No good feels thread. Tell me your woes /b/

I'm supposed to be on anti-depressants, but I stopped taking them a while ago. Recently I feel like shit and a bother to everyone, dysfunctional and sometimes suicidal. Everytime I want to go back on the meds I throw them up and feel even worse.
I don't know what to do anymore. I just want to get motivation again and stop feeling useless.

>>742934715
Don't ever do this anon, that is worst thing you can do.
If the meds are not working go to the therapist and get it changed but you never quit cold turkey bc it could fuck yuo up completely by the lack of endorfines and stuff. Definitely not the most smart choice anon

>>742935124
I really want to go back on medication, but I just forgot it one day. And then the next. And suddenly I didn't take them anymore.
I feel terrible for even quitting. I felt so good to that time, so I thought it wouldn't make a difference.

>>742935551
If you feel that you don't needem anymore it means that it's working so you should go back to the meds anon. Go to a therapist and stay strong anon you can do it

>>742935858
Rationally I know that I would still need them, even though I feel like I don't. I was diagnosed with severe depression and got prescribed a 40mg SSRI.
I'm just worried that I'll, when I go back on it, keep throwing it up. When I started with it I was eased into the 40mg slowly, so I'm afraid I might've destroyed the whole way things worked...

>>742936114
Yeah you might start again slowly, but is the only way anon. Please go back to the meds, I know how bad it can be without the meds

>>742935124
>>742934715
This you huge bother and piece of shit. Take your meds and/or go to a therapist and get actual help.

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Feels train? yeah I feel like some.

Gonna marry soon, but I still think about her.

I rely too much on what people think about me. Nothing I sayvor do is orginal;It is safe. I can't be my self because no one will like who I am. I must be a puppet..

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You are my only friends /b/. Even if you are mean to me your words dont hurt me. Not their do.

>>742937183
Hey anon,

I was with this girl in HS for like 3 years, first love kind of thing.

NEVER THOUGHT I WOULD GET OVER HER.

I friggen dated girls way hotter for brief stints too over a couple years.

2 years later found this girl, still not over other girl. Still think about her, but after like 6 years of perfection with this girl, we didnt marry right away like all of our friends, I can say its been years since I gave a shit about that HS love.

Although this girl just left me a year ago... Oh well, the point is a relationship is a constantly evolving and improving entity. It just gets better and better, as long as you put work in. Its easy to think you had it good because someone else put in the work, but if you are willing to work too you can make something truly unique.

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>>742937569
yours dont hurt, like theirs do.

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Have you ever been strong for so long, that you forgot how to cry. That you are scared to cry?

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>>742937251
fuck anon. my heart. Bloody hell.

>>742934263
Well I had to go get an abortion with my girlfriend today. She's 6 weeks and she's doing the pill. She took the progesterone blockers today and tomorrow the actual abortion pill.

Honestly, I'm not one of those "Life starts at conception people" and I always thought in a situation like this I would be fine mentally and could handle it, but all the pain my girlfriend is gonna go through and both of us being upset we can start out family yet has been eating me from the inside out.

I mean under different circumstances if I had a well paying job and she already started her nursing career, it would be fine and we'd try to have a kid, but we literally can't and might not ever be able to since she's high risk from blood clots.

I can feel it starting to put a wedge in between us and things have been awkward. Last week I drove around just crying to myself thinking of everything and wondering if I should just kill myself.

>>742937762
Joke's on you. I don't need either a watch or an alarm clock.

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I am surrounded by people. Yet feel so alone.
I fake my happiness to fit, but they don't.

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I like these threads, they remind me I am not the emotionless, careless, egoist asshole that I pretend to be to feel strong, when I am obviously not.

>>742935124
I agree. I was put on Effexor and stopped cold turkey while also coming off adderall. Ended up saying fuck it and basically played Russian roulette with opiates and benzos. I was found laying on the floor, barely breathing and in a comatose state. First time being inside an ambulance, shit cost $40. Antidepressants are toxic and fuck with your brain chemistry. Never again.

Almost fucking killed my brothers puppy
>be me
>playing with the pupper (2 months old)
>Have him trapped between my tighs
>He goes apeshit when i do this and i find it funny
>Suddenly he starts barking really weird, like, without air
>Realize he is not breathing
>fuckshit.panic
>Grab my shoes and sanic my way to the vet
>I did not stop for a solid 5 minutes of full speed running
>Mylungs.webm
>Get to the vet and slam the door for they to open up
>They treat the dog
By now my mom and my brother arrived
I shit you not /b/, his fucking look
>Vet takes some Xray
>His guts are on his torax
>Brother breaks right there
>Vet says operation is 450 dollars or 200 if dog dies
>Vet says we put him to sleep
>We risk the operatiom anyways

They are going to intervene the pupper tomorrow morning
My father is pissed beyond comprehension with me
My brother says it's okay, I didn't mean to hurt him, but his look at me
I hope the little guy doesn't die, i also love him

Hows your day b

I'm such a vapid cunt I can only think of myself. I can't stand me anymore.

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Not to derail your thread OP, but I just want to share this.

To all the Anons who are 'feeling' today/night, let me just say that one way of helping yourself is to get rid of whoever or whatever it is in your life that's causing the burden. I know, this might seem obvious, but it's not as easy as it sounds. Yesterday evening, I finally decided to delete several family members off my social media (and by extension, out of my life) who not only have been ignoring me for some time, but have basically been talking shit about me behind my back and doing everything they could to isolate me. Well, I removed them. I took action and gave a big, though silent, "fuck you" to them and will do so verbally if they ever try contacting me. The feeling was so liberating, because now I have the opportunity to 'reinvent' myself and do whatever the fuck I want, however the fuck I want, and not give two squirts of piss about them, their lives, how they feel, or what they're achieving that I'm not achieving. Had a good day at work as a result, and intend to take myself out to a buffet after work on Friday, or possibly while shopping Saturday. Completely alone.

You can do it too, /b/ros.

>>742938209
>literally me

>>742938131
That's one reason I was scared to go on medication in the first place.
This, and the fact that a lot of people told me that they don't feel like themselves anymore after going on meds.

trips and I win that lottery tomorrow. check em faggots

>>742938279
What if the thing that burdens me in my life is myself, and no one / nothing else?
I don't even know anymore why I'm depressed.

i am just tired of humanity, it is a cancer on this planet and thankfully it will never spread amongst the cosmos. (...and yet so many wondrous, painful and deeply saddening things occurred to propel us to this point we should have been so much more, but we are not)

I can never be happy. Always there will be that voice, telling me to second guess everyone and everything. That I'm not good enough, for him or anyone. That I'm just pretending and that I will always be unhappy. I want it to stop. But everyday, it comes back to bully me, to belittle me,and remind me that I am nothing

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>>742938741
I know the feel. Maybe...try something you've been wanting to for a while, but never got around to. It could be learning a new language, learning a coding language, pretty much anything. Know that none of this really matters in the grand scheme of things; we'll all die, and it will be as if none of us ever existed to begin with. So, just do whatever.

But it requires a lot of introspect to find out what exactly is that "X-factor" holding you back. I still haven't found mine, but I'm sure I've come close with my latest move of getting rid of those people.

>>742934263
genital warts. feels bad.

>>742938595
Unfortunately meds don't fix problems in life. Doctors seem to push antidepressants on anyone who's even slightly unhappy, even if it's temporary. I was never depressed but had a few symptoms and my doctor convinced me to take them like it was some kind of miracle drug. In reality all it does is fuck up your brain chemistry and cause the exact symptoms they're supposed to fix.

>>742939008
Well, at least you made me feel a little better. At least I don't have genital warts.

>>742939110
That's sad

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>>742938279
Listen to this man. Big achievements come in little steps

>>742938923
I tried to learn french and stopped.
I spend a lot of money on vidya during summer sale and barely touched andy of these games.
There is nothing that is fun to me anymore, nothing that really relieves the destructive feelings.

>>742939074
I tried several different antidepressants. Never felt any better, but the side effects were right on the money. Delayed orgasm was especially annoying.

>>742937928
fuck you this hit me right in the feels. fuck you guys goodnight.

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>>742939202
Suggestion: Perhaps learn Russian or Japanese? I've started learning Russian, but want to stick to perfecting Japanese.

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https://youtu.be/8JNyllXJEKY?t=28

>>742939074
Gotta love the sleeping problems that go alongside SSRIs sometimes. Or the drive to eat. Or lowered sexuality.

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>>742937251
god fucking damnit anon

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I am too sad to type down the captcha

>dogs taken from me
>gf left me
>robbed through insurance scam
>friends don't talk to me anymore
>can't find a job
>grandparents dead or dying

A few things I'm probably missing, but that's what I can muster. I'm a bit drunk, lol. Drink with me brothers

>>742938278
Thats bs. If you willingly killed someone, you're a piece of shit. If it happened accidentally, thats a different story, then.

>>742938127
Anon are you me?

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>>742940025
you wont feel remorse for someone you killed on purpose anon. Think for a sec.

>>742939584
Never had any of those problems besides insomnia, probably wasn't related to meds though. The worst side effect is the rebound anxiety and severe depression that was hardly even there before. Antidepressants basically fuck up your brain chemistry and create more problems when stopped. I've never been truly depressed until I was coming off antidepressants.

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>>742940087
my cheeks are all dry from my tears, believe anon. I am glad I can cry sometimes.

>>742940237
You're a good man anon. It's good to cry

>>742934263
ex studying abroad in england getting dicked down by some british dude she went her sorority formal with. And here i am still caught in my feels squatting my feelings away pushing away any mildy attractive girl that tries to get close.

>>742940095
I was diagnosed with severe depression beforehand. They helped with some things, like lifting mood or getting some motivation. Even with concentration. But a bad day felt so much worse.

>>742938131
Effexor is pretty gnarly like all SNRIs compared to SSRIs. SSRIs block the absorption of Seretonin, SNRIs like effexor block serotonin, epinephrine and noepinephrine. MAOIs block pretty much everything and are outright dangerous if you don't follow doctor's orders. The fact you were taking benzos and opiates with an SNRI was the issue.

Source: been on a myriad of different psych pills for more than a quarter of a century.

>>742940634
SSRIs don't "block" serotonin. They block the reuptake of serotonin, so it stays in the synapse longer.

>>742940412
Id rather take Rx amphetamines. They work better for "depression", they're safer and they're fun to use recreationally.

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>be me
>18
>dog dies first month of the year.
>it was cold that day, January in the North, 2012.
>Just starting to get my grades up, nothing honor grad level, but better outlook than before. Would have ended with a 3.6 GPA if I kept on course. Kids were still shit to me, but things were looking bright for me.
>come home.with a smile on my face.
>Mom greets me when I walk in (along with my sexually abusive step dad, but that's another story.)
>I immediately know something is wrong by the look on her face, and immediately look for Pebbles.
>see her lying on the ground on a blanket made by my Nanah, cold and alone.
>Remember seeing her that morning as I was walking out.
>She wagged her tail at me as if to say good bye. I didn't have time to pet her goodbye and said to myself I would love on her when I got home.
>Waves of anguish and agonized grief wash over me as I collapse into the ground and weep.
>Ask if she was alone when she died, and my mom said she was. She had left that afternoon, and came back to find Pebbles lying there.
>Siblings that couldn't stand me came home before I did and found out. They left me alone.
>after crying for 10 minutes I get up and put my coat on to go outside and dig her a grave.
>"It's cold out anon, ground is frozen."
>I don't care. I need to do this for her.
>I start by the greenhouse, where I dig for about an hour, tirelessly.
>No use.
>Ground was frozen solid.
>Give up, enraged at how useless I was as an owner.
>Remember that I promised her that I would be there for her at the end, and that I failed to do that too.
>chuck the shovel away and just collapse on the ground.
>Eventually get up.
>We have scrap wood in the garage, I can build a coffin.
>Cunt of a step dad already made one. I wish I told him. I wanted to make one of my own. Feels wrong now that he made it.
>I lost her out on a similar blanket my grand mother made me, and wrapped her tightly in it. She was so cold /b/. Cont...

>>742940073
Isn't this good? I think he successfully escaped and the military thinks he died somewhere or something.

>>742940950
Yeah, that my take.

>>742937671
The accuracy

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>>742940950
he never returned to 4chan

>>742940463
Fucking retarded 9gag post and that shitty font color that makes t impossible to read. Your post just gave me AIDS lmao.
>this is now a cringe thread

>>742937671
yup

>>742937790
I've gotten to the point where I have to be drunk to cry, because no matter how hard I try it sober, nothing comes out

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>>742941117
thanks reddit

>>742940634
Opiates and benzos had nothing to do with the antidepressants. I abused those after I stopped. Looking back I also realized I was never depressed in the first place.

>>742941243
Thanks for reminding me how pathetic these threads really are. Good thing schools starting back up soon.

>>742934263
You want to know how i feel?

>being me:
>being borderline autistic (unable to make friends or ever get the girl)
>holding right-leaning views in an age where holding such views is a crime, and expressing it is even worse
>Being Christian in an age and place when we are more hated than Muslim terrorists
>only getting turned on by anthro goats (pic related), normal women don't do it for me anymore
>only one in my town who thinks like i do, only one who wants to discuss important stuff and doesn't want to waste time on idle chatter
>being mocked and laughed at in my moments of greatest rage, even when i describe the methods and ways i will kill someone
>laughing or smiling at the wrong time because my brain is fucked (i once laughed at a biker threatening me with a gun)
>numb to human suffering(9/11 makes me feel nothing)
I'm like a trapped animal, I'm afraid; I need to scream but i have no mouth, my blood boils and yet there is no way to calm it. I feel like if things keep up i'm going to lose my shit.

>>742941497
>turned on by goats
Fucking lol'd. If god really exists he made a mistake by creating you

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>>742941467
thanks reddit, is good to know you are still protecting the internet you great internet warrior. pls tell me how big your adventures are.
We already know 9fag steals content from everywhere, its not a secret smartguy. But please do tell us how original are you.

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>>742940365
Suffering is a choice. Laugh in the face of despair. Rage against your darkness.

>>742941528
He simply followed the scent because he can't function without a pack leader. It isn't love. It's an evolutionary trait they developed over years of humans selectively only keeping the needy ones alive.

>>742941705
It's not only the fact you're posting le funny memes but everything you post is cringeworthy as fuck. Don't cut yourself on that edge, pussy.

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>>742941744
thanks doc

>>742941825
lol

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Done guys, take care. Run out of whiskey.

>>742941744
KYS you fucking buzzkill. No one gives a shit about your pseudoscience ideas. The only human capable of producing dog pheromones is your mother, she stinks like shit. XD

>>742941945
this was the first thing i ever saw porn-wise, fucked me up for life

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>>742940934
>her eyes were wide open, as if she was scared. I still wonder if she was worried about me, or if she was looking for me. Keeps me up at night.
>I hold her fragile body in my arms, and weep. My mother came and sat beside me, and held me as I cried.
>I then carried her to her coffin and laid her inside. I screwed the lid in place and carried the box out to the greenhouse garage, where we would need to keep her until the ground thawed.
>I set her down gently on the concrete, and again felt my uselessness.
>I knelt beside her coffin and repeated the same words "I'm sorry" over and over again, for failing her.
>I get up and leave locking the door behind me when my grandfather shows up.
>I love this man as a father, as he was for a long time before evil step dad came along.
>He embraced me and weeper for my loss, apologizing that I had happened. He them walked with me back to her and said his farewells.
>From then on I was a haunted man.
>I no longer joked, no longer smiled.
>People left me alone to grieve. Didn't call on me in class.
>It got to the point where the office staff and faculty noticed, and told mom.
>She had a talk with me after that, telling me that everyone has noticed the changes.
>She starts crying and tells me "I just want you to be happy anon."
>Put my old smile on and say "It's okay mom. I'm over it."
>Begin acting like old self again.
>Ridicule starts up
>Grades continue to drop, but graduate anyway.
>Never finish the grieving process.
>Fast forward to 2014

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>>742941880
oh wow let me clap for your bravery internet warrior
clap
clap clap
Someone has to award you for such a comeback with such a lack of grey matter.
clap
clap clap
Feel superior now internet warrior?

>>742942232
Kill yourself

>>742936614
This is one of the greatest pictures ever taken

Not really feels, but this is the only thread on /b/ right now that isn't cancer. Thanks for having me.

>>742942372
clap clap
you got your award warrior, thats your sign to fuck off and let the adults talk.

>>742941447
Homunculus was a masterpiece

>>742942021
What's that? Leprosy?

>>742938278
That's deep.

>>742938039
Living the life

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>>742942381

>>742934715
>>742935124
I've always been depressed and suicidal.

A long time ago, I talked to a therapist, and he referred me to a psychiatrist for some antidepressants.
I took some for a month, and I felt worse. They had my try something different, and I still felt worse. Couldn't get out of bed, didn't even bother calling into work. Just lied there, looking over at a gun, wishing I had the strength to pull the trigger. Absolute worst I've ever felt. Even worse than when I actually have attempted suicide. I just felt... Nothing.
Eventually, I couldn't afford to keep going, and I was tired of the guessing game, so I stopped going, and stopped taking them. Ended up moving in with family while I got finances figured out.

Years later, I have finished my degree, gotten a high-paying job, and my own place. Still depressed. Still suicidal. I think about seeing a therapist again, maybe trying some different meds, but I worry about how much it might fuck me up again.

>>742942600
her father threw acid in her face because she knew about his work in sex trafficking

>>742939350
>>742939384
>>742939408
This ones hit me hard

>>742941686
>>742941686
>Fucking lol'd. If god really exists he made a mistake by creating you
something to add to my feels collection. Even 4-tards hate me.

>>742939110
>They're just stuck in traffic

>>742942877
>they're just all dead or don't give fuck about these old people

>>742942741
Aw man.. she's really pretty, too. She's got that Hanako (KS) aesthetic now. I wonder if her self-worth is low enough to give me a chance.

>>742938043
context?

>>742940349
damn son...

>>742941705
>the feels of a bad father-son relationship where the dad loves you and you don't reciprocate.

>>742938096
>reasons come at the end
Can confirm.
Can also confirm are shitty reasons.

>>742942741
That would have been my second guess. Well, at least it's better than leprosy.

I'd still hit that.

>>742941825
This is the only seen in naruto that i have ever seen.
The rest of the show is too autistic for me.

>>742942458
You don't count as an adult when you have the mental capacity of an autistic kid. Your mother should've aborted you. "Clap clap clap" fucking loser. I'll send you a rope if you promise to hang yourself with it.

>>742938161
What if I told you, there is no red balloon?

>>742942815
Me too. I don't want to be that guy.

>>742943245
clap clap oh great internet protector

>>742942232
>>742943245
faggots

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I got fired today. Some of you guys made it fun though.
>>742925886

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motivate me to delete her selfies, /b/

>>742941945
>teacher can't spell "appropriate"
shit's fake

>>742939875
The best one here

>>742939313
He's smiling though

>>742939440
This makes me happy and sad all at the same time

>>742937671
Jesus, too real.
Weekend comes, or someone's birthday, or a holiday, and you think about texting or calling someone.
But then you think, "Nah, they don't want to hear from me. Don't bug them."
Then, later, they ask why you never text or call, and you feel like an asshole.
And it just reinforces your assumption that nobody really likes you, because you are an asshole.

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>>742942220

>I am dreaming
>In the dream I am in a prairie setting.
>Grassy fields, some trees, flowers, blue skies, and the occasional whispy cloud.
>Peaceful feelings drift over me, almost blissful. The most I have ever felt in my life.
>A dog bounds toward me out of no where and jumps at me.
>It's Pebbles.
>Bewilderment, joyfulness, and elation fill me.
>I begin to run with her
>we keep going until I drop with exhaustion onto the grass and she has on top of me, licking me all over my face as she always did when she was young.
>Since 2012 I was living on my own, barely making rent and doing my best to find myself. Ultimately failing miserably. Life was awful.
>here, I was happy, and I didn't want to leave.
>Part of me is lost in this dream, reliving it in memory that I can imagine without difficulty.
>I knew I needed to wake up soon though. I didn't care. I held on with a death grip.
>Soon, a voice called her name. I can't remember what it sounded like besides the fact it was male, and distant. Almost like a whisper.
>Her ears perk up a she begins trotting after it, not before looking back at me, and wagging that curly tail of hers.
>Wake up crying, but happier than I had been in a long time.
I don't know if I glimpsed heaven and was granted the chance to see her again, or if my brain produced whatever I needed to get over my grief. What I do know it worked. I am about to go to basic training for the Guard, I have had good jobs and lots of experience since. Life is hard, but I am at peace with it. Tears are in my eyes as a write this, tears of sadness, regret, joy. An odd combination.
I have included a lecture of me as a child with her. I am sure this thread will 404 soon, and that barely anybody read my story, but those of you who do, you would have loved my Pebbles. Thank you, for listening.

>>742943100
I never lived it but it still hurts to read

>>742941657
Angel beats ending destroid me

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>>742943409
As you're looking at them, she's fucking someone else. And now, that someone else is dealing with her problems.

>>742941414
Jesus dude

>>742944073
He's right ykno

>>742944805
I think it's just that as you age you become more self-aware of how shitty everything is, including yourself. At least in hindsight, I realized I was behaved worse than an I do now.

>>742944805
Fuck...

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>>742938132
shit anon, that sucks. i wish you and your brother's poor pup the best. whatever happens, try to move on. fuck your dad either way. you sound young, and young people make more mistakes than anyone, and that's okay.
good luck anon

>>742934263
I don't feel emotions
I live my life in a fantasy world and cannot escape the concepts of my own mind, I am always thinking about my own mental experience. I have no friends or desire to have friendship, even with family, I can not cum inside another human being, I go soft whenever I bring a woman home. My feet hurt. I am a lifelong biologist and everything I am passionate disappears in front of me on a daily basis. Every once in a while I will feel joy or grief but it does not last long before I go back to the baseline nothing. It seems my emotions have reached thermodynamic equilibrium. I cannot preform basic human functions like getting out of bed, brushing my teeth, or working, I've been like this since I hit puberty.

>>742945315
>concepts of my own mind
Confines*

>>742942047
Selective evolution isn't pseudoscience you complete fucking retard. We know humans killed any of the pack animals that didn't comply. They follow you around because those are the ones who were allowed to survive among humans.

When I was a kid, both my parents were drunks and abusive.
I told myself I'd never drink.
When I got older, I told myself I wouldn't drink until I was 21.
When I turned 21, I told myself I'd only drink for special occasions, parties and the like.
A few years passed, and I started telling myself I just won't ever drink alone.
Then I started telling myself I just won't ever drink on a week night.
Then I told myself I can drink during the week, so long as it's never enough to affect my work.

Now that I've called in sick to work because I was hung over, I don't know where else to draw the line in the sand...

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>>742934263
Hope you don't mind me venting /b/,

>gf of one year broke up with me in april right after my birthday.
>told me "I don't love you anymore" near the end.
>twice.
>everytime I remember that, I remember the first time she told me "I love you" cuddling in her car right outside my house.
>was drop dead ready to marry her from the getgo

I've been good /b/, been trying to cope for a good few months now with lifting and shit but tonight's getting to me. Gonna smoke some weed and drink some tea to chill.

I won't mind listening to a few anons if they wanna vent.

>>742941414
fuck you

>>742937997

I had the same thing happen years ago. I held on to it for a long time.

She and I now have a son and they are my everything.

Part of the journey, but I ended up doing fine. Keep your head up.

>>742945571
Goddamn it.

>>742945377
Nigger, dogs can feel love. Yes, they suck up for food, but they also just want to be with you. Whether it's partly genetic or not is irrelevant. They enjoy human company, and they don't just suck up to any human at all. If they love me because I'm their pack leader, it makes no difference. It's still love.

>>742934263
That's because you're squating 135.

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>>742946040
>squating

/b/, its been a really long time since I've posted. At least 5 years.. I've come to you all at the lowest point I've ever been at in my life. Lost sight of everything good in the world I guess. I have an extensive friend circle, but I feel that most of them are shallow and only like me for my drugs. I found the love of my life, but eventually we broke up, because of course, she wasn't the love of my life.. My best friend betrayed my trust to date her and ditch me. It destroyed every shred of hope i had in life for a long time. I haven't been able to find any love or strong emotion towards a bitch since. Was depressed before,and those events just made it worse. Tried pills, which kind of worked for awhile. Still couldn't find true happiness. I then tried to be the bigger man and forgive my friend. We became great friends again, as i tried to move past how he was dating my ex. They eventually broke up, and now, a few girls later, hes dating this new girl. I didn't like her at first, but after hanging out with her alone a few times, i started feeling something I never wanted to feel again, at least not now, not this way. I'm in love with her. I don't know why it happened this way, and it puts me through constant anguish. She's perfect. I understand her more than I understand anything in this fucked up world. I can't stop thinking about her. I know I'd treat her better than he does, but at the same time, he's my best friend. I'll never tell her, even though we talk every single day. Even though she's the only person I care about. Even though she has that stupid fucking snapchat heart with me instead of him. Even though I love her like I've never loved anything before. So here I am /b/. Coming to back to you at the lowest low in my life. My family doesn't respect my talent or dreams, my friends steal from me, and I can't feel anything but love for a girl I could never bring myself to date only for fear of feeling like I betrayed my best friend just like he betrayed me.

>>742939586
Actual fucking rage

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>>742941414
>my dog was named rex
well fuck you too /b/
>pic related

>>742943651
I screenshoted your story and placed it in an appropriate folder (hope you don't mind)

Pebbles will never be forgotten.

>>742943777
Same

>>742945595
I was with my ex for 7 years. Lived together for the last 5.

She goes to work one night, kisses me goodbye.
>"I love you, anon"

Comes home that night, says she's leaving and probably not coming back. Says she hasn't been happy in a long time.

Never comes back.

That was 11 years ago. I've moved on, but I think it broke something inside me that will never completely heal.

>>742945735
Thank you man, I really do appreciate it and I'll keep holding on as best as I can.

>>742946336
You know what you want /b/ to tell you.
You know what you came here to hear.

>>742946618
That's rough. Women do tend to plan their exits well in advance and then just spring it on men, though.

>>742946556
Thank you, Anon. Thank you.

>>742937446
i haven't watched the show since like season 3 i think, what character is this?

>>742940401
fuck this one got me

>>742946943
Shit. I didn't notice that one until now.

>>742946716
not sure what you mean by this shit but it sounds dumb :/ i just want to discuss the problems im having with someone not immediately involved for once. is that so much to ask, even from b?

>>742941556
and then he discovered mail order weed and stopped chilling with fags

>>742937623
It's shit like this that makes me want to be more nice and patient with people, but I can never seem to do so because I'm seen as a pushover.

>>742940401
story?

>>742943651
hey buddy. just want you to know that someone out there loves you for who you are even if they dont know a thing about you. RIP Pebbles. <3

>>742937928
"He who increaseth knowledge, increaseth sorrow."

If only this came from someone I would actually listen to, rather than a videogame, maybe i would've spared myself.

>>742938132
On one hand, fucking hell anon, puppies aren't different from human babies other than the obvious differences.

On the other, all you can do is hope.

>>742938132
hey man. it's okay. sometimes we make mistakes. i know the outcome could potentially really suck, but there will still be people out there who love and cherish you. i hope everything goes well for you and your family/pupper anon. also. your dad is some shit beyond a cuck. a real nigga woulda told you it's all alright and forgiven you immediately. everyone makes mistakes. puppers are sweet and precious and amazing, but humans are more important, so please dont beat yourself up. love you anon, gnight

>>742948354
>a videogame
Anon you are supposed to be smart, this observation has been made many times by many famous people throughout history since the bronze ages. Don't you read books?

>>742939136
fuck

>>742939958
I won't offer anything except good luck to you anon. Just endure and things will get better, I promise, just don't give up and become a hobo.

>>742937671
That's not depression, that's real.

>>742940950
He escaped but was probably tortured to death for desertion.

Call me a /pol/ poster, but this shit makes me hate jews even more.

>>742940319
Translation?

>>742944900
fuck. this really hit home.

>>742941267
Which anime it is?

>>742941176
I wish this was me, except I only fit the left column.

>>742946841
Bronies are no longer relevant. Away with you.

>>742951395
very true, was just hit with some nostalgia of the old days when i saw the picture is all.

someone make a new thread

>>742941705
Fuck, I think that father-son relationship might be me with my dad. Fuck.

>>742939906
DAYUMMM BRUH. WHAHAPPEN?

>be me
>be 36
>work from home
>now at 4weeks since I spoke to a human
> birthday on aug 20
> Facebook made a video of all my birthday posts and happy birthday posts.
> it was 7 seconds
> I'm going to die alone

Just think...
>Most of the popular/successful companies were built by people
>People who had passion in their products
>People who knew what other people liked
>People depended on the company and the company depended on the people
But...
>Once they started to get rich... Their goal in life was over
>They could do anything, everything they dreamed of doing was at their fingertips
>They grew further and further away from their passion... They instead started depending on employees to create their passion
>They depended on their "engineers" and "thinktank" to make the people dependent for their products
They no longer treated us like people, only consumers

>>742952296
happy birthday anon even if its 3 days late

> autumn rolling around
> have photographer gf for past 6 months, shoots 35 mm b&w (for anyone who cares)
> always having me take pictures of her so i can keep them
> always develops an extra photo for me
> taken to accumulating them, putting them on my wall (pic related)

fast forward a little bit

> late fall, early winter
> birthday rolling around
> two days before, wants to go see a movie
> she leads me to her basement (still was living with her parents but we're both 20 so it's w/e)
> pitch black, just holding her hand
> figuring my ass is getting special b-day sex early
> get hit in face with pillow
> lights go on and hear "happy birthday, anon!"
> best friend (T) is over
"yeah anon, I had T over like, 3 hours ago to plan your surprise party!"
> only a small banner that says happy birthday and two 750s of smirnoff but hey i'll take it
> small party with 5-10 people ensues
fast forward two days
>at concert for B-Day
>check phone
>heart sinks
"hey, i was wondering if we could take a break? I just have to focus on uni for a few weeks until i can get my head straight."
bitchitsmybday.jpeg
"whatever you need love"

> seeing her and T more and more together
> remembering he was over for three hours yet there was hardly any prep work done
> remembering the times i asked if I had to worry about him

> ask again
> "you don't have to worry about T he's just a good friend"

fast forward once more
> Christmas time
> taking her to New York City
> rockefeller center, music hall, everything
> make her laugh, make her smile, take pictures, eat food, still on a break
> the next day she tells me about how good it was to see we could still connect
> so she finds it the perfect time to admit that she does have a thing with T! and that they're in love!
(1/2)

>>742952633
Thank you anon. A few other anons did the same. /b/ is closest thing I have to human interaction

>>742937220
Lol How retarded. She shokld have saved herself instead. Making a new baby is ez, you know. What can you expect from women, there's a reason they're inferior to men.

>>742939586
Every time i read this, i die just a little more >>742951500

>>742942870
This is 4chan man, come here with a thick skin.

>>742949495
I don't read books, I like writing them though. It stops me from having to remember my own pain through someone else while I simply write my own wishes and imaginary paradise in the hopes that no one becomes like me.

A sack of shit with nothing to offer this world except carbon dioxide and a way to waste space.