Mental Health General

This blog has very little to do with fitness, although what can you really expect from an undermeme fag

managed to talk at lenght with a girl at the gym who has the cutest ass in the world, i mean its just insane
Didnt ask her out but she does seem warm to the idea, met her a few times now

Also got a text from another girl wanting to grab coffe one of these days when she gets back to town

Talked to boss and gonna get extra pay since im doing so good at work which is nice for a part time job

And studies are going good, started with an assignment today and got halfway through it

Party tomorrow aswell so good feels allround today

>>38909198
get out faggot

>>38909148
>tfw feels for her growing more and more

fuck, i was overwhelmed with how much my feels for my girl got more intense after being on a healthy diet/routine was at first.
helped with my depression more than anything else. im never taking nasty ass happy pills again.

Ex fatty. Decided to go on a bulk a month ago.

I keep getting derailed, though, by injury and/or illness.

>>38909225
Nice bro, keep at it
>>38909245
Yeah mang it's like a whole new world of feels
>>38909263
Continue and you will strive

Can't be bothered to strike up conversations with females.

Don't know how to talk to women on dating websites.

No drive in life to do anything other than sleep and train.

Feel very alone.

Told I am good looking by multiple people and strangers but still feel worthless.

Diet's going great and lost 7 lb's and starting to see abs.

Practising mind muscle connection.

Shocked myself in the gym mirror how my physique looked (improved drastically).

Paid £35 for a private blood test to get my test levels checked.

>>38909297
Routine?

Gonna cut, but I wana be STRONG AS FUCK. Goal is 150/145lbs with a 2pl8 squat for reps and a 3pl8 deadlift max. Currently 157lbs.

Mentally pumped to work hard as FUCK.

>>38909316

A: Shoulders / Legs
B: Chest / Triceps
C: Back / Biceps / Forearms
D: Core work / lagging body parts.

>>38909148
Feels for her growing, that's very bad, you need to stay an ice cold motherfucker on the inside. Prevents getting hurt and her wanting to leave you.
Bitches always panic if your catch feelings.

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>got a well paying temporary manual labor job
>just got paid for the first month
>thought more money would make me feel better, but it didnt
>don't even know what to use it for
>working again tomorrow
>"why"
>still a month to go
>after that is done I have to go back to my home country
>nothing for me there
>haven't made any connections here
>probably NEET life for another 10 months
>just as miserable while working than when sitting at home

I'm just thinking I should take the money and travel, but eventually I'll have to come back so whats the point.

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>>38909148
Gonna read up for my Shakespeare paper tomorrow before playing Destiny for a few hours.
>tfw not at light level required for the raid

>>38909148
sick at home nursing hot herbal tea

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>>38909419
you'll never feel the welling warmth of sitting next to someone you admire.
you'll never feel the butterflies, the feeling of wholeness and oneness.
you'll never be able to look at your girlfriend and and feel an indescribable feeling of peace and gratitude for knowing another human being you actually connect with, are honest to, and maintain healthy communication, and constantly empower one another.

the whole 'being cold because all women are bitches' thing is a tiring autistic excuse for being too much an emotionally stunted manlet to actually connect to other people on a real level

>>38909148

I'm finding that I've lost interest in the girl I'm seeing right now and I lost it very quickly. I'm sat in cocoon mode and haven't seen anyone romantically for the past year and at first I was ecstatic to be in a new relationship but I realized very quickly that this girl is needy, immature, and boring. She never wants to go out alone, always with her friends, and whenever we do she spends the night draped over me flaunting her relationship. Frankly I'm very attracted to her best friend. However in the past year I've reflected on why my relationships have always failed and this current wave of displeasure says to me that I'm having difficult to meet standards and if I don't adjust them, dating will be challenging. I also have a very short attention span. I imagine a relationship with her friend would also probably be boring after a month.

My actual mental health is doing alright. I had to miss a few workouts because of an illness and I found that my sleep went to shit and my anxiety shot through the roof. I nearly crumbled after receiving some very non-threatening pressure at work that I normally wouldn't have even acknowledged. But, I'm back at the gym and things are better. I think lifting is very directly tied to my self worth which then influences my confidence. I'm generally feeling happy lately, though. Releasing some sexual energy has had a big influence on that I think. I need to get laid more regularly.

>>38909148
What's up is I reported your ass because this has fuck all to do with fitness.

>>38909603
>implying mental health doesn't vastly improve with getting fit, more so than most medications can do

>>38909583
You don't seem to understand I am quite experienced with women and have gone through your stage a few times. You'll realise this shit as soon as human nature presents itsself. You delusional cuck.

>>38909466

Same bro, I'm still like 354 but grinding these heroic strikes is actually super fun now so I don't mind. Ps4 or Xbox?

Eating sardines every day, plus krill oil and sometimes sushi for omega 3. Feels good man

>>38909636
how long was your longest relationship? did you fight a lot?

I've been with my girl almost six years now. We rarely fight. I still feel as much love for her as I did at the start.

Stop lying to yourself, you're a failure.

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>>38909649
PS4

My poor Warlock is only 353 right now. I hate grinding these fucking strikes for blue gear

>>38909677
>I've been with my girl almost six years now
>What are "outliers"?
Mate, im not him but ive spent 11 years in relationships and things arent always rosey
People in relationships fight, get annoyed, get sad and yell
If you dont then youre either lying, not remembering or very rare

I must say it is worth being with a girl despite all the drama and heartbreak but very few are looking for relations nowadays

>>38909636
So you're a coward who is too afraid of being hurt to allow himself to become vulnerable. You are denying yourself the highs of life because you live in fear of the lows. Grow a pair.

>>38909737
we've argued before yeah, but no actual fighting, no raising voices and screaming at each other,
no guilt tripping each other on shit that happened in the past, no passive aggressively doing shit.

if i'm an outlier that's depressing.
but maybe I wouldn't be if people actually talked out their issues way before they fester to a point of screaming matches.
that's like 90% of the problems i see with relationships, everyone is too fucking pussy to actually talk stuff out

>>38909762
>>38909677
A mere year, multiple times.
The thing is, I don't need it to last any longer.
If she gives up on me I find another, nice and easy. Get my dick wet on weekly basis, different chick most times. Most guys get super attached to a chick because they feel it was the only one they could ever get and tell themselves they're in love until they believe it. Did that, got fucked. No more. Now I am a lion fucking everyone on his path and ditching their ass just like they ditched me back when I had a heart. I may seem very bitter, but I am not, I accept things as they are, not good nor bad, just facts to live with. And I make the most of it.

>>38909823
Im not gonna lie, last relationship was really bad at the end
I avoided talking to gf about stuff because there was no talking about it, she would get mad about anything and everything
And im not talking your average "Im mad so ill say strong words" but the throwing and screaming kind of mad

I know alot of people who had similar problems with alot of fighting, some even had cheating and general fucking around going on

Id kill for a relationship as it stands today but im unable to get a girl to commit, for whatever reason.

You are right in that its worth the pain, the good times outweigh the bad times

>>38909851
>Most guys get super attached to a chick because they feel it was the only one they could ever get
I know this feel

How did you turn it around anon?
I´m struggling with dating right now and want to improve. I only miss a relationship because it had some access to sex, if i can get that outside a relation life would be perfect

>>38909702
Omnigul

>>38909419
I know this feeling. Managed to avoid talking to girls for like a year and now one came along. I know it's more than likely gonna end and I need to just keep my distance and be prepared for the inevitable.

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>>38909851
autist blaming the entire world on his mental retardation confirmed.
you're part of the reason why so many girls end up being "bitches." getting rekt by shitty relationships goes both ways.

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>>38909148
Not good. I have been slacking with my diet and my workouts since i got close to my goal weight and now have gained 2kgs.
Also will be lonely as always on friday night... maybe I will watch some animu but most of the times i will be shitposting on different boards

Not even motivated to kill myself at this point desu

>>38910002
They nerfed Omnigul last reset.

>>38910089
Nigga stop blaming me with your doge images.
I'm the one who had fait in the beginning.
I don't destroy girls at all, I just don't let them get to me too much anymore. They seem to like it more too anyway.
>>38910082
I tortured my self year in year out stepping out of my comfort zone by talking to strangers and mostly strange girls. I started with just asking the time to strangers on the street, followed by asking directions, etc etc. At some point I started straight out saying to chicks on the street I loved their looks and had to talk to them, adding I don't normally do that. I have gotten many frowns, rejections etc. But they admired my balls, I got dates, numbers etc. The thing is you need to program yourself to talk to strange girls, and in the end learn to not just small talk but to find to courage to be straight up about why you talk to her. You will fail, and feel empty, scared all that. The stress will lead to adaptation. Good looking loser has great advice.

>>38909921

>>38910140 I gave advice meant for you, sorry, post mix up
in >>38910231

>>38909583
I'm 6'3 100kg

>>38910231
>The stress will lead to adaptation
So practice makes it better?
Im starting conversations with girls more frequently nowadays, its very nice to be able to just up and talk to someone you just met and especially cute girls

Guess ill just keep on going, thanks anon

>>38910245
thx for the advice but I am so lonely I am at a point where I don't even want a relationship with the other gender... i just want a friend and laugh from time to time with an other human being and not just with blank letters and the same frog faces over and over again...

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>cutting going good
>lifts going pretty good
>preparing my d&d session to play tomorrow with my bros, the some bbq and drinks
>having a date on sunday with this qt nerdy grill I really like
>I'm being introduced to a new group of friends and they like me, chill ppl
>this semester I'll finish uni

Still looking for a job tho, but things are nice.

>>38910344
I think you can step out of this thing, striking up a conversation with a random dude at your gym has the capability of sparking a great new friendship. I have the same tendency as you when I feel like usual, which is kinda depressed. If I feel this I do something that feels risky, Ask a stranger in the gym who's training near you, ''so hows the gains going?''. Next time you see them greet them, have a small conversation, do your thing. At some point you may even hang with them. Then you realise, the mere fact that you decided to talk to them from the lonely position you were in has brought you to that point. Just you. You have the power to set great events in motion. Just give something ''ridiculous'' a shot and see what the seed you plant grows into.
>>38910335
Practise makes it better, but alot of practise.
We are simply wired to not be talk to random people, we need to reprogram our brain by proving to it that in practise there is indeed nothing to worry about. Keep going indeed. The thing though is taking it to the next level is just as scary for them as it is for you. Being a great talk rarely gets you the number by itsself, asking for it after it does. And that shit is scary. Fall and get up. Just like for your muscles stress will lead to adaptation in the mind.

I am at a point where I cant judge my own physique anymore, I know that I wouldve killed for this body 2 years ago but now I am just not impressed anymore.

I just dont know, I cant even tell if people notice that I lift. And then there are times after a workout especially if I wear a tanktop and a girl is looking at me that I feel unstoppable,

I know this line of thinking is not healthy and will evevntually lead me to steroids but I cant shut it down. Honestly the only thing holding me back from roiding is that I dont want to lose my hair or become infertile other than that I would instantly take Test.

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I'm finally breaking free of alcoholism, and it's one of the best feelings of my life.

>back to lifting 5 days a week
>don't feel like shit every morning
>don't feel like killing myself anymore
>don't have anywhere near as much anxiety
>blonde 9/10 I was dating over the summer miraculously is taking me back after I told her to fuck off so I could drink back in July

I didn't think it was possible, figured I'd be dead in a few years. Feel with me brehs

>>38909148
Fucking shit, dude. GF broke up with me month ago, was a blessing in disguise, fucked 3 other girls in the mean time and am now also fwb with ex, but all 3 girls started ghosting me and my ex is being weird so idk.


Also I broke my hand so now I cant lift, cant do anything, starting to eat out of boredom and to focus on something other than the pain.


Right now it's 11 PM and im feeling lonely, bored and disgusting


hold me

>>38909148
Same exact thing

Could have talked to a girl that likes me but didn't. Can't spend weekend without her. Sent her a message on snapchat.

>>38910523
Hold the barbell for it will bring you gains far more than a gains goblin ever will

>>38910526
>broke my hand


I literally cant hold a barbell. ;_;

I keep falling in the same rut with my depression and anxiety and my body dysmorphic disorder is kicking my ass and I feel like quitting again. Fiancé lives 2 hours away, my degree is hard af and I can't do fucking math or chemistry to save my life. I've been lifting steadily for 2+ months now and don't even see noob gains which I saw all the times I've started up in the past so I don't even have that to keep me going this time. I lost all my strength from the 4 months of keto I did last year when I nearly developed an eating disorder (5g carb a day, 800 calories, 6 foot male, 20 years old, keto for 4 months) so I'm weak as hell and can barelt lift anything. My bmi is 22 and I only weigh 160 and even though thats basically a healthy point to be I just see my reflection and hate it completely. I know I need to eat to gain muscle but I already feel obese as it is. I know its sad but I'm 21 years old and I'm just tired of feeling like I'm some fat loser but I'm so down on myself that I always give up everytime I try to workout. I've been on and off like crazy for 2 years and have nothing to show for it because I'm always off longer than I'm on.

>>38910535
>>38910535
therapy, possibly meds. life doesnt have to be this hard, brah.

Status quo:

> being trainee at a bank
> having exams at November
> being fkn glad to be free after this
> quit with fake alcohol 'friends'
> looking forward to be a job teacher soon
> liftin meantime
> fuckjeah.jpeg
> hope we all gonna make it brahs

>>38910544
I'm already on meds and have been seeing a psychiatrist for a while. Honestly its the BDD thats kicking my ass the most. Insaw my reflection in publiconce and thought it was a stranger, not realizing the wundow was reflecting me. Thought some skinny lanklet was next to me. Realized it was my reflection and did a double take and saw an obese guy. Its a form of OCD and it fucking sucks. Literally seeing something different everytime you look in the mirror.

Local cfb is hiring my dream job I just need to get my cardio up so I can become a reservist and take pictures of strykers for a living.

>stronger than most
>never bothered to diet or run
>Strong fat
>finally figured out what I want to do

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>>38910002
They fixed it

>>38910598
What is the psych doing to help you? How long have you been seeing them?

>>38910661
My psychiatrist mostly just talks to me about my issues and helps me set reasonable, measurable, maintainable goals for myself. Apparently I have a big problem with giving myself suoer high standards that I can't reach and then discourage myself because I never reach them. She actually runs ironman marathons and is a really good psychiatrist for my specific issues. I started seeing her around May and have been taking medicine just as long.

How do I become social and lose my anxiety?
I feel hurt inside and lonely because I don't have friends or a gf.

>>38910717
May is still pretty short, sounds like youre gonna make it dude.

>>38910939
I appreciate it man. I hate admitting it, it's just fuckin hard. I'm not giving up yet though. Thanks

>>38910973
Beginning is always the hardest. I've been in therapy for 3 years now and it wasnt untill like 2 years that I looked back and was like holy shit where did the time go and holy shit I've made progress.

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>Friday night
>Deadlifting tomorrow morning
>Gotta stay dedicated, get thick back
>TFW day before deadlifts...

shit didn't read the title whoops...
I'm the anon that posted the deadlift spongebob

I dont even know whats going on anymore. I'm pretty sure I just need to wait for qts to talk to me but they still havent

Autism diagnosis soon comrades

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Serious question: I know getting a gf is hard as fuck but how the fuck can you guys be friendless?
I'm a fucking beta autist and I have some friends like me, we play old pc games and /tg/ shit drink soda (kek alcohol almost never)

>Anxious and depressed.
>Focus on lifting and cardio to beat those emotions.
>Basically work, workout and don't do a lot else.
>Almost 27 and have basically no relationshit experience.
>Trying to fix.
>Girl at my work I like.
>overanalyzeeverything.exe
>Don't know if she's single, scared to ask her out in case she says no then work is awkward as fug, constantly weighing yesses and no's of approaching.

Pretty bad senpai but I've always got the gym.

>>38911021

Perfectly valid post, my guy :)

>eating well, starting a clean bulk
>lifting back on track
>making time for more stretching/yoga
>meds for sleep and depression might actually be working, I'm not spending days in bed wishing for death anymore
>work is stressing me the fuck out
>still socially inept and in constant fear around most other people
>0 real life friends (in this state)
>0 hobbies other than lifting and vidya with friends back home

At least I'm healthy, am not too worried about money, and have the next two days off.

Friday night is hockey night. It's my mental refresh from everything else I'm dissatisfied with. Sometimes it's enough. Sometimes it isn't.

Frustrated at work. I transferred sites because of a toxic work environment where I was pigeonhole'd into a dead end job. Promotion opportunity happens almost immediately, but wasn't called for an interview. I didn't receive a rejection notice, either. HR hasn't responded to my inquiry about it, yet.

Feeling lonely, again. I've been daydreaming about this cutie with a booty that would come to drop-in hockey once in a while. It was always impossible to talk to her for any length of time when every fuckboy is tripping over themselves to get her attention.

Graduating from babby lifts to mediocre lifts. Any progress is good progress, and I'm happy with that.

Building a plan to invest in a home. Hoping things can be worked out by my birthday in April.

All in all, 50/50, but I care too much about work. I can't not care about something I spend so much time involved. It's literally driving me nuts.

>>38911297
Make some friends, m8

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>get new gf early summer
>a few days she later she tells me "o yea im studying abroad in england this fall"
>ok ok I can trust her sure
>ex gf got knocked up by my best friend
>ZERO trust in women
>take the risk to prove I am not bitter r9k fag
>shes at a pub with friends
>messaging me
>says she is sharing seats with a guy
>OMG he is the son of a Lord!!
>he told me to sit on his lap! I told him no!
>we're going back now
>OMG they said they can spend the night! I want to leave! help!
>hasn't said anything or been active on chat in over an hour

Is it okay that I am mad?

Is it safe to say that she is cheating on me?

Do I break up with her now?

I'm not trying to let my past control me.

>>38911366
LDR are stupid and never work. People always cheat.

I would break up with her, but don't show any insecurities, even if you think she has cheated. Just tell her you don't think a LDR will work and wish her all the best. YOU FUCKING DUMP HER BECAUSE YOU WANT, BECAUSE YOU ARE IN CONTROL, not because she decided she was gonna cheat on you.

Not going out drinking staying in. Feel like a humongous spurg doing this but muh gains and weight loss are going so well. I have been more dedicated and on track then ever.

Didn't go to work today or call in feeling little anxious weekend is going to have quite the looming hammer folks. Anyhow going to listen to a podcast and get some late night cardio in with Ab's feeling good goyim!

>>38909245
good job bro, keep at it

>>38911431
Yeah you're right.

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>>38910517
i feel you brah, we're all gonna make it

>>38909356
>no legs

>>38911361
I wish that it was easy for me.

Another lonely Friday night. My Internet is janky so I can't stream any shows. It hasn't stopped raining for 3 days.

Put a NSA ad up on Craigslist, not one response that wasn't a bot.

Wondering what I'd be doing if I had friends.

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>another friday night at home
>on a cut
>always wishing for that bottle of whisky
>uni friends all live in other cities, go back home for weekend

life is basically 22h of depression with 2 hours of relief in the gym, friday/saturday nights alone at home are specially bad

>>38911756
What do you mean by an NSA ad?

>>38909148
>every morning starts off depressing because can't stop thinking about her
>hit bench pr last night; lifts and diet are going okay
>going to some Oktoberfest event with gf and her friends tonight

I'm alright I guess. I drank at lunch and I'm drinking tonight so just fuck my gains up. Looking forward to deadlifts tomorrow.

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>Life is just fucking odd and my mind is clouded
>But, at least i'm at my strongest physical form yet

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>Girlfriend dumped me about a month ago with no warning
>Said she loves me, but wasn't head over heels in love
>She's already got a new boyfriend

I thought I was going to marry this girl. Now, it feels like life has lost its vitality. Like the color has gone from the world and left only a cold, dead husk.

I don't know how to move on. I don't want to move on. I just want her to come back.

Pretty much found out this week I will be getting a promotion essentially in the next few month, however, there is a down side and I am really not comfortable with this but let me lay it out there


Pros:
>More solid work where I advance in my field
>Pay increase
>Get to work on a lot of new systems, projects, and some new clients
>New position has a different title, and this might bump me on the scale alone when applying for jobs just by having this title etc...

Cons:
I will be second in command going forward. I am really uncomfortable with this, because, who the fuck wants to be second? I am really aggressive and I have made it before but now with this "promotion" I see my position as just being second in command to someone above me now. We don't get looked as equals anymore. and that is fucking with my head
>In the next three months, with the promotion it means no more working remotely, and I wont be able to work anywhere I want but have to come into the office like a wagecuck
>I'm seriously giving it another 8-12 months and I am out of this place and looking for work
>I have been offered another job previously, but decided to stay where I am currently at

>>38909148
I'm stoned out of my mind and I missed leg day

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>Friday
>At work
>Did squats and ran out of time on DL today
>DL 20lbs lower on x5 after 4 week break
>Back to 300lbx5 for squat
>Kind of making it
>Need to stop giving a fuck about if I like someone or not

Honestly man, not too hot

>College app time, still no idea what school/uni I want to attend
>Worried about money
>parents want me to get into top school, not ivy, but top
>not sure if I can get in, even though my grades and stuff are decent
>trying to handle work, school and gym
>gains suffering, bulking may develop into eating disorder

I'm probably just a bit stressed, but I'm just lost as to what I should do first right now. Scholarships? Recommendations? Fuck dude, it's probably nothing, but this shit is seriously giving me grey hair.

>>38912039
Hey man, congrats on the promotion. What do you do?

If you really want to jump ship soon, I'd suggest just taking the promotion and getting as much experience as you can. Seriously, these 8 months could be the difference between shitty entrance pay or a decent pay.

As for the second in command thing, I think you're looking too much into it. The first will probably ask you for your input on things he's unsure about, use that to your advantage and leverage some power (not in an insidious way ofc). Being second in command shows that you know your shit, enough to replace the first guy if he fucks up dearly.
Don't look at this as a curse, Anon, it's a blessing.

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>finish up my prep for lab work tmrw
>hit a nice shoulders/back session
>get told off by my professor for showing up late to a seminar again
>still pull 3rd last presentation date out the hat I'll take it
>walk to the LCBO grab a 24 and jack
>drop a can on the way back, it bursts
>get egged on to shotgun by the side of the road by two guys
>shotgun it to cheering
>currently waiting on my roomy friends to get back so we can start boozing and watching stupid youtube videos
>setting up a time to get plastered and eat chicken wings sunday with other friends
>temporarily forgetting about my lack of gf and basking in my pseudo-Chad glory
In a good place rn

>>38912297
Hey thanks man, I guess I should see things a little better than I do currently,

Thanks man you kind of saved me from drinking heavy tonight

I'm also in cyber security. so the work is pretty stressful and I've just been stressing out left and right about certain things at work and my managers have noticed, I guess things aren't really that bad as they still recommend me to this position, and still support me in my decisions and work... Not sure what I will be doing, but I think i have to quit drinking and stop focusing on the negative so damn much

>friday night thread on /fit/
>not /v/

>>38912530
red team or blue team?

>on no fap for like 2 days
>already going insane
>trying to last till tomorrow night because I'm gonna be clubbing with this chick and I want my dick to work

>cant stay on nofap for more than a week
why am i such a failure

>>38912530
Baby steps Anon. Change doesn't happen overnight.

Enjoy your weekend man. Get off 4chan. take a walk, lift some weights, just do you. You've earned it.

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>drunk as fuck alone
>been out every weekend for the past 8months
>smashed back today, good vibes

I don't think I've ever been "depressed" before in my life. My life is really good, and every single thing I see and do evokes very strong and deep and vibrant emotions from me which are always incredibly pleasurable to just sit and feel. I can evoke these strong feelings anytime I want by just thinking of certain memories like Christmas, or how comfy my bed is, or how much I love looking at the moon, or my favorite food, or my favorite movie, or the color red (I love the color red) or Bionicles, or really fucking anything. The point is I have never experienced this inability to feel that many depressed people describe; even when I'm sad, like during a sad movie, it's still a strong and comforting feeling that becomes so overwhelming I want to cry. It's the same kinda sadness I got from watching the land before time when I was six.

Anyway it's fucking awesome and sometimes kinda annoying cuz I can get lost in daydreaming a lot

>>38912254
underage faggot

Still mentally blocking myself from messaging qt3.14.

Facebook shared a memory that involved my ex gf, and it made me into a sad little bitch for the entire morning. I just want to feel nothing about her, but my heart wont let me give it up.

>>38910140
Hang in there senpai. Take control of your situation. Start meditating for those sweet sweet mind gainz

>>38912569

Because you are fucking retarded. How about instead of nofap you just stop watching porn first. Every time you get the urge to fap just fap without porn. Ease your way into it you mong.

Sometimes I really wonder how someone can be in my mental state and even survive.

I haven't had friends since I was probably 13 years old, yet going through high school and college and now post-college, I never really tried to make friends (like anyone would want to be my friend anyway) and was fine being a shut in, and I'm still a complete shut in. I'm the typical "up work home TV bed" life. Even on weekends unless I go out aimlessly I am shut in my room and don't even try to meet people.

I'm 24 nearly 25 and a kissless virgin, yet I basically have no desire to talk to girls or have sex. I've never even asked a girl out. I don't watch porn and barely even masturbate. Of course I'm ugly as fuck so that doesn't help either.

I work a shitty job because I was supposed to go to grad school but I just don't care enough to even apply because of how much of a loser I am and don't see the point

I live with my parents but we have a terrible relationship and I hate living here but I have no motivation to move out.because our area is extremely expensive (I do pay my parents rent though)

I just don't know how it's possible for someone to have this little motivation and drive to succeed in life. Like, I'll be out at work/on the subway to work and see people and suddenly get the desire to want to change, then I get home and realize it's all hopeless anyway so who cares.

And the worst part is that it's basically my near lifelong friendlessness that has caused literally every one of these problems. By not having friends I didn't learn how to socialize in high school so I was alone. That lack of social development carried over to college so I was alone there too. And it's carried over to post-college life.

I feel like I'm a pretty clear sufferer of legit low testosterone but at this point I'm even afraid to get tested for that becuase if it turns out I'm low test and it changes my life, I'll just beat myself up over the wasted years.

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>starting to make it
>no one to show
>went over calorie budget for the day

>>38911900
"No Strings Attached" sex ad.

Got prescribed welbutrin, lexapro, and lorazepam on Monday. Feeling no emotions, but I still can't concentrate.

>>38913298
You have got to break out of that shell.
The only one who can do that is you, and reading that has made me want to change my ways so I don't become a shut in
you can do it, one step at a time

A lot of the sad posters in here need to meditate and\or get some chemical assistance to up those brain gainz.
t. reformed shut in discipline-lite loser

>>38909148
A lot of people seem to think that a relationship nowadays should be being able to put up with this other person.

I've had 2 long relationships and I ended both of them. I am of the firm opinion that you should enjoy and love being around the person your with a good 90% of the time(because conflicts do occur) but if most of the time youre dreading to get back to your girl because shes bitchy or your always trying to be on her good side and not make her bitchy or its no fun or theres no sexual energy anymore then its time to cut that shit off.

A relationship should make you(and her..or whatever floats your boat) happy....If youre constantly bitching at each other, causing strife and drama, or just together so your not alone then whats the fucking point. Do whatever makes you happy.

I have FWB's until I find a good one, date for like forever, then get into a relationship. After two long relationships though I dont think ill get into one again unless shes a candidate for marriage.

MORAL OF THE STORY: dating scene is shit for above average men looking for a good looking girl with a good personality who is trustworthy.

>looking at snap
>everyone is out partying because Fri night
>I'm sitting here studying but even if I wanted to I don't get invited to parties

Fucking end me brahs, I'm 21 and have no fun

>>38915248
Set goals, break down to smaller steps, make small consistent efforts to achieve each smaller step, be kind to yourself and accept you may fail and need to deload to try again

>>38913002
thanks anon

>>38909436
To find yourself in the process my man

>>38909148
Just got back from a comfy 2am liftan session where I had the whole gym to myself. I've got a freshly shaven head, and I'm trying a new facial hair configuration out. If I don't like it, I'll just shave it off and start over. Going to a convention tomorrow. Everything's going pretty well tonight bros.

>>38909148
>undertalefag
>has mental health issues
>thinks 4chan is some sort of safe space for sharing issues about being retarded
and nobody was suprised

>>38909297
>Paid £35 for a private blood test to get my test levels checked.

I was thinking of doing it, medichecks?

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>>38915258
what if i just fail and fail and never get better?

got tinder a few weeks ago and have had 3 dates so far, didn't score a single time. my social skills are just so inept despite actively talking to different people and whatnot that you could make a cringe collage of moments I failed socially in highschool.

I've tried rooting out the causes. I'm aware I slur my words, am slow to come up with meaning responses or stories, have been diagnosed with ADD, have ridiculous egocentricity to the point that when talking to someone I'll ask questions for the sake of it but not even listen or care about what they're saying. But I can't fix it. This must be some flaw in my mental chemistry that I can't get over what people learn at age 5.

It sucks because I'm decent looking and lean af but I'm so socially autistic that I'm a 21 year old virgin.

Only got like 4 hours of sleep last night, but I took a nap when I got home from work and managed to break my bench stall and increase my ohp as well.

>>38913002
I am literally the opposite of this. I am chronically a cold motherfucker and have no feeling or pleasure other than masculine power. I've almost never felt the warm things you describe except in the brief periods that I've been in love, and the two times I've done MDMA. Adderall makes my coldness even worse, but I need it to work. If I can't make this change, I just want to die.

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Pretty shitty anon

Posted about this before

>meet qt 4 months ago things going well
>go on dates spend multiple nights at her house
>do couple things
>get on the topic of us one night
>she says she doesn't feel a spark
>then proceeded to say
>I love the way you treat me and how safe I feel in your arms
> love when we cuddle and kiss
>says she didn't feel a spark
>her and I talk the next day and agree we are just going to be FWB like before
>still cuddle and have sex
>last week as been weird
>she doesn't go to bed till I have to leave in the morning for work
>last night she got into bed and didn't want to cuddle with me

Finally ask her what's up and shit
>she says she's second guessing the benefits parts of our friendship
>text her saying you've never had a problem before and you loved it then say
>text her saying "let me guess your ex is trying to get back in your life"

>pic related what she said

>moved to a new city
>go out alone
>usually I can find someone willing to chill
>not this time
>three hours alone
>finally walking home at 1:45
>super flamboyant fag calls me "weird guy" to entertain his friends
>want to call him a faggot so badly
>there are a few too many people around
>"I'm the weird guy? Yeah, ok dude."
>spend the half-hour walk home thinking of clever ways I could have mocked him
>I hate these people
>I hate what this country has become
I don't even know what the hell made him think he was weird. I dress like a socially apt normie and have pretty normal hair and beard.

So lonely, so angry.

>>38915510
>he was weird
"I was weird", obviously

>>38915506
get one last fuck and drop her anon. Not worth dealing with for even a second. trust me, been there done that.

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I cant cum inside gf when in doggy style. I just can , everything's so hot but nothing works. Any other position is fine

>>38915535
Ohhh yeah anon I tried the most I could and I did drop her.. She'll learn hell fuck her over again and she'll realize she fucked up with me.. At least I got to dick her down.. So it wants a complete loss I'm actually driving over right now but I don't think we'll fuck cause she hasn't been in the "mood" for about a week.. Thats when I started thinking something was up

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>>38909148

>diet back on track, almost close to lower bf
>maintaining all my lifts strength
>once I lean bulk I'll quickly achieve 4pl8 deadlift and 2pl8 bench(10kg away from both)
>boxing going really well and hopefully I can compete by next year but there's still a lot of work to do
>somehow I'm managing to lift heavy shit and box with only a day to rest at sunday

let's see how this goes

pic related my progress

>>38915555
Sorry you gotta go through this senpai. I swear women in their 20's are like 90% narcissist and do whatever they want at any given time with no thought for anyone else.

>>38915587
Thanks man shit sucks.. It was good between her and I then I seen her ex texted her and I knew it was gonna go down hill.. Now I feel like shit and everything.. She'll learn tho I can bet money on it

>>38915587
>I swear women in their 20's are like 90% narcissist and do whatever they want at any given time with no thought for anyone else.
can confirm

>>38909317
>Strong as fuck

Lmao

>>38915510
Let it go man, some people are dicks when they are drunk
And i think your response was fine.

>>38915360
Consider linear progression programs: If I said add 10kg to your squat each and every week, that would be unsustainable, and unrealistic, leading to repeated failure and a lack of madgainz. Change the goal to 2.5kg a week, and you can ride that train a lot longer, making small consistent gains.

>Got tinder - good start
>Got matches - Good
>Got talking - Good
>Talking went well enough for dates - excellent
Next step isn't 'score', that's jumping from 2.5kg increments to 20kg increments. Move the goal posts closer and create a few intermediate steps, consider:

>Learn some shit about her as a person (avoid interrogating, but ask enough questions you'd be able to introduce her and make her sound interesting at a party)
>Learn some shit about what she wants from {Relationships, life, career, travel, whatever else she's into}
>Non-intercourse fooling around
etc etc

Otherwise you're expecting your IRL social skill squat to go from 400lb -> 450lb in a week son.

>>38909583
And then this faggot comes along
It's nice that you married your hs sweetheart but here in the rest of the world it's a bit rougher than you might think

Oh and also don't think that your chick wouldn't pull the nastiest mind tricks when shit goes down

>>38915615
thanks anon. saving this to a notepad. we're all gonna make it

>>38909466
didnt know anyone actually played destiny

>>38915658
And fucking meditate man. Bit of gratefulness + bit of mindfulness = noticeable consistent gains in happiness + brain power application

>>38913130
What kind of memory? Don't worry anon, everything has its purpose. You just need to accept things

>>38911123
Keep a good vibe with your colleague and use her for mental gains and confidence when conversing with women. Getting romantic is NOT a good idea if you allready struggle with social skills. Trust me.

>>38915207
It takes two to tango. Stop blaming the other side, i think you are the problem.

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>>38915207
Nice copy pasta faggot

>>38910585
a teacher who browses 4chin. this oughta be rich

>>38915300

That's the one, sending me a blood test in the mail. Finger prick like a diabetic and you take blood that way.

>>38909148
>Today I understood people including the staff members talk behind my back how I am a DYEL and do all the excersices wrong even when I was going for 1 year
This is a third day I skip and I am afraid to go back. I think I will just quit the gym altogether and go swim or something. Sucks being retarded.

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>tfw enemies want me to fail but I continue to make progress
>tfw I siphon negative energy and use it to fuel my grind
>tfw life hasnt been this good in years
>tfw closing in on 1/2/3/4
>tfw hoodie season

Why is it so great? Why does forward progress make me cum?

>>38915954

Are you going to roid if you're on the lower end of the scale?

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>>38915969
>tfw closing in on 1/2/3/4

How long have you been lifting? What weight did you start at?

A year have passed... We're still not okay. She told me that she still loves her ex. [spoiler] we're still living on the same roof. And her fckn ex lives miles away

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>talked to gym crush for 3rd time
>not getting very good vibes
>not negative or hostile, just not reciporcating my same level of interest
>still have massive crush but I think it's time to let it go

>>38911079
Don't ask me... I am female and by 4chans opinion i should drown in dick and have 100000 sms daily and a lot of social contacts and friends to hang out with...
But in reality I don't even have people to talk to.
In uni I sit alone, eating my lunch no one sits with me so I just keep on browsing on 4chan... At the gym everytime I have a conversation it never goes past: "How many sets do you have left?" or "Can I work in?"
I just seem invisible to most of humanity even my parents dont talk to me...

>>38917042
Same. I'm even nice to people and get good responses. If I go to the pub alone someone will say hi and invite me to pool, and then later leave with all their friends without inviting me anywhere. I chat with people at work and make them laugh, but nothing.

I've thought about taking the initiative and making plans to invite people to, but it seems that they all have their people they already default to and I have nobody

I had a falling out with all my friends when I saw the chance to finally get laid, with a friend who was in a LTR with another friend. I did it and now everybody I knew has told me to fuck off.

If any old fit weebs are left, I just woke up from the scene at the end of Eva but instead of congratulations they just told me they hate me

I put up 160lbs db ohp though so that's nice

>>38917042
>I am female and by 4chans opinion i should drown in dick and have 100000 sms daily and a lot of social contacts and friends to hang out with..
Maybe you should just you know, stop thinking so much, as woman normaly do?

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>>38909148
>no gf
>no friends
>no idea what to do with my life
>aunt killed herself

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>>38909148
>accidentally cut between eyebrows with nail while scratching
>put some Neosporin on it
>apparently p bad allergy to Neosporin
>breakout in hives between eyebrows
>they're p bad and haven't improved for three days now
>school in 2 days
I feel insecure as fuck brehs
makeup probably will not hide it because of how bumpy it is

Other than that I've been doing better than usual socially I'd say, i genuinely felt like i connected with someone for the first time in a while, this is probably gonna ruin it all

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>>38917042
>I just seem invisible to most of humanity

>>38917042
Bullshit, any girl who goes to the gym.is bound to get flirted on by the workers in there.unless they're ugly as sin.
Personal trainers are fuckin horndogs trying to hit it off with 80% of chicks who get in there, it's cringeful

>>38917332
Loooool
Post pics you retarded motherfucker

https://youtu.be/iwvlKjwbttA

>>38917295
I came to the conclousion that some people are ment to be the background characters. We are like the black night sky... without us no one would be able to shine.

>>38917298
You just gave the worst advice I ever got on 4chan. That's got to be the biggest achievment in your whole life! Be proud of it.

>>38917355
Well then maybe I am ugly as sin... and no I won't post a pic of myself here. I am way to insecure to beg for insults

>>38917549
>You just gave the worst advice I ever got on 4chan
Because overthinking stuff has helped anyone yet has it?

>>38913298
>And the worst part is that it's basically my near lifelong friendlessness that has caused literally every one of these problems. By not having friends I didn't learn how to socialize in high school so I was alone. That lack of social development carried over to college so I was alone there too. And it's carried over to post-college life.

i know this feel bro and only solution for than is reading non-fiction books. I bbascially use other people life experience as my own because i dont have any. I look for similarities between situations in books in in my life and i make better decision and hate myself less.

>>38917549
>Well then maybe I am ugly as sin.
>>38917042
>Don't ask me... I am female and by 4chans opinion i should drown in dick and have 100000 sms daily and a lot of social contacts and friends to hang out with...
Typical female attention seeking...You're not going to change anything are you? Because you don't want to.
Either accept that you're good looking, or resort to whining on an indonesian banana peeling board

>>38917549
If I wanted pics of ugly girls I'd just go to /soc/, kek.

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>tfw while you are in the gym slaving away, Chad is pulling the sheets right off the corner of the mattress that she stole from her roommate back in Boulder.
FUCK

>>38909436
Man where are you from?

>>38917602
Ok. I am sorry... I don't really know yet what is acceptable with all you woman-hating guys here to post when I want advice with something that has partly to do with the fact that I was born with a vagina and not a penis since female socialising is different than male. Maybe I just should just never mention that i am female (like I do 99% of the times when I post anyway) and accept that I will never even get help from an indonesian banana peeling board who is normally happy to help other anons. I guess I am not even worthy to be part of a community which consits mostly of losers and loners

>>38917571
If I don't think how should I ever be able to find friends? No one ever just came up to me and tried to start a conversation. I am always the one who needs to think about how I should interact with people and put myself out there and even than other people already have friends and I always seem to destroy their happiness when I am around. So I don't want to drag them down and don't push myself into a group of people who seem much happier without me. Also worth mentioning: this only happend once up until this day. It was a year ago when the first semester just started and everyone was alone and scared so people tend to socialise much easier in that situation. But the more the time passed on the more they stopped inviting me to go out with them, or eat lunch with them. They also seem much happier without me, constantly laughing.... It makes me kinda happy for them.... Also since my knowledge about how to socialise is purely from anime, books, 4chan and some youtube videos you can already guess how limited my skills are.

>>38909603
What's up fuck off

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>tfw gonna get diet back on track and lose the weight I've gained since school started
>tfw gonna hit the gym and break personal records today
>tfw gonna start doing cardio again

I've had strep throat for the past two weeks and the lack of gym/proper diet (mostly chicken soup) has really started to affect my outlook. Plans to make a home gym are going forward so at least that's great!

>>38917369
>retarded
How was I supposed to know I'm allergic to this shit cunt

>>38917858
Sorry for that anon, but I promise you there other anons who dont give a shit about anything other tham making it, regardless of race sex color creed

>>38917858
You need to be thrown in the cold water m8

>>38917858
that's a lot of words about how you're a girl and how tough that is. we know it's tough but we all learned from anime too, autistic girls have an easier time getting laid than guys which makes the virgins here resent them and perpetuates the spaghetti. not your fault, but your attitude doesn't help

you say you're an awkward weeb girl who likes fit? guarantee you could get 50 skype or snapchat adds from this thread alone

>>38915982

First I will go to my doctor and see what can be done about it. I am sure the NHS meme will demand I do further blood tests.

If I can't get TRT if my test is low then yes, I will roid.

>>38909148
Is it considered dumb, to pursue someone who is obviously into you, yet resorts to trying to convince herself that someone else is the right choice for her? Don't want to hijack this thread or whine, just something that's on my mind lately.

Also, how can you guys not think about getting fat? All the food i want.

>finished my emdr sessions for ptsd during summer
>no more weekly nightmares or waking up feeling fear and anxiety
>just realized today that this month it has been 20 years since my fucked up childhood problems were dealt with
>maybe this october will be the first where I don't have a major depression and nightmares

Things are finally looking up for me guys!

>>38917620
Boulder? where is that?

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The thoughts of me getting older and still being a virgin drove me to a panic existential crisis the other night.

I've been raging and fighting back tears. I couldn't even lift anymore.

So for the last few days I masterbated furiously (at least 30 times a day).

And now I don't even crave women anymore. I'm repulsed by it

>>38918526
Ok... than let's assume I would get a skype (i dont have snapchat) what do the girls write/talk about with you. I even need to build up a lot of confidence to post here. I always read like you all hate the one line replies but in all honesty they are the only thing I can give when I know I talk to someone who wants to form a relationship of any kind with me. I also assume that's the main reason I seem to scare off any potential friends or love interests (and also because I have a resting bitch face... I tried to fix that one but than people kept staring at me if i were some creepy weirdo)
I don't want to bore them but in the end I bore them anyway. If given the time I can write walls of text about any subject but as soon as someone expects me to reply because they talk to me and ask me questions directly opposed to me I forget everything I know. I also stutter a lot and since I never really talk most words feel weird to say out loud and I am scared people will think I might be dumb. I don't even know how I should pronounce my name....
Do you think I can brother a psychiatrist with this? My problem seems so minor compered to other people who suffer under PTSD, or people with severe depression.

>>38918524
So by thrown in the cold water what exactly do you mean? Should I go alone to a club or a pub? I am scared people would laugh at me for going there all alone or that I would get robbed on my way there since I live in a pretty bad neighborhood. Also I am even too shy when I am drunk.

>>38918523
It's ok. It's just that 4chan made me hate my gender and now there is nothing left about me which I don't hate and it's kinda frustrating. But most of the guys are right. A lot of girls are just too blank and pretty fuckdolls, or angry feminazis. If someone could give me advice on how not to be like them I would really appreciate it. On the contrary if I would get more like them I guess I could befriend some of them. I am torn apart...

>>38918603
congrats anon, I hope things stay well for you

>>38918643
>30 faps a day
Mother fucker you repulsed by life itself. You could be used to repulse the gravitational pull of time itself. If you was born today your doctor would tell your mother to pull back. Mother fucker you so repulsive you can show up next to a cemetery and all the hearts would regain their pulse. You can shove your dick into a toaster and it would power the national grid. What the god damn fuck are you doing, get your shit together.

>>38918643
>(at least 30 times a day).
Dude...

>>38918858
>My problem seems so minor compered to other people who suffer under PTSD, or people with severe depression.

You don't need to think about stuff like that, what you have is a pretty nasty case of social anxiety, if it prevents you from doing normal everyday things then it's still, by definition, a disability. I wouldn't hesitate to get help.

>>38919135
The 120v line from the toaster definitely wouldn't handle that, if you bypassed the breaker that is. Otherwise that would just flip. I think we will need anon to stick his dick in one of those van sized transformers you see connecting the high voltage to the very high voltage lines.
>>38918858
Yeah, you sound ok. You could try working your way from Omegle to Skype to irl. Or something. Go on meetups.com.
Remember to ask people on Omegle if they are a bot, if they don't deny it they are not even an interesting bot.

>>38919323
I appreciate your mathematicalician capacities.

>>38918858
>I am scared people would laugh at me for going there all alone or that I would get robbed on my way there since I live in a pretty bad neighborhood. Also I am even too shy when I am drunk.
yes i mean that, also, you say by 4chan standards you should get a million dicks which means you're attractive also you're a girl, girls do that all the time

Friend from the past just called, I've been living somewhere else for a while now and he just decided to call and see how I am doing etc.. Things re going to be alright senpai

>>38917042
That's how 90% of men feel all the time. You must be ugly, which means you're living on hard mode. You'll get no sympathy, but just by virtue of having a vagina, if you have a good body you'll still attract men.

Either that or you're seriously enderestimating your actual human interactions like most girls do when they say they're "lonely". For almost all women, loneliness is a choice.

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had a really good workout today, didn't tire out easily, PRd on bench press

friend who I visited at school last week messaged me to tell me that her QT friend was mirin' my ass and that they talked about me last night

he told her he and his gf broke up and he's single

>if i don't blow it next time i visit maybe i can finally make it

quit drinking
quit smoking weed

starting to feel lonely everyday
tfw, friends have left and I'm almost 30
the feels are starting to settle in
what do?

>>38909148
>still completely socially isolating
>few friends I had no longer bother contacting me
>gains demolished from one bad cold and now I've got nothing

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>>38909148

Day 5 into 30 day intro routine I've created for myself. Trying to work on being consistant before moving on to advance stuff.

The hard part is trying to lone wolf it but I must endure.

>>38919423
No I don't underestimate my human interactions that I am 100% sure. The only times I talk are when I talk to a cashier, my parents don't care for me, when I need to see a doctor or when someone at the gym asks me how many sets I have left. Most of the time I stutter some nonsense, am not able to look them in the eyes and beat myself up for how stupid I am. Oh and when I really have to ask my prof at the uni something but I rather just solve my problems by myself and look them up in books or on the internet. But that's about it.
If I am ugly - I don't know. I read on the internet most ugly girls get bullied when they are young but I never got. Also I am not fat and don't have any severe deformations but when I look in the mirror I can see there is clearly something wrong with me but if it's ugliness or somethingelse... who knows...

>>38919394
4chan Standards for getting laid as a woman is you need to be a woman and that's about it... and it was an attempt to make it sound more light-hearted but I guess I failed again at human communication. I still don't know how I should go out alone at night when I am scared as hell to go outside all alone in the dark. Sitting at a club and having to hear people talk shit about me might be more comfortable for me than having to walk all the way there.

>>38919305
It doesn't really prevent me from doing normal everyday stuff. I can study, I can go to the gym, I can go shopping.... or do people count talking with someone who they call a friend as a normal everyday activity?

>>38918586
The feeling of having too much food in me is disgusting. No food is good enough for me to endure the sluggish, gross sensation of overeating. Making gains is hard for me.

>>38918858
you wouldn't be bothering a psych no matter how dumb your problem is cause you're paying them to listen.

i do get frustrated by the girls who give one line responses and seem boring, and I'm sure they're equally frustrated with my autism. that should clue you in that everyone is clueless and you're not a special case

if you're taking the advice of bitter misogynists like us then you'll never get anywhere

heres what I did as a robot in a new city: I carry a wallet with a little character from spirited away on it and left in on the bar while I sat there drinking alone. a couple people, girls included commented on it and we chatted. all of them were either uninteresting, unattractive or not interested in me but it was good practice. a good bartender will also loop you in on conversations with others nearby if you let them.

if you just wanna get laid, you can sit alone at a bar and rather than mockery at least one guy will approach you with intent. guaranteed or your money back.

>>38911366
>>38911431
This.

Listen to some Brand New and move on
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vlAqE1zgY-I

Ive been lifting for a couple of weeks now and ive also started reading again. Still feel like shit because ive been unemployed for two years and I dont think anyone would ever hire me

>>38911431
>LDR are stupid and never work. People always cheat.
bull fucking shit

>>38919918
listen honey, if you're into /fit/, actively, then chances are you're atleast decent looking so you've got no problems whatsoever to talk to new people

Wanna share some feels.
Don't want to bore you with a sad story so I'll keep it short. Used to live in Yugoslavia during the war and got actual non-SJW PTSD.
I've been doing pretty well, since My mom got my ass to Germany, sadly my dad wanted to fight and stayed in Serbia. I don't know what happened to him. He's probably somewhere in a mass grave.

Anyways I digress, so I have good days and bad days. For the last few weeks I have bad days. Any loud noise or strong smell triggers a moderate panic attack. Shit sucks, since I can't do much about it. I don't let anybody know how I feel since it feels petty to complain.
But somehow I wish I could just tell somebody how I feel man. I've seen gruesome shit and I can't let go of it right now.
But gotta be strong for your family, right?

>be me, 18
>started uni one month ago
>started lifting at the same time, feels good and noticing noob gains in my skinnyfat body for the first time
>crush on one girl
>she's not interested at all, doesn't reply to texts, clearly into another guy

oh well, there's a ton of girls at uni

>like another girl
>spend time together (class, meals, breaks)
>2 weeks in feel like it's going well, if she doesn't see me for a day+ then she hugs me when she does see me

>yesterday, Friday night
>be drinking with friends at a bar which is chill with the drinking age
>call her for unrelated reason, she asks where I am, I say and mention she should join us
>she shows up with some guy I'd heard her mention before
>he's flirting with her just as hard as I have been for the last two weeks

>he eventually goes to leave, she goes to walk him home (he lives in a different residence than my friends, the girl, and I)
>MrBrightside.mp3

>be today
>she comes over to my table at dinner
>mentions she was out until 4am yesterday

I know that there's a lot of fish in the sea, but it still hurts when you think it's going well and then some guy shows up and she seems to go for him instantly. Yesterday messed me up pretty hard, I thought she was actually into me and I was confident about myself from lifting/being noticeably bigger but then this happened.

Feels worse too because the guy looks like someone out of a Hollister commercial, with perfect hair/skin while I've got shitty acne scars from high school.

He's a manlet too, barely an inch taller than her while I'm 191cm.

Anyone have tips for feeling better other than lifting (can't for a few more days, been sick this week) and listening to Mr. Brightside on repeat?

>>38922412
>>38922241
>>>/adv/

>>38922241
If Serbian, toughen the fuck up. Visit the homeland, find out what happened to your father.

If anything else, it's a shame you managed to escape, suicide will end all your troubles. Not like your mother would give a shit.

>>38922462
Yeah, I'm a Serb. Believe me, I do toughen up.
I've been tough all my life, but sometimes I just want to share my feelings.
I've been 5 when I saw a man getting executed 20m away from where my mom and I were walking. Shit sticks with you, but again, I'm not looking for advice, I just wanted to share my feels. I'm actually feeling better just by having written this down.

Yeah about my dad, we tried to find out what happened to him. I'm regularly in Serbia, at least once every 6 months.
It's hard to find out what happened to the people fighting the war. Apparently his unit was heading to Bosnia and after that nobody knows what happened.

>>38922508
No shame in seeing a therapist, I'm from California, people here go to a therapist for petty shit all the time, your reasons are much much more valid next to those of a 20 yr old whos "stressed" from college and has "depression", and you're in the type of situation where you *should* see one

>>38922687
I probably should. I used to see one when I was 14, that's when PTSD was diagnosed.
It's hard to break your conditioning though.
I always wanted to be tough for my mom and sis.
But thanks man, I'll be off searching for therapists in my area.

>>38922784
Yeah, it's not about being tough, seeing one doesn't make you less of a man, but it has a chance to make you happier or at peace with what you've experienced, and then you can support your loved ones even better

Good luck

>>38917549
>some people are ment to be the background characters. We are like the black night sky...
time to train to be an assassin

Holy shit you guys, I just got over one of the biggest slumps in my life. For the past few days I've been incredibly tired. I'd gotten a taste of sugar and fats and have gotten addicted in a sense, and have been sitting at my computer all day watching stupid shit and browsing /fit/ and fapping. But I got over it.

all I had to do was
>stretch
>run, sprint
>*important* take an ice cold shower

now I feel so fucking good and energetic, the best I've felt in weeks. taking steaming hot showers, eating like shit, staring at a computer all day, fapping, not hydrating enough, this shit just kills your ambition. enough is enough.

All i do is studying,lifting and playing guitar and bass.
It feels so good

>>38926255

I'm mirin.
How long does it take to play a nice little song on the guitar? Am interested in starting