Who here /swole schizoid/ ? How has being schizoid affected your

>>42381438
I have antisocial personality disorder and schizoid personality disorder, non meme diagnosed by a psychiatrist
>how has it effected your fitness goals
I can never keep up going to a gym and most of my workouts are comprised of twitching too much after a coke binge

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OP here, how it's affected me:
>gym at 5AM to avoid crowds
>work out really hard because I don't feel as much pain or boredom as normies
>did 3 cycles of steroids thinking they might make me more social, but they didn't, literally just made me swole and horny
>also tried stimulants (modafinil, nicotine, yohimbine, caffeine) and psychedelics (2-cb) but they didn't fix it either, going to try DMT soon

>>42381483
DMT will probably just make it worse, I did LSD anyways and it didn't help. Why do you want to change anyways? I heard bupropion can help but it's not prescribed in my country, that having been said I'm not even sure how valid my diagnosis is.

>>42381438

Never diagnosed, but wouldn't surprise me. I'm too old for it to matter now, though. It wouldn't change anything.

>>42381438
I'm also schizoid with antisocial elements

It's the same for me, going to gym at 5am to avoid crowds and whenver I can't wake up and try in the evening, see all those fucking people there I get mad and either do shit and waste time or walk the fuck out of there and there you go, no lifting that day.
On most days I either go with the desire to become better than anyone else, getting off to the idea that I'll crush those normies like bugs and this gives me energy and strength, or I need an outlet for rage and/or the need for stimulation and I workout til my limbs hurt and I crawl back home

>>42381591
I didn't really expect 2CB (which is roughly the same as LSD) to cure it, but I've heard one guy on reddit saying DMT cured him somehow. Already bought it, I just need to snort/smoke it.
>Why do you want to change anyways?
because I'm bored out of my mind all day, the only things I actually enjoy doing are sleeping and lifting, I have nothing to live for and life feels like just an endless sequence of pointless chores

>>42381754
If you want to spend a solid year being content with life I would recommend either developing an opiate or a benzo addiction, works on my machine. Also if this thread gets deleted by jannies you should post it up on /r9k/ or something since it is borderline offtopic.

Also, do you have really vivid dreams that you can remember for a long time? I do, and the only other schizoid person I've talked to has reported the same thing.

>>42381789
Not him, but I rarely ever dream, and the few times I do it's realistic, I can feel physical pain, and I can remember it better than most days being alive.

Like >>42381754 said, nothing to live for and going through the motions. I don't want to die as much as I want to stop being forced to go through these motions, but that's cause for concern and gets me a wrong diagnosis for bipolar 2

>>42381835
I dream pretty much every night, and I remember a lot of them. They range in terms of vividness from being dull and vague to being bright, full of colours, and including full tactile and visual perception. I think smell is the only perception I never really experience in dreams. I tried going to college for a while but a big problem for me was I would just skip classes because my alarm woke me in the middle of a good dream and I wanted to go back to it.

>>42381940
Yeah, I'm in college at the moment and I skip all my classes because I hate being around people. Lecture slides are usually good enough to learn the material, but I've failed some classes out of total apathy

>>42381789
Addictive drugs sound like a terrible idea but I might try it in a couple years. At the moment I still have some hope that I'll recover in the future so I don't want to do anything too damaging yet.