Feels thread

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>>742119275

>>742119330
Haven't seen this image before, keep going my man

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>>742119468

>>742119387
Oh man, right I the feels.
The part of the guy wanting her happiness even if he is not involved is so much like my situation, well fuck me backwards

>>742119564
What is your sorrow my man, do tell

>>742119684
I saw this picture right after my fiance ended things with me. had to save it.

This man needs your help.

https://minneapolis.craigslist.org/ram/stp/d/iraq-veteran-looking-for/6261508920.html

>>742119848
I know that you maybe had a worst situation but man I know this feeling to well, I really loved this girl and as usual she just leave probably got bored of me, not the first time actually and everytime hurts more. Now I'm not even talking to people if I don't need to just going one day a time trying to not kill myself

>>742119780
5 year relationship, almost 2 years engaged. She just ended it.
One day we're planning a wedding, the next thing I know, Im moving out.
A week later shes already with someone else. The person I thought I knew had just completely disappeared.

She wont let me see my dog...

>>742119923
You know the guy?
I'm sorry anon but I'm not even from the states and I don't know how I could help him but I would like to see that another kind anon help this bro

>>742120428
Sorry to hear that bro, what is worst for me is that they always get over you like you are nothing, I wish find a good girl in the end anon

>>742120177
I can understand the feeling man. its a tough fight, and all you can do right now is just take it a day at a time.

"With the passage of a little time, the healing will begin. Even though it seems impossible right now, you'll be stronger for the experience."

Don't give up the fight bro. I can't imagine not being here today. There will always be tough times, that's why we have to cherish the good ones.

Might as well hop in here again....say hello to the guy who has everything he could ever need in life.....but love and relationships are nonexistant

>>742120877
Thanks for the kind words my man, so how's everything going on in your life right now, for me is a not so shitty situation really but it can be a million times better (not talking to the few friends that I have, declining every offer to hang out, feeling depressed, seeing the girl everyday bc she's my classmate) I think that's about it

>>742120453
I don't. I just fear being taken advantage of so I've only posted his link

>>742121112
I hear you bro, I was born in a pretty good family never really struggled for nothing really but all it just seems futile, I guess I'm depressed bc even get out of bed is hard sometimes bc I don't see the point in anything anymore

>>742121207
Life is isn't great right now, this whole situation happened 2 months ago. But instead of drowning my sorrows in booze and drugs, i decided to join the gym, quit smoking, and create a better life for myself. I've kinda isolated myself from friends and family. I keep busy enough so Im not constantly thinking of her, and I'm bettering myself in the process.

>>742121418
Oh, maybe if you contact the guy you can help him without risking anything, saying you go with a friend so he doesn't stab you and steal your shit could be a good move

I just recently started watching anime again.

Man, I miss being younger watching this shit with my highschool sweetheart. We would get panda express at the mall, same thing always. Fried rice, grilled chicken, beef and broccoli and two eggrolls each. Chopsticks instead of forks or spoons. Fucking dorks.

We would hold hands all the way home and go to bed really late watching Bleach and Ghost In The Shell on toonami eating that cheap food.

Where did all that time go....

>>742121727
All those moments will be lost in time like tears in the rain.....You will never be happy as you where those days

>>742121559
You are doing so much better than I am, proud of you my man, the only thing that's left is keep going until if we are really fuckin lucky find a sunset to ride to

>>742122085
You got this anon. it takes time.

you'll find your sunset my man!

>>742121919
True. at least those memories will live with me forever, I'm glad I lived trough it though.

It's sad to look back to it, given that I'm a really lonely person and I've been for about two years now. But fuck it.

>>742122219
Hope so, the thing that's keep me going is the feeling that in a future I won't feel like this anymore and I would miss so much if I kill myself now

>>742122273
I cant help but laugh! Thats exactly how i've been feeling lately! thanks anon~

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tfw you're dropping out of college because you know you'll never do anything meaningful with your life and will be stuck living with your parent's basement forever

>>742122471
it takes a while anon. whatever it takes for you to keep going! it does get easier though. I promise

>>742122475
We all feel like this anon, with our survival instinct like the only drive force to keep on living, not even living just not dying.i feel the same

>>742122648
aint that the truth

This has been one of the most positive threads Ive ever been a part of.

Thanks to all of you!

>>742122646
Man do you have a name, I don't want to know your last name or anything just to put a name to the kind anon that some random day gave to me alot of words of courage

>>742122874
Noah ;)

>>742122828
Thanks to you for staying here with us!!

>>742119275
God I read that right to left and was confused for solid 10 seconds I need to cool it on the manga

>>742123017
I'm Federico by the way, thank you anon you was just what I needed now

>>742121559
>Life is isn't great right now, this whole situation happened 2 months ago
Shit anon, I lost my SO too two months ago. I was about to propose since we were together four years and knew each other for seven. But some random dude showed up out of the blue and convinced her I was a bad person so he could trick her into sex. She fell for it, and now she is dating this scumbag. I lost my best friend and the one. I hear you bro, seven years down the shitter.

>>742123178
I'm glad I could be of help bro.

>>742123053
this

>>742123233
I can understand the feeling of not only losing a girlfriend or fiance, but losing your best friend.

7 years?! my heart goes out to you bro

>>742123233
I hate girls that can switch on and off one person like they were nothing, she doesn't worth anything anyway if she was so easy to convince, she must really wanted, I know that you know this but I do know too that this shit hurts like a bitch, stay strong anon

>>742123053
Damn...I guess I'm a lonely man. Haven't spoken to another person in years.

>>742123618

That sucks dude I'm sorry.

I'm only a slightly lonely dude, but it sucks so much worse seeing women making my pain seem like not a big deal because they've never, ever experienced anything like it.

>>742123178
>>742123233
Anyways anons! thanks for sharing! and thanks for listening!

keep fighting the good fight! stay strong! NEVER let them see you suffer! I had to learn that one the hard way.

G'night!

im not a bad looking guy at all i get girls who look at me all the time and flirt with me only problem is when i actually talk to them im just an akward little shit and i just scare them off its like im stuck in the middle if i were a straight up hunk bitches wouldn't care what i say and im not ugly at all so they actually listen to me problem is idk what the fuck to even say

>>742123505
We were best friends for three of it before we started dating to be fair. But I count those years.

>I hate girls that can switch on and off one person like they were nothing
She has some pretty bad mental/psychiatric issues. Emotionally she was at a child's level. Pain bad, pleasure good. Combine that with a new medication that worsens emotional instability, and a narcissist "friend" who has been trying to drive a wedge between us for months. Well, the narcissist wins out in such a case.

>>742123943
second part meant for >>742123554

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Countless blows with a paddle. Hell, a backup paddle in case the first one broke because dad was so incredibly angry that you'd made noise. Or your brother made noise. Or the next door neighbor made noise, but you're within reach.

Slaps across the face to demean and degrade you. Insult and injury, because they can.

Insults for everything. Failure. Success. Nothing.

They said it would make me a "might man of God."

If they meant a loving, well-adapted adult that doesn't have to chew back seething hatred and a desire for revenge, then it didn't work.

If they meant, however, an angry, hateful person who refuses to have children just so he won't abuse them, who regards forgiveness as stupidity, who has resented their god for not saying at any point, "slapping your 8-year old and beating him with a belt for kissing a girl is wrong, yo"...

Then they succeeded.

How do you get over a girl, anons? It's so hard

>>742123943
She was a pretty bad choice if I'm reading well, but I know the feeling that even if she's a little hoe or a piece of batshit crazy sometimes you still love the bitch and then is when you're fucked

>>742123943
>>742123233

Honestly bro? You lost nothing. She sounds like a very childish, selfish person who does nothing for anyone but herself.

You did good getting away from her

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>>742124721
some of us never do..
i will always love you, lindsey

>>742123755
I understand man, it's just one of those things I guess..I've been going out lately, hanging out at bars every once in a while, etc. I'm not autistic or anything, I can talk to people just fine, hell I can get girl to lay with me too. I just can't seem to connect with people though, I always fake the shit out of it and it works marvels but deep inside I can't help but think "damn..this is pointless"

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Miss you Jessica.

Miss you Celeste.
I'm sorry I wasn't good enough, I should have treated you like the amazing person you where. I should have kept you closer and should have fought harder for you.

How long has it been? 4 years?

I'm fucking pathetic..

>>742127298
I'm in the same spot my friend

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I love you so much...
And i know you know because i tell you so often and still you have yet to give me a final answer.
Please just tell me if you think there is no chance for us so i can finally try to get over you, any shred of hope i will cling to so i need you to just fucking destroy my hope or i will never let go.
I know its going to fucking hurt but i think i need this, just fucking tell me how you feel

I remember when these threads were called /b/aww threads. Helped me out in shitty times, I miss them

>>742119275
Heh, I know those feels.

>>742120658
Wanna know the worst part?

She doesn't exist.

>>742127984
I miss her dude. Every day I think of her, every single day without fail.

I dream of her at least once a week. It's crazy. I have had other girlfriends, I've traveled the country, I went to college and back, and yet nothing has helped me forget her.

I guess you never really get over it. You just learn to deal with it...

I kept replaying her last words in my head until they became a garbled mess.

>I just need to go
>I just need to experience more

And then she was gone, no kiss, no hug, no big argument. I just came home to her packing her bags, she said that, and she stood up and walked out.

I barely remember her face and her voice...I still remember how she smelled and her mannerisms though.. we where so lame and disgustingly cute. The type of couple that are so in love and so comfortable with eachother you can't help but vomit.

I still miss her after all these years. I'm not man enough to talk to her or search for her, I know it would drive me to the edge.

I wish I had a sad story to contribute, something that's not a shitty breakup or parents divorce, something more tragic to bring a tear to the eye, but then I realize I should be more appreciative of my life since its not that bad, but for the life of me I just can't seem to enjoy what I've got, and I'm not saying I've got much but at least I've got it you know? I'm so egotistical and like to think the world revolves around me when I know it doesn't, I'm not ugly or good looking but every girl I talk to is harsh or boring, is it me or them? Why am I such a jealous person all the time? Am I crazy? Why can't I just appreciate what I have and go with that, where's my big break? What should I believe in? God? Karma? Or history of evolution? The saying "everything happens for a reason" constantly runs through my head when something bad happens but never when something good happens? What's my fucking problem b? Am I just pathetic?

>Was recently fired due to "unsustainable attendance" after nearly 3 years in a job
>Last sick day was 5 month prior to being fired
>Essentially fired for taking time off due to depression when I thought my dad had cancer back in January
>Spiralling into depression again
>Drinking alone in my room at 5am and on /b/ for the first time in years
>No idea what to do with my life
>Too anxious to try as hard as I should
>Girl I love is 5000 miles away
>Feel a mental breakdown coming on

What do guys?

>>742122648
I feel like that every day. I seriously need to change my life, and I know I need to. Because I'm afraid to die...but I think I'm afraid to live either.

>>742128763

Dude, you need to unlearn your jealousy, only you can control your emotions.

There are certainly interesting and intelligent women out there, they are hard to find and sometimes come with a side order of crazy, but trust me, they can be entirely worth it.

You can change yourself, you can't change the world...yet.

>>742128701
That's your first love man, you'll never get over her, I've felt what you're feeling, and as mean as this is you need to live with it, every girl you meet the first thing you will do is compare them to her, and that's not a bad thing, you need to learn to love what you had, the memories seem awful to you because they make think of when times were good and you were happy, but weather she fucked up or you fucked up you shouldnt let that hold you back of true happiness, learn to love and live man, seems gay but that's the truth

>>742123053
This is me. Only people I speak to are family and neighbors. None of my old friends even bother to reach out to me, and when I try to reach them, they're either busy or don't answer back.

>>742119564
This picture really helped me feel better just now, thank you for posting it.

>>742129036
Thanks man, I'm learning to control it but it just gets too heavy sometimes, I know I'll get there, I just need that extra push instead of seeking random attention to fill my void

>>742125227
Anon, are you me?

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>tfw in an open relationship and dating another girl in an open relationship
>Had more sexual partners than most of my friends combined
>I'm actually an oldfag and can't shake 4chan
>I'm a fraud
>My life is a shambles

Don't worry boys, even if you have nothing, at least you never pretended.

>>742129155
No, I know. Like I said, I had some great relationships since then, but she seems to rule my "world" you know?

Just one of those human experiences every one deals with I guess huh? Really wish I could change things. Maybe if I paid more attention or wasn't so tired after work, maybe if I had taken her out every other day instead of just the weekends, maybe if I cooked more delicious food for her...I don't know man...fuck it

>>742129155
Different guy here but also cant get over first love...
If thats how things actually have to be i dont know if i could actually deal with that mentally, i honestly might kill myself if there honestly isnt a way to get over this man...

>>742129312

I've been browsing here since I was about 14, needless to say, many many years have passed, and I keep coming back.

Anything I can do to help a /b/rother out. We all journey through different paths, and so each face our respective challenges, but that doesn't mean we can't help each other along the way.

>>742129595
Damn, I want that hoodie. Shit would be hilarious to wear.

>>742129548
Nah, I'm just that sad kid sitting in the background lol

>>742129155

You can get over your first love, it depends on the situation, earlier this year I ended up sleeping with a girl I'd been in love with since I was 17.

I'd always thought that maybe in the end we'd make a go at something, but she's not even close to the person I want to be with, she's actually more like a sister to me.

So maybe the secret is, sister-zone your first loves.

>>742129939

I'd never wear it myself, but I can see why you think it would be fun.

I think I tap out at the fact I possess a body pillow, that's enough ween need for me.

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"Youre crazy"
"Im not crazy"
"Then what would you call it?"
" i dont know, i guess love, wanting to dedicate all of your time and effort to making a single person happy no matter how much it destroys you. Only love could be something that seems this delusional and crazy. If i could get over it that easy it wouldnt be love, it would be some other, more disposable feeling....but its love"

>>742129811
I was in the exact same position you are man, you just can't get over her at all and you feel like the only way put is suicide, and it dawns bro, day in and day out, just hearing her name makes you want to kick the bucket, and I almost did several times, but if you want my honest advice man I'd tell you to jerk off, or do something that generally makes you happy, don't go searching for someone else because that will make it much worse, you can love until you love yourself and your first love didn't, and that makes you feel insignificant and small to the world, but you're really not, if you want shit to change than YOU have tochange it because no one else will, and it seems harsh and hard to do but that's my word in it man, fuck her and what she did to you, no one deserves to feel that way, it's a feeling worse than death, because you're already dying, you're just waiting for the pain to stop, and suicide my friend will not make it stop

Will I ever be good enough? I have the possibility of a good future ahead of me if I dedicate myself. If I push myself to the furthest point I can go, grind non-stop. The only thing that holds me back, that stops me from achieving my goal is fear of failure. My God, this fear. It's crippling. What if I fail where it counts, and someone dies? A soldier needs to be fearless. Will my training act as a crucible and remove the impurity that is this fear? Or will I fail that too?

>>742130643

Love means a lot of different things to a lot of different people.

I love enough people that I can't keep track sometimes, but none of the people Iove detract from each other.

It's all down to re-evaluating your outlook on life, maybe 4chan had gotten too tame. Don't fall for the memes, the world is what you make of it.

i just smoke weed all day and make music. I don't feel anything anymore. And my newer music is really starting to reflect that. I choose not to deal with people because people rarely bring me joy. I am all i have, or at least that is how i always feel.

>>742130840

If you fail, you fail. We live in a deterministic universe, if this is the universe in which you fail, then you can't change that, but you sure as hell don't want this to be the universe where you didn't try in the first place.

Now get out there and do your motherfucking best, I expect results.

>>742120428
I feel you on the dog.

Bernese. Raised her from a puppy. I wonder if she (the dog) ever thinks of me, or is even capable of that.

>>742130681
I stopped caring for myself a long time ago and i dont think i can again, ive tried for 7 years to get over her. Nothing makes me happy anymore thats the problem, when i hear her name it makes me just want her back but i know i probably cant get her back. I just dont know man...

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Angie
Your curly hair stayed on my hands
Your shampoos scent never left my nose
Your voice stays in my head every day
The way you called me baby and touched my neck made me feel at ease
Why did I have to kiss that other girl and tell you about it
At least your happier with him, all I want is for you to be happy
But for the love of god, can you please just get out of my head once in a while, not forever, but enough time to collect my thoughts babe please
I hope we meet again and you can learn to forgive me, because can't even forgive myself

If someone you're involved with ends up leaving, whether it is for someone else or not, just remember, either there's someone better waiting for you out there, or they are the one who has made the mistake.

All of it comes down to honesty, trust, support and connection. Try not to forget that.

Love is a wonderful and awful thing, you'll figure that out.

>>742131124
I didn't think I'd love myself ever again, it took me 5 years, I know its not 7 years like yourself but its still a long time, and bro you need to learn to over power your mind, have good self control is what will get you out of your rutt, and if that means pushing some people away or adopting a new habit than do it, that's all I've got to say my friend, god speed

>>742130882
My outlook seems impposible to change because my current outlook just makes to much sense, and i cant force myself to be naive...

>>742131356

It has nothing to do with naïveté, and everything to do with how humans work.

People are insanely complex and incredibly dishonest, I'm sure you're as dishonest as any of us about some things.

What you need to look for is someone whom you can spill /everything/ to, and who still cares enough to stick around afterwards.

Now maybe that sounds cliché or naïve or unattainable, but it's the only thing that stands between you and happiness.

>>742131590
My mind seems to powerful, i always think logically and its hard to overpower my brain when its like this...
And honestly yeah leaving some people pr9bably would help me, but i dont think i could ever bring myself to do it. Granted my life choice might have already put me on a track to do so, after i dinish college in about a year i will most likely have to move cross country...

>>742131978
Moving away can sometimes be an incredibly powerful motivator.

Though I agree sometimes it's very easy to keep people around whom you know are no good for you. Everyone has done that.

The worst part about the woman I miss everyday is that she lives right next to me and I feel farther from her than ever.

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what's the easiest way to an hero?

>>742132495
I work with mine and were still great friends, but just saying that makes me feel an imeasurable amount of pain.
I still love her and it hurts so fucking much after all these years.

It seems a common problem in many people's lives here is the lack of a partner. Its hard to get through the night when you're alone in your bed. I harbor that same feeling. I understand that not everyone here is Christian so I hesitate to use this example, but I will because I personally believe it to be true. Adam was lonely so God made Eve. We're lonely by nature. I remember when I was with my ex (only girlfriend I've ever had) I was stressed and miserable but I felt complete. I felt happy on a level I've never felt. Miserable in every regard but happy that I had someone. It was a weird feeling and hard to describe. It just supports my idea that we're designed to have a companion. I know I've rambled, but my point is that you're not alone in your loneliness /b/ros. Again I know this might not be welcomed, but I'm praying for all of you.

Tl;Dr we're all lonely so I feel each and every one of you.

>>742132625
i have like $1200, anything that i can do in like 15 or 20 mins, buying a gun is out of the question, that'll take 10 days(waiting period) and i'd need to get a FSC which would probably take another month

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I wonder how many people in here are idealising women who would probably not live up to their expectations even if they agreed to give them a shot.

Such a sad time for human consciousness.

>>742132719

You could talk to someone and figure out whether you have any options besides suicide.

Not that I have anything against suicide, sometimes it really is all you have left, and it shouldn't be belittled the way it is.

But I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to.

>>742132759
Meh, idk man I've met some girls who are the shit. Out of all I've met though only two where good ones, women generally tend to be absolutely retarded and child like. That's what honestly upsets me the most, I'm not into dating children.

>inb4 hur dur generalizing
>inb4 hur dur not all women are like that
>inb4 hur dur you should look for better women

>>742132675

I don't think a lack of partnership is truly what is afflicting the majority of people here. It is simply a lack of interaction.

There are so many people here who have no way of meeting new friends, and have been so long without any sort of relationship, that they become addicted to the idea of finally forming a meaningful relationship or friendship.

If only I could accurately represent this in the future ,given the poor response by the man himself

>>742119275
>she will never be real: >>742132491

>>742119330
pretty much told her that and nothing.
>9 years gone

>>742133220
I just choked on my beer

Is attention a life requirement?

>>742133019

Not going o refute your point, because it is correct.

However the reason so many men and women have these same negative opinions of each other is because people are predominantly straight.

If you were to spend time trying to court similar guys, you would realise that the majority of men are exactly the same.

Humans are childlike, because we are reluctant to study and learn from our mistakes.

>>742123118
Fucking Weeb

>>742133423
Truth.
Though there are the rarities this is indeed the majority.

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A friend of mine was murdered today. She was 21 years old. She was 21 years old and some piece of shit nigger killed her over a bicycle. She had her whole life in front of her but no, she had to be strangled to death over a mountain bike that wasn't even hers. I don't know what to think or feel right now, I just hate everything.

>pic related

I'm sorry I wasn't there for you

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What is normal?

>>742133423
huh, well you got me there. Never really thought of it like that. Good fucking point anon, good fucking point.

>>742120428

It doesn't get easier, you get used to feeling this way though. If that helps.

You'll date and you'll fuck other chicks. You'll drink and smoke and pop any pills that makes you forget her for even a second.

Hell, you may even take that extra dose of something, hoping it'll kill ya but it never does.

But one day you'll wake up, be at some broads house usually. You'll go on your day, have a coffee maybe and realise you didn't think about her at all. You'll remember less about her, like her favourite foods or even the sounds of her voice when she does that cute, "I'm angry but not really" voice she does. She'll become a distant echo instead of a loud scream in your head.

And you'll forcibly move on. You'll be okay.

>>742133659
She should have minded her own business

>>742133659
U mad whiteboi

>>742128822
Do some crazy ass shit. Fight some asshole, stay drunk, walk around naked, Lose yourself for a while just go fucking crazy. Then get your shit together and get another job.

>>742133659
Two things need to be done. Pray for her and the family and friends left behind. And kill all niggers

>>742133659
>>742133747
>>742133748

This is hilarious

>>742119275
That feel when you have an extremely small penis and avoid being intimate with people because of it. I've had women show interest in me often but I can't go through with it because I know I'll end up disappointing them and embarrassing myself. At least if I was a fat neckbeard with a normal dick I could just work hard and lose weight. There's nothing I can do to fix this and it eats me alive. I'll probably never have an actual relationship because I know I'm almost guaranteed to either have them leave once they find out or be cheated on constantly. I lost the gene lottery and will live my life alone because of it. Honestly I'll probably just end up killing myself in the next ten years anyway.

>have no money problems
>Have large group of friends that would do anything for me and I would do anything for them
>Have good family life
>Lost virginity a few weeks ago

>Why do I still feel empty and pathetic?

>>742134091
Why would you kill yourself besides your penis size? Learn to eat out and other methods of pleasuring her.

>>742134091
Why not make peace with your sexual insecurities? Ask any prospective partners if you could use toys if it will help their sexual experience, go the xtra mile if you feel your performance will be unsatisfactory due to your issues.

There are multiple ways to solve a problem, and in the end, a woman is beholden to her own sexual desire, it is her responsibility to manage, if you offer to help as best you can, maybe you can salvage something.

>>742134263

Because you've felt empty and pathetic for most of your life?

It takes a lot of time to come around to the fact that you aren't as big a loser as you initially thought, just keep trying, keep making steps towards a new self and keep evaluating your position...you can beat it.

>>742133817
I did the stay drunk part, now I'm depressed and an alcoholic. A sober one right now, but an alcoholic all the same.

>>742134091
>worried about small dick
Confidence, a job, intelligence, social skills, and how well you can eat pussy should be your concerns. Achieve this and the bitches will come....and cum

I have nothing to look forward to in my future. I have no talents, all my skills are years behind my peers, and I'm just a clumsy forgetful idiot.on top of this I am 5'3 with a 4.5 inch penis and no social skills; he'll I can hardly talk to my family. All in all there is nothing for me. I feel like I was born to die early.

>>742134537
To be completely honest it all comes around to the girl I like. I just don't get it I always spend time with her when I can, she always invites me to hang out with her so it's not like she just talks to me because of pity, she has to enjoy my company to some level but why doesn't she want to date me? Is there something wrong with me that nobody has the balls to say to my face? I know it all sounds really neckbeardy but I'd do anything for her.

>>742134918

4.5" is not that bad, it's a little short, but you can definitely make something happen with that.

Don't worry about where you are in relation to your peers, everyone has their own timeline, you could be the greatest person in the universe in 5 years, but if you choose to give up on everything now...that's not going to happen.

>>742134689
That was what I did when I had a similar experience to yours
>lost my wife and job within months
>still an alcoholic
>will probably die one

>>742134972

Either you ask her yourself and set everything straight with her, and continue with your life regardless of the answer...or you sit and stew on your own thoughts, never really knowing what it as that happened between you two.

Trust me, there are a lot of smart people out there, losing one does not mean you lose everything, just take the time to learn your control and language.

>>742135102
Yeah but I. Have no idea where to go. I have to take this time to say: fuck high school and fuck the American education system.

>>742135220

Fuck man, that's some potent pasta.

>>742135389
I'm assuming this is best done in person.
Do you have any experience with something like this?

>>742135102
Do you have any resources on how to cope with a small dick

>be me
>have higher iq than most
>writing book that is 80% percent done, have been told by friend that is a publisher that if I end it right it could be a hit
>millions of dollars
>have a lot of good friends
>have family that is mostly great people
>am cared about
>have a loving girlfriend that would never cheat on me
>when I'm with them everything is good, when I'm alone nothing is right
>I know if I were to die it would hurt everyone, especially my 10 year old sister
>I'm not getting a therapist, I've dealt with everything on my own and I'm not putting drugs into my body
>constantly think about what it would be like if things were different. What choices I could change where I could be happy
>I'm going to finish the book and make sure the money gets divided evenly between my family.
>then I'll meet the void. I don't believe in any afterlife. I'll be alone forever, why not make it happen sooner

>>742135538

If you're in high school, then you have a lot of life ahead of you, don't ruin it over the fact you're not currently popular or even particularly attractive.

Just keep your head down, look for what your can get and try to develop your own interests in the mean time.

>>742135680
Do you not love your gf?

>>742135749
Nah, I'm 2 years out, so ive been kinda festering about living in various family members houses

>>742135377
I'm a different anon than the one you were replying too. I drank because I was told that I was going to likely be in a wheel chair the rest of my life. Now I'm sober and not in a wheel chair. Life is better, still mad suicidal but I don't drink and I have a job so things are looking up. You can get sober too, it might give you a new lease on life if you're sick of living how you do now

>>742135610

I recently spent a weekend away with a girl I'd been crushing on for 5 years, and realised that she isn't the person I could ever see myself with long-term.

Sometimes it makes itself easily apparent, sometimes you'll have to pass your wishes off as jokes and insecurities to try and bait whether she thinks you could get work out at all. Thankfully I realised that we didn't and that she is more like a sister to me. But everyone is different.

I have no id a how it will go with everyone.

>>742135628

Unfortunately I've never had to look into it myself, but I'm sure there are lots of pieces of information online which could help you..

4.5" is not that small, so don't sweat too much.

>>742136082
Thanks for that reply. It helped.

>>742131314
I relate to this. It's almost been a year now. She's still gone. Matter of fact she hasn't even tried to talk to me, well at least to my knowledge she hasn't.

>>742135864

I feel like I might end up back there myself soon enough, thanks for the help though.

Sorry for interrupting.

>>742136255

No problem anon.

Love is very complicated, and I feel it takes some life experience to truly understand, maybe life experience which the average 4channer misses out on.

I hope you all find your perfect partners though

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>>742136225
Thanks. I want to design video games but I am not talented enough. for starters I am horrible at math, and I'm really bad at drawing or just art in general. I'll admit i've been shilling this project pretty damn hard (mainly by coincidence)

I knew a girl for a few years, we were really close. Then I became busy for a few months and when I tried to contact her again she said she didn't really feel like talking and I flipped out. Then she told me she wanted to catch up later in the week and told me she didn't want to be friends. It hurts the most when you know it's your fault. Even though it's been a year, I still miss her.

>>742136721
Addendum: how much would my height play into it?

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>>742135220
God damn anon

>>742136721

I went to university specifically to study programming for computer games, dropped out, met some amazing friends for a job in customer service and now have friends all over the world, some of whom are romantic interests.

Git gud, you can make it anywhere from anywhere. Who cares about builds?

>>742137130
why did you drop out?

>>742133659
go Batman on that nigur. find him and shot him.

>>742132759
Ding Ding!! We have a winner!!

I always say her as a flower that was blossoming into it's full beauty.

She became a black, spiny, twisted weed instead.

Watch out guys.

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First time I read this I finally understood.

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I feel so fucking lost and depressed. I feel so alone all the time and like no one around me actually cares. I have never felt true affection, im so deprived of any sort of love from anyone. I want to die.

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>>742135680
> Thinking your first novel is going to make enough to 'divide' between your family.

Better write some more fiction friend.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywIfhavpQrQ

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I'm laying in bed playing along with an onbvious cat fish because this is the first time in months anyone has even pretended to care about me

Never had a romantic relationship, always put that aside because I had something more important to focus on. Now, it's been just over a year since my best friend died after watching him fight bone cancer for 8.5 years, and I haven't made any friends since he died.

It's mostly because he really was like a brother to me, and was the first person I wasn't related to who I loved like family. Now I know how much meaning a really great friend adds to your life, and what it does to you when someone like that dies.

I don't know if I could do that again. Even if I never have a real friend again.

>>742124672
damn.. you okay?

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>>742140914
I don't know you bro, and we will probably never speak again, but I hope you have a great day tomorrow. Life is shitty for a lot of us but it has good days too.

>>742132719
>>742132914
what anon said is correct. that's enough money to talk to someone. heck, we'l do it for free, because you're a /b/ro.

But once you have exhausted all the options, I guess Helium tank is the most painless way

>>742141165
Thank you anon. I'll carry on. I'm good at adulting. I've resigned myself to the fact that I'm not meant to have human connection. But I'll keep surviving. The kind thoughts mean a great deal

>>742141470
Keep on keeping on my friend. Having lots of people around you is extremely overrated. Honestly causes more stress than anything.

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>Stupidly committed to a long term relationship at a young age
>16 years later
>Wife leaves for guy with better job, moves cross country
>Super Oldfag, no prospects. A few fuckbuddies here and there, but can't get attached to anyone.
>Feel giant gaping void, 8 months later
>Not getting better, but getting better at pretending i am doing good
>Mfw

>>742141935
I was a small time dj and promoter many years ago. (Not bragging. Ridiculously small time). I've experienced a large circle of friends who were using me. I don't want that. But I don't do well when I'm utterly alone. Not even about pussy. I don't care guy or girl. I need to know I matter to someone. I don't have that right now. If I died in this moment it would be three months before a single person knew. And that only because that's how long landlord would let rent slide. I don't want to be popular. I want to be acknowledged by someone.

>>742142555
hey nice trips tho
if i lived near you i'd buy you a drink bro

>finally got to hang out with a girl I used to be super close with
>distance kept us away for the longest time, but I made the drive to her place today
>for old times sake, I brought flowers, just something to lighten the mood
>I ramble on and on about how good we used to have it and how simple life was back in high school
>we graduated together, we were the it couple in our small town, completely inseperable
>she doesn't speak much, but its okay, I have a lot to update her on
>since I saw her last, I've made huge steps in my life
>I finally got out of my depression and picked up a job
>I finally pushed myself out of the house and went drinking with some friends
>I couldn't bring myself to even look at another woman, but just getting out of the house was a big step itself
>after our talk, I let out a few tears and said my goodbyes
>I made sure the flowers had plenty of water and sunlight
She died a year ago today, /b. Drunk driver killed her on a drive home from a date. We were engaged and ready to get married about three months before the accident happened.
I miss her every fucking day.

>>742142849
And i believe you. This board and anons have been like family through the years. For all of our hate filled rhetoric at times no one understands what I am like/b/. You fuckers won't even let me lie to myself. I've gotten called out on so much bullshit that even I believed because /b/ refuses to accept the bullshit facade I use in the real world. Ill think of you the next time I have a beer. And I'll smile. A little

Every time I send her a text, I always think "Yep, I fucked up.". I'm so unsure about every text I send to her. Anyone else experience this? How to stop it?

>>742143056
I've got no answers anon. I'm a sad sack of shit and I don't have a reason. I won't insult you by spewing cliches. I'm sorry. Not the forced I'm sorry because it's the right thing to say. I'm sorry because no one deserves to feel loss like that. I hope time eases the pain.

>>742131477
It's words like these that keep me going and give me hope. Thank you anon. I know I'll find someone someday. Somebody who'll treat me better than how my last girl did. She's out there, and I'm determined to find her.

There's someone out there for all of us. We all will find them someday. Keep your heads up, my dudes, and we'll all get through this little thing called life.

dis thread is gayer than me

>>742143661
Women are the same way and just about everyone is lonely.

Thats the whole reason relationships exist. Life is mostly shitty so we try and find someone to make it less shitty. Thats something worth being nervous about.

>>742143779
How gay are you exactly?

>>742143661
Been there. Done that. Pushed away legitimate chances because that level of lack of confidence will turn a woman off faster than you can type 'sorry ignore that text '. Find a way to stop. Be completely honest and if she walks away because if that. You're better off

>>742143661
man i sort of have the same problem, but bottom line is that if you're that worried, you have to learn to stop being so fucking insecure. If you have to over analyze everything you say to someone, you don't get to be yourself around them. So what do you have to gain from over thinking it all? Just fucking learn to be yourself, eventually, you'll find people that you don't feel insecure around.

>Ex-military reporting in
>Best friends kid (best friend bled out while we were waiting on evac) got hit by some cunt in a BMW
>I promissed my best friend as he died that I'll take care of her and raise her as my own
>tfw it was her birthday yesterday, she turned 9
>tfw she'll be weelchair bound for life
>tfw she asked me if I could just kill her, since she's useless in her own eyes
What are you guys drinking today? I've got a bottle of Tulamore Dew

>>742144187
Crown Vanilla.
It's up to you to show her that she still has a life worth living bro. Keep each other going.

I like feels threads. Reminds me im not completely alone.

Today is my last day on the planet, I'm not sure entirely how to spend it
I feel ugly for even writing this, it's strange, but it's too late for me now I think
I have nothing much else to say, I just want to sleep without the immolation

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>>742119275
> meet beautiful woman
> heavy baggage, way heavier than I could ever hope to help her carry
> ignore it because I've fallen in love
> spend a few months together, has its ups and downs, somewhere in the back of my mind I know it won't end well
> finally realize I'm hurting her, go to break it off as kindly and lovingly as I can, literal tears in my eyes
> she holds me and cries and cries and cries, I get choked up too, knowing I failed

>>742144557
I already tried and will keep trying to explain that to her, haven't told her mum about what she said yesterday and hell, one anon in a feels thread recomended to throw a princess themed party, which I did..

>grow up in upper middle class military family
>dad is always deployed so I only see him a few weeks a year up until middle school
>mom has obvious anger issues and finds almost any excuse to beat me and my siblings
>every time dad is home he beats me and my older brother while favoring younger brother
>parents always fight and threaten each other with divorce
>being young I didn't realize any of this was abnormal
>get into 6th grade and that's about the time my dad started being home more often
>starts threatening to kill himself constantly
>I become pretty depressed and my grades start slipping
>parents start talking about how dumb I'm being and start beating me
>only makes me more depressed so I stop eating at home and immediately go to bed after school
>this for some reason makes my dad furious
>comes to my room every night to tell me how retarded I am while beating me
>one night he's especially mad because I got sent to the office at school
>throws me against my dresser giving me a concussion
>throwing me becomes normal part of beating for a while
>mom not only lets this happen, but then she also tells me that I have absolutely no future and am the cause for all of her stress
>obviously only makes me more depressed and I become suicidal
>parents know and only get worse about everything out of anger
>make it to high school
>fail every single class freshman year
>dad would throw me around almost daily at this point usually by my hair or arms
>kicks me out of the house multiple times during blizzards and would be furious when I would want a ride home
>leave that high school and get a girlfriend right before
>in new alternative high school my grades improve and my parents start to act like normal parents
>want to love them but mentally scarred
>girlfriend ends up being manipulative and I didn't realize
>every time I mention how I feel she accuses me of being abusive and I believe it
>only hate myself more at this point
>this continues for two and a half years

manlets like me don't deserve to live

>>742126641
My ex's name was Jessica too and not a day goes by that I don't think about her.

>>742133715
This guy. My girl is becoming an echo; she's begun invading my dreams every night, now, but that will end too. It's been four months. Gives me hope, and I hope it does for you /bastards too. Six months is all it takes, just work on yourself

I'm scared. Im scared i dont know what love really is. I'm scared of us getting mad more. im scared you need me more than you love me. im scared youre gonna find someone better one day and i wont do anything to keep you from leaving because i just want you to be the happiest you can be because you deserve it. Im scared what happens when you leave. I always think if you left we could always come right back together because i cant see my life without you but it hit me you can just as easily give me the finger or worse just look away and I wouldnt be able to hold you and tell you i love you and that you saved my life from mediocrity amd feeling like a failure. I'm scared that someone else is gonna hold you amd tell you everything is ok and kiss you on the right side of your neck and see your dimple when you smile. I love you I always haved I was just never taught to show it

>>742120428
Also, my man, get your dog. My girl tried to keep my dog, I took him. He's lying on my bed now, waiting for me to join. Dogs understand some shit, they've at least got emotional intelligence

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>girl I've liked since she moved down the street from me 10 years ago
>moved down the street from my dads, only got to see him on the weekends
>spent every weekend talking to her and hanging out with her
>decide I want to move to dads for high school
>pretty much exclusively for this girl
>shes a grade below me, spend my entire freshman year getting acclimated to my new environment
>by the time I'm a sophomore, its too late, shes got herself a chad boyfriend
>stuck in shit town with no friends and no girl
>fast forward to summer before senior year
>made a fuck ton of friends, talking to several girls
>none come even remotely close to neighbor girl
>abusive drunk father kicks me out of house
>can only live at moms
>decide I'm going to try and finish out senior year, driving every day, 60 miles
>girl and I start connecting again, we hang out and talk more
>she's like my anchor, shes the reason why I went there in the first place and she keeps pulling me through
>I really want to date her, but her fucking chad boyfriend is ruining my life
>shes definitely interested in me, I can tell by her body language when we hang out
>sits with open legs, leans forward constantly, always blushes when I make sexual/romantic comments
What the fuck do I do. I'm so fucking lost.
Fuck Chad.

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I passionately love one woman, who now ignores me, either because she feels guilt or simply from being irritated. I love the mother of my children (genuinely) out of obligation.
I'm blessed in so many ways that I have trouble appreciating.

>>742145153
>break up with her because she's obviously in love with some douche friend
>graduate high school a year early top of my class
>go to college and get straight A's first year
>entering second year now and still can't feel proud of myself
>been trying to talk about all of this for years but I can't
>every time I try I get shot down since I was raised with a silver spoon and therefore can't have problems
>don't have money or time to see therapist

I don't know what to do with my life anymore. Everybody in my life I thought I could trust has betrayed me in some way or another. I'm so lonely and even though I'm headed down the right path I lose every friend I make. It's hard hiding depression and anxiety, so people usually avoid me.

I didn't know back then, but it turns out I love you.
I should be mad, I should hate you for finding someone else.
I'm just happy that you're happy.
I hope we'll talk again someday, Jess.

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Have a bunch, might as well share.

>>742145828
new computer
not enough feels pics.

please avoid the "loved lost" bullshit.
there's enough of that.

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>>742145828

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>>742145828
aight

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>>742145974

>>742146009
I remember when this happened. people actually found him and threw him some sort of party.

it was nice.

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>>742145101
It's gonna be a long hard road, bud, and I don't know you, I'll probably never interact with you again, but I'll be rooting for you.

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>>742146093

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>>742146426
Just gonna post random shit, don't have time to read all these

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>>742146459

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>>742146493

>one day dowload anime amino(when it still was fun)

>chat in german group
>see a cute orofile pic
>talk with the girl in private
>talk every days for hours on end
>fell in love
>she does too
>mfw she lives 800km away from me
>decide shes worth it.
>can visit her at a promised day. Not enough money so I lie to her.
>Im a sick fuck in the end I sabotage so many things
>safe huge amount of money and finally we met
>dreams are shit in compareson
>we told each other before we dont need to fuck right away
>we go to my hotel and fuck the whole day
>we chill for a week life is great. She helped to make a fantastix decision. I got a very well paid job thanks to her. So money is no problem.
>we have our ups and downs but genuinly love each other. Make plans to move to finnland.
> new year 2017.. I travel to see her its great as usual. Out of the blue she breaks up with me
>She cries for hours tries to slit her wrist
>tell me she asked her parent if she can marry me( shes albanian and muslim and Im not but it was never a problem for us)
>Parents tell no and tell her to break up with me. They abused her emotionaly her whole life. So she does break up
>later that day she calls me says she didnt mean it and that she needs help.
>we spent another week together talking and making plans etc.
>something in me changes I become obsessiv and a piece of shit. Even hit her once.
>she forgives me everything
>fast forward a few months and she goes to visit her family in albania. There a boy is killed. Dude was in the same sitaution as was I and the girls brother killed him.
>she has a mental breakdown is scared for her and my life. Calls me and breaks up for good....
> here I am 2 suicide attempts later....

Sorry for typos Im on my phone and on drugs

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>>742146518

Am i retarded for thinking that im an autistic faggot?My family fucking hates me,they all accuse me of things i never done ,i cant talk openly to anyone in my family and i hold all my emotions within me and i just need to let them out for once in a while.I got only one true friend that spends most of his time with his gf and i...i just stay on my pc and hope this day goes faster than yesterday,i got no social life and i will never be able to build one since im fucking autistic and dont talk

>>742146658
Even if he is a nigger ,i feel sad for him

I do all these things that are cute and make you smile and I probably do love you but I become pretty hollow once you get to know me evantually you'll realize you can do better because I'm nothing more than a novelty, a fucking joke.

>>742119330
Fuck man, this right here. She's been gone for 2 years now.

>>742119275
>Big Black shirt
Fucking niceee

>>742146788
You remind me of someone I used to know. He said he loves me, that I can do better, and that he's a novelty.

>we broke up
>for months we'd bicker, make up, hang out, bicker, etc
>one day she said we should stay away
>she doesn't answer my texts or my calls anymore

i used to be special to her, i don't think i am anymore

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>>742122809
ugh...

>>742146009
To be fair, the lack of self awareness required to look like that and not sequester yourself off to obscurity deserves derision.

People ought to know their place. No one is waiting on losers thinking they're worth noticing.

And fuck the internet for taking pity on him to virtue signal.

>>742135680
Sorry friend but your story isn't special.

Higher iq than most.

Nice to think IQ defines you as intelligent and therefore better then others... cockmonger.

Trying to help, /b/ros...just giving a reminder.
Things are never what they seem; only how you perceive them. Every thought you've had is disconnected with reality in the sense that you've tinted the lens...with thought itself. The lens should be clear; that's seeing with awareness. A tinted lens causes distortions and untruths, which leads to emotional instability. Then you lead blindly with emotion; without clarity.

Basically I'm saying to become aware of the process. Think of how easily you slip into, and are fully sucked into the old tricks of the mind. Regretting the past, worrying about the future...meanwhile ignoring the present...your only shot at restoring balance.

You can take control and lead; but you have to shake off the parasites--thoughts, fears, insecurities...you do that by stepping back from your thoughts. meditation, relaxation, whatever you want to call it. Working out, running, anything to break the old cycle. Remember that, in the end, all life is lived in the present. remaining aware of the now moment...anything less is the past and an illusion...anything more is the future and an anticipation.

Be good to yourselves /b/ros. That's where it begins and ends.
Nobody else can give you what you can give yourself if you try.

>>742146512
Feels thread or YLYL?
Come on, if you're in a wheel chair or otherwise defective you must be suicidally naive to believe anyone wants to be your friend. If you're that gullible you deserve to get fucked with.

>>742124672
Through great effort you can improve and let that bad part of your life not influence you anymore anon, but you'll have to fight everyday so that your body won't be destroyed by your memories

>>742145721
If you're still in college most schools have therapists that you can go see for either very cheap or free

>>742145554
Make a move and make her break up with her boyfriend

>>742147426
I never knew people had to have working legs in order to be worthy of friends and meaningful relationships.

>>742146949
Chances are you did fund someone better and one day she will too

>>742147656
People need to be whole and functional to be worthy of human interaction.

It's pretty stupid on an evolutionary level alone to entertain defective people. Be good or kindly fuck off from society. For every artist with no legs there is an equal or better artist who doesn't need help.

>>742147835
brb, euthanizing Stephen Hawking. It's not like he contributes anything to physics.

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This is something I wrote a while back, while at a bar. It captures my frustration when trying to connect to people, because I cannot relate to them, nor do I want to, yet I'm so lonely.

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I can never catch the feels on a feels thread. Until I found this which hit too close to home.

>>742145721
You had a lot of bad luck anon, moving to other place and cutting ties with the past might be your best shot bro

>>742147977
Looks like you just need to get over yourself. If you're lonely, then you *do* want to relate to people, you just don't know how to, or you have other hangups preventing you. Accepting that is the first step. (Not being pretentious about it also helps.)

My girlfriend ended our relationship 2 days ago. Now my life is falling apart in pieces and i cry myself to sleep every night. What do /b/?

>>742147901
These days? Not really no. He did his major contributions while he was still ambulatory and, as an added factor, science is an act of discovery, not invention, meaning everything he wrote would have been discovered eventually regardless.

Stephen Hawking is as useless as his legs, he is just a conduit, nothing more.

>>742147835
I partially understand when it's someone extremely mentally handicapped. The ones who are forever wheelchair bound and are brain dead. One can not have a functioning communication based relationship with them. But when it's a completely sane, and mentally sufficient individual who just so happens to have a disadvantage be it in nonfunctional legs or a mental disorder (schizophrenia, bi polar) they are deserving of any and all human relationships.

>be me, 16
>2011
>First time opening up to a human
>Tell her all my darkest memories/experience and thoughts
>She tells me hers
>Fall in love for first time cause faggy teens
>She had a tumblr
>Would always make depression into a poetic or artsy disorder
>mfw she wasn't even diagnosed
>no bigge, she still wets my dick
>Starts messaging a guy she met on tumblr
>whatever shes not my wife
>after months she leaves me for him
>curios to see what kind of dude he is
>mfw he was one of those guys who tries to hard to thinks the world doesn't like him
>become really insecure I lost her to psuedo emotionally deep individual
>am sad
>continue being sad until I realized she wasnt so great.

I recently checked their tumblrs from curiosity and they still act that way. Be fake sad together den.

>>742148191
Stop being edgy Uncle Hans, we have resources for everyone nowadays

>>742148133
Trust me I'm not pretentious. I know nothing about anything and I'm awfully boring, the last thing I think is that I can offer anything. My problem is I find everything boring. Art, sports, music, everything. Whenever I hear what people are talking about, its like they're not ACTUALLY saying anything of meaning. It makes it so hard because yeah, i guess you're right, I DO want to relate, but I want it to be genuine, I don't want to ACTUALLY relate to them because the things I could chat about to relate, are boring to me, like sports and shit.

>>742120428
She was already talking to someone, you're better off

>>742148191
Seems to me like you're just itching for any excuse to call people subhuman and unworthy of your exalted attention. You sound like a fun guy to be around. Almost makes me wish I was in a wheelchair so I could sit here and laugh at you for your asinine opinions.

>>742148730
If there's anything *you* are even remotely interested in, you'll be able to find some common ground with people. Even if you're interested in *nothing*, at least you're still interested in *people* to some extent, or you wouldn't be watching them. You could use that as the basis of some Seinfeldian "have you ever noticed how" observations. You don't have to go for the low-hanging fruit like sports, the weather and (God forbid) politics.

Small talk is a skill you can learn; don't confuse "genuine" with "meaningful". You can have conversations where you mean everything you say without having to immediately forge some sort of deep bond with someone because you're telling the Truth.

My background: I detest intimacy of any kind, whether physical or emotional -- unlike you, I don't get lonely, so I don't worry about how to socialize with people. I've still learned how to do it, because it's a fun applied skill (in moderation). I don't let people on, I'm not dishonest; I just keep my distance. I've still had some interesting conversations in spite of that.

Thread dying so I want to get this off my chest. Every single one of you are assholes. You're bullshit artist. You're fucking crude because you have the sense of humor of a five year old. You claim to be suicidal because you're lonely. You're pessimistic fir no reason. You play up your faults to look worse. You play up your assets to look better. You lie to yourselves you lie to each other. You call each other out on the bullshit. You call each other out when you're telling the truth.

And I do all of the above.

And every single fucking one of you are /b/ rothers to me. I love you

If I ever find out one of you fucks followed through and killed yourself. I will hunt you down dig you up and kill you again.

We bawww to know someone else gets it. If no one else gives a shit. I do. We need this from time to time. You matter

>>742149417
>If I ever find out one of you fucks followed through and killed yourself. I will hunt you down dig you up and kill you again.
I like the cut of your jib.

>>742147710
I am alone now.

>>742145721
>my parents start to act like normal parents
What do you mean by this? Did the beatings stop altogether or did they just stop giving a shit?

>>742149215
I've been trying that for a while, some days it works, some days it doesn't. It's weird, it's like sometimes I'm really good at just bullshitting people and talking about nothing and being content with that. Other days, I try to just bullshit and I can't engage anyone past a couple sentences. It's not a switch I can just turn on and off. I just wish I could be like extroverts, able to talk to anyone, anywhere, about anything, at anytime. Or at least that's what it really appears like to me. I feel like having something to relate about would help, like a hobby or sport, hell even a fucking tv show.

As for things "remotely interested"; game designing, programming and space. It's... it's really not easy finding people interested into that shit. And even then, I'm not knowledgeable enough to actually have an intellectual conversation about them.

I will say one thing though, for anyone in a similar boat. Realizing that's it's okay being flawed, and not able to make everybody happy, while knowing that I don't have to explain myself or my thoughts to anyone, has amazingly helped me with my confidence, and in turn as made conversations exponentially easier. I just feel like I'm just missing that one least piece before I can be someone who doesn't go to the bar, and end up talking to no one, or more specifically, having no one want to talk to him. At least not %75 of the time.

I loved my mom. She was my best friend but then the last few years of her life she fell into drugs. She died September 6, 2016, from a mixture of Sepsis, Ovarian Cancer, and a Heroin Overdose.
She was preceded by my grandparents, my grandfather in April and my grandmother in July.
She never had a funeral, and we never were allowed the ashes. There was just no money left. All I have of her is her teeth (she had dentures)
All I can remember is the bad, why can't I remember the good? I know it's there but it's so hard to remember...

>>742151259
When you have kids of your own, you're be reminded of the good. What they do and how you react will mirror things that happened when you were a kid and will trigger those memories.

>>742119275
Everyday is a day I get closer to buying that rope from the hardware store. There's nothing left

Dog died two days ago, I don't feel anything at all man, not even when I figured out he was dead.

>>742146518
This cuts kinda deep. Reading the last part made me feel weird. I have no friends. I have no gf. I'm afraid to admit it to my parents that I don't have a gf. Weird

I want to say we can do it, but i dont know anymore,

>>742128180
fuck you mr owl

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Can someone tell me if im insane? Had girlfriend for 5 years. Not much of any sexual attraction to her, but we had the best times ever. My best friends throughout grade school and the memories i have with them hold maybe a candle to the memories i made with her. Always thought id be fine the day it ended cause the attraction wasnt there and it was going downhill fast. Its gone now, been gone almost half a year. I hate the thought of her, i hate that i miss us. Is that wrong?

>>742152599
Not at all. Maybe you don't miss the look, but you miss the person, the connection, and the openness you had.

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If you know the story to this image you will feel it

>>742145037
Sucks man, been there

>>742152767
She always said too that she'd wanna stay friends if it didnt work out. The day after it happened we didnt talk for 2 months. I think i fucked up by messaging but I had to confirm we'd never talk again. I deleted her on almost everything but she's been trying to keep me added. Do i just bite the bullet and block her on everything?

>>742153054
Keep her around. It might hurt, so take it slow, you don't need to pretend like everything is okay and be besties, constantly hanging out. But check up on her every now and then, and let her do the same, and be honest to her when she does, don't try to pretend like your whole life is just dandy if it's not. Be honest about life with her, like you would a friend.

People change, she will, and so will you. You never know, who you two will be in 5 years, maybe less, will be different people, and those people might actually have a chance. But if you shut her out for good now, neither of you will want to rekindle something in the future just because there was something in the past. The reason why is the same reason that people change, and the "want" that caused you two to be together in the past won't be the same "want" in the future. But friends that grow with each other, even as just friends, that's a good cause for a "want" in the future. Because then you or her, will "want" the you or her of that day, not the past.

>>742153364
That makes sense but im thinking the only way i can for now and thats short term. Its gonna be terrible day in day out knowing shes that close to me but we'll probably never be again, so why keep her so close and hurt myself in hopes one day it wont be that way

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>>742126641

>>742143056
sorry it hear that anon

>>742144187
stay strong anon for yourself and her, remember good tims

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hopefully this gondola makes you feel better

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My Uni. semester starts today, I was supposed to go.
I told everyone I was excited and all that type of bullshit.


I dont want to go, I more depressed than I've ever been in my entire life.
I'm sitting in my dorm room thinking about killing myself, how and when. I dont see myself having a bright future if I drop-out.
I dont have the energy to study or be social, I told my parents that I wanted to work for a year and see what I wanted to do, figure myself out you know?
Nah, basically didnt have an option, I was going to study, I was not going to be a failure, figured its better to leave them with a sob story than just a failure, right?

Worst part is I'm so blessed and I dont care, I would fucking change my life for anyone elses.
I would gift my life to anyone who really wants it, my privelege of studying for basically free, have a bright future, because I cant fucking life this.
I wish I did, but I'm not happy at all, I'm fucking done pretending like everything is beatiful and great. Most of life is shit and I've decided I'm done pretending.

Worst part is nobody has ANY idea that I'm like this.

>>742119275
I wake up, as brain boots up, soul-crushing depression sets in as I start thinking.
I start talking myself into a better mood, daily affirmations and making light of things, joke material.
I am in clown mode by the time I get to work, making other people laugh at shit, being a mood booster.
I get metally exhausted doing that. The smiley face is hard to maintain. I get a little grim as my shift comes close to ending. I blame it on work shit.
I get home, eh... no need to pretend... I do eating, shitting, hygene, time passing. Distract myself.
I drink until my brain shuts down. Less thoughts, less depression, easier to get amused by distractions, easier to get happy because no thinking.
Pass out. With booze, almost no dreaming, so far fewer nightmares.
Wake up, wash-rinse-repeat. I know I'm one bad day away from a complete melt down. Won't happen as long as I keep up keeping up. I keep hoping, almost seems too futile.

>>742153492
If you choose to try, you might succeed, or you might fail.
But if you choose to not try, you're guaranteed to fail.

The pain you will feel with her around will subside and you'll become jaded, just like every other pain you've ever endured in your life, even as a child. But regret is unique, it's a pain that can sometimes grow with each day, or month or even year, when you look back and go "What if I had just tried?"

Worst case scenario if you keep her around, it hurts for a long while, but in the end you either keep a friend you know you can trust and be open with, or you eventually fall out. Worst case if you cut her out now, hard, you possibly cut out someone who maybe just needed some space, or to grow independently, but someone who might just be someone who can make you content or happy with your life, for the rest of your life.

If you think cutting her off completely will make the pain easier, it'll just end up being a quick fix to a problem that will come back hitting even harder, when now you feel like you can no longer change your mind. Just take a chance on losing something so precise just because you think it'll hurt less to hold, because when it's gone for good, that will hurt so much more.

>>742133659
nudes?

>>742154001
>>742153492

Sorry, typos.

"Don't just take a chance on losing someone so meaningful just because"

>>742154001
I hate that i agree with what youre saying

>>742145554
>get strung along by whore
>change entire life
>f-f-fucking CHAD REEEEEEE

Youre pathetic. This girl is toxic and so are you.

>>742154064
What happen to him tf

>>742154201

Everyone hates doing the right thing, it's harder. That's why there are so many stupid, selfish, lying lazy fucks out there, it's just so much easier to be wrong.

>>742153364
Fuck that

>>742154509
Why?

>>742147187
i bet you e verything he knows exactly how he looks and for a moment there he stepped over his inner shadow and tried to enjoy himself like everyone else in the world. sometimes you are stuck in places you never want to be stuck in and others being a fucking turd to you does not help you out of it. for fucks sake just read the god damn thread for example.
but i guess your your pocket psychiatry and "wit" sure make you feel better.

Might be a little off topic but does anyone have that image with a boy who thinks alot and when the girl puts her hands on his head it all changes to just "her". Think it's a two piece strip.

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>>742154681
this?

This happened almost two years ago, but back then I wasn't sure if I was prepared to talk about it. I came into feels threads with the intention of doing it many a time, but I always ended up getting disgusted with myself and everyone else in the thread, as if I was being an evil prick looking for pity just wanting to talk about it. Even right now I'm pretty sure I'm just rambling out a long paragraph because I don't know how to even begin getting into it without feeling like human garbage. So I'll just keep it short.

All through middle school and early high school, I had a crush on a girl, but I was too embarrassed to ever do anything about it. Later on in high school she moved to a different program, and we lost touch. After a few years, I ended up in college, eventually found out that she went on to kill herself. Found out from a mutual friend of ours without getting any first-hand information. Every time I tried talking about it, I couldn't fucking open up. I would turn the conversation to it, but then LAUGH about it and say shit like "It's a good thing I don't care anymore!"

I didn't love her anymore, to much time had passed. But she was the last person I felt that way about, and I can't find those feelings in me for anyone else. It doesn't hurt physically, it also doesn't really hurt emotionally because of the distance between the last time I talked to her. But it hurts mentally, so goddamn bad. The memory of how I would wake up in the morning excited just for the opportunity to see her smile, and now here I am, five years later, remembering her as just someone... I don't even know. It's paradoxical that I can't fucking forget it or move on, but I don't feel real sadness either. It's more like something in me just fucking broke and I can't even recognize who the hell I'm supposed to be anymore.

Once I opened up to a friend about this, and he asked me "Do you think she'd still be here if you told her how you felt?"

I still think about that sometimes.

I feel so lost..
Whenever i go out i feel unwanted, disliked and uninteresting. Nobody asks me questions while i ask others alot of questions. Nobody starts a conversation with me while i try to so much.

Whenever someone starts talking over me people instantly divert their attention towards that person and don't even look at me again.
I'm a non likeable person, whatever I do people just keep on disliking me for a reason.

People laugh and put me down whenever i try to explain something or say something. I have nobody to seriously talk to and do normal things with. People just see me and see a loser who isn't worth listening to.

I hear people all around me getting to know new people, going on dates, having sex, making people laugh and having people call them to tell them about their day and how they're going on that trip the next week.

Although i know alot of people nobody ever calls me or asks me how i am. The only message i get is to go drink alcohol with other people. It's been years since i've been outside with another person talking about life, nobody wants to hear it and nobody cares.

The worst part is i've been happy before, had lots of friends and even girlfriends, but certain events made me so bitter and negative about the world. The deeper i get, the more people start ignoring me and disliking me, it's like a vicious circle costantly putting me more and more in a hole of depression.

I wake up with this feeling and go to sleep with this feeling, getting number by the day and the only thoughts i have are how i'm such a failure and that nobody will ever like me again.

>>742154894
Thanks bro

>>742144894
Have sweet dreams anon.

>>742154984
I care. Lots of people I know care about my "dumb non-interesting bullshit" too.

I think you've just fallen into a crowd that you don't fit in with anymore. Your personality has undergone a change, and you're feeling friction because the old patterns don't fit you anymore, and the people you try to hang out with can sense it.

If I were you, I'd try to totally revitalize my life around a whole different way of living, a whole new way of thinking. Accept that you're different than you were, almost like you've become a whole new man, and try to reassess what you need out of life while forgetting all your old ideas and baggage. There are plenty of people who want to hang out late at night and talk about this kind of thing, I just don't think anyone you currently know is compatible with it.

>>742144894
It's not worth it

>>742154894
Damn.

>>742154941
Stop trying to find the same way you felt for her in someone else then. It's not suppose to feel the same. Every love you can feel for someone is unique as the person is. Perhaps the fact that you can't find someone who can make you feel the same as her is why you can't find the unique love that someone else CAN make you feel. Because you're looking for something that just isn't there, and if you're looking for something that isn't there, you won't even be able to see what IS there.

As for her possibly being alive had you just told her. Dude, the fucking haircut you decided to have might have made the difference, it's called the Butterfly effect, and you really can't allow yourself to hold yourself accountable for that type of shit. Plus, someone who feels so intensely depressed that they can actually go about committing suicide, is probably not someone who just "needed to know a specific someone loved them" in order to not do it. There were probably way too many or complex things at play, for your confession to have possibly make a difference, and your friend is an idiot for putting that idea of your shoulders.

As for you not feeling real sadness about it. That's because you already did! The brain does this amazing thing called being jaded, it means basically that time makes thing go, well, numb. Examples are sex, which is why plain sex with the hottest person can become boring after several years, even though it was so good at one point, or even a video game, a game can be amazing, but years of playing it and you become jaded, and it becomes boring. It's what causes us to move on to better things, as long as we allow ourselves to move on.

>>742122273

Give me a minute and I'll clean the one hole I have left. Don't make me blind kid.

Disturbed between an existential existence of human kinds illogical and irrational prevalence of self survival in a post modern society doomed for a cataclysmic end and the self identifiable knowledge that nothing in the observable and non-observable universe will ever matter.

>no pun intended
>jk pun intended

>>742155503
While I don't agree with the top half of your post, I do agree with the bottom half, and that helps.

I'd say that it's more of an abstract, existential kind of hurt. The idea I guess would be that the fact that I was even capable of feeling that strongly about someone and then being able to not care that much about their death five years later has caused me to question the validity of all of my feelings. If it's so easily forgotten and moved past, I feel like perhaps I'm missing something important, like life is sort of lacking some kind of magic for me.

I guess I really am just jaded now, though.

>>742145037
been in the same situation only reverse roles.
I really hate my baggage

>>742155860
We as an observer exist for nothing more than to verify the existence of the universe. If the universe existed, and no one was around to experience it, did it really exist? The answer is no, just like the answer is no the tree did not make a sound if no one is around to here it.

So, where does that leave us then? T do whatever you can, preferably thought out though, to ensure that you get the most out of your "Happy" chemicals, Dopamine, Oxytocin, Serotonin, and Endorphins. Why? Because when everything is meaningless, pleasure is the best illusion out there.

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Eat a dick, Hand-kun.

>>742156069
>reality don't exist if we don't
that why you are called crazy

>>742155944
Maybe you're lying to yourself then, maybe it does hurt but you're bottling it inside because you don't know how to express it, no im not saying you don't know how to cry, im saying maybe crying isn't how you need to express it, maybe you need to express it in another way. You obviously haven't stopped thinking about it, it's just that it feels like nothing, but that's the problem, it feels like a void that shouldn't be there. So does the fact that you DON'T feel anything mean that it means nothing? No, the fact that it means nothing, means that there is "something" there, you just need to figure out what that something is. Are you scared of death and your psyche is protecting itself by not feeling anything? Or maybe something else?

I realize this is a little paradoxical to explain. Forgive me if the above doesn't make sense.

>>742156278
Actually they call us scientists and philosophers.

>>742119564
This applies to me. But I can't feel at ease wth myself because I can't get rid if my angry, clinging wife, who is determined that we go through life as two molecules glomed on to each other.

>>742156278
Same person. Look up metaphysics and multiverse theories. You'll get the idea.

>>742156069
Guess the universe is just putting on a show for me to observe then.
I'll drink to that and fire up those endorphins so they don't go to waste.
Cheers