feels thread share your sad pictures and stories please

Dude.. that.. got me.

basically my whole life is a feels thread. i posted 2 stories in an earlier thread,
>was poor growing up, lived in shitty places
>couldnt afford tv
>had to bathe in a large laundry bucket using neighbors hose water
>shared a medium bed with 2 brothers until i turned 17
>only ever watched tv when i was at a friends or a cousins house
>was bullied by 2nd grade teacher
>depression kicks in at this age
>stop doing work
>stop being a perfect attendance student
>whenever i do show up teacher yells at me
>not even 10 years old and already have suicidal thoughts
>barely pass 2nd grade with D's and F's due to lack of caring about school...
cont? i posted 2 stories in an earlier thread,i can keep going if you guys would like

>>744844941
i'm interested

File: 20170911_175818.jpg (730KB, 1431x1187px) Image search: [Google]

730KB, 1431x1187px

My arm right now. Only recently started. Gonna be adding more very shortly. How's everyone doing

>>744845054
Пoчeмy, блядь?

>>744845054
You shouldn't cut, man. Feel free to share whatever happened that drove you to it.

>>744844941
>>744845021
>3rd grade
>the goofball of the class because i decided being a loner was boring and i like seeing people smile and stuff
>still doing very bad in school
>still severely depressed
>still fucking poor
>make a few decent friends but one really good friend
>dont want him coming over to my house because poor and embarrassed
>go to his house
>play whatever games he has, play outside and general fun kid stuff
>start flunking in school despite friends best efforts to help me study
>just dont care about school
>summer school
>fail
>friend moves on in school but we stay very close
>make no friends 2nd year of 3rd grade because i think im too cool for all these "little kids"
>enjoy good times with friend
>gonna grow old with this guy by my side
>friends dad is a "retired" gangbanger
>tries his hardest to keep that life away from his son
>friends dad gets into financial trouble
>fast forward a week or so
>had a great day with friend
>walking him home
>5 o clock ish
>leave friend on corner of his block, as i had to get home as quick as possible
>start walking back
>car full of niggers drives by me
>dontcare.jpg
>few seconds later shots are sent off
>run home as fast as possible
>friend doesnt show up to school
>1 week later
>friend still doesnt show up
>see friends mom in school picking up friends brother
>ask where friend is
>cries and invites me and my parents over to her house
>friend passed away
>shot in the heart
>lost my closest and only friend
>absolutely destroyed
>no will to do anything
>stop doing work in school again
>barely pass 3rd grade
fuck man writing this got me feeling like shit. more? after this one im going to have to type up the rest of the stories i have

>>744845102
Don't speak Russian, sorry.

>>744845116
Eh long story short I rely on friends' happiness to be happy, I have Asperger's, and when I try to help friends, I fail miserably. I'm a failure at just about everything I've done. 21 no job no experience no intelligence no nothing. I deserve everything bad that's happened so far and is yet to come

I have crippling depression. Why? IDK.

>>finished college
>>good education
>>in high school A-grade student
>>in college B-grade
>>have kinda nice life

but I want to kill myself every fucking day. I try to focus on feels to see if I can feel a shit. I feel so, so, so alone...

>>744845202
dude >>744845102 said "Why, bitch?" in rough translation. You are welcome.

File: 1420822634131.jpg (839KB, 1000x1000px) Image search: [Google]

839KB, 1000x1000px

>I miss my mom
https://youtu.be/dsGODTySH0E

>>744845313
Cheers. I'd take offense to it if it weren't accurate. I'm a piece of shit

File: nTXZfat.jpg (1MB, 1184x3769px) Image search: [Google]

1MB, 1184x3769px

>>744843456
>share your sad pictures and stories please
fuck you
>pic related

>>744845376
Come on dude. Everyone here feels the same. It's 4chan, people are used to offend others to show they care.
Why are you cutting?

>>744845376
I used блядь as more of a distressed, more like
>Why the fuck are you doing this?
something insulting would be
>Пoчeмy, cвoлoч?
I am not Russian, so my language usage would be wrong.

Just don't do it anon.

>>744845534
could not would.

>>744845534
I live near Russia so I kinda understand. Swolocz //fonetic// is something between "bitch" and "bastard" I assume.

Good effort.

File: The news..jpg (114KB, 1500x500px) Image search: [Google]

114KB, 1500x500px

>>744845748

File: Tell me, dear master..png (287KB, 1500x500px) Image search: [Google]

287KB, 1500x500px

>>744845900

>>744845596
still did not answer.

>be me, last year November
>got a girlfriend earlier that year
>got a job
>life is going great
>my childhood dog of 14yrs starts getting an abscess in his eye
>go to vet
>"we'll have to put him down anon or his eye could rupture and he'd bleed out"
>fucking cry for periodically for days and days
>go in on the weekend and put dog down
>still feel okay when I'm around girlfriend or at work
>still a productive person
>hadn't seen my mom in years, she was abusive
>get a call from my aunt
>1 week after my dog dies
>"your mom died alone 2 weeks ago anon and her body was just found"
>she always tried to make amends for her abuse
>i never let her in and allowed myself to have a mother
>console myself with thoughts like "it's okay, I've still got a job and a girlfriend"
>fast forward to this year February
>1 week before Valentine's my girlfriend breaks up with me for "irreconcilable differences"
>call her a dumb bitch, we'd only argued 3 times over the course of 9 months
>3 weeks later I see she's with someone else, had Valentine's pics with him
>sinks in that she was probably cheating on me
>go in to a major depressive episode for the first time ever
>have to be hospitalized for suicidal ideation, given haldol via IM despite not being psychotic (haldol is antipsychotic)
>have a bad reaction, wind up with temporary tardive dyskinesia
>tongue swells up because of it, nearly die in the hospital
>revived after being rushed to ER in hospital I was in, went blue, passed out, heart stopped
>defibrillator saves my life after being clinically dead for 3min., no brain activity
>leave hospital after 2 weeks, refuse to be there because of unfair drugging
>get a knock at my door
>"papers served, your ex is getting a restraining order"
>dumb bitch, I never hurt you or stalked you
>kick her ass in court and make her cry, my father represents me as my lawyer
>lose job because of lengthy hospitalization
>fast forward a few months
1/?

>>744846313
Interesting

>>744846313
go ahead.

>>744846313
>get another job
>start pursuing something I've wanted to try on the side, which is acting
>after my first gig with a short indie film I get lots of inquiries
>i guess I'm a good actor, I've got a lot of experience in life for my age which is good for method acting
>talented, also an attractive white male
>getting paid good money in comparison to shit job I had when I was with my girlfriend

Not all stories have bad endings. It's still continuing and I hope I become a somebody, just as a "fuck you," to the dumb bitch that decided to leave me because I was having issues. My success will be my revenge.

Pic related, it's my dog. Miss you, buddy.

>>744845148
after these events i was sort of a quiet kid, did my own thing but still didnt care about my education.
>5th grade
>start smoking weed
>still have very few friends
>quiet kid but didnt take shit from people
>depressed
>angry at the world
>supportive teacher
>have anger towards teachers
>she wouldnt give up on me despite me being a complete fuck up
>had many talks with my parents
>was angry towards her for this
>stopped going to school
>went to trap houses to spend the time
>would do nothing but smoke in there with the other kids who would ditch school
>didnt really make friends with them, just smoking buddies
>see teacher after a session
>she gets sad
>tells me im fucking up my life
>i tell her thats the plan
>continue to talk to her for a little while about my problems
>she is determined to steer me in the right direction
>go to school a little more
>end of the school year
>not fully back on track but doing well enough to not be forced into summer school
>summer
>go to program for kids to stay out of the streets as
>teacher is volunteering there
>make a few friends but nothing too special
>get really close to teacher as she was the only one in my life at this point who is really pushing me to do better
>really like her.
>determined to turn my life around because of her
>come 6th grade
>family buys a house with my uncles family
>have to move school
>miss her
>sneak back into old school to see if she still teaches there
>retired after helping me
>felt abandoned

File: 1490552187198.jpg (22KB, 495x474px) Image search: [Google]

22KB, 495x474px

>>744846774
Everything's gonna be okay, Hunter. Lame name but that's not what I'm here about.

>>744845265
Sounds like clinical depression to me. I recommend professional help, that shit is insidious and it's nigh impossible to escape on your own.

File: 1483282332401.png (440KB, 633x758px) Image search: [Google]

440KB, 633x758px

>>744846313
That slut had someone already lined up before she broke it off with you if she had already spent Valentine's with him. What a filthy cunt.

Anyway, go on, Anon.

>>744846856
Cool, you found my Facebook. And my cover photo. Everyone knows how to reverse image search my dude.

>>744847003
I was being fucking sincere, but you know what, I take it back. Your life's gonna crash down tenfold, you bitter little child.

File: 20170710_155904.jpg (2MB, 2976x2976px) Image search: [Google]

2MB, 2976x2976px

>>744845054
Those are pussy cuts. You have to make them deeper.

>>744845534
>>744845492
Sorry was taking a shower. I cut because I deserve the pain. I'm a leech on others and I can't stand it anymore.

>>744847069
What's wrong with you? I was giving you props for the know-how. Anyway, everything is more than "okay."

>>744847069
^that.

When 4chan went down to cringe tumbrl, really?

>>744847098
Go forward. Take a job. Rent a flat. Really. It will be OK of you cut off people fucking you up.

>>744847169
Nice interpretation.

>>744847098
Get a job then you lazy bum. I bet you are a millennial.

>>744847093
Yeah I know. I did one slightly deeper (like 2mm or some shit) just then. Posting from pc. Lemme grab a pic real quick.

>she is a cute chick i met through a hobby group
>ask out on a date
>positive answer but cloudy
>herewego.jpg

>next time we meet as part of hobby group
>she is visibly uncomfortable being within proximity of me
>it is fucking murder to watch her be so uncomfortable
>pull her aside
>she says "hey lets be friends"
>sweet we are done here lets fuck off
>"nah"
>"why faggot," she asks
>"i cant be friends with someone i wanna bone and take out to minigolf or take to a ball or whatever the fuck"
>she begins to try to convince me why we should be friends
>i thank her for her honesty and begin to go back to the group
>she makes a concerted effort to get me to respond to what she is saying before i can leave
>"yeah"
>rest of the group meeting was surreal, having to be in the same vicinity as this woman

>meet is over
>feel enlightened
>meet with various friends and share how i stood up for myself and went after what i wanted
>when i couldnt get what i wanted, stopped wasting everyones time and moved on to getting what i want
>saw new faces out of friends who seemed ready to an hero, like they were given hope

File: 20170911_184458.jpg (1MB, 2592x1944px) Image search: [Google]

1MB, 2592x1944px

>>744847093
I'd go longer or down my arm but I don't want people to know about it. I can cover it with any shirt.

>>744847249
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=siAbiwPyccg

>>744847216
See above but less sarcastic. Been literally looking daily for months. Got 1 interview and didn't get a call back.

>>744847505
You are regretting this already. And trying to plan life like "Okay, did shit, but it does not affect me, yeah?"
Come on.

Stop. You are doing this to impress anyone? To hurt yourself? You are not impressing anyone. You just destroy your body. You can hurt yourself in many other ways. And try to get out of this shit.

>>744847069
kek, i bet this triggered kid is feverishly googling "how to hack a facebook"

File: 1464090798688.jpg (71KB, 750x724px) Image search: [Google]

71KB, 750x724px

>>744847505
Also, try the "worst" job. Shop assistant? Production line worker? Maybe look elsewhere? Really, it's possible. I know that.

>>744846835
throughout all of sixth grade i did fairly well up until i found out my ex teacher retired
>2nd half of 6th
>depressed again
>stop caring about school
>stay out of the streets
>stay in school but spend all my time sleeping and not paying attention
>fuck up again
>make some shady ass friends
>friends are 8th/9th graders
>smoke with them more than i have ever smoked
>they start doing hard shit like coke
>offer me some but i always refuse
>one of the friend sees that im not interested but gets me into selling dope
>start selling weed/crack/coke
>coming up on some good money
>cant tell parents cus they'll flip shit
>brother starts working
>family still not making enough to make ends meet properly
>can trust my brother
>give him some cash to give parents for whatever they need it for
>all is good for a while
>still depressed
>still taking the wrong path in life
>end of 6th
>summer school
>8th grade friends also have summer school
>kinda hand around with them at times
>heavy security in school
>cant bring drugs into bc police dogs
>stop selling
>start hanging out with the oddball of the group more because he was closer to my age
>wasnt a bad kid, just making the wrong friends
>hung out with him, played gamecube, yu gi oh and pokemon with him
>all is going well
>pass summer school
>onto 7th
>friend goes on to 9th
>kinda drift apart as time goes on
>dont really have much friends in school anymore
>lonely as fuck
>fast forwards to a couple months ago
>watching the news
>there was a murder on the block i used to live in
>friend got shot in a drug deal gone wrong
>further worsen my depression

>>744847698
Signed up with some job agencies, even tried remedial shit like packing boxes. Nothing.

>>744847626
>I can cover it with any shirt.
Because covering stuff with your shirt is so impressive. Yes, I'm trying to destroy my body/hurt myself. Why else would I be doing it.

>>744846774
This must seem worthless coming from an anon on the interwebs, but for what its worth, I'm praying for you.
Godspeed, anon, don't let life get you down.

>>744847457

>next day
>paranoia has long set in
>first i made that girl uncomfortable by showing up, then i made her put on a pitiful display
>"we should still be friends"
>what did i do to that poor girl?
>fuck me
>cant handle the mental and emotional strain
>collapse to the floor like its a goddamn drama
>after laying there for an hour, realized i did the right thing and i should stop being a faggot
>havent stopped being a faggot
>spent the next few weeks frantically keeping myself occupied so i wouldnt think about her
>eventually find reprieve and stop thinking about her on the daily
>because found another woman
>because im a faggot

>couple months later
>she messages me

when you tell women how you feel about them then leave them alone when they say nah, they tend to get in contact months later. anyways

>she messages me
>what the fuck
>herewego,jpg
>we message back and forth briefly
>nothing of value or importance was said by either of us
>whatsthepoint.jpg
>back to thinking about her often enough
>still a faggot

moral of the story: put your foot down for how you feel and dont be a fucking faggot

>>744845265
I can relate to that feel.

> did pretty well in HS
>went to an alright college for a fast associates degree in electronics because I figured it would be faster to get experience in the field and hired in a good job.
>Let that company pay for further education to get more money.
>They did.
>make cozy $80-110k a year depending on overtime at age 24

But it feels like something is missing. It's not a girl, because I've been in a couple relationships, and they just bored me or get annoying given enough time, then I just break up with them.

It's like your whole life, you had the goal to work hard and land a good job, but when you get there, now what? All I pretty much do is play video games in my down time. Just feels kind of empty. No real reason to feel depressed, but it's not really sadness, it's just emptiness and apathy.

>>744843456
I have a feels story if anyone wants to hear

>>744848186
Spit it

>>744847730
goddamn it man
*hugs*

>>744848306
still have a whole lifetime of stories to go but i have to go to sleep. thanks for reading man. i'll probably be back tomorrow if this doesnt get 404'd

>>744848078
It just feels like my life is just a game, and I'm only going through it to see what happens. Everyone around me seems predictable in their actions and thoughts. It seems like I'm getting good at just manipulating people without even trying. Not even in harmful ways, but I feel like I only associate with people I deem useful, and I get use out of them.

Maybe I'll get into politics in another few years just to see if I can, just for the hell of it.

>>744848217
>be me
>highschool
>never have any sort of connection with girls even though I want to just never turns out that way
>think it's something wrong with me
>put myself down self loathing is a regular
>met this dykish girl
>she was pretty chill I talked with her hell I found her funny
>she made it seem liked she liked me too
>she sent me messages and shit like cutsey shit couples send each other
>start sort of falling for this girl
>one of my "friends" let's just call him Asian Fag started talking to dyke chick
>realize instantly what would happen
>decide to pull a 4D chess move
>you see Asian Fag hates me fore being a commie my plan was to tell him to date the dyke chick

At first this seems retarded but this guy hated me so much sometimes if I told him to do something he did the exact opposite.

>counting on that
>turns out Asian Fag had a change of heart about me
>I spent some time trying to make them as separated as possible
>autisticly fail in such a spectacular way that they actually like each other even more
>they fucking thank me for this

>>744848771
Man that's harsh

>>744848078
Exactly. But you know what? I figured it out, probably. We just see "above" and see "more".

Let's be honest. Humankind's future is in the stars. But, really... Does it go anywhere?
Already have planet's climate fucked up. In 50 years we will live in Mars, then Moon, mkay. Then... What? Another solar systems? We fuck them too?
Maybe in 100 years ppl will live in other solar systems. Then another and another. But, you know what? Something like asteroid can fuck up whole specie. Everywhere. We will finally get to the point where we can not expand more and finally will be fucked up and destroyed. There will be nothing. Whatever we do, is pointless, because in the end that will not matter a single shit.
People forget. Buildings collapse. We will get down to the empty abbys od vast.

>>744845054
Fuckin retard