(Creepy) Black Hair

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I'm upset that everyone seems to shun me for being so creepy, from high school on.

>>6996522
you sound edgy, childish and autistic tbqh

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>>6996549
I was afraid of that... that's the other impression most people seem to get from me.

But I really don't care to shock anyone; I prefer to be alone and hardly care what people think of my character, only about my work.

If I really do have a history of trauma, would I still be considered stylistically edgy and childish?

You sound attractive to me, to bad we never met.

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>>6996522
yo anon
I'm going to sleep
but you seem like you could use a friend
http://steamcommunity.com/id/minty-paws/

hit me up some time if you want some one to talk too

>>6996522
>>>/Adv/
None of these pictures are /d/ related.

>>6996843


This one is:

>>6996551

We need more like this. Maybe some cute ghouls and japanese "hair" ghosts.

I have obviously made a mistake. Let the thread die. Sorry to bother.

>>6996522
if you post a pic to prove youre not a retarded 12 year old id talk to you, im in a similar situation and it could be nice.

If people are afraid of you when you enter a room, they are judgemental and not worth your time. If others throw names and negativity at you, then thank god you are not their friend. This is what i learned. My friends are few but worth the world in diamonds to me. It took a lot of time to open up myself, risking of being "hurt" just to find them. But they are worth the hurt and risk.

get a haircut, put on some khakis and a polo, and stop being so dramatic. it wasn't the job for you. and if you have trauma go get therapy for it.

but you knew all that already.

>>6996522

Um, what exactly were you expelled for?

And why were they afraid of you? Did they see that long haired guy in his frilly victorian shirt glaring at them and fear what he might do?

>>6997387


No one likes fucking khakis.

>>6996522
stop trying to catfish yanderefags. you're too obvious

>>6996522
come on OP you gotta post a pic!

I promise to masturbate to it regardless.

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*bzzt*

CLEAR!

*thump*

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>>6998001
>she's fading fast doctor!

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>>6998071
*bzzt*

don't die on me now you son of a bitch!

*thump*

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>>6998073
>try it again doctor!

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>>6998075
*bzzt*

LIVE! DAMN YOU LIVE!

*thump*

>>6996522
Asian, long black hair, 2 of the 5 things I need to find you attractive, all you need is either nice legs, bubble butt, or pretty face, 1 of those 3 and you're great

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>>6997387
Or maybe some clothing that someone with GOOD taste would wear. But yeah, best advice would be to find a way back on your feet the best you can, and seek help when you can.
Also, contributing

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>>6996522
>So... do I sound attractive to anyone?

yep!

You sound really attractive, but shit you also sound really hurt. I saw another anon post contact info so I guess I'll toss out a throwaway email. Contact me if you need someone to talk to.

>>6996522
3 feet of trauma?

>>7001067
Kinda wondered when I'd stumble upon TEW porn on /d/.

Literally no one cares about your blogshit faggot.
>>>/tumblr/

Strange, this is actually one of my primary fetishes, but I didn't think it was "strange" enough to be considered /d/ material. Digging the thread so far though, good work OP.

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https://nhentai.net/g/172133/

>>7004447
thats good work anon.

>>6996522
Sounds fine to me :V

At this point it seems like you left a long time ago, so I don't see any reason to leave contact info, but if you're still around you should leave some kind of throwaway contact info

>>6997400
kek

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>>6998077
>>6998075
>>6998073
>>6998071
>>6998001

Kek. My brain made the chest panel sounds and everything. Even the whiney recharge sound. Thanks for the light chuckle.

Hopefully pic counts towards thread theme. If not feck. I tried.

>>7005233
Thank you, but I see now that I should never have made the thread. I'll be alright. Go on and let the thread die. Sorry to waste everyone's time.

>>7005479
who doesnt love filthy Tomo

If you are still around, I'll shoot out some contact info.

>>6996522
you have an email?

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>>6996522
OP seems like a pretty cool chick. There are people out there who will dig you pretty good.

I already got a black haired waifu: it's not impossible. Just need to help with confidence and trusting someone.

Posting epitome of creepy girls with black hair.

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Don't worry, OP. You sound absolutely adorable.
I would breed you daily

Alright, I feel bad having asked for consolation and then run off, even though I should never have asked in the first place. I appreciate the support I've gotten, and will open up as far as my steam profile. Just understand that as an introvert, I will not be opening up daily chats with everyone; I'm just trying new things and finally opening my friends list up to strangers; I've taken that word too literally, "friends' list." But you might catch me on mic sometimes, open for casual conversation.

Here is my steam profile: http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198037745413

>>7006157
aww OP we're gunna have fun in TF2!

it feels nice to know that a female has given up as much as i have
maybe there is hope afterall

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whats your ideal partner op?

>>7006157
tf2 is a cool game.

Hey the 22 year old chinese...I would like to know you better...
rogar666 is my Skype I don't have a fb...I want to talk with you

>>6996522
And I'm Gordon Ramsay

>>6996522
Desperate virgins believe this

>>7005480
Yes, because you're a retarded attentionwhoring cunt.
You're a vapid self-absorbed melodramatic pain in the ass.

No, your life is not as bad as you want it to be.
If people are consistently afraid of you, then guess what? The problem isn't everyone else. It's you being a stupid melodramatic idiot.

Nobody just "has" friends. They were not born lucky. Stop envying other people. It takes hard work.

Something you wouldn't know, since you're a petulant child.

>>7006215
Why is that png artifacted like a gif?

>>7007059
Nope. Just playing along.

>>7009307
>Why is that png artifacted?

FTFY

>>6996522
You sound appealing, or at the very least interesting.

would be too intimidated to actually approach but fantasize of doing so/10

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>long black hair thread on /d/
Never expected to see this day, maybe because it isn't really "alternative" at all.

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You sound pretty attractive enough OP.

>>6996522
Male or female?

Female might be cute. Be open with your personality in public and you might have nice people come up to you.

>>7010641
http://nhentai.net/g/125571/

SCANSLATION FUCKING WHERE?!

>>7006215
Since when is she creepy?

I remember a really awesome doujin about some creepy and chunky girl, who turns out to be chtulhus grandchild or something. Anyone know how to efficiently search for that kinda stuff?

>>6996522
For the love of god post pics of yourself in uniform

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>I'm a 22 year old Chinese with a hair as long as my history of trauma, over 3 feet long.

That sounds absolutely adorable.

Weird that people seem to find you weird, but that's life. Hopefully you have some supportive friends to help you out OP.

I was totally interested until you said you cut your hair off for literally the most retarded non-reason ever.

If you have pictures when you actually had hair I'd love to jack off to them.

>>6996522
You neglected to specify your gender.

>>6996522
Qt

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>>7006157
well OP I don't know why you don't want to be friends anymore.

but...have a good one.

>>6996522
>new life couldnt afford it
last time I checked having hair is fre

>>6996522
>>6996535
Black hair + pale white skin is a top tier combination.

>>7006157

Tf2 is cool, been playing it for years. Id be glad to have someone to play with if you ever get back to playing. Theres always someone out there for you .

>>6996522
Dark haired women with scars are my fetish

>>7020046
What scars?

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>>7014458
Over three feet of trauma.

For you, not them.

up

>>6996522
If you are half as attractive, as I imagine you are I would most certainly have you as my lover. Shame you are so far away.

Ps.: It is really hard to scare me :)

>>6996522
from that description, you're literally my fetish
pics?

>>6996522
>am I attractive?
>doesn't post pictures

???????

up

You basically say that you don't really have your life together at the moment, have low self esteem, lots of scars, a history of trauma, and that many people find you creepy. None of these things are widely regarded as attractive traits.

This in no way means you're an unattractive person however, as you do not have to be defined by those things. You've just not provided much about yourself that people might find attractive, including omitting your gender and other aspects of your appearance, and have included a number of negative traits.

You're a Chinese person of unknown gender, likely a bit kinky as you're on /d/. with some fairly normal fantasies and an interest in military and early 20th century clothing. I'm sure there's a lot more to you that people would like, and I'd try not to be so focused on the negatives. Hopefully someone you've got chatting to from here will give you the human contact you wanted from this thread

>>6996522
>people are so desperate they don't instantly realize this is either a joke, a quote, or fictional roleplaying by the time it reached "I cut off my hair because my new life couldn't afford it. A mark of my disgrace."
lol

>>6996522
Women with black hair are my favorite, specially if the hair is long.

>>7005480
Stop putting yourself down, anon. I know it comes from a place of insecurity and you're not looking for compliments, but most people interpret it as the latter. Besides, if you constantly say negative things about yourself, other people will start to think they're true. You don't have to constantly compliment yourself, just take it easy on hating yourself so publicly. It also helps you feel better not to dwell on those thoughts too much.

And you're not wasting anybody's time. We're on 4chan for crying out loud.

>>7015102
Not OP, but I grew up with two sisters. Female hygiene products are WAY more expensive than their male counterparts. Longer hair = more product. I can't imagine how much shampoo you need to wash 3 feet of hair.

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>>7028982
They're more expensive, because unlike the male products, they're actually higher quality. Most shit men buy are just worse quality in general. If you don't care about more abrasive products or the scents, just buy the male shampoos/deodorants and save the cash. You can't do anything about the products only women can actually use though.

http://imgur.com/a/jAcVt

The last picture is a map of scars.

Thank you, kind /d/eviants. The negative posts did hurt, but the nice ones helped. I'm doing my best to pick up the broken pieces and hang on to my dreams of being a mother, if not the next Kojima.

And to the people who added me on steam and then I removed, sorry. Things were fun for a while, I was really opening up, but I need to shut down again. Life got worse and I need to go back to the attitude I had 6 years ago, knuckles in the dirt, doing what I have to do.

>>7029213
Cute, would pet your head.

>>7028982
I'm also living with my abusive father again.

You sound pretty hot. Feel kind of bad for thinking that, desu... but yeah, I found reading your self-description pretty arousing. You sound pretty (asian w/ long hair and neat dress sense), and you're definitely unique. Maybe not unique in a terribly healthy way, but if we were only attracted to the healthy we'd be a much smaller species.

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all this emotional support is making my heart cum.

>>7029213
see OP I knew you'd be hot.

I'll admit I miss playing TF2 with you and you didn't have to cut me out but I guess you had your reasons.

and hey if you don't mind how DID you get those scars?

>>7029213
Super cute, love the hair. My wife is Viet. And has hair like yours and I love it. She says your Hot and wants to do ya. Best of luck with all your personal affairs, the /d/ community will be here for you.

>>7029305
Same my G

>>7029220
This breaks my fucking heart. I'm actually tearing up. I'm so sorry your life has taken a turn for the worst. I'm sure it'll get better, and I believe in you.

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>>7029213
To be quite honest, those look like cool badass battle scars, like I beat up bears FOR FUN. I would gladly be your friend on steam.

>>7029213
Oh hey, I remember you from /fa/

I'm a chinese guy with hair down to my ass.

Your hair was great, sad to hear it's gone

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Hm. Not creepy, but I like it. https://hitomi.la/reader/953675.html#1
Sometimes I feel my hair really is (or was) a manifestation of my emotions, alive, reaching out, consuming me. Millia Rage. I'm not afraid of Sadako; I am Sadako. Wait till I tell my kids that. I'm on the rush to regrow my hair.

>>7029321
Quite the commander aren't I? Agent Red Hen, looking out for her chicks. I feel cleaner, safer, and more efficient with as few connections as possible. It was unnecessary to remove everyone; consider it one of my psychological ticks.

I started at age 14. Now, I want to cut when I'm happy. I'm struggling between my addiction and having to enter the workforce.

>>7029222
I'm an INTJ personality. I take command, but long for an authority earning my loyalty. I give my full effort to the mission, making a game, capturing a position. I watch documentaries, tutorials, film analysis, game analysis, culture/history/philosophy, anything that'll help game making. I collect skills, morse code, lie detection, bits of German and Japanese. I sew. i run silently on my toes for miles, pick up bits of martial arts. Swim like a mermaid. Do the splits. My casual wardrobe resembles a costume wardrobe; I can put together loose cosplays.

I tire of leaving my room with an invisible bayonet behind my waist, so in bed, I'm extremely submissive and get off to my shame. Tear my uniform open. Hike up my skirt. Electrocute me. Tie me up in my own hair. Grab a fistful of my breast, clutch my heart. Mission failed, you disgusting freak.

I've got another fantasy of finding a good job with on-site standardized housing; I've gotten too used to living in facilities rather than homes. maybe I'll get adopted by my boss. Maybe I'll love a colleague and start a family with my new organization. But then I'd be the boss's daughter... Diamond Dogs!

By the way, how do you find new content to post here? Where?

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https://hitomi.la/reader/946144.html#7

>>7029474
>It was unnecessary to remove everyone; consider it one of my psychological ticks.

well I hope you'll reconsider and we can play together again.

>>6996522
read stirner

>>7029213

That is adorable.

>>7029474

I find 90% of my stuff on pixiv, or sadpanda´s pixiv dumps.

>>6996522
Honestly, as long as you're not like 250+ lbs guys will go out of their way for you.

I've dated a lot of girls with messed up pasts, trauma, and scars. It doesn't really mess with us guys unless it messes with you, then we know you're uncomfortable and we're not sure what to do. Scars for instance, I had a girl I dated who had terrible burns on the right side of her body from an oil fryer. She couldn't physically get close with me because she was afraid of rejection.

And do you mean you couldn't afford the upkeep of your hair, that sucks pretty damn bad.

>>6996522
I absolutely love goth girls with creepy spooky black hair. They make my dick diamonds.

>>7029474
>I've got another fantasy of finding a good job with on-site standardized housing; I've gotten too used to living in facilities rather than homes. maybe I'll get adopted by my boss. Maybe I'll love a colleague and start a family with my new organization. But then I'd be the boss's daughter... Diamond Dogs!

I've been looking for you for a long time. Wish you were accepting adds still. I've got a story to tell you from when I was 14.

And you sound like you'd enjoy coming to develop efficiency on some of the shooters I hobby on. I grew up with Kojima as a role model.

up

I just sent you a friend request on steam. Like I can't really play anything at the moment, but i'll be around to talk about whatever if needed.

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>creepiest creeps 4 yu

>>6997393
I like khakis

hey OP, you look cute, your skin and hair are beautiful. Those scars looks painful tho and your eyes are filled with sadness, i really hope in some moment in your life you find something to make you happier.

>>6996522
If you wanna talk send an email to armyamy321@gmail

>this entire thread
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CUe4j6S8aIE

>>7034906
Why the abnormally long digits?

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Kuchisake-Onna is another character I feel somewhat akin to. I didn't discover her until after I placed my half glasgow smile, which I have for reasons. Sometimes I fantasize about running away to Japan, starting a new life in a country whose reputation is peaceful, old, new, serene, and deviant. I wonder how the locals would react. I've got a long black army trench coat and a black surgical mask too. And my hair will return.... I will return.... On an unrelated note, I mentioned that I'm struggling with my addiction to cutting. I'd really like to split my cheek open. All of my scars have already been done several times over in the same places. This big cut could be my last one, if I am allowed.

Boy am I insane... on the bus today, I couldn't stop thinking about stabbing people in the throat hard enough to break their necks. I won't; this is just my mind's frantic response in the face of stress.

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If you don't mind a creeper character, here's one about Sadako
https://hitomi.la/reader/536488.html#2

There's one about Kuchisake Onna, but it's guro... and combat. I don't know why this is filed under doujin.
https://hitomi.la/galleries/146044.html

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>>7037704
Those scars are SELF-INFLICTED?

>>7037704
OP it sounds like you live in China.

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creepy enough?

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>>7037816
...yesshhh... Would it have been better if someone else had done them to me? The /d/arklings in the burn scars thread say yes. I feel pretty normal and blessed compared to most horrible rape and abuse stories, but this is one thing that tells me how insane, stupid, or weak I am.

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>>7037832
"You wanna know how I got these scars?"

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>>7037832
>Would it have been better if someone else had done them to me?

y-yeah a little bit.

>I feel pretty normal and blessed compared to most horrible rape and abuse stories

attacking yourself...against every animal instinct...like a human manifestation of an autoimmune disease.

oh god...That picture of you with a bloody cheek isn't make up.

Lucy. come on.

>>7029213
Wow, you look cool. Blood makes me sick so one of the images....

>>7037934
>tfw blood is super hot to me but nobody ever seems to agree

>>7037982

I getcha. Most people think it tastes like metal.

First blood I ever tasted was my own, tasted like strawberries to me. Little did small 8y old me know that was the start of my degeneracy

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>>7038299
Whee! Yeah, I love blood, everything about it. Not necessarily sexually, but I'm sure I wouldn't mind if I had sex covered in it, except for when it dries.

>>7037863
Am I sounding less attractive, /d/arklings? I could tell you a lot more to make it worse, as part of the thread's original topic, seeing who could possibly find me attractive. I've been learning that fantasy is quite different from reality. Creepy girls, Yanderes, Tsunderes, hurt girls, monsters, rape fantasies, they're all a decorated stage hiding what a person really wants. Real life depressed people and monsters are unpleasant.

(This post may sound like an aggressive retort, but I mean it in a completely honest and friendly way. I think people like the romance of a depressed little monster, but reality differs. In any case, I wish you all well and hope you find what you're looking for, even if it is a fantasy depressed monster.)

>>7038353

Most of us, or atleast a great deal of us, are here bc we dont fit in. like that.

I´m about as machoistic as it gets, Love getting hit, in the right places atleast. Last girlfriend did not agree to that at all and I just couldnt satisfy her if she couldnt satisfy me.

I still pass her by. We just wave / nod and go by our day.

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>>7038353
>Am I sounding less attractive, /d/arklings?

Nope. Not to me, anyway. I've got a thing for blood and creepy girls, and I must be a little nuts for unironically liking yandere.

>>7038353
>Am I sounding less attractive, /d/arklings?

Not really. You only have to spend 5 minutes on liveleak to see states of human condition far worse than you carving yourself up and real, practiced monsters. You should put your nature to use in obsessively taking care of the people close to you or the things you're interested in. Sounds like you just need a fire lit in you so you can burn some of that destructive desire as fuel for something greater, like that encased beauty and the beast unit.

>I'm an INTJ personality. I take command, but long for an authority earning my loyalty. I give my full effort to the mission.. etc etc.

I'm exactly the same, but have no desire to self harm except through driving myself too hard and direct the energy into the above. Also INTJ.

It's a shame you weren't accepting adds still. Would you atleast be willing to set up an email to collect correspondence from people at your own pace, isolated as you like? I understand the need fully.

If not, I'll keep an eye on your steam until you've taken down the notice of seperating yourself from others.

>>7004447
Amazing, wish I had a cute stalker girl

>>7038353
I find your auto-destructive desires (if I may call them that) attractive. See, I'm not really so much of a traumatized person and I belive I live a pretty normal life, but I have been raped by my cousin when I was a child. Don't know if caused by this, I'm really sadic. Not that I enjoy domination or bdsm relations, I enjoy causing pain or suffering on people. Seeing people getting hurt (blood is a +) really turns me on, and the willingly hurting of oneself is also appealing.
So I find you attractive.
Now, if I may, could I ask what is your relation with pain? How you deal with it, how you feel about having it inflicted on yourself by other, how you feel about inflicting it in others, etc etc.

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The character here is from Hokago Play, a series of comedy strips about an exceedingly tsundere girlfriend playing video games with her boyfriend. Hokago Play is not drawn like here.

>>7038988
Dolor Temperat, if google translate serves me well. Pain Tempers. If we believe that Rocky speech, strength is the ability to take pain. We take pain so that we can get stronger so that we can take more pain, because life is all about an uphill struggle against pain. It also teaches us what pain feels like and why we need to help other people with their pain. Pain tempers, but it can also make us brittle. It made me brittle, like a hardened spear of charcoal.

I like pain. I think. I've had a few periods of my life where I went started to go frantic and ended up making myself a lot worse thanks to life being too peaceful, getting too good. I felt stupid, dull. I felt like I wasn't my normal self. Pain had become part of my identity, and I didn't feel like my normal self when I wasn't battling depression with a dark needle insight that I could contribute to missions/projects.

Of course, pain still hurts. This philosophy may all be a desperate attempt to make my pain okay. After all, I masturbate to shame, rape, torture, domination fantasies.

I am very upset. I lust for revenge. I think I have the capacity for cruelty. But in the chaotic fight between good and evil on Earth, I'll choose to fight for good, if they'll let me. I'll save people, help their pain, even if resentfully.

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This character is Shanoa. Emotionless protagonist of Order of Ecclesia. She lifts up her hair from her backless dress to absorb things into her back. Like the girl from Hokago Play, she has among the longest hair of the characters in this thread.

I'm feeling reckless. I'll open up more.
I'm also transgender. I'm a disgusting hybrid freak, infertile, whose skeleton is designed for destruction. My father taught me to torture animals as a child, and I did for a long time, thinking it was a good thing to do. There was a point where I enjoyed it. I ran away from my father at 17 and had the freedom to consider what I wanted. I transitioned. During this transition, someone emerged.

3 people live in my head. A boy, energetic, creative, a troubled dreamer. A man resigned to suffer, focusing on work, feeling little more than anger and depression. When I discovered I was transgender, a new character emerged. This new girl is struggling at the wheel. She wants to live, wants to be better, wants to have children, she likes animals and doesn't want to hurt them. But recent events have her considering the whispers from the man in the passenger seat.

Crazy enough? With each post, thank you, /d/arklings, for your ears, your counsel. I know this board is not meant for this. I don't have very many people to talk to, nor that I can trust. After 8 years of therapy, I don't feel like I can trust therapists anymore. I'm now battling an overwhelming urge to cut my face open. I want to be pretty. I want to look how I really look, which is ugly. I don't want to stop, but the world is forcing me to. I don't know what to do. Meanwhile, I'm struggling to piece together my career and hopes and dreams.

>>7039262
Damn, I wish I could hug you and support you in some way.

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Heh. Actually, they had me play the part of Sadako at a school event.

You're pretty cute, OP.

I'm curious, why cut yourself?

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>>7038942
As I'm still scrambling to piece my life back together, I think it would help me to remain isolated and clean. Maybe one day, once I've got everything together, I'll make another thread, but by then I may be more stable and self-sufficient. Or maybe just stable. Again, sorry. I could collect emails and steam friends and just let them be for now, but it disturbs my sense of cleanliness.

>>7029213
HOLY SHIT DUDE! You should do cosplay

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>>7029213
A-are you male for female?

>>7039618
Make this a second person who is still very interested in talking. I was one of the ones your removed and if anything I'm more attracted to the idea of getting to know you now

up

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Hachishaku Hachiwa Keraku Meguri: Igyou Kaikitan The Animation is being done by Pink Pineapple

>>6996557
Yes. You are gay as fuck, nigga. Sage.

>>7007009
Rice nigger

>>7041494
Holy shit, I read that doujin years ago

>>6996522
OP is an attention whoring fag and is playing everyone like a god damn fiddle trying to get sympy points.

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>>7042583
It's very obvious, but there's no need to bump the thread because of it.

>I don't actually need to masturbate. I'm just hoping that this topic might turn you on. I don't know how to find content, so I'll do my best to post arousing stuff.

my dick is now diamonds. but the soft, tiny diamonds.

You seem nice enough to me so don't get yourself down.

>>7037060
Crystals

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>>7037704
>>7037832

im pretty late to the thread and ive never been great with words, but i understand at least a little bit about how you're feeling.
ive got multiple scars on my body for the same reason, mostly on my legs and big ones on my shoulders.
i never really had a good reason for it, at first i just felt i deserved it and then i started enjoying it, and i wont stop.
every day i look at my scars and regret them, but thinking about it makes me realize that people don't really care too much. it's different to have scars, but it's nothing bad.

the scars look adorable on you, and i hate the idea of anyone feeling bad over the scars they have. dont think you have to make threads like this, because people are gonna try to support you for the wrong reasons.
im not really looking for any romance, but if OP or anyone with the same thing going on wants to talk, you can contact my email

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>>7001067
>>7001768
I found a pic of Juli in the anal gaping thread here
but yeah, surprising there's like. NO evil within art on here. a damn shame

laura is my girl and she needs more love

>>7029213
Definitely waifu-material. I wish you strength to survive through your hardships.

>>6996522
Your interesting at least anon. Granted sometimes its hard to arouse me. But dtill interesting. Creepy is fun.

>>6996522
Hey anon, i am interested in speaking to you. You seem like a strange person and I like that. I enjoy peculiar people. Would you mond meeting in a discord server sometime? Text or voice works.

https://discord.gg/mTF2H

Ima just drop this here. If we meet we meet. I surely hope we can. Honestly I find your mind very alluring. I hope we can at least speak some.

>>7029213
Would waifu after getting to know (Y)

>>7042583
it's okay because she's cute and strikes a certain chord with me

>>7046340
OP wont visit you she just wants attention

I just came here to scroll up and fap to creepy long haired creeps because they look slightly monstrous yet loving in an abusive way. Read after the third scroll, and what a surprise.

OP i'm glad you exist i won't try to meet or talk or woo you or any stupid thing normies do. Knowing you are out there is enough, stalking the streets, being creepy and slightly monstrous. I like looking over my shoulder with fear yet arousal.

>>7048050
>>7048050
Drink blechk ples tanv mch

>>7048399
hes got the right idea though

>>6996522
Ok OP, it's late and I can't sleep so I'll be frank with you. Yes you sound attractive. You also sound like a project. Clearly you may have some issues but the point is to carry on. Who gives a fuck what people think of them. Yes, it feels good in the moment but it's all fleeting. You need to focus on what makes you happy.

So what's that going to be? What is it that makes you happy, even if for a moment. Then grow that thought into something actionable. Yeah this is all shit you could be told while one of us took you out, but we're not on a date OP... We're on a Mongolian webweavers forum. Why is that? Because none of us have figured out where we're going. Keep on moving OP. Don't get bogged down

OP I wish you all the best in your dreams. You're very pretty and I would definitely cuddle with you. Please come back around sometime.

>>6996522
OP, if you're reading this, I'd like you to know that long hair is my thing.
Girls with low self esteem, doubly so.
If I ever meet you walking down the street, I will insist on buying you a coffee.
If you act creepy, I'll just laugh it off.
What I'm trying to say is, OP, if I ever find you, I will do my damnedest to get into your pants so prepare yourself.
One day I will find you.

>>7045590
They misspelled reborn.

>>7029213
You look really pretty, anon.

>>6996522
>long black hair
>pale skin
>victorian style dresses
>scars

Total qt3.14, any contact info?

>>7039618
Personally, I found that finding friends who would reliably call me on my bullshit, and pull me outta my comfort zone... made me uncomfortable and annoyed and it's what I needed to make peace with depression and such.

Different folks need different things, but it sounds like you're a more productive person than I am... so do whatever works. Just... don't let duty or obligation consume you.

ALSO! very important! make time for therapy if clarity of thought is a goal. find a therapist that works with you and stuff.

>>6996522
I'd be sexually attracted to you. Emotional attraction would depend on other things. Cuddling would be fine, though. I don't mind holding you and making you feel loved for hours on end.

>>7051513
Yeah Engrish

I looked at this thread once a while ago, and ignored it because I'm not good at talking to people. But I guess I'll give it the old college try. Sexual attraction means a good deal to me, and you are attractive.

I don't think that means much though without getting to know a person. I have my own collection of scars, but they weren't exactly given to me with my will. I have gotten enough uncomfortable looks to sometimes regret what I had to go through to get them. That said, this guy
>>7051939
is right, if your goal is to be happy. It took a long time to pull my head out of my ass when I was younger, but I had the best friend anyone could ever ask for help me, and it really made a difference. So, good luck.

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>>7039618
>>7039230
I'm the post you replied to here.

I'll keep trying to get a hold of you, now and again (I'm the one with the V name). Doubt you come back in here but I'd like to test that mettle you're talking about on some games, capture some hills, back to back. Anything else is a bonus.

It's a shame, because I keep my life ordered the same, same isolation and cleanliness, INTJ etc. So I understand how hard it's going to be to try and break in to that bunker.

If you're still passing through, I'll leave you an email, I'd like to talk to you, back and fourth, at your own pace.

[email protected]

You sound like a real cutie.

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Time to stop mewling for attention and get back to work, Anon.