Sometimes I really hate myself. Pedo AMA, tell your story, tell

what did you do?

>>735562796
You probably did something
just confess already

>>735562988
Just keep telling myself I'm done with the cheesy stuff, then I go right back.

The minute that nut busts, the reality that I am a failure falls right back in.

>>735562796
Have you molested any children?

If not, then you shouldn't feel bad for having a sexual attraction

Well lets get the FBI in here and they can help you out with a program called prison my man.

>>735563149
No, but see >>735563148

I keep losing the struggle and it's harder to live with myself each time.

Just fess up op
Everyone has a slightly pedo-ish story
I would fondle my little cousin in her sleep when we were kids
I still fap thinking about it

There is nothing wrong with being sexually attracted to minors

>>735563262
But you were a kid too

>>735563323
Kek

If u have urges to fuck kids go kill urself, im dead serious thats the only thing that will work, im 100% kys now u are the worst kinda scum

>>735563236
Loli/shota or actual child porn?

>>735563445
>the cheesy stuff
make an educated guess

>>735563148
You can live life with out having to actually do anything with kids or young girls or boys. Just find someone who you get along with and can be sexual with. You'll eventually realize that you dont need it.

>>735563409
Im sure you jerk off to gore

>>735563615
No i dont actually im nkt into gore but i am into pedos commiting suicide bc thats what they deserve

just got out of jail on a potential conviction for "child sex abuse"" ama too i guess

I don't know why pedos are hated but gays are just praised.
It should be either hate both or allow both.

get a new fetish

>>735563262
Nah, I really don't have one. I chased girls around the playground and kissed them in elementary school, but it wasn't really sexual. In adolescence I tried to cop feels on older women. I've never actually done anything for sexual gratification with a child now that I'm older.

>>735563445
Cartoons don't appeal to me in the slightest.

>>735563409
I don't have urges to violate a child, but there's the "KYS" I was looking for.

>>735563535
Yeah probably. I always find the strongest urge to view such things and masturbate when I'm alone. I'd love to have someone in life I can lean on.

>>735563769
It's not quite the same

>>735563409
I'm planning on doing this, but before that I want to make my fantasies reality and fullfill all my urges until my dick hurts, and maybe take my victims with me, because why not lol.

>>735563262
>Everyone

Go fuck yourself pedo scum.

>>735563769
Bc being gay is consenting adults, raping a child is way diffrent and all pedos should be rounded up and tortured to death

>>735563732
Would be quite hot. OP can you kill yoruslef on camera? Pedo's are very sick in the head and it's a disease that cannot be reversed. No matter how much therapy you might try I think you are better off going the an hero route on live stream.

>>735563851
You touched your own dick when you were younger
go fuck yourself pedo scum.

>>735562796
You've got a mental illness society doesn't recognize yet man. Hang in there dude.

>>735563850
Might as well turn yourself in now. Don't bring anyone else down with you because you are a mentally ill tard.

>>735563962
You were talking about touching kids that aren't yourself. Of course every kid touches themselves .Funny how pedos always try and justify their disgusting behavior.

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>>735564120
i'm not >>735563262

>>735563835
I agree with this. It's not the same at all.

>>735563959
I would not go out on a live stream even if I killed myself. Also, I'd like to do something positive with my life for my family before I die...and it looks like I may never do anything right.

>>735563850
Hearing shit like that, even if it is 0% serious, it makes me feel sick.

>>735562796
You should consider the fact that your life will be 10x worse if you end up in jail or prison for this shit. The worst of the worst people all confined to a concrete nightmare will want to kill you. You are and will be considered the worst type of criminal. Even the guards will make sure everyone knows you are a pedo.

>>735563751
Spill the story

>>735564048
You hate me, everyone hates me and wants me death, so why should I be good to anyone else? Fuck it, i'll kill myself but I wont make it pretty or happy for everyone else.

>>735564293
Yeah, I think about that. Tbh, the consequence that scares me the mos is losing my family though. I already feel so isolated from them because of this part of my life I don't share that eats me up inside. To completely lose the only happiness I have in life, that's why I hate myself for being so weak.

>>735562796
People don't pick their sexual orientation. Understandably pedophiles are hated, but keep in mind there are many factors that play into a persons psyche.

>>735564404
had a friends daughter say ï touch her there"in regards to her cooch when asked by mom "which is true kinda"and i got arrested on "probable cause"cause thats all they need to throw you in the fucking brig and just recently got put out on release till they decide what to do with me i guess.

>>735563850
and that's what happens when pedos get alienated by society. why give a fuck about what happens to anyone else when everyone hates you?

this guy is an example of basically how most pedos will end up if things don't improve. makes me not want to have kids.

>>735564613
>People don't pick their sexual orientation
o·ri·en·ta·tion
ˌôrēənˈtāSH(ə)n/
noun
the relative physical position or direction of something.
>Implying we walk in random directions and hope we get where we want to go.

>>735563966
But an illness implies it is treatable. Is it really? Can the will to beat it actually be put inside me somehow?

I mean this with all honesty and as respectful as i can to a freak like you... u will only get worse till u hurt innocent children and their families with ur sickness, there is no cure and wont ever be, do yourself and the world a favor and kill yourself tonight. Im sorry u are who u are but u need to die before u hurt someone maybe u will find peace in death. Plz go do it now

>>735563769
And theres the pedo=gay dumbass that was bound to show up

>>735564528
Dude I want to kill myself too but if I ever actually did go through with it it makes 0 sense to take anyone else. Just because they are living happy and normal lives doesn't mean we should be jealous or angry. You would ruin not just that life but all of the families connected as well. Not a pedo though so maybe that's it.

>>735564810
OP here. Do you really think we'll all end up this way? So what if society in general doesn't care to understand or hate me? I have no desire to become that way myself, it will just be another reason to hate myself.

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>>735562796
With all of the empathy i can possibly send to you over the internet, i hear you. I'm the same. Life has always been pain. I've had the loaded gun to my temple, but i couldn't bring myself to shoot. If you feel like that's what you need to do that's fine, i firmly believe that it's every man's right to die on his own terms. But your post here tells me that your heart isn't in it. While our capacity to handle can be very great, our capacity for empathy and love is greater. Only when you suffer like we have can you appreciate the depth of humanity. This might make sense to you, i don't know, it might sounds like horse shit. I've found plenty of ways to compartmentalize my pain and my life is a struggle to have the strength to accept myself. The greatest thing I've taken away is that whatever we are, it's supposed to be. We exist in nature, and anything that exists in nature can't be completely "good" or "evil". It just is. Listening to the talks of Alan Watts really helped me develop my perspective on realty, and helped me start on the path to acceptance. Eastern philosophy has done amazing things for me. Just know that your are not alone in your suffering, and the more you struggle the better chance you have to find someone whom you can express the pain, or to make yourself into a person you can love despite what seed nature has planted in us. The only thing we have is our will.

>>735563915
Look anon, I know you're a summerfag from reddit, but I think I can spare you this super rare, hard to grow fuck, and fix your sentence

>Bc being gay is bwtewwn consenting adults, raping a child is way diffrent and all jews, niggers, and fags should be rounded up and tortured to death.

>>735564257
>Your mom will never be a big potato chip

>>735562796
I mean maybe be more conscious on how you acquire it and how you can get caught eventually, or is it that easy for you to indulge without that fear overtaking you?

>>735565172
*Harm not handle

>>735564756
>Which is true kinda
Nigga wat.

>>735564834
I dont know how to respond to this stupidity

>>735564921
Whatever treatment some doc will cook up will probably be to curb urges and make you feel funny but as long as you're not diddling kids feeling a little off probably won't be so bad.

>>735562796
>>735565172
Also OP everything everybody else is saying in this thread is complete bullshit. They have no idea, no imaginable concept of what we do through. Listen to their words but take every word with the understanding that they live in a different reality.

>>735565126
You ser, that's what pisses me off, somehow it's ok that everyone wants me tortured and dead un the worst ways for something I didn't ask to, but then I AM the one who has to "think about the children and the families"
Fuck that.

>>735565172
>This might make sense to you, i don't know, it might sounds like horse shit.
It totally makes sense anon.

>>735565351
Honestly, the fear is little deterrent. I have actually gotten less secure over time. I think that it's due to the fact that part of me feels I deserve to be punished, even though it will only wreck my life even more. When I get that feeling in my gut that I need to indulge, it usually wins rather quickly.

All of you are short-sighted, weak-willed fools.
Society is limited and we are all strangulated by its confines. No one escapes its cruel and uncaring grip. The laws we're bound by only serve to cause more harm than to protect. It forces adults and children alike to become weak victims to those who are driven to act in desperation or in sheer malice.

You are all being controlled by laws you don't understand, not for lack of trying, but for the reason that they aren't made through any logic. All the systems humans have put in place only serve to hurt humanity, perhaps by design to reroute power and control to the few, but perhaps not by design and only through the certainty that is human error and cruelty.

>>735564810
>>735565148
Society is unfeeling arbitration. Humanity is nothing but endless flaws and hatred. You can only trust what you are and what you believe in. If you are a pedophile and you believe in children, take solace in that. It is ALL you can do to ensure that you don't invite more pain and suffering into this already hellish system.

>>735565172
I don't believe the seed planted in you is meant to cause harm. Social structure is at fault. It suppresses ideals that are different until they act out in violence or desperation or sheer malice in retaliation. You and those you love only need the right circumstances and environment to let your way of life flourish. It's too bad that no such environment exists on this planet.

>>735565389
i did it kinda i put my hands on her but thats all and i never tried to finger her or anything just simply put my hand on her for the enjoyment of having the touch

>>735565722
Never be afraid of change by force. Eject your current lifestyle. Put yourself in a situation where you stay completely fresh. I'm about to move across the country and love it if my car for the chance to be in a place where i feel i have the space and build the spiritual reserve to love myself. I'm getting rid of nearly everything i have and going far away from all of my family, but i know that my life and mind will never change or heal if i stay here. Don't be afraid.

>>735565845
A child cant consent to sex thats not a man made ideal, its common fucking sense you twat ur prob a chomo urself

>>735565715
No it's not ok that they say they want you dead. They have the same standard reaction people have had towards misunderstood groups since the beginning of time. It comes from a place of ignorance.

Ignore everyone supporting u here, they are other pedos, listen to a person who is right in the head enough to not rape kids, KYS

>>735562796
>Sometimes I really hate myself
You're weak.

You shouldn't hate yourself for liking what you do, you should hate yourself for allowing other people's opinions about you, to rule over your life.

If you are not doing anything wrong to anybody, there's no reason for you to apologize.

>>735566012
*Live out of

Well yeah I'm a phoneposter obviously, but please consider my words. The only healing will come from within and sometimes it takes a complete reconstruction of yourself to do it. At least it's now interesting to gamble on that than just to end it eh?

>>735566110
Killing people who did nothing is wrong, like blacks gays etc killing pedos is right

>>735565715
If they know you're a pedo then I wouldn't be surprised. You can't go around fucking little kids and expect people to be cool with it. Still you're an even bigger piece of shit if you want to take other people with you because you're sad and lonely. I'm sad and lonely with no friends and I'm still not that big of a douche.