feels thread

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>>744043734
What's wrong with you anon?

>>744043734
You still here Anon or are you gonna let this thread die?

>>744044036
i miss my ex boyfriend so much but then again i feel like i dont miss him exactly, i just miss that he was the only person who ever made me feel important i dont know, that and other things

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>>744043734
Man, I'm having a bad day, how about you guys?

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>>744044574
Idk, the more I think about it, the more I realize people come and go. No one will be with you forever anon, you just need to accept that and move on to the next person. People are expendable and you will find others, though unfortunately, he will probably weigh on your mind forever, I guess that's just how it works.

>>744044615
Everyone in a feel's thread is going through something.

I've kept my feelings inside and pretended I was happy so well for a year, I almost convinced myself. Why is it coming back now? Why can't she leave me, because I can't bring myself to do it, even though she hurts me so much. Why haven't I forgotten the pain she brought me, and why can't I stop loving her anyway? Why does everyone fuck with me? Why don't my parents ever smile at me? Why can't I be talked to besides to be used for something? Why don't I care if I live or die?

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>>744043734

>>744045018
Life sucks man what else can we really say. Though occasionally it has its bright sides, it's brief intermissions of happiness and joy. I know full well why you don't care if you live or die, I from time to time feel the same.

>>744045070
Really faggot, kys. Summers over now so fuck off. Can't you just let your fellow anon's ponder and mourn in peace, faggot?

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>>744044615
I'm having a bad life.

just depressed and confused about love life right now... you know how it is. girl problems

op here, goodnight friends i cant keep my eyes open any longer

>>744045010
Oh anon.. That make my cry like a fag to.
I want to make a movie with this story.

>>744047955
night opi :^)

>>744043734
The only real sexual relationship I've had was with my cousin when I was 14. I spend most of my days playing dota in this rundown trailer on my aunts property I steal WiFi from my neighbors and mostly jerk it to trap porn because I just don't like the way womans vaginas are. I don't like bathing, soap makes my skin break out in a rash so I towel down with a wet washcloth twice everyday but I can still tell people think i stink. Sometimes I just want to die...

I'm so fucking sick, I can't handle how real life is getting,

>>744047788
Just stay away from these creatures !

>Spending my birthday in a motor home

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>>744047788
'Nuff said.

>>744045010
I need that pepe

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>>744048588

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>>744048683
Thanks anon

>>744045010
Sad part it that post was made september first 3 years ago

I thought
I did it, I moved away from the toxic place of high school and to college. i resolved to be an alpha, i groomed myself, lifted weights and read philosophy on personal fortitude. I made chad friends and acted like a chad, meeting people and getting girls numbers. I was hellbent on trying to make something of my worthless self and though sheer confidence ad will power, overcoming my social ineptitude. Me and the chaddest friend I know went to the club tonight with some girls we know. I talked with one girl for hours and eventually i decided to ask her to dance. She curled her lipo, told me to leave her alone. 10 min lager, she was making out with my chad friend.

What the fuck is wrong with me? Am i really so disgusting that I dot deserve affection? Once a loser. Always a loser.

have a sweet girlfriend but her depression makes it so she never wants to be intimate. i try so hard to help her cheer up & have a good time but shes always down and never in the mood.

i almost dont even ask for fun anymore, i just jerk off once before our dates so im not super horny & annoying, then 2 more times once the night is over.

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>>744043734
My life long friend an hero'ed yesterday morning.

>>744049152
Fuck that hits me hard

>>744049152
That was litearally how i felt through all my years of school

Moving back for college within the next year, mixed feelings though. Mostly just stressed over other things.

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>>744049281
this one has always made me cringe

really? the ONLY way to hurt someone is to do a really long and specific thing about something they care about?

and then also it's guaranteed 100% of the time to make the guy a soulless killing machine or something?

that's some anime logic, fuck y'all sad niggas

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>>744049526
But anyway, kill yourself.

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>>744049797
dont you fuckin meme at me you suicidal faggot

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>>744049512
fugg

>>744049526
I don't think that's the message here. Obviously, if you take everything a man has and make his life shitty by instilling an inferiority complex, that person is bound to change drastically. It doesn't mean that they're going to become a soulless killing machine. Someone once degraded the one thing I cared for, and I spent two years haunting them and ruining their lives. That was my first instinct, and I would happily do it again. Of course, it's easy for you to dismiss all forms of substantial psychological harm, because you hide behind sarcasm. You're too weak to face yourself, and us? We're simple reflections of your own self.

Of course there are many ways to 'hurt' a man. Notice the usage of 'truly' here. But, what would you know?

>>744049888
I can do whatever the fuck I want. The world is mine.

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>>744050160
yes I did notice the use of the word "truly", it just doesn't help the picture at all.

I think being stabbed in the eye would "truly" hurt, I think breaking up with someone would "truly" hurt, and I think your parents dying "truly" hurts.

I can't even think of anything that hurts that doesn't also "truly" hurt.

I just object to the super specific ritual of "true" hurt that the pic details. Remind them of "it" every day? What does that even mean?

Whoever wrote that pic had one specific scenario in mind, and it's a laughably myopic idea of "true" pain

you're not a reflection of me, no reflection of me lurks in fuckin feels threads. I saw that pic from the catalog and am motivated enough to call it stupid

>>744050570
that's not what a feels thread man should sound like

I'm a sneaker head, but I'm starting to think it's a cope. I ordered a pair of air Jordan's from foot locker and they come in Tuesday, I've been thinking about it since I ordered them. Is it a cope?

>>744049005
You get no hoes nigga
youre not in this for love
fuck these thots and bounce
start with ugly girls
get the feel for it nigga

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>>744049512
too real

>>744050655
Maybe, just maybe, I'm finally sick of being dealt a shitty hand. I want to be in control for once.

>>744048177

alcohol + paper towel

learned this from long distance truckers

>>744049526
>niggas
>made YOU cringe?

>>744043734
found out yesterday my ex has mild bipolar disorder
no self harming though

shit helped me get over crying the last 5 days

>>744050655
You can hurt physically as you can hurt mentally and psychologically, something you admitted already. Just because the only conceivable thing for you to get hurt would be to break up or have your parents die doesn't mean that there are many things that can affect men, different things because we're all different and all have specific things going on in our lives.

I think that, in the context of that picture, 'truly' was used to draw the line between what momentarily hurts and what can permanently change a human being.

Saying that there is one 'true' idea of pain doesn't mean that other forms of pain are illegitimate. It just points out to intolerance and closed-mindedness from your part.

You don't get it. Every single action is deeply rooted in selfishness. When we hang around our friends, we subconsciously compare ourselves to them, because we want to be better than them. When we deal with people that are sad and pitiful, the only way we can have any empathy is subconsciously imagine how it would feel if we were in their shoes. You're told something, your mind automatically reflects on itself. Basic psychology. And the fact that you are having such a black and white and spontaneous answer to things means that your mind doesn't want to reflect on itself. It's an emotional reaction, not a logical, rational one.

You don't get it.

I just wish my husband would die so I wouldn't have to deal with his shit. I'm so tired of supporting him AND our child financially.
If he was a good father, it would be different, but all he fucking does is sit on his computer and lets him cry.
I hate him but i'm too chicken to leave him.

my girlfriend has a lot of problems. I thought she used to be fine until we started dating. but she's the sweetest, nicest girl ive ever known. her dad neglects her, her mom hit her sometimes, her cousin rapes her and still tries to. I'm only 13 (ew, ikr) but we have a deep connection. we've been dating for a long time now. I thought I was depressed because of my problems. turns out I was because of hers. its kind of like survivors guilt. my life is fine but hers is so messed up. most of her family is nice to her. her mom is being way nicer, her step dad is pretty good too. her dad is a drunk, and her cousins going into college soon. I've had to talk her out of suicide multiple times. she said the night we started talking she had a gun to her head. she insists I'm the only person worth living for. she's tried overdosing, didn't work. I talked her out of the razor. she even tried drowning herself in the bathtub and even suffocation. she just hated her life. but things are getting better, slowly. I love her to death, and she loves me too. I cant even bear the thought of losing her

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WHAT DO I DO

>>744052770
literally the exact dates at which my 2nd ex and my now other ex gf broke up with me

>>744049526
>y'all
>niggas
anon is a filthy nigger confirmed

I've had a real shit few days anons. I'm a bit buzzed so sorry if some of this feels like rambling
>have two sisters
>one develops bad drug problem
>she passed away four years ago
>just slowly became a vegetable until they pulled the plug
>I still remember the feeling of her cold hands
>never really grieved or coped with it
>that year my younger sister develops the same drug problem
>I never could understand how she could do the same drugs, seeing my sister in that state gave me a phobia of drugs and needles
>do everything I can to help her
>never had a dad, mom died when we were teenagers, so I always was the one who tried to protect her
>she was like my best friend growing up
>in and out of rehabs
>therapy
>everything I can think of
>nothing is working
>she's only getting worse
>one night she shows up to my apartmant in the rain, completely strung out
>against my better judgement I let her stay the night
>she's my baby sister after all, no matter how many drugs she's on
>wake up the next day to find that she's gone, along with my xbox, laptop, and tablet
>and my grandmothers expensive wedding ring I've held for years
>she's not the same person I once knew
>I decide I can't help her anymore
>cut off all contact
>don't answer the phone or the door
Continue in a moment, jsut want to get the rest off my chest

>>744053800
>suddenly stop hearing from her
>a week goes by with nothing from her
>then I get a call from my aunt in hysterics
>apparently she was getting high with some junkie and overdosed
>the junkie freaked out and called 911 right away
>ask what hospital she's staying at
>its the same hospital my other sister died in
>drive there in a complete haze
>don't even remember signing in
>then I get to her room
>I see her laying in bed, hooked up to all kinds of shit
>the nurse says her life isn't in danger, but she's very lucky to be alive
>remember my other sister
>remember the feeling of her cold hands
>for the first time in years I break down and cry
>I cry about everything
>I held her hands and cried like a fucking baby
>I begged her to stop
>I told her I wanted my baby sister back
>I felt her squeeze my hand
>I cried for a good 10 minutes
>mustve looked pretty pathetic
>visit her everyday for the week she's in the hospital
>says she's going to get help for real this time
>She misses how things used to be too
>she actually seems serious this time
>I start to think things might change
>maybe all I had to do was open up to her
>My aunt decides to let her stay with her for a few days so she can get ready for rehab
>not even two days go by
>I come over to help her pack some things
>walk into guest room
>see her hunched over, shooting up into her arm
>things go blank
>I had to run out of the house
>feel completely nauseous
>throw up when I get home
That was yesterday. Luckily I don't have to work because I've been holed up in my apartment. I don't what the fuck to do with her anymore. I feel so fucking helpless, that i just want to give up

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time for a shit story no one will read and no one cares about

>be me having gf for 6 1/2 years
> she breaks up because im a total loser
>this was almost 2 years ago
>since then i cant get near any girl
>find a girl but she has a bf,still is interested in me
>she breaks up with her boyfriend
>somehow she lost interest now that she is single
>i try my best but it wont work
>she unfriends and blocks me everywhere
>LetsTryOnTheInternet.jpg
>not even there it will work
>no one has interest in me. the ones who have are catfishes
>this morning i get a text from by best friend. he is really tall and good looking (fucks plenty of women all the time)
> he was sitting in the train this morning falling asleep and a random beautiful girl went up to him and gave him her number
>look at my phone...still no girl of the internet has interest in me
>fuck my life

I'm very close friends with one of my ex girlfriends, and despite her having been over me for a year now. Everytime I look her in the eye, or hear her sweet voice. I remember everything she meant to me, and I start to wish I could go back and relive that time again.

>>744049107
Sorry to hear that, anon. Many hugs to you, friend ):

>>744052770
Fuck, I relate to this on a spiritual level

Haha ,you're all pathetic. Why don't you fucking kill yourselves already? Fucking worthless cucks. Why do you even exist? Please tell me. Feelings are for women and faggots. Which one are you?

>>744056418

im definetly a faggot. see >>744054378

>>744056494
Just kill yourself. Even if you're not a faggot ,you're a fucking cuck. Just fucking die you worthless bitch. You're useless for this world. No wonder why your gf left a pussy like you.

>>744056418
/thread

>>744044894
> people come and go.
I feel like I have fallen in love with my co-worker. He is literally a genius, and he is so caring, but all this is to him is a work relationship. I have to keep reminding myself we just work together. Of all the kinds of temporary/fleeting ways ppl relate to each other, the most flimsy has got to be as co-workers. I can't even say anything about how I feel, bc he's a straightanon. I am just trying to enjoy working with him as a co-worker. I admire his brilliance, and I look up to him so much. I somehow have to make this "work" just as co-workers.

>>744052705
holy fucking fuck
saved

>>744053800
>>744054092
Stay strong anon

I'm attending my 7th university attempting my 4th degree (I have 2, didn't finsih one) and I'm fucking failing out. Why doesn't my life fucking work.

>>744048831
I set this as my wallpaper thanks for the new wallpaper /b/rother

>>744048831
>>744058365
DELET. Don't think this way.

>>744058094
Why don't you do something useful with one of the degrees you already have you moron

>>744045030
Fucking Lila can't spell anxiety

>>744043734
I have schizophrenia and I think the negative symptoms are starting again.

>>744052705
Took 45 minutes to read that. Holy shit.
feelsbadman.pdf

>>744058630
Why can't it ever be the positive symptoms of schizophrenia?

>>744058806
The positive symptoms are hallucinations and delusion, negative symptoms are similar to depression.

>>744057081
>fag

Every /b/ro going through shit, just know it's gonna be all good fams.

Best I can do for you depressed high school fags is provide you with this: pastebin /nCTU04NP

Every other fag post your dox and I'll come to your house and pat you on the head for reassurance

>>744049512
vidya is what you make of it, if you're grinding mmorpgs all day then this makes sense. if you play football manager or tekken a few times a week amongst normie things then you're fine

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>>744057081
I have this problem with a classmate. It was a slow burn. When I first met him 8 months ago he was nice, but I wasn't attracted. We spend a lot of time together and over the months we've gotten really close. 8hrs a day next to each other, plus about an hour train ride home (he gets off a couple stops before mine). Same sense of humor, same work ethic, like and dislike the same things, etc. Gosh I'm so in love with him but it'll never be.

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>>744059007
I hope one day you get to know what it means when someone loves you with their whole heart.

>>744059540
I do actually.
And don't reciprocate because I'm just a cunt like that.
Fuck you libcuck.

>>744059540
>>744059666
Check these TRIPS fag

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>>744059666
> because I'm just a cunt like that.
An emotional vampire with a Satanic decorator on your class, trolling a feels thread on 4chan on the weekly day of reflection.

Holy fucking shit, I feel for you, anon.

>>744054380
Thats why you shouldnt be friends with you exs. Somebody broke IP and the other part has still interest in him/her. Its as simple as that

>>744060036
Please do

>back in college after a year off
>new state
>no friends
>miss my old friends i had for six fucking years
>call them
>play videogames with them
>now im balls deep in studies
>can't play vidya
>go to class talk to no one but prof
>go home and silently do homework until I pass out
>do it all over again
>speak mere words every day


FUCK AIN'T EDUCATION GREAT.

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I think I'm probably the biggest loser in whole family, because I usually don't meet my parents and other people expectations. I'm already 22 y/o and I have never felt in love or had a relationship with women. I sometimes pretend that I don't care or actually don't get what's the deal with falling in love at all. I don't ever want to fall for such trap like love, and fuck up, because I'm scared that I'll screw like my dad did, go too mellow, but I don't want to die alone and feel sad. Basically, I'm scared of life, of being alone, and everything feels complicated.

>>744049152
If you cry, you break, you never break yourself, that's the only way to keep up, never release anything to anybody just to yourself but never cry.

>>744043734
i was sad as fuck couple days ago but den i fingered a girl and she blew me so i got to a better mood :)

>>744054092
Slap that cunt lmao

I think i'm going to start a new job soon, its my first real one since i turn 19 yrs, i just dropped college but i plan on going back in 8 months or a year but in a different major, i'm kinda nervous because the job requieres lifting shit and puttin it in places, so its not hard but i'm still nerveous because i will meet new people and i have a self concious problem due to acne, that's it.

Oldfag here anyone want me write a greentext about my life, so I can post it later?
It would contain:
- years sexual abuse
- cheating thot (now ex) gf
- being raised on 4chan from the age of 13/14
- a promising programming student become an alcholic skateboarder
- becoming a suicidal chad that recieves nudes all day long but just wants one girl to love and feel loved by

>>744062659
Interested

>>744061645
that's pretty shit though
>>744060430
rip anon :(

>>744062737
okay, but im not such a good writer or anything so don't expect much

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More pics like this /b/ro's

>>744062825
More interested in the content than how it is written

>>744062777
>mfw I had trips
>feelsgoodman.jpeg
it's been years since i had one of those badboys

>>744062965
i'll try to write it this week anon :) it might take a while because it's allot to cover. i'll try to write it as honest as possible so you can form your own opinion on it

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>>744062938

>>744062965
oh hey anon, just one qeustion is it wrong that my gf knows i used to be up into 4chan and anonymous shit etc?

>>744049107
losing friends sucks. i have had friends pass away too. some from health complications and some from suicide. i still feel like they are in my life at times. As though I have moments of feeling influenced by their essence and it brings a sense of comfort and happiness to the moment. life goes on :)

>>744062965
>>744063378
forgot to add she thinks it's cool and instresting, but still

>>744063378
If she has no problem with you having history being into anon shit than I really see nothing wrong with it. Speaking from experience, it hasn't hurt any of my past relationships so i don't see how it could be bad if she is fine with it.

>>744044574

I'll make you feel amazing and important. You just have to take it in the ass and let me piss my cum off your face occasionally.

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How does everyone feel about getting older and the inevitable death? I find it all so very surreal. I can't fathom being 70 one day, yet I know somehow that day will come. It just doesn't sit right with me this whole getting older thing. I wish I could explain how I felt about the situation, but I was never really good at explaining my feelings. All I know is that the whole idea of it makes me sad as hell.

Anyway would ease my mind to hear what people have to say.

>>744063577
oh okay nice
did it add to your relationships, or not?

>>744063873
I wouldn't say it added to my relationships, it was just something that I did and they were all fine with it, never really spoke about it or anything.

>>744063959
oh okay, well i told my gf stuff about it.. it was pretty funny how she reacted to it "OMG MY DADDY IS THE COOLEST"

found out my ex gf was somewhat borderline / has bpd

feeling a lot better somehow, stopped crying
might even text her

>>744063845
From a former fb friend, who I had not heard from in a whilst, and then I looked him up. I go back and read this post every now and then. I never met him, but he was a kind soul.
http://lerevefrancais.blogspot. vom/2014/01/ancient.html
# Note the .vom

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ever have the love of your life leave you for a heroin addict that lives in his car? its great.

>>744064055
Seems like a pretty positive reaction

>>744064172
yeah i guess so. she makes me happy

>>744064107
Thanks for that anon. It's relieving sometimes when someone feels how you do.

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>>744063398
have met up with them in dreams many times also

>>744064223
Glad to hear that anon, everyone deserves happiness.

I suffer from severe anxiety and it acts up at random times. I was a type of medication for two months but my boyfriend would make passive aggressive comments towards me for it for not get properly diagnosed (just went to the doctor and told them what I've been dealing with) so I stopped because his comments made everything worse. I went through a form mild suicidal thoughts as the withdraws kicked in. I know I shouldn't and I really don't want to but if I do at least I won't have to deal with these feelings or his comments anymore... Now he keeps joking about getting our cat registered as a therapy animal because he's a mama's boy and the legalization of marijuana even though neither of us smoke. Why? Because I suffer from anxiety... So conflicting. It's ok if it's his idea but not mine when the medication was genuine letting me actually enjoy life again? :(

how do i initiate contact with an ex whom i texted pls respond messages over a year

>>744064453
kys in front of her house
she'll love it I'm sure

>>744064453
damn faggot time to move on loser

>>744063813
Ahh yes please!

>>744064415

Using green to combat anxiety? Worth a shot. Are you on diazepam?

Anxiety comes from things around us in life, it sounds like the boy friend is a major source of this stress. Are you also unemployed?

>>744064285
Find a younger lover. I am partial to older men out of father figure issues I can never get passed. It will help you to share your life with somebody who understands your fears and who will help replace your fears with love.

There was a great movie, Summer of '42. The music by Michel Legrand was unbelievable. The whole point of the movie was that life comes and goes, that ppl come and go. We come and go out of each others' lives so fast. We never make time to appreciate the very brief time we share together.

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>>744048831
we talkin' weird invisible ghost waifu ?

>>744064367
sorry that i forgot how to behave like i should on 4chan btw

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>>744062938
The name is Chiara Bautista, check her out if you liked that one.

>>744049047
Thats exactly my situation, Anon. I feel for you. Do your best to get her help, and the sex life will improve once she does. I promise. Stick it out.

>>744064757
Anon you all good, no need to say sorry

>>744064757
Never regret your past anon, don't be like the space cowboy

>>744064906
kek, i won't it's just hard getting used to 4chan again now since it's turned extra gay
>>744064873
okay

>>744064906
see you later space cowboy

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I have reached my peak , /b.That's it.I'm done

i literally found my ex gf on 4chan, fit

i dated her 2 years ago

i had an on off contact thing while she was back with her ex for a year

i had a relationship with her while she broke it off for good with her ex beginning of this year until 4 days ago

she was a bit bipolar and borderline

christ almighty but the sex was so unbelieavable good

>>744064614
I was using 50mg of Cymbalta and I work a full time job with heavy machinery so smoking I'd rather avoid. I know next to nothing about smoking but I've tried it once and tasted horrible. It burned my throat, made my eyes water, and all it did was make me tired I guess. My sister smokes a lot and said I had dragon breath going which I guess is the blowing the smoke from both your mouth and nose at the same time which would explain why it burned so bad.

Video game addict here. Let me explain some stuff to you.

I have absolutely no interest in anything that isn't computer related.
I probably play so much because it isolates me from this world.
You have to understand when I talk to people it feels like they are making fools out of me the whole time. I am very poor in the talent of speaking to strangers and friends without the feeling in me that tears me apart everytime I say something because they react like I said something like 'I killed ur dog'.
I also feel like everyone laughs at me everytime I am not there.
On top of this, I have clinical deression and I am scared that I eventually get anxiety.

Everytime I play video games I feel empty as fuck.
Everytime I don't play video games these voices keep laughing, keep telling me to play.

I am not able to take this anymore. Guess it would be the best if I just killed myself

>>744065116
holy shit are you actually me
wtf man
cunt asked for a break then drove to the other side of the state
I fucking hate women so much

>>744052468
Fucking die roastie

>>744052580
Underage faggot

>>744065299
how long did you guys date/ relationship and which board di you meet

>>744052468
Is he playing DOTA2 or Overwatch?

>>744065453
/soc/ 9 months lived together
just happened yesterday

>>744065550
you guys lived together?
what was her excuse then

>>744065582
fuck if I know
was then proceeded to be blocked on everything
guess im shitty

>>744065633
SHE is shitty, anon

Just happened Last 2 days ago
> Was out playing Pokemon Go
> Saw a QT3.14 doing a raid w/ us.
> got her #
> turns out shes 14
> friends say she had cuts all over her legs. I didnt know
> I start texting her
> Learned pretty quick she tried to kill herslf.
> She was in a mental Hopsital
> Got a little scared at first
> She starts telling me about how much she wants to leave her house
> I'm still scared but idk.. I keep interest.
> She meets up w/ me while im a work..
> She hugs me super tightly.
> I hug her back
> I tell her shes really pretty
> She smiles
> I have to get back to work
> shes sad again, she heads off.
> Fire works go off.
> She text's me saying.. I wish we saw the fire works together..
> Then she tells me to meet up with her after work..

I ruined my life chasing after my dreams which I had within my grasp until they slipped away suddenly. Every single action I took was influenced by chasing after what I wanted. What I did in school, where I worked, etc. All of it was to chase this goal that was within my grasp, now that it is gone I have no way to go back and no reason to exist, so I only sleep and drink. Kids, never gamble your entire life on one thing you desperately want. It will destroy you in the end.

>>744065651
thanks man
trying to remember that

>>744065656
continue pls

>>744052580
No way shes getting raped for that long. She loves it and wants it your the side anon

>>744065656
Cont..
> We meet up after work
> I Pick her up in my car and shes shocked.
> First time in a car
> Turns out her father left her family and abused her mother
> we go to the park
> see some people kissing and we laugh and leave.
> We then head back to the car and I say lets go somewhere private.
> As we head off her phone goes off.
> Her mom is calling and she gets a panic attack
> She tells me her mother is ganna kill her if she finds out shes out this late.
> I drive her back
> Don't hear from her till morning.
yesturday
> She comes outside and I pick her up
> we go to the end of the beach and we're in the car now
> She starts spewing out everything..
> How her ex boyfriend used her, Her brother molsted her while growing up, and her mother is trying to get rid of her because she cuts herself because no one at home shows any care to her.
> Her sisters make fun of her in front of her mom and the only person that she cared about used her.
> I start to feel rly bad.
> I tell her my life stories.
> she says.. Could you take me away with you?..

>>744065910
whats your answer anon?
Be her "foster father" for 4 more years? Or no chance in any relations.

>>744065681
Life is a journey, not a destination. You were living your life, chasing your dreams. Whereas some people can be content, playing bingo and paying rent, that kind of a simpleton life was obviously not for you. I think you've had a richer experience in life, regardless whether you reached your goals. Goals are only a guidepost, a place that we look. It was your intention that mattered most. For that, I respect you.

>>744065910
Cont..
> I Say I would lose everything If I stole you away from your family
> She nods
> Then I tell her, I'll be by your side if you need me too
> She holds me super tight
> I kiss her on the cheek
> she then said she cut herself the night she went to her mother
> I asked why
> She says, You reminded me of someone I lost, My ex. I couldent handle all the emotions so I started to cut myself
> idk what to say
> She says sorry
> She goes home
> I Get text hours later
> My mother is taking me to the ER
> She wants to remove me to the Mental Hopsital, shes trying to get rid of me
> I start getting a heavy heart beat.
> Idk what to do
> I tell her Try to make her happy, tell her something she wants. try to explain to her how you feel.
> She then tells me I cant, she just keeps yelling.
> 5 minites go by no answer
> 10 minites go by....

>>744066146
Then...?

>>744066146
>>744066081
Honestly I wish I Could But the foster Parent program cost too much money.

Cont..
> turns out she talked her way not to go to the hosital.
> her mother and sister are making fun of her in the living room
> Her brother tried molesting her when she got home again.
> Shes crying her eyes out
> And then the last thing she says was.. I dont even have school supplies for school this year
> I start tearing up cause there nothing I can do
> I go to local CVS Store
> I buy 100$ worth of school equipment.
> Im ganna surpise her today when I see her
> I feel like im taking care of myself.. When I was 14 years old.
> I wanted to cry
the end.

>>744064802
I will bro, thanks!

>>744066358
Hope you guys enjoyed.. I'm headed to work now.

>>744066358
fuck man...
just adopt her. not like her mother wants her

>>744066460
Bro please make a thread later about her reaction. Take care of her man. Also screencapped

>>744066358
Annon those girls ALWAYS do anal. Keep her as a pet. Make her fall so deeply inlove with you theres no way out. Make her your sub

If they're aware of having BPD traits, their attitude usually reflects a victim, martyr or waif mentality, which basically asserts; "Oh well, poor me, I'm broken--so deal with it." There's no remorse for the destruction and havoc they wreak.

I just finished watching Kuzu no Honkai, and boy do I regret it. I want to die.

>>744049005
Being a Chad is all fun and glory till your 30. One of my best buds was a Chad. He had an apartment a short walk from the hottest club scene and was banging chicks nightly. Fast forward 10 years later and he is pathetic. Chad has 2 baby mamas and even though he makes decent money he lives like he has none. All that child support fucks him. Now he has no money, lives in a trailer, and is an active girl repellent.
I on the other hand focused on my career. I make good money now. And now Chad's left overs are banging my door down trying to get see of that reliable working man dick. They see my new model car that is paid off, nice home, and successful career future now I have to keep single mother poon at Bay with a stick.
Moral of the story here is being a Chad is fun in there here and now but if you focus on having a life worth having then people worth having will want to be a part of it. 10 years from now Chad will be in his trailer telling stories of the time he finger blasted 2 chicks at once with a guitar pick but you'll be the one with the house, the car, the life, and the girl worth having.

>>744067456
> the house, the car, the life
But not the girl worth living if shes only after your money.

>>744067456
> focus on having a life worth having then people worth having will want to be a part of it.
This

>>744066489
Rly wish I could. But adoption cost so much and i dont think her mother would give her up.


>>744066597
Will do anon

>>744066638
Ill keep that noted

>>744066681
Her therapist claims she might have a minor form of BPD , but nothing proven yet

>>744043734
I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.

>>744067870
>Her therapist claims she might have a minor form of BPD
that is bad

>>744067939
Yeah, i know. But I have yet to experience it so far. I've worked with alot of teens with special needa including BPD, but i think this is mostly child neglect. Shes also really really intellegent.

13cm dick, constantly feel shit, really low self-esteem, 19 and still a virgin.

>>744068024
>child neglect
stages before BPD

>>744068052
It can be prevented with good parenting. Something she needs right now.

>>744045813
spoopy pic, 8/8

>>744068044
hehe, that almost rhymed.

Tonight I sat down with my dad as he was helping me with money stuff, I am quite depressed for a bunch of reasons I cant be fucked getting into but I will say it isn't simple and quite deep seated. My dad is a complete robot, always has been, its not that he doesn't have emotions, its that he either willingly suppresses them or doesn't know how to receive and express them. Anyway lately I have been having trouble saving money as I try to stop using drugs and drinking but inevitably regress and go out for a few days. He could see my expenditure history as we were using the bank website. He said "you need to spend less so you can save." I replied, "I know but I don't have a vested belief in anything and struggle to place value on my self, others and pursuits. I really don't know what I am doing and feel like things are becoming less clear everyday and I more irrelevant and this fucked up path of self destruction is the only thing that resembles enjoyment for me at the moment which I know is completely fucked up but I'm going genuinely insane by all normal accounts."
He just looked at me and said, "you need to save" I said "I know but didn't you just listen, I'm not justifying my actions or habits but stating the ferociousness of them and the black underpinnings." It was like he just awoke from a trance and said "what?"
I have no friends or girlfriend, just emotionally inept family who are fucked in a different way.
Thinking of an hero soon, there is no point and I only make people's lives frizzy.

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more sad shit please

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>>744068601
yo, who is going to read this bullshit?

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>>744068651

>>744066093
Yes, but those who played it safe didn't ruin everything. Nor did they trap themselves in a life they will regret, without having the things they worked towards. There is nothing noble or pure about self destruction. Thanks for the kind words either way though.

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>>744068768
>>744068768
>tonight
>sit down with my dad as he was helping me with money stuff
>quite depressed for a bunch of reasons
>dad is a complete robot, always has been
>he willingly suppresses feels
>having trouble saving money as I try to stop using drugs and drinking
>inevitably regress and go out for a few days.
>dad could see my expenditure history as we were using the bank website. >dad says "you need to spend less so you can save."
>I reply, "I know but I don't have a vested belief in anything and struggle to place value on my self, others and pursuits.
>really don't know what I am doing
>feel like things are becoming less clear everyday and I more irrelevant and this fucked up path of self destruction is the only thing that resembles enjoyment for me at the moment which I know is completely fucked up but I'm going genuinely insane by all normal accounts."
>dad just looks at me and says, "you need to save"
>say "I know but didn't you just listen, I'm not justifying my actions or habits but stating the ferociousness of them and the black underpinnings." >was like he just awoke from a trance and says "what?"
>have no friends
>no girlfriend
>emotionally inept family who are fucked in a different way.
>thinking of an hero soon, there is no point and I only make people's lives frizzy.

even grentexted it's shit. hope >>744068601 killed himself

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>>744069007

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=twHXrNtG-7c

>>744069007
I cant even read your fuxking green text without getting a headache

>playing ranked r6
>it's me and Montagne left against the whole team.
>I kill two, Montagne kills two with revolver
>One guy left.
>We're in a hallway, Montagne is in front of me, with the last guy at the end of the hallway.
>Match point.
>He starts firing, I start firing over Montagne's shoulder
>I get greedy. Montagne moves, and I blast my his brains out on accident.
>The last guy slaughters me.
>Been depressed since.

>>744070677
t. kys

-montagne

>>744052705
Fuck that made me cry

>>744070677
shit dude....

>>744045010
Holy shit

I'm feeling this

https://www.dothethingneedsdoing.com/start-doing

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>>744044615
> tfw have work to do (translation)
> tfw I just want to play vidya

fuck.

>>744071486
hell yeah, made me cry too. reading such a long text will make anyone's eyes watery as fuck.

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>>744044615
It's my birthday
I have to go out to eat with a couple family members I see rarely

>>744047348
Do a speedrun by smoking, drinking, and taking excessive risks

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What's her name Anon?

>>744056566
Two ways of coping with feelings. Sharing them and hiding them behind a wall of hostility

>>744072171
Which of the three?
>The girl from high school that liked me that I never made a move on?
>One of my best friends that doesn't have any feelings for me?
or
>The girlfriend that I let go because I am retarded?

>>744072438
Wich one is BLACKED?

>>744064140
Damn

>>744072171
No she does not she is waiting for marriage.
What a retarded fucking text that is, holy shit.

>>744072438
You can always get back that old gf you let go, so that doesn't count, faggot.

>>744072491
But she was fucking him..
She didn't even break up with me.

>>744072463
We don't like black people in Eastern Europe.

>>744072513
Not sure.

>>744072554
>We don't like black people in Eastern Europe.
And yet she's sucking bbc
not your tiny white dick

>>744072543
So? At least she didn't take half your house and shit. She exposed herself before any major damage could have happened. Good.

>>744072554
>Not sure.
Hi Mr. Not Sure.
Yes you can. I also forgot to add... why did you let her go? I did the same, because she was quite childish. Then I realized all girls are like this and if I like her, I should not pay attention to others opinion. So yeah. Of course when I met her again she was "all changed" from the outside, but that was more just an influence others had on her. Once we got back, she was the old same herself.

People cannot really change. So keep that in mind.

>>744072678
She went to another country for the summer. I haven't seen her for three months now.

>>744072678
>So? At least she didn't take half your house and shit. She exposed herself before any major damage could have happened. Good.
Did she take your house?

>>744072776
So? Tell her you wanted to contact her all summer and how terribly you missed her, yadda yadda. IF YOU WANT HER BACK, read my post. You get the whole package.

>>744072823
No. Just saying that the later this shit happens, the worse it is.

>>744052770
Nothing happened in 2013 that I remember of but I can relate to the sentiment of nostalgia for a period that was not too long ago. Hell, I remember being 10x happier just last year.

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>Nothing happened in 2013-2012-2011-2010-2009-2008 that I remember of

>>744072913
We've been keeping in touch, from time to time at least. I know what to do, but it still bugs me that I let her go. And I still don't know that I can get her back, but if you say so from experience, you might be right.

got broken up with after nearly 6 months of relationship, 1 year of on and off contact, 6 months of dating in the beginning

read upon bipolar and borderline and she checks most of those boxes

sex was the BEST i have ever had yet
but somehow it lacked on the emotional department on her side suddenly.

>>744073082
I went through the same. Simply reached out to her, things went smooth. Of course she was a bit mad at me, but yeah, time heals everything.
Just remember, there is a reason you let her go. Don't think with your dick. Masturbate all day if you have to, but think it through. Don't do it if you just want the sex or something.

Good luck.

>>744073115
How new are you on the internet/in life?
"Never put your dick in crazy."
Sex is amazing, but leave them ASAP. It's like a man's rule #1.

imagine in the movie chappie he couldn't move consuocess (conciusness?) and it endes with everyone dieing

>>744073202
>Sex is amazing, but leave them ASAP. It's like a man's rule #1.
i knew she was crazy but thought she'd be normal girl crazy not "yo i will now abuse you emotionally and be mad at you for weeks and tell you that i hate literally everything about how you are"

I'm ugly
I'm not fat
I'm even fit
I dress well

I'm just plain ugly

>>744073202
I am not with her for the sex, she is a dependable person that always speaks her mind, but I was stubborn and I guess depressed, so while she was slipping away I just stood by and watched.

>>744073261
Well I never had such a gf. I knew a guy who had though, and I got close to one.

- Guy: Met with this chick, did all sorts of crazy shit with her. Chick got more and more abusive, started threatening him or some shit. They broke up (dude left her basically) and then she started blackmailing him with pictures of scans that she is pregnant, etc etc. Of course she wasn't pregnant, just wanted him back.
- Girl I got close: She sounded really active and really horny, but had a current boyfriend at the time. Cheaters will be cheaters so even if I managed to "steal her", someone would have swooped her from me just as easy. The first dude I mentioned did this with some chick, and yeah, someone stole the chick from him later.

>>744073392
What are you waiting for then? Message her how you missed her, and if she wants to meet up. Hit things off. If it's meant to work it will work out.

>>744073490
she never threatened me, cut her self or that stuff it was mostly on an emotional basis tho

>>744073391
No one cares if you are fit or not.
If you are ugly, get rich and get confident.
Yeah, so simple. Both of those, I know.

>>744073490
She is still in another country, she will be back in a week. We will talk everything through, then. It is not as personal while she is in Oregon, or wherever she is.

Also she knows I miss her and I know she is probably the only person she trust right now, that isn't her mother.

>>744073541
>No one cares if you are fit or not.
I know

but this is 4chan. if you say "I'm ugly" people will say "get fit". because they are not ugly, just fat fuckers.

>>744073697
Sure thing, but you can still get in touch or something, organize a meet up once she gets back, I don't know. Well, we don't know jackshit about each other here, so yeah, only you know your situation and all the details.

>>744073706
People say to get fit if you are fat usually. I mean the people on this site are usually like quite overweight. So yeah.

Also, visit /fit/. Even ripped motherfuckers who think they have all the confidence on the world get turned down. So don't sweat it. You may not even be that ugly. Seriously, browse it a bit and you will see. (Sometimes even money does not help, see poor Elliot.)

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Nice thread going here , thought I might share.
I'm always paranoid that people pretend to like me. They always seem happier around other people, or they ignore me or such. I'm still unsure as to whether I'm disabled and people are keeping it as a secret from me.
It hurts /b/, but I've gotten used to it

>>744074176
I have similar problem, I think I am a burden to people and I always think I am annoying and that people don't like me, but they are too polite to tell me anything.

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>>744074176
Don't worry

They just don't care

>>744074176
I have the exact same problem. Thanks to it, every person I met from 18-22 just vanished. the sad part is everybody knew I had mental, emotional problems which made me look like a sorry ass motherfucker

2hours ago i was at my 4yr old daughters funeral.

>>744074176
holy fuck, i've thought the exact same thing!

>>744074676
DId you rape her?

>>744074729
So edgy.

>>744063845

Hello, old /b tard here. My dad was born in 1920 and I always feared that he would pass away. He had kids real late in life, because of the wars he was involved in, just in time for old age. Anyways, he worked at old folks home, after a while you get to where you say, damn, if I can't feed myself or wipe myself, I will an-hero. So, that being said, as I get older, I used to work with a bunch of old geezers. I used to laugh at them forgetting the smallest of things. As I am getting old, I now am at the age where I forget like if I have to go to the store and buy like three items, I will forget one or more. I think that is life's way of letting things go, you gradually forget your fears or any hopes that were never realized, the qt that you could have got, yet you held out for the 10 that didn't care if you lived or died. It just fades away, like when you are seven and the only thing you cared about is your favorite cartoon program, thats how it is growing old, you just don't remember. You fade away, until you pass away. When you are young you are sad that you'll get old. When you are old, all your joints and body hurt, yet the very next day you don't remember. And then when you pass away, the young people say, "how sad". But the old person says, "at last" no more pain.

I don't how it feels to be loved. I have only ever loved others /b/, never wanting anything in return. How does it feels to be loved?

>>744048287

Happy birthday, Anon!

>>744075931
Can second this. I fell for a girl. For 4 years she was the reason I got out of bed. I eventually asked her out, and she said no. Since then my grades have dropped from straight B's to barely C's.

>>744044894

Yep, was solid with a lot of people during and after HS. Got a job, started travelling the world. Finally made it back to where I started from, looked up an old pal from back in the day. Has new friends, meet in the driveway. Hey anon, yo pal whats... I gotta go. Here talk with my friends. Runs inside the house. Fuck, just wanted 5 minutes of my friends time. I guess we ain't friends no mo. Fuck it, move on. Nothing I really wanted here anyways, just wanted to say hello.

Yo to all the anons in this thread, just gotta say that it's okay to be down sometimes and that the happy parts won't seem as happy without the sad parts.

So although life may look grim and worthless, keep going, it'll get better

And for OP, or anyone who misses their ex-S.O or are currently having problems with their S.O, you two fell in love for a reason, although things aren't good now, it's always good to remember that you are capable of love and you are also worth being loved

I know these seem like empty words, but just keep going

Take care everybody

>>744076330
damn