Feels thread, so depressed right now that i could end it all

>>739056182
Go feel a penis

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Depressed anon reporing in, how many times have you thought about ending it today lads?

>>739056404
I never count them, but I know I'm not going to do it until all hope is truly lost

>>739056404
Zero times, because I'm not a fucking fag that can't spell "reported".

i just want to die

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>>739056447
i have tried many times, was in a phsyc hosp because of it..

im out now,
didnt help me at all

>>739056495
hey new friendo

>>739056585
I've been in and out of hospital/psyche hospitals all my life and if anything it made me feel worse

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>>739056674
yeah, i just go back to how i was as soon as i have left.

i feel empty again

>>739056585
Im only attempting when I'm 100 percent sure, so I won't have to deal with any weird psych shit and get my family aware

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>>739056343
i think of it every second every day bro. all i can say is paint on a smile and endure the pain..... i hope things work out for you anon

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>>739057043
my mum / family has gone through a lot of shit because of my depression and other mental shit.

no one understands how horrible i feel because of it but i just cant help it

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When I was a lot younger, I used to feel this way.

I lost my religion, wasn't successful in the military, wasn't taken seriously by most people, had a small group of friends that I didn't feel like were very good friends, was smoking weed and drinking pretty frequently, was not in very good shape, fapped to porn too much, and was just generally not stoked about life. I had wasted like 60k on useless degrees and couldn't find a job. I was committed to a psych institution for trying to commit suicide when I was 19 and had been through the gauntlet of mental health for a long time.

Basically what happened was I got really sick and almost died. I dropped from 220 to roughly 160 in a span of a few months. I could barely walk, was super fatigued, couldn't eat, had no appetite, doctors couldn't figure it out, and then developed all these anxiety problems.

Anyway, it's when I almost died that I really recognized how precious life is and how fortunate I was to be here. I adjusted my attitude and became super grateful. I took better care of myself, got a better education, and now I'm very happy and successful. It's like I'm a completely different person.

I was told I was "depressed' since childhood and needed medicine. I haven't been "depressed" in over three years.

That's not supposed to be anything other than me sharing my experience. Your mileage may vary.

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>>739057536
fucking wish this happend to me,

i cant see an end to it other than necking myself

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>>739056182
>I need help
So you come to /b/?

>>739057269
You'll meet people that you'll think understand, because maybe they're the same way. Once you help them they'll realise how useless you are because of how they used to be. (only women tho hehexd)

>>739057677

You kind of don't.

It was one of the scariest experiences of my life. There are probably way easier ways to learn that lesson which don't involve like 6 months of recovery time.

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>>739057984
i have been in and out of different hosps for like 10 months now, still depressed, thoughts still there.

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The most brutally brutal way to die of all deaths, is to do it in process. First, you must fully, I mean fully die inside, this means that you no longer feel, that you are numb, which would mean no more depression, no more happiness, no more sorrow, and no more anger. If you are thinking of killing yourself, then you aren't there yet. Then, let your body die either at home or in a hospital or by aneurysm while walking down the street. this process can take years. It is so fucking metal and natural, few have the balls to see it through and many attempt it without even realizing! Even those who die of "natural causes" don't succeed in this form of death, because the process is so fucking brutal.

gibe into the cattins. The cattins see all, the cattins knows all. The cattins sees your soul, they is in your soul. the cattins is love, they is life, they is death, they is now part of you.

>>739058105

That's irrelevant to my point.

To clarify, my point wasn't "You should have a near death experience because you'll stop being depressed," the point was that a lot of the time depression is a matter of perspective.

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>>739058253
it's not.
its a way of thinking that is fucking hard to get out of.

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the cattins says stop listening to psychobabble bullshit, realize life is shitty, die inside, libe outside, then become, so that one can then die.

Such burtalities, much meows. The cattins is love, they is life, they is death. You cannot resist the cattins haunting gaze into your soul.

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>>739058551
are you ok?

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>>739058607
why you ask? because boobies is all and life and that? gibe into the cattins bitches love cattins.

>>739056182
You should get out, literally. Get some vitamin D's on you and you'll be feeling perky all day.

>>739056404
3 times but then I remember i already tried to die

>>739058397

You need to get your shit together and stop blaming everything and everyone else for your problems.

>>739058551

This is fucking gay and unfunny

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I flatlined in 09. I did not do it on purpose, but while I recovered in hospital I wanted to die. It was an infection that resulted in horrid fever and I was told I would not make it through the weekend. Now, I find myself alone very often. In crowds I still feel isolated. I do not know what a stable relationship feels like. Sometimes this gets me down on myself.

Then I remember the cattins. I remember when they came into my life. I love the cattins. the cattins is love, they is life, they is death, they is kawaii. The cattins make so much wrong feel so right...

>>739059178
haha yeah. if it only was that easy huh

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>>739059196
it was not meant to be funny you cynical bitch.

>>739059196
btw, I am gay. so joke is on you

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>>739059597
faaaaaaaaaag

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>>739059664

>>739056182
I just got a bj from my girlfriend a few minutes ago. Feeling pretty good right now.

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They lurves you. the cattins lurves you but you must be open to their lurvins.

The most brutally brutal way to die of all deaths, is to do it in process. First, you must fully, I mean fully die inside, this means that you no longer feel, that you are numb, which would mean no more depression, no more happiness, no more sorrow, and no more anger. If you are thinking of killing yourself, then you aren't there yet. Then, let your body die either at home or in a hospital or by aneurysm while walking down the street. this process can take years. It is so fucking metal and natural, few have the balls to see it through and many attempt it without even realizing! Even those who die of "natural causes" don't succeed in this form of death, because the process is so fucking brutal.

gibe into the cattins. The cattins see all, the cattins knows all. The cattins sees your soul, they is in your soul. the cattins is love, they is life, they is death, they is now part of you.

>>739056182
I understand. I been in and out of hospitals the past few years. I have had a few attempts. But now I'm on a path to recovery. Even though I used drugs today, I think I am more hopeful now. I recommend going inpatient at a psych ward.

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Everyday you dont kill yourself, you see more memes. Only you can decide when to stop with the memes.

Smoke weed OP

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the cattins recommend not listening to someone who tells you to go inpatient when they haven't had the time or patients to understand where you are coming from with such little ammounts of informations as you has givens the peoples of the thread

The cattins loves you and says you must listen to you but recognize that you have what you need in you and if you need help then what is in you will tell you and guide you to do so.

Listen to the still small voice of the cattins

they is love, they is life, they is death, they gaze cannot be denied.

>>739056182
wanna call on discord?

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>>739061918

>>739062646

kek

>>739056182
I've been vomiting for like two days straight and no family to care about or for me, tons of diahrea and I don't want to go to the hospital alone... let my misery help you

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=wl-LeTFM8zo
YOU NEED THE MEMES TO SURVIVE