Feels thread Tell us your woes, anon

>there will never be a good browser

>>745018720
I feel you, man. Which browser do you use?

>>745019014
I've used fucking everything, but for now, I have to use Chrome. I mainly used Firefox, but the shit with WebExtensions was the last straw; so now I'm stuck with this shit. Opera became buggy, Maxthon is a joke, and a plethora of bugs plague every browser I've used thus far.

It hurts.

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>>745018256

>>745019152
I use mainly Chrome and sometimes Firefox. Just be glad you're not using Internet Explorer/Edge

>>745019424
I am. That's the one thing I can say thankfully. I'm not using Edge/Safari/whatever shit.

>>745018720
ever use iceweasel?
sure, it's only on linux. but then again you can't get a good program for almost anything if you're on windows or mac.

>>745019597
IceWeasel is just differently-branded Firefox. Whenever I'm on Linux, I just use Firefox anyway, though.

>>745019152
Don't use chrome...! Google sells your soul.

>>745019798
It's that or videos don't play, apparently.

>>745019798
Can confirm.
YouTube does too. It will also steal your soul.

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>this is now a /g/ thread

Anyone got any feels greentexts?

>>745019886
It can't steal what I don't have

:(

>>745019942
pls no

>>745019886
Same company. Idiot

>>745019993
SO, WHAT'S YOUR DISTRIBUTION OF CHOICE?

>>745020058
What do you mean by distribution, my guy?

>>745019152
I used opera for about two years now without reinstalling it or some Shit
Works just fine for me
Hope you find your perfect browser one day,anon

>>745020173
Your favourite distribution/flavor of Linux.

>>745019886
Google owns YouTube,so yeah,it makes sense

>>745020230
Thanks, Anon. I'll try to keep my chin up.

Hey anons. I'm sorry to interrupt your discussion on browsers but I have a few questions that I hope you can answer.
What gives you the motivation to live? I'm in college and I just can't get myself to attend classes, do anything really. The only reason I'm not offing myself currently is because of lack of means to do it painlessly.
I'd appreciate it if anyone could answer this

I want to die, ill take a bunch on of pills by the end of the week, im done. Ill do it right this time too fuck being alive fuck being me, i dont know why i thought my depression would get better in college thats some naive fucking bullshit right there. Fuck you fuck all of you, its not your fault but you couldve at least reached out to be you dumbfuck i listened to every single problem you ever had but no one gives a shit about mine how dare you even call yourself my family my friend fuck you for not even fucking trying, i dragged my body through 3 years of fucking hell i fucking tried to live but no it just gets worse and worse in my head im done with therapy with medication with fucking coping skill im done with this shit. Everyone with depression should kill themselves so no one ever feels this way for no reason ever again fuck you fcuk you fcuk foyou dcuk you

>>745020372
kys

>>745020293
I use Windows 10. Sorry for the blasphemy or whatever

>>745020372
Sorry I don't have an answer to this.
Actually I have the same question.

>>745019424
god edge is fucking shit. I used IE for some hardware that of course is hardcoded with some sound plugin that only IE reads and when I upgraded to win 10 I thought the e was internet explorer and it's worse than some college kids first compiled browser

>>745020507
It's okay, Anon. You'll use it.
One day.

>>745020372
My baby sister is the only reason I haven't bit the bullet yet.

>>745020372
I'm in the same boat, my man. It's hard for me to find motivation to do my hobbies anymore, but I feel like I have to go to college because I'm paying so much for it.

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>>745019942
fire up the chainsaws

>>745020408
>>745020372
I'm sorry you guys I know it doesn't help but im right there with ya.

>>745020372
Hella friend!
Russian here!
Are you out of money? There's a pay wall stopping you from what you want to do?

>>745020334
Try vivaldi

>>745020586
I've never had the displeasure of using Edge for an extended period of time; what're some of the main problems with it?

>>745020663
I have. Didn't work out either.

>>745020630
Why does /g/ have the best bait?

>>745020372
I slept through college and got an engineering degree out of it. I'd suggest that.

>go to class for a few weeks
>sit in same spot same row next to same people
>get depressed as fuck and just stop
>two months later show up in class
>sit in same spot next to same people
>nobody says anything
>repeat from get depressed as fuck

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>>745020404
never seen 4antchan before

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we're just living pieces of meat in a giant travelling rock watery ball

>>745020293
mint because I'm not a wannabe weeb who thinks anything standard to any platform must be absolute shit and I actually use my computers to get shit done that isn't compiling my own OS tier

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I'm playing this computer salesman at a loca theatre play. My role is minor. In the play, I enter as the boyfriend and girlfriend are about to head out for a dance. I enter and install the computer, throw some banter at her boyfriend and at the end of the scene I steal the girlfriend with her in my arm... The thing is though, I am not acting. And these girlfriend and boyfriend are really in a relationship outside the play. In the play the girl is enamoured by my character. It bothers me that my character is liked so easily. My mind has been thinking "this is as close and as real as it will get to being with someone."

I know that the girl is acting as well. It's all a fucking act.

It just bothers me. My brain has trouble at not letting things get to me.

>>745020984
How are you liking Mint overall?

Fuck I needed to get my shit together.
But HOW?
I keep on relapsing into degeneracy.
I guess I'll just have an iron will starting tomorrow.
This is it folks, I'm off to bigger and better things. Forreal this time (again).

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>>745021005
well karl marx once said all the worlds a stage and we are merely players

>>745021234
I don't know if this is bait, but it was Shakespeare who said that, not Karl Marx

>>745021074
it's easy, pithos (pandora) and firefox are my mainstays but basically shit is where I expect it from windows, shortcuts aren't fubar (a la GIMP)

it's just comfy I guess. one of my current uses is usb bootsticking my wife's fried laptop, it boots in seconds and I can navigate to and copy HDD files before it dies again (heat issue) because I'm not all ass backwards from my windows computer (graphic design/production).

on something like Kbuntu I'd be lost looking for the start menu, folder, having to mount a drive and by the time I got oriented the laptop would be shitting itself again.

That's why I like mint. I've got a machine waiting right now to get formatted of the win10 shit that ruined it.

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>>745021130
>degeneracy
such as?

>>745021471
>I don't know if this is bait
Just leave

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>>745020830
What is that? A photo for fleas?

>>745021471
Pretty sure it was Keets, the shakesperian poet.

>>745021610
Good to hear. When did you start using it?

>learning piano to be a musician because you love music but also a loser.
I have normie friends and I'm decent looking but I'm awful with girls. I feel worthless

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>>745021744
fuck your mum

>>745021794
>Keets

come the fuck on guys, it was Coolridge

>>745021688
Nah

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>>745021868
One of the greats, truly.

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>>745021837
Fuck your gf. Oh wait. Tyrone is already doing thag for you

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>>745021822
ten years ago? whenever it was around v9 I think. I was using ubuntu before that and they did this major UI fuckall. I've been doing unix/linux since 1992 though so I was around before you could unironically argue flavors.

>>745018256
I dont have woes.
I dont have problems.
I'm at a point in my life where i see no end in sight. I see no sleep. I see no happiness.
It feels as if I'm a warrior who has had an epiphany in the middle of combat, and amidst this epiphany I've taken my helmet off to see the blood and gore around me. And all im able to do is weep at the idiocy of war.
I see myself at war with my ex who has my child. I see myself at war with family and friends who dont see our would changing. I fight people and challenge people to see the beauty of every peddle and leaf lost on the branch of life that i call home. I have no feels to give. All are mine are gone. I fought so hard to find out that if what im saying is different from someone's else point of view no matter what evidence i have to prove my point I'm wrong. I'm at at point in my life where i see the strings that control the system and I cant cut them.
People have grown complacent and this place on 4chan is my last bastion of hope.
This place is where i go when I've lost all my fight. I see you here with me. I've been the guardian for far to long lurking and only posting when i could help but god damnit. Someone say something to remind me that im fighting for a reason.
>>tldr
niggers, that duck isnt facing the right way, it would take a crane to fix what wtsnacks fuckin saved.

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>>745022498
have a frozen doge

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>>745022498
Beautifully said, also

>last bastion

>>745022705
i enjoy the RIP.

>>745020372
I was there a couple years ago. Try to attend classes, but most of all just get out. Vitamin D is absolutely essential and it only comes from sunlight. Then, make a list of everyone and everything that's even a little important to you. I had three things. But they were enough to keep me in there. Eat lots of fruits and veggies. Exercise, even if not to build muscle or lose weight. There's no magic formula. But one day you'll have graduated (read textbooks, show up for tests) and then you'll have a job and inertia to keep you going. Try getting a gf, though doing so isn't really essential.

What keeps me going is the knowledge that I am infinitely small compared to the universe and infinitely large compared to myself. I can do basically whatever I want with almost no impact on anything except myself.

Also, talk to a doctor about getting antidepressants.

>>745022720
i know exactly how that robot feels. Should it be sentient.

>>745019152
what's wrong with webextensions

>>745022834
I love how there is no dialogue at all throughout the entire short

>>745020372
I read something quite awhile ago, that changed my understanding of this universe. Matter is energy, and because matter cant be created or destroyed im forced to agree that pain cant be destroyed; it can only be created.
My pain doesnt end with my death, my pain is just passed onto someone else.
I've dealt with so much bull shit in this life. I refuse to put all the pain ive felt onto anyone else.
Suicide only puts the pain you are feeling onto the few that love you.
Ask your self this. "are they stronger than you? can they handle the pain you are feeling?"
You've no idea who looks up to you, no matter what you have told your self. Honestly you have no idea who looks to you for strength.
>> i pushed everyone away in my life and when i did when i was ready to kill myself i looked around me,
>> saw so many others in the shadows ready to fallow me.
>> instead i learned to lead them in this horrible place.

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>>745020408
Don't take pills you retard. I suggest shotgun to the noodle, or helium mask. You're more likely to survive an OD. Also, going by the way you typed this, it seems you want attention more or just because you like the rush of being depressed and making yourself cry. When I was 11 and I finally came to a conclusion that life was pointless, I'd make myself sad all the time. It was like living a movie where I was important and someone, unknown to me, was rooting for me. After 6 years of doing that I got bored with it and ended up becoming (can't think of the word, like emotionless kinda) and came to the personal conclusion of living life and doing shit. If I die I die. I'm not being proactive about living, but still just hanging out drinking and playing cards. If you are actually going to kill yourself, shut up, and do it. Otherwise keep being the same cunt you are right now.

>>745018720
>there will never be a perfect OS.

>>745018720
>>745023338
that just means youre stupid cunts who cant use tools

>>745023338
I understand your sadness, Anon. What are you using right now?

Prolly need to send my old man into a home, kinda sucks but he's acting too insane for me to keep putting up with.

>>745023277
Why share pain with so many when you can share love and happiness instead?

>>745023721
My old man's been acting pretty nutty for the past few years himself. A lot of what he says is non-sequitur and he finds himself forgetting conversations/plans he's made with me many times over. He has a very difficult time following instructions as well. What's been going on with yours?

>>745023856
love is understanding.
I just want to share understanding and facts.

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This was posted last night

>>745023326
Ya know. I was gonna type the same thing. But i figured someone would beat me to the punch. Good shit broken anon. Good shit

>>745018256
Every day I wait. Checking my phone. Hoping for one message. I asked her to meet me. To talk to me about our relationship. Told her so many times that I loved her. That she was the one despite her flaws. All she could say was she didn't know. Didn't know what she wanted. This distance is killing me. Every night I drink and smoke myself to death. Take my antidepressants to numb my soul until she comes back. But deep down we both know she isn't coming back. She gave up along the way. I don't know if I can keep going. If I want to keep going. Just going to drown myself until it's over. I don't have any fight left.

>>745025039
Forget about her. It's easier said than done but fuck it, don't ruin your life for someone who doesn't give two shits about you

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Only rehashing this old story because I'm drunk. For the record I am 20 years old as of the time of this writing.

> be 17
> do 5 grams of shrooms
> at the time I was in a class with a girl a grade lower than me whose insta I used to fap to
> while tripping pull it up
> fifth-dimensional beings tell me she's sad and I need to help her
> too fucking beta to talk to her
> never do
> still think about it
> had a dream about her a few night ago
> it fucking hurts, anons. it fucking hurts.

M8 fucken it's all fucked.

>>745025039
"I don't know what I want" is a childish procrastination. Women use this to keep you on the line while seeking what they really want, and have you to fall back on if things don't go their way until the next time they don't know what they want.

Abandon. You don't need to fight anymore, the battle was done a long time ago.

>>745026559
nigga you need to stop being a bitch and help her.
Thats your duty.

>>745026708
See that's what I think. It's gonna be a bitch getting back in touch with her tho.

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On the verge of being 21, been in the service for 2 years now. Just left the best friends i ever had at my last duty station overseas and not quite fitting in to the new one im at. Drink and smoke alot to feel normal, wont be home for christmas for the first time and dont even know if i would even want to sonce my family relocated and homes not really home anymore. I love my family and been the man of the house since my dad died when i was 16 and i always want to be there for them but idk how things are gonna play out when i get out of the service, where ill be what ill do. Every time i reach one of my goals i feel real proud for a split second but i think im just destined to be one of those people thats depressed despite having a good social life and all that. Been real bad agoraphobic lately and sometimes will sleep for 14 hours a day and stay in my room unless one of my friends convinces me to come out. Really just confused and got alot of shit i want to figure out. Just really want to be happy, tired of clinging to nostalgia and substance to feel something.

Why is everyone so mean to each other? Seeing people say and do mean shit to each other just makes me so fucking sad. I don't give a fuck about your race, sex, height, weight, looks, hobbies or whatever. I just want to see people be good to each other. Too many comparisons, not enough conpanions.

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>>745027402
>Too many comparisons, not enough companions

That's powerful, anon

>>745025266
>>745026707
I know bros. It's been 3 years though. Hard to just stop fighting.

am depressed drunk currently on a bender

>>745027172
You're 21. You got time to figure shit out. Might take a while, but your young.

>>745027791
lmao same buddy. What're yo drinking?

I still care about my ex. Not romantically, but I hate myself for it. It's too late to try to be friends now. Oh well

love firefox to death but I can't log into my google account so I'm forced to use chrome. It's faster (i think) but I really miss firefox

>>745027880
>Anonymous 09/13/17(Wed)01:41:25 No.745027880▶
franzia, but only because years of drinking beer has turned me into a fat piece of shit

how bout you

>>745019396
god....... now i really need some Fritos
thank GOD i have a whole unopened bag of them downstairs

>>745025039
she left me for my best friend in the whole world. All my other friends blame me because he started shit talking me behind my back to get her and now I have nothing and no-one. I've tried to kill myself twice and all I got was some broken ribs and a trip to the psych ward. I spend all day everyday either at work or drinking (usually both). honestly I can't even be bothered to try killing myself again, I literally pray that a truck will hit me when i step out into the street, or a gas man will explode right next to me. I just want to die.

>>745028121
I don't understand

>>745028264
Lurk more.

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Why are we still here? Just to suffer? Every night, I can feel my leg... and my arm... even my fingers. The body I've lost... the comrades I've lost... won't stop hurting... It's like they're all still there. You feel it, too, don't you? I'm gonna make them give back our past.

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>>745022498
thank you very, very much for this anon
pic relate : best i can do to help you

>>745028101
Russian Standard with Apple Juice, because I bought a 60-ounce and am working my way through it.

I used to be a major asshole at work, always getting angry and a shit, but when I started drinking again that all went away, like it did in the past. Apparently my coworkers noticed in the past as well

> I can tell when anon is drunk
> how
> he's not so much of an asshole

H-hahaha, guys

>>745028392
there is no "them" anon
we just wish there was

>>745028705
being a drunk sucks but i find that the bender version of me is the best version of me

>>745028705
>>745028847
scientific fact : alcohol is a solution

>>745028847
Same, man.

>>745028918
> chemistry major

I know this on more levels than you can ever imagine, mon ami.

>>745029102
when I have enough clarity to realize that the drunk version of me is the only version of me that has value I get sad but then I remember I can just numb that feeling with alcohol

Was in a long distance relationship for 9 months. Only met up once for 3 days about 2 months ago. Ended the relationship because she decided after 9 months that she was only in the relationship because she didn't want to be alone. What a waste of time.

> McCuck
> fall in love with cute coworker
> work there almost two years now
> haven't tried to take it past work friends
> even got into a self-destructive relationship with a different co-worker who quit a week or two before she left me
> have grown as a person, but also become more drunk, more jaded, and less open and full of love
> not even sure why I'm typing this out and telling /b/ but I'm pretty drunk and if I'm being completely honest I'm starting to get emotional

H-hahaha, joke's on me.

>>745029405
that's my exact routine.

>>745029538
hey man, talking about it is a step. what's your plan going forward?

>>745029667
If I'm being honest, I was just going to start talking to her more, maybe try to flirt (I'm really bad at flirting) and eventually just fucking go for it. I mean, I've been rejected enough times before that I can handle it, there's really no other course of action.

>>745029768
hey man the worst that can happen is she rejects you. but if she does, that's experience you can use in the future. it ain't all bleak

granted I'm drunk now but I still feel that makes sense

>>745018256
I'm alone since spine surgeries starting at my first at 16 I'm 21 turning 22 the 11th, I'm having a panic attack right now..afraid of dying..it comes every night.. Idk what the fuck to do, I can't work, can't get my life on the road..I'm waiting for things, I want to spread my loving and caring heart too people before I go

>>745030073
You are correct. The older I get the less dramatic falling in love with a girl and wanting to talk to her is. I guess I've been through the motions enough times.

I'll probably see her within the next few days, I'll let you know how it works out.

>>745030183
I'm proud of you bud, making steps a lot of people have trouble with. you got this dude

>>745030166
I'm so damn alone, it's hell sitting in my room playing video games cause I'm in pain all the time, my mother loves me idk about my father, but they are the only people I have that care about me, nobody from my family visits me, no friends, so I'm stuck online playing xbox wishing things where different with my spine problem..

>>745030442
I know it can be difficult sometimes but is there a club or something in the area that you can join?

>>745030442
I'll get a girlfriend when I can afford it but that's might be a bit since I'm waiting to get help from the government .. My dad just wants me to get a job along with a lot of family even tho my docs say I can't..

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>>745018256

Fourth day straight of drama-addled 10 hours of work (blue-collar), second day drunk blondes drove slowly by just as I got off my job and yelled "Show us your titties!" and sped off.
Same day I started working on making myself healthier, diet-wise

>>745030606
Not really, small town, can't drive do to meds and lack of money so I'm fucking stuck, most people in my position would not be sane, stuck in a place for too long, I will look but I doubt it's gonna be easy

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Just want a girl that won't cheat tbh.

>>745030833
People are and can be flawed don't blame yourself for not finding her yet

>>745030641
But I've already almost died once and I think that's what freaks me out about death so damn much

>>745030990
I'll drop ways too get in contact with me, just in case someone wants to chat about things..kik:gameover169
Skype:kamiofthewest
Xbl:Typhoontheninja

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>>745020404
>Fresh out of college with outstanding job as lumberjack
Fucking kek

>>745020372
Don't worry man. I was in the same boat as you when I was your age. I was posting on 4chan about this same topic. It gets better. My situation has gotten much worse but you learn to live through it. Good luck, man. Life is a struggle but you'll get through it.

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>>745030902
That's true, but I'm alone now and since I live in the country it's hard to meet anyone new

>>745030833
You will find one one day, anon. Dont worry

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You eventually get over your first serious love, r-right?

>>745027172
Hey idk if you're still here but I think we are a lot alike and I think I can help. I'm 21, been in the army 3 years. I have a lot of friends my own house and shits going well but I'm not happy. I'm a single dude with a house mate. One night a few months ago I took about 24 mgs of Xanax and drank half a bottle of whiskey and tried to shoot myself but was so fucked up I dropped the gun blew a hole in the floor and woke my roommate. And in the short period of time I came to one conclusion that stuck with me through that night. This whole life thing isn't about any of us. It's about everyone but yourself. It's about the way you treat people. The way you laugh and love the way the trees move in a storm. The way your dog like to be pet by you over your friends. It's bigger than us. That thought helped me a lot. It helped me not get so pissed when something bad happened to me. Nothing's out to get me. It's not god or life. Honestly if anything it's just I make bad decisions and try to blame something other than myself. The world's good. People are good. Some are broken. But people are good. I find peace in that.

There was a storm outside hail and rain were hitting my window. The house started to shake about a minute later and I hear the tornado sirens going off. I got up and out into the hall way and tripped over some pictures that fell off the wall and cut my foot on glass. I was trying to crawl to the stairs I saw my brother. He picked me up and ran me down stairs to the basement. He put me in the cornor while the house was shaking and the floor boards were starting to come up. He ran back upstairs to find my parents and he got knocked back down the stairs by the wind. He crawled over to me and held me tight. The lights went out and I felt like the tornado was right over us. He covered me with his body and pushed me forward on to the concrete. He pulled down my pjs and began pushing his cock inside me for the next 30 seconds or so and then cumming inside me. He pull up my pjs when he was done and kept holding me til the storm was over. He walked up stairs with me to find the whole top part of the house was gone and we could not find my parents. I could never look at him the same. I was thankful he saved me but after what he did when the state picked us up I asked to be put into another foster home and never saw him again.

> beneath the stains of time
> the feelings disappear

> I will let you down
> I will make you hurt

Even if it is an emo faggot song, does anyone else still get hit hard by those four lines?

>>745020830
it's actually easily readable you mong

>>745031611
Im still here and i like that man. My issue is as corny as it sounds i feel like the same people that give me purpose i end up making homes out of them and theb when i leave them or cant see them i end up feeling homesick and that shit fucking hurts man like i feel like im living in memories

>>745030990
You need to get a job.
Im 20 and I have a job, wtihout this job I couldn't have survived. I had a charge with the court system and people look at money so disgustingly, its the only thing in the eyes of the outside world. Having some of it will at least get you a start to moving out/buying your own food and things, at least until you can either make more/leave somewhere. Its pretty hard to do. Im young working a pretty steady job now making a good wage, and ill tell you it is awesome.

>>745032013
to add on the reality is a lot worse than some people think. Your family just wants to help you out, trust me. Get a car if you can etc be ready at all times cause theres no telling when some really bad shit can happen. The good thing is that you never know when something really good can happpen either. Etc all that bullshit

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Still no whitneycorn :(

>>745031596
I wish I could tell you anon. I'm engaged to my first love. I don't think I ever want to know that feeling though.

>>745028168
I'm happy for you anon :)

>>745031653
>they look for you once you're gone.

it is literally going to kill me the day my cat dies.

>>745032282
Hold onto them forever, anon. I hope you never have to go through that loss.
Congratulations, btw

>>745031596

Nope. Come to terms with it, bitch-boy.

>>745032010
How I've felt since I was 10; going on 30 next year... I guess somethings don't change.

>>745032354
Thanks anon. I'll do my best! I wish you all the best on your road to happiness.

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>tfw you want to kill yourself, but you believe in a flying spaghetti monster, so you don't want to go to hell

>>745024299
> decide that if anything, i'll keep myself around until she is old enough to cope with my death

fuck

>>745018720
>not using waterfox

>>745026708
>>745026818

Elaborating on this, I honestly don't know how to help her or even if I should; I'm completely drunk and listeing to Taylor Swift and the line "Is this for real / I don't know what to think" from "Love Story" fucked me up because I was thinking about this story.

>>745019152

Chrome is a fucking bot-tier browser how can u use this and not hate yourself. I used FF until they got sorosed.com now I'm using palemoon

>>745032335
Be prepared anon because it will be soul crushing

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>born autistic
>no friends outside of my skype group
>bad at talking to women
>read self help book for it, but still taking baby steps
>manager and some coworkers are immature douche nozzles, but want to be treated like adults
>only reason I wake up is to hopefully be able to move to Georgia by the end of the year to start medical school.

Some days are a hell of a lot harder than others, like today.

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This happend last night
>Be 20
>Virginfag
>Friend and me went to visit a good friend
>Don't really know her that well only met her like 3 times
>Her friend liked Nitrous
>It's legal and she had a few canisters
>Being the drug addict I am I immediately jump the opportunity
>The friend that showed up with me didn't want to try
>We do it once , It's pretty chill but not my type of drug
>Smoke weed and chill for a few hours
>She wants to do it again
>This time at the balcony
>She wants us to be alone
>Didn't get the hint
>Didn't really want to do it again but I man up eventually and do it
>As I'm trying to figure out what's going on she tells me something
>She wants to make out on it
>Freeze
>She's getting up and sitting on my lap and we start making out
>I panic and I can't really feel my mouth I'm just making weird movements with my jaw like a
Retard
>Tell her I need to breath
>She gets off me and goes to her seat
>I laugh at my autism and total loss of motor functions
>As we’re about to get inside she blurts something
>Oh anon I'm in an open relationship

That all happend like 15 hours ago that's not the whole story but it sums it up pretty good

>>745034140
I'm not autistic, so idk if this would work for you, but fake confidence. It's what I do. Pretend to be the most confident motherfucker in the room and you will be the most confident motherfucking the room. Don't think about, "b-but what if that girl says no or that group of people doesn't want to hang out with me." Just go for it. Pretend to be Chad Thundercock and eventually you will be Chad Thundercock.

>fall in love with female best friend
>end up dating officially after hanging out a ton for like a year, shit's great
>start to notice something's amiss but shrug it off, paranoid from bad experiences obviously
>breaks up with me because she realized is lesbian
>ouch but okay, still love
>brief period of extreme pain but still hang out and are best friends
>time goes buy, get over it whatever
>end up moving in with her and other best friend
>realize i'm not fucking over it and she's the only person i've ever loved, have a really hard time getting close to people and normies- i'm good at it but just don't care about anybody outside small handful
>overall a good time and good living situation but am often overcome with how i feel about her and it's killing me a little everyday that we'll never be together
>fucking idiot

>>745034281
I've tried that before back in high school and just felt like shit because I knew it was all an act. I've actually found more success by reading The Flow and playing trial and error. I just wish my aspergers wouldn't inhibit me as much as it does.

>>745031596
I don't think so. She's not coming back, it's been a year buddy, you have to stop thinking like this.

>>745034577
It's only been 4 months, if that.

>>745032274

fuck she's hot, look at those lines and curves, what a beauty

>>745020372
Why do you want a painless death?
I've seen people say they want a painless way to off themselves, but I've never understood why.

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lurkin.

22 y/o virgin should i just kms?

>>745034736
Fuck. I'm projecting a bit. Well either way, she's probably moved on.

>>745035016
Nah. Just live your life and sex will happen eventually if you care about it and are even remotely social.

>>745035016
I'm there too. Ride it out, fuck the hoes. There's plenty that you could be doing that would be more meaningful to you and others than getting your dick wet.

>>745034991

jew did dis fo shur

>>745035131

i just feel so left behind lmao, im not even ugly im just a giant pussy

>>745035188
Then do shit outside of your comfort zone. You don't have to do anything big at first, just do small shit like showering with cold water, share a casual exchange with a girl. ("how about that weather", etc..) You're not left behind, most guys are actually still virgins these days, and women want more than anything for a guy to take the initiative. Godspeed to you friend.

My boyfriend ignores important details and lets me lift things even though it causes me great pain while he just stands there. We're moving in together at the moment and my back is in so much pain it's unbelievable.

I'm suffering my second bout of PTSD (the real kind, not the meme kind) and I find myself having to pause so I don't explode at him.

Other than that he plays WoW all the time. I love him, but the opposite of love is indifference, and i'm leaning towards not caring slowly.

>>745018256
>26, straight, white male.
>Many thousands of dollars in student debt.
>Had one girlfriend in college, she dumped me in 2012.
>Haven't found a woman who'll have sex with me for free since.
>Addicted to alcohol, prostitutes and gambling.
>Took out about $15K to fly around the world (and fuck whores) before committing suicide.
>Pills didn't work (30 ambien + 30 clonidine)
>3 years probation and $290 a month restitution
>Can't even hold down a Walmart job due to depression and social anxiety.

inb4... whatever, I'm too depressed to care.

>>745035489
Tits or GTFO. You know the rules.

>>745035489
Don't care or dump that stupid shit. look for others. Seriously. Search for person who cares.
Otherwise, there is no sense.

>>745035489
That really sucks. If I were you I wouldn't even put up with that kind of shit. He's supposed to be a man, he should at least help out with that kind of shit, not leave it all on you to do.

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I dated this one girl from my high school, a pretty girl with her head in the clouds, we had been dating for 4 years when I had met this girl at my work, let's call this new girl Jennie. Jennie and I hang out during work hours talking about stupid shit you say after high school. Jennie had a boyfriend out East and she wasn't happy with him for whatever reason. I thought I was happy with my gf but it's just the same old routine. Jennie and I could both tell that we wanted each other but because we were both in relationships it wouldn't work out. So in secret, Jennie and I would go on dates. Once I got my degree from school, I could tell the time with my girlfriend was coming to an end. She always talked about getting married and having kids, while Jennie always wanted to live in the now, never having the same day twice. Jennie and I took everything we wanted, withdrew all the cash in our accounts and hit the road. We didn't know where we were going but we were both together. Our first stop was the local version to switch phone numbers, and change the billing. Then we headed up north. After a couple days of driving around we hit Montana. We get a small apartment there. Jennie has changed who I am, in a good way. My gf's romantic lifestyle invoked getting food at the same place every other day, then having sex, then Netflix. Every. Single. Time. With Jennie I am able to do anything I ever wanted, last week we did a spontaneous trip to Niagra falls. It's been about a month since I left. Curious about how things are back home I log on to FB. Holy shit did my girlfriend message me. She messaged me 168 times. I was breaking her heart. My family was worried about me, mostly my mother, my dad always wanted me to be independent. But the worst of it all was the last message my gf sent me was a private link to a video about her telling me that she hates how I abandoned her and how our kids could never be because of me leaving. That was a few days ago. Tbc

>>745035556
They didn't say shit about being a gril

>>745035677
Then faggot, go.

>>745033852
I'm going to start using palemoon, anything i should know?

>>745018256
Im stuck at my friends house its 5am and i gotta take a fire hydrant level piss but i dont know where the bathroom is what do i do?

>>745035662
Her mom messaged me the next day about how my gf killed herself. I honestly don't know how to handle the news. I haven't told Jennie anything about me checking FB. I realize how much of a piece of shit I really am, and how I left everything for a girl just because it was different. What the hell am I supposed to feel right now?

>>745035662
>My gf's romantic lifestyle invoked getting food at the same place every other day, then having sex, then Netflix.
Can I have her number?

>>745035718
Find a cup or a bottle or something.

>>745035757

You're late to the party >>745035756

>>745035718
Look around for the bathroom? People usually leave the door open. Or just fucking ask.

>>745035809
I mean... was she hot? Because....

>>745035838
She was beautiful, it was just I was lost in the routine. Jennie changed all of that, and equally as beautiful.

>>745035756
>going an hero for your attention
why are girls so selfish

>>745035556
I'm not a girl. No tits for you.

>>745035597
I'm coming to this realization now. Just when i've committed to moving in with him, he has stopped listening to me when i really need to get shit off my chest, he tells me to go to the doctor or stares at me blankly. Whenever something used to be wrong, we'd draft a battleplan and stick to it.

He's asking me if there's stuff he can do to help my mental state - so i linked him to an article on caring for someone with PTSD. but he is still triggering me by crowding me in, and just straight up taking control of everything. I'm in deep shit.

>>745035652
I'm a man too. I can lift but really shouldn't. My back is so rekt i'm gonna be wheelchair bound by the time i'm 45.
He lifts the lighter stuff, but i get the heavy stuff and then lay on the couch in agony.

>>745035963
Open casket? Just asking... for reasons.

>>745036003
Cremated.

>>745036127
I can work with that.

>>745035838
Ask who? At 5 in the damn morning

>>745019152
Try Vivaldi m8

>>745036200
You've got to piss, they'll get over it.

>>745035963

i lub u jenn ee

>>745035973
Deep shit? Dump him. You will feel better singl;e, trust me.
Tellin as a person who was in shitload of fucked up relationships. Being single sometimes is just better.

>>745036620
I'm in deep shit because i just signed a lease agreement for a year.

I hear you though. Being single is better sometimes.

>>745022498
>I'm at a point in my life where I see the strings that control the system and I can't cut them.

Man you've perfectly managed to summarize my exact sentiments with a single sentence.

>>745036684
you have loads of time - check if it's possible to cancel that or something like that. Or make him leave you. Anyway, you will be free.

Anon, appeciate this, because another anon fucking care.

>>745018256
since i was young, probably around 14, ive felt my existence and suffering is entirely for the benefit of friends and loved ones.
ive been diagnosed with chronic major depression, and havent felt truly happy in a long time.
things can be as fortunate as possible, my life can be by all reckoning "great", and i still feel depressed.

ive tried SSRIs to combat it, but theyve only proven marginally effective.
they also stripped most of the pleasure out of one of the only things i previously enjoyed, that being sex.

nowdays sex feels like the rest of my life, for the benefit of others.

if it werent for the responsibilities i have to those around me, i would have killed myself a hundred times over at this point.

i want to die, and am resolute in this assertion.

however i care too much for the feelings and lives of others to end it all.

i have not attempted suicide yet, as i know if i do make an attempt it will be successful.
im fairly intelligent, and have done plenty of research on the success rates of various forms of suicide and why they fail.

ive planned it and prepared, but never attempted.


i have pretty severe hyperfocus ADD, and it takes significant willpower, constantly, to function at a reasonable level in the normal world.

i have a boyfriend, and love him very much, and he loves me back, and is very loyal. hes probably the only thing in this world that brings me a sliver of happiness, but even then when with him, most of the time i am depressed.

i dont understand why he would tolerate someone like me.
i treat him well, but... i can only imagine what a drag i must be to regular happy people.

im a guy, btw. 19 years old, and already sick of life starved of happiness.

Gal Gadot and whitney could be siblings

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>>745022705
>have a frozen doge
>cold cat.jpg

>I live in Japan
>I'm married and I have a young kid
>slowly starting to hate and hate these fuckers more and more
Long long long story short
>I'm an amazing teacher my students always perform higher than their age level.
>I've done it for many years
>I'm so good that people start copying me and my style
>even the Japanese teachers sound just like me
>we just had a sports day event and I'm usually more proactive but I thought id let some of the Japanese teachers organise it
>after the event the parents are really happy.
Back to work and the Japanese staff complained that the "foreigners" didn't do anything during the big event.
I just wanna punch these cunts man.
I'm worried for my sons future that I might get arrested for killing a coworker

>>745037068
I tried to commit sucide once, when I couldn't do it, I decided to live. Not just the petty life where one keeps on going for others, or where one continues to live an extremly empty life, with zero interactions or plans for one's future. No. A real life. Hang in there mate, I care about you.

>>745037068
You should have put that you were gay at the start

>>745038085
tbh you dont know me. you care about the seretonin rush you get from acting virtuously.

i havent been happy for a long time.
ive forced myself to achieve goals and meet requirements.
ive tried pursuing things i once found enjoyable.

it feels as if im just going through the motions.

>>745037037
I appreciate you caring anon.

All of a sudden he is asking me if he can help me do stuff. He's gone to take stuff to the new place now.

I literally cannot back out. Our first month's rent is paid. What I can do is ready myself over the next year and save up to get back out there on my own.

And i'll probably stay alone.

"I love you" are the cheapest 3 words in existance

Is it normal to feel like a little pussy after comparing my problems with everyone else's?

>>745038155
does it really matter?
if i was female, i still have a boyfriend, and im still loyal.
if i was a straight male, so what?

its pretty inconsequential.

>>745038279
Sounds to me like you also might have PTSD.

Do you have a medical professional you can talk to?

How do I know where to cut with a razor blade

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>>745024299
Seen this shit 3 times since the guy originally posted it and it always gets me.

>>745038706
i have had, yes.
it hasnt helped.
i was told i was feigning depression as a way to excuse myself from problems, and that it was psychosomatic.

they ended my prescription of escitalopram, and ive been dealing with things myself since.

to be honest, id prefer to do so.

i dont want to be a leech, and i dont want to cause problems for anyone.

i just want to cease existing.

>>745038755
down the road, not across the street.
ideally you want to cut the veins right open down the middle, and do so for multiple large ones.

there are better ways to die, however.

>>745038848
Listen to me anon.

You need to go and find a different medical professional who will treat you with compassion.

We're all leaches. We're draining this planet into nothing.

The more you try to deal with it yourself, the worse it will get. The only person you're causing problems for is yourself, buddy.

Please, take care of yourself and find help. It will make a ton of difference

>>745034140
Sup, /b/ro.i live in GA. We should be friends.

> Tfw eating disorder
>Been fasting for 5 days now
> Tfw too fat for treatment

>>745034140
Keep your head up, fellow autistic anon.

>>745038979
to whom? ive given up on my own desires.
sure it might make me less of a drag to be around.

but i think the best thing for everyone is for me to die.
i have a genetic range that i can confirm has been hell, and do not wish to inflict on any potential offspring.
i wouldnt want any child that wasnt my own.
my boyfriend could find much better people.
im dirt poor.
im intelligent, but lazy and unmotivated, and constantly distracted, so i make a poor employee.
im a dissapointment of a son, as my father was a police officer, a commercial skipper and a marine engineer, and my mother has been a conservation officer, a marine biologist, a health and nursing tutor, a buisiness admin, a buissiness tutor, and recently got her master's in buisiness and psychology.

my father passed away when i was young, and my mother has given up on me.

everyone who has ever beleived in me for any extent of time has seen the pointlessness and given up, just as i have.

if you knew me for two weeks at the rate of honesty ive given you here, youd give up on me too.

everyone does.

im just waiting for my flatmate to get sick of me, and my boyfriend to give up on me.

then i can finally die in peace.

> tfw depressed
> tfw overweight (not fat, but chubby)
> tfw started starving myself to lose weight
> tfw lost 20 pounds in 3 weeks
> tfw seeing the numbers drop on the scale makes me feel a brief happiness
> tfw i still hate my life despite starting to look decent
> tfw life will always be shitty