>finally get a job in programming
>turns out I suck, coworkers are assholes and all the code I work with makes me sick
>don't try to get better in my time off, because I just want to escape the reality and not be an autist absorbed by my job
How do I live with myself? At least the money is good but there isn't anything else I'm nearly good at in life.
>>59740654
Kill yourself.
>code monkey
Yeah op, kill yourself before you turn autonomous and can't anymore
>>59740654
Just pretend to give a shit and collect checks. Putting real effort into programming isn't worth it. I've worked on my own pulling 100% of the weight and it sucks your will to live.
>>59740654
Pffffffft
>>59740666
KEK WILLS IT
>>59740654
you are me anon. I got hired as a java EE developer for a shitty salary "but getting valueable expierence". all in a toxic environemnt. I just want it to end. I just wait 6 more months so I have one year exp and can get a better job. Whats your plan?
>>59740654
Just pretend to give a shit and be slightly better than everyone at your job (don't try too hard unless you really care about the company). Switch jobs every 2-3 years unless real progress is being made the company.
By the time you're 40 you'll be making 250k.
You're welcome.
>>59740666
fpbp
>>59740793
Pretty much the same as yours, aiming for that year of experience. Not a lot of work in C++ in my town though, maybe I'll move so I can never meet these people again.
>>59740654
Start practicing, create a personal "impossible" project, it'll become possible after some months.
>>59740885
It's true, but it's worse when you have the "it's impossible" attitude at work and you can't get rid of it or tell anyone about it.