personality inspo

From the way others describe me, I am very friendly, charming, funny, and playfully mean. I'm also philosophically an egoist, and have type II bipolar

How effay am I

>>11996878
>From the way others describe me,
>philosophically an egoist

really makes you think

>>11996883
I mean who wants to hear someone's misguided assumptions about how they come off to others?

ME ME ME ME ME

>>11996875
My gf said that in these 2 years i became an asshole, and yesterday, after watching old photos she also said im more attractive now
For what it seems before i was funny, childish (in a good sense) and loving
Now im just apathic

dude I feel that hard. I sold drugs in HS so I had to act like a character that I was not to be successful, now that I live a normal life I have a hard time being interesting/outgoing because I don't have a cash incentive + I spent so much time in a weird ass world/environment that I don't even connect with typical personality trends very well. I can only do the attractive oddball goof sort of thing. I almost pretend to be visibly unhinged just to create some buzz or type of ethos.

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>>11997350
I have sort of the same deal.
>super insecure because of childhood traumas
>pretended to be someone I wasn't for half of elementary - end of highschool
>so ashamed with how i acted i try to not be that way, so I'm just safe blandmanmcgee

>>11996875
First, to get it out of the way because I feel it always needs an explanation; it's fine to get traits of your personality from friends, celebrities, music, movies, whatever. It's part of culture. Stop acting like you're so pathetic for doing so. Jesus Christ, build some confidence.

>can talk with friends now but i feel like a 1 dimensional character in a story because i spend my time doing nothing and have no social life
>dress and post like i have a pretty bangin personality

The more you realize that you can't always be the center of attention, and that you should do what makes you happy, the more you will be comfortable and confident in yourself. People will detect that, and like you more. Is everyone an aspie? Just be who you want to be, not even in a hippy way. Fuck.

>because i spend my time doing nothing and have no social life

Then go outside and do something. It isn't that hard.

how to i get my old charming personality back?
i got depersonalisation from weed and now i'm just not the same
way more socially anxious, nowhere near as friendly as i was
i feel like im starting from scratch again

I can't tell if I'm just really awkward or if people just get really awkward around me because I'm attractive, tall, and dress well.

>>11997822
fake it till you make it

people who know me well know that im not very social
people who know me from lets say work think that im very social

i adapt quickly and very few get to see who i really are

>>11996875
Are you me?

>>11997936
is this really true?
fain confidence till you got it

>>11997822
im in a similar situation god damn, except idk if id call myself socially anxious. but the depersonalization makes everything 10x harder

>>11998513
No I am you

>>11998640
Yea confidence is a skill not something you're born with

>>11998645
i know that itll get better eventually anon
everything ive read has said its not permanent
but fucki it triggers me so bad when people act like weed is fine and will make you feel better
just gotta stay confident

>>11998739
Thanks man, and exactly like i see people taking like 3+ drugs at once and i just wonder how i got fucked up from just weed -_-

>>11998202
This is exactly me, on the surface im pretty normal amd sociable but once you really get to know me you realize i cant even keep up a normal conversation for longer than a couple of minutes

>feelsbadman.jpg

who in here /isfp/

>>11997822
>>11998645

can you guys describe how depersonalization is affecting you? I think I have the same thing from weed, but I haven't been diagnosed or anything. Nothing feels real to me, I kind of lose track of where my body is and who I am, and just kind of feel like I'm not present to the environment that I'm in. It's a bitch to describe but last night I was out with some friends, and it felt like I was just watching them hang out and I wasn't really there. If they were asking me something, I'd just kind of say something generally about what they were talking about, but I didn't feel an attachment to my words or anything like that. It's been getting better the more I socialize, but for the past year or two I've just been sitting in my room studying withuot really talking to people and smoking a lot of weed. I don't know if it's depersonalization or derealization or a mix of depression + anxiety but it's really strange.

>>11999048
what you described is 100% how i feel
like there is a thick pane of glass between me adn everything else that is going on a round me.
i smoked once and had a panic attack that triggered the DP, since then i've been battling with anxiety, that was about a year and a half ago, however i havent really been trying that hard and have only in this month began doing actual techniques to cure my anxiety. the key to getting rid of both anxiety adn DP/DR is simply just to accept it, which is very difficulty, but its a comforting thought to know that once you accept it, it will eventually go.
stay strong x

>>11999081
yeah I can see how accepting and letting go would be helpful, but that's the hardest part. It's so easy to just become angry and have negative thoughts that everyone else has something wrong with them and you're fine.

I've been working full time for the past 6 months and it was so bad when I first started. I literally spent the entire day just frozen staring at the computer screen afraid to to look at anyone or talk to anyone because I thought they would instantly figure out something is wrong with me. But as soon as someone approached me I would kind of lose control and just start rambling without realizing what I was saying. I think it's some sort of emotional imbalance. It's been getting a lot better lately tho, but still far from where I was before I was smoking weed.

Best of luck to you man, it's a tough thing to deal with but thankfully it's not permanent.

>>11996878

sound like a cockhead, not very /fa/ tbqh my man

>>11997936
I haven't stopped faking yet. Five years since I first started pretending to have a personality, and by now I'm questioning whether I'm a sociopath.

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>Spent all of my pre-teen and teen years alone, with literally no friends
>Fuck up at social interactions very easily, especially around other teens
>Get embarrassed about fucking up
>Seclude myself and prevent myself from ever learning how to be social
>Also spent my teen years truly hating myself and how I look
>Get surgery, accutane, puberty does me good, work out, lose the bit of fat I had on my face and body, etc
>Conflicted between feeling like the ugly monstrosity I was when I was younger and the supposedly attractive person I am today
>Ignore all compliments in person because I think they're lying to me

>>11999048
>>11999081
>>11999096

start meditating, trust me i had the same thing. was stuck to my room for about 5 years with barely any human contact. now i got a gf get along with senpai and happier and can actually feel things again

watch dogs, watch how they just enjoy the moment. that's how you want to view the world, to just stay in the present and stop thinking about irrelevant shit that's always in your head

think of meditation like exercise for your brain, the better you are at doing it the more you can stay in the present and feel better, just look up any meditation tutorial.

>>11999194
i for whatever reason have this stupid negative mindset where i think
'if i start meditating now, i'll be fighting it for the rest of my life and will have to meditate everyday'
do you still feel the DP/DR?
does seeing a therapist help?

>>11999270
>does seeing a therapist help?

i never went to a therapist. idk

>stupid negative mindset where i think
just start it, who gives a shit. it costs you nothing but time. i bet you have plenty of it

i dont do it that often once i got the ball rolling and started turning my life around

>do you still feel the DP/DR?
yes, there's still times just like this past thanksgiving where everyone is having fun and im just there sitting. i havent done anything the week leading to that i think that's the reason. keep yourself occupied with the present when you can actually start feeling in the moment and you'll be fine as long as you stay there and not revert to being autist wasting time on internet listening to the same music you've been listening to for the past 6 years lol

I'm a loud dick that makes snarky remarks about everyone and everything but I can't actually be honest because I'm afraid that makes me vulnerable.

The only thing I've ever based my interaction with other people around is that I'm not vulnerable, that there's nothing about me they can abuse. That I win every argument and every fight and nobody has dirt on me. I've succeeded in that but it's literally all I've got.

People say I'm funny and tough but nobody calls me a good friend. I think the only real friendships I had were when I was a kid, after we moved to another town and I lost my connections it's been like above.

This turned out more fit for r9k than here but whatever.

>>11996875
in today's society, being attractive and effay in social media is enough to get you a semi-real circle of friends

my story is not that different from yours except i've always been poor and out of shape, so I could never achieve even the most vapid sense of effayness. Eventually the art folk and attractive folk see through and move on

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>black growing up in an african household
>almost exclusively white friends at school
>awesome sense of self worth and empathy
>Can be friends with almost enyone
My personality fucking bangs

>>11997329
Exactly the same, my relationship was 3 years, exactly the Friday I ended up the relation because I was feeling the way each other grew up wasnt getting along too much.
Feels, but I feel great.

>>11998652
No. Confidence is something you just have. Not genetic but confident people just have it without trying to get it. It's nurture.

You are all fucking pathetic lol

>intp
>avoidant personality disorder

>tfw

>>11999496
I know. And you're one lucky guy i wish i was as lucky as you

>literally all these autists with zero social skills

Practice. It's how you get better at anything. Just practice.

>>11999442
>white personality
>black dick

Easiest life

>>11999048
i feel like this, often i will lose track of what i'm doing and wander around for hours aimlessly. ive basically lost all interest in socializing with anyone, i dont even want it, im letting all my relationships decay through disuse, spending all my time reading and smoking. idk what it is but everything feels like its happening a few rooms over, like i have no connection to my body, like im wearing those big sound-blocking headphones all the time. thats how its been for me anyway

>>11999180
AHHHHHHHHH

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People generally like me and some even consider me a novelty to be around. I've been told that people listen to and agree with me. But my personality is sarcastic, quick witted, and kind. The only thing I dislike is that people think I'm only a goof when in reality I'm a pretty thoughtful person with a lot of introspection and observation skills. I just like to act like that because its fun to me. For example my friend was genuinely surprised when they found out I was in a philosophy class. How can I make people realize I'm deeper than just joking around while maintaining my likable, lackadaisical, and not-tryhard persona?

>>11999048
Stop smoking weed.
Now.

Your potheads friends and b-lisr celebrities who say "nothing wrong with weed man!!" are fucking idiots. You are destroying yourself, mentally and physically. I was lied to as a kid by the degenerates around me, and I can't stand to see this happening to bright and talented young guys with a lot of potential. It won't be easy but you have to stop now, or there seriously will be no turning back.

>>11999887
Not everyone has to get it.
You are not a Messiah leading the dumb steeple, not everyone will get what you're doing and what you're saying and many won't like you for it and even more will think you're an idiot. If you can't get over that stress and are not OK with every single person you meet except for a small inner circle "getting it" you are not cut out for the lifestyle.

>>11999887
you me, and about how everyone noticed how "deep" was simply talking about that while i was drunk

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>>11996875
>literally asking a mongolian basket weaving forum what kind of personality you should have.

Start with your interests. If you like fashion, and can talk about it, then that becomes part of your personality. If you like politics / ethics, or even have opinions, then that is part of your personality. Just because you don't talk a lot doesn't mean you don't have a persona. For the people that really are dry and uninteresting, just start learning about stuff you personally find interesting. Learn to talk about it, garner social skills from conversing with people about it (not internet skills, real interpersonal communicational skills), and eventually learn how to make interesting smalltalk. It's not that you have no personality, it's that you'e never used the one have.

>>11996878
>Not asperger's or ANYTHING

..Bipolar...

>>11999908
I know I have to stop. One of my friends became a heavy heavy stoner over the past couple of years and I can see the changes in his personality, the way he thinks, the way he carries himself, etc. It's not like he became a moron or anything, he just thinks that everything revolves around him and how he feels. It's hard to describe because everyone probably feels like that, but there's something different in the way he does it. He probably doesn't notice a difference, but being around him is really irritating sometimes.

I was a pretty smart kid in highschool, played sports, decent grades, not depressed or anxious, great relationship with my parents, not a lot of friends but was cool with almost everyone so I always had someone to talk to. I even tried weed once in grade 12, but never really cared about it until uni.

When I got to uni tho, I was pretty desperate to make some "real" friends and got to know that guy I mentioned above who introduced me to some people and we started getting high every week. Fast forward like another year and I'm vaping every night in my bathroom trying to not get caught by my parents, developed depression and anxiety which made me look forward to getting high as an escape from it, and was eventually forced to drop out from uni. My parents ended up finding out I smoke so I completely lost their trust and respect (which still doesn't feel real to me). We talked it over and found some common ground, but it still sucks to have put them through that and I still feel there's some disconnect (especially since I'm still feeling DP/DR, depressed, etc so my mind is elsewhere 90% of the time). I'm trying to turn my life around tho so progress is slowly being made.

I know this is a long blog about my life that none of you care about, but hopefully you guys don't make the same mistakes I did. I didn't even notice what was happening until it was too late. Pay attention to your life, it's the only thing that you have

>>11997389
Are you me?

>>11999887
You sound like a faggot.

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i don't know man, I just feel that nobody cares about me or what I have to say. They listen to me since I am 6'5 and /fit/ and if I start saying something and I notice that they aren't listening I go "Hey, are you listening to me?"

I know that they don't give a shit because once I finish whatever I was talking about there are no follow up questions.

I also feel fuckall throughout the day. When I talk to people I see them almost as if they were one dimensional robots, programmed to stay in my reality.

I think they feel it, I discard people if they are uninteresting to me. If for example a girl isn't beautiful I'll just completely ignore her, won't even make eye contact. Same can be said for a dude that I see has a low social status/looks like a loser.

It's just that nothing matters anymore. You try to converse with people on a deeper level and they never give a shit, everyone is so one dimensional these days it's terrifying.

>>11999908
I didn't get my depersonalization from just weed but it was a bad 25nbome trip that fucked me up. But I stopped smoking for 6 months now after 2 1/2 years of self isolation and heavy weed smoking and I'm already feeling better, people don't say I look dead inside anymore, my eyes used to be hallow or thousand yard stare, and now I have a girlfriend. It'll get better just try not to focus on it too much and try to be in the moment as much as you can. Let yourself go and be natural.

>>12000289
My parents got divorced, mom got cancer and dad became heroin addict, our family dogs were given away, and my heart failed and am now currently only alive because of an artificial heart. I had dp/dr before all this but now it feels like an other reality. I'm just numb.

>>12000393
>You try to converse with people on a deeper level and they never give a shit

maybe cause you're a condescending faggot who thinks he's better than everyone

reality check not everyone has to try and like you and they're doing the same exact shit you described

holy shit you are dumb

trying to have "deep conversations" lmao

>>12000393
you're just projecting your self onto other people

>>12000393
>only interacts with hot girls and the popular dude-bros
>is surprised none of them have any desire to have deep conversations

interacting with people based on shallow qualities will lead you to only have shallow conversations, you will have better luck talking to the autistic engineers and pretentious philosophy students

>>12000393
>isn't interested in other people
>just wants the people he deems worthy to give their comments on his glorious deep opinions
>can't believe other people notice this about him and thereby specifically avoid converstations with him

i've met people like you irl who just want echoes of their own opinion, i always ignore until conversation subject changes

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Is this whole thread gonna be people bitching about their personality? I was expecting advice for improvement honestly.


Is this book any good?

>>12000658
old fashioned but it works, most other books on the subject are based off this one tbqh

also unironically reppin reddit. Ive been through some subreddits and posts before that have solid social technique advice

>>12000670
Which ones?

>>12000607
That's messed up man. I can't even imagine what you must be going through

>>12000670
>subreddits and posts before that have solid social technique advice
any links?
>>12000658
is a good book, I'm about to reread it again

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>>11996875
>grew up almost entirely around television
>entire childhood was spent watching Seinfeld, The Simpsons, The Critic, Duckman, Frasier, Drew Carey Show and other shit of the time
>have ended up with personality traits from various characters of those shows
>fashionwise i dress like a late 90s New Yorker
>shows also affected my accent drastically so its a combination of Mid-Atlantic and NYC
>not even sure if i'm real or just a real life combination of TV characters

>>12000689
how do people like u

>>12000689
I feel like a big part of my personality is Dennis from It's Always Sunny

>>12000694
They think I'm pretty funny, confident and have a charm about me but I really don't see it. I kind of hate that I've in some way grown up without my own personality.

>>12000697
You're not alone, I know a guy just like Dennis. Funny thing is he hates the show and has never watched more than 5 minutes.

>>11999925
I'd just like people to not only think of me as a jokester.

>>11999946
This is incoherent

>>12000387
Whys that?

>>11999887
are you me? I am even thinking of getting in a sociology/psychology/philosophy class

>>11999180
>Ignore all compliments in person because I think they're lying to me
are you me?

Nice, average, thats about it

How do I get a personality?

People want to get to know me then after a while they stop trying cause there's nothing to know

>>12000393
they dont give a shit because what you're saying is probably fucking stupid, my man

>be seen as that one crazy guy
>quiet one minute amd explosive the next
>kind of a loner
>avoid people when I can
>dry sense of humor
>everyone thinks I'm going to shoot everyone.
I just want to be seen as a person not a hazard

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>mild autism from genetics
>this leads limited social interaction
>limited social interactions feeds back into autism and itself and i end up regularly interacting with a handful of people for most my life
>avoid people and never develop a good set of social skills
>crave affection

>>12001426
That is actually pretty /fa/.

>>12001426
Yo, let's meet up homie

>>12001426
Do you study in Ohio by any chance?

>move around a lot when i was younger
>can make friends quickly cause kids were always interested in the new kid that moved in
>finally get tired of this cycle of making new friends then leaving after a while and stop trying
>turn into autism with no feelings except when im in front of computer

how do i stop this guys. i just want to be able to open up to people again

>>11996878
>I'm also philosophically an egoist, and have type II bipolar
sounds right

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>had lots of friends through childhood to 15 years old
>social life dropped off in high school
>still read, researched, and was intellectually inclined but socially pretty retarded
>now have a bizarre sense of humor almost no normal people can sympathize with because of years of internet use and am literally too intelligent to have conversations that are engaging for me with most other people
>have a few acquaintances from work I sometimes do things with, and two friends I actually see on a somewhat regular basis but otherwise am pretty socially inactive
>am able to be sociable with people, but most of it is forced and not at all natural, I just know how to act amiable; If I'm ever in a shit mood it fades and I'll start to avoid eye contact, mumble words, etc.
>aesthetically normally rated 8/10, tall, and get regular compliments on the clothes that I wear, although don't normally have a response other than "oh, thanks"

I'm more or less okay with my personality, my only experience regularly socializing with others is work, I may gain more friends if I actually ran in areas that intrigued me, but my social retardation hinders me from being able to communicate with strangers outside of environments where I'm forced to be with them (ie: school, work). Embarrassingly, the only people I talk with regularly are ones I've fucked or who at one time had the impression that I wanted to fuck them. My outer shell can seemingly only be broken with the jackhammer of sexual tension.

>>12001847
do you have a gf?

>am literally too intelligent to have conversations that are engaging for me
Every time I hear this it's because the person has no real interests, hobbies, or creativity so they can't empathize with normal humans.

This shit is the easiest thing to get over. Don't worry about what other people think about you, just be yourself and enjoy being yourself. If other people don't like you thats not your problem.

I used to have this problem too but its easy to get rid of, just stop being a pretentious shit head ;)

>>12001892
This is so accurate.

>>12001870
Nah, I've "seen" a couple guys before. I don't really want to be with guys in the future though, I feel like my homofaggotry was just a compensating mechanism for my completely dead sex life.

Have had a few girls interested in me, but none I returned the attraction towards.

>>12001892
I was expecting this response, and I actually do have quite a few hobbies, in contrast to most people I meet who have few or none.

Most people fill their time with social media, gossip or inane consumer media. For instance, the people that I do share interests with, take music or literature, stop being able to hold a conversation with me once I go into persons or ideas they're unfamiliar with. Either that or they get bored of the subject fast, which usually means they just expressed the interest to seem interesting.

Just from my experience with "normies", their conversation is almost entirely about other people in their life or themselves.

>>12001636
I'm a chain smoker too if that helps
>>12001645
Sounds fun
>>12001781
Nope

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>tfw I am the most boring fuck I know

What is the worst moment your horrible personality has caused you guys?

>Be me, Italian
>In a nice fancy fashion store in Milan
>Looking at expensive clothes I can't afford
>Looking at some coats
>I am looking pretty good this day
>Girl is working at the store
>She approaches me and asks if I need assitsance
>she smile so I assume she is hitting on me
>try to come with a smart line
>However because I have no fucking personality I think of nothing
>think about catwalks and ramps
>shout at her 'I WOULD WEAR THESE COATS AT THE FASHION SHOW, AND YOU AT THE GIRLFRIEND SHOW'
>she gets creeped out and says 'ok sir' and sculps away

fuck I hate my shit

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>>12001901
>just be yourself
JUST

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>>12001996
If you don't like yourself, anon, make changes to be the person you want to be.

If you hate being socially awkward, talk more.

It sounds like the stupid, non-advice, incomprehensible thing anybody could say, but you have to practice if you want to get better.

>>12001938
>the people that I do share interests with, take music or literature, stop being able to hold a conversation with me once I go into persons or ideas they're unfamiliar with
what do you expect from normies? of course they have surface-level knowledge, most people do. if they're interested in philosophy, talk to them about Nietzsche, or Kant, not that one obscure academic philospher only a handful of people know about
if they're interested in music, talk to them about aphex twin or bob dylan, not that totally rad japanese experimental freak-folk band, unless you're 100% sure they're into that

>>11996878
>philosophically an egoist
my man
>type II bipolar
stay the fuck away from me though

>>12001938
Then you simply have different interests compared to the average person you meet. I don't expect a normie to share my interest in fashion but I also don't consider myself more intelligent for it. I empathize with that and introduce the subject at the level of interest I think they will have. If they express more interest I introduce more and hope they feel some of the passion I have.The problem is empathy not superior intelligence.
>tfw a friend of my mine recently bought his first yohji piece

>>12002017
I swear I'm not psycho, I only get hypomania, by full on mania

>>12002033
*not full on

>>11999048
http://www.anxietybustersblog.com/?p=344

>>11996875
it's not that youhave no personality
it's that you are insecure bitch ass faggot

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>>12002033
sure, they all say that before they knock me out with their copy of "The Unique One" from behind

>>12002045
nooo i am good friend ;_;

>>11999492
not true, it has to do mostly with childhood

>develop OCD throughout my teens
>gets severe after uni
I spent a couple of years unemployed and as a recluse. I barely left my flat and stopped talking to people. Even though my cousin frequently delivered food and checked up on me, we barely talked.
I eventually started going outside and taking meds but I've forgotten how to be around people and have a shitty office job.
I somehow managed to get a girlfriend at one point but she was super turned off by the fact I don't like physical contact ( which makes sense desu).

I was an introverted nerdy (br*ny) loser who lost his friends in middle school but at some point in high school I became attractive through puberty and turned my autism outward and became an extroverted goofball (I still don't have any real friends besides my gf though). Now lots of people like me and I'm moderately happy with myself, I wish I could find more people with the interests I have because I have a lot but no one to talk to about a lot of them.

i always had been really sociable as a kid, but by the time i got to high school i started being a loner and staying home all day browsing the internet. of course that led me to depression and social anxiety, i hated myself so much i wanted to die, i remember feeling like i didn't want to be happy ever because i felt like that wasn't for me.
two months ago i moved to another city, and since then i'm feeling way better, my depression and anxiety are almost gone, i'm eating healthy and start to have more confidence. i'm proud of myself for starting to get myself out that shithole. i wish you all anons the best, don't ever think you're not worthy of happiness and good things

I dont know what am i or what i want to be like personality wise i just know that im a piece of shit

INFP is the most /fa/ personality type.

>>12002854
>not ENTP

as an INTJ (i had a whole thing written out for this thread, but nvm, maybe later), how should I dress?

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>Always quiet, but only because I don't know what to say
>Try to seem interested when in a conversation
>I actually really like talking to people, just not good at small talk or initiating conversations
>Face is like my dad's, always have a mad look
>Even my Ex said I have a mean face
>Probably why girls don't talk to me
>Probably why people don't talk to me
I just don't know what to do. I had friends in high school and all, but after being in the same classes with people for 7 years, it just kind of happens. I overthink things too much, and I try not too, but its too hard to stop. I got into dressing better as a confidence booster y'know? It kind of helps, but not enough to get me to open my mouth and ask a cute girl for her number.

>>11996875
kind of the same to be honest. I don't feel like I have any personality, I know I can completely change depending on whom I'm speaking to. I'm incredibly sly, I screw everyone over but also keep them close, I play the victim constantly. I regularly cheat on my girlfriend. I also get constant invasive thoughts, my girlfriend was cooking for me and all I could think about was what would happen if I took the knife from the side and killed her. I know could walk away from everything tomorrow and just give up. I forever get myself into bad, risky situations just to give myself something to do, something to feel, an adrenaline rush I suppose. I openly tell my parents that outside of my house id fuck over anybody to get myself further in life.

I don't talk about it to anybody, aside from my parents, this is the first time I've really mentioned it to anybody. I'm not trying to sound edgy, I'm not even trying to brag or put myself down, I don't really feel anything towards it. it's nice to just put it out in the open, though

>>11999442
The fact that this comment makes me want to be friends with you just confirms it all, because I don't really like being friends with many people.

>>12003096
You're probably a psychopath of some sort so just go around acting like Patrick Bateman all the time

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>>11996875
>>11996875

In my experience, it's almost always the people with absolutely no personality of their own who attempt to put the betters down by accusing them of having no personality. I'm saying this as someone who has had his own original personality hijacked and imitated by others. It's a very, very weird feeling to have some pipsqueak Armaneian drone attempting to use non-existant thespian abilities to imitate you on a 24/7 basis, believe me. With people like that it's always best to just remain silent and patient, in my opinion at least.

As far as your own situation is concerned, you probably do have a good personality and just don't realize it. A large part of it is in feeling good about yourself and in having confidence in yourself. Plus it's often very difficult for us to really see ourselves. Then too, bear in mind the word "personality" stems from the root word "persona," which means mask. And that's exactly what a personality is, a mask. So the fact that you don't see one may actually be an indication of a certain amount of enlightment and understanding on your part. Maybe you just instinctively recognize the inherent bullshit and falseness and dishonesty and illusion of it, and therefore it's just kind of invisible to you. Seriously, homie, just try to always remember to look within yourself at all times and to be as honest as you can whenever you speak or act. Good people will fucking love you and respect you, and they'll see you as someone with the ultimate form of personality.

>>12002038
>http://www.anxietybustersblog.com/?p=344

thanks man, that was exactly what I needed to read. Tired mind describes my state perfectly right now

>>12002854
Istp master race

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Kinda similar, grew up going to schools 45 mins away where everyone was always really cliquey(all the parents hung out too) so I only had a few friends.

Overly dry sense of humor that can get kind of harsh I guess, people that don't know me very well say I can be unreadable and think I'm serious when I'm practically never serious. Friends get it though(usually) so that's good. Narcissistic. Stoic as fuck, trying to show emotion/affection feels forced and makes me feel very uncomfortable, thinking emotionally doesn't make any sense to me, I probably have asperger's. Disappear from my social circle for weeks at a time whenever I find something new to be obsessed by. Stay up way too late all the time, cannot get myself to go to bed until I can literally not stay awake any longer. Really good at logic based things though so I guess I have that going for me, I just wish I could figure people out.

>>11996875
>post like i have a pretty bangin personality
this has to be a joke

>>12000393
You're one dimensional my man.

What a pathetic thread

>>12003730
you sound like me minus the highschool being cliquey mine was forced inclusion due to a heavy no bully policy

>>12001252
I only did intro philosophy for a gen ed. It's interesting enough and it definitely validates a lot of thoughts I've had before but it really feels pointless. It's fun to think through some of the problems but it's really kind of a bullshit class especially when there are 2 kids in my class who won't shut the fuck up even though they have no articulate ideas or useful dialogue.

not worth to start smoking pot

>>12000393
I hope all these people telling you this gives you a wake up call because I know exactly what kind of person you are and honestly, your type is the most annoying person to deal with because there's no ounce of self-reflection whatsoever.

>>12002854
>not INFJ
INFP is just the pussy, wishy-washy version of INFJ.

>>12003730
that's 100% me

>>12005068
You're all inferior to my INTP eyes

Is it just me or do all of the best conversations happen over a beer and a cigarette?

>>12006055
nope, alcohol loosens inhibitions so your less likely to filter out all your thoughts and others are less likely to judge and comment if they are drinking as well.

I've gotten pretty introspective as to why my personality is the way it is.

as a kid (age 6)
> first grade. parents divorced at 5. was living with my mom.
>A couple of older boys (dont remember by how much) held me down and sucked my wiener. I just wanted to go home.
>one of the boys told everyone for some reason. all the kids at my bus stop made fun of me for being gay
>made fun of until i moved away

That basically explains my fucked up social development all through school. Even after i moved away like 2 years later I still was incredibly shy around most people. was generally afraid to have any personality out of fear of being ridiculed.

as an adult (21)
>pretty quiet around strangers aside from being good at generic small talk
>pretty goofy around the people i love.
>one of my oldest friends told me i was the"funny guy" of our group of friends. even though I feel like all i do to be "funny" is just point things out
>not conventionally attractive by any means, girlfriend tells me i'm hot
>play 4 instruments. Don't really mention it to anyone. only close friends know about my hobbies.
>generally pretty calm. even if i'm screaming internally.

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OP here, thanks for the (OP)s and the input
On a side note I've realized that this feeling has is slightly less prominent irl then I thought.
Its been there forever, but I just dont speak as often anymore, seem stoic, and that way i cant regret anything I say because I haven't said it
Even online tho, ill type out a response or a reply in a thread, and delete it after a line because i realize no one cares what I have to say.

I'd say it feelsworseman, but its just the internet

on a lighter note, almost the /comfiest/ time of year

>>12006230
Are you me?
>dad molested me at age 4-5ish
>parents divorced because dad realized he was gay
>im quiet and maintain a stoic vibe
>anyone that really knows me knows how goofy I can get

>>11996875

Kind of unrelated, but are mohawks /fa/shionable? I have an M65 jacket and have always wanted to pull a travis look but I'm afraid i'll look like a goof with the mohawk

I'm usually really anxious and don't want to talk to people. But if someone approaches me I don't want to look like an asshole so I act really friendly even if I don't mean it. I think it comes off very fake but I can't control it. People probably think I'm hitting on them. I'm pretty sure my coworkers think I'm either retarded or gay. How do I stop this?

>>11997056
Id cop that coat in a heartbeat.

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Sensitive, charismatic, and incredibly reserved. I try to manipulate/persuade people for the better.
>Pic Related
One of the few characters or people I would consider a role model. Came from shit and learned how to lead her life with positivity.

>>11997848
You saw through the old lies you sold yourself. Now you can build a much more stable (and intentional) persona.

>knowing yourself
Waste of time desu.