I hate being alive. Feels Thread.

Kill yourself already, faggot.

>>742617010
OK.
It's fucking pathetic that this is all the moitvation I needed.

>>742617111
Did you do it yet?

I have 247 days until I kill myself.

>>742617111
Post pics when you do

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>>742616530

Idk if this belongs in a feels thread but anyway... it sorta does I think

Basically I'm a 19 yo kissless virgin, pretty lonely in general, makes me quite sad

There's this woman that wants me to come over to fuck and cuddle, problem is, well, she's 21 years older than I am. And it's not just that, she's the mother of some girl that used to be a good friend of mine back in middle school, and when I added her on Facebook I also added her mom, honestly don't remember why or how that happened.

She's not bad looking, if it weren't for all the alcohol and cigs that she used to smoke, I think she'd be quite hot. Her entire life has been a shifty ride, but at least she's sober now. Idk, I want to go over but I just feel guilty. Guilty because she's an old friend's mom, but also because I'd just be using her to get rid of my V-card. Idk.

This should already tell you how depressing my life is

Why do I pretend that I'm okay and try to make everybody else laugh when I actualy don't give a fuck about any of them

[spoiler]serious question [/spoiler]

I'm watching everyone I know fight over the current state of things in the US to the point of physical altercations. People are refusing to talk to each other because they've bought into the propaganda. Two weeks ago, none of this shit existed.

I'm not going to turn this into a /pol/ thread, I'm just saddened by it all. I thought we were above this. I guess I was wrong.

>>742616530
>I hate being alive.
when did you realize you're literally living in hell?

>>742618262
I love you anon, not on a personal level, but you know through the power of the chan

>>742618203
I can relate more to this picture of a broken vender then I can most people, if that isn't a sign that my life is fucked I don't lnow what is

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>>742617923
>idk
>idk
Don't be a fucking retard, you're basicly being offered free sex, take it you moron

>>742617923
If you do it you will regret it.

>>742616530
I don't understand the second picture, is it an elephant?

>>742618681
It's two lovers walking beside each other.

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What's her name Anon?

>>742619132
Steph.

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every day i wake up i get the same feeling; wanting to die but not wanting to kill myself. i've wanted to blow my brains out for years now but i just couldn't do it because i couldn't bear leaving my widowed mother to bury her only son. i can safely say that the day my mom dies is the day i die

>>742618681
Two gondolas in love
>>742619132
Diana

>>742619362
ancient alienz n shet made ancient ant arctic pyramids n shet nd that lil penguin nigga b liek
yo dem alienz b calling me

I feel like an empty shell of my former self. I don't want to exist

>>742619132
Ruby. My god I feel like such a beta saying this but she has honestly been the only girl that made me feel funny in my stomach

Shes starting her first semester of college next week and for some reason I feel like she's going to end up being dicked down by some Chad because her friends are gonna pressure her to have her cherry popped

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>>742618060
well.....god dammit

>>742617923
Stop being a fag and fuck the cougar bitch.

>>742619132
Tia

>>742616530
Ex-military guy with a 10 y/o step-daughter in a weelchair for life reporting in. Started to visit her daily, even if that means no more over-time at work and no more drinking myself to sleep. Yaay, how's everyone doing? I hope you have a good story to tell OP

I'm 29. I'm trying to get into a program but I have to upgrade for it. Overall, I think it will be 3-4 years. All that time I'm going to be lonely. No friends, no gf. Each and every day I want to kill myself like I am now.

>>742619781
not op but could i ask what the incident was? also thank you for your service militarybro

>>742619959
She was crossing the road on her bike when a nigger whore in a BMW ran a red light and hit her, it's amaizing she even survived...and the nigger whores excuse was pretty much this: Oh she's white, she deserves it, I iz inocent. Hell, I even taught her to never ride on the road since I don't want my best friends daughter to die. >tfw best friend died while we both were in Iraq
>tfw as he was dying I promissed him I'd raise her as my own since her mom is a crackwhore

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>>742619132
Melina

My boyfriend is amazing honestly, I love him to death, but I've honestly met a true 10/10 guy and I'm just conflicted. So far we've only made out which I feel incredibly guilty about, but now he's invited me over and I feel like I'm not gonna be able to stop myself from going and ending up fucking him... I'm such a terrible girlfriend and I feel like I don't deserve my boyfriend

I will never invest trust in anybody again. Years of friendships and relationships went down the fucking drain. Whats the point anymore.Theres too many scumbags and lying sacks of shit that is saturated in every crowd of people, it's not even worth it. I cant take another knife in my back

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>>742619132
>what's her name?
All of them

>>742620736
That's mostly 'cause you are a whore, congrats

>>742620745
I lived with my friend for nearly five years. Then he told me he was going to move in with his online girlfriend a month prior.

>>742620736
He would not have chosen you if he didn't think you were a good partner

>>742620736
If you love your boyfriend then don't pursue the 10/10 guy.
If you continue with the 10/10 guy then you owe it to your boyfriend to tell him the truth and not treat him like a fucking mug. He would rather know and not be with you then have you cheat on him and him find out later like some cunt - and trust me he will eventally find out

>>742620891
They all go away on a sour note. The friends I lived with only lasted a year. Never live with friends. They just become a liability. They use your weaknesses to their advantage and manipulate you. It's most especially interesting to hear the things they say about you, especially when theres no insolation in a basement where almost every conversation can be heard.

What a fucking waste of time and feelings. I've never been lied to that much in my entire life

>>742621011
This

>>742618298
>when did you realize you're literally living in hell?
Wrong. Its almost feels as if were in between.. Doesn't it edgelord?

>>742619959
Also, how's it going bro? Any bad shit going on in your life?

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; (

>>742621653
she doesn't even remember your name now

>>742621653
I loved her name so much, but now..

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Do you guys think it's possible to grow out of depression for someone who's been depressed their entire life?

My childhood was fine, but once i got into middle school i was just endlessly bullied everyday, and I just didn't have the courage to stand up for myself. In high school I did, and I ended up getting my ass whooped. All those experiences left me sort of "traumatized", and I lost most of my trust in new people. I also developed crippling social anxiety because of it, but I've worked on overcoming that and it's not really as big of a problem anymore, it comes and goes.

So yeah, 20 years old and have been extremely depressed for half of my life. I feel like that's me now. Like, depression is just a part of my personality and who I am. I can't see myself being happy again, I honestly don't know if it's possible

>>742621960
If you push yourself to do it, then yeah, definetly. If not then no, obviously.

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>>742621907
Its big Kimmy, bitch.

>>742621477
my dad has been slowly dying due to ALS and all i want to do is put him out of his misery as he's in the final stages. it kills me on the inside to see him like this and i've taken to heavy drinking recently. lots of other bad shit has been happening but this has been on my mind all day

>>742621960
50% state of mind,
you are able to get out of it and regain mental health and then happiness, but how long it takes depends on your situation,
are you on meds? do you use drugs?
are you in a toxic surrounding?
all that matters, meds manipulate your brain chemistry so that your mental state can get worse which leads to other problems,
drugs too & toxic surroundings even more,
but if you are "clean" you stand a good chance

>>742620302
Your best friend died and you married his woman?

>>742621960
I'm 25 years old and it's only been the past 5 or so years that I can remember not getting shit on a daily basis because of how I look, but that's just because I'm surrounded by more adults now. It's better and easier but I still unconditionally hate most people whilst simultaneousy putting up a facade of being happy to see people and being a happy person. I'm not even close to being able to kill myself but I'm also not happy - I just sort of exist. It is possible.

>>742621960
Shrooms have been proven to have a good effect on depression over time.
So start doing shrooms and see how it goes.

https://www.theguardian.com/society/2016/dec/01/magic-mushroom-ingredient-psilocybin-can-lift-depression-studies-show

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>>742622820

>>742622710
Fuck. I was in Bali recently where they have incredibly easy access to shroom shakes but I was told you shouldn't take them if you're having dark thoughts because they will just fuck you up even more

>>742622480
No, I provided proof that she's a crackwhore that tried to force her daughter into beeing a prostitue and started raising his daughter, since I already was her godfather

>>742622480
....to help raise his daughter. did you not read the post

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>>742622878
>>742622864
Unless they are married shes not a stepdaughter.

Definition of stepdaughter
: a daughter of one's wife or husband by a former partner

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>>742623035

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>>742617923

Just fucking do it and understand afterward that being a virgin or not matters 0%

>>742618173

It's been a long time coming.

>>742622416
Shit man, I'm sorry to hear that...I was drinking a bottle of whiskey a day for the past four days since my little princess turned 10 and she spent it in the hospital, feeling depressed. Hell, I slept in my office cubicle just to not be late to work when I was drinking. My advice would be to stop drinking and try your best to spend as much time as you can with your dad, so you don't remember all the bad shit that's going on, but instead remember all the good about him

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>>742623100

Just finished chilling with a pretty cool chick from my past, used to have a massive crush on her, even dated for a short period of time
It's weird, the infantile part of me was pretty excited, but seeing it transfuse through the part of me that's been mangled by my prior relationship kind of reminded me that something's amiss that I can't explain
Fuck I'm in such a shitty fucking position, but it's teaching me to at least take what I can and enjoy it for how long it lasts, I just hate that one person has the power to actually mend my entire being decides to break it out of vengeance instead
I suppose I deserve it, but man, I can barely do anything to fix this shit

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>>742623241

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>>742620736

You don't deserve anything you whore. The guy you are dating trusted you and you broke that by face-sucking your idealized mate. You never loved your boyfriend, he was just a placeholder until someone you thought was better replaced him. I hope your actions haunt you.

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>>742623362
I can post some music if anyone wants

>>742623051
I adopted her after the trial where I proved that her mom is a crackwhore. So myah, I just call her my step-daughter on here since it's easier for me

>>742619362
Sauce.

>>742620736
If he knows that you have a BF,
you already know what type of guy he is,
you will regret it and end up crying, so just tell your BF the truth and hope that he'll forgive you.

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I have a great family, always had.
I have a beautiful girlfriend that loves me with all her heart.
I have friends that love me and respect me.
I am in good financial situations.
Yet, i am empty. I dont know what it is, but there was always some void inside my chest, some feeling of huge sadness inside me.
What is wrong with me /b/?

>>742617926
Have you considered that your lack of selfworth is making other relationships in your life worthless since you seem to care more about how others feel rather than think first about your well being which would allow to attain self acknowledge which in turn would provide you deeper acknowledgement of others?

>>742623635
Nothing, it's pretty much a usual occurance at this point

>>742623635
Lack of drugs

>>742619524
I'm here. Steadily realizing how disconnected I really am from the world that scares me. I don't want to be hated because I can't feel things anymore but I don't know what to do I'm so fucking scared anon

I don't understand this cheating thing.
Why is it so bad to have sex with another person?
Just don't do it in front of the other person or rub her/his face in it. Even if you love someone you can still find other people attractive.
Sex is just sex.

The vast majority of relationships doesn't last anyways and open relationships have a higher chance of lasting.
This idea of "we are together so now I own you" just seems like a strange notion to me.

>>742622416

What's stopping you?

Genuine question, not trying to be edgy. I'd want to do the same thing too.

>>742623635
As a doctor with a major in psychology and sociology minor, this is more than likely depression. You don't happen to know your actual IQ, do you? If not, it's fine, just tell me how smart/socially aware you consider yourself.

>>742617674
Das me

>>742623811
have you ever had to legitimately think about killing your own father?

>>742623635
Anon. Believe me, I was exactly like you. You described it perfectly, but not anymore. Last year I decided to go for a trip in a 3rd World Country to help in a little school. There i met a lot of good people far from the modern world an finally feel great for making other's life better. Believe that's the best you could do. I went to a small city in Peru. I hope you the best,

>>742623884
Since i was kid i was always told by people, teachers etc. that i am intelligent. I dont know, it is stupid thing to say but i'd say it is definetely above average.

We can think of a better way

https://dothethingneedsdoing.com

>>742624152
Just do what I said and try to spend as much time as possible with your dad and try and enjoy the time with him.

>>742623884
I have same situation as him.
My age is 18 and iq 122 what happens to me if you knnow?

I dearly need a friend right now, I feel really broken right now and need help putting myself back together again.

>>742624152

To the extent that I think if he were suffering and terminally ill, I'd want to put him out of his misery, same as I'd want someone to do to me.

>>742624204
This is actually something i was thinking about, just drop everything and go with my gf in some god knows where place and just help out kids or whatever.
Just need some balls now lol

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0afnNp9T8no

>>742624437
don't think about it Buy the tickets and stay 1 month

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>>742617923
Don't do it bro

I've been almost in the same situation, I did it because pussy is pussy and I feel like shit everytime I think about it.
Bitch will make you regret it once you've had your fun

>>742624407
Always someone here for yoy anon, what's eating you?

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>>742624407

>>742624407
What's up bro, feel free to tell us. Hell, when my daughter finaly becomes old enough I might tell her about all the finer folk I've had the pleasure of speaking to in these threads...

>>742623591
Okay nevermind. After saving the webm, the title reveals it to be from "Encounters at the End of the World," a 2007 film directed by Werner Herzog.

YouTube eckhart tolle

>>742625336
I am all for feels threads but this is low key cringe shit. Girls NEVER like hearing about their boyfriends emotional bullshit problems. Even worse girls FUCKING HATE when they have a beta orbiter, a lad they put in the friendzone, or just a general creep that wont stop talking to them constantly bringing up how they are depressed or how miserable they are. you get bonus points if you crow bar in how special they make you feel, and even more points if you mention that and you aren't in a relationship.

Stop telling girls how alone you feel or any shite like that, i done it, i look back and feel like a right cunt. just pack it in.

>>742625183
My whole being is ensnared in various layers of misery, nothing functions like it used to, my brain has been forcibly peeled back and exposed to the truth and now everything and everyone wriggles in to mutilate me further due to my own helpless actions
Virtually everything I do is steeped in massive regret and every time I turn the other way I catch the glimpses of evil eyes waiting to pin me into a corner and laugh while they rape me into suicide
I'm struggling to heal but knowing the extent of what I threw away out of selfish arrogance kills me every second of every day
I shouldn't even be saying this because people are watching and conspiring to make this even worse for me and I'd wish they'd fuck off now but they won't fit reasons I can not explain

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>>742623784

You will never understand happiness. You will never come home to your loved one who cares about you and snuggles up when you've had a bad day. Your actions will only dig you deeper into alienated box , unable to have even the basest of connections with anyone. You will die unloved.

>>742625441
The next part is also pretty sad, they see this penguin walking by and the narrator just says something along the lines of "The rules are that we are not allowed to interfere just stand back and watch. Here he is heading towards the inland some 5000km away and certain death"

>>742625743
It was intended for that whiny guy, idiot.

>>742626121
Don't have to call me an idiot, regardless of your original intention i'm simply showing what you shouldn't do.

Cunt.

>>742618357
>the chan
you just killed it

>>742623784
Found the cuck

>>742626121
Yeah, I am tired of being a cruel hardass, after all I used to pop into this threads to intentionally shit on vulnerable people to compensate for my own
I don't know if this is the case for you but just know that you can say nothing to actually harm me

>>742625870
It's possible to have loving relationships that are open sexually, just as it's possible to have loving exclusive relationships. I get that might not be possible for you but people are different and require different things to be happy. Idk why you'd come to a feels thread just to be a bully, perhaps you have some pain of your own that you're struggling with but if you let that block you from empathy you'll only hurt people rather than help them.

>>742623784

part of romantic love is indeed "ownership". you own, and are owned by, your partner.

i'm not saying it needs to be this way, different strokes for different folks, but you give the impression of someone unable to get all that close to anyone.

>>742625405
I do not know if you are someone who is just trying to trick me into admission so you weaponize the information at a later point in time
Seems to be the thing to do and I have no idea why

>>742625870
You are talking about limerence.
Believing it will last forever is what ruins people. You can live a full and happy life after that part with the same person as long as you aren't blinded by the notion of love that is pushed by movies and pop culture.
100 years ago head of heels love was just considered a hindrance to an actual giving relationship.

>>742619362
>why?

because that penguin is retarded, that's why

>>742626574
You might want to talk to a psychologist. I know it's intimidating but honestly it's pretty much the best thing you can do for yourself when it comes to sorting out what's going on in your life and in your head.

>>742623452
id like that anon

>>742626860
They are monstrous, automatic deviants plugged into a Hellish structure of which my conscience is incapable of abiding by without my soul corroding in its grip
I have also have no medical insurance because my family has acquired it through what is now recognized to be illegitimate means so I can not rightfully accept if without being ground further into muck
The psychologist is also fundamentally incapable of restructuring my brain to factory settings due to a volatile mixture of impressions which are nigh impossible to strain into vivid coherence

>>742620736
That 10/10 guy is going to fuck you once, or maybe even a few times, and then toss you to the curb and find another chick.

The smart (and moral) thing to do here would be to stay with your BF, but I'm afraid it's too late now that you've already made out with the other dude.

>>742627302
Have you tried not being such a Fucking faggot holy shit, what the fuck is wrong with you, just get it together and start acting like a normal person, you are not as special as you think you are

>>742623100
Knees weak, arms spaghetti

>>742627567
That made me laugh, which I suppose is normal but no I can not, and I don't know why you thought attacking my presumptions if uniqueness would affect me, it surprisingly did not
I have no idea what is wrong with me, I believe being locked in the slammer to see the hinges of Hell circulate through the bars and deep into my brain may have damaged my sanity more than I believe it should have
I really do hate the current state I am in though

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>>742623635
I have a shitty abusive family.
I have no gf and no one who loves me.
I have never had a friend.
I make just enough money each paycheck to eat for 2 more weeks.
I don't even know what empty means because I've never felt much of anything really.

Let's trade.

>>742627302
Your financial situation sounds bad. If you live in a city there might be programs to help you get psychological care for free, if not I'd def still try to find a way... Talking to a psychologist isn't about returning to normal or "fixing" someone for being different. It's just an opportunity to talk about what's going on in your life with someone who won't judge you and can give perspective and advice that might help make things easier to handle. There's no risk beyond the fact that maybe you won't find it useful, but finding the right psych can really make a positive difference in your life. I speak from experience

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>>742623635
Anon, the answer is this:

Stop looking for happiness. Your search will always be in vain.

Happiness is like a beautiful little finch which comes to visit you on the patio. You can appreciate happiness when it comes and be glad that it has visited you. But you cannot seize happiness and keep it forever, for it will wither and suffer in captivity. All you can do is make your patio more attractive for the finch and thus more likely for it to come visit you from time to time.

Anon, please know that life is mostly suffering. The challenge is being okay with that.

You need to understand that what you must seek is not happiness, but fulfillment. You must find a lifelong goal worthy of your time.

Life is ridiculously short. Before you know it, more and more of your friends and family will move way, develop into a shadow of themselves, or die. In the end, virtually all of what you regard as stable in your life will be defunct. Indeed, as you yourself change, you will slowly turn into someone unrecognizable. Physically, psychologically, and philosophically, you truly are different from your past self, and your future self will inevitably be different still.

But what you can keep going is a hidden, internal fire. Maintain some worthy goal and see to it that you achieve it. And once that's done, find an even loftier goal. Aim to leave behind a meaningful legacy.

When you have achieved that which you had set out to do, only then you will be fulfilled. At that point, you can look back at your life and know that you have wisely spent the little time given to you. It is then that you can finally accept death, who will come with a finch on its shoulder.

>>742623635
Learn a craft. Write, dance, sing. Create something with your hands on your own, soap sculptures, wood working, welding... it does not matter it is beauty or usefull, just move your ass, my dear b-tard.

>>742628376
I trust random strangers with more of this information than I do those who's will have been augmented by law, at least then its dissemination will be negligible and return possibly more so
All I really need is kind-hearted, human affection, not necessarily advice or anything I can effectively apply at moments of doubt

>>742621960
I don't know. I've been depressed for at least ten years and I've been on medication for nearly three months. I don't know if happiness is possible for me.

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You dont have to read this in one go. Just read this if you get the chance.

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So, I need to know if I'm depressed.

I don't think I've ever felt happy or sad. I grew up in an ok neighborhood. Had some friends, didn't go out much since my dad was against his kids "becoming urban". My life was ok for the longest time. By the time I was in my second year of high school I'd had 2 gfs, had sex with one and lied when I said I loved them. I didn't even care about the sex. Like the love, it was just me going through the necessary steps in life, like exams. I scored Bs in most subjects but never saw it as important or something I wanted to do.

I only started realizing that I'm never happy or sad is when my granny died and I didn't feel anything. Leaving the wake was no different from my brothers holy communion. My dog was put down last week and it wasn't even a bother.

I gave away my place in the social studies course because I knew that it wouldn't make me happy or sad. I don't even want to kill myself. Is there something wrong with me?

>>742628833
Talks with psychologists are confidential, there's no way for anyone you know to get access to what you share. But I agree that nothing can replace the need for people who care about you and that you can trust. Do you have anyone like that in your life? I only have a few, but it's something

>>742629193
Not really, I used to, but they have all morphed to hate me for being massive fucking faggot

>>742629175
A psychologist will say you are depressed so they can push drugs on you and get a cut.

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>>742626439

Not a bully. Hanging out with my husband and listening to some hank 3. You're just some sad thing. I pity you.

>>742629546
That's too bad. I had some close friends that I lost in a brutal way. Mostly because of my own actions. I had the opportunity to reconnect at one point but chose not to... I'm a less angry person than I used to be, but I still hate them for how they treated me. The isolation in the wake of it left me pretty crazy and delusional, what ended up helping me was moving back home. I started seeing a psych, managed to find work, and took an apt with my bro and cousin. I'm still a mostly broken person, but I'm doing a lot better than I was

>>742629689
Those are psychiatrists... You're being pretty cynical, drugs can help people a lot of the time. I was recommended drugs but I chose not to go that path, they can't force you to do anything you don't want to (unless you cause violent incidents etc).

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>>742626673

I don't even know what to say to you. All I can say is, get fucked

>>742630052
You're calling people names and trying to make them feel bad... that's bullying.

>>742630198
Same here, sort of, I don't really know how I can properly recover but I seem to be doing marginally better, even though I know the state I'm currently in is weak as ever lasting fuck and I will never, ever return to the position that my heart and mind feel truly complete in
It pains me to realize that I am now forced to remain composure as a half-dead pile of shit but I suppose that's all I can do

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>>742630744
No, that's standard operating procedure for /b/ fucktard

>>742630892
Why are you so angry? Bullying is normal on /b/, but just because others do it doesn't mean it's not a negative thing to do.

>>742623452
if you're still here, please do.

>>742631344
not him but il post some stuff i guess

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FJJ8hWDXWGs

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>>742631249

I already told you to get fucked. You are directing your attack against a random. You are slime.

>>742631249
If you can't take a few insults from some random faggot on a message board (that may be nothing more than an AI undergoing a Turing Test) then kill yourself now cause it only gets worse from here.

>>742630835
Pretty much. I'm a lot stronger now than I thought I'd ever be again tho. I don't expect to ever really be happy but I'm not suffering like I used to so just existing has been pretty ok. I'm bored and lonely most of the time but I'm used to it. There are bad days but I ride them out. There are good days, too, and I can at least sort of respect the person I am now.

>>742631843
I'm not attacking you, you're the one calling me names. I'm not sure what's making you so angry, unless you're bothered about me calling you out for trying to bully people the way you're trying to bully me now.

>>742631861
I've probably been here a lot longer than you... I can take insults, I know they're meaningless. But I can also tell people that insulting people is a negative thing to do. I'm not wrong, and people insulting me won't stop me from saying so.

>>742628529
>Life is ridiculously short. Before you know it, more and more of your friends and family will move way, develop into a shadow of themselves, or die. In the end, virtually all of what you regard as stable in your life will be defunct.

It's so important to be appreciative of the good times while they last, because they are so fleeting.

>>742631532
Not either of the anons either, but I feel the need to post this music. It is very moving to me.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AVvXyUvgcCc

I wish I was dead.

>>742629086
Was gonna call that anon a little bitch halfway through the story but it all came around at the end. Got a little misty admittedly.

>>742623784
C U C K

>>742632767
that sounds really nice.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pMErlY2CIs0

I always liked this song. Its pretty much repeated tune the whole time but its easy to listen to.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6mtn1YWyJas

i like this one too. Theres something about simple beats that are really easy to listen to. Im not sure what it is.

>>742625743
i think youre referring to trashy skanks, which is basically majority if not all women so youre not wrong just call them as they are

Anyone with sciatica pains in here?

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tfw when you know you can function properly and contribute valuable goods and services to society but you don't because you're a piece of shit and you give up before you even start

I wouldn't consider myself a nihilist at heart because I know things have value but holy shit I just don't fucking care

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>>742632497
Props~ It's nice to see other anons willing to support this view.

>>742619362
>a single sideways glimpse at Herzog and the penguin went full existentialist and got depressed.

>>742618357
I despise how nice the internet is. You don't love that anon, you don't even know him. Was that your nice thing of the day? I know this is a feels thread, but fuck. Advice, i understand. Internet rudeness, i understand. Real Kindness, i understand. Random acts of internet kindness rub me off the wrong way. It's like when you are scrolling down you tube comments, and some random fuck posts something like, "hey, you. I don't know you, but you are awesome. Have a good day." I'm like, fuck you, man. If i was in actual deep shit, this would not help me at all.

>>742619293
Dianas are whores

>>742634847
Yes they are.

>>742634000
No, but I have a lot of other health issues. It's really derailed my life. But I probably wouldn't have amounted to much anyways...

I'm both intrigued and get completely fucking depressed with politics.

mfw my passion is also what makes me sad

>>742619554
Troof

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>>742619613
Stop ur makin me feel

Well, Jewfag here, My dog just died. For some reference, here is why I loved her so much, more than a normal companion.
>Cut to time after Israel Trip, (for those who are interested in why I was depressed or who I am, just ask for me to post the original greentext).
>Mitzi, our poodle, comes up to me, and snuggles up to my feet and sleeps there.
>She then does this act at night for approximately 2 weeks.
>She also generally acts more amicable around me than usual, as if she knew that I was sad.
>A few days ago, when I was visiting my parents from college, she died in our arms.
>Mitzi had managed through heart failure, Addison's disease, and countless amounts of other crises through the years.
>Today we go, and as a family, have her cremated.
>Her ashes now will eternally rest inside a marble box.
>However, despite being a hardline atheist for the last 5 or so years, I still hope that she goes somewhere special, kind of like a valhalla for animals, where they can play and romp around for the rest of eternity.
Godspeed Mitzi, and may you eternally rest in our hearts.
Love, Jeff

It's been nearly four hours.

I'm so glad we could all voice our opinions.

I need someone just to hug goddammit

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I'm stoned as fuck and it's making me realize just how much I don't like my life. I don't like who I am. I'm a late 20s wannabe actor. I work a minimum wage plus tip job just enough to keep me over the edge of crashing and burning. That is surprisingly not a lot. I work 5 -6 four hour shifts a week. I spend the rest of the day sitting at home, doing nothing. Every now and then I get to go to an audition. Sometimes I book something.

I had a dream once, a passion, but I've just lost all motivation. Not just for the career but for anything. There's this deep subconscious pull that does not want to put effort into anything. I try and I try to push myself to be more active. To put my all into my dream. To make some friends. Meet a girl. Have a life. I read articles on laziness. I watch lectures on how to motivate yourself. Sometimes I get a tiny push. I make a cute attempt to write something. I make a to-do list, but that always disappears. I go right back to lying on my computer all day. Refreshing the same 5 god damn sites.I smoke. I eat like shit. I'm tied to it. Like some pathetic idea of the "bachelor lifestyle".I don't exorcise. I don't flirt, because to flirt would be to put myself out there and get hurt again, I've become terrified to even ask girls out. I freeze up. I went a year with a coworker where we both knew we were interested in each other, but I just never put the effort to ask her out. She moved away. Told me she was bummed.

I know I'm being dramatic and it's probably because I'm stoned, but I don't know how to fight this. It feels like I can't even put effort into putting effort into something. It's like somewhere to my core, this is just how I am. I'm too weak-willed. I've learned to not deeply care about anything. I hide it until I smoke weed and let the thoughts come flowing back out.

Fuck man, I need to fix myself. I feel like I'm killing myself.

>>742637198
Your Jewdom is forgiven for this day and only this day. I know the feel, my Puppy Nova is the light of my life, she walks in the room and even the worst of worst days were my physical and mental pain are putting me on the verge of suocide, she walks in the room and I immediately flaire up, right before she jumps on me and gives me a bath-o-kisses all over my face, then snuggling up with me until I feel better before running off and living her own puppy life. If she died I'd be broken inside on a level every awful moment in my entire life tripling and hitting me all at once couldn't remotely achieve.

>>742637984
>Your Jewdom is forgiven for this day and only this day. I know the feel, my Puppy Nova is the light of my life, she walks in the room and even the worst of worst days were my physical and mental pain are putting me on the verge of suocide, she walks in the room and I immediately flaire up, right before she jumps on me and gives me a bath-o-kisses all over my face, then snuggling up with me until I feel better before running off and living her own puppy life. If she died I'd be broken inside on a level every awful moment in my entire life tripling and hitting me all at once couldn't remotely achieve.
*Former Jew, I am not longer associated with those people for the events in the previous greentext and other events since then. But it will happen. And thats the worst part. There is no way to avert it. And for that, I am sorry. I hope she lives for as long as she can with you. Have a good Night.

>>742617923
>I'm a 19 yo kissless virgin


I'm a 43 yo kissless virgin

>>742619132
Victoria.
She is perfect to me.
She will never look at me, and now I will not be able to see her, maybe I will never see her againg, that makes me sad, most for the part that she will never notice that Im not there anymore, Im a zero to the left in this world.

>>742638435
what's your reason?

>>742619132
Emily, she's the love that I can never have ;-;

>>742619222
Trips feel you bro.
Im 24 and im starting to giving up on life, I think im going to do the same as you, when my parent die, there will be no more reason to be in this world.

>>742619132
There is no "her". There hasn't been a "her" in a long time. I'm not sure there will ever be a "her" again.

>>742619222
Fuck anon i know how you feel. worst part it seems like my dads genes ends with me and my brother we somehow turned out both beta as fuck

i know my parents are ashamed of us they know we aren't going to have children its honestly fucking gay that i was born in the first place because now i want to still live through my fear of death

>>742638435
I'll kiss you

>>742623452
Alicks-Next to you

One of the best song to cry down with

Hey guys. Just found out my best friends hung out without me again. For the second time in 2 weeks. Can someone please help me feel better. I feel like I've been discarded from their lives entirely like I was trash

>>742619132
Madison i fucking hate that i fell in love with her. it ruined a good 3 months of my life and still affects me 8 months later

Obligatory
>Tfw no gf (male)

>>742639203
Make plans with them anon! Don't let them go

>>742616530
Honestly on the surface here on 4chan we're all enemies, we call each other names, encourage bad ideas, and put each other down. But in reality it's actually one of the most supportive communities out there even if it's just us gathering in our own self pity. It's actually kind of poetic

>>742639203
that sounds like hell im experiencing something similer my true friends moved away and now this new group of friends are shit

>>742621653
I remember the best times, when I see a message from her and my face shine, and when the things go bad and her messages mean just bad things ahead.

>>742623717
im sorry this spoke straight to me

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>>742616530
I'm just gonna vent a little bit
If anyone cares to read I appreciate it

>I dated this girl
>no model but I didn't mind we clicked
>she has bad depression and anxiety
>were both 18
>first relationship for both of us
>it was going great until maybe 3 months in
>parents found out we had sex
>parents are extremely conservative
>around 6 months in I made the mistake of breaking up with her
>maybe a month later we got back together
This is where I really started to know what it was like to feel feels
>after only a few weeks she left me
>said I was using her for sex
>I loved her so much
>I tried apologizing, no use
>she would make fun of me behind my back
>she said I put her in therapy
>she got a new boyfriend in 3-4 weeks
>every night was a mixture of missing her and wanting to kill myself simply as punishment for hurting her
>watched as I was replaced
>this other guy makes her happy
>or that's what she lets on
Why can't I make anyone happy
It's been 3 months /b and it's a little better every day
But fuck me some days it's unbearable

been dead inside for 4 years now and yet i havent killed myself. sometimes i wonder why

I get so fucking lonely sometimes I just want a cute bf to tell me I'm pretty and hug me

>>742619132
Morgan
My ex

I have some different feels than most in this thread, but I don't really have anyone to talk to about them...

>hiked 1000 miles of the Appalachian Trail this year
>met amazing chick at the end of my hike
>we hooked up twice on the trail - super romantic shit too, like under the stars, fireflies, moonlight, etc.
>we're similar personalities and temperaments but completely opposite identities
>I'm a southern hunter with a big truck who's joining the military, she's a california vegan who's career is going to be in academia
>got off the trail before she did
>she messages me and tells me that she's visiting family in NC
>I drive up from FL to NC to see her
>two amazing perfect days/dates with her that end up very passionately in a hotel room
>As I'm leaving we literally tell each other that we really like each other

Some side bits of info: I'm planning a road trip to hike a bunch of national parks and move out to the Tahoe area in Cali, she lives around there too. She's been accepted to a university in Japan and will be leaving in March, and I plan on being at OCS for the USAF by then. We've both said that if we had the chance (meaning lived in the same area) then we'd date each other - but long distance stuff never works, and she said that she doesn't want to get emotionally involved before she leaves the country - and I agree.

My feels are that I've already fallen for this chick. She's seriously one of the smartest people I've ever met - smarter than me and I don't say that often. She's attractive, but its her mind that I'm head over heels about (that and her legs).
I'm also a really confident and outgoing person who is almost always sure of himself, but with this girl I still find myself having thoughts of doubt if she really likes me or not.
I'd happily marry this chick in a heartbeat and have kids with her.... but we're both focused on getting our careers going. I have to play the long game and hope that she feels/thinks the same way about me as I do about her

>>742619554
Damn that really hit me right in the feels

>>742639752
i understand your sadness

>>742640141
Thank you for understanding

>>742639421
Are all of your old friends in the same place? You should move with them!

>>742639700
shes 100% going to if not already turn into a crazy skank. ive seen this with numerous girls that have done the same thing in a similar situation. its not you anon, trust me

>>742640496
This sounds good

>>742617674
this hit home so hard

>>742640496
no different places
but thanks for the support

>>742640518
Thanks
That would be good to hear if i didn't have feelings for her anymore

>>742639700
Remember that ex's always make an amazing amount of effort to look "happier" with the new guy, to make the previous dude feel like shit. It's a form of revenge for them. Just try and meet other girls, I know it's harder than it sounds, but you'll feel more comfortable. Friends also are amazing to vent out to, don't underestimate the power of human contact :) you sound like a cool guy anon, I'm cheering for you! Don't let a girl bring you down, you have a whole life ahead of you to find others

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>>742616530
is it bad that i actually believe this

>>742634728
When I was in deep shit, I would have loved to hear at least someone to say "Hey, if you ever need help, PM me" Or something. I would have been enthralled just to get the opportunity, or the illusion, or the whatever the fuck you want to call it that at least someone cared. I wish one fucking person said something because you know what, shit can help someone. I just wanted once in my god damn life to have ANYONE say something to me that was nice. Their comments may not help you, sure, but they sure as hell would have helped me.

>>742619132

Sally.

She's not getting dicked anytime soon. Country's not known for open sex and she doesn't seem like that kind of person.

Unfortunately she's getting better at her self day by day. Winning all sorts of school awards and getting good grades while I'm just... here.

Eventually she is going to get a boyfriend that will be better than I am at my best.

And I'm just sitting here thinking how the fuck I'm going to accept that.

I will never be enough for her.

The other day I just thought of how all the comparing is meaningless. If perhaps one day becomes top tier social status it doesn't matter anyways.

Maybe i'm getting there.

>>742630892
has spouse, is listening to music with spouse, is on /b/ trolling pre adolescent males... I wonder how good your relationship is.

>>742639949
Well shit, it's nice to hear some happy news in these fucking therapy threads once in a while. Try and maintain contact with her at all costs, build intimacy online (picture exchanges, videos, voice messages, and Skype calls work better than texting for keeping her close) You sound like a pretty positive dude

>>742616530
>Lend someone $3k
>They promise they'll pay me back
>Put money into bank account
>Never get paid back
>Can't take it to small claims court because no evidence, keep denying it on phone calls, etc

I plan on breaking this fucker's legs. I have everything planned out, I just need an alibi. Any one of you /b/ros can help me think of a way to fake one?

>>742641652
I refuse to die any way by my own hand. If I live long enough I'll have to make sure I do it before I'm too weak.

>>742619132
Emily
I regret rejecting her 2 years ago so much. I was too afraid to commit to a relationship back then.
By now she has moved on and she doesn't feel that way anymore.
But I sure as hell do. Fuck me I hate myself for that

>>742641834
you have the bank statement but thats your fault for not getting writing, as far as anyone else is concerned it was a gift

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Today would have been my 9th wedding anniversary.

Instead I'm nearly 2 years divorced and barely have the energy to eat tonight.

>>742630892
Honestly I think it would be easier for me to join the army and fight in a war. I wouldn't need to think too hard, I wouldn't need to worry about what I'm going to do all week. It would be rewarding work, being in a small team. I'm already cold and unfeeling so I think I could take a life easily.

I feel like my corporate life is just so meaningless, I have no one that makes me feel special :(

>>742616530
lets have sex and youll feel better :)

>>742619222
Sometimes I wish for my parents to just disappear
I love them, I truly do. But then I could finally let go. I could fully let myself go. Finally all the freedom I need to not disappoint anyone more. I could fuck up my life, but there would not be people who I would really disappoint

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>I have feelings for a girl
>she gets sad and messages me yesterday
>asks I I could come see her soon
exitedbecausemightgetitin.png
>she tells me she has feelings for other people but kept letting me flirt with her, kiss her, love her because she said it was a nice change
I've been drinking and smoking ever since

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>>742642055
I would like to join the military just to get my life in order and disciplined, unfortunately I couldn't because of family responsibilities.

I'm age 20 BTW

>>742641652
that depends on your definition of whats bad maybe you are simply "more an antique Roman than a Dane"

>>742619132
Abbie

>>742642354
women sure are massive cunts with no appreciation/respect

>>742640846
i dont mean to make you feel worse, just being real. also its based on my experiences so to be fair doesnt mean itll happen to her, but also saying it so you know its not you, last thing someone needs to feel like its their fault for every relationship failing. i did that for a few years and it only made it worse.

>>742643243
why would they choose to display either appreciation or respect, they have all the power when it comes to starting a relationship why give up any of that power. They are still massive cunts a lot of the time but its in their nature just like its in my nature to beta massive cucked faggot that has no self value.

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>>742642354
>>742641989
>>742639700
Why so many feels about girls? They're the most replaceable thing in the world, trust the oldfag anon. I bought my first wife for about 30 cows, from one of my father's friends in a neighbouring village. She had no hair, her skull was pointy at the back like lightning, she was about 7 years old, very obedient, absolutely beautiful, and can cook the tastiest Ugandan Chillied Baboon Leg you have ever eaten, mmmmm. I'm on my 4th wife now, believe me guys, don't focus on seducing the girls, just seduce the girls' parents and seduce the local village cow trader and you can get all the girls you want.

Pic related, my four wives and my second-born son on the far right (as by Maasai tradition, the first born is cooked and offered to the village elders)

:) good luck young boys!

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>>742617371
There are 247 days until April 8th.
On April 8th, there are 247 days until the end of the year.
Mind if I share this moment with you Anon?

>>742620736
Fucking whores, slit your wrists. Fifure out why youre not happy with your boyfriend and fix it or dump hin first

>>742623340
that feel when you realize you will never be anything more than a placeholder.

alcoholism always works. you will be happier and it will kill you faster

>>742616530
Ndskallsmdmd

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>>742620736
>>742620850
>>742621008
>>742621011
>>742623617
>>742644106

Are you all fucking retarded?

>>742616530
Then by all means please stop being alive. Easiest thing to do.

>>742622846
In my experience you cant be afraid of your dark thoughts. Ive had a bad trip on shrooms, but i embraced it and it was enlightening

>>742639700
Oh yeah, something similar happened to me

>Girl in workplace
>More like a mature woman, I was like 21 and she was near to thirty but we were basically the same person but of the other sex
>We liked the same things, disliked the same things, had similar hobbies and similar niche hobbies
>She helped me when I depressed and I helped her when she was
>We didn't dated but several times we both teased the other about doing it, maybe she was as scared of ruining our relationship as I was, who knows
>Then this guy appears.
>He also shares some tastes with us but not as hardcore as we.
>He joins us to "talk" about hobbies and shit, of course he doesn't wants my opinion but just agrees to what femanon says to gain good guy points for her
>I give them space, can't deal with the guy, figure if I don't have a chance with her he even less
>Turns out a day she simply evades me and reacts as if I was the worst person alive which not only me but all our friends noticed
>She refuses to talk to me, like not even telling me to go away but simply running away so I never even had the chance to ask her what did I do to make her mad.
>The other guy apparently talked her into thinking I "lied" to her, even now nobody heard exactly in what I supposedly lied to her but she believed it
>They dated for like two days and called it off and got distant.
>They don't hang out anymore but at least greet each other
>But not to me, she still hated me to the last second. She quitted and moved and changed all her contact info, not even by name I can find her anymore, she just dissapeared.

For years I wondered what happened to us, in the end I simply get really sad and try to think in other stuff because I'll never know, I'm sure of that.

>>742623884
different anon here, but I also feel like that.
I think that I'm intelligent because when I was 15 and actually still cared, I managed to get into Mensa. Dont know about my IQ now though.
I just think that I am overthinking it but the hole in my chest just doesn't seem to go away.

>>742620745
I feel you anon, seven years down the shitter. My SO and best friend.

To add to that, I am tired of people who say nice things but never do nice things. People who say I am morally or ethically unsound because I don't say false niceties about people I do not know. I don't say nice things or empathetic things because I would be lying if I did, yet to the people I say nice things about I always have their back and am always their for them. Those same self-righteous 'nice' people say the same nice things to those close to them I do, but they never have anyone's back and never do nice things. There is a difference between saying fluff, and doing the right thing. I feel that is lost on most people, especially among those who others proclaim are 'nice.'

>>742624204
Do you really think that I care about some niggers?

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>>742619132
Nadine. She is the only person who cared about me and my ambitions. even nearly a year after we've broken up all I want to do is kill myself. I just don't want her to feel guilty

>>742639203
Happened to me.

Back when I was about 17, I gradually realized that my group of friends (some of whom I knew for 10+ years) were regularly hanging out without me. I accepted the fact that they wanted nothing to do with me anymore, and we went our separate ways without any sort of discussion about it. I still sometimes see pics of them hanging out on facebook. It's been about 7 years now.

Thing is, a lot of good stuff came from it. Soon after, I found an awesome job where I met some new cool friends and things got better for me in life real quick.

At the end of the day, you have to be your own best friend.

>>742625743
haha. I dont bother them, I just isolate myself from anyone and think about my feelings, but dont bother others with my problems. mainly because I dont have anyone to tell my problems.
not accurate,lol xDDDDD

>>742619132
Ally

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>>742643757
Holy shit Niggeranon

>>742624961
This

>>742625743
>Women should never have to be decent caring people, only men should have to.
Sorry but no, that is a gross double standard and women who refuse to hear their boyfriend's issues but demand people hear them out are flat out shit people. When it comes to orbiters decent women block them so they can move on instead of pathetically smashing their heads against a wall. Those that don't keep them around to fish for compliments or favors. Which is a shit person thing to do, as shitty as the personality of orbiters.