Hey Anon. What's up? Feeling sad? Need a hug? Let's talk.

I'm not feeling sad or anything.

I just wanted to know what you think of this mix

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V1O2zGHbgjQ

Everyday I think about killing me taking some codeins until I don't feel my head then cutting me to bleed until death

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>>745478533
Okay, I'll have a look at it.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GabBLLOT6vw

>>745478834
Why do you want to die?

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>>745478339
HeyHey

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I come to infest Fenn's poor soul for all eternity.
>>745478834
What made you suicidal, anon, any idea?

Is this where they're giving out free blowjobs?

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>>745479355
Ahoy. Glad you could make it.

>>745478533
It's good. It doesn't sound too busy, it's gentle and groovy. I like it a lot. Thanks for recommending it, Anon.

>>745479503
You again? Hello.

>>745479520
Nope. I think that one's a few threads down the block.

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>>745479520
Nah, handjobs only.

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>>745479520
Unfortunately, No.

>>745479004

I don't think i can get into this, it's a little too upfront on the beat for me

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GHXZlBBHJCk

>>745478834

Bleeding out is a bad way to go. I nearly did it once while on morphine, needed transfusions and was revived. The morphine probably eased most of it, but I still ended up having an OBE where I met an entity that drew me back to life. What's gotten you so down ?

>>745479649
>>745479680
>>745479686
What do I have to do to get a blowjob around here?

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>>745480089
Send nudes.

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evening

>>745480089
>>>/soc/

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>>745479686
Thanks for coming.

>>745479912
Yeah, I can see that. Alright, that one's good, but a little... underwhelming. It would be great background music.

>>745480089
$90

>>745480188
Haven't seen you in a while.

>>745480362

It also is background music, it plays in a few scenematics and as soundtrack to HQ of a really good game from somewhere around '98

I used to play the game only to hear that music again until I found it on youtube.

Have you listened to tool yet ?

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>>745480362
i float around from time to time

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>>745480168
Sup
>>745480188
Chek'd

>>745480362

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6BS7LJ8GHCI

And this one is the theme of my childhood :)

>>745478339
Hey fenn, how are you?

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>>745480628
Oh, that's cool. Yeah, I listened to Forty-Six And Two, Rosetta Stoned, and, oh, what was the name of the one with the guy panicking about his work at a government facility? That was interesting.

>>745480684
Sounds kind of nice, to not be tied down. Will you bump the thread to death this time?

>>745480915
That's a good one. This has always stuck with me: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s4brdwe3UIM

>>745480924
I'm doing okay. Tired out, but alive. Not quite ready for next week, but I can handle it.

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>>745481122
Fenn?

>>745481122
its overrated to say the least

not tonight, too tired

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>>745481289
What?

>>745481359
Alright. Well, get plenty of sleep. Sleeping is good.

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>>745481447
Fenn!

>>745481122

That was faaip de oiad, or the voice of god. It's based on a prank call that used to be pretty huge somwhere around 1997-98 I think.

You should definitely give this one a listen, it's one of their master pieces in my opinion

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EiR1hmpk-x4

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>>745481447
im not laying down yet, gotta stare at this screen for another hour or two

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>>745481507
What?

>>745481513
Ah, I knew it was some weird combination of letters that sounded like nonsense. Couldn't find it again.

>That opening

Whoa. Okay, this is good. Time to turn my volume up. I need to listen to more Tool.

>>745481662
Why?

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>>745481513
Oh, The Patient is good too. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6DHNbnNYq30

I think that's the first Tool song I ever heard.

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>>745482032
Fenn?

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>>745482032
dunno, its just a ritual to do nothing for most of the day and go to sleep at 11

>>745482032

It's hebrew if I remember correctly. Tool has quite a nice back catalogue, but they dwindled a little with their newer tunes, it wasn't everything that was good. This is really nice live recording

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mcjgv1hm0x8

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>>745482187
Fenn!

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>>745482224
>>745482289
Hello. What do you want?

>>745482249
Not the worst ritual. Do you have nothing to do?

>>745482283
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ge5giteZxto
Okay, I'll listen to that.

This is the stuff. They've got a lot of energy.

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>>745482687
Fenn?

>>745479004
Howdy there, friendo. How are ya doing tonight? Wrangled up some more pics for ya, some of which are crops from an old manga of hers.

https://imgur.com/a/E8Jk3

Which makes me wonder. Would you benefit by having a lot of smaller, black and white pics of Nausicaa after you said how you prefer smaller file sizes when your computer acts slow, or would you rather have the more elaborate and identifiable ones like I've done before?

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>>745482687
pretty much, its either games or thoughts

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>>745480089
Find a Whore.

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>>745482858
Abra?

>>745482870
Smaller is better. Black and white can make smaller images easier to make out, but the color ones will be more recognizable as the character even if they're small. So that's up to you.

I can hardly ever post the bigger ones.

>>745483062
That's not so bad. Are you looking for a job, or do you not need one?

>>745483256
That you're on the level?

>>745482687

Pushit is a good track too, if you like that one you'll love vicarious

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iOKV9Stri_M

They have sort of similar melodies, vicarious is just a little more raw

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>>745483362
Fenn!

>>745478339
I lost my appeal and have to go to prison tomorrow. Should I eat my ten years or make a run for Canada?

>>745483362
im finishing up some stuff at a votech right now, dont really need one. i've been looking to try and find a late night job but there really isnt much around here

>>745483256
I thought that's what I did.

>>745483610
Do you have any more appeals left? Can you make some deal, to reduce the sentence?

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>>745483362
So would something like this be okay? Like not too small and recognizable enough?

>>745483948
I doubt the Supreme Court will hear it, and the AUSA in charge of my case won't deal, that morally righteous faggot.

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>>745483435
Yeah, it sounds more complex and more vicious. I like it more.

>>745483610
I dunno, do you think you can get away with it? Wouldn't the Canadian authorities find you and deport you back?

If you're close enough, and comfortable living incognito or in the wild for the rest of your life, what's stopping you?

>>745483629
That's good. You may need to look further away... but a commute just makes things complicated. No bars or banks?

>>745483788
WHOOOOOOO
Good one.

>>745484111
Yes, that's perfect.

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>>745478339

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>>745484288
Nice meme. What's up?

>>745484168
That sucks. For you flee to Canada, you'll be looking over your shoulder for the rest of your life.
Can you deal with that?

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>>745484236
theres a bank or two in town, i'd have to check those

>>745484236
I honestly don't know. I know I can get across the border and blend in but I'm not sure how easy it is to live under the radar there. I know I'm not going to do easy time in federal prison.

>>745484236

But as stated before, their newer work is a little hit and miss. They moved for a new style, and music needs to change with the times, but it went into more of an easily digestible angle as opposed to their old and raw

This is also some of their little older

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U-IR9oNzdrA

>>745484236
Fenn!

>>745484494
See:
>>745484530

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>>745484236
Fenn?

>>745484530
The Federal System is way easier than our State prison system

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>>745484497
Most stay open pretty late, don't they?

>>745484530
I'd do a lot of careful research before attempting it Anon. How much time do you have before they lock you up?

How long would it take you to get to the border? You may be underestimating their ability to catch you.

>>745484589
Sounds like what happens to a lot of bands...

I'll listen to that as soon as my internet is fast enough for the video to buffer. Is Ænema good too?

>>745478339
Op where is the pic from?

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>>745485107
Fenn!

want to kill myself but i already failed many times before so i know theres no point

>>745478339
Past couple of days I've been thinking about hanging myself. Been distancing myself and being rude to everyone so if anyone would care itd hurt them less. What do

>>745485107

I think ænema is kinda overrated, but still good. It used to be the go-to number for most of my friends back in the day, but to me it was a little easy going on the heavy subjects they normally take up

>>745478339
would nausicaa

>>745485228
Then you may as well live. What will you do now?

>>745478339
yes pls

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>>745485107
no, most of them close early. im probably going to be moving out of state for college so its almost worth waiting

>>745485250
Seek professional help .

>>745485055
I'm guaranteed to get sent somewhere that is a bit harder then a minimum security camp. My list of crimes already hit me with enough points to get medium security, and the BOP might send me to a max out of spite once they see my jacket.
>>745485107
I'm supposed to report tomorrow by 2pm. I can make the border in ten hours and I know I can cross without issue.

>>745485336
probably just cut myself and cry

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>>745485228
Livestream it

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>>745485369

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>>745485250
Livestream it pls

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>>745485135
I don't know where that specific one came from; I think I found it while searching for Nausicaa pictures. The character is Princess Nausicaa from one of the Studio Ghibli movies. You might reverse image search it if you want to find the artist.

>>745485228
Why do you want to kill yourself?

>>745485250
If you get close to them again, and let yourself enjoy their presence, maybe the need to die will fade.

>>745485286
Hm, okay. To be honest, I haven't been paying much attention to the content of the music. Is it good? What sorts of things do they usually sing about? Jerk-off was pretty obvious.

>>745485294
Would Nausicaa what? I don't follow, Anon.

>>745485369
*hugs you tightly*

What's up?

>>745485406
Oh. Well, if you think you're set financially for college, you'll be fine. But it would be a good idea to save up some extra money ahead of time. Might make things a bit more comfortable later on.

>>745485645
Are you certain they're not monitoring your internet activity through your ISP? They may know about this plan already. Be careful, Anon. Don't get caught and stuck with an extended sentence.

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>>745485775
Fenn?

>>745485676
Why do you cut yourself?

>>745485775
I'm not being monitored. I did my dirt and got nailed the old fashioned way. No taps or fancy 'cyber' shit got me, just plain stupidity.

Hi, actually feeling good tonight.

>>745485749

Why does nearly everyone close their eyes when they hug or kiss ? Even just for a little while ?

>>745485775

Mostly it's about doing psychonautical behaviour in some form or another and kind of heavy reactionary philosophy. Psychonautical isn't meant as doing only psychedelics, it's as in changing your perception of life in ANY form, even meditation

>>745484236
Well if that's the case, then congratulations. You've probably opened up a treasure trove of new pics at your disposal. Like these ones.

https://imgur.com/a/S5AqE

>>745485250
A couple of days at the end won't do much to change people's opinions of you. They're still going to be just as hurt and your actions will be transparent after the fact, which will hurt them even more.

If you truly don't want anyone to be hurt then you have to work for years ending your relationships before that can happen. And I don't mean burning bridges because that still hurts people. They have to think that you naturally grew apart and that the distance you've worked to create was something that happened naturally over the course of your lives. It also helps to let them think you've found something to live for and the pursuit of that drove you in a different direction from them.

Only after years of isolation, when all your relationships have faded to memories, no one can find you and they all think you're happy can you truly end your life with no one getting hurt.

>>745485929
lots of reasons tbh, i hate my body and am a masochist are the main ones

>>745485973
Excellent!
How did you spend your day?

>>745486170
How long have you been doing this?

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>>745485954
That kind of sucks. If you are certain you can get away and live comfortably on the other side, I'd go for it. But you make your own decisions man, don't get yourself into deeper shit than you're already in on my word alone.

>>745485973
That's good to hear, Anon. Do you want to talk about the good things?

>>745486018
People close their eyes because they trust the person in front of them completely. They can safely close their eyes without being nervous or afraid of attack. A hug is the ultimate form of feeling safe. Or something like that.

Oh, I see. It's a little deep for me, but it's cool. I need more of this stuff. Thanks for giving me a boost on these guys.

>>745486076
Ah! Thank you so much, I needed more of those.

>>745486394
since i was about 6/7 so around 14 years ive been getting help but medicine doesnt help and i say im okay so they dont send me to a hospital, ive been getting better but i still have awful mood swings

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>>745485775
yeah. i just have to figure out how to fill all of my free time with something, and if it pays then thats good on my books

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>>745486498
Fenn!

>>745486541
You might need to talk with a therapist or doctor regularly, too.

>>745486498

I've always kept my eyes open because I didn't want to miss the moment of true affection, that someone decided to share such a vulnerable action with me always overwhelmed me and made me keep my eyes open, either that or I just have deep trust issues, but I'm also paranoid schizophrenic anyway.

But yeah, their subjects are a little deep, pick up a few references and read a little about a few of their song titles, and it'll open up whole new avenues to living your life. It's something you can easily do bit by bit inbetween doing other things where you just sip in a little, and then reflect for a while on what you've learned.

It certainly helped me understand a lot of things, and open LOTS of new questions in my teens. The reactionary philosophy not so much, even though I think I am a reactionist.

>>745486786
yeah i do, every two weeks, i lied to them about not self harming and having a better mood so they dont think im bad enough to get sent to a hospital

>>745486498
My choices are: Run or do ten years surrounded by assholes who will either ride me or extort me, then ride me when I'm out of shit to take. I'm under no illusions that I'm going to be some kind of gladiator once I get inside. And with the current fucknuts in charge combined with the shit I pulled I don't see commutation of my sentence happening.

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>>745486498
Not a problem, friendo. And believe me, you can expect A LOT more of these in the future. Each one of the seven volumes in this particular series has over 100 pages in them. So you'll be set for a while. I think I should just dedicate a couple hours sometime to just cropping one of the volumes so I can give you a whole bunch at once compared to the ten at a time I usually do. And have another.

>>745486977

It's not as bad being in a hospital as it used to be. I spent 2½ months institutionalised because I was threatened by suicide, in the start it was really hard, but it helped them figure out the EXACT problem, and how to treat it

Empathy and sympathy make me fell bad.

Because people are empathetic and sympathetic to my pain, it causes me pain to perceive that my pain has caused others pain.

However, people's emotions are more intense than mine, so my relative minimal pain causes them more intense pain, which in turn causes me more pain.

>>745486977
Lying is nor going to help. It's just gonna prolong your suffering.

>>745486977
Don't you think that it'd be better for yourself in the long run that if you were bad enough to be kept in a hospital, that you were to be kept in one?

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They're always talking about a cure for cancer or alzheimers or some shit, but when will modern medicine cure microbenis?

>>745487465
That sounds like the kind of thing you say before torturing someone for information.

>>745487219
yeah maybe not but i dont want help tbh

>>745487575
it's called wearing a strap-on.

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>>745486541
Are you really getting better? Harsh mood swings can be pretty bad, and when you're feeling one way the other way seems far different from how it is when you're actually feeling it.

A therapist may be able to help you more than drugs can. Have you looked into that?

>>745486597
Not the worst problem to have, certainly. You like vehicle-based multiplayer strategy games?

>>745486917
Hm. I've never thought of it that way before.

I'll need to do further research, it seems. You're right, this does get me thinking in ways I didn't expect.

>>745486977
They can't give you any real help if you're lying to them, Anon. You may need to overcome your fear and tell them what's really going on. It'll be better in the long run.

As long as you're not a pedo or anything. They might just lock you up for that.

>>745486989
Between Scylla and Charybdis, eh? What are your options if you run? Do you have a place to stay up there?

>>745487028
I've read the whole series, Anon. It's my favorite manga. I didn't know there was a full digital version though. I really appreciate you doing this, Anon. You're the best.

>>745487400
You're not causing them any pain, Anon. Or if you are, it's only because they want to feel it. That's their choice to make, and you shouldn't begrudge them that.

Another way to think about it: why care about the emotions of others? They don't matter. Don't let their feelings bother you.

>>745487575
It already has. It's expensive though, and doesn't always work.

>>745487589

I didn't want help either, it was forced on me. But you get a lot more freedom at the hospital if you go voluntarily (I don't know how to spell that word).

I could go outside whenever I wanted and leave the hospital fora few hours a day after they'd monitored me for a week and decided I wasn't threatene by suicide anymore, even though I still had the thoughts.

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>>745487838
i dont do multiplayer very much, but i do play strategy. im trying to get into starpoint gemini while i wait for the humble bundle this month

>>745478339
I have sexual problems. No sexdrive, sexual thoughts, and on top of that erectile dysfunction. Nevertheless I look really good, girls notice me very often and smile etc.

>>745487883
>I didn't want help either, it was forced on me.

Sounds like rape.

>>745487838
That's the tricky part. I can work and I'm not afraid of manual labor, but I have to work and live off the books. Any Canadians who can clue me in on if I can pull it off?

>>745487838
yeah i mean right now i cant really think of life any other way than wanting to off myself but i have been slowly getting happier but when i do have mood swings its awful

>>745487883
tbh it doesnt sound that bad but even if i want to tell my therapist i always get cold feet because of social anxiety, i get scared they
might think im beyond saving or that im too high risk or something

>>745488196
I'm not Canadian but I think your best bet would be to retreat to the northern wilderness and live off the land. Don't even bother with working or trying to live in a society, you're just going to get caught.

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>>745488034
people don't really have consistent libidos. you may have some kind of hormone imbalance and you could discuss it with your doctor, though. they're there to help after all.

>>745488076

It sure feels like it for a while. But it stops feeling like rape after a while, and can't be compared to eachother

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>>745487838
Fenn?

>>745488331
>It sure feels like it for a while. But it stops feeling like rape after a while

Sounds like one of those mindbreak hentai manga.

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>>745488292
Jill

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>>745488022
Oh, okay. Is Starpoint hard? Difficult to learn? I vaguely remember looking at it once and being only slightly interested.

>>745488034
It could be a mental thing, which may just be permanent or very difficult to fix. It could be some kind of chemical imbalance. Have you asked a doctor about this?

>>745488196
Sorry, I'm lost there. Never been to Canada.

>>745488221
It's very good that you're improving, but you've still got me worried. Do you think you're going to continue to get better, or will you level off soon?

>>745488292
Hey you. You're cool.

Hug me.

>>745488292
I'm 18 yo, got my test level checked like 3 months ago because of the same problems. Turned out that everything's fine. Also no organic reasons

>>745478339
Hug me please

>>745487838
Yep, they've got the full series scanned and translated. And within a gallery format that I love.
http://englishfortamils.com/comics/index.php?album=Manga/Nausicaa%20of%20the%20Valley%20of%20the%20Wind

And I've said it so many times by now that it probably sounds like a platitude at this point, but you deserve it so many times over for all the help you offer people around here. It's the least I could do to give back.

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>>745488547
>>745488621

>>745488525
Yup, everything is fine. I hope so goddamn much that it won't be permanent.

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>>745488525
Fenn!

>>745488547
>>745488621
He won't even suck my dick, what makes you think you're going to get a hug?

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>>745488525
cant really tell much about it right now, i just started playing it. seems interesting to say the least

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>>745488415
anon
>>745488525
nah.
>>745488619
no suggestions from the doctor, then? I mean, it'd be weird to have your GP advise you how to have more sexual thoughts, but at least about the ED...

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>>745488547
*hugs you*

>>745488619
Huh. Do you think you're asexual?

>>745488621
*hugs you tightly*

Something wrong?

>>745488647
Whoa. That's perfect.

Sometimes I try, Anon. I don't always. You're doing something that means a lot more to me than you think it does.

>>745488769
I hope so too, Anon... you'll find out eventually.

>>745488887
Hm, okay. Let me know how it is after you've gotten a ways into it.

>>745488916
Well, I like you.

I have been with some one for a very long time now , they care about me and want to continue dating but they don't love me. I don't want to be without them and I don't see myself being with another person. I don't know if I can handle them not loving me, I could and have for this whole time but I want more. I feel like I'm being selfish, they can't change the way they are. So I have had to change the way I am, I don't know if I can keep putting my feelings away or shaping them to fit

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>>745488916
Jill

>>745488221

They won't think like that at all, they'll demand a few things of you, but it's always within reason even though it might not seem like that due to impulses, oh, and it will be scary, because you have to meet all your inner demons, and there is a LOT of time to reflect on those. If you go voluntarily you get much more freedom to have your time away from the demons though, then they just monitor your behaviour to figure out what is wrong.

you know, making small notes in the shadows and studying you, most of it happens through conversation where you're appointed though, it's not like it feels like CCTV is on you. You won't notice it most of the time since the nurses have their workstations to write small reports.

>>745487838

There is a lot of things to hugs and kisses, and I guess most of it is indiviual like with so many other things and can't be reasoned thoroughly.

Another tool song you have to listen to is this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yU5cY5i0a_I

This is one of their more philosophical ones. If you start reading just go bit by bit a little, and let things seek in from your perspective

>>745488289
That seems like a good plan. I have enough cash to get that far.

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>>745488949
Fenn?

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>>745488959
relationships are a give and take, and it sounds like you're doing a lot of giving. if it doesn't seem healthy or happy for you, then maybe it's time to consider withdrawing from it.
>>745488993
anon

>>745489020
You really should just go to prison though.

I don't know what you did but I can't see this working out for you.

>>745488887

Godaften

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>>745489145
Jill

>>745488949
Bant is shutting down anime posting so basically I'm getting booted out of my home board.

>>745488949
not really. I used to be very sexual but at a certain point I tried to supress certain feelings. Sexual interest was one of them. I also fap from time to time( sometimes every day), but normal people aren't that interesting in a sexual way as much as they used for me. Maybe I desensitized myself a little

>>745489153
You don't want to go to prison for white slavery. I know I fucking don't. If I had known how bad it looks to convicts I would have robbed banks instead. I would also have gotten a better sentence.

>>745489295
Get a waifu, direct all your sexual energy towards her.

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>>745488949
i can tell its not too terribly deep of a game. it feels like a mix of elite dangerous and stellaris

>>745489361
What made you think anybody would be cool with that?

>>745489398
That sounds sad.

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>>745489398

>>745489553
there are worse ways to live

>>745488292
Jill?

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>>745488959
Keep doing it for now, Anon. Hold up the relationship for a while, and hope the other will change. Talk to them about it; make sure they know how you feel about this.

>>745488998
True.

Listening now. It's good. It moves. Stands out from the others in terms of progression of sound, but the riffs sound the same.

>>745489277
That kind of sucks. But there are plenty of other boards. And some of the other chans are pretty active.

>>745489295
Why did you suppress them? If you want to get them back, you'll need to force them back. It will be hard, and it will feel unnatural for a long time. But I think you could do it.

>>745489484
Huh, okay. I might have another look at it later. Does it need high specs? Would I even be able to play it?

>>745489553
It is but it's probably the only solution to his problems.

>>745478339
I just went to a dubstep rave and had an amazing time, pretty happy about it as cringey as it is

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>>745489623
Fenn!

I made through the day without breaking down in front of everyone. Can I have a hug?

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>>745489196
anon
>>745489618
anon
>>745489707
that sounds like a good time. glad you had fun.

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>>745489747
Jill

>>745489623

If you want tool without the heavy subjects I can recommend "a perfect cicle", it is a little different, but more or less the same without the heavy subjects

>>745478339
Do you think its worth to fight for a woman that has a boyfriend but its kind of flirting with you? Ps. I think i love her

>>745489514
First off, I forced nobody to do anything. One of the girls got popped for prostitution and it all went downhill from there. Two, I figured I could deal my way out of (so did my lawyer). We didn't figure that we'd get an AUSA who needed a scalp on the wall. The judge gave me a bigger break than that asshole of a prosecutor. He wouldn't even let me do state time.

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>>745489707
Doesn't seem so cringy to me. A good time is a good time. What are your favorite groups?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tVqPx5mUj0g

>>745489738
*hugs you tightly*

You win, Anon. You did it, you succeeded today. Good job.

>>745489623
Your here and I found c so I'll be fine for now
*hugs tightly*

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>>745489873
Fenn?

>>745489873
Excision is my all time fave, he's what got me into it. I also love Dubloadz and DMVU. The one I was at was for Sullivan King.

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>>745489738
hey, good job. some days it's hard not to. what's got you feeling that way?
>>745489783
yes?
>>745489846
she's in a relationship, so I'd say leave it. if you wanna make it awkward, you can be blunt and ask what she intends the flirting to lead to.

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>>745489738
Good job friend

>>745489846
No. If she was yours to be fighting for, she wouldn't have a boyfriend.

>>745489873
Thank you :) I'm fighting like hell and making progress but I'm still sad most days.

I didn't see anyone calling you faggots in this thread, so here I am to call you all faggots.

Still a bunch of worthless waste of life antisocials pretending to have empathy and feelings while you feed on the suffering of others?

Should probably kill yourselves. It's the only way.

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>>745489738

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>>745489623
from what i can tell it doesnt stress my computer that much, but it says 8gb of ram minimum so it might create some issues. it is a pretty big open world

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>>745489984
Jill

>>745489984
I'm feeling this way because everyone in the family is dying and I'm so emotionally overdriven

>>745490059
I just like telling people what to do, Anon.

How does that make me a faggot?

I have crippling anxiety and I am starting a new job tomorrow. How can I stop myself from leaving in the middle of my first shift?

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>>745490059
i'll find my way to the pearly gates one way or the other anon

>>745490249
Get drunk.

>>745490249
get drunk

>>745490160
Well, since chances are you have very little life experience because you're a worthless NEET with no marketable skills, everything about that makes you a faggot.

>>745490302
Yeah, do this.

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>>745489839
I've listened to some of A Perfect Circle, and Puscifer too. What I've heard so far is good, but I haven't heard much of them yet.

>>745489846
Don't. It'd be a dick move to drive them apart.

>>745489901
That's good. Let's just sit like this for a while.

*holds on to you*

>>745489983
Okay. I haven't heard any of them, but I'll look up Excision. Do they do mostly remixes, or original stuff?

>>745490035
Keep at it. Don't give up the fight. Sometimes the sad feeling will linger. Does it bother you, or do you not mind feeling a little sad?

>>745490059
Okay. (You)

>>745490093
Ah, no way can I handle that. Oh well.

>>745490249
You'll have to force yourself to stay, Anon. Even when you don't want to. Remember the positive consequences of having a job, remember all the good reasons for it. Remind yourself of those constantly.

>>745490385
That's rich, coming from you.

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>>745478339
Nothing is good anymore. I have nothing that is fun to me anymore. What should I be doing?

>>745488949
Even running at 10% when trying to help someone is still better than them sitting alone and letting their feelings consume them even more. I'll start whittling away at a volume tonight for sure. See how many I can squeeze in.

And since everyone is apparently music posting.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tmk-bu_OoyU

>>745490249
You can do it. Take deep breaths. They hired you. That means they believe that you can do it.

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>>745490494
*holds on* thanks *smiles*

>>745490494

I never really liked puscifer, I can't remember why, but something had me pissed off at what happened.

Now for something different, I wanted to present you with this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Op4n0pGQ3F4

I think I'll head to bed soon, the wine is doing it's works, and I've got a skype call with an old friend tomorrow

>>745490494
People that have social skills and talents and just generally a future ahead of them don't play pretend therapist on a website for degenerates and weebs while avatar posting from an obscure anime series. You're trash and you're only poisoning this world with your thoughts and suggestions. Just do us all a favor and end it, or just don't post anymore. Either way is fine.

>>745489984
THB kind of expected the answer, my problem is that i cant control my feelings for her

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>>745489984
Jill!

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>>745490494
Fenn!

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>>745490103
what?
>>745490126
that's... pretty rough. I'm sorry, anon. are you taking time to look after yourself emotionally?
>>745490249
honestly, you're just gonna have to put your head down and power through it. take time to breathe and re-focus yourself as you go along.
>>745490780
you're free to do your own thing, I'm just offering advice. it's going to be easier to let go of those feelings, but nothing's really stopping you.
>>745490806
yeah?

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>>745490560
Do you want to be happy?

Maybe you can force yourself to enjoy things again. If you try hard enough, and for long enough, the satisfaction and happiness may come back.

>>745490569
You're a good man, Anon. Enjoy yourself. Was it volume 4 that had the cavalry charge across the Dorok artillery lines? That was my favorite sequence.

>>745490643
This is nice. *smiles back*

>>745490709
Huh. That's kind of nice. Yeah, I'm enjoying this one.

Sleep well, Anon. Take care.

>>745490743
Whoa hey there, Nausicaa isn't that obscure, is it?

>>745490494
Excision used to be a lot more popular than he is, he makes original music. Sullivan King does mostly remixes, he like death metal/dubstep guy. And Dubloadz just released a new album which I highly recommend.

>>745478339
I got out of a bad relationship but I feel so alone now

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>>745491080
Jill

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>>745490709
Do you like Ghost?

>>745491198
You're not alone, you've got us, don't you?

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>>745491168
Fenn?

>>745491168

You sleep well too when you get that far. I'll just sit around for a while and figure if I can talk to someone to help them while i finish my drink

*hug*

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>>745491168
I do. It all kinda happened in the blink of an eye without much actually changing in my life at all. I was happy for years in the same situation, the same job, the same everything. Nothing has changed, then poof, unhappy.

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>>745491186
I'll look into Excision and Sullivan King right now, and tell you what I think.

>>745491198
Can you replace it with a good relationship? It may take time and a lot of effort, but I think the end result will be worth it. Do you know any good candidates?

>>745491168
I'm heading to bed *kisses forehead* thanks for making me feel better, I love these threads, there so comfy

>>745491279

Thanks

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>>745491198
>>745491198
You are not alone here.

>>745491168
I like how you deliberately ignored everything but the comment about the animu. That's typical of your kind. You're complete fucking phonies and never exhibit any real emotion because you lack it. You're just a shell of a human being playing pretend in an attempt to fill the hollow void that is your heart and soul. You're fucked on a fundamental level and anyone that listens to your 'advice' and accepts your 'comforting' is losing a part of themselves to your venomous facade

>>745491279

I can't remember ghost,
but I'll give it a listen

>>745491198
>>745491498
You're very much alone here because there's no genuine caring here. Just a bunch of autismo roleplaying faggots playing pretend. Go find some real friends instead of falling for this pretentious hoax.

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>>745491571
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7hMaHDTw-pI

My recommended track.

>>745491494
Anytime, Anon. Always willing to lend an ear to those in need.

>>745491513
>I like how you deliberately ignored everything but the comment about the animu.
Did you know that one of the telltale signs of autism is being unable to pick up on humor?

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>>745491393
Fenn!

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>>745491361
I sure will. Thank you. There are plenty of Anons in the thread. Jump right in if you think you can help.

>>745491385
Hm. That's strange. There seems to be no reason at all for it. Depression can jump from out of nowhere. Have you talked to a therapist about this?

>>745491445
*pats head* Thank you for dropping by, Anon. Sleep well.

>>745491513
When you've got enough shells, you can melt them down and use the brass for something. No sense in letting 'em go to waste.

Or you could hand reload them, but that's difficult and time-consuming.

>>745491779
Who can fathom the mind of one who posts on 4chan? Perhaps he is the one being humorous.

>>745491697

already heard that one, I like this one better

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KOrXKiSy8ZY

But I'm not really into the vocals, they're a little too polished if you know what I mean

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>>745491927
Fenn?

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>>745491942
I understand Completely.
They grow on you though.

>>745491168
I honestly haven't the faintest clue. I actually haven't seen any of the Nausicaa source material yet. I was planning on watching it tonight, but now that I've got some cropping to do, I'll probably end up doing it tomorrow. I think it's pretty high time after collecting so many pics of it.

>>745491610
True

>>745491393
This is a good excision song from his newest album

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HbNIKR2pctU

And here's Dubloadz and Sullivan King in one song

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dgE6QmQPaIM

>>745492078

They do, they do. I'm already feeling warmer towards it.

I think you might like this

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lHJcM45Ie9A

>>745491927
Berg?

I'm in an ldr right now shit fucking sucks.

>>745491927
You're just proving everything I'm saying about being phony and pretentious. There's no genuine human emotion in your words. You're like a mental patient that's been oversedated, and that's a funny coincidence because you probably should be a mental patient.

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Pretty much always op.

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>>745492223
I'm in love already, Are you a fan of Falconer?

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>>745492107
The whole series is incredible. It gets more intense and insane as it goes on. Each book is a little freakier than the last.

>>745492166
The buildup was good, but Excision doesn't use enough bass and percussion for my taste.

I like Break The Rail better though. Plenty of distorted guitar at the beginning. I love that stuff.

>>745492259
Why does it suck? Are you feeling unfulfilled?

>>745492348
I think I hit it one too many times, Anon. Been seeing things I shouldn't. So yeah, I guess you could say I'm a little oversedated.

>>745492375
Is there a reason for it, or are you just generally sad?

>>745492649

Haven't heard of them before, I'll check it out

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>>745478339
*Flies in*
Hey nausicaä its Kiki I thought I'd fly in as see if I could join the thread

>>745492722
Stuck in a college where I have no friends. Got a gf and best buds back home though, thinking about transferring come Christmas.

>>745492722
oh dude you would love Excisions older stuff, he used to be grimy as all fuck.

https://youtu.be/fphS3QKh2ZQ?t=51s

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>>745492727
In my Opinion, this is their best song. It's near perfection.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SzX2t4iHO38

>>745492873

Oh, that's from the album I chose to put on. I'll remember this, it seems kinda... I don't know, the closest I get is demons and wizards from what I remember. But not as power metal-ish. I'll give it a listen tomorrow thoroughly, I'm heading for bed. Goodnight to you

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>>745492814
Feel free, Kiki. We'd be glad to have you.

>>745492851
How long have you been here? Making new friends isn't impossible, Anon. Maybe you should let go a little (not completely) and open up to some new people.

>>745492727
>>745492873
Mindtraveler:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9yMsxQWuWvE
Lord of the Blacksmith:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FoYSwGNGksQ

>>745492852
Hm. Yeah, that is better. Can't say I love it, but it's pretty decent.

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>>745493060
Goodnight to you as well, Anon.
Rest Well, may Belial watch over you as you sleep.

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I can lift a full-grown snorlax above my head, and I can hold my breath for ten minutes. To settle a wager, I once ate a pound of a big ass arbok strongest poison and then ran a mile in the nude. I cannot feel pain, and I can see for two miles unaided by a lens. No man nor pokemon can kill me. I have beaten a pokemon of every race in formal combat, and some humans including a Turk, a Pygmy Negro man and a rare Deepwater Jew. A medical pokemon doctor and two pokemon priests have written and signed a document confirming that I have no soul.

>>745478339
ngl I wanna kill myself but not out of depression but out of rage. Mostly directed at modern society and the left wing casually destroying the white race and knowing I cant do anything about it. I have legit night terrors because of it.

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>>745493152
Night anon sleep tight

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>>745492814
Hello and welcome!

I have to go sleep but there's no one to tuck me in :(

>>745493100

I'll save those two, goodnight

>>745493152

I'm more into thursatru than belial :)

But thanks !

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>>745491927
I have but he just listens and doesn't tell me anything. He did say "well, I think we need to help you feel again."

What the hell does that even mean? Am I some kind of sociopath?

>>745493100
I'm very introverted and don't even want to make friends, really. Just want people to leave me be. I'm just lonely because I miss my gf and best friends.

>>745492722
Oh, I don't doubt that for a second. The aesthetics alone are enough to draw me in. Although this will be the first in a long ass time where I've actually sat down to peruse a manga series. I usually prefer just watching the anime adaptation, even though in this case there's no way that a two hour movie could completely do the justice of seven volumes worth of work.

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>>745493272
I do not sleep.
I wait in the dark with Timeless patience.

Its my birthday today and i still haven gotten laid yet life is so unfair wtf is wrong with me

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>>745493216
You need to stop worrying about politics all the time anon, it's not everything. Try thinking about all the good things and what you have to look forward too.
*hugs*

>>745493494
Happy birthday, anon.

>>745493494
happy bday

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>>745493494
happy birthday, anon. stop worrying about sex.

guys, my crush turned out to be in love with someone else, this hurts but I really want to be her friend and maybe one day I can be more than that yknow? Idk, shes really cool and I want whats best for me and her

any advice anons?

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>>745493494
It's okay anon sex isn't everything no matter what your age is I'm sure your virginity is reserved for someone out there.
ALSO HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANON!

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>>745493632
focus on being friends and leave it at that. not worth aiming for something that isn't going to happen, all you'll do is hurt yourself.

>>745493494
Happy birthday!

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>>745493216
Killing yourself won't change anything. It'll only make you dead.

Stop thinking about it. It's all bullshit, and it's never going to get any better. But it doesn't matter. It hardly affects you, or the people around you. It's not that big a deal. Dig yourself out of this trap of caring about things that are too big and corrupt to mean anything.

If you're upset about it, they're winning.

>>745493297
*tucks you in*

*kisses your forehead*

>>745493311
They're good, but not as good as The Past Still Lives On. Sleep well.

>>745493336
Huh. Has he said how he intends to go about it? Most of it, you will have to do yourself.

>>745493385
Ah, okay. Are you close enough to visit them? If you can't be with them enough to satisfy yourself, you may need to break out of your shell. It doesn't need to be a lot, but making new friends could be good for you.

>>745493414
The movie only covers the first volume or so, and doesn't do a great job of that. Still, it's a good movie. One of my favorites.

In the manga Nausicaa's flaws are actually addressed. The cultures are much more developed, as are all the characters. It's got some power to it.

>>745493494
Happy birthday!

Life always has been unfair. Complaining about it will turn women away. Nothing's wrong with you. Maybe you're thinking a little too much about this.

Don't fall for the myth that "if you haven't had sex by 18/25/30/whatever you never will". That's bullshit.

>>745493632
Be her friend. You can handle that. Keep it that way for now, and just be ready for a change. Don't try to push it.

It's going to hurt. I'm sorry, but there's nothing you can do about that but try to move on.

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>>745493494
>haven't done this
Jeezz such a loser

>>745493632
Keep your eye out for the next qt.

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>>745493888
He mentioned drugs... I don't know what that means though. I feel. What am I supposed to feel though?

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>>745493500
>Catalog
Thanks niggy *huggles back*

>>745493888
About a 4 hour drive. I flew back 2 weeks ago and had a great time, my gf is coming up next weekend.

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>>745493297
*pats head*

>>745493888
>*tucks you in*
warm within
Keep you free from sin
Till the sandman he comes

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>>745494130
I'm Kiki and you're welcome *hugs back tightly* just try to stay off /pol/ ok?

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>>745494299
Sleep with one Eye open,
Grippin your pillow tight.

I'm okay I guess I still have my depressive episodes but that comes with the territory. My grandma told me something interesting this morning she said I take everything personal. How do I stop that

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>>745494120
I don't know, happiness, sadness? Regret? Satisfaction? Do you feel any of those? Is it like they're there, but muted?

If they aren't there at all, I don't think drugs are going to help. But then again, I could be wrong.

>>745494159
Hm. That's not so bad. I've got friends that live nearly twice that far away, but I only see them a few times a year.

If you think it's best to remain with the friends you've got without trying to make new ones, go ahead. That's okay. You're just going to feel lonely while they're gone.

>>745494299
Most overrated song

Still good tho

EEEEXIT LIGHT
EEEENTER NIIIIGHT

>>745494428
You need to stop caring so much. Be a little more unfeeling. Remember that ultimately, you are your own man, and you decide how you react to things. Your feelings can't be completely controlled, but you do have some control over them.

Just stop taking it all so seriously. It takes practice, but you can get used to it.

>>745494336
Don't be such a weak person

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>>745494619
Just a suggestion for you

>>745494603
Thanks anon, I think so, too. I realized they're what is important to me so as I said, I'm gonna try to switch to a university back home next semester.

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>>745494842
Good for you anon you need to be happy if you want to succeed

I always feel weird and I have too much empathy for people. It is what makes me great but it is also my downfall. It's fucking weird, I just care about people so much. I'm able to talk to a wide variety of people easily, and am popular (in a way, not a Chad or Stacy, but I'm regarded as a kind person.) It overwhelms me sometimes, and I start feeling distant and my perception of reality shifts. People think of me as someone who is nice, but it confuses me. I don't actually do anything or try to be someone who is like that, I just am that type of person I guess. It confuses me because I have been told so many times by my parents that I'm awful, manipulative, piece of shit, stupid, little bitch, little mouth, mistake. I don't know why I'm like this, I like that people view me that way but sometimes I just want to be an asshole, whenever I do I fuck things up. People don't expect me to be that way. Also people view my friendliness as something else, and that makes me fucking angry. I don't know why people can be so cruel and selfish, I know I can be but I try to not be at all. Maybe I'm just fucking retarded and I don't even know where I am going with this I'm just sad.

>>745493888
Yeah, I thought so. I'll definitely give the manga a fair shake too. I think I'll give it an in depth reading after I do my initial skim for cropping purposes. And a little off topic, but since we're on an anime movie, have you ever seen the film Angel's Egg? I don't know if it's just the aesthetics of anime movies in general back then, but some of the more somber looking images of hers are reminding me of it.

Hi everyone. Looks like I'm a bit late to the thread. Oh well, might as well hang around.

>>745494975
Feels good to put it into words, and vent, doesn't it?

>>745492722
Not really unfulfilled, more like I just wish she were here. Like it's not the lack of physical contact. It's the lack of physical contact /her/

>>745494947
>>745494712
>>745494336
Whats up Kiki. I had a "small" obsession with this movie as a kid. Not sure why. Even as an adult at the rip old age of 19 this is still my favorite movie next to Saving Private Brian

>>745495110
You made it here! That's the important thing.

>>745494947
Thank you anon.

>>745495174
Oh and I have no idea what the thread is about but I saw the pictures of Kiki and freaked out a little. Anyways I just wanted to let you know of my lovingness for that movie for some reason because on the internet no one knows you're a faggot.

>>745478339
i tell myself im not even going to give this girl the satisfaction of my attention, let alone my affection, and while im making great effort, it i difficult.

I dont like being without love

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>>745494842
Alright. Take care Anon, and good luck. I hope your transfer goes well.

>>745494975
Keep being nice, Anon. You can learn to enjoy the praise, or ignore it. But don't be terrible just for the hell of it. You'll regret it more than you think you will.

What is it that people view your friendliness as that makes you angry?

>>745494994
I have never seen it. What is it about?

>>745495110
Thread's still alive, feel free to talk. Nothing wrong with jumping in now.

>>745495138
I see what you mean. It's frustrating, isn't it? Is she too far to visit?

>>745495487
Why don't you want to be affectionate towards her? Maybe if you loosened up a little you'd start to fall for her.

>>745478339

i have this dream where i randomly meet with the love of my life and we talk just long enough for me to remember the feelings i had when we were together. as soon as i get to that point she just dumps me infront of everyone with no remorse at all. and im just left there, broken all over again. its been 5 years since ive last had contact to her :(

>>745478339
Well getting up every morning and calling myself a fat piece of shit is getting a little old but otherwise I'm doing good. How bout you?

Yes, but I also just want to hear about other's who need to vent. I like listening to a lot of people and help them because I want to help, or just listen. I feel hesitant talking about myself because I don't want to bother anyone with it. I guess treat others how you want to be treated ? I feel like there is too much that I'm sad about, and too many things go on with me. I don't know I feel weird posting here because I feel like I'm just a stupid pussy

>>745495581
I can relate anon. Used to have dreams of the girl I lost. Would wake up and want to kill myself because I was so happy in the dream.

What is it with these threads posting Nausicaä? Its my favorite Ghibli movie of all time but I don't understand why she gets posted here.

>>745495560
She used to be in Al (I'm in CT) but because of her family she moved to South Korea (military family)

>>745495728
nausicaa is our op. its as simple as that i guess.

>>745495824
I like that. She would be a great person to talk to in times of need.

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>>745494428
you can't just stop taking things personally. instead, you need to learn to stop dwelling. if something upsets you, try your hardest to let it roll off your back.
it isn't easy and requires practice, and forgiving yourself when you struggle with it.
>>745495607
try going running?

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>>745495581
You haven't moved on, Anon. That's... bad. You need to get past the memory of this girl, and seek new things.

>>745495607
You're not so much of a fat piece of shit as you think. Are you upset with yourself for not trying to improve?

I'm doing okay. Back hurts a little, but other than that I'm fine.

>>745495627
I'm here to listen to you, Anon. It's never too much. If you want to talk about it, let's talk about it.

>>745495728
I mainly use the pictures to identify myself. Sometimes they help convey a feeling or a reaction. Don't worry, this is not an obsessive circlejerk.

Or is it?

>>745495772
Oh boy. And she still cares about you? That's impressive, but a little sad. How long will she be out there?

>>745496131
she turns 18 in about a year, and I just entered college. It's been three years, so honestly where in the home stretch. Probably better this way. I figure if she hasnt cheated yet then she probably won't if and when the relationship gets more serious (sharing a home, marriage if this goes on for a few more years, etc..)

>>745478339
Need Rule 34 pics of that girl.

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I crave the death the ocean will bring me

>>745496406
Her name is on the file name isn't it? I'd don't know the character, I'm not really into seen shit outside of FMA and Ghost In The Shell. You know, before seen culture ruined it.

I usually ignore it, I kind of don't believe it. I don't know what I do, it's just my demeanor and how I am. I like to make sure people are happy and take care of them. That's how I act towards everyone, but sometimes people take it the wrong way. They think they can date me or think I want to date them or some stupid shit. I hate it I hate it I hate it. When people see I act like that towards everyone, wouldn't they understand that IT'S NOT FUCKING LIKE THAT ? I just want to be friends with people and be happy. Maybe I just need to stop being in my own little world. I've tried to stop being friendly and kind so many times, I want it so badly. To not fucking feel. I don't want to talk to anyone, to not give a flying fuck like everyone else. I've tried but I can't change my behavior. Someone will talk to me, and I'll think about how they feel and how what I say can affect them. I'll see someone looking sad and by themselves, and feel how they feel and become someone they can talk to. I want to not give a fuck, but I give too many and can't turn it off no matter how much I want to.

>>745496406
be careful what you ask for
i'veseensomeshit.tif

>>745496131
Well I have been running a lot and trying to get into shape for the military but after increasing in weight from 165 to 186 and my run time not decreasing any I am finding it hard to keep going; like no matter how hard I work I only seem to regress. I have tried everything to get into shape. Eating less, not eating at all, pills, the only thing next on the list is steroids but I'm not about that roid rage life, I consider myself too nice of a person and I don't think I could stoop that low.

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>>745495560
It was made by the same guy who directed the original Ghost in the Shell movie. And as weird as it is to say, the film isn't really about much in particular. People have described it more as an animated piece of art over a traditional movie. But basically the movie is centered around a young girl living in a desolate Gothic looking city who cares for a large and mysterious egg that she keeps with her. I know that doesn't sound like a very engaging lead in, but the actual story kind of falls to the wayside in favor of the visuals and atmosphere. It's definitely not a film for everyone, which is why I can't even recommend it since everyone will have a different take on it.

>>745496499
Wut?

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Hi

I forgot to eat my sundae.

>>745496555
Oh also I have been trying RELENTLESSLY to get a girlfriend and that has also turned out to be a flop so that is weighing on me to. Women just don't seem to like me and the ones that do are not my type or look like they crawled from under a storm drain somewhere, and I'm not a picky guy.

Angry, a lot.

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>>745496778
Hello Purin!
Nice to see you!
Is the sundae still good? Did you just leave it in the freezer to long?

>>745478834
Yeah, as an opiate addict, I can assure you, you'd still feel it.

On the bright side, you probably wouldn't want to kill yourself for a bit. The downside is that the addiction can drive you there.

>>745497017
If you ever feel like you'll never get a girl, remember that even Danny DeVito got married.

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>>745496328
It is an astounding level of commitment, Anon. Keep her close when she gets back. And just hang on until then.

>>745496406
Check Danbooru. I don't have any.

>>745496499
Why?

>>745496532
Why do you hate it? Are you afraid?

Don't stop being friendly and kind. To not feel anything is far worse than you think it is. It's empty and miserable, and it's far worse than where you are now. You need to stop letting yourself get so upset about people liking you. It's not that bad. If you don't want to, just reject them.

>>745496555
You've talked to a doctor about this, right? And I bet he just told you to eat less?

I wish I had a solution for you Anon, but I have the opposite problem. You're trying hard though, and that alone is grounds enough to stop calling yourself a fat piece of shit. Be proud of your efforts, even if they're not having the effect you want.

>>745497017
Do you think you could be trying too hard?

>>745496680
Hm. That does sound really interesting. The visual aesthetic of everything is very important to me, so I think I'll enjoy it. I'll save that name so I can watch it sometime.

>>745496778
Is it still frozen? Eat it now!

>>745497093
That's not so good. Does the littlest thing set you off? How do you handle your anger?

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>>745497191
Hi Mantis, good to see you too.
I'm unsure, I haven't really touched it. Hope it's okay when I get to it tomorrow

>>745497300
It's too late to have a late night treat ;-;

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>>745497300
It seems nice

>>745497300
Yeah, that's always been the main thrust of the film. So don't expect to go in and leave with some deep exploration into the motivations or flaws of the movie's two characters. Or even to have a solid grasp of the film's loose plot in the first place. It's a film that even its own director said he didn't really know what it was about. So watch with those things in mind.

Well, the thread's dying, so I'll see you next time, friendo. Have a nice night.

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>>745497399
It's never too late for an ice cream sundae!

>>745497300
No I haven't talked to a doctor. They like to prescribe you shit that makes it hard to get past a medical screening for the military. Maybe I just need to stick it out but the pressure from myself and my family is getting to me. As far as girlfriends go I don't think I am trying to hard. I evaluate what comes my way and if it doesn't work out then it doesn't work out, and 9x's/10 it never works out. I think my antisocial nature and dark/pessimistic humor turns some girls away.