Mental Health

>>40119788
I'm pretty motivated at the moment, doing good in school, getting strength back after a long break, still lonely and fat though.wbu?

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I don't know how to describe how I'm feeling. I'm 6'1, more than decent body, have a beautiful face, great style, confident, big dick, etc. (I want to say funny, smart, and nice too, but I know you shouldn't describe yourself as such) but I'm not happy. The only reasons I can think of is because my living situation sucks but its temporary, I haven't fucked a girl in a while, or I have some kind of chemical imbalance. I pretend I'm happy all the time though and I'm good at it too.

>>40119846
Recovering from the end of a 2 year relationship, just split it off a couple weeks ago. Doing my best to distract myself with clean eating and consistent gym scheduling.

She dealt with a lot of mental health issues and over time i just lost feelings for her. The last time we talked i felt like an emotionless robot. I'm worried she feels like i gave up on her, I'm also worried that i actually DID give up on her but i just can't admit it.

Even though I initiated the split, it's the first time i've done so so im not sure how to feel about any of it

>haven't done anything with a female in 6 months
>about to go back to university to party for a week
>get rash on cock

What the fuck

About to fail an entire semester of classes due to an overwhelming sense of sadness I've had over the last 3 months.

Hopefully I can turn things around next semester and work my GPA back up.

Normally it would have been video games or something that would have caused me to fail in the past, but this time it was nothing like that, I've just sat around doing nothing all day for weeks on end, just feeling sad. Also I feel to embarrassed about the whole situation to even get professional help.

>>40119788
i havent got laid in 2.5 years and its eating me alive. i am THIS CLOSE to getting an escort.

>>40119874
I feel the same way, man. I don't know what it could be, maybe it's just this shitty winter that's bringing everything down.

>>40119886
maybe t's a sign, i'm betting the rash is less troublesome than an STD, m8

>>40119889
I'm kind of in the same boat, i've just lost a lot of motivation to keep up with classes and i hardly ever get any decent sleep so im always exhausted and just want to stay home and sleep. Hang in there, brother, and do your best

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>>40119788
>life is going no where fast
>lifts aren't progressing as fast as they did or should
>nothing seems to help or change anything
>everything that used to be fun is no longer fun
>every other person, regardless of how they say or feel, confident or unconfident, seems to have a place or role

pic related

>>40119788

Bad. Slept too little and my workout was terrible today. Feeling like garbage.

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>>40119933
>>40119922

I think I finally am happy

Been spending a lot of time with this really skittish accountant recently. That stupid shy smile makes me feel comfortable.

>>40119945
that sounds nice anon, good job.

I've been trying to flirt with a new qt at work but im not making much progress

I still have a ways to go, physically, before i feel outwardly attractive so that's probably some of my troubles. Just gotta keep at it

>>40119944
Yeah I meant to edit accountant because I originally just wrote "account", but was too stupid to do it before I reposted because I got distracted by adding other things. I just finished working out. My brain isn't exactly in high gear right now.

I wonder every morning if I'll make it through the day.

I got a pencil dick and I feel like working out just misleads women because they expect a better dick feelsbadman

>>40119788
Realized i have it pretty good and that all my problems are my fault. Just gotta fix them

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>>40119788

I am about to finish my finals, i have not been to the gym for two weeks but i'm trying my best to constantly do bw and static hold exercises.

Mentally, i'm barely keeping up. Recently i have been trying to be a better muslim, i stopped smoking weed & stopped chatting with girls and trying to hook up and its been very difficult.. I know everything will be fine and this just a small obstacle, i ask Allah for guidance and assistance everyday, i have no idea how i would be keeping up with all these struggles if i had not been a muslim.

I'm worried a little about my health, my diet is consisted mostly of sugary stuff and snacks and junk food because thats what all my friends are eating during the exam period.. Hopefully once this is over i'll start to focus more on a clean system of eating, hopefully doing some low carb because i feel like my body needs to have zero glucose for a while..

>>40119846
Fat and strong and dedicated, better than most. Best of luck

>>40119874
There has to be something that you are neglecting which is causing the unhappiness, i hope you will get over this period.

>>40119884
I sort of broke up with my girl a month ago because we both need a break from each other to "do our own thing" , i'm not sure how i feel about this but it is helping me to grow and nurture myself away from her influence, and i like it.

I still feel like she could be upset about one thing or alot of things especially because her current state of affairs (away from her family etc), i don't want to leave her alone when she could be in time of need, i fear for herself from herself...

>>40119886
Just be safe bruh


>>40119889
Hopelessness or just lack of motivation to do anything? in either case, you need to be pushed towards your goals, how have your friends been? what about family? we all go through this struggle, when i go outside and see everyone going on with their days, i get motivated because i know all of them are dealing with lots of shit as well.

>>40120012
>i don't want to leave her alone when she could be in time of need, i fear for herself from herself...

I worry about my ex too, even though the breakup happened only shortly after she got a new round of doctors and medication that im sure will help her be okay. Part of me feels like i should have stayed on and kept trying, believing that she /was/ going to be better, but then part of me also felt like i wasn't caring about myself and just letting her "walk all over me" in regards to how she acted due to her mental health issues

>>40119897
dude why so long?

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About to buy some DNP to escape skinny-fat. Feels good.

>>40120012
>Hopelessness or just lack of motivation to do anything? in either case, you need to be pushed towards your goals, how have your friends been? what about family? we all go through this struggle, when i go outside and see everyone going on with their days, i get motivated because i know all of them are dealing with lots of shit as well.

No friends

Family doesn't care

Just trying to get through by myself as usual.

>>40120012
Hey, is there a way I can contact you?

Just need someone to talk to, and preferably a brother (don't mean to sound weird).

>>40120081

i do have a kik, zoozkun is the username.

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>>40119788
feel like i'm holding myself back at nearly every opportunity. Why do we sometimes fear success, /fit/?

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I have a huge problem. I have about half a year now where i only work 12 fucking days a month (i tried picking up more shifts but we're over staffed). I still make about 1600 - 2000$ a month so i'm set financially.

but i don't know what the hell to do most days. I usually read a few pages ,watch a movie and go for a walk, but like 80% of the days is spent "doing nothing" on my computer. I just don't know how to be productive. I've been thinking about learning coding but i just get so lazy sitting around doing nothing


fuck

>>40120119
Success usually means change, anon, and sometimes it's difficult to handle change

>>40120012
Why does your relationship need a pause - what could possibly come out of it?

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>>40119884
It's not your job to fix her, man. Yours sounds like the same situation I went through. They say 2 years is the point where you either know or you don't.

I also think you're looking at the end of the relationship from the wrong perspective. There comes a time where you can look at something and realize that no matter how much you love someone, there comes a time to let go of the relationship. Maybe you'll get back together, maybe you won't. Either way, you made your decision for a legitimate, logical reason at the time. Learn from it and stop feeling so responsible for her well-being. She's an adult too.

This Buddhist monk has a good talk that really helped me gain some better perspective on the situation.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VD0mave5zZU

Hope it helps.

>>40120143

To clear things up:

1. She's in Canada and i'm in UK

2. We had initially planned to marry eachother once we're both done with university and moved back to our home (Saudi).

3. As any relationship, there are good times and bad times, she's now just started her first semester and i'm willing to give her sometime away from my communication to let her settle in a sense in her new climate (We did the same thing when i first started uni, it was like an 7 months break).


4. This pause has one premise, we are both free to rethink our relationship, see that if we're better off away for good or that if we are both persistant to have eachother. (Kind of like setting a bird free and see if it comes back to you)
Overall, i think it is not that necessary for us to do, but i really appreciate the idea that we both agree to go on our own paths and decide to be reunited at some point in the future and determine from there whether we're still fit for eachother or not. I've known her since i was 17, and i'm about to turn 22 this year.

>>40120129
Thanks, good point. Made me realize that the hardest part about change is thinking about it.

>>40120165
>It's not your job to fix her, man.

Thats what I'm trying to get myself to believe. Everyone I've talked to about this stuff has told me the same thing, but it contrasts with how she would always say that she "knows the way she is but can't help it" and always expressing a lot of remorse after an episode and telling me how good i was with her so i got in over my head wanting to "save" her or something but nothing that i did ever seemed to improve how she was, and anything she did would, generally, not improve things much either

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>>40119788
Youngest brother died on Thursday . Shits fucking surreal. Not going well.

>>40120238
Wow, that sounds exactly like my last girlfriend. At about two years, I started asking myself when she was finally going to stop having those emotional outbursts so that she wouldn't have to apologize later. It is an emotional tactic she uses because it's hard for her to address her problem. Maybe due to the fact that she's embarrassed about it.

Either way, I think you made the right decision. She can only ever fix herself, but that doesn't mean that you have to take the abuse until she does. Who knows? She might take this as a major sign that she needs to change. She might also never change. In either case, you made the right decision.

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>>40120261
that's fucking nuts. sorry, man.

>>40120261

My condolence.

Take some rest for some time.

>>40120261
>Not going well.
I know how you feel. I had diarrhea all morning because I was hungover.

>>40120261

Sorry to hear that brother, hope if passing is none to painful for you or your family.

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How do I stop being autistic and fall in love with someone?

I have never had a crush in my life and I feel like I'm missing out. I tried to make myself like this girl who I've been talking to but I feel nothing really for her

Went back to school to get my HS diploma after dropping out at 16, doing good so far, making friends there and I have a part time job in the field I want to go to college after. Things are finally looking up. Hard to believe I went to my mental hospital this summer for being suicidal

>>40120186
Do I see it correctly that you both however probably have sex with others during that pause?
It seems weird that you "negotiated" a marriage but still then need a pause to see if you even want the relationship.

But that's probably where your culture comes in.
You being religious alters the way you think and act so much that I probably just cannot even comprehend it.

So it probably doesn't make any sense to argue about it.
Good luck with your life and relationship, hope your marriage works out - stay true to her.

>>40120427
Having a crush on someone you don't even date is mentally disturbed and you should be thankful that you are not one of those that feel that way.

If you want to develop romantic feelings for her then go and date her.

>>40120427
Stop jacking off to anime my man.

>>40120186
Used to live in Saudi too

Tough life senpai, I feel you on the highschool love thing but damn I respect your trust in her. Usually chicks just hoe around and personally I can't do breaks because of that

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>>40120481
>You being religious alters the way you think and act so much that I probably just cannot even comprehend it.

>>40120488
She's a slut though I would never want to date her

>>40120491
Can't do my man

>>40120552
You are insanely stupid if you think that this statement is anything but simple truth.

And you are butt hurt if you think it was an insult.

>>40119788
Not very good
32 yo, kissless virgin, no friends
Could have a couple of close bros that are really trying to get me out of my shell, and why wouldn't they? When I try I can be very charming and funny to be around, I just can't being myself to give a fuck anymore about anyone
Being bullied since I could remember throughout my formative years and to my late teens ruined my chance at social development, can't speak to a girl for the life of me, on top of that I have a tiny dick that I'm sure would get anyone laughing
Lost all motivation for running and lifting around halfway last year, now I just work my shitty part time job, fuck around on the PC, sleep too little and wait for death

Pretty good senpai

Got my life back on track this last 8 months. Stopped drinking, started working out and made some gains (went from 5ft 10 50kg to 6ft 62kg, still got a long way), actually happy with work out and exercising, working a decent job part time and starting uni next September after 3 years of fuck up after fuck up.
Also started dating a chick that keeps my autism in line, makes me comfortable and relaxed and is helping overcome some minor trust issues.

Only problem I have is, after 2 years without getting laid and watching too much porn, my dick don't work as good as it should, but since August I cut off all porn and most jacking off and my erections are doing better than since high school. Bit of anxiety about PE, but slowly working on that as well.

>>40119788
This board was Health & fitness 4 years ago. There threads no longer belong here

Just got news my sister died.

Dad called put that weight on my shoulders, it took me 10 years to even get a working relationship with my father, that ended today. All the terrible things that happened he brought up, crushed my walls. I LOST my center...

On the plus side I deadlifts 405 this morning....

Also gave up my cat today for adoption, my car exploded two weeks ago, got denied the promotion at my job and had to throw put my bed, haven't fucked since August and my roomate left last week shafting me for the rent.

I am atlas....

>>40120711
Fuck man, that's tough... I don't know what to say to try and comfort, but don't give up, shit shifts from good to bad and back again

>>40120711
I'm sorry to hear that... But why would that ruin your relationship with your father? It seems to me like it's time for you to be there for each other more than ever

Depression is starting to go away, there are actually moments when I'm genuinely happy now, think the trip away I had with my girlfriend in January really helped. Training is going well and I'm getting more sleep despite waking up at 4.00am every weekday for work. Job is shit but I have a good opportunity to leave and relocate soon. It's looking up boys.

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Better than normal. I'm going to play squash with a THICC qt3.14 this week. She doesn't have a bf and I really want to fug her. If I spill my spaghetti and blow this chance I'll never forgive myself.

>>40119788
Going on the second date with a real qt tommorow, the moment I met her it was love at first sight.. At least for me. I better not mess anything up tommorow or it will take a toll on my psyche.

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>Can't tell if I'm attracted to a gril or attracted to the idea of having a relationship
>Qt I'm pursuing wants nothing to do with me anyway

i am being cucked by my ex gf who's a stripper who's dating some faggy australian photographer of psy trance festivals

>>40119889
Just try 50mg of 5-htp. Try to get a brand that's worth something, though I don't know what that might be.

>>40120763
good luck anon, go squash her if you know what i'm sayin ;)

>>40119788
Just tried to take a photo for online dating purposes.

Just fucking lol. The lack of bones in my face makes me look like I am melting. I look like a ugly dyke with MPB. Isn't this enough? No senpai. Standing at 5'8" most 10 yearolds are taller than me, and broader too. These genes are a fucking joke.

Just end it.

>>40119788
Going to gym again after 3 weeks off. Bench day Feels good brah

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>>40119788
>sinking deeper
>falling further away
>getting colder

Ah, you know. Can't complain.

>>40119788
Dunno, the girl I love rejected me like 5 days ago. When l wake up the first thoughts are still about her. While I was drunk I sliced my torso skin with razor pretty badly, though cuts are not really that deep, so let it be my memory.

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>>40119788
started dreaming of a qt muscle gf.

I don't into society much and barely have friends let alone a qt muscle gf

feels bad man

Had a dream that i finally met a qt and she loved me, in the same dream my parents forbid me from seeing her and i woke up before making the choice between my parents or her. To top it off havent even eaten lunch so struggling to survive. Saw a qt in traffic looking at me and i stared back afterwards i thought of what life couldve been like together. All in all im doing a-ok

I'm doing okay. My depression and anxiety are medicated enough to be manageable. My biggest issue right now is that I didn't shower last night and look gross as fuck, but I don't really have time to shower this morning.

>>40120774
>i am being cucked by my ex gf
I am going to stop you right there: if she's your EX then you have nothing to do with each other anymore and she can sleep with whoever she wants without making you a cuck.
Unless you keep paying for her shit and letting her live with you, in which case, yeah, you are a cuck.

This is literally the year of me. Just need to hang on for a few months.

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH

I'm motivated. I feel positive about life. But at the same time I get angry really easily. I find myself getting tired of listening to the same people. Getting lost in my thoughts over things that happened 10+ years ago. You would have thought by now these insecurities would have ironed themselves out. I am new to working out in general but I feel better for doing it.

i'm not lost, but I don't know where I am

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>>40120980
I feel ya, bro.

I just go through the motions of my life. I'm a bit numb I guess. I don't really chase goals because of some childhood stuff.

Being able to say this anonymously is pretty good though.

>>40119889
Fuck bruh, I was in the same situation. Flunked a shit ton of classes, I tried concentrating the best I could but nothing worked. I kinda figured I was depressed but I refused to believe it because I thought it was pussy shit. I only got professional help after my advisor basically set up an appointment with a psych for me. It kinda helped, I got meds for concentration, still haven't used them though because I've been out of school for a semester. But you should prolly get help because it only gets worse. Or take a semester off and try to regain focus. Good luck bruh we're all gonna make it

objectively ugly
5'7
obviously tfw no gf and no friends
poor, in university doing my best in hopes of getting a job that would allow me to live life at an acceptable level but still have a really long way to go
it has just turned out I have psoriasis

convince me not to kill myself

>>40120261
>Shits fucking surreal.
iktf, total disbelieve that the present is not some sort of weird dream (no hunger, no purpose, no thoughts, just sadness and wanting to wake up from the nightmare).
dont isolate yourself, spend this time with those closest to you, it will help greatly, even if no words are exchanged, the mere company of someone else is great (these feels will/might never go away completely but it gets "easier" with time)

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>>40121500
Don't do it anon.
Oops it seems like I dropped an image. It was an accident.
[spoiler]The exit bag is the last thing I think about whille drifting off to sleep every night[/spoiler]

>>40121500
If you wanted to truly kill yourself you would have done so already. Forward is the battle cry. I wish I could tell you it gets better but I do not know and won't lie to you. Peace be upon you

>>40121521
Does this not give you the same reaction as hypercapnea where you physically cannot inhale because your chemoreceptors stop you?

I can't believe you'd be able to inhale this freely without some kind of instinct stopping you.

Physique's doing better but psyche's taken a blow. Falling behind on studies, in an area that I'm actually passionate about. Living with mother still, she's terribly moody from divorce still and it's really rough on me taking all her shit. Just want my own place to eat/study/work in peace for a couple of months to get to be myself for a while, but that's not happening anytime soon. I don't even know.

Theres no one to talk to so i start having conversations with myself and i move my lips and make facial expressions and that only makes people want to talk to me even less

>>40121521
Why the fuck do prisons fuck around with execution chemicals that barely work when asphyxiation by nitrogen or helium is so much easier, cheaper and more humane. Just gas em! I'm against the death penalty but let's at least do it right

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>>40119788
fuckin horrible

sleeping like shit, eating like shit which is causing my lifts to go to shit

stalled on 155lb squat and took last week off squatting because the inner part of my right knee was hurting, so I was hoping giving it a week off would help it heal but it still kinda hurts sometimes

my OHP is stalling for the second time at 75lbs

SL tells me to do pull ups & chin ups on the same day but that always means that whichever one I do second will suffer hugely

my neck and back have been constantly stiff for like 1 year and a half now

and to top it all off my boners are still soft and the doctors don't know why

life kinda sucks famalam

Sick with cough so I can't brace for lifts. Lifting is like the one thing that I enjoy right now and I can't even do it. I'm full on cocoon mode. Pretty lonely honestly. I'd really like to just even hang out with a girl for a bit. But I have no idea how to meet people.

Not too good fellas.

I finally achieved my dream job, have goal body, and am financially secure - all the things that I used to worry about when I had a gf. A week before I left for said dream job, my gf cut it off with me. She was special, brehs. It'd be easier if I could find a new qt, but the dating pool in my new town is more like a dating puddle. It's either single moms or hambeasts with meth teeth.

For you guys still in college - find a QT and hang onto it. It's hell meeting someone out in the real world if you have standards.

>>40121598
I was home alone once for a week. Started making videos of myself talking and then playing them back because I was so lonely. Being alone makes you crazy.

>>40121753
>She was special, brehs.
no, she wasn't.

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>>40120376
Lol

>>40121630
Because there's a lot of things that could go wrong with that stuff. If the mask isn't sealed perfectly shut you'll stay alive and just wake up when the tank's empty with a terrible headache. Too much pressure and you'll burst your lung, which is definitely an inhumane and torturous method of execution.
I imagine it's also general perception of death by asphyxiation as inhumane
Also >>40121562 if true would make exit bags not all that they are supposed to be. Though I think hypercapnia is triggered by an abundance of CO2, not a lack of oxygen; basically the principle behind an exit bag is that your body is still filling its lungs with some gas that isn't triggering a strong reaction. By "I think" I really mean "I just checked it on Wikipedia."
Though the instructions recommend to strap the mask tightly because people have been known to tear them off while unconscious. Fucking stubborn body, your brain just needs this bullshit to end forever.

You know what should be used as an execution method? Guillotining. 0% survival rate, though no one is really sure if your head has a few seconds to panic and feel pain before shutting down from blood loss. But I don't think being electrocuted is a walk in the park either.

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Right here, senpai, I post in these threads a lot anyway. Also, yes, I've been getting help for a year now, doesn't stop the urges, just slows them down.

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>23
>been in college for 5 years now
>still a junior
>did part time, dropped and failed a few classes
>passing 2/4 of my classes
>hate my accounting major
>not sure what I want to do with my life
>still very behind in my classes
>trying to finish school so I can get a better job to help my mom
>whole family is having money problems
>all my friends are moving on with their lives
>no gf ever
>still a virgin
>constantly falling in love with pretty much any girl that shows me attention
>have feels for my old lesbian classmate who’s in a relationship and now lives in another city
>trying to make friends at uni but no one is really accepting me
>tried meet up with people from /soc/ and /r9k/ but they all bailed at the end
>the small amount of friends I have left aren’t really doing much with their lives>My only best friend I have is also depressed, but he won’t talk about it. I feel like he’s gonna kill himself and theres nothing I can do to stop him.
>lost all my baby gains
>life is beating my ass

>>40120481
>>40120521

Being a muslim, if i cheated/had sex with other girls, i'd worry more about myself than worry about her reaction to it. Knowing that Allah gives countless rewards for chaste men who avoid lust completely and that i have fallen into this sin, is a huge guilt that i have to carry with me. Knowing that i was tested and failed my test, probably outweighs many other things.


The thing that deters me most from actually going out there and finding me a sidechick is my desire to be a good person and a pious muslim.


About her, i trust her enough that if she does something similar, that she'll carry the weight of that guilt herself as well. She has the desire of being a chaste girl too, and if she breaks that i'm pretty sure I would be less important in her mind than the fact she had committed a major sin and she dragged herself into it.

I provided life saving CPR for my father 2 days ago but still feel ashamed and can't shake the feeling I did something wrong. life shouldn't feel like this bros.

>>40122911
Blow yourself dumbass

>>40119788
dunno man

no idea if i've offended this girl

no idea if she wants me to text her

no idea at all if what she's been telling me has some truth behind it

i'm clueless lads

>>40119788
"I have a boyfriend, sorry :/"

JUST

>>40120126

Go climbing and hiking. Learn basic survival things like knots, how to make a fire, get a hunting license. That's what I would do.

Thought I was on my way to get my first gf but today she texted and told me that due her situation at life she doesnt really have energy for a relationship.
Feeling a bit disapointed

>gets with me
>goes back to her ex
>texts me that she wants me etc.
>breaks up with her guy twice
I am at my wits end guys

Lost weight for her, now after she left me I lift to forget her. The problem is that, after 4 months, im going to see her at a birthday party. How can I handle this?

>>40119945
be careful bro, same happened to me, when that confortable feel fades you'll feel worst than ever

>Dating qt catholic
>Look in better shape than ever
>Selling plays like there's no tomorrow

Still there's a long way to go. I feel confident right now, but aiming as high as I'm aiming requires a lot of strengh and discipline. I want to make it guys.

>>40119897
Got ya beat. June 15th, 2011. Eventually, you just accept it.

Anxiety has got to a point in which I'm feeling constant and a severe pain in my throat as though I'm going to be sick. Didn't know what this was so after some googling it appears to be called acid reflux. I'm a fat cunt but it appears to be suppressing my appetite so It's an alright trade off. I've eaten 800 calories which for a disgusting fat ass isn't that bad. Hope It continues desu and I lose some weight. How are you?

>had anxiety 24/7 for several years
>got rid of it completely with medication, therapy and positive lifestyle changes, and was anxiety free for a year
>anxiety came back a month ago and refuses to leave me alone no matter what I do

Dear god WHY. I finally though I'd live a normal life, and it gets taken away from me! It feels even worse now because now I remember what it feels like to be normal.

>>40123757
What kind of meds did you take?

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>>40119788
This past month has been a roller coaster

Totaled my car last week, bought a new one two days later, they've been doing layoffs at work lately, but I just got a small raise, classes just restarted but all my professors are super chill, been hanging out with the qt more lately, my cat cockblocked me though Friday night though. It's been so stressful at work and life I bought a pack of cigarettes to relax but I think I don't really feel like smoking much anymore

I'm about to put in my application for both graduation and one for the police department. Tonight's DnD night and I'm about to pull the first big reveal too, it's gonna be fun to see my players' faces. Going to the gym after I get off work in an hour

Overall I'd say I'm on the upswing from a downward slide

>>40123766
Lyrica. Didn't get any side effects, was happy with it.

>>40122911
I'm the person you replied to

All girls hoe around. Even Muslim girls hoe around. Source: a guy who knows how to pull Muslim girls

Dump that Islam shit bro it won't help you get anywhere.

>>40123804
Nice. I was given wellbutrin but I never went with it. too scared.

>>40119788
Not too sure really. Classes are pretty easygoing this semester, and i'm the healthiest i've ever been thanks to /fit/, but I just feel so depressed. Grill I've been spending time with for the last couple years has stopped talking to and hanging with me. I don't know what I did wrong or how to fix it. On the other hand, went and saw Split with a QT, and we agreed to be eachothers valentine dates. I just don't know if I can go through with anything though, even though grill 1 is platonic love, I feel like i'm replacing her by going out with grill 2. I dont know. At least Overwatch is fun right?

>>40119788
szarul

i mean shit
>kurva

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>>40119788
Pretty mediocre breh, don't think I'm as depressed as most of last year, started learning to draw, reading some books and lifting weights again recently so the self-improvement front is looking pretty good.

It's mostly so I don't lose my mind for the dry spell of not having anything to do for a couple of months, also trying to prepare myself to go hard later in the year so I don't have another mental breakdown when things get rough.
I wish the human body wasn't so fragile so I could keep going forwards and not to have to worry about the consequences, jfmsu.

>>40123757
EXACT same situation
forced myself to get professional help again though

>>40123984
>miserable beta faggot, possibly underage
>likes overwatch

It all makes sense now.

>Broke up year ago, fucked me up
>Finally feeling like I'd like to date or be in a relationship again
>Hate literally everyone

How do you become alone but not lonely?

>>40122911
You're not even supposed to have a girlfriend if you're a Muslim you fucking idiot.

>not marrying the girl

Just fucking wow.

I'm feeling pretty terrible. I'm a fat manlet that wants to lift big and just started. I hoped I would start off average but I'm extremely weak. I can't even squat 120lbs. I feel worthless.

Gf is acting weird because I act like a tool. Training is more than mediocre because I am only going when I feel like it. School is more than bad because I have been there like 3 times this semester.

Shit. Gonna lay off that weed and try to get my shit together. I hate this hovering sword above my head feeling.

>>40124076
>miserable beta faggot
well probably yeah
>possibly underage
turned 20 in december

Coming home from a trip to Amsterdam. Long day, haven't seen my gf in 5 days and I'm about 2 hours away from slipping my penis inside her and I honestly can't think about anything else other than that right now. School is whatever. Top grade in one class, fail another. Barely any real friends, I hope she will stay with me forever. Still anxious though.

considered objective im doing fucking good.
finished my education at a bank with an A, got a new job for half a year in tourisim out of the country.

But still i feel like theres missing something, so I started meditating.

Big plus is I think I finally dont get Onitis anymore when I proceed to kiss/fuck a girl.
(fuck is a lie btw, only made out)

>>40119889
talking to someone irl is important. Even if its embarrassing at first, i think you should try anon.

>>40119945
Sounds nice. Just be careful, take it easy and smell the flowers yanno?

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I'm extremely nervous. I'm going to an investor's conference on Thursday to seek $100k to start my urban agriculture farm (producing a product that can't be bought fresh where I live and normally produced in a manner that is terrible for the environment).

I've been writing and revising my biz plan for 2 months now and now I have to go in front of dozens of investors and venture capitalists when I'm not great at public speaking.

The gym is keeping my stress down, but holy fuck, this conference can either make or break my dream.

>>40119976
Just breathe. Talk to someone if you need to.

>>40124240
>>40124240
>when I'm not great at public speaking.

practice, practice, practice anon. spend at least an hour a night for the next few days doing a mock talk where you go through it.

also, whenever you're alone during the day just starting talking through parts of it. in the shower? practice your opening. making dinner? hammer down those points.

I am a social autist but I am apparently a great public speaker (go figure) according to others, and my secret is practice. and you can do it too. I believe in you anon

>>40120427
Well, maybe you're just a psychopath or something anon. Or gay.

>>40124104
by accepting your past and moving the fuck on

Not very well, I should really make the call to my doctor and get the therapy I told him I'd get 3 months ago.

reminder

duck out if the compromises make you miserable. duck out if you get miserable. duck out if it just makes you uncomfortable.

the goal is not to force a relationship to keep going. its to find a relationship worth keeping.

there is literally no benefit to frankensteining a relationship other than possibly sex, but you're better off withotu it if it isn't working.

emjoy the relationship for as long as you can. and if it goes south, leave, cuz all you're doing is preventing yourself from finding the good one that might last.

lasting isn't the point, it isn't the goal.

And yeah you have to take the risk of making a high stakes deal with a potentially very unstable person, plus people change. That's life, you can't play all of it safe.

If you're worried about hurting someone, DON'T, because that pain and shame will pass faster than you think but the pain of regret lasts the rest of your life!

People will delude themselves into putting up with some dramatic or toxic person just to not be alone instead of jumping into the deep end, cutting that person off, and seeing what new people life throws at them.

>>40123017
Just give it a day or two, then text her and say your sorry if you offended her, and otherwise you won't bother her. Put it out there but keep your dignity.

I feel like crap because I always waste time, like today I wanted to clean up my room and do some school work but in the end all I did was organize some books I need to get rid of and posted <10 things on EBay. Now I have to leave for work in fifteen minutes and I'm not even out of my pajamas at 3:30 pm.

I'll have to get up early in the morning tomorrow to drive to college, and then the day after I have a dentist appointment because I haven't been there in two years and have a cavity. I wish I had someone to force encourage me to get shit done but all I have is myself.

I have the curse of Apathy. I'm basically an intelligent and healthy person that never does anything except abuse substances to escape reality.

Psychology phd student here. AMA about mental health

>>40124510
What to do about the feeling of impending doom with no clues whatsoever?

Kinda shitty. Just feeling lonely and like I'm in a rut. Uni doesn't help.

>>40124341
There's a bit of a balance though, this is overly simplistic.

Every relationship will have a time when it goes south, when you're uncomfortable. But as you say, if the goal is to have one worth keeping you will have to work through bad times and keep going.

>>40124479
>tfw too smart to abstain from life ruining drugs
>tfw too smart to live healthy

>>40124397
you think so?

>>40124528
Is it a strong and persistent feeling? If it is, I recommend you therapy with a profesional. Don't let this rule your life.

>>40124537
you shouldn't work through bad times if that's what keeps you from having one worth keeping tho

>>40120579
im here for u brah

>>40124589
Is there really a relationship with zero bad times though?

>>40124617
no but there are relationships with bad times piling up more and more and whatever you do the amount of effort your putting into it is not giving you the results you want and at this point you should heed that advice

Am i a dick for playing with this birds feelings?

My mental health is shit, i fear
Ive been in relationships and i want to start over, get a new gf because i was good at keeping it together and it was fun somehow but i have no fucking idea on how to get back on the horse again so to speak

Ive tried meeting girls "organically" through common interests and self improvement along the way but shit aint working, i drift further away with each passing day and i just want to meet that girl whom i can relate to

What the fuck am i to do?
I dont want to be r9k bitter but these conflicting feelings are eating at me

I often feel like killing myself.

>>40124707
no you don't

>>40124589
That's really retarded.
>>40124639
This is reasonable though. If your trying to avoid all discomfort or pain you're going to be very selfish and very alone.

>>40124639
I am way to narcissistic to let relationships ruin my good times. Was just trying to get the point across that most relationships will find themselves in reality at some point and that there will be issues.

I agree with the more bad that good times exit though.

>>40119788
>How're you holding up, brehs?
Bad, I'm only here on /fit/ to go on the QTDDTOTT to ask for some /fit/ approved exercises I can do without any weights. I'm a university student trying to use exercise to fight depression, but the very fact that I am a university student is stopping me from lifting.

I'm stuck in some sort of hell where I want to get rid of my Waifu, but there's no fuckable women around, putting me in a strange sort of limbo.

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Really motivated. Although my arms, chest and legs ache most days and progress is really slow.
Just taking my time to make it.
Already lost about 30 kgs and now working on not being chubby by gaining muscle and reducing body fat.
Also, gf said that both be is and chest felt bigger.
Mfw.

>>40124720
>If your trying to avoid all discomfort or pain you're going to be very selfish and very alone.
agreed
>>40124725
>I agree with the more bad that good times exit though.
a lot of people, people i know do that they try so hard to not break up with their SO that all they're doing is hurting themselves ultimately real shame. if there's no end in sight and all you're anticipating is the next fight/discussion/whatever there's no real point in trying to beat a dead horse

>>40119788

Doing okay, find my thoughts trailing away frequently and they always end in some negative or depressing thought. I'm making a point out of rejecting that thought immediately after I have it, even if it doesn't sadden me right away, just so my depression has less fuel later. I'm treating myself like a toddler that needs constant attention because if I don't I'll end up binge drinking away the pain again.

>>40124688
Maybe even a holiday would sort you out, chap. Like a month of living in Hong Kong or whatever. Perspective is massively important and when I drift away from shit negatively it usually because I am sinking into bad mental habits, routines, discomfort etc due to lack of perspective

Guys help

I'm terribly addicted to overwatch. I have a good job, gf, friends, my own place. But instead of spending my free time improving myself I play video games to the point where I can't do my chores. I don't want to stagnate in my life. I tried uninstalling but I keep going back

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>>40119788
Went to a "party" friday night.
Well not exactly a party, more like a gathering. Music was loud, but barely any dancing and little drinking.

Friend introduced me to 2 girls, talked a bit with them although I don't think I did that well. Didn't really autism out or anything, and I made them laugh enough, but I said some dumb shit.

Still, one of them proposed that we go out sometime before she left. I didn't respond. Was it a formality or should I call her or something ? I didn't ask for her phone number, but my friend has it.

>>40124847
I have a similar problem with videogames in general, overwatch is a shit one though.

The only thing that works is to literally put you gaming device of your preference out of your reach. Not a single rule of just X amount of time worked for me, so it had to be cold turkey.

Do it faggot

On zoloft atm. It's going alright. Currently a NEET and the only thing I can think about is working out and making gains. I get very very bored and have turned to gambling to pass the time but this is not helping with the financial situation. Sort of don't care about the money though, which is nice because I used to be unhealthily obsessed with trying to get rich. Hopefully I can make some great gains and join the police or something soon, but right now I'm enjoying NEETdom.

>>40124833
Thanks man but i dont like holidays, i prefer to stay productive
Might try and work abroad if i find the possibility for it and maybe that will change my outlook

Still, i believe what i need is to get back into dating but the entery barrier is just massive

i'm supposedly studying for exams, but i actually wake up and vegetate for a dozen hours, then go back to bed. i occasionally go to the gym maybe once or twice a week, whereas up to a month ago i was going very regularly four times a week.
i don't really enjoy my major (compsci), i have no plans for the future, i hate myself and i want to die.

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Come be comfy with us and share a feel or a rep brehs. we all gonna make it https://discord.gg/Pv2bmRf

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>long time female friend
>just nice at first but i get feelings later
>always ducks and dodges me when she gets new bf
>uses me to feel good about herself during/after breakups
>she says mushy and sweet shit to me so i go along with it since i like her and im a lonely fuck
>always feel low self worth and like a retard afterwards
>keep letting her do it to me

feels good

Anyone else get seriously depressed when they see a hot girl and realize she wouldn't want to be with you?

>>40124927
It's never a formality you dingus, girls will not call you out just because
Unless she's 3/10 and desperate

>>40120261
Losing a brother is like losing a part of yourself. I'm sorry for your lose mate and I hope you get through this.

Not really relevant but this doesn't deserve its own thread either.

I've been doing the ripptoe 5x5 workout in the sticky but it only takes me about 25 minutes. Isn't working out supposed to take like at least an hour or something?

>>40124929
Alright anon, I'm going to sell my PC (after winter is over)

>>40120488
>Having a crush on someone you don't even date is mentally disturbed

What did he mean by this?

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>26
>Went on first date ever last weekend
>Which was set up by my fucking mom
>"Oh I know this girl your age at work, she's kind of nerdy like you and has your same sense of humor!"
>I can just imagine her gushing "Oh you'd love my son, he's such a handsome young man and so fit too!" and feel the urge to kill myself building
>Decline forever
>Two weeks ago she says she brought it up with the girl and she said okay if I want to
>Fine, if it'll shut my mother up
>Meet this chick at this Greek place
>Awkward smalltalk with long pauses in silence
>Nothing in common
>All of her "nerdy" things are normie stuff like Pokemon, Harry Potter, Anime, Marvel movies, etc.
>My "nerdy" things are autistic video games, homebrewing and fermentation science, history, etc.
>Part ways directly after meal
>After finding out date was a bust, Mom says "I don't understand! You're so handsome and nice!"
>Tell her "Yeah but I'm boring as fuck and not so handsome to people who aren't my mom or grandmother. And that is why I am unworthy. And that is while I am going to die alone."
>She spends the whole week looking defeated
I hate this and I want the ride to be over.

>>40120261
If my younger brother died I'd take it really fucking hard. Can't even imagine what you must be feeling.

>>40125521
Yo did you post on r9k a few weeks ago asking advice about this? I swear i replied to you.

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I give up. I'm done.
Deleted Tinder and all 0 of my matches.
I don't give a fuck about whether or not I get gains anymore. I'm just treating lifting as yet another stupid hobby to keep my mind off my unending state of self-loathing. Next time my parents or relatives ask me when I'm getting a girlfriend, instead of chuckling with embarrassment and shrugging, "Eventually, I guess." I'm just going to tell them, "Never. I'm a beta piece of shit and girls don't like me, so stop asking me, because every time you do it drives me that much closer to the suicide I deserve."
Fuck it. I don't care anymore. I'm tired of lying to myself with false hope and saying "Haha anyday now! Just gotta keep my chin up and before I know it, I'll have found the girl for me, just like Mama always said!" I'm going to eat a fucking gun in a couple years shortly after turning 30 and it will be the best day of my life. I can only hope I get enough gains to look good in my funeral tux by then.

>>40125521
Wew lad thinking about yourself like that just sets you up for failure. Stop comparing yourself and your intrests with other people. ALOT of people dont have intrests at all and are not /fit/. From the description I read from your post you are atleast in the top 30% of guys.
It sounds like you spend way to much time on this board and none in the real world. People in the real world dont think like you think they do and they defiantly are not anything like this site describes them to be like. I'm an ex-fatty with gyno, daddy issues and an ex-heroin junkie and people ans girls generally dont give a fuck. It's all about your attitude. If you act and think like you're boring people will think you are. Try just talking about your homebrews with passion once to a stranger and you'll directly notice they'll be very interested in what you have to say.
Stop letting social conditioning ruin you and hold you back.

Just moved to a new city, Don't have any friends

buzzed my head bc hair is starting to thin

workout everyday, watch calories

feel depressed and ugly.

... I thought my life was suppose to get better once I graduated.

>>40125521
Oh come on you fucking cunt, you could have at least put it mildly for her
She's your mother, she might have been clumsy and intrusive but she really did try to do what she thought was best; she ruined her vaginal canal to give you life, you don't even want to think about the nights she spent awake or the money she spent for you and it's not her fault today's social relations have evolved too fast for her to understand
She just wanted to try her best for her baby son and you should feel a great shame for treating her like that

>>40123757
drink your kefir and eat fermented foods Anon, there are strong traces that poor gut microbiome may cause depressive moods and anxiety. Since I started drinking kefir everyday and taking care of my shit, not postponing it everytime I'm coping, it's not like it's all gone but it's so much better

>>40125689
If you use a gun, it will be a closed casket funeral.
You are me, literally. I managed to last until 32 but I am close, so very close... I'm thinking of signing up for the shooting range so I'm legally allowed to purchase a gun and bullets.

>>40119788
Happiest I've been in a long time.

Going to join a fraternity and recently went on my first real date.
Sperged a little but she said she would go out again.

>>40125689

A gazelle doesn't pretend to be a lion; you must embrace your Beta status. Join AntiFa, find a woman you are strongly attracted to, but instead of trying to date her, buy her things. Develop weird submissive fetishes.

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>had a wonderful gf for about a year
>first love kind of thing
>we broke up
>was bad for a couple years but eventually started getting better and developed a massive crush on one of the girls i was friends with, had no problem admitting to myself i was in love with her
>harbored these feelings for the better part of 6 months (self-esteem issues_ before finally spilling my guts to her
>got turned down because she was about to head off to college and wasn't looking for a relationship
>fast forward to now, about 2 years later
>had a relationship with a girl who loved me but I could never truly feel like i loved her back
>always felt overly self-aware/conscious of how i was feeling or thinking
>never felt like i could just "relax"
>all of my emotions feel manufactured
>feel like i don't know how to "love" anymore

this is some weird, rough shit

>>40125641
I've never posted on /r9k/, but I'm sure most people there have been on cringy forced dates like that before.

>>40125690
>just talking about your homebrews with passion once to a stranger and you'll directly notice they'll be very interested in what you have to say.
Tried to bring it up. She didn't drink beer and I doubt she would've been as fascinated about the importance of a ferulic acid rest when brewing a roggenbier as I am. Believe me, we fucking tried to find things to talk about, we filled as much time as we could talking about what we were into, but had nothing to contribute to each other's interests.

>>40125705
I know, it was pretty harsh. I was seething with self-hatred after that and lashed out. I apologized the next day, but it's not like she can unhear how I really feel about myself.

>>40125762
I probably won't literally eat a gun. Helium mask sounds like the way to go. I'd probably opt to donate my organs and get cremated. Even then, I might not even go through with it and just coast through life until I can no longer bear it. It really depends on when the hate for myself outweighs the love for my family.

>>40125818
>'ve never posted on /r9k/, but I'm sure most people there have been on cringy forced dates like that before.
The story was fucking identical. Honestly assumed you were a robor based off that post.

>started meditating daily
>everything is going better and my girl says I'm not as angry a person which was becoming a real issue because I'm a grumpy fuck

>>40125868
That sounds neat, it's one of those things I always wanted to try but never knew how to do right
Share routines/tips/internet sources please, wise anon?

>>40120261

Fuckin eh man gl

>>40125521
It's "weird" (not really, since I am / was the same) that you weren't able to be interested enough in the girl to elicit anything from her. To be fair, she was the same.

Just watch this. It's about amino acids and their role in neuro transmitter formation. You could try some and see what they do for you and maybe you'll develop a bigger interests in the people you're talking to. It's pretty cool.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_CMnh7nYOrM&t=4301s

>>40125891
I illegally downloaded some guided meditation tracks off piratebay called headspace. I've meditated without but they definitely help getting back in to the habit. It starts at 10 minutes, for a bit over a week then 15 minutes for 2 weeks and finally 20 minutes. I'd link a torrent but piratebay is down right now and it's the only site I know

>>40123548
Got ya beat. Last time was previous lifetime. Maybe.

Depress as fuck cause I got a degree in business but cant find a career. I used to have a gf but she broken up cause of family matter. Started smoking weed so feeling better but man Im kinda addicted to smoking but at least im making good gains at the gym

>>40123548
I went 4 years. 4 long years. I'm not bad looking and I'm in good shape but I was living in the middle of nowhere, sucks

>>40125930
mein negger

>>40125818

Wait so you told this girl, on your date, what you thought of yourself?

>>40125996
I said this to my mother.

>>40125818
>I doubt she would've been as fascinated about the importance of a ferulic acid rest when brewing a roggenbier as I am

I get this same thing when i try to talk to people in-depth about cycling. No one seems to be as passionate/knowledgeable about bikes as i am around here

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I don't even know right now. I just started uni semester but it already feels like hell again. The first girl I've ever gone out with and fucked is barely messaging me, but before break she was all over me. Idk what happened. But I'm considering just confronting her and dropping her and returning to cocoon mode. It sorta sucks I guess since she's introverted as well and really attractive and I'm a social autist.

I just wanna die pls

>>40126015
I get passionate about talking about Estonia, laulupidu and The Forest Brothers...

In America, where no one even knows what an Estonia is.

Too bad we're not near each other. I could talk about cycling for days.

>>40126112
I've noticed that, and maybe this is just my experience, that it's difficult to find a girl who is really /really/ passionate about something. Even "normie" things that are totally fine to be passionate about, i don't see a lot of girls really expressing that kind of knowledge/devotion to something the way i see a lot of guys do

I'm really lonely. I only have 2 good friends that are away at other colleges. I've never been intimate with a girl and im 21. My only other friends are internet game friends but video games dont fill the void anymore. I've stopped making gains in the gym for such a long time too, I just gain fat but my lifts won't increase (greyskull LP). I honestly don't know what to do anymore I used to be a self development junkie and it used to get me excited but it seems now that it was all an illusion. I don't think i've made any progress since highschool.

>>40126322
I had a hipster gf who was obsessed with the environment in the same way I am with Estonia.

We broke up after a fight when I accidentally threw a paper receipt in the trash instead of the recycling.

>>40126107
mate we are living the exact same situation to a T.

I'm gonna cocoon for another year and if things aren't looking up im taking the easy way out

>only kid in extended family who isn't engaged or married
>only one in friend group from undergrad who isn't engaged or married
>going to leave grad school with my masters
>hate science after working 80 hours for shit money the past three two years
>trying to cut, so lifts stalling
>no matches on tinder yet

The one thing I have going for me is I started rock climbing again, which I loved in undergrad. The cutting will help me make mad gains in that, at least. I really only signed up for tinder because a few friends encouraged me to. If I don't get any matches soon I think I'll just delete it; I'm pretty unenthused about it and I'm doubtful of my success even if I do find some matches.

I just want to be left alone. Everyone expects me to be a happy, successful person and they encourage me to be better. Get a career and a girlfriend/wife; buy a house and fill it with kids. I don't care about any of that.

>>40125868
Have you noticed any weird effects with your meditation? For me, the ringing in my ears becomes very noticable and the static when I close my eyelids starts dancing around and doing weird things. I'm honestly scared to meditate more because it feels like I'm getting brain damage.

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>>40120261
Feeling you, anon.

>>40125060
very comfy

>>40125804
>Join AntiFa

So he can get his ass beat repeatedly? What's the point of that?

Doing better but still feel some apathy and anger towards myself but here are some positives

>hooked up with friend for FWB so sex was nice
>beard growing in better
>have started talking to family about my depression so it's been helping
>made Dean's List while in my Nursing Program
>making solid progressions on Bodyweight exercises
>started a cut again
>working part time while at school so making small cash to afford shit
>starting to talk to more people in my classes

slow progress but it's something

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I have realized that most men are darn awful.
I'm trying my very hard not to sound like a radical feminazi here, but I have met so many men who are total assholes and literally pressuring me to have sex with them.

It's almost like most men placed no value on the opposite sex at all. And it's frighting me. Realizing this has made me lost all my tfw no bf feels and I can't even bring myself to talk with them.

I don't know how to even recover from this. I think I'm done with men for good at this point.

>>40126974
am not like this pls be my gf bb i treat you right :^^^)

>>40126974

I'm at the point where I realize all women are just vapid cunts who only care about the size of the bulge in your pants (meaning wallet) and will cheat on you, so it's good we'll be staying away from each other.

>>40120986
Are you me? Iktf but the fears and anxieties I experience from the past are from the self-loathing and stress from bullying for all of middle school. I'm also on the upswing because I'm also new into working out but it feels good. It's finally the year of self improvement

>>40119788
I had a dream I fell in love with a beautiful woman last night. It was such a vivid dream, reality felt weird to come to terms with when I finally woke up. I knew I was dreaming while it was happening because it felt like real life, but I knew my life wasn't like that.

I woke up in shambles and haven't been able to get it off my mind all day.

>>40126974
Post tits

>>40126974
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>>40126974
Good men feel the exact same way about women. You don't see it because you're not dating women. Most people are shitty regardless of gender.

>>40119788
Just quit dank after smoking daily for about a year, lifting 4-6 days a week and eating well, so breddy good generally.
I'm just super poor college fag with lots of medical bills and school work so stress is ^

>>40126539

its generally hard as fuck for even good looking guys to meet hot girls.

My brother met his gf but he just got lucky af

>>40125689
Wait a bit for suicide man. I totally respect an hero, but you need to try giving up on women and still living and doing things. You might find it's not as bad as you think.

>>40125694
>>40125932

I'm graduating in a couple months with a degree I hate. I'm terrified.

>>40125775
>>40126898

Happy 4 u

>>40125806
Fug, similar here. Got cheated on and it messed me up. I feel like I will never legitimately have the feeling of falling in love again and it makes me really sad.

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>>40119788
On anti-depressants, which is nice cause my mood has stopped going all over the place. I now have to deal with just shitty self control habits. It's annoying to think that maybe if I had been on these from the start I might have had better habits ingrained into me from the start but I guess it's better to start over then to never start period.

>>40127376
In times of sadness, i'd always compare the kind of stuff i'd do for the other girls with the stuff i was willing to do for my most recent gf and i could never muster the same kind of enthusiasm and thoughtfulness for things as i used to

almost as if subconsciously i was stuck in a "well is it even worth the effort" kind of thinking, since i had been let down by that kind of stuff in the past.

day 5 of no chew...

how long will this feeling last, bros? every waking moment i think about chewing tobacco. the only good thing coming out of this is my wicked work outs because im so fucking irritated most of my day.

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Eating disorder is back. Hello darkness old friend.

>>40122270
Right there with you, my dude.

>>40122270
Go coccoon mode. Give up vices like video games/drugs. Study and Lift, prioritize those two above anything else.

I wish I lifted during undegrad, I didn't pick it up till after I graduated.

Trying to get out of 2 years of NEETship
don't have a fucking clue what I want to do though. like nothing makes me motivated

I want to be with her so badly, we get along perfectly, we never run out of things to talk about and always make each other laugh. But she's taken, and so am I, she seems relatively happy in her relationship too
Maybe sometime in the future, I hope

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>>40128006
are you me?

>Date girl for 1.5 years
>live together
>things are great the entire time until the last month of relationship
>she got really distant and said she thinks she asexual
>try to work through it, she eventually leaves
>this was last feb
>3 months later i sleep with her friend
>ex stays single until august
>she texts me once a week the entire year
>she gets in a 3 month relationship with this guy
>it ends
>i was currently dating someone for 3 months as well
>it ends
>me and ex decide to get back together at start of december
>telling me how much she missed me
>sex is amazing
>shes really hot and thicc but not too heavy in a hightest way
>shes been distant all this week
>says we jumped into things too fast and still thinks shes asexual
>says she doesnt wanna bring me down
>pretty much exactly what happened 1 year ago
>im madly in love with her and am trying to do everything i can to make it work
>when things with her are great, they are really fucking great
>feel like the universe is playing a cruel joke on me by giving me back what i missed just to take it away again.

>>40128043
Sounds more like bipolar or just extremely bad mood swings.

Asexuality is just simply not a thing.

>>40120126
Honestly, if you're not lying about you're income that sounds comfy as fuck and I'm hopefully jealous. What kind of work do you do? Also, maybe find something productive to fill the time? In addition to the usual suggestions, I offer writing. Plenty of time to write a long high fantasy novel with good world building.

>>40128078
thats my opinion as well. shes on lexapro and birth control. I was on lexapro 5 years ago and it made me have absolutely no sex drive. all of the symptoms shes describing are the same ones i had while i was on it.

>Doesnt wanna do anything but sit on couch, get high then go to bed
>no desire to cuddle or kiss let alone have sex (i get her off everytime we do so its not like shes not enjoying it)
>no emotions but a general down feeling
>swears nothing is wrong even tho she was completely different off the meds
>the meds have helped her anxiety tho

>>40128106
My dude it's totally that. Birth control can really mess around with brain chemistry in the short term iirc.

Alcoholism is killing my gains, brehs

>>40120427
Crushes are stupid anyway. Date and get to know a few girls. If you go on multiple dates with multiple girls and feeling nothing for them, maybe try dudes. If that doesn't work, congrats, you're asexual and get to avoid a lot of bullshit

>>40128118
ya it just sucks cause i know thats the problem. Convincing her to talk to her doctor is the real battle. She feels like its pointless.

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>I keep failing to ask her out when she stops by on saturday nights at the gym.

I almost did last time, I should have but she went on about having no time because master's and work so I didn't bother to go in for the kill and ask her out thinking it was drawing the line instead of actually telling me about herself. Not even sure she's single, she seems to be. This was this past Saturday, this is going bother me all fucking week.

Every time I approach her, she doesn't seem anxious to move away and acts really happy with a genuine smile.

After a three year toxic af relationship and ~6 months single I really just want to make that fairy tale come true brahs. I live in the middle of nowhere to, so hard to meet people.

Also relapsed on nofap today. Feeling even shittier.

Also can't find a job relevant to my degree, I feel like it's crumbling into irrelevance.

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>>40128119
how is alchoholism even real just stop nigga lmao
at least do something better for you like ketamine or weed

>>40120986
>>40120986
When you take things seriously you're going to get angry. People will gains goblin your life and make you feel bad when you try to improve. They'll sit there regurgitating the same ideas all every day, stagnating, and once you're separate from that circle jerk you look back and realize just how retarded people are sometimes.

Still working through my old insecurities, and what seems to help is the resolution to move forward and just do better.

I'm doing 2 a days on my days off work to deal with the void that my life has become.

>>40119788
Suffering from keloid scars; I am slowly losing hope. I feel like there is no way I can prevent them because right now I am currently have a keloid (red center with a big outer patch of skin forming around it) forming on my left bicep. I just do not understand why, because from what I read you only get them through injuries, trauma, piercing, etc, but my body just pops them out every damn year. Nobody in my family or any side of my parents family has it.

Anyone else suffering for keloid scars wanna share some insight? I just do not understand why I am getting them out of nowhere.

>>40127376
thanks anon.

shits hard and sometimes I think I'm too wrapped up in my own head to even date a woman and not fuck it up

>>40119874
David? Is that you?

had a panic attac on saturday when i went to cut my hair, had another one today at class, the good thing is that i was capable of controling it

I need to vent
I'm a 20 yo loser who doesn't like anything, boring, no hobbies and no ambitions
Worked for 3 months after graduating hs last and now I started CC I hate it, I'd drop out instantly if it weren't paid for by my grandparents college fund and just go back to work full time and then possibly join the Army.
I'm fucking lost and I don't know what to do there is no point in it all
To top it all off I live in the state with the strictest gun laws if not I would have shot mysekf already

trying to figure out how to convince gf to have sex

>>40119788
I wanna die

>>40129069
Offer to go to the WOmen's March with her and buy her that knitted pink hat from Victoria's Secret for $59.99.

>>40129055
Military
Do it

It's not just shooting brown people
Go AF or Navy.

If you're not tied down by a lot, the military is where you go for an easy career.

And if you want a proper education, they'll literally pay you to do it

Mom passed away last Saturday after battling metastesized liver cancer

>She was obese for a while but lost a bunch of weight 10 years ago
>She was a good person but confused sometimes
>Don't want to make the same mistakes she did

I'm thankful she's not suffering anymore, but it's sad not having her around. Cancer is a bitch. Her health woes have been a catalyst for me getting swole but I'm sad she couldn't get motivated with me, she ate like shit for years. Feel kinda lost not having to take care of her anymore.

>Tfw I have no face for these feels

>>40129135
The way I think about death is that we all have our own times
There is nothing bad about dying, like there isn't anything bad about a song ending

Try to make someone happy until their death and then keep on loving them

My mum says she wants us to party when she dies.
She's in her 50s now and I fear her death coming sooner than I want
But I'm going to honour her wishes
Gonna part and have fun when she dies. Not because I'm glad she's dead but to celebrate her life

Sorry if that's insensitive, I'm a little drunk.

>>40119874
R u me?

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>>40119788
icy cool digis. I've been super depressed this year. almost kms. bad mental cycles-- did i break up with the oneitis? the answer is no of course, but i still find it hard to steel my will.

how do i make my will iron, by Crom?

Everyone that is feeling pain, know that there are resources.

It's work to seek help, but it pays off.

We're all in this together, the pain is temporary.

Love yall.

>>40119788
Girlfriend broke up with me.

Feels like shit brehs I fucking loved her like no one else, she broke my heart.

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>>40119886
lololol

kek

i selected storefronts just to laugh at your predicament in brotherhood

>>40119889
you can do it faggot

never ask for help

it is unmanly

do not take meds

just become
fearsome

Besides personal problems, I was looking at my legs when squatting 315 and they look pathetic.

I know I take breaks from lifting and especially squatting from injuries, but they look like fucking toothpicks.

And that 315 came out of nowhere too. Last time I squatted before my injury I had extreme problems with 235 and I don't think I went atg in I believe October. I did a lot of trap bar deads though. A couple weeks ago I put 315 on my back for calf raises and I thought I can squat this and did. Today I filmed myself in high bar to see how low I went and my form (only parallel) because I'm sick of hurting my hip flexors squatting and was horrified at my legs.

My whole body is disgusting actually, but at least my top half has potential to be thick. I thought my legs would have gotten a lot bigger from when I squatted 235 though. Seems like nothing happened. Huge strength gain and twig legs... fuck.

>>40120261
blessings to you and your house

death comes to all men young and old

know he watches you still

you must eat the past and carry it and do your best

that is all we ask

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>Crippling bipolar
>manic-lifting: feels good mayne
>depressed: feels bad mayne. Too much social anxiety to go to the gym. Just lay in bed all day after dragging myself to classes

>>40129162

Thanks. Not insensitive at all. Her celebration of life is this weekend. She fought for a while but was exhausted at the end. Its my job to surpass the man she thought I was, just to prove her right in her name.

>>40128387
you just have to dig them out anon. don't be a faggot. sharpen something like a screwdriver (flathead) and then WEDGE it under the scar to find the root and POP it up-- you may have to cut (incise) along the perimeter of each one

they are alien eggs

GET THEM OUT

Still have depression after my fiancée died 3 years ago.

Just trying to move on.

>>40129192
no woman owns your heart. be the storm. be the eye of the storm. learn.

>>40119788

I'm trying man, I'm trying.

Still bad. Depression still after years, and I have daily anxiety attacks about how much time I have wasted, including this damn website.

>>40125689
Livestream it pls

>>40129073
same, hang in there breh

>>40127082
Sup Elliot

Why is 90% of /fit/ suicidal? You guys are a bunch of faggots.

>>40129347
It's the reason why we're fit. The only thing we have going in our lives. The only thing that keeps us going. A will to live

Read a morning briefing for the GLOSITREP that breaks my heart.

A TS-C//CORNERSTONE EYES RED: A/A report written by some Liberty Crossing desk jockey indicates Russia is going to make a significant move against a country I really like. Every Russian embassy in the world was sent a "flash-traffic" message (Paccвeт Moлниeнocный) about it.

This country will be part of Russia (again) by February 1. America is not even going to condemn it in the lightest of words.

Really has me down and drinking.

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>fit, tall, and attractive (or so everyone, literally, tells me)
>old female HS acquaintance ends up in my Middle Eastern politics class (five years since HS)
>she got hotter
>I got way hotter
>hitting it off... I think
>thinking about asking her and seeing where things go

I don't know /fit/. I'm the type of guy to hit and quit after a couple fucks, but I actually want to not do that with this chick. Hell, I don't even know if she likes me yet.

I'm 23 and feel like I should actually start dating long term now instead of fucking around.... i-is this normal?

I feel sad right now. I am spending my exchange semester currently abroad and a girl I have been hanging out with and I like might leave because she can't find courses that are accepted by her home university.

>>40129271
I wish I could learn anon.

We dated for 5 years going on 6 but eventually my jealousy got in the way.

I try not to be but I just can't help it. How do I stop being jelous? Not for her but for a future relationship. I mean the relationship ended pretty peacefully I want to say.

I'm feeling a bit better seeing as this happened 2 or 3 days ago. I decided to stop texting her seeing her though even though she texted me first to see how I was doing but I'd be lying If I didn't say I think about texting her.

Funny thing is that she's the one who got me into working out so I am grateful for that and at least working out makes me happy or feel better.

>>40129377
wut

I feel underappreciated by one of my best buds. We had some arguments in the past but we always came back together and told each other how much we meant to each other/loved each other/etc.

And now a lot of our conversations are shorter, less meaningful, less playful and I feel like I'm being sidelined for some other people we're mutual friends with since she seems to care so much more for them.

We don't even live near each other so I'm not interested in her romantically, it just hurts knowing that I got sidelined by whom I thought was one of my best friends. I didn't show her I cared enough about her when we had these arguments and now I guess this is how I pay for it.

If I can't even get whom I thought was my best friend to stay interested in me, how am I supposed to have hope for getting some random chick interested in me. It hurts mang.

>>40129377
good job breaking intsec

>>40119788
been thinking about walk out to the train tracks and laying down.

>>40129610

Sounds like you screwed up and now its up to you to mend things.

Maybe she is appreciating you just as much as you deserve.

>>40119788
yea not good man....its the era of my life ive been waiting for...married, investments looking way up, trump got in, in the best shape of my life....

i feel hollow and empty...the only thing that stops me from doing myself in is the thought that id have to do this all over again... i cry alot when no one is around...

ive never been prone to depression, and i dont feel depressed... i jsut feel like what now?

>>40129710
can i come?

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>>40129361
I don't have a will to live I just don't have the will to die

I haven't had friends since I was 13. No friends has caused every problem in my life.

Not having friends meant I never met girls

Not getting girls or having friends meant I became isolated

Becoming isolated meant I became lonely, miserable, bitter through high school

Being miserable and isolated in high school meant I didn't learn how to interact socially with peers

Not learning how to interact with peers carried over into college so i basically had the same existence there

All the isolation, misery, loneliness, etc, meant I had nothing to work towards, so no motivation

No motivation meant I stayed a manlet and holocaust mode and didn't do great in college because studying is difficult when you have no motivation and nothing to strive for

Graduate college, move back home, work shit job because I don't see the point in trying grad school, terrible relationship with parents (they are assholes, I'm an asshole, so we all barely even talk to each other, only child)

Now a 25 year old kissless friendless shut-in (besides work) who has never even attempted to get a girl and now I'm scared to not only try to get a girl, but even friends, because everyone has always hated me so I don't want to burden others with my presence.

>>40129772
Want to invest in something that is not only good for the world but makes people happy and can give you a 25% ROI in 5 years or a 50% ROI in ten years?

In doing ok right now. I jogged a lap on the track which I havrbt been able to do for sometime now. Finally got to eat some beef. Although it was unhealthy I decided to eat a double quarter pounder with white chedder no bun and a lil bit of Mac sauce and lettuce. I think I'm done being a neet. And thinking about apply to some shit jobs to finally save funds

>>40129347
>comes into a mental health thread with feel guy as a photo
>wonders why people in here or sad

why dont you go to "sexual advice general" or one of the other multitude of threads that show that the large majority of /fit/ are tall, ripped alpha males who have tons of friends, party all the time, are smart as fuck, and either have a girlfriend or have had 20-30 sexual partners

>>40129829
Well you do if your ALFA BRO. Just go suck in then tits! Lmao manlets. Lol fatties. Did I mention I was 6'1?

>>40129814
i made over 500 000$ off v.cgc . i dont do longs

>>40120261
My older brother died last month. We're almost twinsies, anon!!

>>40129869
Fair enough. I was just hoping you were looking for a VC rate of return for an upstart firm that needs capital.

Just getting desperate here. I have 25% return for anyone willing to invest for 5 years. Was hoping a /fit/izen would be interested because I really have no fucking clue how to find VC.

I've developed a huge crush on one of my friends in college. I'm usually awkward and kind of a spaz but around her I don't feel so nervous (i'm 21, never-dated anyone , etc) . I'm either working closer to getting her to like me back or digging myself deeper into a friend-zone from which there is no escape. I honestly don't know which. I did ask her to come to a formal event with me (ROTC military ball) and she did agree, which does have me hopeful.

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>/fit/ told me it'd be easy to get a fellow workout friend
>all I got was an email address

I want to die

I've got a 4000 word research paper due for my MA next Monday and I'm thinking I'm gonna have to skip working out this week to have time to finish.

Is one week off to finish an essay reasonable...?

>>40130150
>4000 word research paper

Google Prime essays.

>>40129803
I'd be your friend

>phone interview for an engineering management position
>lack confidence and interview skills suck
I might kill myself due to debt if I can't land this job

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>>40130417
Walk into the office like CIA and introduce yourself like he does.

>>40130417
>>40130447
oh wait you said phone interview, nevermind

>tfw not friends with any girls who go to the gym
>cardio sessions are lonely
>no one to banter with
>right now only go to the gym to work and not to socialize so i don't talk to anyone there

>>40119788
Physically and professionally I'm on top of the fucking world. Hit some decent PRs recently and if I chose to do so I'd probably be set for life with my job.
I'm a fucking trainwreck emotionally though. I want to drink myself to death contstantly and I work a bit toward it every night.

I'm basically happiest when I'm workin because it takes my mind off of how much I hate everything else.

>>40130606
woof, i know that one. been sticking to the gym lately, and i love my job, most of my classes are going well...except i feel so off of my game emotionally. half the time i feel like im just going through the motions, not really getting out of the house unless i need to, etc. etc. The only time i feel like im having fun s when i go visit my friends and we get drunk/party, otherwise im just "meh" right now

>>40129055
Same boat m8. Left easy job for college, dropped out 6 weeks in. The army isn't even recruiting right now, so I can't join.

>>40126974
Just don't fucking date them you doofus.
Don't go looking for a relationship, if you can be friends with them. Go ahead. You just need to have patience to figure out what kind of person they are and then make a decision from there and what >>40127143
said

>>40128043
The fact that she just had sex with you and the next week says she's asexual, is fucking retarded.

You're a moron and so is she.

>Getting back with exes

She's an ex for a reason faggot. You have only yourself to blame.

>Was overweight most of teen years
>Lose it all
>Confidence builds back up
>The fact that I've had a stupid skin ailment since I was around 10 has made my butt look like a connect the dots on steroids
>Really pale
>Looks bad as fuck
>I've tried all types of fading scar creams but none seem to do shit
>Skin rash comes back and fucks me up again
>On the back of my thighs which were spotless before
>Now thighs look like shit
>Docs don't do shit or say "idk"
>Confidence is shot down whenever I see myself in the mirror.
>Can't wear shorts or cute skirts or dresses for fear of thighs now showing
>Or just something sexy for myself because I'm too self conscious for it.
>Any confidence is destroyed

At least I got fit I guess.

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>>40129803
how do we escape this?

>>40123876

>2017
>asking people to drop their religion because girls

My deeds are on me bro, your deeds are on you.
If i do bad then i'm responsible of it. If you do good, the reward will go to no one but you.

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>>40119788
Better. MUCH better actually.
A bunch of years ago I would have told you that therapy is useless and for pussies. But that shit helps so much.

Hell, i feel better even though I regained some of the weight I lost. Went from 154kg(339,5lbs) to 95kg(209,4lbs) but even in the 95kg days I felt like utter shit. Now i unfortunatley bloated back to 115kg(253,5lbs) after some severe mental blocks and hurdles i had to work trough. That was january first, and now i already lost 3.5kg again.

The biggest breaktrough moment in my therapy was when i actually got the "it's not your fault" from my shrink.

(It really isn't your fault anons. It's not)

>>40130867
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>>40119788

Five months of psychotherapy and two months of antidepressants (SSRIs) are finally showing positive results.

I'm still not very keen on working out desu but at least I'm not getting eaten up by the stress of letting myself to slow down and not getting something done (ironially, I'm significantly more productive because I procrastinate less).

>>40123672

>anxiety

Get a perscription of some meds for the short-term (to stop the body from spazzing out for no reason), get a therapist for the long-term (to find the root of your fears). Psychiatrists wont't laugh at you, don't worry.

>>40126630
>tfw you are William Stoner irl

>>40119889
best way to fight sadness is to get really angry

not well at all

graduated college last year with worthless degree in biology that you have to go grad school for to get a job but I don't want to do medicine anymore and I don't want to work in any of the related fields,

I graduated a year early and now all my bros are still at uni. All I do is work and stress about what I'm going to do with my life. It's made me anxious as fuck. I can't even workout regularly anymore because I work 12+ hour overnight shifts that leave me exhausted. The job I have now is a dead end job so I can't stay in it forever

Every obstacle is mental but I can't help dwelling on how I got to here in my life and how the fuck do I get out of it.

Feel like I'm stuck in a quarter life crisis or something