Epiphany Thread/How You Got Motivated

make sure you never forget it. the thing with those moments is you often let real life cloud your drive away. never forget it.

>>39389745
Yeah, sometimes, the brain just shifts 360 degrees, and it feels absurdly normal

When I was a kid in high school I realized I was a nobody at worst and completely fucking average at best.

>Was 5'11, 240 lbs in highschool
>Had my first gf, lasted almost 3 years, found out she was cheating on me, and I broke it off that exact moment
>Balloned up to 310 gradually, mostly through depression
>21st birthday rolls around
>Get absolutely tanked, fall asleep on the floor of my room because can't pull myself up
>Have vivid dreams of my ex gf, feels so real for being a year apart
>dream fades to when I was skinnier, have to watch my decisions rewind themselves, watch in dream-time as I get fat as fuck
>Wake up at 4am, go to bathroom, throw up, and stand in front of mirror looking at myself
>Throw up again, wait outside in the rain until the gym opens at 5, start my first workout

I imagine it was a fear of loneliness, regret, and wanting companionship. I know I will never find a girlfriend it I continued down that path, and I'd die early. I've since controlled my diet and am down 50lbs, and increased my lifts to a moderate level (imo)

>>39389764
Good idea, that's a frightening prospect. I'll write down the dream now, keep it by my bed or something. Reliving the revulsion I had from that dream and myself would be great motivation.

>>39389817
That's the good shit I made this thread for.

>I'm all better! Going to go the gym
>goes on 4chan instead
>probably going to masturbate now

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>>39389745
>quit cigarettes
>start running every day
>"Wow this feels incredible."
>start bodyweight training and sprint intervals after running
>optimize diet
>sunbathed for that solar energy
>experimented with semen retention
>have insane stamina and endurance
>"Wow this feels phenomenal."
>get a job at a woodworking shop
>lift 12 - 16 ft slabs of lumber daily
>"I need to get stronger."
>present day
>all of my health gains from the past have optimized my strength training
>obsessed with getting really friggin strong using holistic methods

I'm like a monk with this shit. Strength is a principle I live by. Ask me anything.

>>39390205
whats yr fav dnd edition

>>39390230
3.5
I prefer Burning Wheel

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> over a year ago now
> smoked pack a day
> alcoholic (0.5l vodka a day or similar amount of absolute alcohol, shakes and paranoia when didnt)
> depressed, suicidal
> 70kg skinnyfat, only hobby LoL and 'chons
> gf of 5 years left (cant really blame, should have done it sooner)

fuck this shit, mama aint raise no lil bitch

> today
> 95kg, stronk and muscular, old friends mirin hard
> dont smoke, dont drink
> got car licence, bought car
> got motorcycle licence, bought motorcycle
> lot of new friends from hobbies, autism has left my body and i can communicate and relate to people
> new gf

I dont even recognize my previous self anymore, and a year ago i wouldnt have believed i would become this good as i have. when trying to put it to words, i think it was the breakup that triggered it, i literally got up one day to kill myself, but thought yolo. started small incremental steps to improving myself. a fire started burning hard that hasnt stopped shining. im a steam-powered tank that tackles all lifes objectives. what also might have helped me in this particular case, was the intent of suicide - i was ready to kill myself, so maybe the bad part of my brain really did die, and gave opportunity to recreate myself.

>>39390178
/fit/ has been a huge part of what helped keep me sane, inspired me to lift occasionally so I didn't completely degenerate into a whale, and kept me interacting with people even in my darkest times to distract me from suicide. I felt it fitting to share my experience considering how important this board has been in keeping me alive.

>>39390205
Hopefully I'll get to the point where running feels incredible, what an inspiring story! Are you full straight edge ascetism?

>>39390604
Damn, mirin hard. I aspire to be able to just get up and do my shit on my own power, that's why I dumped the weed and booze. Going to go through some nasty cravings but getting to the point you're at is the light at the end of the tunnel.

>>39389745
>be me browsing /a/ daily and doing pretty much nothing but watching anime, reading manga and slaving away at my job
>not even sad with the way I'm living, basically gave up on women
>stare in the bathroom mirror after showering
>look at my naked self and be utterly disgusted by those disgusting love handles and sagging chest fat and puffed up cheeks
>decide to turn my life around and actually read /fit/'s sticky
>discover mfp and start religiously counting calories and macros and doing SS while cutting
Never looked back. I finished my cut and am currently bulking and recently was told for the first time in my life that I look like I lift, while wearing a sweater no less. I'm a cut away from starting up a tinder profile and try to get back into dating or fucking random sloots if possible. It's been 5 years since I fucked a woman I didn't pay, so I might have some starting issues but I'm optimistic. On the downside I spend so much time trying to inform myself about lifting, diet, actually lifting and browsing /fit/ that I stopped following seasonal anime, so that kinda bugs me out but it's probably for the best.

>was 110 lbs
>ex gf did muay thai and pole dancing and was stronger than me
>i had to struggle to lift her at 120
>want to be able to carry my future wife out a church
>want to be able to toss my future kids into the air

i'm able to carry my friend's 6 year old and toss her around now, i can't wait for my own kids.

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>>39389745

>date girl, first one who has ever made me want to marry her, our relationship was getting better and better and she was extremely satisfied with it/me too
>girlfriend gets on a new pill
>almost instantly it starts to fuck with her body heavily
>starts having completely random outbursts of sadness/crying where she has zero clue why it's happening
>becomes severely depressed and suicidal, put on meds
>breaks up with me because she doesnt want to keep treating me like shit and to sort herself out (and probably to have no loose ends if she kills herself)
>i start having panic attacks thinking she might have killed herself all the time even checking the obituaries
>keep mindfucking myself going back and forth between thinking she is playing me/manipulating me and it's all a lie, even though ive seen the meds and even brought her to the therapist when it first started happening
>makes me start drinking HEAVILY, as soon as i wake up
>grades go to shit and drop courses to try and not fail
>stop working out completely
>spend all my time drunk and high
>make a fool out of myself at every party, every night out, fuck random girls and pretend they're my ex

>>39389764

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