Relapsed

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My Girlfriend.

She was smart, incredibly handsome, talented, charming, sweet, etc. She was an amazing woman. So creative…

We had a nice life. Both of us had very good jobs. Lived together. Did everything together. I loved her more than life itself. We had all the same hobbies & interests. She had her own dreams of starting a business on the side. It was actually in the works of becoming something. We wanted a son. We planned on buying a house in 2018. Vacations planned for 2017. We were absolutely soulmates, I knew by our second date. I felt like I had known her in past lifetimes.

She relapsed (after over 4 years clean) and died. When she died, we still had some of her leftover birthday cake in our fridge.

I am grieving my loss of my best friend. I am grieving for her. I am also grieving the loss of the son we wanted so bad (we talked about him all the time- had his name picked, how we would try to raise him, what he would look like, etc.) . I am grieving all the things she will never experience/ accomplish. I am grieving her personal dreams, as well as our dreams together as a couple.

I lost the love of my life, because the love of her life turned out to be creatine.