If I just keep moving, the depression won't catch up

Stop running from it. Face it and fix the problems causing it. Whats wrong anon?

>>38611972
>tfw I know this feel
What's the matter champ?

>>38611972
Share your story, anon.

>how i overtrained

;_;

>>38612058
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>>38612014
just your average 22 year old NEET virgin with anxiety and depression

daily exercise makes life bearable

>>38612014

not OP, but there isn't always a cause.

sometimes it just comes back for no reason at all, and all you can do is fight through it.

...and wait until next spring. literally. swear to god i get happy as balls april through may.

>>38611972
The black dog will always be there anon.

Somedays it will leave, other days it will scratch on the door then leap through the window and sit on your bed and stare at you.

It's best to stop trying to outrun it and start taking it for a walk.

Side step itt.

I was reading no more mr nice guy, and though I'm not a nice guy as the author defines it, I realize that I have absolutely zero self confidence and self worth. It makes me depressed and screws up any ability to make long term changes, like fitness.

How does one go about rebuilding their ego, and gaining self worth? I don't want to be wishing it was over every morning, and not believing I deserve to be fit/healthy/look attractive/have a good job, etc...

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>>38611972
>22
>never had a gf
>never had sex
>never even kissed a girl
>been a year since I've hugged a girl
>the loneliness is getting to me
>its distracting me from my studies too
>the only time I feel "love" is when I jerk off to those JOI videos.
>the only time I forget about being alone is when I lift.

I was lifting today and I was listening to Pandora and this song came on....seems pretty fitting.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GygEAcFFMVs

>>38612074
22 here as well, really anxious and depressed as fuck, for real, I got like, the worst depression ever, but living in a constant state of highness makes everything look better, or at least not that bad. Never went to therapy, never will, didn't work out today, first time in months, I feel ashamed.

>>38612074
same except not virg but havent gotten laid in 3½ years

my depression+anxiety turned into numbness a while ago, way easier to cope but no real motivation

Reads some books, OP. It's a relief to find someone has articulated those feels we all know.

These things take time.

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>19 hand-holdless virgin
>new qt gets a job where I work
>Decent 7-8 out of 10 but personality is a solid 9 when we talked
>She found a better job within a month of her coming in
>Heard the news
>Planned on asking her out the last weekend she worked
>She called out the only day her and I worked together
>She called out her last day
>Caught up with customers but saw her walk out after exit interview or some shit
>Watched my only chance not happen twice now
I now live in the " what could've been state.

I heard she wasn't single but fuck it, I would rather be turned down now than live with a what if.

>Hear that she's now seasonal and could come back for some quick shifts during the holidays

I don't know what to feel, there's hope but not much, i'm holding onto strings man.
I get too easily attached.

>>38612201
Actually, this is true.

When I had a legitimate existential crisis, I started reading Camus and Aurellius. It helps to know that people who were alive 50 years ago and 2000 years ago felt like we do. It gives you connection to humanity and makes you feel less alone.

Sophomore in college here. classes are pounding me in the ass life too.

I really feel like im not working toward my goal of living comfy and moving out of my parents. Im bad with chicks and come off as boring. never been to a party in college yet. Virgin. found out a chick who I had my eyes on fucked like three different dudes at kickback.

My macbook for college that my grandma got me has a broken keyboard and trackpad so i have to use a keyboard with a usb and take that to college classes whilst looking like an idiot. Got another windows laptop that my fatass cousin stomped on after I told him to get off my computer i need to do calc which I paid for with my loans so thats fucking broke.

No job experience hoping that ill build up some technical experience with clubs and shit. I tried playing vidya to cheer me up but not even thats working. I want to die but im too much of a pussy to do it.

also to top it off I stopped swimming for exercise and gaining weight.

tl;dr im pathetic also anyone know where to fix computer screens for laptops?

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>>38612658

>Im bad with chicks and come off as boring.

I know that feel man. I've been told that I'm only fun when I'm high/drunk. I don't do any of that anymore, so I guess I'll have to find a new way to be fun.

>anyone know where to fix computer screens for laptops?

I'm sure your college has some kind of tech store. They'll probably fix it, but I bet they will financially fuck you in the ass and charge you a shit ton of money.

You could try best buy or fry's if there still in you area.


good luck man

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>>38612658
Learn how to fix your computer you dumbfuck

>>38612751
thanks anon thats a good idea

>>38612748
Ya dude they tell me the same thing im antisocial though and I know it. I got a story too. Theres a chick who is taking my intro to engineering class right? So i saw her in my Chem class of like 200 too because i sit behind her.

I was like hey you're in my chem class right? and she said ya how did you know? I knew because i sat behind her but the thing is I get there before her keep that in mind.

So she sits in front of me and looks back im looking at the board before the lecture begins to take some notes. I see her and wave and she goes Oh my god you're so creepy! in her loudest voice.

Like what the fuck?

>>38612901
This wont suck if your trying to meet other girls and you get used to occasionally one finding it creepy

>>38612536
don't get fixated on girls who are attached, it's a massive waste of your time. And hers. Move on.

>>38611972
Iktf bro

>25 kv
>dont get any calls back for jobs I've applied to
>stuck making $13.50/hr bc my boss won't give raises or promotions
>most of my friends are making it in their jobs and relations
>stuck at 225lbs
>realized a few months ago that I'm addicted to porn when I tried nofap.

I just have to keep pushing on. The only thing that gives me comfort these days is reading the bible, but it's kept me from breaking down and going into a deep depression again. I hope and pray that we can all make it someday.

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>dont care about girls butts at the gym
>actually just never look
>im not gay
>i just want the most basic form of human contact

hell i feel less lonely if they just look in my general direction as long as im in their peripheral vision...

Does anyone else have depression that comes in waves?

>be miserable and lethargic for two weeks for no reason
>suddenly wake up one morning and I dont feel so bad, feel motivated
>lasts about 4-5 days
>back to a week of depression and laying in bed

Is there anything else I can do to help it besides working out and eating well? Does meditation really help?

I also have crippling anxiety

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>yesterday couldnt get my dick up for the second time in my life
>the look on her face was akin to a 4chan reaction image
>99% sure it's because of extreme social anxiety and nervousness

I want to die

>>38612014
Not OP, but for me I think its the drugs in my past that fucked up my ability to actually enjoy anything later. Working out is essentially a routine now, although making gains gives me a slight buzz.

I'm not anxious or anything any more, I just don't bother with going out. Have cut contact with everyone I knew from my past. When I did go out with them before going full NEET, they sometimes noted how some grills were into me and such, which I always shrugged of like the edgelord that I am or thought they were full of shit. Plus the seemingly pointlessness of small talk and giving a shit about what other people think or want to tell you. Thats the reason why I removed all of my friends from my life, they just couldn't shut up about themselves. Jokes on me, though since I'm just the same.

26 now, living off my savings which will probably last only for another year or two.

Only thing I still quite enjoy is reading, though, but thats just escapism.

So, doc, tell me whats going on.

>>38613732
Mmmmmm I feel ya.

Abused mdma/lsd/meth pretty badly from 17-23. Don't really have feelings the way other people have them anymore, and nothing really excites or interests me anymore. Working out is really just displacement activity. Two close friends that I rarely see, don't have any interest in 99% of human interaction.

Do you think it's fucked up brain chemistry that makes us this way? Have you heard of any way to reverse possible damage? What sort of shit do you read?

No idea if there is any way to reverse it. I was quite introverted and somewhat similar beforehand and this just seemed to make me more asocial, although I wonder that perhaps I'd be just like what I am right now even without having done the drugs, only more anxious.

Never did and MDMA. Just started drinking and smoking at atround 22, then finally got my hands on LSD, which I had been eyeing since I was a kid and loved it so much that I did it almost on every weekend for a few months straight. After that some dis/del if you consider amanitas to belong to either of those groups.

As for books, nothing special really. Mostly just...
>genre fiction pleb
A few writers whose works I've enjoyed the most have been Borges, Mieville and P. Watts, stuff that's a little bit out there.
Usually still just read the usual fantasy or science fiction, like Malazan, Kovacs etc.

Put on some edgy audiobook like "48 Laws of Power" and such while running sometimes.