>Crush/best friend is aromantic and lives on the other side

Are you a virgin and/or kissless?

>>738031910
Yep and yep. Honestly trying to think of a reason I shouldn't kill myself. Then I'm reminded I can't even do it if I wanted to

>>738031422
Talked to a psychologist yet?

>>738032550
Nope. Talked to my counsellors at uni who recommended I talk to my GP and get professionally tested. Went to the GP who said he's suspected I had depression from a young age (he's been our GP for about 16 years now) and prescribed anti-depressants. He said if I were to get tested, it would either be hundreds out of my pocket or the gov can pay for it but it'll leave a mark on my medical record that employers can pull up.
>also forgot to mention Asperger's

>>738031422
lol faggot

aromantic/asexual people are:
A.) Autistic
B.) Can't deal with rejecting someone
C.) Using an excuse to not be with you.

There was never a chance, OP. Go to a bar or something. Take some viagra. Or extenze.

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>>738032662
Did the medication work? Would you actually be willing to change something (yourself) now, if it would be possible?

>>738032699
It's not the first 2 but I suspected the third to be honest. Probably not. I trust her enough to tell me the truth about everything.

>>738032677
Forgot to mention I'm pan so you're not wrong

>>738032939
I felt nothing other than the side effects. When I didn't take them for 2 days, my body would randomly... I don't know how to explain it but basically my body would feel like it would pump. Heart did a big beat, eyes felt like pupils expanded rapidly for a split second, and hearing ringed. I had high hopes for the meds.

Mum also wanted me off them. Would tell me daily I didn't need them and convinced me to get off them. Not taking anything at the moment.

>>738031422
Seems like the world would be better off if you reduced your carbon footprint to zero. I agree, seems edgy. But then again, I don't give a shit. You should always calculate a percentage of the population who will not care how difficult the world is for you, that this list of reasons supporting a much forgone conclusion of suicide, is literally a waste of everyone's time and no one really cares. The sooner you can do that, the easier it will be to accept your fate.

>>738034132
>too scared to kms
>you should kys

>>738034283
You're not very bright, are you?

>>738034132
>>738034283
cont.
I know this. Trust me. I hate how useless I am, but I also hate what this world's becoming. I want out but I'm too scared. I can't even bring myself to slash my skin despite having razors up to it several times.

>>738031422

I was a kissless virgin until I was 23. 30 now and considered hot by most women in my area, and I didn't even work out. Just cleaned myself up and fixed my social skills.

It doesn't fucking matter. Fix it.

>>738034464
I'd say the same for you. Did you not read after the first 2 points in OP?
>not smart
>no talents
No, I'm not bright.

>>738031422
smoke a shitton of weed and adopt a dog. Go to the park with the doggo, walk the dogo, know people that your doggo sniffs or w.e always be chill about it don't push it or you'll look like a pervert/wierd using the doggo.

and I repeat, adopt. don't buy a doggo, you'll be surprised how much both lifes will change to a better one.

>>738031422
really hope you get out of that hole OP. Hang in there.

>>738034565
We have a doggo. Dad's friend is a vet. His assistant had pups and couldn't house/give them away since no one wanted them. Asks if we wanted a pupper. Get pupper free of charge (would have been put down otherwise), gives him all shots at 96% off as well as free treats and accessories. I've got a bunch of friends and they love my doggo, but I just can't trust any of them due to my asperger's.

>>738034712
Thank you so much, mate. I know we're just randoms but it really means a lot when people on a board known for its hate give kind words.

>>738034564
Sigh...no, bc I don't care. I stopped reading after the part about you having a crush on some gender confused degenerate and figured you wanted to kys but are to chickenshit to actually do it. It doesn't change anything, you're useless so you have two choices. Stop being useless. Or stop breathing.

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>>738031422
my life is still shit but there's always hope.
you can do it bro. i'd say focus on yourself instead of others until there's an opportunity you want to take. hell i have a gf and some pocket change now but i'm still depressed. imo life is not worth stressing over other people.

Stay strong bud. You don't have to go to gym and get ripped to find a girl, just start to go out more with friends, slightly cut back on food, get nice clothes and take care of your self-hygiene. It's never too late to change yourself / your lifestyle, I wish you the best :)

>>738035434
>raging at a random probably across the world about something nothing to do with them
Talk about useless...

>>738035534
Yeah mate I tend to not give a shit about other but that's really hard when I don't have money to even support myself.

>>738035583
Eh to be honest, I'm not really looking for a girl at this point. I'm just trying to find a job and have a source of income. I wanna focus on my car and feel useful but it's fucking hard with no money, y'know? Thanks for the kind words, dude.

>>738031422
at least you aren't short

>>738035749
5"11 ish? Taller than most of my mates/most of the girls I know.

You gotta wonder about two kinds of people. Those who buy into gender being "fluid", and grown men who drive a Mini Cooper. These are strange times we live in.

>>738035892
Drive a 2000 Hyundai Tiburon. Thinking of putting a 2zj in it. I get that it's weird and shit to you, but if you were in their shoes, I'd imagine not being confined to 1 of 2 things would be a great relief for you. I say just let them be but that's just me.

>>738035698
The only rage you detect is yours my friend. Mine is that of apathy.

>>738035983
>apathy
>still in thread
Idk...

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>>738031422
>Crush/best friend is aromantic and lives on the other side of the world with no chance of being with me
>small dick
>premature
>no gf ever
>jobless
>unhireable
>no memory (will forget things almost immediately if I'm not constantly thinking about it)
>severe depression
>severe anxiety
>failing uni
>not fat but chubby (getting there)
>not smart
>no talents
>no hobbies
>too scared to kms
>35 years old

But I think I already killed myself. I told her I would neglect my health so that I would die, and that was years ago. Turns out I'm developing a heart condition now.

>>738036056
Add this to the list: fucking acne literally destroyed my face. Like the surface of the moon with it's holes.

>>738035980
No, that I get. The tiburon is what later became the genesis, which isn't a bad ride per se. I'm not sure I fully understand why you would put a Supra motor in it, but people need hobbies I guess. It isn't that I think there are only two kinds of people, just two I wonder about.

>>738036053
You can be apathetic and still accomplish a great many things, my dude.

>>738036056
That sucks man. I'm really sorry. I've been neglecting my health for the same reason.
I hope something comes up that'll steer your life for the better. I honestly do.

>>738036360
I bought the car with a custom body kit and interior. Not a fan of how slow it is. Was thinking of putting a 4g63t in it till someone suggested the 2zj. And fair enough.

>>738031422
>Just finishing up Uni
>Have a well paid part-time job
>Have a loving girlfriend
>Have a pretty good family
>Be fucking miserable all the time and hate life for no rhyme or reason.

Least you know why you feel like that

>>738038006
Trying getting into a hobby? I'd love to have the money to be able to fuck around with my car but I can't. Find something you're interested in and find a way to elongate it.

>>738031422
Go workout and eat clean OP, you will terminate some of the things you listed at once.


:small dick will appear larger
:depression will slowly fade
:your anxiety will fade
:you will have a hobby
:you will not be chubby
:memory will improve

just fucking do it. In one year you will be a total different person. And along that year you will have the joy of seeing results one step at a time.

>>738038512
>Memory will improve
That an actual thing? Been looking for ways to improve it.
Also won't solve being premature. I get there's meds and shit out there for it but to what extent do they work

>>738038919
I've read scientific articles on it. Lack of exercise and lack of sleep can fuck up your memory.

>>738039819
I knew sleep and exercise but I always imagined exercise being jogging in open air. I'll start leeching off my brother's gym membership and start dieting. Any other tips? Genuine question which I'll take on board.

>>738031422
End your life, you failure.

>>738040115
We all know you will consider it, but won't actually do it :)

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I live in a world with two sides. Or i work fulltime as a software programmer, and smoke fulltime weed/parties with friends. Good childhood, good schools, never bullied. etc.

Or i'm a depressed, anxieties fool who wants to kill himself. I fucking hate this world and all the people in it. Wish i would just cut my hand of to see what would happen next.
I dunno probably gonna kill myself one day, but first let me finish up all this cash fuck yea.

>>738033494
The meds take weeks to work.

You won't die, some people fucking vomit profusely due to the meds work.

You'll be fine, anything takes suffering to work through.

Stay off the prescription drugs, most of you young yanks are being used as guinea pigs for chemical companies. Aspergas,ADHD,CPD,DHD or whatever the fuck the 'doctor/psychiatrist' can get you to believe you have are 99% bollocks, why do so few youngsters in other countries have all that depressive shit yet america is filled with them? As for your situation, stop the anti-[insert condition] shite, eat low carb foods for a year, get a hobbie or 10 and stop worrying about what everyone else thinks is the 'right way to live'.

>>738040577
Nah I know. I took them for months but they didn't really do a thing.

>>738038512
This!!

The newb gains and weight loss from starting out will give you a massive confidence boost as well. You will start noticing the difference within the first 30 days or so. Like I said, newb gains, but a real confidence booster.

>>738031422
i dont get it OP. you sound like quite a catch

>>738032367
you really shouldnt try to kill yourself, it would probably be best for you, but with your luck, you will end up alive with permanent brain damage.
good luck getting better though, you never know, especially if you are still this young.

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>>738031422
Welcome to our club, son.

>>738041355
Maybe you have ADHD? Anxiety, shit memory, depression are all co-morbid or symptoms of ADHD. Try some pure amphetamines like aderall or base.

Its concentrated focus and motivation in powder form. You will feel the need to get up and go exercise, be productive, find a job, find a girl, talk to people. Everything that you know you should be doing but for whatever reason can't seem to force yourself to do.

Obviously research it first and realise it might not be the answer. Its worth a try. But these disorders are real and it becomes pretty clear if you spend 10 minutes looking into the research about them.

Also I know on the NHS to see a psychiatrist it takes at least 8 months to a year, which is disgusting. So get your medicine through the dark web if you have to.

why is being a sad loser like a competition on here? Every time I see one of these threads it's like they are trying to top the last one.

>>738031422
>crush/best friend is arromatic

Fixed it for you OP

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>>738031422
You know who's my crush
Gal Gadot
I don't live in America or isreal so my chances of meeting her is next to zero but I haven't lost hope and vowed to meet her you should do the same