Feels thread...

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Guys... how do you get over someone who you never even dated?

>>738813211
Fuck that's why I'm here bro

>be me
>be in 6th grade
>very close to my uncle
>uncle is a badass who survived cancer 3 times
>spend the night at cousins house
>next morning family rushes into the house and says we dont have to go to school
>hells yeah
>because uncle shot himself
>ohfuk
>bc suicide family gets nothing from insurance
>aunt starts having emotional breakdowns and is scary to be around
>aunt and favorite cousin move away
>haven't seen them since

>>738812874
>>738813211
I know that feel /b/ros I can green text a bit later my story

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After all that's happened, I can't motivate myself to keep studying Japanese anymore. Six years gone to waste.

>>738813211
know the feels /b/ro
suppose you don't entirely since the "what if" remains. just have to keep meeting new chicks and move on

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>>738813211
Slowly bro. Over time you'll realize how unfair it is to yourself to be so hung up on someone that doesn't give two fucks about you. Distract yourself by placing yourself around others and eventually you'll find someone that makes you forget her.

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>>738813211
exactly why im here /b/ro

Anyone else know that feel of when ur phone is blowing up but the one person you actually wanna hear from is ignoring u? Shit hurts, /b/rother

I guess I'll share a story from a while ago, maybe 6 years ago.
>Be Me, 14 years old.
> Filthy Jew faggot, parents wanted me to go on a birthright trip with some "friends" that I had known for a while in middle school.
>For the rest of this trip, I will be referring to this as the Israel trip.
>Attended this school from 1st Grade to 8th, in 8th we go to Israel.
>School shilled the trip to make us stay there, was a pretty shitty education, for they didn't teach some essential shit properly, fucked me later in high school.
>Arrive at Jerusalem airport, normal shit, faggots ignoring me like they had normally done throughout my time there.
> A Day and a 1/2 in, tired, we are going to the underground western wall
>Note about the trip: We were going with 2 other middle schools.
>On way to the place, fall asleep due to jet lag.
Continue?

>>738815948
I may as well, sorry if you do not like me dumping my personal laundry here.
>FirstIncident.jpg
>I fall asleep next to a guy on the bus, Dickhead doesn't even try to wake me up.
>Nobody notices me, like usual.
>Stuck with Israeli bus driver
>Somewhat dazed and confused, go with bus driver to his parent's house.
>Dude speaks no english, have no idea what he is saying.
> At this point, I feel bad for him, due to the fact that this faggot just showed up (me).
>Get back to the group, at the wall.
>A group of 40 jewish children, including the ones i knew, all look at me, and start laughing at me.
>This is when I realized that life was not going to work out well for me.
>Worst part however, was not the fact that the kids were laughing at me, that was expected, save a few.
>The worst part was the fact that the chaperones, teachers of mine, were also laughing, and did not try to help me in the slightest.
>I trusted these people, and this act of negligence, in addition to 2nd incident (coming soon), almost sent me off the deep end, thought about an heroing.
>Back to the story
>I then watch everyone i thought I knew, slowly cave to peer pressure.
>AsExpected.jpg
>Fast forward to a few days later.
>Friend of many years up to that point invites me to talk in his room.
>2ndIncident.exe has started running

>>738816048
>The Time has come for the 2nd incident
>Go into friend's room, lets call him Zach
>Zach then, along with 2 other faggots
>They then take me, place me under the sink, place towel tight on my face, and pour water.
>Waterboarding.jpg
>Too scared, brain gets sensation of drowning
>Throw up a little, immediately goes back into mouth.
>This, although it was only 2 minutes, felt like an eternity.
>Especially because it was by someone I trust, in addition to the 2 guys who helped him (also trusted them)
>Walk out stunned, lost faith in humanity.
>...
>After Israel Trip
>I attempt a form of communication with this man, after about 3 weeks of minimal communication with the outside world.
>During this time, I attempted suicide.
>Parents thought I was being overdramatic.
>Probably was.
>Back to the story
>I skype this man,
>I ask him "Zach, why did you waterboard me?"
> He replies "Well anon, I just wanted to. And you were the easiest to do it to because I knew you wouldn't resist."
> I have not spoken to him since.

>>738816048
Hey man, that's why we're here. To share and discuss each other's stories so we don't all suffer alone.

>>738816150
>Flash Back to week before end of school.
>Depressed as shit, look around to see if anyone cares about what just happened.
>As normal, nobody does
>In fact, school attempts to cover up the issue, and pretends like it didn't happen (The bus incident that it, not the waterboarding)
>Even if the waterboarding got out to beside the kids, Zach's parents have enough money to "make it all go away".
>I confront the school about the bus issue, they say it was a problem and won't happen again.
>I know its bullshit, but i let it go.
>However, my parents (my mother) stopped supporting the school (My dad wanted to pretend like nothing happened)
All in all, lesson is to never trust kids, or people in general. I learned that lesson the hard way.
So thats my story, anyone got any others?

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>/b/ me (green)
> been on 4chan a cuple years now...
>still no idea how to green text
>too lazy to look it up
>too scared to ask

>>738813712
So here's my story

>be me a senior in high school
>Start talking to this girl a bit
>Not really interested in her at first, just wanted to take her to prom because we have a lot of mutual friends
>Really hit it off with her, everything is going great, I'm on the top of the world
>feeling like I could get any girl I wanted
>We eventually agree to go to prom and I decided to do something cute like asking her to prom on Valentine's day so I tried to get her to go out with me but she said she was busy
>I didn't think anything of it and decided I wouldn't do some stupid sign
>She starts growing distant, blows me off whenever I try to text her and replies become much less interested
>Finally ask her what's wrong and she tells me she just got out of a bad relationship (keep in mind I wasn't trying to date her)
> I didn't say I didn't have feelings for her because I felt it would make it worse
>say we can be friends but it becomes mutual that we're not going together to prom
>Talk to her less and less
>She gets with a piece of shit who I know cheats on everyone he's ever dated
>Still don't care too much about it since I didn't have feelings for her
>Loathed her for lying to me about not wanting a relationship though
>About a week and a half before prom I decided I wasn't going and had made peace with this
>She suddenly texts me, asking if I wanted to go to prom with her as friends
>Like an idiot i agree
>Two days before prom I find out that she is dating this piece of shit but he asked someone else before they hooked up
>Still go because I would look like the douche if I cut it off
>Go to prom with large group of friends, have a blast dancing and dining
>Then the piece of shit shows up and asks for a dance with her
>Again I would look like a dick if I said no so I say I'm ok with it
>Fall in Love with this girl that night
>Wake up the next day completely depressed and don't get out of bed until 3 pm
>She broke up with him but I know I can't be with her

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Mandatory "This isn't even my final feel" pic

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>You don't understand just how much I really care about you.
I...probably 'love' you.

>>738816466
Lurk.

I'm listening to a sedimentle playlist, there's a story behind it but I don't think any of you would care to know, but here's the link

https://open.spotify.com/user/a_bowl_of_cereal_with_milk/playlist/2og50cfpI1WLOXmso7uUiE

I've got some feels I need to dump. This has all been happening for a little over a year now, and it's gotten to a point where I honestly don't know what to think anymore.
>be me, 17, highschool senior overweight betafag
>Haven't really had much of a social life with the exception of one buddy and his ex (who stabbed me in the back and left me out to dry) throughout highschool, so I was an odd hermit, the kind people would be nice to because they though I was going to shoot up the school
>senior prom rolls around
>had crush on this one gril for a while now and decide to ask her
>she says yes
>ffw to that weekend
>get a call from her saying that she can't go because she had already planned something
>allmyfuckingrage.gif
>tell parents
>dad tells coworker who tells her daughter, lets call her J
>8/10 blonde, really pretty face
>J wants to go with me just to spite this other girl
>call her and set up dinner and prom
>ffw to day of prom and I go to pick her up
>awkward as fuck introductions, she gets in the car and we drive off to dinner
>making small talk, trying to be alpha, but failing miserably
>get to fancy restaurant for dinner
>dinner goes fuckin stellar
>this girl is wicked smart, witty as hell and just nerdy enough to give her one of the best personalities I've seen to this day
cont?

>>738816207
>>738816207
I'm sorry to hear that bro. You learned something in 8th grade that it took me well into my 20's to learn, and it's that literally almost everyone will let you down. Having a lot of friends is stupid, and having one or two people you would burn the world for, that's what counts. And if you don't have them now, you will soon bud.
And I'm not some basement dwelling, disdainful recluse. I am socially graceful and confident. I just don't like human interaction anymore because people, on the whole, will always disappoint you. You need to tell your parents how angry that shit made you, because it will heal you to hear them acknowledge it. Maybe not all the way but don't let this situation force your parents into the box of people who are shitty, because that's the worst thing that's happening with it.

And as for everyone outside of your family, they care about this stuff FAR LESS than you think. You'll find someone soon that treats you better, be it a friend or relationship, fuck man, even my dog is a better person than most people. He keeps me from really going nuts.

>>738818046
I know. For the time, I coped by playing with the family dog, but she got all sorts of cancers and died about a year later. My parents seemed too concerned with outside things, and my brother was at college, and did not come to me unless he wanted a paper done.
Thank you for putting up with me.

>>738812874
I wanna know how often ex girlfriends think about us.
And if they feel alone or want to comeback.

>>738813640
you'd think someone who beat cancer 3 times actually appreciates life, what a cunt.

>>738813640
>bc suicide family gets nothing from insurance
That's bullshit. Life insurance usually pays out for suicide as long as you've had the plan for at least 2 years.

This is half a feels post and half a request for advice. I'll type it out in a paragraph because I'm mobile-posting. I'm 19 by the way.

I met this girl when I was 15, and had on and off crushes on her. She's short, cute, and the kindest person I've ever met. We were friends throughout highschool and went on a few platonic dates. Everytime I would get close to bullding up the courage to ask her out romantically, she got a different boyfriend, which sucked but I was fine.

We ended up going to adjacent colleges after we graduated so last fall I took her on a few dates. Again, as I was gearing up to ask her to be my girlfriend, another guy swooped her up first. That was one of the worst weeks of my life, but I got over it.
Will continue

>>738814925
ssauce?

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>be me
>be kid
>bad home life
>have suicidal thoughts
>figure they will go away once I'm older
>be in high school
>don't know what I want to do with my life
>still suicidal
>figure it will get better when I leave for college
>be in college
>stressed out and broke
>suicidal
>figure it will be better when I finally graduate
>graduate
>hate my job
>suicidal
>figure it will be better when I get a better job
>get a better job
>more money, more fun
>still suicidal
>realize it doesn't matter what I do
>I just hate who I am on the inside

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>contemplated suicide for years
>wanted to kill myself, everyday
>finally got up the courage
>went to my old playground
>hung myself from the swings
>that was five years ago
>now i just shitpost from beyond the grave

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>have group of friends
>feelings grow for one girl in group
>call her Abby
>talk with best friend
>call him Brad
>tell him how I feel about Abby
>tell him I feel like I'm not good enough for her
>I need to get in shape
>need to make more money
>couple weeks go by
>Brad asks Abby out
>Brad fatter than I am
>Brad makes less money than I do
>couple months go by
>Brad and Abby get engaged
>Brad asks me to be groomsman
>couple months after wedding
>Brad says they are having marriage issues
>Brad cheated on Abby
You mother fucker

>>738818864
So last month we were hanging out again because we've still been friends this whole time. She's doing a study abroad program in Japan for a year and a half so we were hanging out one last time before she left. She expressed that she wasn't entirely happy with her current boyfriend, and was regretful that we hadn't hung out or dated more. I said all the wrong things, but the night still ended with us kissing. That day sparked a feeling that I'd never felt before, and I'm secure in knowing that I'm in love with her. She won't be visiting at all during this period, so I won't see her until next November. We email back and forth a few times a week.

So I need some advice. I want to become the absolute best version of myself that I can be before she gets back. I'm cutting back on video games, working, saving, and investing money, learning how to cook and play guitar, reading more, and other miscellaneous self improvement things. What else can I do to become someone who can take care of her and provide for her? Thanks in advance

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>>738817967
Fuck it, I'm dumping the rest of this. I dont care if anyone is reading this, I need to just tell the full story somewhere.>J seems genuinely interested in me. Could’ve been faking it, but I didn’t care, it was the first time in my life that it seemed like a girl was genuinely interested in me
>Get to the dance ad have a great time
>part way through, we go out back by a field and sit down at a table
>just start talking about shit
>find out we both love astronomy and talk about that for ~half an hour
>dance ends and I drive her home, say goodnight and drive myself home with the biggest fucking grin on my face.
>start talking after that pretty consistently and the more we talk, it’s like I fall for her a little more
>being around and talking to J makes me feel like I need to be better, so I go to work changing myself
>start working out and changing my personality
>College rolls around and I go off to college
>Keep in mind she’s about a year and a half older than me and goes to college and lives in my hometown and I’m going to school halfway across the country
>start talking to her more once I leave
>leaving home hurts like hell, partially because I’m leaving behind everything I knew, and partially because I’m leaving her
>start school and decide that I’m going to reinvent myself there

>>738817967
cont, im lurkin

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>attempt suicide multiple times in my life
>pills failed
>hanging failed
>subconsciously building in ways to back out
>bought shotgun
>couldn't build courage to pull trigger
>finally figure out the secret
>need something that is up to chance
>buy revolver
>load one round
>spin cylinder
>5/6 chance I survive
>makes it easier to pull trigger
>click
>over the years I've spun that cylinder 6 times, now
>only 33.5% chance I should be alive now
>thinking about making that 27.9%

I really hope your life doesn't flash before your eyes when you die. I'd hate to watch all of the time I wasted doing absolutely nothing.

>>738820122
thanks man. Need to dump these feels somewhere

>>738818864
b/ro life is teaching you a lesson, you just need to ask her out. Do not wait for it to be convenient or to have enough courage. Life has already given you many chances to be with her.

>meet girl
>Become friends
>Relationship stagnates or becomes toxic
>Find new girl to ease the pain of the first
>Repeat steps 2-4

>>738820762
There's a second post right here
>>738819504
Yeah I'm gonna ask her out when she returns. I just want to be the best I can be by then.

>>738819410
I would have
> maniacalkek.exe
right in Brad's face

>>738821128
I have a rare condition that leaves me with no spine

>>738820347
I hope you don't man. Just because other people make you feel insignificant doesn't mean you are. Even if you feel that way about yourself doesn't make it true. Some of that shit that bothers you is out of your control. If you cut your life short, you'll never know if it could have gotten better. Don't give into it man.

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The beta in this thread is strong.

>>738821523
How do you become alpha then?

>>738818957
The thought of this being me haunts me a lot and probably keeps myself from being motivated

>>738820103
I'm lurking too

>>738821523
>I'm insecure and don't know how to deal with my feelings so I take out my angst on others
>I-I'm alpha though, r-r-right?

>>738817308
I want to see that forehead.

>>738820844
I understand you, anon. But it's better to better yourself. It helps a lot.

>>738819410
cont
>talking to mommy about Brad while she makes some tendies
>call Brad stupid cheating shutgead
>mommy is really quiet
>mommy gives me tendies and says she has to tell me something
>You're going to have a new daddy
Cont?

>be me
>17 6/10 guy
>short and looked like i belong in middleschool still
>meet this amazing girl
>shes perfect (not really know that i think about it)
>chubby were it matters, had glassea, just a bunch of pimples on her face
>always talked to me
>we would always hangout after school and play pokemon x and y
>we would play sm4sh and always just sit in our nearby park and talk
>one day asks if she can come over
>parents arent home
>i scoop and shes hanging out with me
>netflex and chilling
>im so nervous ive never done it before
> she sees me being anxious "dont worry anon, its my first time to
>shes touching me
>ohmygoditsgoingtohappen
>taking off her bra
>door slams open
>a wild psycho parents apear
>start yelling like crazy (i dont even remember why we werent even naked yet
>she runs out
>parents decide to send me to millitary camp
>wtf no way
>i run away
>move into a motel 6 (had 500 dollars on my card)
>working at mcdonalds
>wanna go home
>live in shitty motel
>i live of ramen and mcdonalds
>at drivethru
>its my break
>smoking a cigarette
>writing this
>i wanna go home
>i miss her
>i miss her
No joke but gotta go back to work see you \b\ros

>>738821523
I'm not alpha. I'm depressed and suicidal. But, I'm also not afraid to go for it when the chance is there.

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>>738821697
>>738821504
When Robin Williams killed himself I realized, it doesn't matter how good you have it. If you have these demons, you can't defeat them. The best you can hope for is to outrun them as long as possible.

>>738821330
Your friend Brad pulled a bitch move and he deserves to never be happy with the Abby. If you were a diabolical mastermind, you would find a way to get with Abby. You would then do the craziest sexual acts with her. I mean really rek her. Then you would encourage Abby to go back to Brad. Brad would be thankful, Abby would sing your praises and you would smile knowing the depraved shit you made Abby do.

>>738821825
>new daddy?
>wtf.org
>mommy says she met a man who will be my new daddy
>says he is about to come over
>I drop my tendie cause I'm scared
>start crying about tendie
>knock on door
>mommy is all smiles
>she says, "it will be good to have a real man around here to give me what I need"
>I'm confused cause mommy only needs me
>opens
>brad walks in
>brad is my new dad

>>738822203
If we're being honest, seeing them together, I realize I wouldn't want to be with her. She's super controlling. Overly conservative Christian.
But that doesn't make the betrayal sting any less.

>>738813211
You don't.

I'm still in love with the first chick I had feelings for. She was straight, so of course she turned me down. It's been seven years, I have had multiple relationships since, and am currently dating the man I plan to marry, but I still think of her from time to time. I wonder what she's doing now. I wonder if she ever made it to art school like she dreamed? Is she dating someone now, finally? She was so shy in school, is she more outgoing now? I'll probably never know.

>>738817857
I'm already loving this playlist. What's the story behind it?

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>>738820103
>first semester is a total shitstorm, but also some of the most fun I’ve ever had
>made a bunch of friends and was actually social for the first time in my life
>stopped eating like shit and started working out a ton
>dropped 30 pounds and gained 10 back in muscle within like 2 months.
>like I was morphing into a chad
>keep talking to J through the whole thing
>keep learning more about her and still falling harder for her
>it’s like torture that I’m 1700 miles away
>then things go to shit where I am
>going to same school as my brother partially because it’s a really good school and partially to watch out for him
>he’d been turning into a total hermit the past few years; he had some serious weight issues in HS and was on the football team, so he got bullied a lot.
>really fucked him up, then it started to break him in college
>his gf’s ex started stalking him and that fucked him up more
>gets diagnosed with a mild form of schizophrenia and depression
>I spend nights in his room making sure he doesn’t hurt himself
>get told later by parents that I was the only thing keeping him alive for a while
>leaves campus just before winter really sets in and suddenly I’m on my own
>start subconsciously relying on J for attention
>she starts getting distant ad then it’s like she was ignoring me altogether
>I start getting low
>spending all my free time in the gym, ignoring friends, grades are dropping, etc.
>then things start getting a little better
>find out a girl has a crush on me
>I guess when you go to a school mostly populated by smalltown people, are from the other side of the country and spend most of your free time in the gym, people start getting curious about your life
>local dance is happening that most of the students go to, so I ask this other girl to it

Just found this song and i felt its appropriate in this thread

https://soundcloud.com/lil_peep/i-crash-u-crash-w-lil-tracy-prod-jayyeah

I miss her

Ive got a story, but it would take a while since I don't have it pretyped

>>738822737
Hit us with it, anon. It's what we're here for.

https://steamsummer.com/?id=fySzHVaA

>>738822938
Alright
>be me
>day I was born
>another kid who was born on same day is my neighbor
>we become great friends
>kid is wicked smart
>used to read like, collegiate level books
>lived in a bad neighborhood, so rarely went outside
>always stayed in and played video games or watched tv
>spent every day with this kid
>one day we decide to go to the playground
>playground was right up the street from my house, not even a block
>gotta cross the road
>he goes first
>truck doesnt see him
>I see truck
>I stay silent
>I dont say a fucking word, not even a sound
Doctors say he died on impact
Why didn't I say anything?
It should've been me

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>>738822467
>dance like a jackass, have fun with this girl, reconnect with some friends that I’d been ignoring for a month, the night is the best time I’d had in a long time
>ask this girl out
>she says yes
>whydowefall.jpg
>after a couple of dates we make it official and she becomes my first girlfriend
>she tells me that she had to beat a few other girls to the punch of letting me know that she was interested in me
>It’s impossible to put into words the feeling that I got, it’s like after so long of being the guy getting shot down, I’m actually wanted by people
>kinda cemented the whole alpha dog personality I’d been going for after prom
>almost completely forget about J
>Christmas break rolls around and I go home
>see J for the first time in 5 months
>it’s like she melted my heart immediately
>I feel like I just fell for her again
>she invites me over one night to hang out
>end up sitting on the couch with her watching movies on her laptop
>she ends up half asleep, half drunk with her head in my lap
>can’t help but hold her close
>She tells me about all the shit that happened during the semester
>Apparently one of her good friends committed suicide, so she got to a dark place and started partying a lot and ended up getting assaulted by a few frat bros on a few different occasions
>she fought them off, but it still fucked her up
>she apologized for being distant
>I wanted to kiss her, but I had a gf and I wasn’t going to cheat
>hung out with her a few more times
>then I my gf at the time tells me that she’s going to visit me (her grandparents lived in my hometown, so she figured that she’d see me while she was there)

>>738821921
Holy shit. Godspeed, anon.

>>738823848
I enjoy this story.

>>738824551
thanks. don't have this pretyped, so sorry if updates are slow

>>738823848
I'm falling deep into this story

>>738815700
Yeah, me too. At least we talk every hour or 2 for now though. When we do talk she replies fast. She cut back on social media as well. Shit is cancer.

>Be me
>I was 10
>Parents would fight about 3 times a week
>My dad would drink every other day
>fights got physical
>Mom moved out to an apartment
>Dad would drink every night, slowly got more and more depressed
>My aunt came up to look after me
>Mom came back, they had an argument in the garage and she called me down
>she told me to smell his breath, I yelled It smells like alcohol because of you
>she drove away
>I slept with my dad and he said that was the nicest thing anything has ever done for him
>I sheaded a tear droplet
>He didn't look healthy and slowly stopped working
>Dad went missing and I couldnt find him
>The pistol was out of its case
>heart dropped, ran to the camper and saw the door was closed
>ran and told my aunt
>I stayed inside and she went to check
>we came inside crying
>I ran and told him I loved him
>Mom came back and stayed with us
>My aunt was heading home one day and wanted me to go with her
>I didn't know what to do
>I kinda just packed a backpack
>about to leave I hugged my dad and he told me to hug my mom
> she replied with Why would he want to hug me, I hugged her than left
>I was quiet for the 2 hour car ride, small chit chat
> 1 week and a half goes by
>Dad shot my mom, instant death, called my aunt, could barely talk
>he told her I didn't mean to do it
>I got the news the next that that happened and that he killed himself
>cried for 4 days straight
>I got super depressed, didn't talk to anyone
>and every single day I regret going to me aunts
>next summer I go there again
>My girlfriend got into a crash
>it killed her dad and her little sister
>years go by and I move 4 times

>>738823848
lurking

Lurking and crying bump

I'm currently detoxing from opiates, living on my own for now. I'm attending a rehab program in about 2 weeks and I'm anxious about having my things being taken from me. I have the option to leave, but I don't want to panic from "losing my freedom" and leave without giving it a shot. This program will most likely turn my life around, it'll cut off ties with my negative influences and I'll work out daily, eat 3 meals a day and sleep well and develop a routine. Too tired to greentext and if anyone wants moderate opiate withdrawal management tips I'll gladly share, hopefully one of you in a similar position reads this.

>>738825700
I'll also come close to graduation if not graduating at the center. Part of me is looking forward to it but some of the negatives are making me second guess.

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>>738823848
>gf visits and it’s like any affection that I had for her is gone
>she senses this and starts getting more distant too
>the break ends and I go back to school
>haven’t talked to gf since she visited
>I need to break up with this girl if I’m not feeling anything for her
>she knows that the break up is coming
>I tell her we need to talk
>go to an empty conference room in the library and end things with her
>she’s crying and I want to comfort her, but I know that I can’t anymore, so I just go back to my room for the night
>My roommate had left during the break, so I had the room to myself
>I keep hanging out with my friends, but I just can’t get into anything
>goes on like this for a while
>I feel like an asshole and a traitor, but I know that I did the right thing
>ffw to a few weeks later and I’m talking to J
>she tells me that she’s been seeing this guy, and that they’re going to make it official
>my heart breaks
>had been really getting into dragon ball z during the year and was watching super android 13 and this scene came up (start at 1:28)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0vQpNusyvMk
>keep listening to the yelling in this scene
>because I don’t have anywhere really private to just freak out, I just keep listening to those fucking screams on full blast
>I don’t hear anything from J until I go home for spring break
>I go to school up north and it was in the dead of winter when I heard about it, so I just spend my time in my room, in class or in the gym.
>work myself half to death with my training and schoolwork
>then one day I just got over it
>I was done being tired and bitter and angry
>I didn’t care anymore
>Start dating around, and crawling out of the funk I was in for so long
>meet one girl who was really interesting but ditzy as fuck, so things didn’t really work out

>>738826057
keeping the thread alive

When I was a kid I bought a tom cat (tom and jerry) plushie
Was my only toy and I love him so much even after I became adult

Someday I gifted it to my first gf just because it was my best thing in the world and she was my best person in the whole world
And yes, she left me and keep the tom

I miss tom and I miss her

>>738826279
ill keep going till the thread 404s.

>>738826720
I feel ya man

>>738825700
>>738825796
>no greentext = no replies
funny cause i never read greentext stories

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>>738826812

>TOP ZOZZLE
>FEELZOZZLE

Am I wrong for falling completely out of love with a girl who I intially loved years ago? She's said and done some pretty fucked up things to me too.

>>738827166
yep, thats about the sum of it

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>>738826057
>had a hard time coping after that, but got through it
>go home for spring break, and see J again
>she broke up with her bf
>the asshole joined a frat and went on this cheating spree
>Immakillthisfool.webm
>talk with her about it, and I start reconnecting with her
>it feels different this time tho, like I’m just glad that she’s my friend
>don’t get to hang out with her like I did during christmas, because she’s working and I’m busy catching up with some friends, but we still make some effort to hang out
>head home feeling okay
>school goes back into session and things are looking up
>get back on the market and start dating again
>then I got introduced to my next big mistake in life
>let’s call this girl M
>7/10 blonde, okay face, fucking AMAZING body
>start dating her casually, and we get close real quick
>M had just gotten out of a pretty unhealthy relationship with this guy who lived about 15 minutes away from campus
>she cut things off with him when she started dating me
>looking back on it now, I think I was a rebound for her
>date her for about a month and a half before finals
>Saturday night before finals we take this drive around the small town that my campus is in
>stop at the edge of this local golf course and we climb into the backseat
>I hold her and, for he first time in a long while, I feel like in at peace
>Finals come and go, I see M one last time before I make the long drive home
>finally get home and start catching up with the friends I had
>see J again
>we start working together in my family’s workshop on some projects for my dad

My friend called me from a psych ward today and said he tried to an hero i laughed and called him a fag and dont feel anything tf do i do

>>738827398
Just work on yourself bro, talk to other girls and do things you like. If there's anything that reminds you of her, throw it out. Blocking all contacts does both of you a favor too.

>>738827738
I recently got out of a heavy break up too and within 3 months I've become a lot happier. I even found a new girl that seems like she might be the next "one". Unfortunately nothing lasts forever though.

>>738818935
Kami nomi zo Shiru Sekai
the world god only knows

>>738827705
how's 7th grade going for you?

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I am deeply in love with a woman that will never be mine.

our relationship is a complicated one

>>738828102
Considering the thread about as good as your emotional state

>>738828102
Considering the thread about as good as your emotional wellbeing

>>738828102
Considering the thread about as good as your emotional state/

>>738828102
Considering the thread about as good as your emotional state

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>>738827574
>skyping with M most nights
>getting closer to her
>hanging out with J in the workshop and at parties
>I have a loving and beautiful gf, I have an actual social life, and I’m getting attention from girls in a way that I’m having to actively turn a few of them down
>I’m living a life I’ve always wanted to live
>then everything changed when the exes attacked
>in the relationship she had before, M had been really, as she put it, “confused” and was basically a bootycall for one guy, but was emotionally invested in another guy
>let’s call him B
>she ended up friendzoning B, but I had no idea that she even had a thing with him; she hung out with him all the time
>she’s talking to B one night, and he tells her that he still has a crush on her
>this throws her for a serious loop
>she tells me about this and I get PISSED
>this fucker’s real lucky I didn’t have any of his contact info
>to make things worse, J starts flirting with me really hard, and being the dumbass I am, I reciprocate it
>start feeling myself falling for her again
>ohshit.jpeg
>M calls me one morning and we talk about what’s been going on and she says that we should take a break, that she needs time to think about how she feels about all this
>I agree
>later that night I think back on how the conversation leading up to the break
>She’s taking this break to consider her feelings for another guy
>ohhellno.gif
>I call her that night and end things
>we end it on good terms, but I still feel like someone kicked me in the stomach

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>>738828874
>go to the gym that night and I start texting J
>she wants to get lunch tomorrow
>then I find out that she’s at an old flame’s house and she’s cutting things off with him (basically, they were having breakup sex)
>I break
>I can’t even pick up a weight
>I’m not even angry
>I’m just tired
>I just drive around until 5 am
>I pass by where she was with him
>I climb into bed about 5:30 and immediately pass out
>wake up in time to get lunch with J
>don’t really make a mention of what either of us did last night
>we talk for a while and she invites me over that night
>skeptical.jpeg
>I head over that night and we both start drinking
>We’re both pretty tipsy and she asks me to massage her back
>I ask her to do the same
>we stop for a while and we just kinda look at each other
>immediately start making out
>we stay like that for a while and she takes her top off
>I take my shirt off
>I carry her over to her bed
>where I’ve got very little experience, it’s like she’s a pro
>and she is kinky as fuck
>it was like the culmination of a year and a half of waiting
>we wake up the next morning and and spend most of it in bed laughing like a couple of idiots browsing memes
>I get breakfast for us
>it was like a dream
>talk to her about it and she wants us to be causally exclusive
>Imokaywiththis.jpeg
>I end up leaving at 10 with the biggest goddamned smile on my face

>>738829954
at least you finally got a break, seems like everything you did was worth it after all, good job anon

>>738830364
m8 this is a feel thread

wait for the catch

>>738830364
Posting the last part in a sec. youll see why I put this on a feel thread

>>738830470
fuck then, waiting for the feels part

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>>738829954
>but then I fucked things up
>was working out the next night
>thinking about the breakup with M and J’s timing
>I wonder if I’m just another rebound for J
>I text her this
>she doesn’t really give me a solid answer, so I keep pushing
>she says that she thinks that I’m looking for something more serious than she is
>I tell her that it’s the just breakup with M
>she doesn’t think it is
>I realize I can’t salvage this
>I tell her that maybe we should just go back to being friends
>she agrees
>I break again
>I’ve spent the last couple days trying to recover, but I know that I fucked things up with the girl of my dreams
> then this morning my brother’s gf calls me and tells me she had a dream about me (keep in mind I’ve been keeping this all a secret)
She said that I was standing at a crossroads and that I had a map telling me to go right, but I went left and found a lake with a beautiful siren in it and walked into the water until I reached the drop off, then I turned back and went to the cross road again and saw that the right side was walled off
>I don’t really know what to make of this
>I’m stuck in this limbo of pain from everything I fucked up with J and trying to figure this fucking dream out
>I don’t know what to do /b/ I just know that I fucked things up, and that I don’t think that I can fix them
>I fucked things up

>>738831169
>>she says that she thinks that I’m looking for something more serious than she is


you never had a chance my friend

>>738831321
yeah, and that's what's making me feel like a porcupine did the electric slide in my stomach

>>738831169
what a fucking bitch, at least you can get over her now and keep dating, good luck, hoping you don't fuck up and fall for someone that doesn't deserve it again

>>738831536
Thanks man. Fuckin girls, man.

>>738825700
Look up l-tyrosine

>>738825700
wish you the best anon, im going through a rehab program myself and i can see how my life is getting better.

Stopped having contact with my mom and her family when I was 10 (it was my decidion, because i couldn't handle the divorce...) 0 (also didn't see her too often before because they lived seperate since i was 3, weird story) 5 years later I started visiting / talking with her -> she's a complete stranger to me now, i am to her too, didn't see my little sister for over half her life... because of my stupid decidion i broke sth in my mom, in me and above all: in my little sister... i am 18 now, still only visit my mom once every 2-3 months, we still don't know each other too well... The worst decidion I made in my life...

I'm a delusional schizoid and have obsessive love for certain famous people. It's caused lots of depresso in my life bc I'll never have them, and a part of me knows it's very retarded and that doesn't help. my psychopathy worsens by the day and I'm afraid all my various mental disorders besides the delusions and schizo is leading to full psychosis. I feel dumb and cringe. And violent and numb.

>>738833805
have you ever gone to an outpatient program?

have a question. Can someone force themselves to feel gay? I think at least I have been attracted to a guy before but he also looked like my brother who molested me. Idk I'm having very contradictory thoughts about they issue. is there a way to be 100% sure?

>>738833870
I've seen a psychiatrist, neurologist, and went to counseling for a while, I'm on meds but that's about it. I'm just really dissociative nowadays.

>>738822408
lol it's 2017 look her up on social media

>>738812874
>I met a woman at a part time job.
>She's a solid 8/10 imo
>She's married, but she always says shit like "I'm going to get a divorce soon" around me
>eventually get to fuck her for about 6 months
>actually start getting feelings for her like a dumb ass
>she breaks up with me for another guy, and then goes back to her husband
>still have feelings for her, but idk why

Anyone here know the exact point they realized no one liked them? I'll start

> be me in 6th grade
> nearly summer break
> everyone signing yearbooks
> get a few signatures from few friends
> leave yearbook on counter to use bathroom
> when I come back some girl is writing in it
> brief flutter of hope in my heart
> go up and look
> it's a phone number
> say thanks to her
> "wait anon, this is YOUR book?"
> proceeds to scratch out number and shoves book at me
> "dont trick people like that you creep"
> too awkward to explain myself
> leave and sit in the hallway

>>738835183
When I moved away and decided to have a little get together with my 'friends' before I left. Two people came out of the 50 or so that I invited.

>>738836057
similar thing happened at my birthday hangout/gathering in HS, I feel you

Feel like this would be the place to ask if any, but what antidepressants work for you guys? I'm on mirtazapine & they work but I'm not liking the other things they do to me, thinking of switching.

>>738835183
>be me in club last night
>be guy with long hair and shit beard, basically look like your average metalhead weirdo but people think I'm funny and like me and like drinking with me so I have lots of normie friends
>walk over to my friend on the dance floor to say hey and dance with him and shit
>he's talking to two bitchy normie girls
>the kind that think they're too good for anyone and are God's gift to the world
>the take one look at me and screw their faces as if I just said "either of you wanna fuck me then gargle my cum?"
>looked at me as if I wasn't good enough to be in their presence
>excuse me for not being normie enough to be in your presence

I don't know why I keep thinking about it because it doesn't matter in the slightest. One thing I do know is that normie girls in clubs are fucking cunts, not surprising because they were likely the bitchy popular girls at school, but still, women really need to get over themselves

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>>738812874

lesbian problems

>>738813211
You can't
You don't

>>738816639
To be attractive to a girl is to be on your path..sounds cheesy but it works..blow her off when you have the chance..say u dont have time that day..she will be mad/fascinated and will be into you..my girlfriend said to me that she became super into me because i once said to her "i have other business to attend to" and that was it

>>738837920
Women are so screwed up

>>738838122
>woman are wierd
>en /b/
>cumdumbster etc.

>>738838122
They are..indeed..women act on emotions and men on logic..you ca literaly say anything to them as long as it has some emotion to it..dont try to explain logically..just make them feel something..good or bad..as crazy at may sound and they will be into you..why do you think they like the assholes..because they make them feel something even if it.s bad..ticcle them emotionally and you.re set!

Still recovering from massive opiate withdraw. I thought about nothing for so long and what it would be like to die. Isolated and in pain and only having a few pills left, I pretended everything was cool and hung out with some friends of mine. Convinced everyone to do acid that night. One of my friends turned gay and the other said he was going to kill himself. After 10 hours of being coach, I started to loose control of myself and I checked myself into the loonie bin. I am able to sit here and have a beer with you all and enjoy things cause I dipped back in. Nothing is going to get in my way of enjoying life and getting the most out of it.

>>738838240
emotional creature that feed on other peoples emotions or want a handbag for their excessive emotion.

keep going

Bamp

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my dog died today, watching him limp around fucking killed me inside

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recovering from a failed suicide attempt

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I don't no where to turn.
I don't want to be that one person that's always depressed, but I can't keep faking it.
I don't know what to do.

>>738841891
*know, sorry I'm not feeling very good.

Close friend that I met at school killed himself last month without saying a fucking word to me.

a week ago another one of my friend dies in a car accident. People who aren't even close to him are posting self-centered essays on his facebook wall in "remembrance".

don't really have one as bad as the other people here,but hey fuck it. not gonna greentext either cuz i'm shite at it and I purposely don't want people to read this
I always feel depressed at all times of the day unless i'm with my boyfriend. I don't know why i'm depressed, I have no reason to be. Might have something to do with the sleep apnea i've had for years and just got diagnosed with a few months ago. anyways, my boyfriend always asks me if i'm okay. I want to tell him that there's something wrong, that I need some kind of help, but I always remember the one time I actually told him how I was he stayed up all night worrying about me and making sure I was alright. I can't make him feel that way again. Everytime he asks me now, I want to say something but my throat closes and my mind remembers, so I just shut up and say i'm doing good, then change the topic as fast as I can. It hurts to think about him being sad, but at the same time I hurt because I'm always sad. I don't know what to do and i've slept about 2 hours a night for the past week or two, which isn't helping the Sleep Apnea.

>>738831169
The solution is easy: go no contact with J, it's obvious you can't handle your emotions regarding her. Get a girl and cut J off completely.

pls don't die thread

>4 years into wizardry
>born with a fucked up heart condition that i can't do any physical work but not disabled enough to get any welfare
>forced to move with parents when i was 17 to a town in the middle of nowhere where the only jobs are either working on the fields or go to the army
>no friends, dropped off highschool when father died, did several courses but none helped
>mother living off widow welfare or whatever is called, debt growing every month
>suicidal thoughts everyday, life is beyond boring, dull, the one hope i had is that i almost had to get surgery but they called it off.
>really hard to sleep, sleep schedule beyond fucked.
Probably missing a lot more stuff but you get the idea...

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>>738843738
sorry to hear that anon
hope something works out soon