im going to kill myself in a month. what anime should I watch

shameless self bump

Your thoughts?
Imagine your own episodes.
They're into that.

>>738689685
Explain why you're going to kill yourself

Don't kill yourself, you're going to be happy as fuck one day amd it's worth waiting for.

>>738690436
lol
>>738690530
I am going to kill myself because I am the shittiest human being that ever lived. Here is my sitiuation: I have been in college for 3 years(not in murica so college is not a gagilion dollars.but it costs some many) and in those 3 years I have done virtually nothing and I lied about that to my parents,because I thought that I would eventually get my shit together and finish it.Now I know I was expelled for basically failing to much and I am too much of a pussy to tell my parents that,so I will kill myself,I hope everyone hates me cause that's what I deserve

>>738690838
still OP
just give me the darn anime please
im so depressed I cant even finish a post

>>738690901
Death note?

>>738690901
sword art online FIRST (only till he leaves the hospital) then sword art online abridged by something witty entertainment (both on youtube)

the abridged one is so much better but you need to see the original before the abridged will make sense

its legit one of the best abridged out there

>>738689685
House, M.D.

>>738690838
Mate that's one of the dumbest reasons to kys...wouldn't make your parents happier either.

>>738690838
Don't kill yourself because of that you dumb cunt. If you think your parents will be sad because you are failing school then imagine how devastated they would be if they found out that you died. Then you're really going to be a shitty human. You probably live in a first world country with all the normal class luxuries because I doubt that you're poor, while hundreds millions of people go through much worse than what you are going through and they don't think of fucking killing themselves

I am also going to kms this summer. The thought crossed my mind that it'd be nice to play a good vidya or watch a good anime, but when you are depressed entertainment tends to suck. I mean, in the end games and series were never "good." You just see it clearly when depressed.

>>738689685
if you're just gonna end it you could maybe help a poorfag out?

i'm in need of games so help a /b/rother out

http://steamcommunity.com/profiles/76561198080069124/

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>>738689685
Watch Steins;Gate or NHK. You'll get more out of that than most shit out there.

Hope you change your mind OP. We're here for you.

>>738691523
>>738691523
exactly right. I had a brain problem when I was younger and got treated for it with super expensive shit(even in a free hospital country) and survived, I live in perpetual guilt because I just think that ANYONE in my situation,with my inteligence etc. would have done better then me,would have done at least something.

>>738689685
Bleach. You'll want to kill yourself halfway through regardless.

lucky star
ghost stories DUB version
Oregairu
nichijou

Angel beats

>>738690838
Your family will be pretty disappointed in you and how you squandered funds away, but you're their kin, they're not going to hate you or turn you away because of it. Granted you made some very poor choices, but it isn't the end of the world, your family will forgive you. Don't beat yourself up so hard over it. Just choose to work harder and do a lot better in the next venture you take, so you don't repeat these mistakes again and everything will eventually be okay.

>>738691674
thanks man.. but I don't think I will. I don't even feel bad or depressed like what >>738691592
what saying..I just know I need to die,the world is better without me,this is no depression talking nor is it a cry for help, it is my most genuine assessment of the situation of my life.
And I'll go happy

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>>738692434
believing in bait

>>738690838
Now anon, I'd love to see an hero, but isn't this a shitty reason? I mean, I've relied on people all my life, used them, didn't do anything and all that other shit. You could always choose to give up your emotions or give up on giving a fuck, that's what I've been doing

>>738692434
3 years is not a mistake. It is a choice. the problem isn't that I am failing, the problem is the fact that I lied about it.
>>738692762
that's what I do but eventually that game ends and you just get fucked.

Boku

>>738693051
The game only ends when you die, anon. As long as I'm alive I can just fuck around and do random shit. Dying is useless, why would I want to quit this horrible good game? The game never ends till ya want to. Also, music is a great way to keep it going

>>738693280
No pico

>>738693306
The game ends once you stop having people to rely on.

>>738689685
trigun is fun the first time if you already have then nvm

>>738693577
yeah im not an anime expert nor a complete pleb. I've watched the classics and regularly watched at least the most famous shows/the ones that grab my interest the most.

>>738693478
Oh right, I should explain it better. I've relied on people to do my bidding. At this very moment, it's been a few days since I had social contact. Relying on people as in sharing emotions and such is bullshit; nobody needs friends. Ya are better off alone, since only you can trust yourself, right?

>>738690838
What a stupid reason to an hero

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>>738689685
>im going to kill myself

>>738693814
you and I think alike. just wondering if you are younger then me? what are you doing right now?
I feel like my parents will just kick me out if I tell them(even tho...I have no reason to think that lol) and I honestly am not willing to put the effort to get out of that situation,I'd rather just die.

>>738694206
I'm probably younger. As of what I'm doing right now, getting paranoid because my left eye is seeing the shadows move while trying to keep calm. I need another cup of coffee

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Don't do it man. If you want help, I've heard 3D Alice will help.
Here's her email.
[email protected]

>>738689685
why in a month?

>>738694406
I meant what are you doing as in college? highschool?
>>738694502
it's when It will become inevitable to keep the charade that is my life.

>>738694609
Mhm, I'm not sure on what thingy I am in English terms. Have you tried losing touch with reality?

>>738694502
>>738694609

oke just wondering .... you know people pretend and fake and charade all there lifes ...

you fall people talk about you get mad ... forget and you do it all over again.

killing your self sutch a hassle

Gakkou gurashi
Needless
Baccano

>>738694773
age?

>>738694874
Mehehehehe, age I always keep a secret

>>738694773
realy dude ... thats your awncer ... think losing grip on reality not his problem ... its what got him in this mess in the first place

>>738694817
who would give me shelter for free if not my parents tho. This is a mixture of self-hatred and lack of motivation tbh

>>738694938
-+ its so we know what your in

>>738689685
no fucking way man you cant die until the next snk season 3 end wtf man

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I did the same thing, yet I AM in Ameriderp, so I DO owe a gajillion dollars. You can basically keep paying just a little bit of the loan every month for the rest of your life, it's no big deal. The only hard part is telling your parents.

JUST DO IT (Tell your parents, not kys)

>>738695038
yeah i know been there done that even lived in a tent ... it all be fine in the end ... get a sugar mommy

>>738690838
Good reason. Make sure the world knows the reason so some meaningful change can come about such that the next guy doesn't kill himself.

>>738689685
Blue Literature Series
good for your mood

>>738695006
Now anon, I am baffled. When I lost touch with reality, all my problems, pains and dreams went away. For me, it worked.

>>738695065
I'd say... below 25 but legal

>>738695098
I'm actually really sad that I will never see no game no life season 2...loli and echii garbage aside I honestly think that anime was fucking amazing...
>>738695185
no one would be as autistic as myself.
>>738695357
maybe you haven't reached the point where you charade ends.

>>738695464
Could you tell me what a charade is? My mind isn't helping me remembering words.

>>738690838
So it's easier to kill yourself than simply confessing to your parents that you're struggling.

Well, with that kind of mindset you might as well just kill yourself now. Why wait?

>>738695464
>no one would be as autistic as myself.
So you'd rather more people follow you to your grave.

Sounds kinda like school shooter mentality. Have you thought about shooting up your school?

humans not made to be alone...some animals have brains set on single life ... but humans are not wired to be alone ....they did endless studys in jails.

i know when you'r mad yelling you dont need anyone helps , but in the and you need a little love.

i am old 40+ and i worked in a retirement home for years ... people can accualy die from being alone ... you see there brains degrade when they lose there loved ones .... the right persone compleets you lifts you up.

it does not gave to be your gf bf it can be a best friend to ....and even the ones yelling in here "I DONT NEED PEOPLE" they not reeding a book they online talking chatting posting for atention.

>>738695633
I replied to that already.
but it's not admitting im struggling, it's that I've been lying to them all my life.

>>738695859
>i am old 40+
I could swear based on your writing that you were merely 12.

>>738695357
oke collage

>>738695884
You do realize that still is nothing compared to death, right?

>>738695263
and than you came back with 3x the problems awating for you

>>738695859
This grammar killed me. Anyway, dying from being alone? I can see how some people could do that, but come on, not everyone is like that. After my ~10th birthday I've been wanting to be alone and the only times I remember that I was happy was when I was alone. I don't see mr dying from loneliness later

>>738695884
my kids lie to me all the time haha its what they do


you azian??

>>738695839
what?
>>738695859
well man I do have alot of freinds, I've gotten a decent amout of pussy and I lead a great life in every department except on what I mentioned. sadly I fucked up to bad.
>>738696152
this is what happens.

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OP, why not just fucking skip town or something if you think it's not going to end well? Ending it all is some serious pussy shit. Get a job, live with your parents, and do whatever it is you enjoy. No one gives a shit about all the anonymous melodrama prevalent here. If you kill yourself than it won't affect me or anyone else on here in the slightest. Do whatever the fuck you want, but only if that's what you *want*.

>I treasure "Toradora!"

>>738696152
I never came back, ehe, is that so hard to understand?

>>738696007
Welp, thankya

>>738696236
yeah im sorry i found out that my english realy suckes when i dont have auto correct... i live in amsterdam english not my native tounge its 3 at night and im stoned as fucxk .... i see all my typos ... but im in a state of i dont give a fuck anymore to retype it sorry

>>738696268
>what?
I asked you to clarify why you're killing yourself to the world so that the system might improve and prevent another who could find himself in your position.

Your response implied you didn't give a shit.

Hence you want people to follow you to your grave.

>>738696442
Well fuck I'm in the Netherlands too. But English is kinda my first language nowadays, weirdly enough

>>738696109
I replied to that aswell anon
>>738696285
like I said I am killing myself because I hate what I did and think I deserve to die for it,but also because I lack motivation to change at all.
That's life if you don't change,you lose and I am terrified of change.

>>738696268
just skipp town go offgrid and start over

>>738696268
>well man I do have alot of freinds, I've gotten a decent amout of pussy and I lead a great life in every department except on what I mentioned. sadly I fucked up to bad.
The humanity.

>>738689685
You know ive had such suicide thoughts to and atempted it multiply times. Fact of the day killing yourself is harder as you think.
Also making wrong decision is a part of live.
So you spend 3 years in College and now you will droppout. People wont judge you that you had at least tried it for so long. that shows that you care. you wouldnt lie to your parrents if you wouldnt care about them. you are jugding yourself harder than you should.
well college didnt work ? get a job then .
there is more than 1 way to get along.
and many times talking to someone the thruth
helps more than swallow it.
what do you think is better:
Eating a badly cooked meal
or
Take a bite and say that its badly cooked.
for my part i would never eat a badly cooked meal thats for sure.
sure killing yourself is an option
but the question is CAN you kill yourself .
trust me it is harder than it sound.
first you will think about all the bad stuff
and you will think you doit
but then a force inside you will stop you
and you will see what matters to you.
if you reach this point. follow the call

>>738696535
no I don't. Life is great I the amount of albums that I will leave unheard,movies unseen,pussy unfucked....sad really

>>738696577
>I replied to that aswell anon
At least link the reply then, faggot.

>>738696577
Not giving a fuck or thinking and losing touch with reality is the best way to cope with it, it's just doing even less stuff (for me). Also, are you afraid of losing?

Watch suicide club (its a movie) and really think about if you wanna kill yourself

>>738696575
yeah ... even the kids prefer english ....you know your fam spends to much time on the net if your native lang changes to english

>>738696268
>>738696606
Thread theme:
https://youtu.be/QuNhTLVgV2Y

>>738689685
why delaying tactics OP? KYS today or shut the fuck up

>>738696857
get out xDDD

>>738696785
losing what?
>>738696813
will do.

Oh no, you discovered you're human and can make mistake. Woe art thou who cannot live up to perfection.

Accept your flaws and move on.

>>738696818
Meh, I grew up with English as a second language, but I use it more than Dutch. I think it, write in it, the only time when I use Dutch is when I'm speaking since my pronunciation is shit

unless your azian or muslim you be just fine

>>738697038
to call this a flaw is an understatement. it's not that I am imperfect. It's that I am just utter garbage. I should have died

>>738697050
nice you sound like a dutch man talking :)

>>738697005
In your last post ya wrote: That's life if you don't change, you lose and I am afraid of change
The, you lose, part

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>>738696577
That's not it. You're so incapable of showing humility and compassion for your parents that you'd rather end your own life instead of confess to them and beg for their forgiveness. It makes absolutely no sense to me that you'd kill yourself because you hurt your parents when in reality killing yourself is one of the things that would hurt them the most. Man the fuck up you pathetic, melodramatic leech.

>>738690748
fuk off

>>738697192
you think to much.. we trying to have him think less

>>738697124
So you're telling me you're literally Hitler?

>>738696857

this one is better
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Oa-ae6_okmg

>>738697174
Welp, thankya

>>738697274
hitler did nuffing wrong

>>738689685
NHK, and Serial Experiments Lain

God bless, bro

>>738697273
But anon, thinking is the only fun thing to do without reality~
And he's normal right now, he's won't suffer more or less

>>738697192
oh I meant you lose as an expression,you "lose" what ever you had before you failed to change.
>>738697218
If it were my kid I wouldn't be hurt. I'd hate the piece of shit,like I hope they hate me.

If you haven't seen the original Berserk anime, do that.

>>738689685
i have an good anime for you
My little pony: Friendship is magic

>>738697782
jo that shit is dope

>>738697717
Well, if ya choose to lose touch with reality, ya have to never go back, otherwise you'll only get regrets and so on. I mean, I started this when I was young

i know the feeling of wanting to die, i live the NEET life because i'm pretty useless.. i hate that fact that i can't live life or go to a normal school because i'm too mentally ill to function.. i have many times really said to myself, that i'm just gonna give up.. but dude it ain't worth giving up.. i still feel awful, but i still see the things that should keep me going.. even if it's a little thing in a giant pile of shit, focus on the little happy thing.. i hold on to the smallest piece of hope that things are gonna be al right, even tho i know inside it's not.. but it gets me keep going.. idk if this helps, but OP, you can do it, don't give up :)

>>738697717
>If it were my kid I wouldn't be hurt.
That's scientifically unsound. When you become a parent, your brain goes through a dramatic change which can even be observed on a structural level.

Unconditional love is just that; unconditional.

>>738697910
I fucking hate kids, but if I ever got a child, I couldn't hate it.

>>738697893
I don't wanna die. I just have/deserve to. Like I said I am not depressed,my life is/was great. friends, I listen to great music and watch great films, I had my sex life
>>738697910
this is BS. Nothing changes in your brain.

>>738698187
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parental_brain
https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/20832872

Facts are true regardless what you wish those facts were. If you can't handle that, kill yourself. Wait...

>>738698187
Please, tell me you're joking

>>738698187
yeah.. i feel like i'm just a waste because what people have to do for me.. if i do the smallest mistake, i feel way worse than i should.. i can't talk to many people about how i feel because it would just be a waste of their time.. and the only way i would make life easier for them, and make myself stop fucking everything up, is to die... it's hard OP.. but keep living.. there is many great things i would have missed if i killed myself long ago.. but also many things that would have been better..

>>738689685
>>738698307
>>738698307
>>738698307

>>738698577
Why?

>>738689685
you won't kill yourself
you don't have the cold blood that it requires

>>738698547
if I could I would give you my life.sorry.
>>738698697
you must be some kind of light .

>>738689685
Initial D

>>738698451
>maternal

>>738698947
There's an entire section for paternal there too you blind fuck. Also, take this:
http://www.tandfonline.com/doi/abs/10.1080/17470919.2014.933713?journalCode=psns20&#.U8fiJFYYywE

I will reiterate. Facts are facts, they don't care about your feelings. Deal with it.

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>>738689685
You're not gonna kill yourself in a month. Too much time to think about it and bail at the last minute.

>>738689685
Seen clannad?

>>738698837
dude, i'm sure things can be better.. talk with your parents and tell them how bad you felt about it.. you don't sound like a bad person tbh..

>>738699273
I don't get how you'd think you can tell just because of these crappy things.
Truth is no person with a decent brain would do what I did for so long. I mean I understand fucking up a semester or 2 and covering it up but 3 years...man that's just... fucked
>>738699167
BS. neuro-science isn't like physics you moron.

>>738699545
>BS. neuro-science isn't like physics you moron.
So you're saying you're a science denialist. Whatever. It won't change the facts.

>>738699545
you just seem like you care about other people and you feel bad for the things you have done.. but true, idk who or what kind of person you are.. but you seem like a person who deserve to live, and can be truly happy and all again some day ^^

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1.Please don't kill yourself. Failing out of college isn't the worse thing ever chances are whatever major you chose isn't hiring anyway. Believe me you can get a really high paying career without college. Also workout and get in shape you'd be surprised how much more attractive you'll get just by not carrying around extra weight around ur face and then you'll get laid a lot.

>2.Anime
Gurren laggann is on netflix its the best anime ever made
>Black butler is cool
>Deathnote obv
>assassination classroom
>gungrave
>sword art online
>fairytale
>saga of tanya the evil
>kill la kill

>>738699724
No. what I am saying is neuro-science is still taking it's baby steps and most of what exists of it will likely change radically in the next 10-20 years.
People used to think atoms were the smallest particle, that the earth was round and even that time was absolute.

>>738699973
Holy shit, are you telling me 2+2=5 in the next 10 years? WHY DIDN'T ANYONE TELL ME!?

>>738699897
that's not enough imo.
>>738699908
love GL aswel.l already work out and get laid. I'm still going to do it. thanks for the recs tho

>>738700178
Actually, you Fucking retard, it's 6

>>738700178
>maths
>neuroscience
but man I really don't give a shit about any of that.

>>738699545
What are you talking about. People do this shit for life.. any fuvking job anywhere in the world you will see people fucking is costanly and covering their arses. I've seen it so much I'm used to it. It's the way the world works people pretend not to see it and the days just go on.

Put on your tin foil hat.

This is because to do otherwise is to incentivize leaving the system. They want you so bad to want money etc that they will give it to you if you don't have any. Money = prison bars/control. That's why people just put up with incompetence. And the height of that is found in politics...

So chill out so you fucked up its not the end of the world, you didn't kill anyone so that's a plus.

What you need to relies is while you are alive you can make changes and better yourself take small steps. Watch some Jordan b Peterson or something.

>>738689685
>that pic
>that comment
and nothing of value was lost

>>738699545
Neuroscience is applied physics. I went through and am trying to recover from a similar situation, where I fucked my academic life over (had multiple 0s in classes because I was too depressed and scared of facing my shit gpa to make myself go to class) over the past year, and my parents were very dissappointed. But I note that I am recovering since in the long run this was just a minor setback - a lack of motivation can be turned around easily - school doesnt represent your talents, just get an entry level job that doesnt need a degree - putting "some college" on a resume definitely helps, and earning money that way is a much more productive way to make amends with the guilt you feel than killing yourself dude. They're only disappointed since they know you can do better - so do better - and if you can't, killing yourself is the last thing they would want.

>>738700223
no prob i hope you dont kill yourself though. Gurren laggann gives me hope

Anime lol. Nothing of value lost

>>738700446
Not just but also.

I'm going to bed right now,thank you guys so much I took note of all animes I hadnt seen before. seeya never.

>>738700446
Fuck I forgot, I highly recommend ping pong the animation
>>738700852
Goodnight /b/ro

>>738700223
probably not :/ but you gotta focus on the good things man.. don't kill yourself OP.. just don't..

>>738689685

why the fuck not.

>>738699973
Even if it's a relatively young field it doesn't mean that many facts won't remain. And one of those facts are that there are obvious, dramatic, and measurable differences between the pre-parental brain and the post-parental brain.

Either way, you'd have to be a retard not to accept the facts we have so far and only revise them in light of new evidence.

So...

Kys.