Lifting with depression

your anger will eventually burn out and leave you feeling hollow again. find another reason to lift

>>42781843

idk

i stopped working out a few years ago because of depression. i started about 13 weeks ago because I just decided i'm probably going to kill myself at some point, most likely soon, but i might as well go for aesthetics while i'm here

i'm one of those self-harm faggots, so i remind myself that if i'm willing to inflict pain upon myself that doesn't really benefit me, i might as well also inflict pain that does benefit me

some days you cant do it
some days you can
some days lifting is all you look forward to
some days you cry after the gym-high subside and then seriously reconsider if you should keep going to the gym
but you just pick yourself back up and keep going

oh and meds
hop on meds

Depression lifting is the best. Whats better than loading up more weight than you can handle hoping it can crush you then sadly lifting it. Yea i didn't die but at least i made some gains.

>>42784496
you bench with suicide grip?

See training for what it is.
An outlet for your pain and madness.
The one single hope in your dark painful life.
The pleasure at the end, feeling of accomplishment, and exhaustion washes away all of the worrying thoughts. The anger spent in hard intense painful lifts and intense nonstop running and circuits.
The worry replaced with the simple logic of lifting this thing = this feeling and lifting that will hit the muscle this way and this kind of training will produce this kind of physical look and result.

It's not a chore or escape. It's the only way for me to remain human and allows me to at least pretend to be normal.