No feels thread?

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>>743238699
shit wrong pic

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>>743238699
>>743238815
Wasted dubs lol

>>743238622
>>743238699
>>743238815
>>743239133
Is this a get thread, all I'm getting is depressing lonliness.

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Bump

>>743239324
good

>>743239507
that is pretty fucked up now, isn't it? I didn't even remember that.

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>>743239523
Sweet

>>743239887
I would never have guessed robin would have hanged himself but such is life

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Which stage are you at

>>743239133
Fuck. This show brought out those repressed feels...

>>743240658
Between 4 and 5

>>743238622
Bojack started out pretty fucking great.
Third season it got so "L.A." with self-referential dialogue I couldn't sit through any more.

But then the underwater episode...

WOW

>>743240311
lel, this pokes at the core
I feel nothing
I can thank 4chan for that
i'd hate to actually feel shit. my family has a history with depression and, to a lesser extent, suicide

>>743241045
I feel you anon, I have been the same for over a decade.

>>743241672
Yeah, ive basically lived in therapy since i was 5 or so, because origianlly i was acting bad at school and adhd bullshit. Now im just super fucking depressed and self loathing, and have been this way for about a decade as well, im 21 now.

>>743241045
>>743241672
Good luck.

>>743240117
I mean it was pretty obvious in all of his stand ups, but just hidden behind some good comedy that no one noticed... A pretty tragic story to be honest. I have a feeling he'll have a few documentaries on him soon besides behind closed doors

>>743240658
I feel this is a tad inaccurate. I went denial, depression, back to denial, to anger, and now am in a mix of bargaining and denial

>>743242443
>good luck
Thanks anon, but it is Friday. This is my drink till I black out night. Some advice, don't waste almost 14 years here like I have, This is a very negative place for bad people.

>>743242807
Fair enough

>>743243077
Haven't been here more than a couple years but i dont really have anything better to do most of the time

>>743238622
HEY ISN'T THAT THE HORSE FROM HORSIN AROUND?

How I wish I could relive those days when I felt alive

Now I sleep just to escape

Drinking by myself again. Stuck in my hometown for a few years. Can't connect with anyone here.

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>>743243879
what are you drinking

So ive been really confused about my sexuality as of late. For starters I was molested for a long period of time (about ages 6~13/14) by my brother and two other boys, who were my age at the time. I was very self-consious about my sexuality since age 9, after first finding about about them. My brother (same one) always picked on me and insinuated that I was gay. So fast forward to junior year of high school. I was attracted to two people. One was girl, who out right said she didn't want to be with me. And the other was a football player, who I had a class with. He had some of the traits of my brother. I felt guilty and conflicted about being attracted to him. Anyways after highschool I found shotacon. That opened me to gay porn (mainly twink stuff). At first it was occasional thing, but soon shotacon has become my number 1 porn type. There was a co-worker for whom i as attracted to, she had short brown hair, which was the main appeal I assume.then was other one after I moved. A femboy, who was very obviously gay. With him it slowly faded after time. The there is the guy I am talking to right now. I have not meet him in real life, but he always flirts with me and calls me cute, and it turns me on for some reason. But I dobt think I feel that strongly toward men, as. I do women, physically. Like when I look at a woman I can tell instant whether I am attracted to her ot not. That only happens rarely with guys. Idk maybe I'm just lonely and desperate

>>743243988
Crown Royal as always.

I'm doing my usual overreacting feels right now, first time coming back here in a while

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love some bojack

>>743245126
My old roommate described me as Bojack. I watched the show and I saw what he meant.

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>>743239507

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post moar

Well yall lives are better then mine, i have had 2 friend say to my face im suprised you havent killed yourself yet because of the shit i have gone through in the past 4 months

>>743241155
check 'em
What I love about this show is that it can make bawww and laugh in one episode

>>743242807
how was it obvious in his stand-up? his suicide was the result of insidious lewy body dementia--not depression. common misconception that he was depressed and had to hang himself to end the suffering. he was between days of lucidity and episodes of not knowing who his loved ones were.

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>>743246908

right in the feels.

No one loves me and I don't know if I can ever find it.

>>743247519
find what? proper grammar structure?

>>743247751
Love. Don't care much for typing properly when I'm drinking.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZcWeE3NMeBQ

Which one are you?

>>743247907
now i feel back for mocking you.
sorry anon.
patience. and openness. that's all it takes, there are people out there for everyone.

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classic

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>>743248157
It doesn't matter. I feel alone all the time. I've always been alone, in some way or another. But I can't find any lasting happiness. I can't find love and it kills me. It's like there is something absolutely terribly wrong with me but I can't see it.

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thats enough now

>>743243749
I can relate. Everything is going very good for me but I still feel that this existence is trivial and pointless.

I used to use sleep as an escape but nor my dreams are worse than life and I just can't catch a break.

One day at a time /b/ros

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>>743244075
I'm a little bi but for me it really takes A LOT to be attracted to a guy
Like, he needs to be really cute,no long hair, no mustache,preferably skater etc. etc.

Trying it won't hurt you
You won't get your ass pounded instanly.
It won't leave you stigmatised and it won't follow into your dreams

Just give in to your feelings and I hope it's the right way for you to find happiness.


>>743246602
This hits close to home
But it gets better
Also, fuck your friends they sound like dicks

>>743247519
Do you love yourself?


Alrighty then, now who wants to hear about my feels?

>>743249000
lets hear em guy
also nice trips

>>743248011
This is not true at all. I am extremely stupid and while I wish I wasn't aware of it, I completely am, and it's fucking agony.

>>743249000
I don't. I just don't believe in the term that you can love yourself. It's like patting yourself on the back. But I still don't think I can love myself because no one else ever has.

>>743240658
aren't these the days of the week?

>>743249269
That's not true anon

I love you

>>743249406
You can't because you don't know me.

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never finding love

enjoy my favorite poem

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Is confrontation, distraction, or substitution the best treatment for a rejected heart?

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>>743249851
none of those things.
the best treatment is consolation that can come either from within or from others.
and i'd like to say that i'm wholeheartedly sorry that you got turned down. at the same time if i got with my current gf then there's hope for everybody

>>743249851
Confront yourself and let yourself feel the pain but meditate on it if you can't come to grips with it. Don't distract yourself until you know you're not going to make yourself feel worse, and don't substitute unless you are prepared to take rejection again.

>>743249201
Only smart people know that they're stupid
Because it's your drive for knowledge that's constanly sparking
You're not stupid, you're just aware that you don't know everything!
And that's alright, it's human
We wouldn't constantly try outsmarting one another if no one would feel stupid from time to time.

>>743249143
I'm actually feeling really good
Like the past months there's been so much positive change in my life and it really got some momentum going,I'm telling ya.

But yeah, now I've managed to fall in love
With a screenname and a picture
I don't even know if she's real yet and I'm already getting all gooey around her.
This isn't good at all.
I was usually the one that yelled that "You can't fall in love on a screen", but fuck me I guess

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>>743250246
do your own thing, anon. try to meet up with her in person sometime soon.

>>743243988
Sky Vodka w/ Cranberry/pomegranate juice
>>743244230

>>743238622
Everything sucks this is bullshit
>im never gonna find a nice smart girl to marry because im rough around the edges and im not fake
>I havent been happy for 2 years
>I think drinking is starting to kill me
>I never pictured myself like this
>I just wanna die
I've lived a life time of misery everything I care about left me or fucked me over.
I really don't care about anything anymore
>I've been pretty fucking beaten down over life
Nothing feels the same anymore.
Lifes great huh?

>>743249269
I couldn't love something miserable
The only thing you're earning is pity

You want a pity-relationship? Sure have a go, it will drain you even more


You need to give love in order to recieve love
You can't take where there is nothing to begin with.

>>743250392
Oh I'm already trying to fix myself a date
But until that date arrives I won't try to get in too deep

>>743238622
Am i the only one waiting for the 4th season

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>>743250988
Nope, and I can't wait to identify more with a cartoon horse than I have with any actual human in my fucking life.
September 8th right?

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>>743238622
>Childhood was a complete disaster, the kind that psychologists write about
>Due to emotional damages have a hard time making meaningful connections to others
>Very few friends, none that I would consider more than a good acquaintance
>Never manage to keep a girl interested beyond maybe 1-2 dates
>Want to get a girlfriend and have good friendships but don't just don't know how.
>Been dealing with intense on and off for almost 13 years now
Almost 30, keep hoping I will be able to fix myself and move forward with life but never manage it with any long term success.

>>743251235
Hopefully so, they broke their summer release dates for some reason

Only reason i get netflix anyways after i watch the show i cancel

>>743251235
If I were a tank, I'd want to die on a beach.

>>743251429
motherfucking copypaste
could you just once work

>>743244295
try being done dying instead.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q7OYTF1kJMQ

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I'm gonna take a crack at non-greentexted feels-sharing.

I was borderline suicidally depressed a few months ago. I was working a shitjob in fast food and going to uni for reasons I wasn't sure of anymore. I was pulling about a 2.0 GPA.
I was drunk at work one night. A new girl showed up. She was cute as fuck. I immediately starting talking to her every chance I got. For the first time ever, I felt like my life had a priority. All of my self-esteem issues were sidelined and I was able to talk to her and flirt like a normie because I literally felt like nothing else mattered and this was my only reason for living, so failure wasn't an option.
As we talk, I start taking note of the red flags she throws. I wasn't dissuaded, but I noticed and remembered them. For whatever reason they just made her more attractive. Her arms were covered in scars from cutting, she'd had a lot of jobs (she was 24, I was 20), she'd done a lot of drugs and she and I literally bonded over our mutual love of day-drinking. All of this only made me fall more in love with her.
I remember distinctly a time I went a week without seeing her (shifts didn't intersect). I thought constantly about her. The thought of her drove me to work harder for uni (probably the only reason I didn't flunk out tbh) and start working out and eating right. For the first time in my life, I had a real excuse to keep going.
She walked in a week later with another guy who I didn't recognize. I had a moment of panic. I've had crushes on girls with boyfriends before. I can handle another man getting there first. But this was something else. There was a moment of panic where I literally thought to myself "have I just lost my reason for living?". Then I rationalized it away, assuring myself that he was her brother.

I'll continue if there's interest. This story gets really good, there's probably another post of two to get out of it.

>>743250166
Ew undertale

>>743246814
I find it interesting that in talking about this on TV he aimed to be a part of the solution but his miscalculation has resulted in him just adding to the problem. 3rd wave feminism has made society a massively unpleasant place to be a man. Jobs working with your hands are looked down on while jobs in offices are increasingly implementing affirmative action and quotas, having a family is off the table for the majority of men in our generation thanks to so many women not wanting kids and the divorce rate in the generation above us being so high while the courts favor women in such an obvious way its basically suicide to risk it. Men are killing themselves, but the ones who don't kill themselves are withdrawing completely, into drugs, alcohol, destructive subcultures like the chad culture and video gaming culture. If society survives our generation of men are going to be regarded as a lost generation, one who were destroyed by the forces of the culture they grew up in.

>>743251861
>3rd wave feminism has made society a massively unpleasant place to be a man.

I hear you kids bitching about that a lot, but honestly, the only place I see it at all is on here, in your guys' posts.

There have always been feminists shouting at people on university campuses. Beyond that, I honestly don't have any firsthand experience with what you're talking about.

>>743251564
Thats like an entire feels thread in one video.

>>743251731
moar

In this case. I'm only half White, but I feel sorry for you. You're willing to let your people die.

>>743252482
They're not my people.
I don't have any people.

>>743240658
I'm tying the knot.

>>743252659
I don't either. I still feel lonely. I just can't feel like I can love anybody. Maybe I will die. I don't know.

>>743251861
No, the GenXers are the lost generation, skipped over between the boomers and the Millenials due to the age range overlaps. The boomers are not retiring from industry or politics, and by the time they do, it will be millenials that take their place in power. Gen X had bad timing.

Otherwise, "lost generations" are dubbed so due to economic reasons, and you millenials are starting more businesses than anyone in history, so you're not going to be "lost" in that sense either. Xers, on the other hand, did fucknothing with their lives, compared to the boomers or the millenials thus far. My generation wore shirts that said "whatever", and were either too cool and detached, or too defeatist to care, and amounted to nothing.

Learn from others mistakes, but don't try so hard to paint yourself as a perennial victim. It won't help you.

>>743252348
You must either be old or blind. They aren't just on campuses shouting they control the student union and have an unholy amount of influence over the universities now. If you are lucky you can avoid them entirely but chances are you're going to end up somewhere that has compulsory classes on consent and gender sensitivity. Single mothers are everywhere the courts grant women sole custody 90% of the time which with a divorce rate close to 50% you're basically flipping a coin to see whether you end up broke and your kids grow up hating you or you get a happy ending. If you want to work in tech then you're going to have to deal with compulsory sensitivity and inclusivity training run by feminist groups and you had better be prepared to not get any promotions because companies are increasingly implementing affirmative action and you had better not complain about any of this because if you do you will end up fired and likely blacklisted like James Damore did.

I desire something to live for.
I don't know how to find it.

Survival isn't good enough.

I tell myself thats selfish, but, so is suicide.

>>743252910
Well, we will all die anon. And in the grand scheme of things, 80 years with luck is still a miniscule blip on the timeline. So while it seems like it's forever, you're just really here now, for a tiny pointless sliver of time. Might as well enjoy what of it you can before it slips away, because it's going to do that anyway, faster and faster as it goes by, and there's nothing any of us can do about that but wish we hadn't squandered our youth working.

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>>743252449
continuing from >>743251731

Turned out it wasn't her brother. Wasn't her boyfriend either. She was single. I got her number a bit later. We texted constantly. I would be up until 4 AM on the regular texting with her. I had fallen in love.
There was only one red flag she threw that broke through my infatuation and made me consider that maybe dating her wasn't a good idea. She admitted to me that she had a kid who was in elementary school.
Somehow that wasn't enough to stop me. A day later, I was right back in love with this woman. We finally went on a date and had lackluster drunken sex in my bed (this was the night I lost my virginity). Forgot to mention she'd fucked a number of men somewhere in the double digits but again I was so infatuated with her I didn't care.
First month or so of dating her was marred by my having horrific anxiety attacks and my infatuation with her inexplicably not compensating for them. My drive to be with her had been swapped for a constant ringing alarm bell telling me to get away from her before some vague travesty befell me. I ignored it and stuck through the relationship.
She wanted to hang out constantly. It occurred to me that she was far more in love with me than I was with her. Coupled with not sleeping and eating any more I was effectively waking up and going to her house before going back home and sleeping, or some nights sleeping in her bed. The anxiety was so bad that for the first week or so I could barely get it up. I got tested for STIs three times in a two-week period (always came up clean).
I realized that this was not sustainable but every time I said I didn't want to hang out she made me feel guitly. I felt like I wasn't giving her enough of my devotion. She was really good at getting me to do what she wanted.

Continue? There's a lot more.

>>743253306
Still doesn't mean anything. I want to love someone. I want someone to love me. I don't feel a point without it. I'm nearly 30. I don't want to live into my 80s/90s.

>>743240658
>Denial
My middle school years. "I'm happy, I'm normal, I'm just like everyone else!"

>Anger
Teens and early 20's. "Fuck this shit, fuck the world! I'll show them all one day! I don't need anyone or anything!"

>Bargaining
Late 20's into 30's. "Come on, just give me something! A decent job, friends, a house, a car that starts every morning...JUST SOMETHING! PLEASE!"

>Depression
The past 2 years or so. "Fuck it. I'm a loser. I'm worthless. I'm not good for anything or anyone. Why even bother?"

>Suicide
Probably by the end of September. "Nothing left for me here. In fact, there was never anything for me here. Time to go."

>>743238622
Nothing meaningful to contribute feels-wise, but wanted to ask if i'm the only anon who hates Bojack Horseman because the writers forgot to write any fucking jokes for an entire year?

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BoJack is so good, i'm having a really bad time right now, lost someone and I don't love anything about myself, this post made me sad, but also made me find something relatable, I hope all your lives turn out for the best.

Me enGrisH is bAd cuz i'm a sudaca

>>743253375
more and who was the guy

>>743253095
I am being specific to men. The statistics about the highschool/university drop out rates and the increases in substance abuse and suicide coupled with the rise of unique cultural phenomena like the NEET's is looking like its going to result in a generation of men who are never going to marry or meaningfully participate in society at all. I'm not personally playing the victim b/c im not intending to stick around. I am about to graduate with a degree in software engineering and I have a friend in China who can hook me up with a solid job once i'm done at the end of the year. But this is something that needs to be addressed otherwise the birth and marriage rates for the millennial generation are going to result in some really serious long term problems for most western nations.

>>743253183
I guess I could see how that seems like a big deal. When I was in school, I worked night shift on a listening station, and we were worried every day that the US was going to be on the receiving end of 35,000 nuclear warheads raining out of the sky and vaporizing every city in the country that had with more than 500 people in it. Every week we had to get trained on a new piece of scientific signal processing equipment, and cross our fingers that we wouldn't misinterpret a signal and start that war ourselves.

I guess at this age, what seemed like a big deal to me is actually small potatoes, and what's really critical these days is having to be told to be decent citizens or being nice to each other, due to your parents leaving the TV to raise you, or worse, the internet. Perhaps it's only fitting you all wound up back here and friendless.

On the other hand, I'm finally getting tired, so I'm going to go join the kind woman keeping my bed warm. Good luck to you.

>>743253630
I keep meaning to watch the Bojacks, but Im worried it will just be a depressing the entire time.

Does it work in clever stories, or just sad slice of life episodes?

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>>743253634
>>743253375
>>743251731
Some guy. I don't remember his face that well. I don't think I ever saw him again.

Our relationship went weirdly for two weeks and one day she called me and told me she didn't think she and I should see each other anymore. I drove to her place to talk about it and she said she was talking to her ex who she had dated for five years (they broke up a few months before she met me, it was a bad breakup and he was an emotionally abusive creep) I went home and cried about this. We worked together still. After about a week she started flirting heavily again and we ended up kissing. Week after that we got back together. I should have stayed away.
I only got mad at her once - she didn't have her ID with her and asked me to buy cigarretes for her. I don't smoke, so she directed me which brand to buy. She unsubtly kept saying the brand while I was trying to talk to the cashier and a security guard was five feet away. She was talking about handling change or whatever and it honestly could have waited, so I told her "we can work it out in the fucking car".
She got really offended by this, telling me not to talk to her like that. We walked back to the car in silence. We worked out the change and I gave her the smokes. I can't remember exactly how we started arguing about it again before I started the car but she said every time I get mad I act like a child, which is just false. But I'm bad at confrontation so I just apologized as many times as I thought it would take to make her stop talking. We drove back to her place and hung out for a bit longer before I went to work.
It didn't take her long to forget about this argument though. She was texting me about wanting my dick and whatever within a few hours. I don't remember when exactly this happened, but we once had an argument because I wouldn't send her a picture of my dick (I rarely share photos of myself and NEVER share lewds). I never sent her one. Continue?

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>>743254093
Ha ha! You sure told him, you mature well-adjusted fella!

>>743254308
yeah keep it coming

>>743254129
The first season starts with a Family Guy feeling, but then the episodes go more and more deep, but the premise is almost all the time some kind of stupid joke, so you laugh the laughs and you feel the feels, season 2 and 3 are very good, but is a sad show sometimes

>>743250988
>>743251235
>>743251361
You guys see the trailer?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bf12qwPWDVI

>>743253493
>I want to love someone. I want someone to love me.

Why? Because movies told you it's great? so great it's the best thing in life? so great that it's the meaning of peoples lives?

it isn't. it's a few months of infatuation, followed by an extended period of it not being terrible but being comfortable enough that it's easier to stick around than upset things, followed by total disinterest by one or both parties, followed by either ending it or realizing that you've had a kid and now you're stuck with this person attached to your life and expenses permanently, followed by many nights where you're laying there wondering how your fucking life went so wrong that you're laying in bed every night with this person that you don't even know anymore and isn't interested in knowing you and prohibits you from making any further meaningful human relationships just by existing.

The big hollywood flourish you're wating for, isn't real. It's a fable we tell our kids, to try to keep them from turning into sluts, and keep their legs closed and std-free until they're ready to reproduce. None of that gives you brilliant insights, brilliant ideas, or great purpose in your life. It just creates a momentary distraction that fades quickly over time before you start taking it for granted. You will still be purposeless, only now you will feel even more depressed by it, since that's one more thing that didn't fix it, and you'll dump that frustration on your partner, who some part of you will blame for not solving your problems.

You're waiting for the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown.

>>743254129
>Does it work in clever stories

Well it has turned off every Rick and Morty dudebro that I've recommended it to, so take that how you will.

>>743254710
I've just been alone for so long I want to experience it. It can't hurt more than anything else.

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>>743254493
The cigarrette argument, incidentally, occurred on the day I bought her a pregnancy test. She had mentioned she was late on her period and two days prior texted me "I still haven't gotten my period. Will you buy one or should I?" I doubt she knew, but I was at a dinner at my grandmother's at the time.
At any rate, I am a proud non-father. Test came up negative, which was good. She didn't seem that anxious. She told me straight up at the beginning of the relationship that if I she gets pregnant again she's aborting it.
The relationship puttered along, hanging out, sleeping together, me feeling guilty constantly.
Then she got a new place. I helped her move in. It was a basement suite in an okay neighbouthood. Her roomate was some alcoholic white trash guy she knew (there is no reason to suspect she cheated on me with him. Even by her standards this guy is trash and I do not see him as a threat, even in retrospect). He helped us move her shit in. The place was filty, smelled like stale cigarrette smoke, and it put me right the fuck on edge. It was also a half-hour drive from my place, when I had been waiting for her to get a new place that was closer to mine. I guess it worked out well in the end haha.
Over the course of a few weeks, I started becoming more withdrawn from her. We still hung out and talked at work, but I was less enthusiastic. One night she and I were texting (this being about a month and a half after we broke up the first time) and she broke up with me again, giving an extremely generic message.
I called her, told her we should talk about it, and I wanted to see her the next day. She said no.
The next day she texted me asking if I still wanted to hang out. I wanted answers so I said yes. She explained she was trying to get her life back on track and she didn't have tme for a relationship, which was actually a position I respected. We decided to stay friends.
Here's where things got fucked up.

I hate the word "love". How can you take it serious when so many people use it so loosely? It's lost it's meaning. It might have cost me the person I was supposed to be with. In 3 years I couldn't say it until I lost her

>>743254710
Problems in relationships aren't solved in 30 minutes to an hour and a half(not counting commercials). Fuck Hollywood

>>743255202
>She explained she was trying to get her life back on track and she didn't have tme for a relationship, which was actually a position I respected.

I just did this to what can only be described as my childhood sweetheart, will she see the respect or will she hate me forever?

>>743255202
dont leave it on a cliffhanger

>>743255202
Gonna just keep going.

We hung out sporadically and texted infrequently. Nothing of note happened until July 1, when I got a hot waitress's number. The next day my ex-girlfriend calls me, asks me to come over. I decide sure, tell her I'll come over in a few hours, but I didn't really hurry over.
When I got there, she was walking out the driveway, and sat on the curb. She was crying. She said she was having really bad anxiety and couldn't breathe. I started trying to comfort her because I'm too empathetic for my own good. I told her I was there. She said "but you took so long... you just don't want to" I kept comforting her. She and I started walking down the street towards my car, and an ambulance pulled up.
Apparently in her anxiety attack she'd called an ambulance. She didn't seem to give a shiit, but I told her she had to talk to them. She and I explained the situation and they went away. We then went into her house, I got her calmed down, and we ended up having enthusiastic sex.
The whole night I kept intending to tell her about the waitress but something kept stopping me.
I never ended up texting the waitress. A few days later I was going to tell my ex about her. My ex called me at 3 in the morning, waking me up. I asked if she was okay. She was crying, said no, that she'd had a fight with her mother and she said she couldn't see her kid any more (her mother has custody of her kid). She asked me to come see her. Against my better judgement, I got a cab and went over.
She was drunk as fuck. My cell phone was malfunctioning and wouldn't send messages, so I told her we should go back to my house. She was being incoherent but I eventually convinced her, we got in the cab, and rode to my house.
She was so drunk I literally needed to hold her and guide her along. She slept in my bed. I took the couch. The next day, she woke up at around 8 and made a beeline for my vodka, getting drunk enough to slur her words.

>>743238815
WHEN YOU TRY YOUR BEST BUT YOU DON'T SUCCEEEEEED....

>>743255793
im staying awake for this story so keep it coming

>>743255699
Depends on how her life turns out.

>>743255908
Yeah this answer was far too real for me

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>>743255793
>>743255763
Forgot to post a picture with it.

I drove her home, trying as much as I could to be nice when I had not slept at all and she was inconveniencing me (yes, I know she was in a lot of pain, but we were broken up and I wasn't obligated to deal with her problems).
She was rambling incoherently about how there was police shit regarding her breakup with her ex. Apparently her being in a relationship with me could have complicated this and she didn't tell me. I dropped her off at her place, made sure she got inside safely, and went home to sleep.
Couple days later, she starts badgering me to come over. Literally calling me in the middle of the night, calling me during the day, when I pick up she's invariably slurring her words drunk. It got old fast.
One night she calls me seven times. Each one woke me up. I ignored all of them because I figured she was just drunk and I needed sleep.
Finally at around 7:30 she calls me, and I text her "what's up?"
"I need you -- to -- kill myself -- I'm going to" (dashes seperating the texts she sent).
I have a full blown fucking panic attack, run upstairs to where I have better cell reception, trying to convince her not to. I called 911 and told her.
"Why? -- I'm fine. -- Come over".
She said this while I was on the phone with emergency services. They sent an ambulance and she ended up getting a psych evaluation, which she had admitted to me weeks earlier she knew exactly what to say to get out of. The whole time she was alternating between berating me/telling me she hates me and begging me to come see her. I told her she should get some rest and I would come see her the next day.
I go over there the next day, and she seems sober. Turns out she made plans with a different friend and she'd double-bookd herself. I was just glad she was sober and wasn't bothering me that day.
Few days later she calls me at around quarter to ten, sending me misspelled texts. She's clearly drunk again.

>>743246908
Between this philosophy and meditation, life has gone up to okayish for me.

>>743256347
you can fit more into 1 post muchacho but keep going

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>>743256347
I told her I couldn't make it out that day. Took some negotiating but eventually she let up. The next day I decide I should go talk to her, so I call her. Can't reach her phone. Texts won't deliver. I panic, drive to her place, and knock on the door. I can hear people in there but nobody's answering. I went home and pushed it to the back of my mind. I checked my facebook the next day, and she'd messaged me. Her phone got broken. We use facebook to communicate. I go over there, she's already drunk, her friend asks me to go pick up booze, so I do. She chugs some vodka and goes to her room to pass out. I'm left sitting there watching youtube videos with strangers. One of them started doing cocaine so I left.
I go over there the next day and these deadbeats are still there. I can't think of an excuuse to leave because she stays up the whole time. She's actually making an attempt to stay sober. We watched TV for ten hours while this guy sat across from me doing cocaine, making me uncomfortable. After he left, I wound up having sex with her again.
Few days later, I come over, we're cuddling on her bed. She suggests she wants to get back together. I dodge the question because fuck that, I don't need to be back in relationship with her. We watched more TV and eventally I went home.
Few days after that, she's getting buzzed. Pacing herself, but she's clearly getting drunk again. We go to her room, watching television. She starts making out with me. It gets heavier, I'm getting horny, and she suddenly stops. Gives me a lecture about how she's been really lonely, thinking about her life, and realized that all she wants is me, and she wants to get back together.
Even as horny as I was at the time, I wasn't saying yes. I gave her some lines about how I felt like our relationship was hurting her (this actually was how I felt the whole time) and she gave some nonsense about how she was hurting herself because she wasn't over her ex

>>743238622
donna why feels apart from dunno where to start with learning human interaction and conversation skills but that's coz I'm a faggot but here we go

>Single sheltered child who never played with other kids. Kids would play with me, or I would play games with other kids. I was never picked upon as far as I noticed. I used to 'think' my best friend and I laughed a lot because laughing was a fun thing to do and funny stuff must have happened. A classmate asked me out in sixth grade via letter but I didn't know what that could mean, asked my father, he simply answered you're too young for that don't get into it, I didn't answer that girl, I fell in love for that simple childish ooh someone is into me shit, that lasted four years. Once out of that I decided to move on. I tried asking out a girl I was friends with, by summoning her and saying "er, would you go out with me". Of course, a kind no was the answer. What then was the point of responding to or ever thinking of lustful or romantic relationships with anyone if my one was denied.

>>743257296
cont.
>That cycle continued with three others over about ten years. I'm still in love with two of them while being long-term friends which might say something, one of which was in love with me at one point. Some girl asked me out in high school at one point, I said yes thinking I've got to try this at one point maybe love will come out of it. Would you know, we held hands, and kissed (what was the point of that??), and walked and talked and I was bored as shit, she broke up, I woohoo'd and decided there decidedly was no point to going out with someone I wasn't in love with to start with. More or less the same happened three years later except I suppose she proposed and initiated sex (spoiler alert: I couldn't care less, I would rather have queued up for two hours before a rollercoaster ride).

I lost another girl. It started out as they all do, she's into me and we have a great time. Then slowly she starts withdrawing and no matter what I do or say, she drifts further and further till now it's as if we've never talked. Call it ghosting or whatever, it sucks. I'm never enough and I probably never will be. I'm the guy who can make a girl feel better when she's down till she gets up and doesn't need me anymore. I've accepted I'm probably gonna die alone. So far I've seen 4 friends get married, been the best man to 3 of them. I want to end it some times. I know this may be skipped over but I need to vent. I want to feel what ever else does, even if it's just once. i guess i never will though. I'm the one who waits...i always wait...

https://youtu.be/6h89AAY6if4

>>743257331
cont.
>Years rolled by, and today, at almost 25, I am a kissless social interaction virgin in all but name who discovered earlier this year that people communicate with rhythm and facial expressions and symbolic body gestures and what's important when someone is talking to you is not necessarily the deadpan content of their sentences (or maybe wordplay or sarcasm if one wants to get fancy). I like to think it's partly thanks to mushrooms but that's another issue: my mind would be just blank (for the first time in my life I had to actively think about music to have music in my head), and I started trying to show that I was thinking, horribly unsuccesfully, also, vibrations came on in my body the patterns and rythms of which I can kind of semi-consciously steer and which haven't turned off since

As I said dunno why feels however because I've discovered worlds which I had never fathomed. It's good to be a newbie, basic incremental progress feels majestic

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>>743257048
>>743256545
I actually can't. Character limit is boning me.

Her ex, appearance-wise, is a skinnier clone of me. Personality-wise, he's similar to me, except a borderline sociopath and disgusting, manipulative creep.
I told her I wasn't ready to try again. Finally she said it was fine that I turned her down, and she can handle rejection. She was audibly about to start crying. I wasn't sure what to do. She told me to leave. As soon as she closed the door I heard her start crying.

She and I occasionally text. Mostly me dodging requests to go to her house. I went there exactly once since then, and we watched Grey's Anatomy in near silence. I ended up making out with her a bit on my way out but I have no intention of doing anything sexual and I've acknowledged to myeslf that it was a mistake to kiss her at all. It's been two days since and I haven't texted her or been texted by her.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2bKQAFMhX8E

That's the story of my first girlfriend, /b/. Thoughts?

>>743257468
cont.
unskyllt for being awful at greentext

I've only just noticed the need to reform myself. Thing is, can't listen, all I can hear are my own basic ramblings when talking to someone subverbally. And if I try and observe in a public space I feel an obligation to communicate to the person I'm intensely eyeing, and then the conversation, which never goes anywhere because I don't know what to say/suggest (and when I do it's nearly always after a perceived screw-up the idea of which I'm usually incapable of holding onto or even adapting for later reference, but that's cause I'm dumb), is polluted by my inanities. I'm currently building nearly the entirety of my vocabulary around "hey that's why I'm only listening don't mind me, see [dun duh dun dun dun dudun duh while flaying my arms around or whatever], it's not worth it, ooh wow noted for later reference, nope still not communicating with you from now on".

>>743250774
Life sucks but like everything else, you just keep going to prove you can. There are worse ways to live.

>>743257504
end
I watch ASMR videos.
I'm kinda mesmerized in places and I'm sure those videos are helping my subconscious in some form. I'm a romantic would you know
Would anyone ever want and try to rationalize thought/emotion faces in a pedagogical way for introverted dummies who know nothing about human interaction? I'll even dedicate a piece of music which you probably won't like to you if you do so in video form and post the link to it in this thread or send it to me via email ([email protected])

>>743257470
It was coherent and enjoyable enough to read.

>>743257711
I dig that mathematician's answer.

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This torn me apart a bit.

>>743257470
your story has been captured so that future generations may enjoy

>>743258498
Hmm... thank you, but do you mind cutting the dates off? I don't want anyone I know reading it and figuring out it's me.

>>743258498
>>743258633
Please do crop out the dates and tell lies about when it waas posted. I'd really rather not have to explain this away if someone I know reads it.

Having said that I endorse keeping the story around as a precautionary tale to future anons.

>>743258633
>>743258759
sure thing

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>>743240658
Depression

I had denial about being useless fuck

then when people showed me it i got mad

then i tried to see if i could change my situation

when i realized i couldn't i reached depression

thats my situation in a nutshell

its only a matter of time

>>743258794
you just didnt try hard enough

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>>743258792
Thanks, bro. I'm glad that my tale will live on. I'll keep an eye out for it in future feels threads.

I don't need the credit, I only hope that this story helps at least one young anon.

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>>743248253
Yeah but you gotta note that his wife died that is why he said that

>>743259085
yeah probably it doesn't matter anymore im already giving up when im just getting started

im just a quitter really thats all ive been doing my whole life

Feels...it is what's most fucked about millennials. Fuck your gawd damned feelings, turn off the fucking games, stick the fidgets up your ass and get a fucking job.

>>743257331
>im still in love
>with two of them

??

>>743259341
Ive done all of these things except anal spinning and im still depressed. When does it go right?

>>743245167
This picture makes me feel like shit
>be about 22 yes old
>had two dogs since I was about 13
>family isn't ever home so I decided before my dad gave them away, that I'd take them in
>take them to college
>landlord forces me to get rid of them in 3 days or less
>no choice but to desperately search for a willing person to take them both
>offer them for free along with everything I had including beds, cages, toys, food, etc.
>just so I didn't have to put them in a pound where they'd probably be separated or put down
>find someone
>not the best but it'll work
>lady comes to take them away
>their confused faces in the back of a strangers car
>fucking lose it

I can't imaging if I saw my dogs in another life that they'd be pleased. I failed you two, I'm so fucking sorry

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>>743238622 https://vimeo.com/75534042

>>743259341
You know men are more likely to be suicidal than women right
>>743259512
this

>>743259099
I've been in the same shitty situation Anon. There is a line in my front tooth where a dentist repaired it after a little blonde psycho broke it with a drunken bottle swing. I read your whole story and it strongly reminded me of her. Love is a mother fucker. Thanks for the story my man

>>743238622
>jackass horsefuck
I dont watch that shotty show

>>743238622
I don't want to kill myself I just wish I was dead.

>>743259294
theres a reason that youre in that situation, and its your attitude. if you go through life expecting to fail all the time, then dont be disappointed when you do because thats all that will happen. if you dont want to be a burden on society, fix that or kill yourself already.

You know, I do like the show. But Bojack is just a whiny jackass.

> waaah, everything sucks and nothing is my fault
> waah, I want what you have, give me what you have, why can you have it, but I can't
No wonder my depressed writer friend likes it so muck.

>>743259635
Damn, that's rough. I'm glad I could help. I hope you're doing okay.

>>743259512
It IS right you dumbshit. Life is difficult. There in only a handful of you fuckers that experience real pain. 99% percent of what you feels is selfinflicted. I hate my family, i hate culture, i hate christians, i hate education, i hate my own fucking gender, i hate the opposite sex, i hate niggers...well I'm with you there...i hate working out, i hate cooking, i hate republicans, i hate the constitution, i hate cops, i hate statues, i hate, i hate, i hate. Throw in, im bored, and there's your whole sorry life.

I have BPD and everyday is pretty much a struggle for me since i was a teenager. My family was always dysfunctional and I think that had to do with how I am now along with my ADHD and some other shit. It’s been pretty shitty tho and I usually just drink or smoke just to ignore the shit that pushes me closer to the edge because I know no matter what it’s gonna come some day

>>743241155
just wait for season 4 when bojack has a kid. Gonna fuck her up SOOO bad lmao

>>743259341
> dude, just ignore what you feel and distract yoprself by being a good worker bee. Don't worry as the depression deepens, you'll turn into a workaholic desperate to distract you from yourself. Until you finally have a burnout, have to seek expensive psych help, until we get you just good enough, so you can distract yourself again, until the next burnout

>>743259973
damn. same here, bro

>>743259806
I'm doing much better now. Thanks man. Everything will be ok in the end. Take care of yourself

>>743259973
same here.

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Ok. I'll contribute my folder

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Tru

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Still dumping. This one always hits me

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The delivery on this fucks my shit up every time I read it.

>>743259973
Bpd my ads. Quick acting like a,fucking dickhead and faggot all the time=miracle cure. Seriously, force yourself to grow up and shut up. Look people in the eye when you speak with them, say please and thank you, smile, fucking do something nice for someone, exercise, quit eating like a retard, quit the fucking rekt threads, quit gaming. You can do this shit...but you feel bad, you have a disorder. My ass

>>743260354
your dump is appreciated

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I can't sleep. Long post ahead that I'm splitting into two parts, but it would me the world to me if someone read it and gave me some advice.

Tomorrow (technically today I guess) I am spending the whole day with a friend of mine. We've known each other for more than 10 years. Almost all of that time, we've been dating other people. There's never been any sort of attraction before, we've just been good platonic friends. But recently we've been spending more time together, and I'm starting to have strong feelings for her. We're both single right now. I've been single for the past year, she broke up with her long-term boyfriend about 5 months ago. Among our group of friends, we're the only ones that are single. We're also the only ones that have gone through a breakup. It's sort of created this bond between us. We talk about a lot of feelings that no one else can understand.

I'm moving away next week. I'm going to miss her more than anyone else. She was the first person I told. When I told her, she said she wanted to spend as much time with me as possible. Tomorrow we're getting together for the whole day. We're going to the art museum, we're going out to lunch and dinner, the drive-in, the bar, and she specifically asked if I would go dancing with her. I know better than to think it's a date, but it feels so much like that. I want it to be a date more than anything.

Cont.

>>743260412
>force yourself to grow up and shut up.
Tell that to yourself.
You cursed so much that I can't take you seriously.

>>743249201
>I am extremely stupid and while I wish I wasn't aware of it

That means you are not stupid mate.
Stupid people arent self aware and also if you can reflect on yourself you can also improve yourself

>>743260414
Well said.

>>743260485
But then he couldn't use his supposed stupidity as an excuse to not try new things.

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>>743260465

She does so much for me. I've been in dire straits the past year, and she has helped me out all the time. Sometimes it's taking me out for dinner, other times it's simply spending time with me. She will text me sometimes just to check in. When I had to go to court, she went with me and even held my hand when I was having a panic attack. She doesn't call me by my first name, she has sort of a pet name for me, my name with a Y at the end. I talk to her about everything, probably too much. One night I stayed at her place, and said that I've grown afraid of sleeping alone, and she voluntarily slept on the other couch with me that night. She is already trying to plan some time to see me more before I leave. We really do talk about everything, and it makes me feelings for her stronger. I don't like to talk about my mental health, but I am an open book with her. I mentioned that I had been having dreams about shaving the beard I had been growing for 3 years, and she said that I would look better without it. So of course I shaved it off the next day. And when I texted her to show her my face, she said I looked "so beautiful and attractive". It made my heart melt. I haven't felt that happy in so long, for her to say that I looked attractive was like getting the world's largest ego boost. I swear I could have flown that day.

I know she doesn't like me. We've known each other too long. We know each other too well. But everything that has been happening has made me fall deeply for her. I want to stop now, because I know it's not going to work out how I want it to. I can't get hurt again. My heart has been hurt so much recently, I can't take another hit. Yet I am so far gone already that I can't help myself. I wish I could stop liking her, and I wish she would like me back at the same time. And I just can't sleep because I am so excited to spend time with her tomorrow.

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This one gets me as well. Have a girlfriend of three years and I'm nervous she's just going to find someone better than pathetic old me...

>>743260468
I don't have a fucking disorder shitforbrains. Got to do something to get these pussies attention. I'd slap them like little bitches but I cant, now can I. Sorry I hurt your feels, little girl.

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>>743260613

I have to stop. I have to stop this. But I can only think about wanting to hold her hand, and feel her lips on mine. I want to get drunk at the bar tomorrow, so that I can have an excuse for making an "accidental" move, but I can't. I can't do this. I can't lose her friendship. That is so important to me, too. I know she is my friend. I know she is being a friend to me, and nothing more. But I want to so, so badly for there to be something between us. I care so much about her. This is the worst and the best thing in my life right now.

There's not much more to say. I know people are probably tired of posts where guys complain about having feelings for a friend, but I feel this is different. I have feelings for a friend that I’ve known for so long, yet never had feelings for them before now, and I desperate wish they would go away before I end up getting hurt. I really, truly cannot deal with another let down. I’m too depressed already.

If you read all that, thanks.

>>743260465
Same scenario without the moving part. That made it a fuckton harder. Don't confuse hugs and her letting you rest your arm on her or sth, cause boi, you are in for a big, nasty surprise. Happened to me a few years ago, and we talked recently about it. It was the most sincere talk I had with someone. It gave me closure. We both fucked up then, and admitted it freely, because more than anything, we are friends. It was nice. Still haunts me from time to time, but hell, could be worse.

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>>743260412

>>743260681
You obviously have tourettes.

>>743260613
the best thing you can do anon, is to confess to her. to be yourself. say what is in your heart. "for those who mind, dont matter, and those who matter, dont mind". if she really loves you too, then everything will be good, but if she doesnt then she will be completely understanding and you can stay friends, as long as YOU dont make it awkward. the worst thing in life is to miss an opportunity.

>>743238622
I can give you a feels story from my own life

Backstory needed:
I was molested as a kid and never had a lot of sexual contact in my teen years and even as a young adult. I finally found a girl I could trust and flirt with without being flat out drunk.

Now to the story:
> Be me, 22 y old male
> Go to college
> Fall in love with a girl in my class
> Things go fairly well.
> Only known each other for two weeks but seems like years.
> Go to this class party
> We are kinda hitting it up
> We were not dating but we were definitely having a thing at the time
> Fuck boy enters the room.
> Fuck boy starts hitting on girl
> I have trust issues I am working with so decide to not intervene
> I try and trust her
> She starts cuddling up to him
> FML
> She starts flirting back
>FML FML FML
>They end up flirting in front of my eyes and then go downstairs to a room.
> I hear some sex noises from their room
> I essentially lost the love of my life to a fuckboy right in front of my eyes.
> The only girl I have ever been able to trust.

>>743260235
You too, buddy.

I've given it some thought, and maybe I shouldn't have posted it to 4chan, but I think the way I wrote it there's just too much identifying infromation for me to be comfortable with it persisting beyond this thread.

By all means, keep the screencaps, but I'm not comfortable with this story becoming well-known, or god forbid, ending up on Reddit.

>>743238622
Myfriemd turned me on to bojack. I really love her but i never really got a chance to let her know. She said im alot like him and after watching the show i kinda resent that

>>743260862
> i really love her
> but i never really got the chance
She's right, you do sound like bojack.

>>743260681
You'd probably get BTFO by half these people anyway.

>>743260847
I'm not going to lie, I 'm having a pretty bad anxiety attack right now. I dunno, I get really paranoid.

>>743260793

I won't tell her. I know it. I have been honest with people before, and it's never helpful. I will try to keep these feelings repressed as long as possible until they are gone. I know that's what's going to happen.

>>743260710
Dude, have a talk. A serious talk. Put your feelings into words, they may be the same words you wrote here. Explain. Don't beg, Don't bargain. Just put out the fact that you like her, and be casual about it. If she dismisses it, tell her again in a more serious and concise manner. No getting angry/emotional. You can do this without putting your friendship in danger.

>>743259848
are you apart of AntiFa by any chance?

>>743261070
Don't live in regret esé

>>743261070
of course with that attitude you wont. i come here and try and push you forward, give you confidence, and instead of taking the advice you throw it out. its as if you want the world to do everything for you, you want her to come to you, you want the jobs to come to you, instead of searching for them yourself. youll never get anywhere in life like that, and maybe you dont deserve her.

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>be me
>29 years old
>depressed since mom and dad both died in highschool
>work at gamestop hate it.
>only thing that makes me happy is hanging out with my brother
>get call 3 days ago
>"anon youre brother died in a car accident."
>dont have any friends anymore.
>only matter of time before i join the rest of my family.

I sorta know these feels:
>My brother, my friend, me and attractive female cousin get drunk together
>Cousin suddenly goes crazy, kisses me, lapdances
>asks me to proceed if front of everyone
>In front of everyone, crazy bitch
>I chicken out
>She grabs my friend and disappears in the bathroom with him for 20 minutes
We aren't friends anymore

>>743261265
forgot link
>>743260833

>>743261253
you cant expect people to come running to you to be your friend, you have to search yourself. if youre not willing to do that, then you should stay depressed and kill yourself.

>>743261325
The man lost his brother. Show some respect.

>>743261265
How is that supposed to work? Was she supposed to nag you until you say yes? Was your friend supposed to say no, since he's not blood related to her?
Way didn't you suggest the bathroom?
Must be because she's a crazy bitch...

> exhausted. have had anxiety problems for years
> just want to rub one out and fall asleep
> can't even get it up

Does anyone else know this feel?

>>743261458
Not interacting socially will definitely help him to get over his loss.

you just need to expand your porn search

>>743261325
You act like i dont try.
I do try. The closest things to friends i have is my work mates. And sure i have casual friends. But i dont have any people im truly close to. And sure part of that is because of my depression. I distance myself. But it's hard to make friends when you have so much shit going on in your life. I work a shitty job all day just to survive. Then i get home and sleep. Then wake up the next day. Its like a never ending cycle ive tried to break out of.
Tldr: ive tried. It hasnt worked

>>743260412
None of the stuff you said really pertained to me in that paragraph. I don’t know where rekt threads and gaming came from.

And I’ve been trying to get better. I do behavior therapy as of currently and it’s been going good but no matter what I know I’m going to experience an urge to off myself soon again.

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>>743238622
Sup boyos.

Started seeing a psychologist.

Got into a bad car accident and needed some therapy due to all the mental problems starting to develop.

So good news is, she has declared that I don't have schizophrenia or I'm bipolar.

She did diagnosed me with clinical major depression disorder.

But from what she gathered. I'm very strong willed.

She asked me if I ever thought about suicide or hurting myself.

Told her nah because I have shit to do. I only get one shot to make something out of my pathedic of an existence as a man. I've failed in so many ways that I consider myself a piece of shit.

But I never give up. And I also try to stay positive.

I guess that's a good thing. Kinda like I don't let things stop me, except for myself.

She was amazed on how I told her that we accept failure. Back in my prime, I use to work 3 jobs, go to school full time and started a company.

She was amazed that I use to live like that. That would normally break a weaker man.

I'd joked with her and say, nah. Just drink a beer and keep kicking ass. Don't stop pushing forward.

Which ultimately led to my downfall and burnout.

For the most part, after our first session, she declared me very adventurous and brave. I'm compassionate and strong. But I neglect my bodies needs and wants. My mind sees all those things as distractions.

In layman's terms, I ain't no bitch.


I'm afraid to tell her the stuff I keep locked away in my mind and in my heart.

I feel as if I'm not a good person and I don't deserve happiness.

Nor do I deserve to in a relationship or have a family. Just be me. Accomplish my dreams, make the world a better place... then just... die I guess.

I guess growing up, my mind was always set to... work work work. Everything else is a distraction. And after getting burned by so many women and almost getting married.

I just feel that I'm better with out it. It's not like a guilt thing. But it feels safe and right.

Anyone else feel that? Or am I just crazy.

>>743261467
I have no idea what she intended other than maybe ruining our relationship.

>>743261543
did you not graduate university? what kind of shitty job would be so low paid that you have to work all day to just survive? what about weekends? maybe take up a hobby. an adult club/class. meet people with common interests. learn something, learn how to code, start making websites at home for $100 per person. small steps. sorry for the sporadic suggestions

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>>743240043
Ah fuck I remember this show. it was so fucking depressing sometimes.

>>743261586
try exercise. it doesnt have to be intense, but maybe 10 minutes of jogging a day. itll tire you and produce endorphins. idk

>>743261622
No i didnt go to college. My parents died my senior year and i got super off track. Ended up graduating at 19. Then i had to get a job to have a house over my head. So i never really have time to try.

>>743246494
Holy shit I had to stare forever to notice that it says Mom and not Juan

>>743261726
now what do you do?

>>743261265
Sucks to hear. I was friends with this Fuckboy to and well I am probably breaking that friendship to be honest. This happen just a few days ago so have not had time to meet him or her yet.

>>743261600
Maybe she just was feeling horny. You were the one who rejected her. Now you blame her for moving on?
I guess she should have waited for you to grow some balls?

Been depressed for a good year now, and people tell me I'm so depressing, but most of the time I cover up the fact I'm depressed so well, people don't realise, which makes me happy, but I'm still depressed. I don't know how to not be. There's a couple people who know the real me, but I just put on a charade for everyone, and it pains me not being able to show the real me

>>743261834
I work gamestop monday through Friday and then work at costco on weekends. 10 hour shits at gamestop 8 at costco

>>743262290
thats nearly $500 a week. surely you cant be that poor.

>>743262290
Muh nigga!

What are your dreams and aspirations for you life?

Got any hobbies you do or want to do?

What are some of the things you'd like to do?

I'm this anon. I know that pain >>743261588

I'm extremely depressed, no one else knows because apparently I don't show it. Well, no one has asked me if I am anyway.
Zero friends, zero family, zero anything. No job and/or job experience. Too much of a pussy to kill myself.

>>743262597
I know the pain

>>743262366
Its not being poor its that im super burnt out all the time from working.
I started a savings account so im putting some money into there. But most of the time i sleep and just mope around.

>>743262384
I play pc games in my free time if i cant fall asleep.
Lot of counter strike recently.

>>743257470
Stay away from her in the future dude. Not because muh ebul wimminz but because she simply isn't capable of a healthy relationship and you seem to crave just that. She might have been the first woman to go after you but she won't be the last. You collected some experience, but now it's over. Don't let yourself guilt you into helping her more than you would help any other acquaintances. I'm intentionally not saying friend, because doing what you'd do for a friend is too much. You can stay in contact with her I'd say, but only if that doesn't stop you from living your life and giving other women a chance. You cannot help her overcome herself, ever.

She has a child. She hangs out with dudes that do cocaine in her house. She has breakdowns. If her child couldn't stop her destructive behavior you will never be able to. She has to do the necessary steps to become a decent person herself. If she ever does that and you haven't found another girl to be with until then, maybe and just maybe you can take another chance. But don't spend your life waiting for that. She's an acquaintance to have lose contact with from time to time at the max and nothing more dude.

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this fucks me up

Lol this is just a BoJack thread, I love it so much

I've been empty more and more lately, I know I probably have depression to some extent, sometimes it's heavier than others, I just feel like I have incredibly shit luck in everything, it's hard getting up in the mornings for work, it's hard going to sleep only to face nightmares and terrors that stay with me through the day, constantly reminding me of my faults and mistakes I've made, of how I'm going nowhere and how I'll probably end up alone, trying to help others but feeling like I'm crumbling away inside.

I try to be a good person, I try to help and be there for people and provide, I'm not trying to brag at all but I feel like a love dispenser, people come, they take, they leave, they never come back, even friends I've made who I thought were real and true and I loved, left me in the dust, lied about me, lied TO me, slung mud, stabbed me in the back etc etc, it gets so, fucking, old...I honestly don't know why I'm here anymore, I just exist and try to save money, which I never seem to have when shit hits the fan, and it does often.

I know others have it worse and I hate to complain but, just had to get it out, I've been feeling heavy today and I feel like I'm invisible to everyone

>>743262784
>>743262384
Get a room, you two, haha

>>743239507
Its from watchman