What's the hardest thing you've been through in your life?

>>741461451
Multiple suicides close to me. I dont like to talk about it. Every day is a struggle not to do the same...

My penis.

Got super drunk and rear ended somebody

Crazy thing is I didn't get charged with DUI. But I still feel horrible about the whole thing

>>741461451
Two suicide attempts, therapy, living on the street,

Two wars, in which my family lost a house, apartment, 2 cars, everything else we possessed, and also an uncle and a cousin. Living in extreme poverty for years afer that, getting addicted to heroin, death of my girlfriend...pretty much all my life in the last 20 or so years is the hardest thing I have been through.

Hiding a crippling drug addiction from my wife and family (a "to be continued" story as of now)

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Lost the love of my life to a stroke, one week before I was supposed to fly out to see her and ask her to marry me.

The months of hoping against all sanity that she might recover anything.

Losing contact with her kids because she wasn't going to recover and their father is a sociopathic cunt.

It'll be a year this Saturday and I don't know what I'm going to do.

>>741462334
where are you from

>>741462605
Croatia originally, but I lived all over ex-Yugoslavia as a refugee.

>>741462085
Shitty man. Hope you get better anon. You still homeless?

Well, i'm white. So not much.

>>741461451
Probably being put away for a significant amount of time because I got high every day for months and told someone I live with I see 'things" and they called people sooz...... idk it sucks being born that wayy and they try to get rid of you for it.

>>741462650
We have rapefugees among us, /b/rethren.

>>741462650
damn dude, what's your story? how did your family lose everything in the conflict? like what was that about/howed it happen

>>741462680
Gonna be soon again, man. If I don't kill myself before that. Will see

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>>741461451
Molested by drunk step mom and having my dad tell me he doesn't believe me and made me apologize to her.

>>741463074
Don't kill yourself man, take up drinking coffee as it staves off suicidal tendencies by 50% and vaping makes depression go awayy. Plus they're cheap.

>>741463138
That's hot af

>>741462512
Shit man.
Hope it all goes well for you

I once took a shit so big I felt gay.

>>741463222
It wasnt when I was 12, I now have the fetish but it made me have uncontrollable shaking and anxiety. I also cant be around drunk people or ill lose my shit on them.

>>741463509
Did you try getting higher than a motherfucker? Should fix the problem

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>age 14
>installed keylogger on computer for shits and giggles
>inadvertently catch mom cheating on dad
>confront her
>she says "it's only a fantasy"
>they're still married
>haven't talked about it since for all these years
>still have the evidence
pic: related

>>741461451
Birth

>>741462928
Eh, its a long story, but in short, I come from a serbian family from Croatia, and there was a lot of shit going on between Serbs and Croats during WW2, Croats mainly siding with the nazis, Serbs with the monarchist, and a part of them with communists. Anyway, Croats killed close to 500 000 Serbs in concentration camps, Serbs slaughtering Croats as a response, on so on. Fast forward to 1990, socialism breaking down, a lot of fascists who escaped to Latin America after WW2 came back, they were welcomed by both sides, propaganda starting on boths sides how the other side is going to kill as just as they did in WW2, we must arm ourselves, and so the war begun. My father was not a nationalist but he was forcefuly mobilised into Serbian army, and he fought for 4 years. Rest of my family didnt want to run away and leave all our stuff, so we stayed in a war zone. I was pretty young then, so I didnt mind the war and all that chaos that much, we had a city without any police in it, we had no school for most of the time, for a teenager, it was pretty fun. I mean, we had a lots of land so we grew our own food, I was not hungry, I had my friends and my family so I didnt mind. But at the end of the war serbian side started to lose, and we had to flee our homes. My uncle decided he has no reason to run because he was disabled and didnt fought in the war, but he was tortured and killed anyway, and our house burned down. My cousin who was 22 at the time decided he was going to be brave and he didnt left his military post, so he was killed too. My family went to Montenegro, with literally only clothes on our back and nothing more. Now, Montenegro is very little, and very closed society where they hate foreigners, even if we were a part of the same state once, so they made sure I was not welcome. I had to almost constantly fight with the locals, in school and out. Then NATO bombing of Serbia began, and it only got worse, now even the locals were extremely poor. cont.

>>741461598
Haha, faggot

took a big poop once

My doctor said i was going to die from a cerebral ill.
Another said I had cancer.

Still alive

>>741463741
91?

>>741463294
Thank you, kind anon

>>741462334
Dude that sucks ass man. Hopefully you can get your addiction under control and maybe start over? I dunno man. Kinda makes me feel ljke a giant pussy for beind so depressed i cant wake up and face the day.

>>741461451
Currently Multiple Myeloma

aside from coming to terms about mortality, Cancer ain't so bad.

>>741464486
Here's my story

In the past 7 years I
> lost 2 dear family members one died in one week after being diagnosed with cancer, the other died after several strokes
> my parents divorced the same day I got the news that my dear grandpa (who was almost like a father to me) died.
> I had to watch as they fought and screamed at each other, listening to both my parents telling me how much they wanted to die while they were drunk, fucking up each other cars, breaking shit...
> my mom took off to another country
> my father went to live with a GF he later found
> I was left alone in my house and my 60% mentally handicapped sister who my grandmother "adopted" so I could, at least, be alone without the need to help her (since i was in high school back then)
> My ex tried to kill herself and said it was because i wasnt giving her enough attention, I cut off all contact.
> I gained so much weight I wasn't even myself anymore, I was made fun off at school, lost all my friends because while I was going deep into the depression they were actually doing shit.

At least nowadays Im finishing university and I dont need to see them anymore (aside from christmas or something).
I lost 40kg out of the 50kg I had gained and am "normal" again.
Hopefully next year my body is back to normal after almost one decade of being borderline morbidly obese, and I will have my degree done.

I just wish I can get my dream job after this, live a somewhat independent, happy life, and forget all about the place and people I knew after coming to university.

>>741461598
pussy

>>741464483
90?

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>>741461451
having twins as stay at home dad with zero fucking support from family and less from friends

>>741461598
kys faget

>>741464262
Fuck, hope you're doing better now that is fucked

>>741463220
Vaping makes depression go away? What.

Coffee triggers anxiety like a mutherfucker.

You trolling?

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>>741463741
>tfw mom had a live in boyfriend in her studio and when dad lost his brother to suicide instead of supporting him was basically like "I'M FUCKING FRED WE'RE A THING FUCK OFF"

she used to bring him to college to see us

>tfw mom and dad still together, never talk about it

>>741461451
saw a man stabbed to death when i was 8

bullied like crazy throuout skewl

have aspergers

very few friends

an ex-gf laured me to an apartment with 5 guys who gave me drugs robbed me and beat me to an inch of my life

heroin

a guy TRIED to rape me

sleep with a loaded shotgun next to the bed so i know i have a ticket out of this world when i cant take it anymore

>>741464262
So after I finished school, I tried to get a job, but only thing that was available for a refugee was the lowest jobs that locals didnt want to do, sweeping the streets, digging ditches, construction, working on fishing boats..so I did all those shitty jobs for a while, then decided to try my luck in Serbia, after that in Bosnia, it was always the same, break my back for 12 hours a day with a pay just barely enough to eat. After 4-5 years I decided to go back to my parents, who in the meantime got a tiny apratment from Norwegian government as a part of some help program, so I didnt have to pay the rent at least. Then i got conscripted in the army, finished a year of training, got discharged, and thats when I started messing with drugs. At first only weed and E, then a lot of psychedelics, and finally heroin. For someone in a shitty situation as I were, it was really a miracle cure. So I continued to work shitty jobs, had a lot of meaningless relationships and sex combinations, and then I met my girlfriend, and for some reason she was interested in me. She was rich, beautiful, smart, young, everything that I was not. I was really happy for that year I was with her, switched to suboxone therapy and was going to get completely clean soon. But last year she got killed in a car accident, and I decided there is no point in getting clean, so I went back to heroin. And there I am, working my ass off on a dead end job, planing to go to Germany in a few months, to try my luck there. Or maybe I will kill myself, I havent decided yet.

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>>741461451
A brick wall.

>>741464681
> I was left alone in my house and my 60% mentally handicapped sister

so you had a built in fuck toy?

>>741461451
having to read through this
>>741465141

>>741461451
I had a really bad breakup
I know that sounds like a pussy thing but this was horrible and she made me feel guilty for shit I didn't do

>>741465301
yea women are vial creatures

>>741461451
car windshield

>>741464681
You've gotten this far my dude, you can make it the rest of the way. Your parents sound pretty fucked. You go and do better and don't let their bullshit trap you into the same life they have.

>>741465141
Omg anon, that's horrible.

I feel for you. Whatever that means to you. Stay strong my dude.

Having my leg ripped off and the other very badly broken in a motorbike crash, I almosy died and was at deaths door for a few days but managed to stay alive.

Then I had to go through horrendous pain and mental anguish from not being able to move and not being able to go to the toilet myself.

It got better, but the initial part of the experience was almost enough to make me want to kill myself, I went manic for a few weeks from it where reality became a never ending cycle of pain, humiliation and anger.

>>741464655
Yeah, it is a matter of perspective. Everyone has problems and thinks his are the biggest problems, but I tell you, I would be happy just to be able to live in a normal country, not this balkan shithole full of criminals and primitive thugs, and to be able to live off my honest work, just to pay the rent and have food, it would be great.

>>741464851
Thanks, but I think I got to a point where I just cant take it anymore, so much shit, for decades now, everybody telling me you must fight, life is hard, but you must live...but I dont...and thats a great comfort for me, knowing that I just can end it all, painlessly, if I wanted.

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>>741465301
my cousin got stabbed by his gf two weeks ago, nicked his heart and now it looks like he's got permanent brain damage from it.

so tell us about your really bad breakup

>>741464271
Thanks for trying, but i've been here so long i am immune to your newfaggotry.

>>741465141
Goddamn, I normally don't give two shits about anyones problems here but you have had it rough. I hope it works out whatever you decide to do. I will think of you when I drink tonight.

My father's dick.

>>741465466
post stump

>>741464743
91 here. just nice to see "older" folks

>>741464738
Lol. Try harder newfaggot.

>>741465559
Have you tried moving to the US? It seems like you can speak English, and you're clearly willing to work hard and do almost any job. You would have options here. A lot of people from the Balkans and Russia migrant here too.

>>741464849
>wahh im incapable of doing a teenager tier job with no support
>haha but suicide isnt a real problem tho haha what a pussy

>>741465569
yea thats exactly what happened to the guy when i was 8 there was so much blood it shot out a good 10 ft in fron of him

>>741461598
Faggot

>>741465818
teenagers get to leave at the end

>>741461451
Set up a hookup on craigslist when I was 15 (was bicurious, it was a guy) just wanted to try sucking dick, but he ended up raping me .Never been interested in guys since.

Went to a party with one of my best friends long story short nobody knows what happened for a certain time frame but all I know is that him and a couple of other people beat the shit out of me and robbed me then for the fuck of it they beat me almost to death I woke up in a coma about a month later

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>>741461451
Taking a big boy log up the butt

>>741465401
>>741465584
Thanks, it really means a lot to me for someone to recognize the shit Im in. My family didnt give me any support, my father always telling me how I am just a pussy, how he watched his friends die in the war, and I have "everything"...it really pisses me off, people here live like animals, like slaves, they work without insurance, social security, minimal wage, just wild west rules...and they are "thankful", just to be alive and to eat 2 times a day...it really gets on my nerves.

>>741464655
Here's the thing anon, and this is something I have a very difficult time accepting myself. Everyone's problems, tragedies, and struggles all differ in events and scope, but yours are no less valid for it.

>>741465973
you must be a real piece of shit to bring that on yourself

>>741465983
did your mom give you good boy points for pleasing her boyfriend?

>>741465944
Welcome to being a father. Shouldve wrapped it up. You get no sympathy because your life isnt hard.

>>741466083
nigger I paid over $100,000 for fertility treatments to have babby

you be thankful if you get a kid out of just "not wrapping muh dick"

>>741465790
Yeah, I thought about it, but legally it is next to impossible. Only chance was immediately after the war, when US had political asylum for people from Balkans, but thats long gone. I could get there illegaly, I have a good friend in NYC, he is there as an illegal immigrant...but I would prefer legal ways, thats why Im thinking about Germany. Now that I managed to get croatian passport, I can work there. Only problem is I dont know the language, but Im learning, I will be able to get basic level of understanding in a few months hopefully.

>>741462512
Hey bro, we're one. I lost my wife to cancer three months ago. I'm also slowly losing it.

>>741465114
watch out society, check out this cool kid

>>741466479
I lost my board to cancer but that was years ago.

>>741461451
Calculus 3

>>741466069
Actually at the time of this I wasn't I had been working so much I just wanted to chill out and drink some beer and my friend hit me up asking if I wanted to go to a party and they jumped and robbed me for about fifty bucks

>>741465141
You've gone so far anon, survived so much. Please, keep on fighting. If life was a game, you'd be too close to high score to quit.

>>741464672
Sorry man. Don't know what else to say.

>>741465114
Sleep with your ginger on the trigger and barrel in mouth

>>741466575
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>>741466694
Tried so hard and got so far
But in the end, it doesn't even matter

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>>741466575
Fluoride in drinking water
Fluoride in Teflon coating
Lead contamination in soil
Lead paint
Estrogen in drinking water
Radionuclide contamination in high phosphorus fertilizer
Slag exposure
Food shortage
Over population
Eugenics
Civil unrest
Boredom
Pathogens
World peace?
Aliens
Aliens
Dark wizards
Psychics
Class warfare
Class warfare
Supervolcanoes
Accidental injury
Depression
Criminal behaviour
Fluoride in toothpaste
Under exercise
Tooth decay
Poor oral hygiene
Coconuts
Ragweed
Fire ants
Killer bees
Climate change
Stagnation
Illegal dumping
Orbital drift
Greed
Xenophobia
Corruption?
Gender warfare
Black widow/brown recluse
Gamma radiation
Seismic anomaly
Political warfare
Degradation
Devaluation of human life
Drug abuse

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>>741464672
this is a thread for people who got through their shit

>>741466575
Hauahahhauahauahauahauahauahauahauahauahauahauahauhauagauagauagauagauahauhauahauahauag

>>741461598
>Multiple suicides close to me. I dont like to talk about it. Every day is a struggle not to do the same...
Sounds like you were the common factor in all of that.

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>>741467105

>>741466479
It will never be the same, but it gets a little better. I try to remind myself that she'd never want me to feel so miserable, and to try to be happy again. Eventually, the little things everywhere that remind you of her will stop tearing your heart out, and maybe even give you a little smile as you remember the great times you had with her.

>>741461451
Quitting drugs. Never again.

>>741467317
Never quitting again or never starting again?

>>741467317
OD next time, then you won't have to quit

>>741467418
Never quitting again lol
Smoking weed right now

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>>741464271
>>741464738
>>741464849
>>741465942
>>741467105

>>741467528
choose life Anon

>>741467688
>butthurt.exe

My dad dying when i was 8

>>741467764

What's the matter, anon? Can't face the truth?

>>741467888
>butthurt_intensifies.mpg

My dog just died 4 hours ago.

>>741467888
you mean the truth that you're a common factor in the life of multiple people who killed themselves or the truth that you're considering the same?

>>741465114
where did you get a shotgun from bro

Well, its something I'm still going through: toxic relationship with almost all of my immediate and distant family.... Don't have any friends because nobody can shut the fuck up for two seconds without questioning the validity of the friendship because they're addicted to fast paced internet etc etc god damn

>>741461451
i had to choose between a brunette and blonde chick to date ... picked the brunette ... stupid mistake of my life, broke up with the brunette 7 months later ... blonde chick is already married ... i hate my life

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>>741467977

>>741468027
The same time I fucked your mom lmao faggot

>>741461598
It wasn't a suicide if you are here to "talk" about it. LOSER. It was more about attention whoring.

>>741468050

I'm not the anon you think you're replying to , but I do know for sure you're a lonely retard who'd never have the guts to say that IRL :)

>>741466712
Im not worried about it as much anymore.

What good does it do being worried about it. Just do whats necessary and do whats best

plus im off work for at least 8 months :D

>>741467872
I lost my dad at 10, I know that feel.

You reading the thread right ? You have no place to say be constructive in the argument when literally 10 or more post have been suck it up nigger. Like fuck off man this is why this shit never goes anywhere. Reply to actually constructed responses instead of just sitting back you fucking waste. >>741468229
Virgin detected

>>741468148
>butthurt_confirmed.jpg

>>741468229
>I'm not the anon you think you're replying to
All I know is that I'm replying to a faggot, whether it's the same one or not :)

>>741468353

>If 10 people agree with me it means I'm right

Your feeling of inadequacy is showing.

Also, that was 2 samefags.

>>741468229
>I'm not the anon you think you're replying to
samefag confirmed

>>741468443

I wonder what kind of pathetic life you must be having to come up with that kind of bs.
Whatever makes you (not) happy, anon :)

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>>741461451
I can list a lot, pick the one you think is the hardest.

Was 145kg I'm 85 now
Got beaten up by my alcoholic father from 9 to 16.
Was always the weird guy everyone made fun of for being fat and having great grades.
My mother had a brain tumor, that's when my father left us. Letting the 19yo me in charge of 2 younger brothers in their early teen doing shit all day long when my mother was into hospital.
5 years later my mother had lung cancer, my brothers still doing shit all day long aka selling drugs and stealing.
2 years ago she had a stroke and is now in a wheelchair me being the caretaker.
I also lost 250Go of data once, a shitty day it was.

>>741468531
>I wonder what kind of pathetic life you must be having to come up with that kind of bs.
It's fucking amazing, actually :)

Parents tried sending me to jail, Said FUCK THAT ran from the cops stole 3 cars and did meth all the way outta the region, then got fucked over by my band come recording day even tho i went through lenghts and streched to get there.. sleeping in the rain on the street fucking dealing with cops all on my nut with meth in my left hand and hot wiring cars.. fucking sucked when i had to chose to go back to a beligerantly ignorant family sucking off the tit of the government or continue walking. Ill live in regret my whole life.

>>741468531
Happy notbirthday to me happy notbirthday to me

>>741468600

Which is why you're sitting on 4chan telling people to go kill themselves? You're fooling no one. Now fuck off

>>741468531
>that kind of bs
>loud_jimmies_rustling_soundeffect.mp3

>>741468651
>Which is why you're sitting on 4chan telling people to go kill themselves?
Yes, it´s hilarious that my life is amazing and yours isn´t.

was an agoraphobic and it got to the point i couldent leave my room without thinking someone would kill me

>>741468651
Stop being so close minded

>>741468651
>You're fooling no one.
But he´s trolling plenty of you.

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Dealing with dosboi

>>741468804
I guess he's got us there, you're right

>>741466923
>Engineered Death of the ELites

>>741461857
nice

>>741461451
>What's the hardest thing you've been through in your life?
Near death of wife in a car accident. Resulted in a broken neck

My mothers drug abuse.

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>>741462512
Hang on /b/ro, I'm really feeling for you.
No I'm not on the verge of tears. Fuck.

Totaled my new car after a month of having it

>>741465114
>an ex-gf laured me to an apartment
lured

>>741461451
Severe clinical depression combined with strong social anxiety (panic attacks on the reg) and substance abuse. Closest I've ever been to suicide.

prob not leaving the house for over 7 years

>>741466575
noice

>>741461451
Homelessness

>>741463741
You should edit it to be signed by Tyrone so that next time you post it everyone gets angry

>>741469069
Anyone hurt?

>>741465141
You, yes you are a true man.
You've also been through so much shit, you don't have to be afraid anymore.
Stop doing drugs, get some help if needed and grab life by its throat. You've earned happyness bro, you've fucking earned it. Stay strong /b/rother.

>>741468981
Thanks friend. Kindness among strangers helps more than you think. I feel it's more genuine because you didn't have to say anything, there was no obligation. Whatever your struggle is, someone has gone through it too and made it out ok. I can do it, and so can you.

found my dad dead last year

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>>741466575

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=DrLgAop9AE8

>>741461451
Diamonds.
(hardest metal known to man)

>>741462650
I used to be a peacekeeper in Kosovo back in the days. After Nato went awall against Jugoslavia. Tension is still there.

>>741461451
Total bankrupcy
about 4 years ago lost all my net worth, literally touch the ground with my forehead. I went to owning 4 houses to living in a shitty room. I still live in the shitty room tho but at least i have a bed now.
Life is hard faggets.

>>741461451
I've had a good but boring life. I have had some family and friends die. But that happens to everyone. A lot of those were related to addiction. That was hard on me. But I have accepted those things for what they are. I rarely dwell on such things. But I do get sad on the rare occasion I reflect.

I have never been in love, or anything close to it. I am 25 and I have only been on a handful of dates. Drunkenly lost my virginity one night. And haven't had sex since (Four years ago). It was a good-ish experience. I was clumsy but it beat jacking off substantially. The weird thing about this is it doesn't seem to matter to me. I feel like it should but I get exhausted at the thought of spending time with someone.

I would say the hardest thing on a day to day basis is that I am an introvert and so are my friends. So we rarely talk. When we do it is fun, but sometimes I go months without seeing or talking to them. Even my best friend. Though it is understandable because he got an awesome job a few states East of me.

I guess I can't tell if I am in a state of solitude or isolation.

>>741461451
GHB withrawl
>2 weeks of not sleeping
>literally constant panic attacks for thefirst 3-4 months
> sleeping and anxitey disorders for more than a year

>>741462487
Nothing like spending 50k on drugs and selling them to keep the addiction alive right? Quit doing drugs it'll benefit you a lot, I quit and don't regret it.

>>741469838
See your father and raise you having to ID dead brother's corpse

>>741463741
>Keylogger
>Shows other persons chat

Nice try anon. Almost caught me out there.

>>741461451
Be a Mephedrone and benzos addict in 17-19 years Old

>>741461451
I once tried to shoot up large pixels... took a long time to inject and I didn't even get very high.

>>741461451
Be a Mephedrone and benzos addict in 17-19 years Old

and doing hard benzos sometimes amphetamine, RC's to this Day after rehab but not everyday like year before ,once a week

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>>741461451
Withdrawal from opium tea would be the number one off the top of my head.
That shit was pure pain for days.
Failing collage three times in a row would be a close second.

Quite honestly my entire life.
(1/?)
>starting at age three
>parents leave me and my sister home regularly with a babysitter who was a prostitute (They didn't know)
>babysitter locks me and my sister in our rooms until my parents get home so she can deal with her "customers" without interruptions
>basically was starved all day long and forced to shit in toy boxes because I had no bathroom access
>4 years old, landlord sells the house out from under us without telling us anything beforehand
>move around between my grandparents' houses for about two years because we had nowhere else to go and my father was spending more money in gas to get to work, so we weren't able to actually get an apartment for a long time
>6 years old, we get an apartment and everything seems alright
>then out of fucking nowhere my mother starts having fits of seizures which the doctors diagnose as cavernous hemangioma if I recall correctly
>mother's doctor prescribes her Dilantin which causes her seizures to up in quantity, my father is having a hard time handling it and starts to drink
>my mother has a hard time handling it and starts to drink and pop Vicodin
>we move to a cheaper location because where we were at was doing renovations that were gonna raise rent
>once we move there my parents' drinking gets more aggressive since they were on food stamps and weren't spending as much physical money on food and had extra to spend on vodka and southern comfort
>with aggressive drinking came aggressive behavior
>father would regularly take out his frustrations about finances and my mother's health on me
>slammed my skull into walls, threw me against the metal framing of my bed and onto the floor, shoved soap down my throat for no reason
>sister remained unharmed for reasons I still don't know to this day
>mother was too vegetated to do anything about it, my sister and I were too scared to say anything to our grandparents.

>>741470952
Opium tea?
Like Kratnom?

>>741471015
Just kick your father's ass. Now that you are an adult.

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Debridement

Head neck up
Arms Bicep down
Legs Knee down

Worst couple of weeks of my life.

>>741471113
Do you know that opium poppy produces opium from which morphine is processed and medical companies grow these poppies too? Do you know that the pods of these flowers contain opium? What are you, twelve years old or what? You shouldn't post on this board if you are underage.

>>741471281
Nah bud. Just never got deep into opium.

I guess I'm kind of a prude when it comes to drugs. fuck me right?

>>741461451
A breakup from a 3year relationship.

>inb4 faggot

>>741471015
(2/?)
>eventually my grandparents caught wind of what was happening and took me and my sister away from the house as often as she could, though she refused to contact the police because she always maintained faith in my father for some reason
>one day she comes over to our house
>sees my parents drunk off their asses and passed out as my sister and I are just kinda huddled together because they recently got done arguing
>wakes my parents up and an argument ensues between my grandmother and mother
>mother calls my grandmother a cunt, grandmother slaps my mother and grandmother takes my sister and me for a few more days
>mother also agreed to babysit a friend's children though she was always passed out from drinking and the responsibility fell on me alone
>literally fucking walked into the apartment once and one of the kids was sitting on the kitchen table somehow (she was like not even a year old) and the other kid is chilling on the GameCube not giving a shit about his sister
>I get sick of all of this happening so I find where my parents hide their alcohol from my sister and me and throw their last bottle out into the dumpster
>father storms into my room and picks me up by my head, slams it into the wall, and keeps yelling "where is it?"
>insist I don't know what he's talking about until he loses interest and passes out on the couch
>few years of this continues and my mother then comes down with jaundice from heavily drinking and popping vicodin
>mother is thrown into a coma and we are told to make funeral preparations
>father's breaking down outside, realizing how much he's fucked up in life
>mother comes out of the coma and they stop drinking for a while, we move out of that apartment and move into the next city over, Fresno
>things go generally okay until I'm 17 but my father does still take his frustration out on me by inconveniencing me in any way possible

>>741471443
Just stop trying to act hard. You reading the thread right? You have no place to say be constructive in the argument when literally 10 or more post have been suck it up nigger. Like fuck off man this is why this shit never goes anywhere. Reply to actually constructed responses instead of just sitting back you fucking waste.

>>741461451
Be a Mephedrone and benzos addict in 17-19 years Old

and doing hard benzos sometimes amphetamine, RC's to this Day after rehab but not everyday like year before ,once a week,destroy my family life ,tried drugs from all group ,have problem with law

>>741471444
Three? Try five and engaged.
No faggo.

>>741461451
I don't sleep well sometimes

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I smiled today and was told there's nothing to smile about. I stopped smiling.

>>741471487
(3/?)
i.e., he'd let my sister get away with murder, allowing her to call my mom retarded for not being able to balance properly or speak/think quickly enough due to her brain being a bit jumbled; she didn't have to do any chores and it was all laid on me; I had to share everything with her but she had to share nothing with me
>it was literally all just to fucking inconvenience me in tiny ways
>eventually I stop caring about everything and get kicked out of school (not blaming this on anyone but myself)
>get myself addicted to Norco and Ativan to cope, I'm basically on the brink of killing myself because I've never been given a single break
>one day I'm downstairs getting leftover spaghetti and my father makes a comment about me being a disappointment, my mother says "loser's right here"
>I respond, "I can hear you, assholes"
>father gets up off the couch and says "what the fuck did you say"
>punches me in the jaw, I throw my boiling hot spaghetti all over him and call the cops
>I have a very obvious red mark on my face from where he punched me but because my mother defended him and he said nothing was wrong nothing happened
>about a year later we lose our apartment because my father's bad at managing money, he gets depressed and stops going into work, thereby losing his job
>my sister and I are frantically trying to find places to live while my father's just plainly given up on everything so we're under insane pressure we should never be put under to begin with
>we end up moving in with a friend's family, it goes pretty well since he knows he can't get away with being an outright dick to me in front of them
>one night my father comes home, however, and is drunk off his ass
>my sister confronts him about it and he yells at her in the middle of the street in front of our house, family friends don't take lightly to that and we get kicked out
>idgaf because i had a place to go already
>fast forward a year since me moving out was a nice experience

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Sexually abused at a young age from women in the neighborhood
Formed unhealthy relationships later in life
Molestation continued and than stopped
Grew up semi normally and forgot about those days

Ended up becoming successful in a career but still had social issues
Never understood that social relationships actually matter and I have been a shut in for years
Lost my respect at work
No self esteem
People at work know how good I am but they stopped carrying about talking to me since I had social issues or something
Everyone just ignored me around the office
Treated me like shit and acted like I am an autisitc fuck or something
I'm nearly 30 and I was treated like I was 15 year old kid by others, I guess they thought that wasn't an important person at all
Shit started fucking up at work, nobody asks me for help anymore and they don't want to talk to me at all
I fall into depression, start drinking and using drugs
Go to work everyday miserable as fuck
Looking for a reason to live
Ended up finding another job, as I leave the company everyone realized how much they fucked up in treating me that way
They expected me to pass down some knowledge to them after I left but I never thought them anything and I just took my leave with a clear conscience
If they believed they were so good and better than me than they had to learn on their own
They fucked up, company lost clients
I'm at my new job for months now, make a lot more money
Still alone, still lonely, and might be headed down the path of alcoholism and drugs again to numb the pain
>I'm 30 years old and people just don't take me seriously anymore
>I might know a lot about my field and I get hired on, but they end up treating me like I don't know what I'm talking about
>I listen to them and the projects fail so I had to pick up the pieces on my own and stop listening to other people............

My father's death from kidney cancer that turned into bone and brain cancer. I'm only 20.

>>741471914
>last november, my mother dies in her sleep due to constricting herself in her blankets during a seizure
>my father was sleeping on the couch where they were staying so he didn't notice anything and it was too late when he got there
(Btw sometime between the spaghetti incident and moving out my mother ended up coming down with schizophrenia so, while my sister maintained her social life, I was forced to stay at home and do literally nothing all day long. Not complaining since who in their right mind wouldn't take care of their mother, it just sucks that my social life suffered)
>sister skips town without telling me goodbye because "I wouldn't have seen her anyway"
>father comes down with schizophrenia as well, tells me and my sister we're genetically prone to it
That's all I can really recall to date without over-saturating the story but yeah

>>741471914
I've got some same points like benzo addiction ,kicked from school and problems with neurotic father

>>741461451
12+ sucide attempts
you mad witeboi?

>>741470387
was capturing screenshots every mouse click.

Pretty nifty stuff back in the day.

7 years in solitary lock up in an ITU (Intensive Treatment Unit) in the CYA (California Youth Authority) at the age of 15.
Kept on a steady regimen of psychoactive drugs like Haldol and Thorazine or in the nurses didn't speak English Haldol AND Thorazine.

Didn't get raped or any of that shit, watched TV and played cards with a Hatchet Murderer, a serial rapist, arsonists, other murderers.
Everyone was kept doped up and under heavy guard.
This was from 1989 to 1996 during Pete 'Three Strikes' Wilson, Rodney King, Iraq 1, Bush Sr and 2 terms of Clinton.

I do the exact same regimen now locked in my own apartment. I take my meds, I smoke large amounts of weed (which my doc and parents fully endorse), listen to the only album I ever kept ( Miles Davis - Kind Of Blue), play the same shit on my old refurbished Game Gear (Had the TV tuner for it too) and watch old movies.

I dont have to work, Ive already been in 3 great relationships until my mental state made that an unreasonable goal.
I plan on blowing the last of my money at Floridas Disneyworld resorts, gets some hookers and meth, then blow my brains out on a parkbench near where I live, early so the joggers see me first.

Alls said I still wouldn't trade any of my experiences for a thing ... seen shit you people wouldn't believe and if i died right now i would not regret the journey.

Peace to you all...Ima smoke a bone.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kbxtYqA6ypM

lately? Today

my one night stand getting pregnant, then finding out 8 months later that it really is mine, then having her run off and change her name to hide from me because i told her "i hope you die in childbirth".

but hey, at least i dont have to pay child support.

elementary school

>>741461451
Your mom's vagina approx. 9 months before you were born

Losing my ipod
felt like killing myself

>>741461451
Being tested HIV positive.

It went away mysteriously.

It had ben with a woman who tested HIV positive.

That went away too, mysteriously.

>>741461451

Getting emergency surgery lacking proper aenesthetic.

Feeling how someone slowly cuts your. belly open sucks man. They tranqed me with ketamine as soon as they found out. Blew me straight into a k-hole. Not as enjoyable as it sounds, under the circumstances

>>741472116
Cancer is a bitch, /b/ro. Hang on.

>>741461451
1st hardest is today. 2nd hardest is prolly yesterday

>>741472776
*I had been

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>>741466575

>>741461451
Iraq, my military service in general

>>741461451

wife's cancer or caffeine withdrawl

or a really bad hemorrhoid I had that I wished for the sweet release of death as I spent hours bleeding on the toilet in agony for days

>>741472925
Also more recently my step-daughter becoming weelchair bound.
And before someone starts:
>Hurr Durr ur a cuck lol kys
I'm raising her to honor my best friend who died in Iraq during a ambush on our squadrent
I'm going out with her mother aswell..

>>741472091
This sounds like an extremely egotistical person

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Plain ol' bipolar disorder.

>>741473173
Makes sense: he gives his life, you take the wife.

>>741461451
sending a weird meme to a person I didn't mean to send it to

>>741473709
He died from internal bleeding while I was yelling at our CO to get anything/anyone for backup, his last request was for me to raise his kid to not be a whore

>>741473173
>a ambush
just send her to school, so she can learn grammar

>>741461451
waking up every morning?

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>>741461451
I was going to say the war, but nope, it's watching Europe fall to Islam.

going from 2 or 3 grams of coke a day+ a gram or so of meth a day+ at least 2 pills of mdma every weekend + on average an eighth of shrooms every couple of weeks + a huge circle of pretend friends who used me because i was a dj and promoter and could get them into places for free/vip... to stone cold cold turkey sober with zero friends overnight. been sober ever since but those first few weeks were hell.

>>741473864

So how does that work, you raising her and dating her mom?

>>741473898
After half a bottle of jack, making small grammar mistakes is allowed with your third language you fuckhead

>>741474061
A lot of drugs but classy not injections of opiates and taking RC,'s from legal sites

>>741465559

Come to CZ, we don't mind slav brothers

>>741474147
>drinking

>>741474147
how old is she?

btw, interesting post number

>>741474249
all slavs mind u, though

>>741474261
Thanks, I work hard on my post numbers

>>741473898
a nambush

>>741474103
Since I was a close friend to her late dad, I used to go over to his house to help out and hell I drove both of them to the hospital when she was born in 2009 since we both took leave after training.
After he died I just sorta kept coming over and helping out however I could and three months ago I asked her mum out, she hasn't objected in any way, hell before she got hit by some cunt who decided to overtake another car by driving on the sidewalk she was alot happier than usual...

>>741470002
Schizoid personality disorder, have fun with it faggot.

Watching my dad take his last breath.

completing IT school while psychotic

>>741474261
Gonna turn 10 in two weeks, she's currently in the hospital so, christ, I can bet my arms that she'll hate this birthday

>>741472400
You just sound like a cunt

>>741474257
What, I can't drink after a tragedy has happened? The little girl I've helped and am helping to grow up to be a proper lady is probably going to be weelchair bound for life...

>>741474510

Ah I get it now, good on you. You think your mate would have approved?

>>741474617
Bring her a princess dress, she'll love it and forget her condition a bit

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When I was 12 I had to perform CPR on my mother, unbeknownst to me, she had an aneurysm and there was nothing I could do. That didn't stop me from blaming myself.

I had a younger sister as well. She was severly autistic, couldn't walk or communicate in any meaningful way. When my mother passed it was just me and my dad to take care of her. 5 years later she passed away the day after christmas. I had built my whole life around taking care of her while my father would leave to visit his girlfriend (Now wife who is a very kind, lovely woman). It led to a lot of repressed anger and depression which got significantly worse after she died.

Things have gotten better, I moved away for college, being away from home actually helped my relationship with my father improve dramatically.

I had a bit of a down turn when the girl I had been dating for almost 3 years (who had been like a sister to me all through high school and years after until we fucked one night.) cheated on me but, I rebounded from that super fast when I realised she wasn't worth my time and I was lucky I never knocked her up.

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>>741461451
was sexually flayed of the sensory organ at birth. grew up without teeth/genetic, molested/raped by female at the mall, and a uncle. fed methamp from 6-16 years teachers hated me, everyone hated me. went to prison for ten years, possession of kiddy porn at 18. (never touched/thought) 10 years Fed. life still sucks.

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>>741461451
Probably recovering from brain surgery

>>741472776
HIV was invented to eradicate the black race.

>>741474724
no, u r not allowed to drink, u weak-ass moron, whod ruin his health more, instead of fixing problems.

My dick

I did heroin for 2 years, but once i got sober I felt all the shame and embarrassment. I still feel it and have never made amends with those who knew.
I just quit and became an alcoholic

>>741469949

>peacekeeper in Kosovo
>Nato

Hope you are aware it was you blue helmets who were pouring fuel on fire in that conflict.

>>741474821
Temporal lobe or deeper? Best of luck /b/ro

diamond went right through it like a bullet

>>741474849
How am I a weak ass moron? And how the hell can I solve the problem even more? I already sued the fucker who hit her with his BMW, got him in jail and am looking for someone who'd kill him in jail..
>>741474805
It might work, thannks for the idea mate, I hope you have a nice night or day, depending on where you are
>>741474766
I'm not sure, he'd probably be happy that I'm keeping my promiss and raising his daughter...but I'm not sure how'd he'd react to me going out with his wife

my mom hated me but wouldnt let me live with family who loved me
micromanaging bitch who has daunted my every step with a dark doom shadow

>>741474994
Right temporal lobe, they removed half of it plus my right hippocampus and right amygdala
Surgery was in july 2015, I'm doing well now

>>741474243
>
Never could get into shit that just made me loopy and tired. I experimented with a lot of psychotropics, dmt, amt, mescaline, acid, etc, but those were a once every few months thing. I took those in an effort to learn things about myself, gain some sort of insight. I dont know if any of it worked.

I never touched a needle. I considered myself a clean drug addict. Once i got sober I realized how dirty I was, but I'm glad I never fucked with needles, crack, or heroine.

I've never been able to climax with a partner because my dick is upside down? life sucks

a innate anti authoritarianism, addicted to rage, cigs, and hate

>>741475214
Post pics.

>>741475214
Pics

Is this >>741475421 this >>741475214?
Doesn't look upside down to me, just bent.

>>741475130
Glad to hear you recovered. Did you notice any change regarding feelings/ emotions management?

>>741475518
well bent it is and bent it's always been, if Gd had one of those "if it's been 5 hours call me" signs I would have done that, puberty was HELLL

>>741475421
wtf is this!!!

>>741465141
I feel for you, you are a true man. I always liked Serbs for their hardiness and I never forgive our former president, that he approved the "humanitary" bombing of Serbia. Stay strong and grab life by the throat.

>>741475581
I've developed a more addictive personality. I need to be really careful with alcohol now, I'll drink myself into a stupor without even realising it. Idk if Thats to do with surgery but i wasn't like that before

>>741475136

I also take a lot of pshodelics like dmt 2cb acid to know something about me but I,m too nervous person, i had beautiful trips, and bad as fuck,I also thinked this would clean my mind from using too much simply party drugs ,getting sober is the Best way i think
I tried 2cb ,acid ,dmt also to get a knowledge something about my and clean my mind after taking a lot of shitty party drugs ,

>>741475136
I a

>>741475726
Short answer is yes, that's related to the surgery. Glad you're still functional bro

>>741475668
uber-cock
aka
jew dick, loads of issues and wont hold up for much longer so I keep it in concrete.

>>741472156
Your parents are alcoholics and losers, you didn't choose to be born into that family my dude. Hope you find your way

>>741475421
I legitimately thought he meant "dick is upside down as in inverted as in inside out, as in... I have a pussy. /b/ has fucked my head

>>741461451
lurking deep web for the best porn in my life

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>>741465141
For anybody who wants to save this mans story, here's a picture.

Your story will be immortalized. That is a real one.

>>741475877
I don't smoke pot or anything buy I used to
Im afraid if i tried it again I'd get hooked

>>741472400

You think that now, but she could always come at you years from now for it.

>>741475880
this cock would slay women, don't use it no matter how horny you get

I really dont know. seriously. something went wrong somewhere I guess.
Was born. Lived completly "normal" up till I was around 7 when my dad got into jail for smuggling drugs/narcotics.
That situation made me, my mother and my sister to move into an appartment and move into a different city.
Then, when I was around 13 my father came back home. I remember That it was my first day at the gymnasium when there was like an introduction. My father wanted to come with because he had nothing else to do and my mother was out traveling with her friends. So the day goes by and my father gets a phone call. He locks himself into his room and talks for around 30-50 minutes and then comes out and asks if I can be alone for a week. He promised that we would get a new monitor for my PC.
Mother was so stressed out that I was alone home and had to do everything by myself at such young age. I didn't think of it as anything special though.
So she comes home BEFORE my father comes home (he's been gone for over a week now. My mother was out traveling for one week).
So we continue living our lives. Then one day the police knocks on our door and says they have arrested my father for drug/narcotic smuggling.
I was around 15 when this happened. I was old enough to understand what was happening this time.
I started to cry (which I never really did that much during my younger days) and squeezing the air out of my mother because I felt all these guilt feeling. I felt those because my father said he was going to get me the monitor for my PC.
I started to be with hang/be with a little older people and got introduced to weed at around age 16. I still smoke it to this day (20 now).
My mother works with people who are addicted to something + has a diagnose. So when I told her I smoked some weed with my friends. When I said that sentence I felt her look through my whole body. Felt like I got pierced by an icicle.

From that moment I've been a complete failure to my mother.

>>741473173

cool story bro

I bet your 'squadrent' was full of real people and not some story you made up on the internet.

>>741461451
Perpetually institutionalized for 10 years, electroshock, etc. Wrote a book about it, rich lady is giving it a read end of October.

>>741468180
You are too stupid to insult.

>>741476760
thanks..
ive had them speak in tongues
the harder they fall the lower they crawl the longer they beat you to death with a wall all my lifes problems have been sexual or engendered oppression. fuck this, pass the peyote

>>741476844
I won't post their names, since I know you are a massive faggot that thinks that beeing edgy is fun/makes you seem cool on the internet

>>741476771
ship ahead to where we are now. My father came home this year around may. He found out I smoke weed and do other drugs aswell. He starts to cry because he never was never there for me when I was younger.

Then he asks how much I spend on drugs. I said "Around like 1600kr (around 160-180$) a month".
And his answer stunned me for a moment...
"Really? is that it?" he said.
"Well... yeah".
I dunno what i should've say. Like be happy that it isn't more then that I guess?
I legit dunno why im complaining over my life but i feel that there's something wrong/something went wrong.
I know that other people have it much harder/harsher then I had/have it.
Prob noone who will read this whole shit anyways so w/e.

>>741472776
how did it go away? You are not HIV positive anymore?

>>741476627
Yes, you'd better stay away from drugs, man. In your case, you're more sensitive to some side effects and without most of your right lobe you wouldn't notice being too far gone. Could induce schyzophrenia and other psychopathologies, stay with alchool but always keep track of what you drink for your own (and others) safety

>>741472776
tell the story bro

>>741461451
I made a stupid choice way back in 2005 and I've still feeling the effects of it today.

>>741477594
I totally agree psychosis,depression ,mania,schizofrenia it's more bad side effects after drugs to not very hard core junkies and normal people and with emotional problems

>>741477955
False positive may happen, rare but still.

>>741477323
They called them false positives.

But two people having sex and testing positive is too much coincidence for my taste.

This was in the beginning of the epidemic. I suspect infection needs many genetic strains to overwhelm the immune system.

Later tests were negative.

>>741461451
love