down/ quit drugs

>>7796019
This society forces you to confirm and restrict free thought and expression of emotion creating artificial barriers between people. If you go to a another country like Brazil for example people are much more open to communication, but in America communication between people is non-existent. People don't look at YOU as a person, they just have preconceived notions and labels about people. That's why young people in this country are so rebellious, it's the subconscious instinct to break out of the rigid fake rules.

>>7788208
Masturbating you stupid shit. What, haven't you ever jerked off before?

>>7788208
He is learning what it feels like to be a bird

>>7795350

I'm guessing you're a male feminist. Go jerk off to pictures of the best friend you've secretly been in love with for years.

>>7785650
the cringe

>>7785650
>protip:working on someone will never make you part of the 0.001%, and if you going to run your own business, you will have to develop some great social skills, hence getting you into relerionships.

>>7781215
life has no meaning and is meaningless just enjoy the ride don't kill yourself and don't feel like you're supposed to do anything special in your life, just do what you like and that's it or try to reach the stuff you like and just be with it

>>7784563
sauce

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>>7788325
yea that's not how the world works.
now fuck off with your hippie bullshit

>>7781215
i'm depressed because /gif/ became a normalfag central. this place used to be very diverse in content now it's all full of shitty vanila porn

>>7781215
I just don't really care. I'm not depressed, no desire to kill myself. Just a totally lack of drive or intrest in anything. And that doesnt bother me at all.
Hell, the only thing that bothers me is that it doesn't bother me

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>>7783355
This guy has a crazy life.

>>7788325
killed boner...

>>7781215
I'm 25, about to graduate college in a week, and have less than 5 months of work experience in any kind of job. My degree is shitty and useless and I probably won't be able to find a job in my field.

I'm also a 265 obese virgin who has never had a girlfriend and never done anything more than finger a girl and make out.

My plan to fix things is already in motion.

Even though I have a degree in English, I plan to find a job at a tech support call center which doesn't really require a degree, just some knowledge of comps and troubleshooting. If I can survive on the amount of money that job can provide for a few years there's a good chance I can turn that work experience into something more involved in IT.

I'm 265 pounds now, but I was 360 pounds a year ago. I've lost a lot of weight in this one year. I've already taken steps to fix that problem with my life, and the more weight I lose the more women are attracted to me.

As I've lost weight, my prospects with women went from completely zero, to now having 3 or 4 girls who actually seem interested in me, including the girl who I've made out with and fingered, that happening only within the past 4 months, My problem now is taking the girls who have shown an interest and trying to advance to a deeper level than just flirting. This is what i am working on now. I don't know how to go from seeding interest with a girl, flirting, and then the next step, which would be kissing or bringing her back to my place. How do you turn flirting into something more?

Most of this problem comes from be still being an obese fuck who isn't confident in his body, making me think that initial interest is just friendliness, only to realize later or on a second meeting that it is indeed flirting and an expression of romantic interest. I am lucky that even if none of my current interests pan out, I have a solid foundation of social skills that I've developed in the past 5 years or so

>>7797302
Maybe a step further back

>>7797754
I know this isn't a YLYL, but I just lost

Well played

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>>7793392
Poetry.

>>7781299
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmvRMVMrzA4

>>7796678
>>7788208
>>7783460
>>7788344
>>7796510
https://youtu.be/sqZysUY5Mhs

>>7788343
jaimeefae, m8.

>>7781215
I want to fix my autismo but have no idea how

>>7781299
my name is jesus christ and im a fucking jew

I want to break up with my girlfriend but I think if I do she'll kill herself. As if that wasn't enough her grandparents all decided to simultaneously die or get super ill this week

>Be somewhat attractive male
>Have girls basically tell me they want me
>Still don't have the guts to ask them out

I'm fucking 20, I need to get past this shit.
I managed to get a few hookups but have never gotten a relationship, only lately have I felt the strong desire to get one.

>>7781215
There's a big paper that I haven't started, yet I'm just here jacking off.

C'est la vie.

>>7798204
> I'm fucking 20
lol

>>7783496
Bro. 50?
Me and one of my gorgeous friends from school (who I didn't end up with because I was pretty ridiculously stupid in school and oblivious to wimmenz) made a pact to get married by 30.

If she's tagging you along to 50, she's not serious at all. Follow something you're passionate about (science, art, music, reflexology, insect breeding, shaving idfk) and you'll do what I did - find the woman that you're actually going to end up with, one that makes you priority and would follow you to the ends of the earth just to make sure that she is there when you finally amount to something in your damn life.

>tldr: Fuck waiting - get your fucking ass out there, follow your dreams and find your own godddamn happiness mother fucker.

>>7784176
For fuck sake.
Suck your shit up. When you've hit rock bottom the only place to go is up. Get yourself a job in warehousing - it pays a MINIMUM of $25 an hour and you literally need no experience in anything. Find yourself a shitty place to rent. Save the money for three weeks. Enough for bond and quite possibly 3 weeks rent on a cheap piece of shit and fuck off without a second word. The only reason I'll say this right now is because I was once in your shoes. Abusive parents treated me like shit - no money, barely allowed to go to school, no friends and all that sad fucking whiney shit that no one gives a fuck about. Come to 18, i got a job in warehousing - told them nothing and that I'd been elected for a post study course to help me try and make something of my life. They hated me and didn't give a shit so they just laughed and told me to fuck off. Made a seperate bank account that they didn't know of, worked my arse off for 50 hours a week for a month.

12 years later, I haven't heard from them, am married with a close circle of friends, have my life sorted and a 2nd child in the way. You make your own life - the decisions, good or bad, come from you. Blame everyone else all you want but until you game up and do something about it, you have no one to blame for your shitty position but yourself.

Make that first move. Get your job. Seperate bank account and fuck right off.

>>7798166
I dated a loopy bitch once. "Apparently" got raped by her dad and brother (I say this because she's a sporadic liar) and she did everything in that relationship to try and prove to me that I was the one (those stupid "pet" signs 'omg my pet has never liked someone like this before', addicted to my smell, hitting me with random facts about true partnership and ugh just a shitfest). I don't even actually know her real name. Compulsive liar and all that shit but anyways. Her dog died and she was a mess. Foster family and all that shit ganged up on me to stay with her. Great uncle of foster family died and she pulled out the 'without you I would kill myself' card. I basically told her and her family that I'm not dealing with her shit. Left and they hated me. A very fair price for dodging a fucking nutjob.

This may not apply directly to you... but look. If she's gonna an hero then that's her decision. You can't take responsibility for it and if you're not happy with her then you're obviously meant to be somewhere else. Shit advice probably but that's the truth. Break it off if you aren't happy. Don't cater your life to another because you're scared of one person hurting or offing themselves.

Now. If you're just having PROBLEMS then man up and talk it through with her. It takes two to tango amd if she doesn't know what's wrong then how can she fix it?

Wrong:
>dropped out of cc
>2 year neet
>smoke too much weed
>anxiety/depression from childhood sexual trauma

Good:
>am very artistic
>been in a 5 year relationship
>no kids yet
>have an amazing dog that makes me go out and keep my weight in line

Once I move back to my parents house im gonna enroll back in school, switch majors, and will find a part time job as a server for experience/practice with social skills. After being rejected for seasonal work this year, that was the wake up call to get moving or end up a 28+ year old neet.

Extremely bad academic performance. Simple shit but it just made me depressed and thinking about changing my course. Maybe this isn't what I'm looking for. I hate most electronics classes, which is basically the course (computer engineering). Shit job opportunity where I live. However, I'm halfway through so idk if I should give up now.
Also, no social skill, no gf, etc etc, being "smart"/"having intelligence" was all I had -- now I just feel useless as fuck.

>>7783496
>"love"

>>7798404
holy shit I think we dated the same girl

>>7783156
you will never grow as a person

I'm good at school, people think I'm really funny and cool to be around, but literally no one wants to date me. One reason is because despite the fact that a lot of people enjoy me presence, I have no confidence whatsoever. Every girl I know sees me as a friend and nothing else, but every motherfucker I know says that I "would be a great boyfriend" and all this bullshit. I've genuinely considered just ending it all but there's like two people that keep me going. I honestly don't want to have to leave high school because I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do with my life.

>>7798404
she just has a bad depression. Her brain is just wired to produce thoughts which will make her feel shit about herself. Disthymia doesn't really describe it too well. She tried to kill herself about 10 months ago but her mom walked in. So she went to a psychiatric ward (like one should).

That's actually how we met - we were both patients in the same ward. It was the stable ward - like noone was flinging poo around or anything, in fact i met some incredible people there. Sometimes I miss being in a mental hospital.

Anyway, I already did man up a while ago to talk to her about having feelings of being trapped in the relationship etc. Since then people have said to me it was a bad call to talk about breaking up unless you're actually doing it, but I think if I'm gonna be in a relationship then it ought to be one i can talk about whatever the fuck feelings i like.

The thing is - I love her and enjoy being with her when she's not in a deep depression. But then when she is I'm thinking "fuck I have shit tons of work to do and instead im sitting consoling my girlfriend because she's fucking bawling over a punctured tyre".

>>7781215
I'm overweight and haven't had sex in two years. I also have ED and I'm 23.

I am going to the gym every day of the work week, eating better (during the week) and buying Cialis.

That shit is expensive as balls.

I'm gonna redo my OKCupid profile and see what happens.

>>7798581
tease girls.

i was in the same situation and this is what got me laid a couple of times, and now a girlfriend.

douchebag "pick up artists" call it "negging", you can also call it flirting i guess, i just see it as teasing. light little mini-insults, like you'd say to a guy friend but probably with less swearing and dick jokes lol. it shows you're funny, but not afraid of offending her, not treating her like some idol but just another person, a person with flaws that can be pointed out, mocked, whatever. teased.

if you already do this, then learn how to ask a girl out i guess. if you're overly poilte and friendly with girls, it's hard for them to see you in a romantic way. it takes an extra little spark in the relationship, and yeah, a bit of confidence from your end, in my experience. and these things are expressed through comfortable, funny, not-mean-or-petty... teasing.

just one man's opinion.

>>7798620
stop watching porn, stop eating garbage.

>>7798659
>stop watching porn
>on a porn board

>>7791432
why would you intentionally put a child through single parenting though?
Kids need both.

>>7798812
>why would you intentionally put a child through single parenting though?
Why not?

>>7798658
this
dont be overly nice, girls will begin to look at you more as a brother than a possible bf

>>7799024
>>7798658
Teasing is a winning strategy. This is how you avoid the classic nice guy trap. You don't have to be mean, but pointing out mistakes or something dumb that she does or says and giving her a little shit for it is a good thing. A girl who mispronounces a word, and you tease her for it, and then she gets upset, is not someone you want to be with, for example. It's a good way to show your funny side, especially if your teasing is clever and gives you a good opportunity to show off your wit. Girls like to be challenged. If you ask her what her favorite movie is, don't be afraid to challenge her on it if you disagree. Something like "what?! how could you like that movie?" with mock disgust is an easy way to keep her interested as she'll want to know why you thought it was bad or she'll say something like "oh yeah? what's your favorite movie then?". If you just agree with her opinions and say something like "yeah, it's my favorite movie too" it will come across as disingenuous. That's not to say you can't agree with some things, it's just that there's a difference between saying her favorite band is also your favorite band just to agree with her or actually holding that same opinion and being able to say something more constructive such as talking about favorite songs, albums or band members, something that you would actually be able to speak with some confidence in if actually felt the same way.

>>7798971
because either they will doubt your one sided views, doubt your lack of conviction if youre impartial or doubt your inevitable hypocrisy
either way you will NOT remain a trustworthy positive influence and you will find an overwhelming sense of rebellion that will lead to damaging both you and the child
>is a child of a single parent household who knows several others

>>7783318
I'll pass u by on the way up nigga. Blink and u'll miss me

>>7798971
I mean, if one of the parents is a bad influence, and can't see things clearly. Single parenting can be better. Every person is their own case study though, so it's not a simple issue. But I agree, we shouldn't automatically assume it should be one way, if those involved can't reconcile that choice.

Everything in life given to me on a silver platter. Screw it up on a daily basis because I drink too much. Example: bartending at my family's restaurant and getting so boozed up I don't remember my shift. They are getting tired of my shit and I feel so depressed because of it. Depressed? Time to drink!

>>7799266
>when the drugs kick in

>>7795374
Yes, it causes. I had a few instances of depersonalization sometime ago, but the MRI of my brain turned out fine.

>>7791478
>have a relationship

fucking way better than I'm doing right now buddy. what do you have to bitch about? Think about the things you do have that other people don't and appreciate them for what they are.

>>7781299
The only reason I don't find the idea of suicide to be comforting is because my family loves me and I cannot subject them to such a disgrace. But yeah, everything goes wrong, every achievement is met with a setback. Every psychiatric issue I manage to overcome is met with another one as harrowing as the previous. My libido is essentially zilch, I have no interest in women whatsoever cause most are fickle bithces and dating is not worth all the headaches, sometime I get a boner with porn. And jobless, living with my parents, at least I make myself as useful as I can possibly as a parasite.

>>7799281

is there a youtube video of this?

>>7799411
idk, I always see it posted as eternal yee but that gave no hits on youtube. Check this one out though.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tha07Sasx60

>protip: the meme is called yee

>>7799429

Milhaus isn't a yee

>>7781299
Probably late to this thread, but so much has gone down in a spiral as of late for me

The worst part is that I had a pretty good normie life, but now I can't stop failing my calculus classes halfway through college

My dad is afraid he'll lose his job, and I have to go home in a week saying that I lost $15000 worth of scholarship money. I didn't drink before college but now I get off my ass drunk 3 times a week and am seriously contemplating getting drunk off of some expensive whiskey, then shooting myself in the ceiling of my mouth.

I'm just tired of trying to be up to everyone else's standards, I'm a drag at parties and my friends only invite me to be kind, I obviously pull them down. I mean, selfish, fat, ugly, and lost thousands of dollars while letting my parents down.

From an early age, I often said I didn't want people to be sad at my funeral. Well, I'd prefer to not bother anyone anymore, I sincerely wish I could just vanish and have no one else fucking notice. The grief it would cause other people though has kept me from doing it.

>>7784154
Get a bank account that only you have access to and make sure all your money goes there asap

>>7784204
convert those man boobs into man pecs you got this

>>7799517
you gotta find a purpose man

>>7788464
and all you other posters

>implying the criteria for something to matter in any significant way is that its somehow connected to some overarching transcendental order

>>7791478
>can't work unless I go to school full time

why not go to school full time?

>>7794908

Damn. This.

>>7794978

As a lefty, there's a lot to respect of conservatism when done right (seen as a disposition, not an ideology). Particularly like in the works of Edmund Burke. Also a fan of Ross Douthat's online pieces.

>>7798497

Switch to Industrial/Systems Engineering cause it's easy as shit and your credits will probably transder

>>7799517
chin up my nigga. dont let some bs calc class stress you out. ive been doing bad but now im on my feet and doing much better academically. take less classes, take a year off, work, think about what you really like doing and want to do and cone back stronger than ever. killing is not the option.

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Is this /r9k/

>>7784542
It's 4chan so it can be their blog if they want. Unless a mod prunes it, it can be anything anyone wants it to be.

>>7784563
We all can dare to do anything on here regardless of people's profane responses to it.

https://youtu.be/1pdQcQ-dWDc