what the fuck is wrong with me?

imagine being this mentally weak.

>>42298778
>what the fuck is wrong with me
>115 lbs
>""""""male""""""
>i don't want to get big
Please re-read this greentext several times

>>42298778
>5'7"
>115lbs
>I don't want to get big or jacked

Talk to your doctor about sex reassignment

>>42298778
>Also should mention I'm a hypochondriac
End your miserable existence

Jesus Christ m8. Get a fucking physical and then get over yourself.

>Used to be a cat 3 cyclist, was sneaking up into cat 2
>Life happened
>Depression hit
>Alcoholism ensues
>Cardio drops
>Get into trail running
>Small bits at a time
>Can now do 5 slow miles without stopping
>Will build at speed over time

That's your fucking problem. Endurance is something you really have to work at. Start with just a little bit, mix up endurance days, HIIT/Fartlek days. Take your time, you'll be fine.

Here you fucking asshole, I even googled for you
halhigdon com/training/50933/Novice-Training-for-your-first-5K

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>>42298778
>115
>male

Panic attacks are the worst thing in the world.

>>42299147
I get them very frequently ever since my brother died and my family went all crazy. I'm worried that I'm going to die next and my family told me if I died that they'd kill themselves or wouldn't be able to live so my every waking moment is worrying about dying.

I'm sick

>>42299186
So fucking stop, or you will kill yourself ironically. Sack up, do a little today, do more tomorrow. Lay off the stimulants and actually go outside and move shit, do shit, eat real goddamned food and be a human, not some sad sack in the basement. Go forth and fuck shit up.

>>42299186

Worrying about dying is a panic attack? lol i must have been living like this for years then

Get magnesium, it helps a lot

>>42299342
>>42299342
no it's not just that. I worry about dying all the time which is my general anxiety and hypochondria but I also have major panic attacks where my heartrate skyrockets, everything feels unreal, and my arms go numb. Sometimes out of the blue when watching a movie or doing anything sometimes during exercise. But when I get my heart rate up basically my body tells me I'm having a panic attack when I'm not.

>>42299362

try 300mg magnesium and see if you get worse anxiety or it eases up

try zinc too

if that works fix your diet

lifting will help clear your mind too, even if you don't like it, put your favorite music and just lift or do bodyweight exercises (pull ups, dips, incline pushups, whatever)

If ever there was an unironical candidate for GOMAD and SS, it's you.