Random feels thread. Get it off your chest. Whatever bugs you.

>>40266071
that pic should read ask not for a gf but for the aesthetics/ ability to get a gf.

also my feel is being a redhead manlet, but having a (i think?) pretty good face and DYEL, but improving body. also no autism, thanks improv.

My depression has killed my appetite and i find it near impossible to bulk because of it. To make it worse, the only way i can stave away the depression is with my running high, which means a lot of running, which in turn means I have thick legs but no arms.
How do I make up for my small arms and eat enough calories?

I hope working out can give me at least an inch increase in height

I feel like I'm not bulking enough

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Been on a good cut using PSMF by lyle m. Shits fine and i feel good but felt kind of wanting to cheat today so i bought an 8 piece kfc bucket, ate like 7 then felt sick, ate 8 and started puking back in the bucket. So far my puke has filled half the pucket in pure diet coke/chewed kfc chicken


I think its cause my portions have been so small idk why i thought i could down 8 pieces at once


Not sure what to do know OR how to dispose of this bucket of kfc puke

Really been lazing it off recently, watched too many movies etc. I really need to pick up the slack and do something with my life.

Time to start living with discipline.

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>>40266071
i can just never catch a break, the last 2 years have been mostly shit, its a long one and might just sound like autistic screeching but thats because ive never old anyone before. It all started with my senior year of high school. But you know what I got in to where I wanted to go so badly that I worked for to get into.Tell my parents that I got in and its the happiest day of my life they say congrats and say nothing till two weeks later. Thats when they say that they feel I dont deserve to go to my dream college, after I've been telling everyone I got in and im so happy to go there with my best friend and gf that time. try to fight it but it does not work out, my parents say i can go to a smaller school that I applied two because I thought might as well aply to two just in case. that was one of the most misrable times. I also bought so much merch of that college and then was made fun of by "friends" on how i was never smart enough and that i just lied to say I got in there. and bascilly all down hill from there. I went to that other school and hated it but i don't think after that i could go anywhere and like it. Spend all that time there just drinking and not giving a fuck, I know its self destructive but Ive basically gone of the deep end at that point. turned into a bottle a night drinker. get arrested for underage plus more, story for a different time, and then eventually get the boot from that college. doing some community college now but its just missing out on what could have been. plus my best friend from then has been in one to many wymyns study classes and turned into a hard core feminist protester for pay, idk what happened to gf. but i just feel so alone on a Saturday night where I should be out with the bros getting girls and having a good time to now where i have basically become a neet. also i just cant get over that feeling of working hard for 4 years and achieving my goal but the very people who would normally have my back take that away

>>40266372
plus lifting is the only thing keeping me sane but even that is starting to get maddening.

>>40266203
eat caloric dense meals

I have cripling depression...

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my ex gf is moving on. we dated off and on for 5 or 6 years. I've fucked some random hoes since we broke up last but I always think of her..

feels bad man. talking about it always helps a little bit

>>40266408
What are good caloric dense meals to eat? Also, how do I adjust my workout so my arms can catch up?

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>never got a response back

I know it was a long ass message, but still.

Though in the end I am glad I actually said what I felt instead of bottling it up like I usually do.

>>40266624
ha loser

Also feeling a little bit lost in life in general. I busted my ass in college to get my dream job (I have it), finally get financially secure (make more money now than both of my parents combined), and I have a nice body with good looks, and I should be satisfied.

However, I'm definitely >tfwnogf. I live in rural Oklahoma where the only pickings are single moms and meth heads. Can't stop thinking about my ex.

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>tfw you realize you're as old as the "adults" in your nip cartoons

>>40266272
If your stomach got smaller consider doing IF. I'm eating about 500-600g chicken breast in one meal and it's fine.

If you want to stick with few small meals a day then consider using competitive eating training techniques to keep stomach at a normal size. Basic 'exercise' is to drink a gallon of water every now and then. Make sure to read it up before any attempts. Remember to add shitload of salt to your PSMF.

>>40266624
>never got a response back

>me: hey ___, it's ___ from the park yesterday
>her: hey ___! how are you?
>me: I'm good, what's up?
>her:
it's been like 12 hours what could it mean

>>40266624
You mean >>40266372 ?

It looks like incoherent mess right now. Edit it so we can read it easier.

>>40266775
Don't text this shit. You need a good hook. Hey how are you doesn't work.

>>40266806
she said that though not me

I was literally one response away from getting to the reason I texted her

>tfw want to go on cut again thanks to getting a but chubby again but also want to bulk so I can make gains

At least I manned up and got an actual gym membership instead of just using the awful complimentary apartment gym.

>>40266203
Smoke weed. Will make you hungry and happy, two birds with one stone.

>>40266793
tldr,
>get into dream college
>parents say i don't deserve it,
>turned into degenerate,
>things will change but the struggle to do so is hard and am in world of shit for a while hoping i can get to the other end

>>40266793
No I was referring that I sent someone a note IRL and haven't gotten a response

>>40266824
Then you should have gotten to it on your second text.

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This isn't really a /feels/ story, more of an autism story. I am showing how after I got /fit/, I think I became socially inept in some way.

>be me
>be with a group of friends at walmart
>one of them was looking for a charger to buy for their phone
>go wander off and do something else
>find one of those huge candy containers with tons of different candy boxes inside of them
>decided that I ironically have OCD and stack the candy boxes with their own brand
>qter patooter who works there is watching what I am doing
>grab a whoppers box
>it's already open and all the whoppers fall out of the box
>qt walks over to me
>"umm sir, what are you doing?"
>"I'm helping organizing these boxes together h-haha"
>she gives me this weird look
>she notices the whopper box in my hand and all the whoppers on the floor
>"You know you are going to have to pay for these whoppers you spilled for, right?"
>we stare at each other for what seemed like 10 whole seconds
>"h-hehe, whopps"
>I fast walked in the other direction and didn't turn around

Fuck this.

>>40266937
Lesson learned I guess, thought she seemed interested enough to give me two replies

>>40266948
>"h-hehe, whopps"

Fucking hell that got me.

>fattie
>been lifting for years...getting swole but still fat
>no training partner
>literally everyone in my family is a fattie...couple of them even got gastric bypass and they are still fat fucks
>friends can't stop running their mouths or got their nose stuck in youtube..worse than teenagers
>town is full of nothing but autistic old farts who go to the gym just to bullshit about college football
>lifting is the only reason I get up in the morning

>>40266948
never go back there

I lifted intensely when I was 17 and got decent gains, got depressed and stopped lifting, lost all my gains. I'm 19 now and hitting the gym again but I don't know if I'm wasting my time because I'm naturally a skinny kid so I need to eat a LOT to make gains but I'm not even eating half as much as I was back then (don't have money for food). I guess I just lift now so I won't be stuck at home but there's no way I'm actually going to get big eating like this.

>tfw gf
>tfw want to bang other chicks

>>40266974
The issue is attention and all of that. Notice how no one else has replied to our posts. But, if you post some ass. You will get replies. It's about hooks.

My dad died two years ago and I gained around fifty pounds and ended up a real fat faggot at 5'9" 190. This past summer up until now I started working out and dieting and am down to 130 and while I still have some belly fat and you can barely see my abs Im finally starting to feel good about my body. A week ago some girl I've been messaging on Facebook asked me to prom and to my first date I've ever had at 18. I had it yesterday and took her to see the movie La La Land (Her choice) and then to Ice Cream. I fucked up to begin with and forgot to open the car to my car initially. After though we went to the movies and I made sure I opened every damn door. In the movie as hard as it was and as hard as my heart was pumping I fucking put my arm around her during one of the romantic parts of the movie and she proceeded to snuggle up to my chest and stayed there for like half an hour and I was so god damn happy for once. After that I opened all the doors and my car door and all that shit made sure she was warm and took her for ice cream. We talked but as the date came to an end she started pulling her phone out and checking it and I felt real bad like I fucked up or something. I really tried too idk wtf is wrong with me. I took her home and wanted to tell her how good of a time I had but as we went up to the door her mom came out and I didnt do anything and just said bye because Im not going to do that shit in front of her mom. She texted me and I told her how good of a time I had and how we should do it again and we scheduled for next week but I still feel bad. Did I fuck up anywhere?

>used to lift all the time in high school
>stopped doing so junior year, along with stopped doing sports
>5 years pass, lose gains and gain fat
>go on a cut for 85 lbs
>get depressed for another year and gain 20
>now back at a gym, lifting
>sad whenever I lift a weight and remember I could easily do the weights before
>want to cut but I need some gains

Barely being able to do 1.5 pl8 squats and 2 pl8 dead lifts is fucking depressing.

>>40267166
I know, I thought the exclamation point would buy me another reply with some fake ass lame shit like "nothing" or "working" so I could see if she wanted to meet up later

>>40267187
Stay with it, you're in

I love my job but my co-workers are bullying me into quitting, same goes for my boss.
>You will get less money compared to the other workers since you live in a poor appartment, you dont need as much money to pay the rent

My boss actually told me that.
Im a carer for a severly handicapped child, the boss is her father. I want to tell the fat fuckers to die but i view this girl as a little sister.

>fuck fat fucks
>this girl wouldnt have been damaged if her fat mother didnt party all through pregnancy

I feel like a failure for still being a virgin. I'm 19 - not that old but still. Women for the most part find me attractive, but I just can't muster the guts to talk to that qt

>>40267187
Nope that sounds exactly like what your first dating experience should be like. Keep going and good luck

>>40266562
It gets easier, but it takes time my man

>>40267187
Nah man that sounds pretty normal

>>40267187
>we scheduled for next week
You got a second date, you didn't fuck up at all

>>40266918
Fuck your parents, they think they know what is good for you but they have no fucking idea. Or they are cunts, either way get the fuck off the piss and start looking after yourself. You are only as smart and worthy of what you think you are. Do't be a faggot and go and lift now

>>40267255
I know it's scary

Like, really, I know. I'm not saying that to patronize, it's nerve wracking. Try to realize that the worst thing she can do is say no and laugh at you, and that's probably not what's going to happen. Getting turned down isn't the worst thing in the world, I know from experience that not trying in the first place hurts a lot more than getting told she has a boyfriend.

>>40267248
>You will get less money compared to the other workers since you live in a poor appartment, you dont need as much money to pay the rent

So incredibly illegal, if you ever want revenge, report that to the Department of Labor

>>40266071
You fucking retard faggot. Go lft instead of wallowing on self pity. I bet you like to get fucked in the ass by a jew nigger. Kill yoursekf pls

>>40267213
Being direct is your best bet.

Girl i'm in love with married her friend to get him a green card now they're trying to make the marriage work for real, and it's working.

Feels bad man, at least i got to put it in.

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>>40267187
Over analyzing m8. She is probably super embarrassed that her mum came out, probably thinking of something stupid she said and now thinking weather or not you think she is weird because of it. Chill out and do what ever you want and consider her as another human being not a chick you want to fuck. The less fucks you give the easier life gets

>>40267248
Sorry man, look for another job and report them for workplace bullying. Unfortunately we can not look after everyone

>>40266071
>have qt gf
>been together for almost 3 years now
>she is smart, fun but can be annoying sometimes
>i love her and its very hard for me to have feelings for girls
>im just bored of her now, its been 3 years, im sick of it
>i need other women, and I could get qt girls very easily if i wanted
>getting hard to fight this feeling, will eventually cheat on her if this keeps going

i hate myself for this

I think I can get gf soon
Also my dog has cancer and is struggling, we couldn't know about it soon enough because it buried her food and has long fur so it was already very underweight when they diagnose it

>>40267398
Go to Canada and get a hot French Canadian babe, fuck her off out of your life, truth be told, she does not think of you. Get that into your head, have a cry wank and move on to greener pastures

>>40267440
I'm mostly over it, but it was running me into the ground pretty bad a few days ago, you're totally right though.

>>40267431
One day your dick is going to stop working. Who is going to hang around you then when you are an old grumpy cunt? The one you stuck with

>>40267459
yep, and she is crazy for me, she is a very high quality woman in both looks and intelligence, also very moral.
she is a perfect catch, the problem is me, I am very individualist sometimes and I feel like Im not living enough of my life(only 21) but i also dont want to push away someone that truly loves me and that has shown that many times

>>40266071

My personality seems to completely change every couple of days.
It's hard to dedicate myself to anything because the fluidity of my outlook makes everything seem trifling and pointless.
Want to be /fit/ but most of the time too depressed to care.
I'm skelly at 5'11 129 lbs.
Even if I constantly struggle with exercising I'll probably never make gains b/c I'm too poor to eat right.
Currently eat like 1000 calories a day.
Even if I somehow start eating a lot of food it would fuck my stomach up b/c idk I have IBS or something and I can't be constantly farting and shitting in public all the time.
And I would be limited to exercises I can do at home because I'm too shy to go to a gym.

>>40267187
Your only real fuckup is overanalyzing the shit out of what you did and stressing over it. SHE asked YOU out. To motherfucking prom.

>and I didnt do anything and just said bye because Im not going to do that shit in front of her mom
>She texted me
Congratulations. She is now chasing you even harder than before. No sarcasm, she is legit really into you. Pretty soon you'll probably be into her too :^) Just calm the fuck down and enjoy yourself.

I've been lifting for a couple years and I'm pretty big. I'm attractive and pretty masculine - broad shoulder, deep voice, square jaw, hairy chest. I'm also studying something very lucrative in school and I'm set on what looks to be a career track that will put me within the top 1% of incomes in the US.
I'm in love with this girl that I've known for a while. Just met her boyfriend. He's 5'3" (shorter than her), has a high voice that cracks when he speaks, has hips wider than his shoulders, and is complete auschwitz mode skinny. Beside his incredibly patchy goatee, he is one of the most feminine men I've ever seen. On top of all this he's extremely beta in his posture and mannerisms, going so far as to walk behind me and his girlfriend instead of next to her and refusing to make eye contact. Best of all, he's studying psychology with no specific plan for what to do once he graduates and from what she's told me he's having difficulty in his classes.
Seeing her with that guy instead of me sucks pretty bad. I really care about this girl and she's choosing to stay with someone that seems worse in every regard. I've worked very hard these last few years to improve myself in a lot of ways, and then this kind of shit happens.
Is this making it?

>>40267530
Man when you are 25, you will wish you never gave her up, youll be fucking bitches left right and center and not one of them will mean shit to you. You will have a hole in yourself you cant fix with drugs, women, porn, even lifting. If you have something good, maintain it

>>40267530
>basing your entire life worth on how many different girls you have sex with

beta level off the fucking CHARTS

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>23
>6'3
>former drug addict (pain killers for two years every day)
>300 pounds
>Used to be 375 pounds, lost 75 by browsing here a lot and diet plus gym 3xWeek
>Virgin
>Have big goals in life
>Want lots of success
>Overcame drug addiction and lost weight, still on diet and exercise
>Feel like I will never get there

when I reach a weight in which people will start actually seeing me as a potential sexual partner, I won't know what to do. I go out a lot, I'm in a band that plays around town, I talk to girls all the time at the bars I play at. I know that in a few months I'll be at a weight where girls I'm attracted to will be more of a realistic opportunity. I won't know how to handle that.

Furthermore, my ambitions are laughable. I'm a former drug addict and current fat fuck but I still think I'm going to achieve an abnormal amount of success in life in my field of work. I have nothing to back this up. I believe in myself deeply with no reason why. It's a setup for disappointment and major depression later in life when I don't live up to it.

I'm progressing in life, and It's scaring the shit out of me.

>>40268075
I believe in you Anon, aim for the stars buddy and good luck

>>40268075
Get the fuck out there and get that success and stop being a fat fuck by going to the gym one more day a week as of now. Make up a plan of how you are going to achieve your first goal. Life is scary but its even worse if you are not progressing.

>>40268075
Every human being is capable of greatness. Don't let other peoples thoughts and opinions control your life.

> " “The graveyard is the richest place on earth, because it is here that you will find all the hopes and dreams that were never fulfilled, the books that were never written, the songs that were never sung, the inventions that were never shared, the cures that were never discovered, all because someone was too afraid to take that first step, keep with the problem, or determined to carry our their dream.”
- Les Brown

I haven't had friends since I was 13. No friends has caused every problem in my life.

Not having friends meant I never met girls

Not getting girls or having friends meant I became isolated

Becoming isolated meant I became lonely, miserable, bitter through high school

Being miserable and isolated in high school meant I didn't learn how to interact socially with peers

Not learning how to interact with peers carried over into college so i basically had the same existence there

All the isolation, misery, loneliness, etc, meant I had nothing to work towards, so no motivation

No motivation meant I stayed a manlet and holocaust mode and didn't do great in college because studying is difficult when you have no motivation and nothing to strive for

Graduate college, move back home, work shit job because I don't see the point in trying grad school, terrible relationship with parents (they are assholes, I'm an asshole, so we all barely even talk to each other, also an only child)

Now a 25 year old kissless friendless shut-in (besides work) who has never even attempted to get a girl and now I'm scared to not only try to get a girl, but even friends, because everyone has always hated me so I don't want to burden others with my presence. I've basically been a shut in since I started high school at 14. No life experiences at all.

And not only that, but I know if I try to have "real" conversations with anyone and don't just crack jokes, or try to actually hang out with people, it will become clear very quickly that I have no friends, no girl, no life, the people I talk to will repel from me because of this, and I'll be worse off than when I started.

I can't even comprehend what my life is going to be like for the next however many years I have until I surely kill myself. No real hobbies, no dreams, nothing to strive for at all. I basically just exist and go through the motions of life at only 25 years old, the "prime" of my life.

>>40268151
DONT YOU WANT VENGEANCE?

THEY DID THIS TO YOU

YOU SUFFER WHILE THEY LAUGH, AND HAVE SEX, AND SPEND THEIR DAYS HAVING FUN WITH EACHOTHER
DO YOU THINK THIS IS JUST? DO YOU THINK THIS IS RIGHT? ARE YOU HAPPY WITH THIS?

THEY MUST PAY

KILL THEM ALL

>>40268170
>it's another "a guy who has no friends and/or is a virgin is sure to be a school shooter or mass murderer" post

exactly why we can't talk about this with anyone in real life and have to stay shut in and isolated

>>40266071
>Girlfriend left me
>Took the car
>Getting to work takes forever on the bus
>Get home really fucking late
>Going to the gym isnt fun anymore because im tired as fuck
>Gym is also pretty far away
RIP Gains

>>40268183


AND WHY WOULD YOU ACCEPT THIS?
SOCIETY HATES YOU

TAKE YOUR VENGEANCE, OR SUFFER FOR ETERNITY

>>40268212
I'm sorry bro, that sucks.
Like for real that sucks man.

Anything fun to do when you get home atleast? Vidya or somethin?

Time has an ability to amplify positives and dissolve negatives so long as you keep moving forward. Things will resolve eventually, even if the path isn't clear right now. If gym is temporarily not a thing you can get to every night due to this current situation, you can either supplement with home workout or just focus on something else for the time being on the days where you can't make it.

It'll be alright, there's always a next step to something. Take enough steps, you'll get there.

>>40268151
If I had no friends I could get so much more done.
Choose a good hobby and give it all your time.

>>40268129
>>40268130
>>40268148
Thank you, truly.

Will do 4 days next week, and hopefully every week after. I've been on 3 for months now I think I can do 4.

Thank you again.

>>40268255
this is what some people mistakenly believe, that if they didnt have friends or a girlfriend that theyd get way more done

i mean, you do have more time for things, but the severe depression and misery you get from being completely alone with no one to talk to destroys your motivation

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Feels incoming
>Be 5'7 128lb male
>Have crippling body dysmorphia and Eating Disorder
>Spin my wheels for 8 months crash dieting and binge eating
>800 calories on restricting days
>5000+ on binge days. Easily gain 2 pounds of fat from a binge.
>High cortisol makes me bloat up and look pregnant every meal.
> Out of 800 calorie cheat days, 400 calories are protein. All i have is coffee, chicken and tuna sandwhiches, and protein shakes.
>Still at like 130 pounds but with less muscle because i have been on a 8 month failed cut.
> I am trying to bulk and go past the pain but i just want to be ottermode and loved.

What do I do bros?

>>40268151
Man that sucks, Id be your friend. Is there anything that you enjoy doing? Lifting, reading, painting, anything? I feel for you man. Its a dark spiral it seems you are stuck in. Just remember that the only one who hyper analyses you is yourself. Everyone you talk to is not lying in bed thinking that you fucked up a joke or said something offensive, they are worried that what they said to you or someone else was shit or embarrassing or what ever their own problems are.
Go clean yourself up i.e. hair cut, new clothes, go out to the shops and ask random questions to the shop keeps like you are looking for help. Like looking for a book, go ask the person at the counter what book you recommend for sci-fi or fantasy or what ever it is you are into. After you do this for a while you will start to get the hang of how to have basic conversations. Its a start and once you do it a few times and see that its not so hard, you will start feeling fuck loads better about yourself

>>40268272
Any time anon, we all get stuck in dark places sometimes.

>>40268212
time for a change man,not happy with your job? if not then et a new one. move to a different area. You are now free, it may hurt for a while but your free and you can go do what ever the fuck you want now

>>40268272
Fucking oath you will do 4 or ill beat you with a sock filled with soap

>>40267092
Grass is always greener on the other side. Dont throw away the good you have like I did with mine. Had a good gf, 8/10 , faithful asian and my dumbass try to ignored what I had

I'm fat.

>>40268352
Stop eating as many things

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Guys, I need help. I don't have any parents or friends to go to. I feel so lonely.

>no interests
>no motivation
>30k/yr job, barely getting by
>come home and wallow in self pity and read 4chan
>realize how negative the place is and want to stop
>always come back because im bored with nothing to do, and I don't wanna start relying on weed and alcohol again
>anxiety so bad my armpits turn into highly visable pools of sweat every time i go to work or leave the house

How do I beat depression? If I keep working out, eating healthy, and meditating, will it all go away and I'll be happy again like when I was a kid?

Do I need antidepressants? Have they ever helped anyone here? I only ever hear bad things.

Please help me brehs. I wish I had an interest, but I have no motivation and I'd always rather just lay in bed and fap and listen to the same music i've been listening to for years.

My favorite food is Buffalo wings, but I am afraid to tell people that because it has a stigma of unhealthy fried bar food (but I actually like them better baked/grilled, great protein) and also they might believe I blast hot sauce out my ass on the reg and I can't have women think that about me.

>>40266981
Kek, got me too

>>40268385
Stop fapping, number one man. If you cant, at least do it without porn, and if thats too hard at least normal porn not weird loli shit or chicks with dicks.
IF you want to have a wank, go for a walk instead, just a short 30 min walk around the place with nowhere in particular in mind. Let yourself breath for a bit.

>>40268212
Why did you let her take your car you stupid fuck, report it stolen by her you dense fuck

>>40266372
1. what the fuck did i just read
2. is this real
3. did your parents really FORCE you to attend one college over another
4. are you drunk right now

>>40268385
I've found that no matter what I do, I will never be as happy and carefree as I was when I was a kid. You can only hope to match that happiness with a new happiness. Antidepressants are a sham. My dad's sister takes them and she's more batshit crazy than she was before. Channel your creative side. Learn a musical instrument. Paint. Write. Talk to women. Do something. Keep exercising. Keep moving.

>>40268272
Goodluck anon

>>40268299
It's not so much that I "hyper analyze" myself, lying in bed thinking about bad memories. It's that my entire life experience to this point has showed that I flat out fail at interacting with people. Even in college, I had roommates every year who seemed to like me and would invite me to stuff even though I had no friends, and seemed to like being around me, but after we moved out we never spoke again.

> Is there anything that you enjoy doing? Lifting, reading, painting, anything?

The real issue is that the bitterness that has festered for basically my entire upbringing has made me dislike almost everything. Since I don't really do much since I have no one to do things with, pretty much all I like doing are mindless things that are there just to waste time (internet, TV, etc) until I need to sleep.

As pathetic as this is to say, I feel like my Reddit history (lol) is a good allegory to my life. I post on sports reddits because I love sports, and I will make an account and get a lot of upvotes and shit because a lot of what I say is actually funny, but eventually I go too far and get banned. I make a new account, and the same thing happens. I probably have made over a dozen account to keep posting there that keep getting banned. I feel like it's pretty similar to my life, where I say funny things and people seem to like me, but I guess I become too annoying/obnoxious and people hate me

>>40268415
>>40268440
is nofap really that important? no offense but I always thought it was a meme and noporn actually had some science behind it.

And i've been thinking about learning guitar. Thanks anon, i think im gonna pick that thing up and start trying to apply myself and stop beating myself up for not doing it earlier in life.

>>40268385
I took zoloft a couple times for 2-3 months at a time. It seemed to help. Dick worked fine, by the way.

I probably need get back on them, but I don't have a prescription any more, and my anxiety is too much to let me go get one. Catch 22 kinda.

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>get on tinder
>match with a surprisingly good amount of people
>can easily get through introductions and making the funny bullshit
>get bored with them after the conversation and completely stop talking to them
>move onto the next person
>same thing

I am 100% myself when I am alone, I enjoy being alone, but something in me really wants to be in a relationship. Some nights it's practically unbearable but I know that I'll just get bored with them in a couple months like previous relationships. What do I do, brehs?

>>40268471
It obviously will make you obsess about fapping like this guy >>40268415

>>40268471
Its more the porn aspect. You in your short life have seen more naked ladies than all of your ancestors combined. That shit can not be health for you, and is not proven by other science people who spent time on it, (google it yourself) Its fine to fap just too much porn can be damaging, just like to much of anything

>>40268471
Guitar is good. There are thousands of free resources out there to learn guitar.
And just fap less, bro. Like once or twice a week, tops. And not to porn. Masturbate to that good looking cashier grill at the grocery store. Or the preacher's daughter. Something real.

>>40268477
The point of Tinder isn't to keep texting with them. You spend a number of lines of dialogue back and forth (I would say half an hour, but people respond at different times) and within that same night, or next night, you should be setting up a real life meeting with them where you two hang out.

If you are getting bored with the conversation, that's the point. Whether we're talking about friendship or a boyfriend/girlfriend thing, how is a "relationship" where neither of you have seen each other supposed to hold up.

>>40268505
> something real
Are you telling me Aj Applegate isn't real?

>tfw moved to Vietnam to teach English
>tfw everyone here loves me and the qts constantly lose their spaghetti
>tfw deep down, I know all the attention that I get is only because I'm white
>tfw I love my life but I don't deserve any of this

>>40268507
It's the same with dates though. Been on plenty. Most only last a night or two out and I usually just end up cutting contact.

The ones which lasted longer, I had enjoyed my time together but like I said after two or three months I'm almost annoyed at the fact that this person wants to be around me or wants to talk to me and I end up breaking it off.

I know tinder isn't a good argument but it's really my only option as a gay man in a rural area

I've been doing keto for about a month and i've lost a little over 10 pounds and I feel like i'm making good progress. I'm beginning to feel a physical difference too, like less fat rolls on my abdomen when I sit down. But i'm still paranoid that this is all bro science and that i'm doing harm to my body, even though I can see and feel the difference.

>>40268523
I'm saying that the way AJ Applegate gets fucked on camera is not the way 99% of the population fucks, and one's mind should not be flooded with such expectations out of intimate human contact.

>have a persistent eating disorder
>making progress on my weight loss
>home for the weekend
>parents don't have a lot of food
>part of why I have eating disorder
>hungry

I'm struggling not to go out/order something and binge eat. I ate my calories today. I can't eat anymore, but my depression is spiking, making the desire to binge even more palpable. Fuck, I have such a complicated relationship with food.

>>40268524
How do I do that?
Do you know Vietnamese?
Did you go to school for it?

>>40268528
>gay
i'm surprised that you aren't getting cock 24/7. Gay dudes on dating apps can hook up with like a new guy every day of the week, but I guess that's just where I live.

I know a fat gay dude who has people on grindr where they come over to his house just to suck his cock and leave.

>>40268570
I'm not that guy, but you have to have an ESL certification and whatever work permit (or citizenship) is required in the country you are teaching English in. Most of the time you don't need to know the local language, but it sure as fuck helps. I know this because i'm looking into moving to Greece to teach English for a while since I have dual US/Greek citizenship.

>>40268528
wait dude, you're gay? shit i was under the assumption that you were straight

if you are gay and dont want a relationship use grindr not tinder. you'll get like at least one guy a day there to bang you, no relationships expected

>didn't get the second date with the qt I liked
>got rejected by another girl tonight

well, we live and learn.

>>40268581
I literally can get laid pretty much whenever but it gets old after a while. Went all out when I moved out of my parents but it got old and couldn't hold down relationships so I stopped putting myself out there. Haven't fucked anyone in over three years.

I just want to settle down but I can't seem to enjoy anyone for long periods of time

>>40268616
>I just want to settle down but I can't seem to enjoy anyone for long periods of time

iktf. Are you
>depressed
or
>still spoiled from a previous amazing relationship

because im both m8

>>40266914
Terrible fucking advice. Don't ever smoke weed while you're depressed anon.

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fucking sick of not having a gf lads

havent spoken to a new girl in so long

seeing girls on the street makes me sad

>>40267924
Chad pls go

>>40268625
this
this
this

Only smoke weed if you're already having a good time and loving life. Same goes for psychedelics.
I learned this the hard way.

You will only dig the hole deeper.

The girl I like is with another guy. After a month of hanging out, talking, a kiss, drinking, it all went down hill last August. Last December, I had gotten mad about things that happened, I broke her heart once more. Ever since, its been cold. And I realize it was my fault. I kind of wanted another chance, but I understand. Past month, its been quiet, and just last week, at the program we both go to, I OHPd 135 pounds, repped it numerous times, while no one around could rep the weight.

Knowing I wont get a chance at her anymore kills me, knowing that i hurt her kills me, but knowing she is with a guy who is a downgrade makes me happy. Because I'm a better man than him, and I dont know if they are dating anymore.

The second I get my sports car, she'll probably ask around for me. But I'm over her, and idk if I will allow her into my last moments here in the civilian world before its over.

It bothers me, but anons, I think I'm okay.

The only time when energy co-indices with opportunity to work out for me is right before lunch.

...thing is, I have to fight hunger from eating a small breakfast, and peer-pressure of hanging out with co-workers and i'd feel alone if I don't.

what do

>>40266562
Man.. I feel you bro. I feel like my ex is never going to really ever leave my mind. I know the hurting gets to be less of a burden.. but it fucking sucks seeing her with another dude that doesn't want her the way I did.

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I've been waiting to go back to work and shit keeps getting delayed, so I'm just going insane at the house. My sleep schedule is totally fucked and I missed going to the gym this week. All I fucking do is sit at my computer, go for walks around the block, or pace around. I have 0 dollars in my bank account, my motorcycle needs a new chain and sprocket set badly, and I just wanna get back to work instead of wasting away at my parent's place. I had no idea how much of a creature of structure I was. As soon as I have nothing to do, it all falls apart for me.

>>40268601
You literally wouldn't know unless I straight up told you I was.

That's the issue though. I want a relationship but can't hold one down for an extended period of time.

>>40268621
Maybe it's my self hatred or self esteem. Like I don't deserve them or something but it never seems like that. Just feels annoying having somebody there at all times. Used to be incredibly depressed but I've grown out of it and mostly in a nuetral mood. Looking back I definitely realize I've been with some really great guys but ended up cutting it off due to the issue of feeling trapped.

>>40268636
Definitely wouldn't call myself a Chad. I've got the stuff I said in my post, but I'm also pretty introverted and I try to avoid socialization that isn't required for networking or business.
I'd probably give up the other shit I've got going for me if I could be with her though. I don't even know how I let it get this bad, I thought I knew better.

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>>40266071

I'm withdrawing from benzos after being on them for 10 years and it's wrecking me hard.

>More prone to mood swings (started randomly crying on campus last week)
>Talk to people even less than before
>Almost had an anxiety attack the other day but managed to breath through it and convince myself it was all in my head
>Now have insane amount of energy but feel restless
>Heavily reduced appetite so I'm eating less and can feel my gains disappearing
>Slight insomnia
>Periods of feeling suicidal due to super high anxiety level
>Dizziness after keeping head in certain positions

Lifting is helping but only slightly. Are there any other things to help out? I managed to finally get off anti depressants last year and now it's just this and I'll be free from all medications. NEVER take psych meds brothers - just work on yourself and avoid them like the plague.

>>40268646
It's gonna be just fine anon. I was in the exact same situation as you a year ago.

If it makes you feel better, lots of guys fuck it up with girls they realize they actually like. It's not uncommon. Everyone makes mistakes.

Time is all you need. You won't even be thinking about her in a couple weeks, and in a couple months you'll look back and think about how much of an idiot you were for wasting so much of your time worrying and obsessing over her. Happens every time.

In the meanwhile, just keep yourself occupied. Make yourself the best possible man you can, just to spite her knowing she can't have you. Life harder, work harder, play harder, be a better man, and you'll realize she never deserved you in the first place.

>>40268640
>Only smoke weed if you're already having a good time and loving life

>thinking that someone who uses drugs is "loving their life"

>>40268687
try [spoiler]cardio[/spoiler]

Also make sure you're eating healthy. Eat some shit that grows in the ground.

>>40268705
Exactly.

This is why people call frequent weed smokers burnouts. It's a dead end. They just accept defeat and lay down.

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> College freshman
> Made no friends in fall can't make any this sem because can't force myself into groups
> Can't join any student clubs because no interests
> 6/10 so no girls initiate
> Too autistic to initiate anything
> Diagnosed with both HFA and depression and now on Zoloft
> Smoke 3 reds a day to feel something
> Ignore everyone around me because looking at people with friends and girls with their boyfriends makes me sadder
> Made eye contact with a girl today and she smiled
> I came home and cried because I'll never get her or any girl for the matter
I just want off this ride lads. It hurts that you were never made for life in the first place I wish I was dead but I don't have the courage to kill myself
I want all of you to make it so I can live through you you're my only friends
Love

guys where on the degeneracy scale does liking to watch girls peeing and pooping rank?

i dont jerk off to it, i just, like, watch with fascination. none of it is doing it on anyone, eating/drinking/smearing anything. literally just standing/sitting there doing it

is it greater than 10?

>Fucked my roommate last year (before she was my roommate)
>She's bi
>She's had a few girls over here etc
>The other day, her and her friend make me go get wine for them
>I do; they don't offer me any and they chug it down
>I'm excluded so I go to my room
>They stay down there
>I start to hear my roommate moaning
>I debate fapping or cock-blocking
>Open up my door
>H-h-hey what's up guys?
>look into her eyes as she's cumming
>I think it's hilarious
> hear them cracking up when I went back into my room

Idk how to feel guys. I was shaking. Idk if I'm angry or jealous or what? BTW, I took her virginity, but we both got s/o's so never did anything else besides wrestling in our apartment a few months ago.

>>40268756
she sounds like a whore. who cares what she thinks

>>40268768
this

she might be ready to settle down with somebody someday, but it's not anytime soon. She will always be lusting for new flesh. Don't get attached.

>>40268756
>Knowingly walk in on your roommate fucking
>be awkward as fuck
>laugh in their face
>they laugh at you as you leave
>"b-b-but why are they laughing at me :((((( they should've asked me to join!!!!!!"

Are you seriously this retarded?

>>40268723
Why kill yourself, if I ever want kill myself I'll just take all my money and flight to Thailand or something fuck ton of hookers and do cocaine until I overdose...maybe even decide it's worth living during the process

>>40268815
>I have zero idea how depression works or how it feels to be depressed: the post

>>40268691
I'll make it. Just that if we ever spark something, Ill keep it short

>>40266071
I've been thinking about my ex alot ever since she got a bf. I've held off trying to start conversations cause it wouldn't be good. But in the wierdest type of shit, I've heard so many songs about exs at the gym and in my car lately. I'm kinda wondering if it's a sign that I should talk to her.


I mean if I get dubs on this, I'll consider my question answered. There have been THAT many songs about exes I've heard today. (Thanks shitty Sirius gym radio)

>>40266071
I'm 22. I have lived with 2 friends for the past year and a half working in computer repairs. I came here after getting kicked out of the military for being too depressed. Was sent to a psych ward twice because of it. I don't take any meds and don't plan to go back therapy any time soon due to money a day lack of trust for the US mental health system. Regardless, over this past year and a half I have come to realize I hate computers with a passion despite them being the only things I'm semi-decent at. I barely make enough money for rent of proper nutrotion. My current friends, both the ones I live with and ones I grew up with, are fading away due to the fact that the older we get, the more we realize how little in common we actually have. Not to mention the 2 fags I live with are the most terrible influences in my life ATM. I have no drive whatsoever to do anything different nor passionshould to take up and honestly I expect to kill myself before I actually do anything. I've limited myself from 4chan, but even then, I feel like this place has been better friends than the people I grew up with. What's even worse is that when we graduated high school, I always felt we would drift apart. It was a small school with a graduating class of 25, 7 of which I considered friends. Yet I can't really complain since it has been 4 years since we graduatedand I've done absolutely nothing with my life. Nothing to make me move on until I can no longer stand them.

I am a terrible piece of shit who desetves every bad thing that has and continues to happen. If there is a God out there, I pray he gives me the strength to end my fucking joke of a life soon

>>40268885
Wow that was close.

>>40268570
I didn't speak any Vietnamese when I got here, but I'm slowly learning.

I decided I wanted to spend two, maybe three years teaching abroad. My plan was to spend one year teaching in Thailand and then the rest of the time teaching in either Argentina or Spain.

I had a Bachelor's Degree already, which is the first step. My degree was in English, but it doesn't matter what your Bachelor's is in, as long as you have one. Next I had to get a certificate to teach ESL. I looked into a few different certification courses, the best certificate to get to teach english as a foreign language is called a CELTA, it's regulated by Cambridge university. If two candidates are applying for a job with the same background, but one candidate has a CELTA and the other has any other certificate, the CELTA teacher will get the job every time.

So, I went to Bangkok to get my CELTA, I did it through a very reputable company called International House. They were great. While taking the course, I discovered that teaching English in Thailand is not very viable; the wages are low and the cost of living is high. I found out that the best place to teach in the entire world, in terms of high salary vs low cost of living, is Vietnam. I had already spent two weeks traveling Vietnam as part of a vacation a year before, so it was an easy decision to leave Thailand once I got my CELTA and to move here.

The government requires you to get a work permit to teach here, but in practice, the police have much bigger fish to fry than illegal teachers, so it's completely safe to work with merely a tourist visa. Other countries are a bit more strict, but Vietnam is perfectly lax.

>>40266071
I used to lift every day in 2013 and once I graduated from college in december of 2013 and lost my gym memebership i lost motivation. I couldn't find a job and I still can't find one. I have a gf and I've gone from 210 pounds to 247 pounds. It's all fucking fat.

I just eat like shit and play video games. I need to start fucking running.

god fucking college degrees are useless. btw gf still loves me but tells me to go to the fucking gym everyday.

>>40268806
Fuck, I might be. I mainly just wanted to interrupt them, i guess. I have feels for her and they won't go away. I spent time with the girl she was diddling with too. and she fell asleep on my lap last week.

>>40268889
>kicked out of the military for depression
me too bro. one of the worst feelings ever.

>all your friends and family know you dropped out of the army
how am i supposed to deal with this?

>>40268768
She's pretty open about stuff, for sure. But so am I. She's also kind of emotional. I guess I'm a lil beta because I always try to cheer her up. I don't really expect anything in return though

>>40269018
>I spent time with the girl she was diddling with too. and she fell asleep on my lap last week.
christ

I've started using a charcoal mask once a week for acne and it's making me purge.

Sometimes I think my acne is generated purely by stress and sometimes I think I can feel the stress in my stomach and the stress is only there becayse I don't want to have acne. It's the circlejerk of misery that only subsides once every two months. I've tried everything short of accumeme but don't want IBS or depression or whatever.

>>40268920
look on the bright side, at least your gf isn't fat.

My older bro is a lanklet and his wife is probably 250+ lbs. She's never gonna drop the weight.

You can, and you will. The first week will be the hardest, after that it's all downhill.

>>40268439
no i am not drunk just a bad writer and also i was forced to attend another college

>>40269039
Yeah, IDK. I'm obviously lonely.
But this girl told me I smelled good, help my hand, then put her head on my lap and fell asleep. I think she felt my dick a lil bit with her noggin

>>40269019
Being medically discharged from the army is like being sent home from elementary school for being sick so I'm not sure why anyone would be disappointed

>>40269053
Thanks man. I really do consider myself lucky. My gf goes to the gym everyday on her 1 hour break from work in the middle of the fucking day.

I just need to stop eating so fucking much. I went a whole 2 years without measuring my weight and little did I know i gained 50 fucking pounds of fat. Alcohol probably doesn't help.

>>40269094
Breh this is when you put the moves on her, she's begging for it.
Unless she was actually legitimately trying to sleep, in which case she's autism.

>>40266071
I essentially have no real male friends. Getting women to sleep with me is easy enough but I do not have a single male companion I can call a friend. I go to college in Santa Barbara which is essentially the #1 party school in the united states. I can go out and bring a random sloot home some weekends but it always feels like shallow meaningless sex. I live in a house with 3 boys and they all hate me. I'm not even completely sure what I did to make them hate me, but I can assure you they do. I was locked out of the house earlier today (i lost my keys yesterday) and nobody picked up the phone for about 7 hours. Which is a quite clear slap in the face by them. They originally asked me to live with them and I accepted without really knowing them and over this past year I have realized we have nothing in common. They said they surfed and skated and went to the gym yet all they do is smoke weed and sit inside with their respective girlfriends (even on the weekends!). I originally went to a different college before transferring here and I had a decent amount of friends there yet here it is a completely different story.

I'm not a weird kid, and like to think that I am pretty good looking. I also had a ton of friends in high school, but certainly don't feel as though I peaked there.

On the bright side my grades are pretty good and i've definitely read more books than I've ever read in my entire life last year. I'll transfer to UCSB in the fall of this year so that's something to look forward too I suppose. I also am getting most of my strength after breaking my wrist last summer. I'm honestly not super sad or depressed, just really lonely.

On a super unrelated note, thanks for being here fit.

>>40267530
You're a fucking retard. If you want to spice something up try changing things up a bit, but stay with her. If there's no reason to break up with her other than you want to "try something new" then fucking do that, but with her you stupid fuck. Do something neither of you have ever done before, try a new hobby. Have either of you done rock climbing? If not, do that together. Go learn something together, maybe take a cooking class or something. Bring some spice into the relationship. You don't just fucking throw it away because you're an autistic fucking cunt

>>40269170
Not to scare you man, but you risk losing your girl if you keep getting bigger. She's trying hard to send you a message. If you really care about her, strongly consider making a change.

I know saying is a lot easier than doing, but I can only imagine how proud of you she'd feel if you sat her down and told her you're really gonna change something. It's not just her though, you'd feel so much happier and fulfilled too.

>>40267924
Holy fuck just from your post I can tell why she chose him instead of you. You're a fucking autist cunt, get over yourself you fucking retard

>>40268151
I've seen this exact fucking comment posted before dude, we get it, your life sucks, do something to fucking change it, stop whining about it on here. The first time is understandable, you want to get different opinions, but holy fuck your sob story isn't changing and you're not doing anything to change it, honestly, fuck off

I've started a NSA D/s relationship with a girl because her boyfriend doesn't do any of the kinky stuff. However, she just left him and we usually talk after sex about how much we hate committing and all that stuff.

It's all well and dandy, except I think I may be falling for girl. On top of that, all of the training and queuing gotten her through a lot of her weird compulsions about sex, and I think she's developing a dependency on me (constant booty calls, snaps of the bruises I leave, etc) and I don't know what to think.

Basically we're two terribly self-destructive people and the worst thing for each other, but I can't stop thinking about her and she seems to be obsessed with me.

Fuck.

>>40269203
Yeah I've been afraid of it for a while but we've been a thing for almost 5 years now. She knows I'm capable. I used to go to the gym and lift everyday for a year with my friend and I dropped off after college.

I remember how rewarding it felt literally being stronger and able to keep with everything.

Any ideas on diet? I know I've done chicken and eggs before and that's worked out for me. Trying to find different alternatives than frozen pizzas and tortillas with cheese.

>>40266071
I'm wasting away

>>40266071
I've been alone so long I don't know how to go out and meet people anymore.

I'm fine for feels life is going pretty great but ever since last week I get a massive FUCKING headache and neck pain after almost every set, it's prevented me from squatting and deadlifting for about a week. What the fuck is wrong with me? Is it posture, dehydration, breathing patterns? FUCK

>>40269243
I would say the first step would be to limit your calorie intake. First get comfortable with an acceptable amount of calories a day, say 2000 more or less. Doesn't have to be exact, just get in the range so you're not making it worse anymore.

After that, start replacing your food choices with healthier ones. Chicken, eggs, tuna, spinach, microwave steamed veggies, sammiches with whole wheat bread, soups, that kind of stuff. Google easy healthy recepies, cooking is fun. Maybe learn how to use a crockpot, that would be an interesting hobby and it's easy to learn to make some relatively healthy protein packed meals for you and your gf. Your diet doesn't have to be perfect, but cut out any drinks with calories in it and foods with no nutritional value. Only drink moderately or do light drugs on weekends.

Just start slow, don't go all spartan paleo diet overnight. no one has the willpower to do that.

I wish you the best of luck anon, but I know you don't need it, you already have the power inside to make the change. It's all about flipping the switch and making the conscious decision that you're tired of the life your living and you place your own happiness above earthly and temporary comforts.

>>40269243
and I forgot to say, peanut butter. I love peanut butter. I eat a pb&j every day. I want that shit on everything.

>>40269233
you don't love her. You love sex. Now get on meds to cure your obvious depression and start living life for real

>>40269233
You should ask her father for advice

>>40266071
sometimes my lack of emotion feels positive, but i crave wanting to feel happy and overjoyed. I miss when i used to get so excited i would shiver before going out. No inspiration, no energy, no goals. It feels as though my body carries me throughout the day and my conscience is with me only 10% of the day.

>>40269280
exertional headaches

i usually take a few days off from lifting and deload when they start

also water, lots of water

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How long should I wait for an email response, assuming I gave the person a long ass physical letter Friday night?

Don't ask for too many details, it's messy.

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>met up with friends yesterday
>all of them seem to have healthy social lives

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Ever since I started working out and eating a lot I've had intense feelings of wanting a daughter. Is this due to my test levels increasing?

>>40269216
Not sure how you could possibly get that out of what I said.
You sure you're not the autistic one? I mean like actually autistic.

I want this needle out of my chest fucking now, but I have just over a week left. I'm feeling fine, and want to lift again, but I have to fucking wait and watch my gainz seem to disappear down the toilet thanks to these fucking meds.

I will now have to work extra hard in order to be ready for March and show her what I'm capable of. I know she won't care and I've been trying to forget her, but I feel trapped by how much I think I want her. No rationale has been able to break me of it, and no action has brought me closer to being free of her.

I try to focus on the plans and make them the only thing that matters in my life, the only thing that keeps me from ending it all. But goddamn she's one hell of a distraction

>>40268806
I actually know how it feels on some level , for me it comes and goes, the days u just sit and only think about the shit in your life not seeing a point to move on nothing motivate u not money not women not even the gym u just do it cuz u so u to it like a basic thing, yet u are human and u can enjoy pleasant human activities like sex or drugs that release ur dopamine I just can't see the point of killing with a gun when u can do it in a better way with drugs and whoes...but that just my opinion :)

>>40265761
Yeh, green tea is not only healthy but a good appetite suppressant. Protip: put it in a bottle and sip on it throughout the day. Also, buy the more expensive/high quality stuff. It makes a heap of difference compared to the regular store bought teabags.
Anyway, It was good to talk to someone about all this. I know we both will get over our overeating habit and just having talked and shared our experiences about this issue has really helped man..
Thank you, sincerely.
Be strong and JUST STOP ;)
Now, time to meditate

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>I will never look like a Greek sculpture without roids
>It will never be legal to get clinical test boosting in my country

HEMORRHOIDS SUCK ASS

Today is my 18th birthday. You can probably tell what my life is like considering I'm here. And yes, I've been here a while.

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self-doubt has plagued my life the last couple years (I haven't succeeded in all

now I feel I have a big weight off my back

the other day I found a psychological assessment from when I was 14
>tfw 85% percentile combined FSIQ
>99% percentile GAI excluding memory and processing speed
>21% percentile working memory

as I've always said its not about intelligence, more gritbut

as much as I've fucked up to this point (99% percentile 'withdrawal' apparently) its relieving to know that, I have a piece of paper in front of me that says I'm capable and that what's in front of me, is all my fault.

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>Sexually deviant because of years of porn addiction
>Introverted
>Possibly have some kind of personality disorder
>Rarely felt any form of intimacy with family or friends. I don't understand why they still talk to me even tho i don't care about them.
>Crippling feeling of unworthiness
>Mediocre at everything i do
>Shallow
>Hide behind a facade of humility even tho deep down i'm a selfish fuck

As you can see i don't have a very appealing personality. I fucking hate myself. I know crying about my imperfections won't do shit but it's good to vent sometimes.

>>40269554
You are me.
Hi me.

I don't know how to train my chest. I bench 305, I do my flyes and pec deck, I spend time killing my chest but it's still small and I don't know why. The rest of me grows.

She's finally single, just need to give it a month or so for her to have some time alone
We get along so well together, we have so much tension, and I'm quite positive she likes me
I can't wait to just spend some time with her, and be together

>>40269520
I dunno mate, I was here at 15, I'm 25 now. I was a bit of a weirdo but fine and successful enough in high school, the same goes now. I have a job, girlfriend, degree, house, car, hobbies, friends. When I was first here I had friends and did fine in school and played sports and was getting into having sex with a girl at my high school and got along fairly well with my parents.

Is there ever a point where it's acceptable to admit defeat?

I found out today I have cancer. Apparently, beating it completely isn't impossible, but five year survival rates are in the teens, and a reasonable timeline is dead in a little less than 2 years.

Part of me says "fight until the last breath, if there's a 1% chance of survival it should be treated as 100%." Part of me is not keen to wither away on treatment that isn't likely to help. I feel like if I decline treatment I can stay myself for a bit longer.

Honestly, I think it might be a good idea to have a sort of living funeral. Gather everyone who would mourn and have a sort of goodbye party while I'm in relatively good health, and at the end hop on a plane and go somewhere I don't tell anyone about. Maybe keep a journal with the instructions it be delivered to my family on my death.

>>40269554
this is basically every person

>>40269604
Fuck it dude. Do everything you want to do and amass all the debt you want.

That's waht I would do.

Skydive. Go to greece. Go to be australia. Do some crazy shit.

>>40269520
Leave this site. I've been on a 4 day 4chan binge after a 2 months of not coming here and these 4days have been the worst.. It just sucks you into apathy scrolling. I've shared a bit of info and had a good discussion regarding overeating but honestly, this place is one of the main things that keeps us from moving forward with our lives and become more than what you're feeling right now.
What I did:
>move out of parents house
>have a laptop in my apartment with no sound so can't watch tv/shows
Only this has helped me IMMENSELY

Right now you probably feel and think that you can't change and that you're simply incapable of taking control over your life as to change it and yourself for the better, but the potential is there. You need to change the circumstances of your daily life for it to happen though. Sure, you CAN just decide right now not to come to this site anymore and take your life to a better direction, but having constantly available entertainment/distraction at your disposal is like a crackhead living in a crackhouse while trying to kick the addiction. It simply won't work.

These words may have been for naught (I've had my share of these kind of speeches delivered to me by other people and very seldom do they help, but if for nothing else; Congrats, whoever you are today. Hope you'll be someone else next year.

>>40269520
You are on 4chan not because you enjoy it but because you have nothing else to do. Fill you schedule so much that you don't have time for ch0n

Winter break is over feels good to see people other than my family.
Haven't lifted for about a week because moving cities, feels bad.
Started cut, feels weak.
I have so much to do and so many motivators to keep me going, FEELS GREAT

>>40269673
Thanks for that.
The thing is this place has made me a better person in some ways. It's made me think and relate with other people which I didn't do before. Often it's motivated me and honestly inspired me to become a better person. I know it seems weird since this is 4chan, but this site and anons have been better friends than people I've known for years. I've heard stories and gotten good advice that has helped me avoid many mistakes I would have made. I wouldn't have started lifting without /fit/, so there's that as well. Growing up I never really had many people to talk to so I resorted to this. I've been here for about 4 years (mostly lurking) and it was a pretty rude awakening to life, but it also taught me many things.

While I get the idea about leaving here I'm pretty sure it's not possible. I haven't tried, nor will I at least for now, but it looks like you can't either. We're here forever. Sorry this is shitty and rambling but it's 4am and my eyes are burning.

>talking to dad
>"Do you have a girlfriend?"
>No dad
>"Do you have a boyfriend?"
>N-no dad

>hanging out with some guys
>talking about some concert or festival or something
>"Do you like country music?"
>No, not really
>"Do you like girls?"
>W-what
>"Do you like girls, anon?"
>music is loud so I just look at him with an expression on my face like I didn't hear him
>another guys comes up beside me
>"Are you... attracted... to the opposite sex!?"
>Oh, yea
>nervous laugh

>mfw I'm so far back in the closet I'm pretty much in Narnia

Odds are I'll never come out at this rate honestly. Even my best friend thinks I'm straight.

>girl left me
>lowsided my motorcycle on the way home (hit some gravel on a turn)
>got SOMAD I punched a wall, fracturing 2 fingers
>now bike's leaking oil, I'm down a hospital copay, and got only 1 hand for several weeks, severely restricting my lifting ability

This happened tonight. I'm tying this from the hospital hooked up to an IV. I'm a fucking idiot lads

>>40269505
i feel you m8.
>tfw work office job

Sometimes I pop 3 ibuprofens just to be able to concentrate at work. Prep H does almost nothing but it helps a little.

>>40269630
this

everyone, in the right (wrong) state of mind, can see themselves this way. Stop thinking there's something wrong with you and focus on the good instead of the bad. Make a list of all the good things about you and the good things you have. Don't bullshit me, I know you can come up with at least 10 or 20 things you can like about yourself.

>>40269784
Just tell em, faggot. Just be cool about it. No one will have a problem with it and if they do, fuck 'em.

You'll be a much happier person. You just drag yourself down when you hide your innermost feelings from people.

>>40269786
sucks lad. Leg day for 2 weeks?

>>40269786
It's just another chapter in your life anon. In a year you'll look back on today and see it as one of the most significant days of your life where you reflected and learned a lot. Just keep chuggin along, one day at a time. You still have a long life ahead of you.

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>>40266071
>depression
meditation has helped my GAD
my problem was monkey mind , negative thoughts that spiraled and gave me insomnia
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GLjelIPg3ys
latley ive been using the headspace app but whatever meditation feels right is best

>>40269837
Thank you for that vid anon.

can you tell me specifically how you meditate?

>>40269760
>I haven't tried, nor will I at least for now, but it looks like you can't either
I can. The problem is I've been taking care of the family dog at my parents house for these last 4 days, which has kinda fucked up my routine and thus relapsed into old habits (have posted about this in a few previous posts). Ofc I can't put the blame on just that, I've made my choice of browsing this site, overeating on shitfood, watching anime and just laying in the sofa while frantically running back and forth to the gym to reduce to damage, but once I get back to my own home today I know I will also get back to my new better habits. This has been a destructive mini-"vacation" and though I'm ashamed of having spent it this way am I not gonna let it get me down. Relapses happen and when they do, you deal with it.

And ye, there is good stuff that comes out of this site, or rather, the people taking part in it, but if browsing it takes up hours of your daily time then the positive can't in anyway be greater than the negative side of it.
Yes, you get some good info here sometimes, some laughs, some feeling of mutuality etc. but.. eh, I won't go on.

I was 14 when I started coming here and am 24 now. Believe me, I've defended this site and the time I spent on it to great lengths to my family, friends and others, repeating the aformentioned reasons for coming here, but...

Well, if it's true that you learn from other people's mistakes that you can read about on here then good. Other people's mistakes are a goldmine of wisdom, but some mistakes are best done yourself as to truly learn and grow from them. You decide which way you learn the truth about the time you spend here. Won't preach to you anymore.

Learn in whichever way you choose fit.

Goodbye

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>>40269817
Eh, you're right.
I'm just so afraid of rocking the boat.
I'm also my dad's only child, which sucks for him I guess.

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>visible bicep for the first time in my life

it feels good
i wanna get into a street fight

>>40269554
fake it till you make it

>>40269870
Thank you anon. While I'll still be around I will have to lower the amount of time I spend here and put it towards something else. I hope you find success as well. See you.

>>40269830

Thanks anon :') for sure trying to look on the bright side and reflect on what I can learn from this. At least it's an opportunity to change up my routine.

Rly gonna miss bench tho...

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>>40269865
>>40269865
there are lots of guided mediation vids
on youtube
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5GSeWdjyr1c
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D8oKWQiEWYs
and i like the podcasts from the hammer
http://marc.ucla.edu/mindful-meditations

google talks with monks sre long but worth it !
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kaNO09cPS6c&spfreload=1
next one is best , skip the singing at beggining
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ijnt-eXukwk
try it , it helps !

>>40269865
just sit down and close your eyes
focus on breathing
correct yourself when you start to wander

>>40269893
Thank you anon, I very much appreciate the resources and I will look into those videos in hopes of calming my own monkey mind and anxiety.

Finally got myself an AVERAGE KOREAN GF who was also a virgin but can't get used to her closed she is and her passive behavior. Will feel bad for leaving her, especially considering the defloration part.

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>>40269909
great , its very easy to do and hard to master .
meditation helped me when drugs didnt .
i hope it helps you .

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>lose 150lbs just to end up looking like this

Sometimes I wonder whats even the point trying. Im already 22. I still have 50lbs to lose which will take months if not years. And even then ill still look shitty thanks to loose skin thats never going to go away.

Ive never even kissed a girl.

Why even bother.

>>40269873
It's not your problem anon. I know it's not easy, but as a gay man, continuing your bloodline is not your prerogative. Tell your dad he still has nuts in his sack and he can make another kid anytime he wants.

If your dad dislikes you for it, then he's a bad person. I am sure he would love you just the same, even if it does surprise him for a week and make him think, which might be a little uncomfortable. But stop lying to all these people. Just be yourself m8.

>>40269924
keep at it mate
150lb lost is insane

>>40269924
It's 100 times better than being fat. I know it may not seem like it now but it will. Gain muscle and the skin will fill. It also takes a little time to tighten again. Don't lose hope, you'll kiss someone one day!

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>>40269924
>Why even bother.
for your health , if you give up you might end up like those fat sad fucks on my 600 pound life !
dont give up on life anon .

Been wanting to lose weight for over 2 years. Only getting bigger. Cant find determination to keep going to the gym for more than a month.Never seen any visible results. Its all feelsbadman.jpg

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>>40269924
I can't even post an image correctly.

Fuark.

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>>40269931
Thanks anon

>>40269924
>Why even bother.
Because the alternative is always worse.

>even then ill still look shitty thanks to loose skin thats never going to go away.
Just get a tummy tuck if you need one.

>Im already 22
No, you're only 22.

God damn it, I just can't deadlift.

I'm 6'6" and I can't lower to the deadlift position without rounding my back or doing a modified squat. Should I just put the deadlift weights higher? On top of other plates or something?

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I'm now below 65 kg at 183 cm height and I still look skinnyfat. Feels meh, man. I just got to keep pushing.

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>"whoa anon, you're so ripped"
>"th-thanks stacy"
>"oh my god, you're excited for the super bowl right? i'm so excited"
>"uh, I uh, I don't really watch sports, sorry"
>"oh, uh, okay, I gotta go now bye"

what was it all for, bros
what was it for

is there a way, besides quitting, to stop being a depressed loser whilst stoned?
I love weed but hate the person it turns me into; a lazy, unachieving fatass. I'll lose 5lb in a month at the gym and then put it all back on in a week if i get a half bag and plough through it. Is it me? DO I just have an addictive personality and need to quit it all together, or is there any strategy you guys can recommend to stop being a lazy fat cunt while stoned?

>>40269786

Hospital update: they're gonna have me undergo surgery and put pins in my hand. Gonna have a cast for 3-4 wks. Not gonna make it lads

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>>40266706
> your waifu is a decade older than you are

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>>40270960
>mfw the girl I fell in love with is 27 and Im 20
>keep thinking that a 27yo would never want a relationship with a 20yo

>>40267966
thats one of the main reasons I am still with her, I know that other girls will never fulfill me the way she does
>>40269202
i will actually try to do new stuff with her, I feel like we are stuck in an awful routine where all we do is pretty much hang at each other's house watching stuff and eating

>>40268151

Funny how you blame everybody except for the person responsible for your situation.

Hint: It's you.

Murder your past self, rebuild yourself looking forward. Take the steps to be the you you want to be, not the you you were.

Try to recall what you wanted to be when you were a little kid, then google that shit, find out what it entails, and if it's something objectively and wholly unrealistic (Note: not "No, I could never be a DJ, I'm too beta, but something like "I want to be an astronaut"), find the closest thing to that, and find out what it takes to pursue that. Expect your goals to change as you gain more life experience, but right now you're still Level 1 because you were too afraid to ever try.

It's not "no friends", it's not "no gf", it's nobody's fault but your own, so own up to that and murder your past self. Become new.

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>tfw don't even really want a gf after a life of loneliness but not sure if that's just my subconscious being too scared to try and I'd be happy with a gf or if I really just don't care

>>40267255
Dw about it so much man, I was 20 when I finally handed in the V Card. Since then it's been easy street, it's just getting the initial fear and hype out of the way - once you're on the other side you'll see how little it actually matters in the grand scheme of things.

>>40267638
Sounds a lot like me about 6 months ago. Eventually you just reach a point where you think 'fuck it' and just make the decision to change. I joined a gym (got over that anxiety you have by going at the least busy times to start, gets way easier after that) and just forced myself to eat/drink my way to 3500 calories a day - peanut butter and milk are GOAT. Gained 22lbs, feel so much better about myself.

Just force yourself to do it, even if only for a week. Once you've done that, you won't want to stop. Starting is the hardest part.

>need to eat
>went out into kitchen
>stupid little kid cousin is out there eating already
>eats with an open mouth, using teeth like a horse, most annoying fucking noise in the world
>have to go back to my room and post on fit or I might strangle the little mindless fuck

>>40271369
Try 18 and 27
Fml

>>40268389
What the fuck are you talkng about? Buffalo wings are th mst normy food ever

>>40268385

get drysol for the sweating senpai quote me on this

>>40269136
When you live in a flying over state filled with nothing but arm chair generals, you can feel the hatred and disappointment of those around you whether they be random strangers or friends and family

>i love a girl

hold me brehs

reminder


duck out if the compromises make you miserable. duck out if you get miserable. duck out if it just makes you uncomfortable.

the goal is not to force a relationship to keep going. its to find a relationship worth keeping.

there is literally no benefit to frankensteining a relationship other than possibly sex, but you're better off withotu it if it isn't working.

emjoy the relationship for as long as you can. and if it goes south, leave, cuz all you're doing is preventing yourself from finding the good one that might last.

lasting isn't the point, it isn't the goal.

And yeah you have to take the risk of making a high stakes deal with a potentially very unstable person, plus people change. That's life, you can't play all of it safe.

If you're worried about hurting someone, DON'T, because that pain and shame will pass faster than you think but the pain of regret lasts the rest of your life!

People will delude themselves into putting up with some dramatic or toxic person just to not be alone instead of jumping into the deep end, cutting that person off, and seeing what new people life throws at them.

>>40268705
>>40268717
>projecting this hard
it's called having friends

>23
>finished uni
>have a job
>only have a couple of friends one of which is my gym partner

How do I meet girls? and what do I do when they realise I'm a loser with only a few friends?

>literal autissm
>no friends

what gets me is
>start working out 4 years ago
>feel amazing and confident
>start getting painful, become more conscious of body
>turns out I have severe joint issues and muscle imbalances
>crooked back, uneven shoulders, retarded right leg
>mfw everytime i squat, my right hamstring glides over something, and my outer calf muscle twitches.

if only i could lift my feelings away
been to so many difference physiotherapists, doctors, chiropractors, osteopaths and nothing's fixed it.

>>40266572
GOMAD bro

>>40267435
Welp. Dod is dead

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>>40271440
>I feel like we are stuck in an awful routine where all we do is pretty much hang at each other's house watching stuff and eating

Truly a fate worse than death.

Seriously though, check your privilege anon.

>>40266312
>Time to start living with discipline.
not gonna happen

>>40266071
have many friends but dont really wanna spend time with anyone except one, im not with him because he does alot of drugs and i am trying to stop. everything just seems so boring without drugs so i have already tried to take my life 3 times during the last 3 months
what should i do /fiT/

>>40268295

Tough up, faggot. Get naked in front of a mirror and be honest with yourself, are you really ok with being like this?

No, seriously, go do that right now. Clothes off, and stare at yourself.

As for binging, find something better to binge on. Let's say, fruits. You'd have to eat a fuckton of bananas to match the calories of a packet of cookies, for example.

Try and eat slowly, and time yourself out.

(And if you do go for fruits don't act-a-fool and start putting chocolate cream/condensed milk/etc on top of them or anything like that. Don't lie to yourself, fatbro, because loosing weight takes comitiment.)

>>40266223
More chance it removes on inch of your height desu

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>>40266071
>reach goal of losing 100 lbs (still havr to go like 70 pounds)
>no one cares

>>40268725
watching girls pee: 5/10
watching girls poop: 9/10

>>40272281
>judging you based on your network

do people really do this?

fuck this gay earth

>>40276595
You can tell a lot about a man by the company he keeps. That's no fucking secret or recent development. If other dudes don't want to hang with you, it's probably because you're an annoying, draining asshole. Why would a girl want to fuck a person like that?

>>40272281
>judging you based on your network

do people really do this?

fuck this gay earth

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>>40266071

Going to the gym made me super fucking depressed

I think I need to go WITH somebody, or not go at all. Otherwise I just compare myself to massive dudes in the gym and hate myself for not being that big.

Does anyone else know this feel?

Seriously it's made me feel so fucking inadequate, ironically more inadequate than before I went to the gym - but now that I've been going I'm addicted to go back more and more (and then fail more and more, thus being a vicious circle of hating myself)

Just got a full time corporate job at a major bank, yet I'm already bored of the monotony.

I wake up at the same time, shower at the same time, take the same train going to work, take the same train coming home.

I'm bored of being an adult already...

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I just got a new job and I'm afraid that I can't handle it.

>started working at a rail yard two weeks ago
>spend eight hours a day running, climbing, pulling, pushing, lifting, throwing, everything my DYEL body can't handle
>in more pain and soreness than I thought possible
>most coworkers are aggressive dicks, they like me okay but I don't like them
>boss promotes me early because they're short staffed
>starting Monday 10-12 hour shifts, possible mandatory 6th work day a week
>rains almost all day, highs in the mid 30s
>cold wet and in pain every day
>production based pay and am slower than everyone else
>people complain to the boss that I'm slowing them down and costing them higher pay

I know it's only going to get better, I'm already not as sore every day as I was and I unload twice as fast as when I started, but it's still hard to get up for work every day. I guess I just wanted to share a feel.

>went out with girl who's much smarter than I, yet she seemed very interested
>texting slowed down significantly after first date, and haven't asked her out since last Saturday
>honestly she's only a 5/10, but pretty cool. I'm just very lonely, not sure what to do.

>>40266071
Just broke up with gf

>>40267187
You did well brother, your dad would be proud of you.

>>40277877
Sorry man. I'd try to stick it out as long as you don't think you're harming your body long-term. 12 hour days are long, I would try to minimize those if you have any choice. Good luck

The loneliness hurts like a slow bleed.
>be me moved to another city for job
>good job but friends and family are far away
>I love my friends and family
>gf I wanted to marry left me.

I put on a strong face because I'm a leader at work but I'm very sad for the most part.

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>>40278192
Forgot pic

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i used to be able to make people laugh, i used to be able to talk with everyone and was well liked, but now when i meet new people i just cringe and cant make a decent conversation dont know why havent been depressed or anything but after this has happened i lost interest in almost everything i used to like except lifting which is the only thing i REALLY like to do except drinking or getting high, i have stopped using drugs tho because im to afraid it will only make matters worse

>>40269180
I am your friend anon.

>>40266071

Just moved to a new city, and don't know anyone.
It's a good thing because I can eat and live healthier without negative influence.

My friends came to visit me this weekend and I more than doubled my calorie intake for the two days they were here.

Hope that doesn't fuck up my progress

I find it real easy to lift weights cos I enjoy it and I feel strong afterwards but what I need to be doing is cardio and I have absolutely zero motivation for that. What's the point in me getting lean and cut when I'll always be short, always be bald.

>>40278339
>what I need to be doing is cardio and I have absolutely zero motivation for that. What's the point in me getting lean and cut when I'll always be short, always be bald.

Depends if you wanna die from a heart attack at 45 or not

>>40267187
You're golden bro, welcome to gf city

>>40269216
>>40269442
You have a superiority complex and it shows.

I feel bored. Not even depressed or anything just bored. Had to get oit of college because of financial reasons. But recently talked to an Airforce recruiter. Hopefully I can get in.

Other than that, I feel great. Just need to het out more and hang out with friends

>>40266071
Does it matter? Even if I lift hard and get a nice body it won't cure crippling social anxiety, no girl will ever approach me.

>>40268212
If you live within like 10 miles of your workplace/gym, get a decent road bike.

>>40271516
Yeah ik man, I get how it's not really a big deal. I just don't feel like a man until it happens. Like there's a part of me that's just not really there

>>40266272

IT'S PISS PCEOUTBYE

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>>40266071
Hardening myself from wanting my oneitis has left in a state that won't let anyone else in. Otherwise, I'm fuckin' killin' it, pretty much.

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Im sad and unmotivated all the time for no reason. Although I still make it to the gym everyday, go to school, and have a job, I dont feel like life is worth living. I consider suicide every time I drive into my garage. Even now while I type this I just feel bursts of sadness for no reason.

>>40278785
I think you misunderstand what a superiority complex is. I'm successful in a couple ways, yes, but I don't use that to cover up my failures by any means, and the whole point of posting in this thread was to openly state a personal failing of mine, not to cover it up as someone with a superiority complex would.

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>>40268385
Even if you are feeling down don't stop exercising or eating healthy. Just doing this will keep you from spiraling into deeper depression. I found that by doing this I can have stability in my life and help me to fight off depression. So it might not have been a new insight but hopefully you can appreciate the good things you are doing in your life be it strength or aesthetics along as you don't give up.

Friday's workout absolutely sucked. Felt frustrated after it, which meant I started feeling depressed over the weekend. I've eaten way too much food and I think I've destroyed my cut.

Hopefully this week is better.

>be me, 32yo
>So many failed relationships I can't even name them all.
> Never made more than 20,000 a year legally. Only had decent income selling weed.
>Got a huge court case for slapping my last g/f who is still completely in love w/ me.
>Still broke and struggling to find a place to live, can't live w/ gf because of court ordered protection order.
>Work out regularly, go to Muay Thai 5x a week also, and meditate often. Taking all kinds of brain supplements: St Johns Wort, SAM-E, stress reduction blend.
>Can't stop smoking weed and being depressed.
>Don't have a college degree and now my charges are fucking up my other job options.
Not happy with life bros. Does everyone's life actually suck this much but they just hide it?

>>40276595
This is your entire life

I fell in love with a girl, who friendzoned me. I started hitting the gym everyday to prove to myself i was better. After 2 months, my gains were unreal and she started dating someone else. Now I have no motivation to still go...

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I've always been the black sheep of my family and I've broken many boundaries, such as not going to college, choosing sports over academics, tattoos, lifting, etc. I'm seen as the "bad influence" by my uncles and aunts while they think that my cousins are God-sent and are model children. I've always felt like I let my parents down just by existing. They're in serious debt plus low income and I feel like I'm a factor to that. I enlisted and possibly leaving after graduation as a way to redeem myself. I turned 18 a few months ago and looking towards my future, it feels uncertain and doomed since our great American educational system doesn't prepare its subjects for the real world, only for the monetary scam called college. Also, I don't have many close friends, only two, although I have many acquaintances and semi-friends but it doesn't feel like genuine companionship, even with my actual friends. Along with that, I feel like I care a lot for people who wouldn't even do the same, including my own gf. I would gladly help them in any way I can but they wouldn't bother sticking their necks out for me. It feels like they only come to me when they need something from me. I honestly don't know why I'm still with my gf, since I've put up with so much of her bullshit like petty jealousy, neediness, passive-aggressiveness, etc. She looses her shit at the slightest things and becomes all cold. I've considered an heroing but I feel like I would just throw away my progress. To be honest, I wanted to enlist so I can die meaningfully and with purpose, since 1.) I don't have the balls to an hero, and 2.) I want an honorable, selfless death at least. But if I manage to come home alive from my service, I feel like i just wanna run away and either live innawoods and make the best version of myself or travel and see new cultures, new people, and maybe even a purpose in life, that's another reason why I enlisted. I wish all of you guys the best in your lives.

inb4 i'm a whiny faggot

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>every year and every birthday I tell myself "this is gonna be it! this is going to be the year you finally lose your kv status and find that qtgf that all of your friends and family assured you would find if you just stayed positive and didn't worry about being an adult virgin!"
>it's a lie every time
>turning 27 this year
I-is this m-m-my year, guys?

>Never really thought about my body but decide I want to change it
>Start lifting
>Going great for a month, make some noticeable noob gains and really enjoying lifting
>tracking my calories and managing my routine, very dedicated
>Get a bit of neck pain on a leg day
>Stop exercising immediately
>Come back the next, neck pain comes back the moment I lift anything, gets worse the more lifting I do
>stop for a week
>Tried again today, couldn't do 10 push ups without the pain again
>now more depressed than I was before I started lifting since I want to lift but cant
Life gives and life taken away. I had a 6 months to train before this event I was looking forward to getting a bit fit for and now im fucked.

>last sunday was 161.1
>weighed in at 161.5 today

Feels bad. Trying to not let it get to me and make me stop trying to lose weight. Fuck, man, depression, an eating disorder, and changes in diet do not mix well.

>>40266183
Harald?

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>got the right number from a cute girl at work
>worked up the courage to ask her first about a week ago but she wrote it down wrong
>whatever tho, it happens
>literally a 10/10 for me god damn she's so attractive
>got a bit of a conversation in tonight during the game
>kind of an awkward start because im honestly not used to chatting w/girls
>have always just waited until they started taking an interest in me first
>really hoping we continue getting along and knowing each other better

im crushin, lads. It's been ages since i felt this way about someone. fuck. Motivates me to work harder in the gym too, which is nice

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>find gym crush that i see daily on Tinder
>like her
>no match

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>>40266372
Saturday night being alone home travelling through 4chan /Gif... that fucking feel, i shouldn't know that feel

>>40269180
You sound like a pretty cool dude.

>>40267187
Love yourself just half as much as you're worth and you'll be set for life my man

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>tfw i've sorta become dumber after she left and i now feel like a disappointment to my family and an embarassment to my friends
>it's been 3 years
What did my brain mean by this?

>>40267255
Same. Now that I'm in uni and look completely different than I did in high school I manage to occasionally attract some attention but I always lose my fucking spaghetti since it's the first time it's ever happened and I had absolutely no experience growing up (not for lack of trying either)

I don't really get how you're supposed to fucking meet people even at college. Classes are lectures or discussion sections with TA's it's not like in high school where you can just talk and hang out in class, I guess there's clubs and work but my understandIng is that's discouraged most places.

I know how to get drunk and flirt with people at parties but that's basically the extent of my social skills with the opposite sex besides (probably creepily desu) looking at pretty girls in boring lecture halls or cracking jokes in discussion.

Also there's that whole dog chasing cars aspect, I feel like even if I got their attention I wouldn't know what the fuck to do with it

When I meet my gf I wouldnt care If it didnt work out between us.

Now I've startet to turn into a betamale and I cant even get my girlfriend horny and more because of my autism

>>40266272
it's piss pceoutbye

>>40266071
YOU KNOW WHAT MAKES ME SAD? SEEING MY BROS IN PAIN.

I want you all to take real positive action. FIX YOUR MINDS. Make mature decisions to become happy.

None of this bodybuilding shit really matters, you will learn that.

DO NOT EMBRACE DEPRESSION MOVE FORWARD AND BE HAPPY GUYS. LOG OFF 4CHAN IF IT IS NEGATIVELY AFFECTING YOU.

WE ARE ALL BOUND TOGETHER BY OUR WAY OF THINKING.

WE ALL /FEEEL.

KNOW THAT I WISH YOU INFINITE SUCCESS AND SO DO THE REST OF YOUR BROS.

WE ARE ALL GONNA MAKE IT.

:)

>giant crush on best friend
>go to the gym together
>she mostly does cardio and sometimes machines, never uses free weights
>want to get big, but she says she hates seeing muscle on girls
>want to keep lifting but I'm scared she's gonna find me disgusting
I don't know if she's even into girls in the first place, I just don't want to fuck up any chance I might have if she is.

>>40281996
bee urself

>>40266183
Billy?
I took your girlfriend to Applebee's for half price apps and half price dick. Hope you had fun cooking for the brain dead son of yours

>>40282059
Not exactly my bro.

Maybe you are the kind of bro who needs to heed my advice and take a deep look inside. There's probably 2-3 big changes you already know you have to make.

For real, make a start. Good luck bro

:D

>>40282005
this is definitely something i can get behind. I hope everything works out for you.

maybe get into a conversation about working out and show her some pictures of girls you wanna look like, fitness/muscle wise and see how things go/what she says?

I mean, im just a dude so i've got no fuckin idea but i'm trying to spitball ideas here

>>40281948
who cares
stop caring

I've had 2 pinnacles in my life

Once I was at a mates house party. We were all quite tired by the end of the night. A girl named Charlotte that I had a huge crush on walked up and laid down on the couch next to me, and put her head on my lap, trying to fall asleep. I ran my fingers through her long blonde hair. She looked so beautiful. I would say in that moment she was a 10/10. Of course I was too chicken shit and never did anything after that moment.

1 week later she gets a boyfriend who is a year older than me. A few months later she leaves him and drops out of school from severe anorexia. She is now doing a basic job and has managed to get her anorexia under control. I wonder if her life would be any different if I asked her out that week. Every time I think of her I just get depressed.

Another moment. I had been talking to this girl I was really good friends with for about a year. Her name was Rachel. We had the same home room even though she was in a year below me. She was very cute and I would say at that time she was out of my league. We were sending each other snaps constantly. I think before we broke up we had a 209 day snap streak. But anyway I asked her out and she said yes. We went out a total of 3 times in that 209 days since she was always busy or would make up excuses not to go out.

Eventually my mate Conrad goes out to a club one night because of his girlfriends birthday. He asked if I could drive them home and I was cool with it because he has done this for me in the past. I drop off him and his gf, but before they go inside he says he needs to have a chat with me.

At the club he saw Rachel with another guy, pretty much fucking with clothes on. I didn't believe him but he had a photo on his phone and it made me fucking sick to my stomach. This was our convo:

(Part 1/2)

>>40282304

Part 2/2

>Me: so how was the city last night? (She told me she was going to the city)
>her: yeah it was pretty fun
>me: oh okay, my mate Conrad saw you there
>her: oh yeah I saw him too also
>me: so who were you with?
>her: oh it was just a friend

I sent her the photo

>me: idk I wouldn't treat a friend like that
>her: I can explain

She calls me, says some bullshit about how she was sorry and she didn't mean it, even accuses the guy of raping her at one point even though Conrad said that was a flat out lie.

I told her to fuck off. I remember she said that the reason she left her ex was because he cheated on her and she was devastated when it happened, and she never wanted it to happen again

Fucking slut

>>40267019
r u me?

>>40267019
I talked to this guy who was the most decorated body builder in the world (all-natural) and he told me its 80% diet and 20% workout. Focus on the diet. That's actually the critical part most people neglect.

You have two options. Go ALL in and go full nazi health mode on your food for about two weeks and then try to keep going on something you can maintain that's healthy... OR you can start switching out small things, like cut out soda all together instead have lemon water, gatorade, etc. Swap milk out for almond milk or butter out for ghee. Swap regular rice for brown rice, Swap sweet potato with regular evil straight white male potato.

Also, you don't have to do every single meal perfect. IF you fuck up and eat like 6 donuts or something don't stop trying. Just eat a salad for dinner or lunch. Or make sure tomorrow has a soup for dinner or something.

The fitness goals are totally attainable, you don't need a lot of money, and you don't need someone else's approval most importantly. You can eat right and pushups and air squats, etc and go running and actually be in pretty damn good shape, throw in some hard shadow boxing and you will be looking good in a few months.

Most people just don't stick with it. STICK WITH IT, even when you give up for a month, GO BACK and do work. What the fuck else are you gonna do, sit around and memorize porn star names?

>have crohns disease
>cant eat without shitting constantly afterwords
>sometimes during a meal i will have to shit
>cant exercise either, just moving my stomach can trigger crohns
>medication doesnt help like it should
>freak out at work the other day because i thought i was done for, shit 7 times at work, all loose and sick-like
>gonna set up appointment for new meds which have a chance at not working or making my brain deteriorate
>dont want to go back to work because attacks are random and my medicine isnt helping as much any more
>a girl at work thinks my freakout was because i had a bad date with her, other coworkers think the same
I just want to die.

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>be me at 18yo
>can't talk with girls
>am actually a charismatic dude in my social circle, everyone likes me and thinks i'm very fun to be around
>kissless virgin
>went to this festival that everyone goes and it's basically certain you will hook up with at least someone
>spended 10 days on another city, with my friends
>went to the festival, both days
>still a kissless virgin
>my friends all think i'm awesome and oh "they wanted to be me"

Not ever having any positive attention from girls is messing with my head, I can't stand this shit anymore, I'm fucking autistic and can't talk successfully with girls. I don't even put them on a pedestal, I think they're are just like me. Even when drunk I can't seem to relax and go talk to them, it's just pathetic. I'm thinking everything that you could possibly say to convince me to go talk to a girl and it didn't work.

A-at least I have friends, r-right?

>>40282588
spent*

I've been on Tinder a week now and have probably swiped 30-40 chicks that look/seem like they would be in my league, qt chicks with soft features and interesting bios. Absolutely do not swipe Stacey looking chicks or turbo fatties.

Problem is I'm 5'7 but have nice facial aesthetics and also have started lifting and making good gains, I put my height on my bio because I want to be upfront about it and if somebody wants to meet me they will not be surprised.

But not a single match...

Also only 2 months out of a 5 year relationship and my ex wanted to cut all communication starting 2 weeks ago but after a week of no talking she texted me apologising how she's been treating me and wants to talk and be my friend (something I wanted but she absolutely rejected the whole time after the break up until now) and I don't know what it means. She's lonely as fuck and is living alone in the place we lived together at, and she has the cat we bought together to keep her company but she has no friends, is actually cutting people off and has absolutely no interest in pursuing other guys. She WANTS to be alone, it's hard to watch because she wants to be chummy with me and seemingly ONLY me and I don't understand it, I cried so hard after the break up, tried to hang myself, and then cried so hard again when she said she wanted to cut all communication.
Since that point I had to harden my emotions because I couldn't go on feeling how I was and now she wants to talk to me again I feel so confused and so emotionally dead.

I don't think I even want to date as much as I just want somebody to talk to, I'm so lonely after having somebody to talk to daily for so many years.

>>40268385
you hit bottom that mean you can only go up.
You can do what ever the fuck you want without worrying about you will fuck up more. Who the fuck care about you ?
I used to be like you 4 years ago. Job suck , no friend/gf , no life purpose.
Then i said fuck it, instead of watching some film or porn then go to sleep, I started learning game programing after work, and a little of concept art. Little by little. Everyday.
Then the more i do , the more i like it, i made some friend on gamedev forum , i did freelance some small project , and keep drawing like a hobby.
Now i work full time in a studio as a programmer and do freelance as a concept artist. People at work are cool, i used to that poor life style so most of my income go to bank, i can retire pretty soon at this rate lol.
And yeah, just find something to do everyday , what can go wrong after all ?

>>40268632
do you/girls come near a shit ?

no ?

then try being something othet than shit .

>>40282145
Yeah I used to do that, but she would always say something like 'ew that's too much, she looks like a man, why would you do that to yourself', so I eventually stopped.
>i hope everything works out for you
Thanks man, same goes for you