Mental Health General

Age now OP?

And it's useless to think you have something wrong with you or that you're so different. What it sounds like you need is actual therapy, which at this day and age isn't all that out of the ordinary.

My suggestion is to get a job so you can provide what you need for yourself. Shit sucks now, OP. But what you're going through builds strong character if you overcome it.

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>tfw was starting to hang out with girls in the beggining of middle school
>parents start to mock me profusely for it
>guilt tripping me into only making friends with guys
>time passes
>bullying
>crippling depression at age 10
>socially retarded teenager
>only good at academics
>now i have no social skills
>kissless virgin
>18 years old
>ugly face
>affectless emotions, probably look like schizoid

Yes, lad. Life isn't for everyone. R-right?

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>be 17 year old me
>gradually start to become more anxious and slowly fall into depression
>suicidal thoughts become more persistent over time, but I bite the bullet and move on
>go to college
>things keep getting worse and worse, decide to go see a psychiatrist
>prescribes me Xanax and Lexapro
>therapy lasts for about 8 months, after which i thought I had recovered
>nope.jpg
>less than one year later I start feeling like shit again
>last May (I'm 22) shit hits the fan, almost try to kill myself once, and make a failed attempt a couple weeks later
>attempt fails, wake up in the hospital
>I start seeing another psychiatrist and a psychologists
>just feel slightly better throughout the following months, but not so much
>finally, exactly two weeks ago I start to feel much better
>there's a lot of shit I still need to take care of, but I finally see a dim light at the end of the tunnel after months of hell
>icandothis.png
>skip to 2 days ago
>the diagnosis changes from depression to bipolar disorder
>hits me harder than a train
>realize that if I want to live a normal and fulfilling life I have to take lithium, or other medication, for the rest of my days
>lithium is guaranteed to fuck your kidneys over time
>realize the reason I was feeling better is probably that I was experiencing a manic episode
>the little things I was able to build in the last weeks and also the long months of therapy crumble
>start cursing whomever is to blame for bringing me into this world

>>39776337
19

Therapists are unheard of in this part of this shitty country. Also, I can't get a job unless I finish uni here. Life sucks.

I am mad at my parents for raising me like this. But I feel sorry for them too, they did what they felt was right. They meant well, but the damage they did is irreversible.

>>39776313
>wasn't raised like this at all
>still a failure with the inability to be social
>still constantly depressed

Some people are dealt a hand that cannot be played under the rules we are given.

>>39776439
Try talking to them about it.


Nothing will get done by being angsty and hateful, but it seems like you already would have a good mindset by understanding where your parents are coming from.

Just make sure they know you understand their point of view, and try to get them to see yours in a calm and controlled manner, nobody likes it when they feel like they're being attacked. May not be easy necessarily (especially with controlling parents), but a bit of compassion goes a long way.

>>39776313
you should literally kill them

How long to wait after a date that he texts me back before giving up on hope? It's been a day now, he walked me home and I thought the date was mint. He's a man and I'm the grill in this picture.

>>39776486
So cheat

>>39778914
Text him first

>>39776313
Man up. Move out.

>>39776313
My mother was a psychochristian who raised me much like you describe, though not to the extent of homeschooling since she had to work. Long story. Point is you're going to learn to separate yourself from your fearful anxious feelings like a crack whore with a rough john. Once you can do that, use your zen state to conciously talk to people in places that you frequent (like the gym perhaps?)

You're going to spend the rest of your life undoing what they did to you. Take some acid. Do an open mic night somewhere. Go to Burning Man. Live what life you have left man.

>>39776313
>be me, 10 years old
>kiss a girl i like
>parents catch wind
>grounded for a month

didn't kiss another girl until i was 19 lol

>>39778914
3 days

because some autistic guys play the 3 day rule to not look desperate.

he could be one of them.

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>>39776313
Get a job and move out. Do school part time or however but get the fuck out of there.

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it's never too late to unfuck yourselves anon. if you're not happy with what you were made to be, make yourselves something else. nothing more worthy than that

>me
>always have been autistic for some reason
>my parents told me when I was younger (like 5 years, I dont remember those days) I cried when there was a lot of people, like in parties with other kids
>doesnt help that my parents are also overprotective
>in school when someone called me fat, wich I was, would instantly cry
>cried several times in school becasuse kids would call me fat
>fast-forward to 15 year old me
>new school, new kids
>when they realise im a social sperg, they start bullying me
>worst time of my life
>depressed as fuck
>start seeing sychologist and sychiatrist, start taking meds
>stop going to school, finish from home, feeling little better
>3 years later I get to know a girl, fall in love instantly because is the only female to give me some attention
>one day drunk at a party she tells me she is in love with other guy
>like 3 days later, dont remember, try to kill myself consuming 30 sleeping pills
>fail, wake up in hospital with some shit on my nose to get to my stomach and take out the pills
>fastforward, now in uni, with good friends, still kv though
I think im just a little bitch and need to tough up.