al/ck - Alcoholic General

>>9361884
did he died?

>>9361920
He was back in the hospital at some point. Hasn't been heard of in a while.

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>>9361884

Bout to crack open a 6 pack of pic related

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>>9361884
Floor anon here
I was gonna end it all today, had the rope set up
Found my old stash of mandy whilst already drunk though so now I'm pretty happy to put an hero off fory now forgot how great music is in this
How is everyone else

>>9361938
What's mandy?

>>9361968
Mdma

Drank last night and got really depressed and woke up screaming at 5am
life sucks but its getting better

>>9362004
Why were you screaming?

>>9362035
Had a nightmare about foreclosing my home witch is very possible right now for me

>>9361990
Kek, I thought you found some VHC tapes of an obscure TV show or something that reminded you of a better past so you're curling up with a blanket and watching it, hence the pic.

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>>9362068
Sorry to hear than man, I'm pretty off my head right now but I'm trying to send a Bro hug telepathically
I hope things work out for you my man

>>9362080
Haha well your half right fella

>Drown my last drink
>Rush to bed to fall asleep while still buzzed
>Didn't
>Now stuck awake for 9 hours unbuzzed until I get alc

>>9362153
Know that feel

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Can weed cure alcoholism?

>>9362170
No but LSD can

>>9362170
When I used to smoke I always had to drink or take a pill with it, the one thing was never enough. Guess that's the addict in me. Anyways yeah it can, if you're not so far gone that you become addicted to anything that even slightly numbs the pain of living life.

>>9362170
IDK. I don't enjoy feeling high so it's not a viable replacement for me.
But the past few times I smoked it I had a lot of introspective thoughts about myself. Made me feel ashamed and that I'm a fucking terrible person, which has successfully made me almost completely stop drinking.

>>9362176

This is correct (kind of)

>>9362170
Yes. I switched from booze to pot a year ago.
I'm still addicted, it makes me an idiot, but there's no terrible withdrawals, I can do shit during the day before I smoke, and it's relatively easy to stop.

>>9362228
i was like them for a while
smoked so much,
nack in the bottle now though, feel like a lost cause atm.
started AA again.....

whats up guys, checking in and about to crack the first drink of the day.

>>9362240
hello
im on a mix of booze, and other substances
things are getting weird in my head
how are you?

>>9362251
Doing alright, I had a really good day at work, didn't have any alcohol the whole time I was there.

How are you?

>>9362268
im happy you had a good day friendo
i was really sad before i starteddrinking etc after work. it was kinda nice working in the nive weather yhough. i have a couple of days off now and i intend to take whatever i have left drug wise before i go to hospital, out of booze now and im gonna do my best to stop and not buy more.

I ain't no alcoholic and i was just browsing the catalog when i saw this thread but i just wanted to say keep up your efforts guys, whatever is it that put you in this situation you can get out of it.

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>>9362298
Thanks senpai.

>>9362284
>before i go to hospital

You ok man? Sounds like you've got some serious issues going on. I hope you get better quickly

>>9362305
i dunno senpai im going for a biospy/scans and stuff related to that, dunno what will happen but im pretty uneasy about it. bad experiemces in hospital whe n i was young and cutting loads makes me never want to go to a hospital again

>>9362298
thanks man, ill try to keep my motivation high

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The drinking was making me fat so I have cut what calories I could by no longer eating. Just cheap wine now.

>>9362320
Well for what its worth I hope it goes well. One of those shitty life experiences

onto drink numbero deuce

>>9362362
cheers senpai
ill join ya on another drink

You think collegues could tell if I went for a couple drinks at the pub during my lunch break?

>>9362393
Yes.
You're not as good as hiding it as you think. Just like the rest of us.

alcohol doesn't even make me feel happy just less sad.only time i ever felt happy was when i got high on adderall but the withdraw was not worth it.

>>9362393
they will figure it ut

>>9362419
im similar
itsa sad state of aggirs

>>9362361
You know that's retarded, right?
Take multivitamins at least.

I hope you don't have an opiate tolerance, because it'll get painful.

>>9362414
>>9362432
Ah shit. Nevermind, won't bother then.

>>9362473
I'm planning on doing the same thing, fasting with amphetamines while getting some calories from alcohol and getting multivitamins + b1

>3 days sober
>have 0,5 L vodka left

Life is a bliss

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>>9362414
I like to think that I can hide being drunk after a few drinks.
But you're likely right

The problem is that people seem to like me more.

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Anyone out there? Getting drunk and making spaghetti, it's goin b gud.
I'm dreading cleaning my entire house tomorrow, but I offered someone a place to stay when passing through and they Calle do my bluff and are also bringing their fucking mom. Thank Christ it's recycling day tomorrow otherwise I would be fucked. I've been living in squalor.
At least I have sketti.

>>9363016
*called my bluff
Shiiid

>>9363016
Put on music or an audiobook and cleaning is fun.
I actually look forward to cleaning because it's an excuse to listen to my audiobook

>>9363005
Yes, they seem to like you more when you drink.

Just like the rest of us think that when we drink.

>>9363025
I mean I'm not THAT drunk
But they keep talking to me.
If they didn't like who they were talking to, they can just walk away

>>9363022
I actually have a SWEET home audio system and that's what I usually do.
Ever since I've picked up drinking a handle a day I've become one of those fags that just waits until it gets TOO bad and then marathon cleans everything. It's ruined my resolve.

>>9362068
I had a nightmare that my nephew ignored the meal I made for him and just ate all of my cheese, which is possible I guess. I don't know why it woke me up though.

>>9363061
I had a nightmare about my roommate being bobby shmurda and it was the weirdest fucking thing I've ever experienced.
It wasn't even a nightmare, like he and I were cool, he bought me a new car, but then his hood shenanigans started to become too much.
I woke up and remembered he was sentenced to 117 years in prison and then went back to my sweaty sheets.
https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=pBXniiEgmMk

>>9363061
>>9363081
Is having crazy dreams while sober a thing?
Because it keeps happening
>night before last
>dreamt I was a vampiress' thrall, but like willing, and it felt good to be fed upon. And then vampire hunters came and I had to defend my master
>last night
>lived on an ocean planet
>to go somewhere I had to dive underneath the sea with a waterscooter and go through these rings for a long time while underwater in the endless sea (I'm afraid of the ocean)
>same night different dream
>on this alien planet with my exploration buds
>come across an alien spacecraft
>it's full of xenomorphs
>there's one human survivor, a woman
>there's this alien escape pod that needs a specific requirement to launch
>keep dying in the dream trying to launch this pod, and that's like normal and part of the experience, the survivor has been dying for years trying to launch the pod
>figure out everyone needs to be unconscious to launch the pod
>release gas into the pod and try to fall asleep (while I'm dreaming) and hope the pod launchs

Then I woke up.
Nice blog, right?

The rum that I buy has a metal cap
If you grab it too hard it bends and you can't screw it on back right again

Fuck, I just did it

I don't know if this is a normal "style" of alcoholism or not but, i don't day drink, the day i start that i'm fucked, but i usually start around 7ish O'clock. But once I start I have about 4 shots back to back then about 4 more with in the next 25-35 minutes then I get comfy

>>9363135
That's kinda like my style.
Incidentally 7 o'clock is my "It's ok to drink" time too.
I wonder why they're both the same

Anyways, I do rum and cokes. Double shot. Starting out once every half hour and slowing to every hour for the next 5 or 6 hours.

>>9363099
From what I understand it's a symptom of minor withdrawals.
Any reformed people here that would care to chime in about when that shit stops? Not withdrawals entirely, just the manic dreams.

>>9363145
I kinda like those crazy dreams.
It gives me an excuse to sleep more on my sober days

Yeah its great, the only reason I even have a job is that I dont day drink and the only reason i dont do that is because deep down im afraid to die because i have problems with heart arrhythmias and my doctor told me to stop drinking but i never let up, so hopefully one night i drop dead.

>>9363147
I like them sometimes, but the real bitch is that I can only sleep for like 20 mins- an hour TOPS. So I have like 15 of them a night and can barely keep track, I have to get up and walk around to tell the difference between them and reality. They're so immersive.

>>9363187
I usually sleep the entire night through.
But I know the feeling of having reality blur.
Though that may be my own metal weakness
I remember when I was a teenager and perfect sober I thought my mom killed herself and believed it till morning.

Dreams can fuck you up

>>9363005
They don't like you more when you drink, it's a mind trick. What's actually happening is that alcohol makes you like THEM more. You probably interact more and since they respond to the interaction you think it's making people like you.

>>9363234
>What's actually happening is that alcohol makes you like THEM more.
This is true

But like I said, wouldn't they just... Walk away?
They often do when I'm sober

Hi al/ck/, so i recently started really starting to drink (up til this point I've been a bit spooked by it since my dad's side of the family has 2 generations of alcoholism and I've been going through a rough patch in my life this year, but I finally decided to get over my shit), I don't have more then 3 drinks a night, weather I go out or stay home, and I don't drink outside of weekends. I've found I'm not a big fan of beer but I do like bourbon and that vodka fucks me up pretty fast. I was wondering if you guys had any reccomendations for drinks I should give a try

>>9363240
They can sense that you like them more. People are really good at reading each other.

>>9363099

It means you're getting good sleep m8, when you drink until you black out your not getting REM sleep so you're not dreaming.

>>9363353
Is that why in my binge sober sober binge life that my sober nights I sleep hard and fast with lots of dreams?

>>9363315

Just mix vodka with Gatorade

>>9363359
I've tried this before
It tastes like SHIT

>>9363358

Yes

>>9363363

That's not the point

I'll put ~4 shots in a 28 oz bottle

>>9363376
Salt and booze just does not mix
It tastes so bad. Even if you fuck up the ratio.

>>9361938
aw nice

>>9362068
that story made me lol anon, cheer up anyway things could be worse

Visited my mormon grandma didn't drink for 3 days.
Now i got home and I'm getting very drunk tonight

>>9363359
This

>>9363099
Day 4 always results in horrific nightmares for me. Last about 4 days.

Then stop because I always relapse after <8 days.

>>9363315
quit now before you're aged 33 with liver cirrhosis, insomnia, an empty bank account and a house being foreclosed. Seriously. Quit while you can.

>>9363668
I made it to 23 without drinking
I wish I was just a square faggot who never drank
I mean the end would be the same
I'm alone with no friends
But if I never drank, I'd have so much more money

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Not one second of sleep for, uh, I'm too tired to remember how many nights. Still being pumped full of these "vitamins" which look like toxic waste, Still on a ward with a million other people, so no chance of dealing with the ferocious WD horniness, while surrounded by like 15 fit as fuck nurses. Still in WD even on 160mg of Librium daily. Two people have died within 15 feet of me in 24 hours, the lights are on 24/7, it's noisy as FUCK 24/7, I'm shitting blood 20 times a day even though I haven't eaten a damn thing, the shaking is so bad that I'm having to post using voice recognition while hiding in a toilet which has no lock, there's a suicidal junkie who keeps going batshit in the middle of the night and trying to kick doors down before being sedated and restrained, E V E R Y T H I N G hurts, there's no tv/radio here, my phone's data allowance is shit so you guys, with thumbnails hidden, is all the entertainment I've got and I've just been holding in a fart for two hours.
Nearly two more weeks of this.

GIVE ME ALCOHOL

>>9363752
Shit nigger
Get some sleep and tell someone to bring you paper books

>>9363752
>Mainlining vape juice
That's that good shit

>scraped by a rusty nail
At least ill be on painkillers in the hospital while dying of tetanus right
Faster than booze

>>9363767
>implying I have a 'someone'
Everyone I've ever known hates me because of my retarded booze problem. Either that or live hours from me. Nope, I'm simply screwed. Without these threads I think I'd simply jump out of a window, IV pipes and bags still attached - flowing behind me on the three-storey descent, still wearing nothing but a hospital gown and wrist tags, and run to the nearest booze shop before downing a litre on their doorstep.
It is conceivable that the shopkeeper might consider the possibility that I have a mild/moderate issue with alcohol.

Maybe I really shouldn't drink any more.

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>>9363016
>Went thru 2 mickey's 24 oz cans.
>Making super bomb pasta
>gf too sleepy to get up to try my pasta
> work at 2pm pst tomorrow so plenty of time to sober up
> mfw i got this tattoo recently to remind me about balance and moderation
Inb4: tattoos=degenerate

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>>9363803
Mfw i guess

Anyone heard from Smirnoff bro? It's Misha and I wonder if he's still alive.

>>9363803
What a gay tattoo

>>9363099
I usually have nightmares when withdrawing, and crazy dreams when starting sobriety. It takes a few weeks to go back to normal.
It's the brain adjusting new chemical balance.

>>9363752
>Nearly two more weeks of this.
Withdrawals shouldn't last this long, you'll feel better with less shakes and some sleep.
Keep it up bro.
I hope you find a way to have a wank.

>>9363927
>Misha
Who?
Looks like he went off the deep end again, last I heard he was back on 2-3 bottles a day and ordering drugs. This was a few days ago, haven't seen much of him since then

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>>9363937
Heres a (you)

>>9363752
Those are vit. B. The concentrated liquid is very yellow.

>>9363947
Oh I'm some girl he likes trying to do a welfare check

>>9363985
How do you know he posts here? Genuine question - can't imagine anyone talking about this place irl.

>>9363995
I was actually googling to do DMCA notices and got a hit from 4chan fell down the rabbit hole and recognised him

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>horrific, blood-curdling, true-terror SCREAMING coming from ward next to mine for like 15 mins last night
>toes curl imagining wtf she's detoxing from, the shit she's seeing, the fear she's feeling, the hell she's in
>starts again 20 mins ago, still screaming now, as if Satan himself is tearing her colon to shreds with a white hot, 40 inch devil dick
>ask nurse wtF is going on
>"nobody will take her outside so she can smoke a cig"

>>9363998
Oh dear, what did he do to you? Is his life really in as big a mess in reality as he makes out here?

>>9364004
Fucking pussy.

>>9364007
I don't know him IRL but I'd say it is

>>9364004
I worked in a hospital for a while, there are some fucking crazy people in there. You even saw people smoking through their tracheotomys while hooked up to oxygen tanks that were right next to them. And all the diabetics that wouldn't stop eating like shit and drinking soda slowly losing their legs and their sight but doing fuck all about it despite having plenty of opportunity to.

How are you doing anon?

>>9364011
Poor guy. Wonder when he will pop up again. Good luck in your search anyway

>>9364015
Thanks! If you see him first tell him to email that porn star

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7oday_Fc-Gc

>>9364012
>how doing?
I'll live I guess. Not sure I want to, but only because I'm so scared of relapse. I can handle the WD.
Fuck it's boring here though. Staring at the ceiling and refreshing al/ck/ is my life atm.

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>Tfw indian alcoholic

>>9364083
At least you're not from east Asia
https://www.healthxchange.sg/food-nutrition/food-tips/asian-flush-alcohol-red-face

>>9361884
>Remember Simpsonbro edition.
Guess there could be a lot of reasons why he's not posting. I mean he went pure yellow, was discharged from hosp, then his legs packed up and ended up straight back in hospital because of what I guess was alc-induced ataxia. Sounds like he was late-stage, lots of potential complications could be trolling him. No need to think he is definitely kil.

>>9364126
Agreed, remember when we all thought smirnoffbro was kill and he turned up again? Hopefully simpsonbro is recovering somewhere with no internet access

>>9364143
Bet a lot of anons who used to post are now laying dead in the ground, though. Legit sends a shiver down my spine.

I got drunk on ramazotti yesterday, worst decision of my life. It made me randomly throw up just because of its disgusting taste...

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>ramazzotti
WWWHHHHYYYYYYYYYYY

>The elevator effect when you're drinked and you close your eyes

jesus christ it's bizarre and at the same time fucking awesome

>>9363752
fuck sorry man. I'm feeling bad because I have to wait a couple hours to down some kratom and klonopin, then go on an overseas flight. Fuck, that's heaven compared to your situation.

Thanks for the perspective, and hope everything gets better for you soon.

>>9364147
Yeah it is a scary thought, I always wonder what the lives are like of all the anons I see in here. In a way it is interesting to see certain people and follow them, but as you say it makes you wonder who posts here and doesn't have a "name"

>>9361884
>simpsonbro
newfag here, who?

>>9364232
Dude who used to post here from hospital, totally rekt by jaundice and ataxia. Posted frequently then vanished with no explanation

Trying to wean my drinking. Had to have a couple sips of whiskey and Sprite to calm my nerves before work. I just ordered a vape because I lost my old one, hopefully I can just take a few hits of zero/low nicotine vape in the morning instead. Won't be here till next tho.

Just had the stomach flu yesterday and I'm already ready to start drinking again tonight. Think I'll go with some kind of hard liquor and Coke. Any out of the ordinary but good suggestions for the liquor?

>>9364321
The answer is always vodka.
Or, well, moonshine maybe, if you're mixing.

>>9364321
Vodka

Anybody here turn into a mean drunk? Its been happening for me in the last year or so, been drinking about 6 years everyday. I haven't increased the amount though I seem to blackout more easily and am now being verbally abusive while wasted. I'm usually a kind person and I dont want to get violent or anything, so I'm going to try to dry out this week. Just wondering if anyone here has experienced something similar.

>>9361884
>General

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>>9364548
Try a different type of booze. Some turn me into a fucking madman, some make me cosy and mellow. Cider and beer mixed (aka snakebite) is banned in my local because everyone ends up kicking the crap out of eachother if they drink it.
Bad quality sleep pisses me the FUCK off too after a while.
Perhaps it's some build up of toxicity which needs time to clear out, or some damage which needs time to repair.
Without question though, the longer the binge, the more retarded I become. It almost always ends up in police cells, hospitals or psych wards.
Being a completely infuriating retard comes with the territory. Hence your friendships dropping like flies, and families arranging interventions or kicking you out.

>>9364548
I only get beligerant (sic) if I've had too much to drink. It's never any worse than just being obnoxious / passive aggressive. But is has got be kicked out of a few bars for example if in my stupid drunk mind I leave my beer sitting around in a busy ass club then go take a piss and come back and its gone I'll freak out at the staff for taking it. Or I'll act really aggressive in a joking way but it'll get interpreted wrong probably because I am hammered. Once I got kicked from a legion because I threw a beer bottle against their shed outside and one of the bartender chicks caught me (I got so wasted that time that after getting a drive home I crapped and pissed under my computer desk then blacked out on my chair for four hours).

Dumb stuff like that, but never violent or mean.

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>>9364557
>this guy again

>first day completely sober after taper

The fog is real. I feel retarded.

>>9364548
I'm not a mean drunk, but escpecially when I'm in company, I get "triggered" easily and can turn quite nasty.

>>9364560

When I started it was about 400ml 100 proof peppermint schnapps x 6 or so 5 percent beer. I've swapped the schnapps for 80 proof whisky because of the awful hangovers, but that was 4 years ago, I think I'll get rid of the booze and try to stick to light beers.

I wonder how rich the little babby brat booze heirs are from employing anti-drug lobbyists. I mean, they must know how much shit they're causing, they've got to be legit psychopaths

>>9364639
Whisky will give you a terrible hangover, no wonder you get aggressive. Drink stuff without shitty flavourings added. Google congeners.

Little anecdote to share with my fellow al/ck/ies;
>Working in the lab at my uni
>Always have denaturated ethanol 96% (we use it quite a lot as a solvent etc.)
>Ask professor, if it's denaturated so that students don't steal it
>Prof.: Oh No, we could order the un-denaturated Ethanol, it's just that we would have to pay alcohol tax on it, so it's cheaper to just buy the denaturated stuff

>>9364635

It is sort of like that. Last night I got 'triggered' during a discussion and kind of flew off the handle at who I was talking with, not attacking them personally but I ended up shouting at them and just lost my cool which is not typical for me. Anyway thanks for the insight guys, we are all gonna make it.

>>9364548
My roommate is a "manic" drunk. He's pretty talkative and social when sober, but when he's at the 5-6 drink level, he just rambles at fast pace, jumping from subject to subject way too fast to really participate in the convo in any meaningful way. Politics, then something weird another roommate did, then the environment, then etc. etc.

So weird--opiates or stims might do this to me, but alcohol certainly doesn't make me wanna talk nonstop.

>>9364612
Yeah that takes a while to go away. I was drinking pretty heavily until about a month and a half ago - felt like a fucking zombie for a while. Down to a beer most evenings, sometimes a bit more at weekends, and feel like a completely different person now.

>>9364683
I do this too
>drunkenly mumble some shit which at the time I believe is profound, and the room is fascinated
>somehow my drunken spaz of a brain finds a dumb-as-hell connection between that subject and another, in fact totally unrelated ramble
>raise finger in air, eyes wide "OH, and did you know that X is because of Y? OH SHIT!! And B once caused F to create D??! Oh and guys... guys... WTC7, guys. GUYS, SHUT UP AND LISTEN"

>>9364648

Never heard of this before, thanks

>>9364639
Switching alcohol delivery systems won't help buddy you need to stop put the bottle down and go to a meeting

I'm 25 and I binge drink every weekend. Never to the point of blackout or vomiting but I'd say 25-30 shots over the course of the weekend. I've been on and off like this since 21, how much damage am I doing to myself?

>>9364239
Pics? Or screenshots?

>>9364768
>every weekend
Ur gonna be fine homie

>>9364768
Doesn't sound bad to me if it's only the weekend. I was a daily drinker when I was 25, typically drinking around 15-25 1oz shots of 40% liquor every night. Of course any binge drinking is bad for your health, any doctor would say you should only have perhaps 2-4 drinks in a single given day and anything more is too much strain on your body. So do what you're comfortable with but if that's all you're doing and it doesn't devolve into daily drinking, I think you're in the clear, but I'm not a doctor.

Personally, weekend drinking is the LEAST I'll ever do, I never want to only drink every other weekend and CERTAINLY not once a month. Right now I'm at about 2-3 times a week, maybe 4 at the very most but that's quite rare. I think being drunk twice a week is a good level for me, probably won't be only weekends, probably pretty much every 3-4 days sounds good to me. Spread the love. On the rare occasion might get drunk once in a week, most weeks I get twice, and again on rare occasions might get drunk thrice in a week. If my health begins to swiftly deteriorate in my 40s, I'll give consideration to further limiting my drinking to only once a week or, God forbid, twice a month, but no matter how bad my health gets I think I'd rather be dead than be teetotal. It's just too damn fun to be drunk.

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>>9364768

>>9364562

Kek


[spoiler] I'm sorry that's not funny

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>>9364768
The question is, how easy would it be for you to stop right now? I Don't know your phisiology, but what you're doing isn't all that far off the norm, if you don't have any health problems you should be fine, at your rate anyway.
Try to keep up the weekend only drinking (and most importantly, only drinking in company), and you'll be fine. You'll probably grow out of it sometime and shouldn't have any problems. Most of us here are in an entirely different situation, don't let it come to far.

>>9364768
Sounds like normal college kid behaviour to me. Most people are officially 'alcoholics' during their college years and then return to normal drinking when they get to work.

>>9364911
But you see, drinking only twice a week isn't alcoholism...

>>9364873
No bro, it is funny lol. Even after I woke up from the blackout I laughed out loud. Shitting and pissing under the desk then passing out is hilarious.

>>9364932
Alcoholism is a bit of vague phrase that to some people implies physical dependence and to others merely implies 'any form of drinking problem'.

Shrinks tend to use 'alcohol use disorder' these days which seems more apt to me since the phrase itself implies any problematic drinking.

>>9364944
I should also add that being a bottle clutching shivering mess and seeing your raging alcoholism being co-opted by people who have a few to many on the weekend can be frustrating though, just like it's insulting to someone who is clinically depressed hear the phrase used by some teenager who's having a bad day.

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>>9364911
25 years old isn't "college years," though, meng. most people graduate by the time they're 23. 25 years old was when my alcoholism started to become something that became less about partying and more about isolating and managing the addiction for me, so idk... don't enable it.

two weeks sober here. 26 years old and it took me a LONG time to realize the "sad clown" drunk, martyr complex thing wasn't helping me at all with figuring anything out. it just made me realize i really, really didn't care about anybody or anything i was doing. i've been taking longer sobriety breaks these past four months (went a month and a half in March). i can do three weeks but when I go back to drinking, i can get back to drinking a pint (375 mL) of cheap vodka a day within three days of the beginning of the bender. the paranoid thoughts/conspiracies/theories get more and more insane... alcohol-induced psychosis. i know a lot of posters here are experiencing this sort of thing....

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I'm drunk as fuck right now and accidentally just drank from my piss bottle instead of my water bottle.

>>9364970
>25 years old isn't "college years," though, meng. most people graduate by the time they're 23. 25 years old was when my alcoholism started to become something that became less about partying and more about isolating and managing the addiction for me, so idk... don't enable it.
Well I merely said most people clean their act up. If you keep up full speed ahead (like I did as well) obviously you're on of the exceptions.

>>9364975
Holy fucking KEK

I have always chuckled about doing this by mistake but never have. I think once I ALMOST did this when I used a beer can to piss in since I was out of bottles.

How do you people deal with the insane amount of calories that drinking brings.

Even just liqour straight its like 100 calories a pop, and I'll drink a 750ML no problem in a night.

I was never fit to begin with but its really making me feel it now after all these years.

Do i just stop eating?

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>Karl Bratz’s grave is molded in the shape of a keg, so we’re guessing he was the life of the party and wanted to remain as such even after death. The epitaph reads, “Have a drink on me.”

That's it, I'm building a still and relapsing.

I... I I I think.

I
HATE
being sober.

I mean, I hate alcoholism too, but I love being drunk. Those few, enjoyable hours daily are all I have.

Should I do it? A fermentation vessel, a still, some firewood, a fresh water stream and some wild-growing, free plant I can gather which will shit c02 and alcohol, that'll give me all the free alcohol I need. Tent, solar panel and wind turbine to charge phone and pay subscription, a couple of customers buying shine to buy food, what else does any alc need?

>>9364992
Many people here eat like one egg a week. Eating is almost unbearable when you're hitting booze hard.

>>9365026
If you have a drink it'll only make you happy for a day or two. After that you'll have a lot of regret, and will need to start the process of trying to be sober all over again.

>>9365036
My binges last years. Still fun, just have to literally never be sober

>>9365031
This. Whenever I got into it bad it totally killed my appetite.

>>9364975
I've accidentally pissed into a half full bottle of vodka. Mistook it for the one I had which was half full of piss.

The answer to your next question is yes.

There's also a dude here who drank vodka from a sludge-filled u-bend after pouring his bottle down the sink, for the sake of his gril.

>>9362419
I have never felt anything that even comes close to how good adderall feels

>>9365071
Coke is a lot of fun.

Don't really do much of it anymore because my girl doesn't want me in that shit.

>>9361884
I'm quitting cold turkey today....
Bought a big wall calendar so I can start marking off X's on the calendar to make myself feel good about how long I've gone without.

The cons are FAR outweighing the pros at this point.
The stuff basically works against me in basically every metric of my life.
Alcohol can go fuck itself.

>>9362200
it has this effect on me too with the right strains.
It's like you're a rat trapped in a maze... then the weed literally lifts you from the maze and lets you see objectively how you're running around in circles.... shames you a little bit... then slowly puts back into the maze of life...

Any al/ck/ies got popped by a dui?

Shit's not fun.

>>9365098
weed sux makes me dizzy and vomit.

Its like being a really shitty drunk that isn't fun.

Last time I smoke was about a month ago, made me Cotton mouth like a mother fucker, too dopey and I tried drinking 4 cups of coffee to drive home in commuter traffic.

Would've rather been drunk.

>>9364640
Oh shut up. Alcohol should be illegal too, look at these people.

>>9365031

yeppp. After about a year of really hard drinking I was convinced I had cancer or something... just due to paranoia because I was losing so much weight.... began tracking my calories and realized I was eating like one meal a day.

The scary mindset that I got into was "eating=less drunk" and why would I want to be LESS drunk? So you don't eat before you drink to enhance the buzz, then you just forget to eat entirely.... rinse&repeat.

>>9365099

i had a breathalyzer fitted to my car for 6 months . Failed it once too had to get random cunts on the side of the road to blow into it for me to keep driving.

>>9365149
This is what finally made me quit, my own vanity. I would kill myself at the gym and down nasty protein shakes and spend so much money force feeding myself to get to 160lbs. And then I'd binge drink. 2 days with nothing but beer. Then I'd be so hungover for 2 more days I wouldn't eat anything. Then my stomach would be so shrunken up I could only eat a little bit at a time for another 2 days. Then voila, I am all the way down to 135lbs. Scary shit. Such a waste, no buzz has ever been better than looking fit and getting laid, also I laugh now. In my boozy days I can't remember ever having a belly laugh to where I cry laughing, all my dopamine was gone, maybe. Now it happens all the time.

Sorry 4 blog.

>>9365158
How's you manage that?

these threads are dark as fug

>>9365178

i blew into it and it failed at 5am because i had been out all night eating sausage rolls and drinking $7 pints. Some old cunt jogged past me so i asked him to blow into it. It checks every 20 minutes. I was driving to a firefighting course and it kept beeping so i pulled over and flagged cunts down. 2 guys refused to do it because one was the boss of ESSO and i had like 2 minutes left til it locked me out and i had to call a technician for $5k to tow/reset it and some kid in a truck drove past and blew into it for me. i got to the course and vomited all fucking day. Try wearing that heavy firefighting shit in australian summer when you are hung the FUCK over.

>>9364975
>>9364990
I'm ashamed to say I have done this as well, but proud to say I no longer partake in bottle-pissing. What a foolish thing to do, glad it's behind me. The weirdest part was that I didn't think my piss tasted all that bad. Certainly not going to start drinking it regularly however. I realize some people think there's some sort of medical value in drinking your own piss but it ain't for me. Seems nasty. Imma stick to just plain water for my rehydration purposes.

>>9365188
What a mad man. There's cameras on all the ones my friends have. If you drove drunk and killed a family that guy would be in jail for life.

>>9365240

but piss puts back what the body takes out?

can't drink liquor fast enough to get drunk anymore tbqh

>>9365258
The body takes things out for a reason. Do you suppose that shit-eating is likewise a good idea?

I went to detox last week, left on monday

been drunk since

can an anon come kill me plz

stiop this pain

>>9365255

are you serious cameras? fuck me

>>9365099
2

>>9365270

why do you think scat porn actresses are all so fit mate good diet.

>>9365286
I tend to manage at least 20 days after leaving detox.
>in detox right at this moment
>all I can think about is the bottle I've got at home

>>9365314
Alright to be fair, that made me laugh, but have you seen that clip of that fucked up chick who admitted that she's been eating shit for 7 years? I don't know where it's from, but she's 'pick the meat off the bone' ugly.

>>9365314
>>9365334
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UxIOfj69yKw

>>9365334

12 years is a long time. imagine at 30 she would have been hot as fuck now she is 40 it's time not the poop.

I quit since a month ago.

I had to. I was puking blood and not even getting drunk anymore. I'd drink 12 beers and not even feel tipsy. It was just too much effort.

>>9365085
The downside of calendar checking and day counting, is that you feel worse if you relapse, and it's not always motivating you to get back to the wagon asap.

>>9365111
Or, you know, have some cheap outpatient rehab.

>>9365258
And you just filter it (or just don't digest it) again. Piss is not concentrated poison. (And it's mostly sterile.)
It's only bad if you do it all the time and accumulate large doses of whatever bad there is.
>>9365270
That's a different story. Bacteria from the lower part of the digestive track are harmful in the upper part.

>>9365393
why do alcoholics like beer? Isn't it way easier to get drunk off hard alcohol?

>>9365432
Beer has lower ABV so it keeps you hydrated

>>9365432

i like it because it doesnt taste like a methhobos dick

Poppers makes funny variations to drinking, sniff some, take shot of vodka, feel immediately drunk. After some time you actually will be.

>>9364126
>>9364143
We remembered smirnoffbro until he came back. We must do the same for simpsonbro.

>>9365432
Hard alcohol makes me puke (long before I even get drunk off of it). Alcohol weakened my stomach lining so it's not as hardy as it once was.

>>9365432
I like it because it is harder to get drunk while you can still sip a lot of drinks.

That and physical dependence seems to come much quicker with licker and therefive so due withdrawings.

>>9365432
All alchies who can afford it, will eventually turn to spirits. 8.4% cider doesn't stop WD for me after 8 pints. Vodka makes me warm and delish in no time

>qt ex texts (seconds ago)
>haven't heard from her in like a year, feel sudden hope
>"hey femanon! How are you?"
>"I had a baby!"

Bottoms up

>>9365574
think again anon, she's actually the one who just fucked up so hard

Good evening everyone
I have a 3L of cider and bit of some other things to consume
How are you all doing?

>>9365591
This

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>>9365603
I woke up and had some morning shots, and then took a nap around 1 because I got the worst fucking sleep last night. Woke up at 4, and took my wakey wakey shots, and am about to eat some leftover sketti and clean the fuck out of my house. Thank god recyling comes tomorrow.

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>>9365622
Damn son that's a lot of glass
How long have you been back on the bottle?
Pic is a tree that got hit by lightning

>>9365603
All in all I am doing okay, anon. Not feeling shitty/ am well-ish rested. I'm just dreading entertaining people who will be staying with me, but I'm gonna put up the best facade I can muster :,)
I will be cleaning after I carb up like a ma'af, what are your plans today?
Side note- desperately trying to find someone to mow my lawn, my lawn dude's phone service is cancelled (I suspect he is also an al/ck/ myself). Fucc.

>>9365635
I've been drinking since 15 (nowhere near as heavily, but I never was that fag who passed out), and turned 21 about a month ago. The privilege has been brutal due to my complete lack of self control combined with tolerance.

>>9365635
Also, always liquor. Never beer. I can't stand the shit, it doesn't do the job and I just have to piss every 15 minutes if I'm slamming enough to maintain a buzz. Smirnoff is my choice, it's $16.99 a handle at my local ABC.

>Get drunk
>Do something stupid
>Regret when I wake up
>Start drinking to make myself feel less shit about what I did

>>9365622
>>9365646
>>9365654
Looks like Smirnoffbro has found himself an apprentice.

Allot of legitimate alcoholics here and allot of feel sorry for myself kids too.
I really thought I had a problem once and for sure I would of if I kept going.
Quit but had no withdrawal. I drank every other day 500 ml of vodka or several liters of beer.
I went to AA, felt good about it but this putting my life into gods hands was literally ruining my life.
Then I did something.
Volunteer work at the alcohol ward in a hospital.
Seeing what real withdrawal was, people shitting blood. Shaking and seizures..
I realized I had a bad case of feeling sorry for myself. Doesn't mean I didn't abuse alcohol or cant in the future.
Just meant I wasn't at full fledged alcoholic level yet..
I've been drinking a few times a week lately and not happy about it.
Going to stop all together for a while.
Hearing your terrifing stories helps me out Anon's.
Thanks!

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>>9365637
Ahhh I know that dread well, I fucking hate it
That'll be a relief when everything's all cleaned up.
Haha funny how we can pick an alck out so easily. Just like people with eating disorders for me as well. Can pick them out so easily.
Gonna get a bit messy, it's the evening here but I've just started rolling and poured my 3rd drink out, gotta go to the hospital on Friday and I'm really not looking forward to that shit
>>9365646
Ahhh well we started at the same time. I'd always pass out though, I regret that first chug so badly
When you get all that freedom and you know you have an issue (like me when I turned 18) it can really get iou in some fucky situations in the future.
Who is gonna know if I go to 4 supermarkets and buy a bottle of spirit from each. Too much freedom, and I am unable to be responsible when money and alcohol. At least I am drinking bottom shelf dirt cheap cider now. Gonna make me a bit fat but oh well I can get rid of it easily with a bit of starvation

>>9365669
Pretty much my man

>>9365669
Same. Every day.

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>>9365473
>until he came back

WELL HE'S REAL FUCKING GONE NOW

>>9365699
bugs.. easy on the hysteria

>>9365705
apparently you didn't see the other thread.

Tomorrow will be exactly seventh month sober, zero alcohol.

A bit proud of my will.

>>9365622
>>9365646
So you're Smirnoffbro, I'm pretty new to /ck/ but heard people talking about you. Wow, only 21? Well there's probably not much going on with your health for the time being, but if you keep it up you're going to be pretty fucked up by the time you're in your 30s or at LEAST your 40s. I know, long ways away, or at least it seems like a long ways away, but well... you see where I'm going with it. Enjoy your youth by all means, you're damn near invincible, but the drinking will fuck your shit if you're not careful.

As for actual Smirnoff vodka, it's damn good for sure, but I'm all about the rum. Vodka is my second favourite however with whiskey coming in at 3rd. Though if you include obscure things like absinthe, that's a definite contender with rum. I looooove me some absinthe, even got drunk off straight 70% Green Tree stuff from the Czech Republic. I also got drunk off straight Bacardi 151 (75.5%) before... that was... intense. Also the morning after was one of the rare times I had a hang-over but it wasn't OVERLY bad; I'm good about drinking what before/during/after I drink booze.

>>9365622
You the 1.75 guy from a few threads ago? That's a lot at a young age, watch yourself mate

>>9365734
Hell yeah dude, nice. Have you been working out? Do the sugar cravings ever go away?

>>9365737
That's not smirnoff bro, bro

>>9365737
I am NOT Smirnoffbro. I asked him to crown me Smirnoffbro Jr. once, and all he said was "k".

>>9365737
That's not him, smirnoffbro is on his late 30s and on some pretty hard drugs as well as 2-3 bottles of Smirnoff a day.

Where did you hear about him outside of /ck/? Haven't seen him mentioned anywhere else yet

>>9365718
?
I see every post in every thread, no SB news

>>9365749
I kinda left gym in favour of biking/running.I didn't really get any cravings, aside alcohol one.During first month I bought a 12 pack of beers and struggled 3 hours with myself to not drink them.
Flushed them all away and went running at like 1 AM.

I have to say I feel so much better now, not like a wreck anymore.

>>9365734
7 months? Christ.

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>>9365763
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

>>9365763
You miss the bit about the heroin?

About to finish my last drink ever. I want food. What should I get.

>>9365782
Coq au vin.

>>9365750
Oh, fair enough.
>>9365760
FUCKING KEK
>>9365761
Pretty sure I've only heard of him on /ck/, but I'm glad I came here after making hummus, didn't know there was a boozing community. I've been basically a heavy drinker since around 2013 when I was in my early 20s, switched from pot to booze basically. Don't miss being a stoner much, but absolutely love drinking. If I stick around long enough to be a regular, I'll probably be rumbro, or since someone once said rum is for faggots maybe I'd be rumfag. Rumfag has a certain ring to it, even though I've only ever been with women. I don't really identify with any individual brand, well, except Pusser's rum. Delicious stuff made the same way the British Navy made it centuries ago. Pusserbro? Sounds weird... and kinda gross... anyways I'm still a newfag to /ck/ so I dunno why I'm rambling about it.

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Drinking pic related while watching the last episode of game of thrones, I'll probably down another glass and start working on my music since I haven't done much in a week
Godspeed anons, may Bacco be with you

>>9365744
Yeaaaaah baby can't stop won't stop.
I'm looking to quit in a while, but while I can still bike marathons and drink other faggots my age (chads mostly) who think they're in my league under the table I definitely intend to enjoy myself.
The crippling depression hurts, as well as the inability to sleep, and the fact that I shake if I don't have my morning shots, but it's all worth it to me when I make a 6'5" 245lb "man" puke his guts out after a shot off. Living in a college town probably doesn't help, but I'll get out eventually. I hope.

Oh god but the cold/hot sweating sucks so bad, that's the only thing making me reconsider.

>>9365782
Hot waaaaaangs

>>9365784
You don't get a name till you're a hospital regular.

>>9365776
Not a death sentence
https://youtube.com/watch?v=ao8L-0nSYzg

>>9362361
actually the one thing right now that keeps me from drinking myself retarded every day

>>9365811
You are right, but it sounded bad. Poor guy had his shit together for a few days too. It's actually really sad watching his decline, and from a selfish point of view quite scary looking into what could be my future

>>9365837
not to be a cunt, but having your shit together for a few days doesn't mean a single thing when compared to not having your shit together for 20 years

half way through a 700ml and a few beers. i fucking hate it when that heavy head feeling happens, it completely ruins the mood, but i'm gonna see if i can relieve it by listening to some music and walking about a bit. should be fine and i can get back to destroying my insides

>>9365844
Oh no you're right. I was just optimistic for him, that's all

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>>9365852
sleep you nigger

>>9365806
Ah, well in that case hopefully I just remain anon for at least another 20 years, but hopefully 30+ years. Got a good handle on my drinking, or at least a decent one.

>>9365864
nah senpai, it's my only day off and i can easily get through a 700ml, it's just some days i get this heavy brain feeling which makes my head feel like it's waterlogged.

i've only been up 7 hours, i'm good for another 5 or so until i finish this up.

>>9365872
why not just shoot up heroin at this point

>>9365865
Some people can destroy their liver in a matter of months if they really put their heart and soul into it. And their liver into ethanol. Don't make the mistake of assuming you've decades just because you're young

>>9365874
bro, this is my functional. i used to drink 2 700ml's a day whilst working. ended up losing my job after 2 months of that as i just couldn't keep it up. i quit for 2 months and now only drink on my days off, and my tolerance has gone to around 700ml + 2 average beers. I also work nights, so I sleep as soon as I get in on my last day, and wake up early so i pass out early and wake up with like 5 hours before work, and in that time i drink a smoothie and do a bit of exercise to get me feeling ight...then it's 5-6 days of work with no drink.

i've come a long way bud.

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>>9365874
Heroin doesn't feel as nice. Pharmaceutical grade diamorphine doesn't feel as nice. Being rimmed by Zoe Kimball while Emma Watson sucked you off and you licked finest Peruvian coke from taytay swizzlet's tongue wouldn't feel as nice.

>>9365893
i can tell my story of hitting rock bottom if anyone is interested. i've told it a few times here, and some people seemed to read it.

>>9365918
I'd be interested anon

>>9365879
I drank pretty much daily, mostly straight liquor, always to intoxication, for about 3 years. No adverse affects to my health other than weight gain. Well over the past roughly 1.5 years I've cut down on my drinking to the point that I only get drunk every 2-4 days (steadily on my way to making it every 3-4 days, likely going to get to just 1-2 times a week), and I've also lost 40lb (About 18kg) likely to lose another 10-15lb (4.5-6.8kg) in the coming months since I've been doing a Hell of a lot of walking and also eating pretty healthy stuff. Recently got into hummus, which I think I mentioned. Fairly affordable, low in sodium, pretty low in calories, high in protein, lots of iron, and absolutely delicious. Going to be having at least one meal of it a day for probably all of September, but mostly just because I find it so damn tasty.

So yeah, I feel safe in saying I've got a solid 2 decades of health ahead of me. I've been taking pretty good care of my body, and I'm steadily decreasing my alcohol intake though I definitely want to keep it to bare minimum weekend drinking. If I could manage to leave the weekdays alone except for Friday night and then probably have Sunday night, I'd be quite content with that.

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>>9365902
>Being rimmed by Zoe Kimball while Emma Watson sucked you off and you licked finest Peruvian coke from taytay swizzlet's tongue wouldn't feel as nice.
fucking lies

>>9365921
Well at my lowest I was living in my mothers flat, a very small room with just a bed, laptop and shelf. That was it, no possessions other than that.

In the span of 4 months, I managed to make this room hell. I couldn't walk for piss bottles, empty cider cans, vodka bottles on the floor. I could only open my door enough to get out and get the food my mother made me, and crawl back into my room to eat it and pass out.

There were sick towels all over my bed, covering damp sick patches, piss patches, and all my clothes were either unclean or my clean clothes were used to clean up piss and sick from various places.

I had no friends, and I played games 24/7, not even good games, just boring games a business laptop from 2008 can play just to keep my mind off it. I could smell the stench of mold and death in my room every single time I breathed, it never left no matter how long I was in there for.

One day I woke up, and I looked around my room and just began to have a panic attack. I couldn't breath and realised my body had a massive rash on it, probably from airbourne mold from cider/piss. I fainted and woke up 3 hours or so later and decided I need to sort myself out or just end my life.

>>9365963
Well, surprisingly I did. I cleaned my room. Took 2 days of pure work...had around 25 recycling bags and used the hoover/cleaner/washer 3 times each. It was hell but I knew I needed it and I was continually being sick as I did it, but I'd run to the bathroom.

Now I have a clean room, I got a job recently and now go to the gym. I'm nowhere near healthy, but holy fuck It's an absolute massive difference from back then. I actually am starting to look like a normal human being and I am not stopping until I look like a greek god, and in the current job I am in, I am not stopping until I gain the top position which is available for me.

I also have showered every pay check so far on my mother, and now saving all of my money on moving out.

I never thought I could even fathom of thinking of 'making it', but I think I am.

>>9365622
I feel like I should bag up my recyling so my neighbors don't judge me, but I'm afraid the city bros will think it's trash and not take it. Fug.

>>9365973
Dude, congrats. Did you quit entirely or do you still partake on occasion?

>>9365983
drinking now. i only drink 1-2 times a week tho. luckily i don't get withdrawals from just drinking once or twice a week, and i make it a rule to never drink if i have work. so far i have stuck by it and am honestly loving life atm. my rash is slowly going too.

5 days sober. had an argument with the girlfriend.

liquor store was open for 14 minutes. sped the fuck there got a carton of carlsberg and now am drinking these pieces of shit as quick as i can.

Once you get off the eurolager its so fucking disgusting to go back to it.

>>9365963
>>9365973
>>9365995
sounds more like an acute bout of depression rather than 'mere' alcoholism desu.

having no possessions and a tiny room is great though, full monk mode

>>9366076
Minimalism is the shiiiiiiiiiiiiiit, my gf just moved in with me and the amount of ridiculous shit she owns is driving me bananas.

Alright, boyos. 1.75 L boi here. I found some dude to mow my lawn, and I'm still drinking. Gonna convince the ol' lady to drive me the liquor store before I grill her some food and then we clean the fuck out of this place.
I know almost nobody cares, but I'm doing the thing!

>>9364975
Not as bad as the time I accidentally took a swig from my dip spit cup. I like to dip when I drink, and was drinking a rum and coke so it was a similar color to the dip spit. I was pretty drunk already and not paying attention when I grabbed the wrong cup. Instantly threw up all over my desk

Just got put on naltexone 50mg a day. Anyone ever tried this to stop the stupid intense cravings? I am at the point where if I'm not trashed I will kill myself. Sober for 16 days so far. Longest I've ever been sober in 9 years (I'm 28).

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anon here who should be in detox.

still drunk, stole liqour, smokng crack and generally kiling my body.

enjoy this pic of my lif3s

kill me if you find my dwelling hole
please

kill me

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some heroin too kill ythe night with.

going to mke it right \


fuck your mom and her whore cooking

I smash the goods

>>9366213

why is the washing powder in small bags?

>tfw i don't own white clothes to separate the whitessss

>>9366216
I would be mad if you didn't give me the best kekles of the days

carry on. anon

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>be sober
>feel much better and happier
>still crave the juice that makes me feel worse in every way

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>>9366213
>>9366215
yo man I think this al/ck shit just jumped up a notch

pic not me(obviously)

>>9366280

saw out takes?

>>9365305

Mine has a camera on it and i've had it on for over a year.

>>9366321

america sucks.

mine was made by drager, cost a shitload but no camera. When the judge asked my why i failed it the first time but not the resulting time told him 'mcdonalds chips' as apparently they can give a reading.

Still hard to imagine there are motherfuckers who can down a handle A DAY when I can get nice and toasty from about 2 pm until around midnight on under half of that if I pace myself. Goddamn. And sometimes I feel like my liver aches for freedom.

The human body is quite resilient.

>>9366216
you stink of jelly, try drowning yourself for best cleaning

faggot

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Why are there some days where I can feel shitfaced from 2-3 beers, and others where I can go for 12-14 and still walk straight?

>>9366179
I did that too.Be glad you threw up.

>>9366448
Do you smoke weed? it makes a huge difference in feeling a buzz.

same with skag, I do a .1 and am raging drunk.

worst is when i sniff a whole bag as pictured above and end up in pukles for days. literally days of puking.

I am sure I died last time and this all just a bad dream

>>9366201
Yeah it tackles physical cravings well. Youll feel less pleasure overall but thats part of the way the meds work. Its worth it. Ive seen huge success on it. Glad you gave it a try.

Oh and whites have the best success rate. Has to do with a gene. If people have a certain gene they respond well to naltrexone. Negroes dont respond well and neither do Asians.

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>>9366170
JUST CLEAM IT UP ALREADY

>>9366448
I also want to know this

>>9366215
Sure you have enough?

>>9366459
If I smoke weed when I'm drunk I either...

1) start spinning and puke

2) feel like I'm having a heart attack/stroke

The drunken disparity thing happens on its own.

>>9366201
If all else fails try ordering poppy aeeds to make tea with. We got nuts is a good brand. Unwashed papaver somniferum seeds. Get lemon juice and water and shake one or two full cups of seeds for about 5 minutes then drain and drink.gets you high as fuck on the morphine. Amazon sells them. The rationale behind this is opiate withdrawals dont kill you and are easier than alcohol withdrawals.

>>9366483
This is a terrible idea, do not do this.

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>tfw first time you have to tell the family doctor how much you actually drink

>>9366469
Ok fuck, this post actually gave me inspiration to make some progress. Vacuuming entire house, done. Thank you anon. Still have to scrub whole bathroom and clean my kitchen/ organize some straight up dumb shit my gf moved in, but you put some pep in my step.

>>9366495
I'm horrified of this myself, senpai. Every time they've asked me prior I've been underage so I go with "not frequently, but I have before".
That's a goddamned lie.

>>9366474
nope, no such thing as enough with addiction. i have much more than just that but this isn't a pissing contest and I liked the pictars.
I will show the coke I am using in a bit but really just want to hang myself
>dear diary

>>9366495
break it to him during the prostate check

imo it works better when he is knuckle deep

>>9366495
as if that would surprise a doctor. they saw everything during their residencies.

>>9366476
eh, you gotta get a vape and just go hit for hit.

I smoke strictly concentrates and 3 or 4 good hits has me in a nice place with 6 or 7 high abv beers.

current;y smoking on kali mist rosin, absolutely divine. 3 hits off the pen and I am racing like a big line of coke and it mellows down and I try and sleep, no matter the time of day.

sleep is a fleeting thing these dayss

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>>9366512
Clean it up! Smells of curry REEKS of the fuckin curry

WHO COKE HERE

ALL CAPS BECAUSE I'M HYPER AF

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>all these druggies

Do you have no loyalty to the bottle? Sluts.

I usually drink around six beers each night which is good for me and doesn't make me do dumb things or wake up hungover, but I'm back on the unlimited drinks now because I'm so fucking depressed and it feels good

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we out here gettin sober boyz

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I may not be an alcoholic but I'm a Stillhouse man.

>>9366717
nice one lad, 1/6 of a year is nothing to sneeze at

>>9361884
Forcing myself not to finish my bottle of patron. Conflicted over what to do about my current situation with my girlfriend. I have no idea what to do. Drinking is the only thing that makes me feel almost okay. But I'm disappointed that I'm still doing this self destructive shit.

>>9366720
Why in the fuck is that packaged like terpintine/ mineral spirits?

>>9366687
speedballs all night

you got pearls or chunky?

i am the heroin anon and I will upload a few coke pics but currently too lazy to take a pictar

>>9366717
I don't like those people. It's so strange seeing forum communities that are mostly women. When did that happen? Grats on the 58 days tho

herowin anon here

Why does things have to be this way.

I went to detox, and lfe fucking sucks.

this isn't going to work out well

>>9365973
Godspeed anon. Keep us posted on your progress. Maybe you'll inspire another down on their luck drunk like me to get their shit together.

>>9363315
>really starting to drink
>3 drinks max on weekends

wat

>>9366736
I don't really read the posts, they're too fake. But I do like the badge thingie

>drink for a month straight
>stop drinking for a week, zero withdrawal
>drink for 4 days in a row, stop
>mild withdrawal

How is this possible?

>>9363315
This thread isn't for you anon. Find a beer thread or a thread about mixed drinks al/ck/ is for drunk losers like me to complain about how we've royally fucked ourselves over. Don't be like us.

>>9366733
I don't even know what pearls or chunky means, breh. I got some powdery stuff here that I'm snorting. Wish I had another hundred bucks so I could hit up a "spa" but just going to have to settle for jerking off.

>>9365785
I want to drink and talk about ireland

>>9365782
Beer

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just posting my story so other anons can see there is hope

>drink all day every day from age 20-23
>roughly 1L a day more or less, very little eating in the last year of drinking
>at 23
>notice my legs begin to get sore
>ignore it as it gets worse over the month
>eyes go yellow at the same time
>dad finally forces me to go to doctor when he sees me
>skin going a bit yellow
>doctor sends me to ER immediatly
>billiruben was at 12 (healthy is <1)
>liver swelling/temporary failure
>potassium deficency
>encaohalitis
>told I have 1/3rd chance of dying, 1/3rd chance of liver replacement, and 1/3rd chance of recovering
>given morphine to fend of seizures
>wake up 3 days later
>damn I am alive.jpg
>legs arent working though
>diagnosed with poly neuropathy from drinking and nutrient deficency
>spend a month in the hospital, relearn to walk
>get out and go to rehab in CA
>wheelchair>walker>cane>foot braces>nothing
> 7 months later I am still in california
>just finished my stepwork, have a sponser and homegroup
>can't run or stand on tiptoes but can walk fine
>just got offered a dream job starting at 70k/yr

things can turn around but you need to go to the hospital, detox, go to rehab, and do AA for the rest of your life (seriously)

I could have died if my dad didnt see me that day and I waited even one day later

>>9366762
pearl and chunk refer to the quality of cocaine.

chunky is usually large rocks and not real scama.

pearls is the scama, shiney like a pearl.

scama=fish scale in spanish.

well scale but ya. \

step yo game up anon. no reason to be doing bad cocaine. the shit is making a resurgence atleast here and it is hard to find bad stuff even when copping at a bar.

if you were here id boot you up on a real line. shit melts at room temp, not literally but it becomes so hard to chop we just cook it

>>9366821
Interesting. I just recently started and I only know one guy. It comes in big chunks but they're easy to crush and they look a little bit shiny but not sure.

>>9366804
Thank you for sharing. I mean it. Glad things improved for you.

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You guys give me hope that one day I too can be enough of an alcoholic to want kill my self.

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1.75L anon here. Still drinking. Tackled my kitchen/ purged my fridge and then started drinking large glasses of vodka back to back and binge watching Luke Cage. Slowly but steadily, I'll get this done. Probably done for tonight, though. Super glad I bought another before I started cleaning/ stores closed, feelsgoodmane.

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>>9366870
avoid stuff that is "rocky" or too dried out it can be high quality but moisture content is a big let on if you got good stuff.

quality coke will disolve into a oil if you roll it in your fingers or let alone if it gets hit by humidity.

you want it to be sticky and clumpy i you put a . in your fingers it should oil up instantly.

not indicative of all coke quality but that is what real cocaine does. I have tested cocaine at over 70% pure.

thats 250 grams.

this anon is broke as fuck

only neetsmay apply

>>9366804
That was nice to read, anon. Hope it only gets better for you.

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2mg klonopoin 500ml bourbon everyday.

I'll only miss out on what I already won't have

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and don't forget it!

>>9367056
Judging by what you're describing, I'm guessing what I'm snorting is mostly chalk. Can't expect much from ghetto hoodrats though.

4 weeks sober, 3 weeks nofap, quit cigarettes a week ago. Unemployed for two months, landed two jobs In one week. Getting super fit and healthy, my next goal is get laid after over year dry spell. 17 years alcoholic, just turned 30, feels good being clean mates.

Good luck, if I can do it anyone can, we're all going to make it brahs!

>>9366215
That's not heroin, it's MDMA.

>>9366717
3 days.
I think.
Might be 4.
Would be zero, but I'm in hospital after jumping off a bridge and fracturing basically everything in my body.
30 feet isn't high enough. Noted.

The morphine and tramadol is nice at least.

>>9367367
nope.

Tell me more about my own pic.

the pic down below is 250grams of mdma

that big bag.

now sit down and shut up.

>>9367378
I doubt this.

30ft will do enough damage you won't be here talking on 4chan with other autists.

You attention seeking faygo

>>9367411
It looks EXACTLY like MDMA and very little like heroin, but w/e. Perhaps it's mixed with all sorts of shit. It often happens among younger buyers/sellers.

>sit, shut up
You're so defensive. Like you've something to prove. No need, because this isn't /b/.

4:09 AM here

When nobody is awake and nobody is online. This is the time of dread.

>>9367513
My favorite time tbqh. Either at home or walking somewhere.

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>>9367513
I got the early morning jitters an giggles

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>when a 9/10, v early 20's, blonde nurse gives you a daily, warming, 20-min-long bed bath which is practically a whole body massage, and when that hand holding a warm cloth rubs your dick and balls, you have to struggle to not literally fucking cum, let alone get an erection
I took a big risk and took a couple of really crap candids of a few nurses here. Shit as they are, not one person here will fail to achieve orgasm when they see them. Got to get home and photoshop a couple of things out first, otherwise one of you assholes will be able to dox me right down to the very bed I'm in, on which ward and in which hospital, and some spaz 12yo will call them.
Give it 2 weeks and I'll post them. Trying to get vid too. They are SO FUCKING FIT, FUCK.
Brb delicious benzos are kicking in. Considering repeatedly shitting myself on purpose so I get that soft, warm breath on my bod and face, as she bends over me, asking softly "is that ok? Does that feel better?" *smiles at me* "call me if you need anything sweetheart!" *smile*

Fuck this, I'm relapsing ASAP, just to get back here.

>>9367583
This is the best thing I've read in a while

>>9367583
>>9367600
I frequent /lit/ and /wtg/ (writefag general) on /k/, and yeah, I must say, that's a fascinating thing to read except for the 'shitting myself' part. As for me, I'm getting drunk tonight or tomorrow night. I'll be getting money tomorrow, gonna get something like $50 of groceries and a fresh bottle of rum so that's over half of the money spent right there but that's ok. I have another $55 coming around September 10th or so from my ghostwriting, and then I'll be getting yet more money on the 15th so yeah, I think I'll finally be able to put some money away for a rainy day. It'll be tempting to just go to a pub and get hammered but I need to stick to drinking at home to save money. I'm also hoping that I'll only spend around $150 in booze in September instead of the more usual $200-250. Well, technically I could probably be fine in spending only $120 but in spending $150 I'll have plenty of liquor to start October with and it'll be a lower cost per ounce. In October, if September goes well, I might even manage to only spend $100. I'm gonna have PLENTY of money to play with, might even be able to get a cell phone!

>>9365688
Someone get this man a light bulb

>>9367711
Lightbulbs suck, they're too bright, like the one you responded to, I'm assuming, he also loves the dark

>>9367719
Got me one of them dimmer switches in my room. Pretty good for when you need to see stuff but don't want to be blinded.

>tfw craving booze like crazy
i'm so bored and the store is just a km away
it wouldnt even be bad if i had something to take my mind off of it

>>9367818
Maybe try having non-stop, bareback, animalistic sex with the 50 most attractive girls on earth simultaneously.
If that's not quite doing it for you, their sisters and hottest friends, while feasting on lobster tails and rolling around in money on a yacht? That's what I tend to do.

>>9367488
>defensive
If I come across that way it is because I am an asshole in general

>younger buyers
I am young? and new to this?
it is ecp

that is a common look for ecp.

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>>9367818
If I piss out of my bedroom window (again) the splash hits a booze shop. There's a pub within 30 paces and a 24hr-booze supermarket within 3 mins walking distance.

>>9367936
>24hr-booze supermarket
Fuck I wish we had those. Can only buy booze between 10am and 10pm here, pubs and clubs excluded but fuck socialising and drinking with normies

Woke up with pretty bad shakes. Put whisky in my oj on the drive to work to cut the withdrawal symptoms but I'm sure this will just make it worse. I can tell I'm super agitated. Been tapering down the past few weeks, down from a fifth a day to about a fifth a week plus beers. Glta.

My wife told me today that she wants to leave me.

well time to hit rock bottom guys, cheers

>>9367992
Hopefully it'll stop you from drinking, not make it worse.
I just hit my rock bottom. It was literally a rock. Under the water, beneath a bridge from which I jumped.
At least, I hope I did. I keep thinking I can't sink any lower. Then I sink lower.

Started drinking vodka at 7 am today. I only have half a bottle left so it's not that bad but still. Honestly don't know if I can change after drinking for 10 years. My only saving grace is that I usually don't buy liquor for the house after I went to detox and did a few programs.

I fucked up and bought 1 beer

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FRESH:
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>>9368072
RIP