I fucked up bad you guys. I use to be on the power lifting team at the college I went to. Long story short, my parents were killed abruptly and I had to drop out of college.
Now I live with a distant relative. I miss lifting so bad but after my parents death, I just don't feel like doing much. I miss my friends on the power lifting team so much. They believed in me even though I was the weakest dude on the team. Even though I didn't believe in myself.
I will never forget when I squatted 1.5 times my body weight for the first time. Thought I couldn't do it but the team believed.
Now I have nothing and I can't trust my own belief. A bitter end to a great beginning.
Now I just dwell on the past wishing it could have just out differently.
What can I do to regain my life?
Do whatever you want homeboy
>>40067546
Not even sure what that is anymore.
>>40067266
Lift bro. Gym helps so much. You never lose muscle nuclei just size which you can get back quickly. You're gonna make it.
>>40067266
become bat man. Avenge their death.
sounds like you relate lifting with your parents' death. The first thing you need to do is disassociate the two, whether that be by getting closure from your parents' death, or starting slowly and over time. Also sounds like you're depressed, talk to people more